I Am Rebuilding Myself

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 339 People

    My daughters met my man

    for a casual ice cream before we went to the theatre. It went well. Then we had a play date with him n his daughter. They got on like a house on fire. It was effortless and easy. They even organised that we should stay for a sleep over. Three little faces pleading and so we...
    Sunrise13 Sunrise13
    36-40, F
    Aug 7, 2015

    Taking a leap of faith n agreeing to move in

    with my man. We are going to bring our worlds together n both move to be in a place we can still run our lives from. In not moving far he's moving a lot further. We are going to rent first not buy as it's easier to separate if things go pear shaped. I'm scared because for the...
    Sunrise13 Sunrise13
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Sep 23, 2015

    I Was Falling But I Never Began To Take Flight

    I've been destroyed by countless others over and over. My family is the second leading destructor of my life, I being the first. I've to become what they wanted but it never worked because in the end I could only be myself. The truth of it all was no one would except the true me...
    Mesroeman Mesroeman
    18-21
    May 26, 2013

    I will try to be the most depressed I can be

    so I can ignore ppl and get good marks so my dad would be happy
    Silentsuffer Silentsuffer
    13-15, F
    1 Response Mar 27, 2014

    Everyday, rebuilding myself,

    every cell regenerates. That is why I love sleeping!
    NanamiMomozono NanamiMomozono
    22-25, F
    Sep 28, 2015
    Sunrise13 Sunrise13
    36-40, F
    12 Responses Sep 26, 2015

    Rebuilding

    I just got through the worst episode of mental illness I have ever had in my life (yes mental illness is real and, at least in my case, messed me up physically and emotionally). I'm rebuilding from here. I know it can be done. I dream of building a truly beautiful life out of...
    irah1234 irah1234
    31-35, M
    3 Responses Dec 14, 2012

      I had to retire from the 101st Abn

    (Air Assault) after Desert Storm due to a bad neck, I couldn't wear a protective cover (helmet, for all you old timers - Big grin!) and had to find work quick.  Since I've been driving since I was 10 (tractors since 7 and my first 18 wheeler at 14, workin' on a farm, you...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Sep 17, 2015

    Well it's been a big two weeks.

    I've moved in to my new home with my man. It's been hectic but magical. So crazy to think this amazing man found me amongst the thousands of Ep users. Let alone fell in love with me and has given up his world n home to move to my part of the country n be with me full time. So...
    Sunrise13 Sunrise13
    36-40, F
    5 Responses Nov 5, 2015

    I'm reaching the conclusion of the custody

    battle which has consumed my life for the last eighteen months. I will soon have time to fill when my daughters are with their father. Tonight is the second weekend without them. I miss them like crazy but tonight inside of crying I went to a meet-up at a restaurant. It was fun...
    Sunrise13 Sunrise13
    36-40, F
    6 Responses Jun 6, 2015

    A year ago I sat on a train following the same

    route just like today A year ago I was heading to my ex husbands trail for assaulting me. He was found guilty a year ago today n it was over turned at appeal in sept. A year ago I was devastated with my life. Scared. N travelled to face the most horrific day of my life alone...
    Sunrise13 Sunrise13
    36-40, F
    1 Response Jul 4, 2015

    Changes

    So much has changed with me this past year, and I feel the biggest is yet to come. I reached a point in my life where I could fall no further, lose any more hope. So rock bottom shall be the foundation I build my life firmly upon. I don't know where I'm going from here, or even...
    truenight99 truenight99
    26-30, M
    Nov 26, 2013

    I am rebuilding myself.

    2015 has been one of the worst years of my life. And I have blamed pretty much everyone but myself. These last couple of weeks has been a time of brutal honesty. I've stopped lying to myself about what I want, and reflected on all the decisions I've made. I've made a point not...
    justadreamxo justadreamxo
    18-21, F
    Sep 23, 2015

    I was given this glass today n a bottle of wine

    by my friend. It was a don't ask day.
    Sunrise13 Sunrise13
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Sep 16, 2015

    Argh. Nothing is simple.

    Found perfect house to rent n applied. Hit hic cup with paperwork. Ran round all week to try to sort it. Now at a brick wall n the landlady not giving a straight answer. Given notice on my house so times ticking away. Not sure if I just need to be patient or if I should look for...
    Sunrise13 Sunrise13
    36-40, F
    1 Response Sep 30, 2015

    I am definitely rebuilding myself.

    2015 has been one of the worst years of my life. From the loss of a longterm relationship to the loss of several friends. Taking time to rebuild me to a better person for myself and more importantly for my kids.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Aug 13, 2015

    The Puzzle

    I am actively rebuilding myself, it is something that I feel I need to do. I spend more time on it that I do on my coursework, which speaks volumes on my dedication to college. I find it much like building a puzzle without having all the pieces - you go in blind. But the more...
    Lullacus Lullacus
    22-25, F
    May 29, 2013

    I am under construction.

    Tough to admit because part of me just wants to move on with my life already, but I know I'm not there yet. I need to rebuild myself, heal, and ground myself before I'm ready. For those not up on my back story - here's the short and dirty. My marriage began collapsing in the...
    deepbreathneeded deepbreathneeded
    36-40, M
    3 Responses Nov 28, 2015

    Some new things. Before,

    I had mentioned in one of my earlier experiences about my lady friend possibly being pregnant. I'm a father to a beautiful little girl. Whom now is 4 months old. However, things between my lady friend and I aren't working out yet, I keep trying to stick it out hoping for the...
    SociallyAwkward1982 SociallyAwkward1982
    31-35, M
    Mar 27, 2014

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