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I Am Rebuilding Myself

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    I am under construction.

    Tough to admit because part of me just wants to move on with my life already, but I know I'm not there yet. I need to rebuild myself, heal, and ground myself before I'm ready. For those not up on my back story - here's the short and dirty. My marriage began collapsing in the...
    deepbreathneeded deepbreathneeded 36-40, M 3 Responses Nov 28, 2015

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      I had to retire from the 101st Abn

    (Air Assault) after Desert Storm due to a bad neck, I couldn't wear a protective cover (helmet, for all you old timers - Big grin!) and had to find work quick.  Since I've been driving since I was 10 (tractors since 7 and my first 18 wheeler at 14, workin' on a farm, you...
    JamesLamar JamesLamar 61-65, M Sep 17, 2015

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    Sunrise13 Sunrise13 36-40, F 13 Responses Sep 26, 2015

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    I'm reaching the conclusion of the custody

    battle which has consumed my life for the last eighteen months. I will soon have time to fill when my daughters are with their father. Tonight is the second weekend without them. I miss them like crazy but tonight inside of crying I went to a meet-up at a restaurant. It was fun...
    Sunrise13 Sunrise13 36-40, F 6 Responses Jun 6, 2015

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    Changes

    So much has changed with me this past year, and I feel the biggest is yet to come. I reached a point in my life where I could fall no further, lose any more hope. So rock bottom shall be the foundation I build my life firmly upon. I don't know where I'm going from here, or even...
    truenight99 truenight99 26-30, M Nov 26, 2013

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    I am definitely rebuilding myself.

    2015 has been one of the worst years of my life. From the loss of a longterm relationship to the loss of several friends. Taking time to rebuild me to a better person for myself and more importantly for my kids.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 13, 2015

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    A year ago I sat on a train following the same

    route just like today A year ago I was heading to my ex husbands trail for assaulting me. He was found guilty a year ago today n it was over turned at appeal in sept. A year ago I was devastated with my life. Scared. N travelled to face the most horrific day of my life alone...
    Sunrise13 Sunrise13 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 4, 2015

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    I was given this glass today n a bottle of wine

    by my friend. It was a don't ask day.
    Sunrise13 Sunrise13 36-40, F 2 Responses Sep 16, 2015

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    I Was Falling But I Never Began To Take Flight

    I've been destroyed by countless others over and over. My family is the second leading destructor of my life, I being the first. I've to become what they wanted but it never worked because in the end I could only be myself. The truth of it all was no one would except the true me...
    Mesroeman Mesroeman 18-21 May 26, 2013

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    I will try to be the most depressed I can be

    so I can ignore ppl and get good marks so my dad would be happy
    Silentsuffer Silentsuffer 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 27, 2014

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    My daughters met my man

    for a casual ice cream before we went to the theatre. It went well. Then we had a play date with him n his daughter. They got on like a house on fire. It was effortless and easy. They even organised that we should stay for a sleep over. Three little faces pleading and so we...
    Sunrise13 Sunrise13 36-40, F Aug 7, 2015

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    Some new things. Before,

    I had mentioned in one of my earlier experiences about my lady friend possibly being pregnant. I'm a father to a beautiful little girl. Whom now is 4 months old. However, things between my lady friend and I aren't working out yet, I keep trying to stick it out hoping for the...
    SociallyAwkward1982 SociallyAwkward1982 31-35, M Mar 27, 2014

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    Argh. Nothing is simple.

    Found perfect house to rent n applied. Hit hic cup with paperwork. Ran round all week to try to sort it. Now at a brick wall n the landlady not giving a straight answer. Given notice on my house so times ticking away. Not sure if I just need to be patient or if I should look for...
    Sunrise13 Sunrise13 36-40, F 1 Response Sep 30, 2015

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    I am rebuilding myself.

    2015 has been one of the worst years of my life. And I have blamed pretty much everyone but myself. These last couple of weeks has been a time of brutal honesty. I've stopped lying to myself about what I want, and reflected on all the decisions I've made. I've made a point not...
    justadreamxo justadreamxo 18-21, F Sep 23, 2015

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    Everyday, rebuilding myself,

    every cell regenerates. That is why I love sleeping!
    NanamiMomozono NanamiMomozono 22-25, F Sep 28, 2015

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    Taking a leap of faith n agreeing to move in

    with my man. We are going to bring our worlds together n both move to be in a place we can still run our lives from. In not moving far he's moving a lot further. We are going to rent first not buy as it's easier to separate if things go pear shaped. I'm scared because for the...
    Sunrise13 Sunrise13 36-40, F 2 Responses Sep 23, 2015

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    Rebuilding

    I just got through the worst episode of mental illness I have ever had in my life (yes mental illness is real and, at least in my case, messed me up physically and emotionally). I'm rebuilding from here. I know it can be done. I dream of building a truly beautiful life out of...
    irah1234 irah1234 31-35, M 3 Responses Dec 14, 2012

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    The Puzzle

    I am actively rebuilding myself, it is something that I feel I need to do. I spend more time on it that I do on my coursework, which speaks volumes on my dedication to college. I find it much like building a puzzle without having all the pieces - you go in blind. But the more...
    Lullacus Lullacus 22-25, F May 29, 2013

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    Well it's been a big two weeks.

    I've moved in to my new home with my man. It's been hectic but magical. So crazy to think this amazing man found me amongst the thousands of Ep users. Let alone fell in love with me and has given up his world n home to move to my part of the country n be with me full time. So...
    Sunrise13 Sunrise13 36-40, F 5 Responses Nov 5, 2015

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    I am in my mid thirties. I have two daughters who live with me. I just finished going through my second divorce, and my heart is pretty broken. Just two weeks prior to her walking...
    JoeGlas JoeGlas 31-35, M 2 days ago

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    The first time they dropped rope at my feet I did not pick it up. Must have been my pride. Then as they spoke of faults which labeled my worth I thought I could do better. I could...
    Myplethora Myplethora 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    I feel like I lost who I am, but I can't figure out where. I need to find myself, I'm tired of being emotionless and watching everyone around me succeed and live their life. I feel...
    DaisyKaine DaisyKaine 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I feel that most people in my life are only there due to convenience. I don't feel any "bond" or connection with even my closest friends and family anymore. I know it's my fault...
    Sparklyblueunicorns Sparklyblueunicorns 22-25, F 5 Responses 5 days ago

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    As I take these 6 months to leave my husband and get myself on track, I think I am doing well so far. I am giving him and us 6 months. 6 months for him to seek a cure for his inner...
    majesticsea majesticsea 26-30, F 5 days ago

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    I made a promise to myself, one that I haven't kept. me and my mom never had a good relationship, and this particular day after picking me up from my dad's she went to shower after...
    pricklytickk pricklytickk 22-25, F a week ago

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    Today I almost lost my girlfriend and I never hated myself more than now. They diagnosed her with carbon monoxide poisoning. She tried to kill herself and it's my fault! I hate...
    LoloRegz LoloRegz 18-21, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    Despite leaving my partner and safe haven, I am still trying to find a sense of normalcy for the little one. I brought him out to the carnival last night. But it feels like a...
    majesticsea majesticsea 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 1

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    I deal with a lot of self-hatred and disgust. I'm disgusted with myself for feeling awful all the time. I'm disgusted with myself for feeling broken. My life is practically perfect...
    Hush92 Hush92 18-21, F 9 Responses Jan 31

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    It seems so simple, self-explanatory, and obvious, doesn't it? Loving oneself sounds like something that should come totally naturally. I have found that mindfulness helps me stay...
    rebekahanastasia rebekahanastasia 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 30

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    "Be happy with yourself." Right..how can I be happy with myself if I am not really. I've been truggling to lose weight but I might as well give up. I've failed too many times and...
    PassionForCreativity PassionForCreativity 26-30, F Jan 30

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    I've gone two months without hurting myself. I've been happy, my anxiety is down, and I haven't even thought about hurting myself. Yesterday I colored my hair and got some dye on...
    SimplyEm SimplyEm 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 27

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    Honestly explaining myself to someone is the hardest thing, because nobody understands. I'm not like anyone In my family, my family always just thinks I'm a defective child who...
    bflyboo14 bflyboo14 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 26

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    I feel like I'd like myself at first but as I knew more, I would soon find myself disliking myself more and more
    10786y 10786y 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 25

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    I really have been struggling with this lately... well more like for the past 7 or so months. I ******* hate myself, I hate that I'm useless and can't bring home any income, I hate...
    GoldenHeart69 GoldenHeart69 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 25

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    I remember the wind was so strong , I struggled to push myself against it . The urge to end this was stronger. I kept moving across the icy shoreline , my feet sinking into frozen...
    Angelofthesilence Angelofthesilence 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 24

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    You would not believe your eyesIf ten million firefliesLit up the world as I fell asleep'Cause they'd fill the open airAnd leave tear drops everywhereYou'd think me rudeBut I would...
    GamesBOSS GamesBOSS 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 23

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    Ever since i was a kid i always do monologues in public. Until when i reached 14, and my mother saw me across the street talking to myself, alone. LOL. When i came back home, she...
    blitzkrieg7 blitzkrieg7 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 23

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    I feel like as everyone has moved on and living a fulfilling life and I just don't know how to fix myself. I don't know how to make myself feel better. I'm so unhappy with myself...
    Pip87 Pip87 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 23

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    Nobody understands what I'm going through. They either think I'm lying or they just think I think I have depression or something, when I know for a matter of a fact I don't. I know...
    KT3535 KT3535 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 22

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    I know i need to love myself more even though i am not as good as others. I don't speak well, can't socialize, have constant panic attack, etc. I want to love myself regardless of...
    Ssslm Ssslm 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 22

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    Because it works. And I won't stop until I'm where I want to be. I used to weigh 255 pounds. Now I weigh 170. I started by starving myself. Unintentionally, of course. I skipped...
    TheWalkingDread TheWalkingDread 22-25, F Jan 21

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    So the start of January I said feck it I'm going to start working on myself and put my self first for a change I'm a size 16 so I thought yes il lose some weight! So so far I'm...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jan 21

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