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I Am Rebuilding Myself

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    Changes

    So much has changed with me this past year, and I feel the biggest is yet to come. I reached a point in my life where I could fall no further, lose any more hope. So rock bottom shall be the foundation I build my life firmly upon. I don't know where I'm going from here, or even...
    truenight99 truenight99 26-30, M Nov 26, 2013

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    The Puzzle

    I am actively rebuilding myself, it is something that I feel I need to do. I spend more time on it that I do on my coursework, which speaks volumes on my dedication to college. I find it much like building a puzzle without having all the pieces - you go in blind. But the more...
    Lullacus Lullacus 22-25, F May 29, 2013

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    I'm reaching the conclusion of the custody

    battle which has consumed my life for the last eighteen months. I will soon have time to fill when my daughters are with their father. Tonight is the second weekend without them. I miss them like crazy but tonight inside of crying I went to a meet-up at a restaurant. It was fun...
    Sunrise13 Sunrise13 36-40, F 6 Responses Jun 6

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    I will try to be the most depressed I can be

    so I can ignore ppl and get good marks so my dad would be happy
    Silentsuffer Silentsuffer 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 27, 2014

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    Rebuilding

    I just got through the worst episode of mental illness I have ever had in my life (yes mental illness is real and, at least in my case, messed me up physically and emotionally). I'm rebuilding from here. I know it can be done. I dream of building a truly beautiful life out of...
    irah1234 irah1234 31-35, M 3 Responses Dec 14, 2012

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    Some new things. Before,

    I had mentioned in one of my earlier experiences about my lady friend possibly being pregnant. I'm a father to a beautiful little girl. Whom now is 4 months old. However, things between my lady friend and I aren't working out yet, I keep trying to stick it out hoping for the...
    SociallyAwkward1982 SociallyAwkward1982 31-35, M Mar 27, 2014

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    I Was Falling But I Never Began To Take Flight

    I've been destroyed by countless others over and over. My family is the second leading destructor of my life, I being the first. I've to become what they wanted but it never worked because in the end I could only be myself. The truth of it all was no one would except the true me...
    Mesroeman Mesroeman 18-21 May 26, 2013

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    I haven't cut myself for three months but I can still see my scars, it triggers me sometimes but I know I shouldn't cut, but whenever I tell someone that they're like, stop cutting...
    drunkpunker drunkpunker 13-15, F 1 hr ago

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    I ordered a nice pink, fruity smoothie today and was given a ginormous straw to drink it out of. So what did I do? Naturally I began to drink the ice cold smoothie out of it. I...
    SunshineMel SunshineMel 26-30, F 1 hr ago

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    I need to surround myself with good people. I dont care if you're a relative or a church friend or whatever. If i feel you are just going to tear me down im going to do my best to...
    HigherCalling HigherCalling 26-30, F 5 hrs ago

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    I just checked my grades on the site, and I've failed two classes this semester. My GPA is officially the lowest possible, and I'm going to be put on academic probation yet again...
    girlinwhite girlinwhite 18-21, F 5 hrs ago

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    One day, while using Google images, shockingly, I found my painting online! I clicked once, zoomed in and couldn’t believe it. But then, I knew, it was impossible, for I haven...
    MyLady9 MyLady9 46-50, F 5 hrs ago

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    I follow myself like driving, I go my path while I see everyone go theirs, respectfully. :)
    Emiliosophy Emiliosophy 22-25, M 5 hrs ago

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    I love touch myself it feel so nice and I can enjoy my body and have my own fantasy world and imaging it is someone else doing it to me I do it most nights I would like someone to...
    dresscross dresscross 51-55, M 7 hrs ago

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    I have really worked hard on this. I never paid attention to if I loved myself or not. I discovered thru hard times that I didn't even know myself or who I was. I am still...
    00DesertRose 00DesertRose 36-40, F 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    I can't remember the last time I was angry and after a veeery long time.. for the first time, I'm angry >:( I'm the unfriendly and introvert type and I have trust issues. In...
    FallingWind FallingWind 18-21, F 10 hrs ago

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    I'm lost and uninspired, I feel like I am gone, my body is here but my mind is wondering about life, I meet a nice girl, why can't we just be friends, why do I have a tendency to...
    psychopuppet23 psychopuppet23 18-21, M 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    Go back down memory lane because it only leads to false hope and shattered emotions. Talking to her always makes me feel some type of way because she knows me on a level that no...
    preppiboi preppiboi 31-35, T 13 hrs ago

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    Suicide is easy. Reach your hand out, you get drugs. Break something with your hands, you can find a sharp tool to stab or slit. Find a rope, you can find yourself breathless...
    colourflame colourflame 13-15, F 4 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    I studied Taekwondo for many years as a kid, until I became a 1st degree black belt but I'm not sure about my self-defense skills by now. That was something I stopped doing since I...
    somniatorlupus somniatorlupus 18-21, M 17 hrs ago

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    I tease myself to the point of ****** and then stop so that I start to throb but don't have a full blown ******. I do this for about fifteen minutes before I finally let myself go...
    thenymphomanic thenymphomanic 26-30, F 3 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    I thought I could last longer than this. oh, well. I'm a disappointment to everyone else. Why not be one to myself?
    Snow1353 Snow1353 18-21, F 19 hrs ago

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    Walking around in nature. I could walk forever. In this national park that I find myself in, like so many hikes I've done before but, this one is different. I'm alone as I walk and...
    Sometimesilence Sometimesilence 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I'm working on myself too.. I've realized that I try to please everybody but never try to please myself. I be so wrapped up in what everybody wants that I neglect what it is I...
    Corderica Corderica 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    It doesn't happened often. Sometimes it strikes me and I don't know why. I just hate myself. I see myself as pathetic and degrading. I have things people will never get and I know...
    cloudycarnage cloudycarnage 16-17, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    My sister was out all night, so I ordered in a 12" pizza from room service and ate it by myself. I was full and wanted to stop about halfway through, but then I thought about how...
    feedeer feedeer 18-21, F 8 Responses 5 days ago

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    I bought photo frames to hang up pictures of myself in my room. My Mum laughs and asks why I love myself so much. I laughed and answered simply and truthfully, "if I cannot love...
    Espiallidocious Espiallidocious 22-25, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Growing up I always felt as if something was wrong with me. I actually got to the point where I hated myself. Due to bad family members and associating myself with bad people, I...
    solojo solojo 31-35, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I hate it.I have so many feelings.My boyfriend doesn't know he thinks I'm fine.No its like I'm stabbing myself every time I lie to myself or anyone.Alex doesn't know either.My...
    MusicLover4Eternity MusicLover4Eternity 13-15, F 6 Responses 6 days ago

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    Im really starting to hate my scars I use to think they were beautiful but I don't think that anymore because now every time I look at them it reminds me how much I hate myself i...
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 3 Responses a week ago

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    Why am I so upfront and talkative with people but avoid a relationship at all cost -.- I'm not afraid of asking people out, I'm not insecure about myself. In fact my confidence is...
    Spagoodles Spagoodles 18-21, M Jun 23

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    When I was 8 years old my life completely change. My parents broke apart and my dad left us. I attended a different school where I wasn't liked by the teachers or the students...
    LeahLovee LeahLovee 13-15, F 12 Responses Jun 22

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    Wow, seems like everyone else here has positive experiences to share. Some of the following will be super negative, but some are slightly positive (I guess?): When I was in...
    nerdfighter314 nerdfighter314 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 22

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    sometimes my depression seems to hard to handle. its hard to handle when my love one and me argue and he tells me mean things. maybe thats y.im depress huh..any ways. i cut myself...
    sexyinpink08 sexyinpink08 22-25, F Jun 22

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    My image of myself is not as others tell me I am. Intensely flawed, broken and worthless is often what I see when I look at my reflection. I struggle with the compliments that...
    Superficialsaint Superficialsaint 31-35, F 3 Responses Jun 21

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    I'm stupid, ugly, and ******* useless. I honestly feel like I'd be better off gone because nobody would miss me. I lost my first kiss to someone who wants nothing to do with me, I...
    DontBotherAskingCauseImNotOkay DontBotherAskingCauseImNotOkay 13-15, T Jun 19

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    I really feel so much better after a good serious conversation with myself. But it doesn't have to be serious. I mean, I talk to myself about everything. And we are a good friends...
    thejuicytriangle thejuicytriangle 16-17, F 4 Responses Jun 19

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    I hate myself because I'm downright ugly........I've never been anywhere remotely close to a date, and I've never had any girl who's had a crush on me. Never kissed anyone, never...
    norb1138 norb1138 16-17, M 2 Responses Jun 18

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    Today two people were telling me how beautiful I was I realized that lately a lot of people have been telling me that It kind of gives me a weird feeling I look in the mirror and...
    Justventingg Justventingg 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 18

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    I've been deeply insecure ever since I was about 11 years old and when I turned 15 my eating habits started becoming weird. I never could look at myself and like what I see. The...
    lovebugg11 lovebugg11 18-21, F Jun 17

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    I self abuse by hitting myself when I'm depressed. I usually use a hairbrush or a coat hanger. I don't cut. I hit myself because my husband doesn't want to hear about my depression...
    df12arkh df12arkh 31-35, F Jun 16

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    I want to learn to love myself more. I met up with my step mom and a really good friend of ours today for lunch. We were sitting there talking and my friend asked if something was...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 15

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