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I Am Rebuilding Myself

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    Some new things. Before,

    I had mentioned in one of my earlier experiences about my lady friend possibly being pregnant. I'm a father to a beautiful little girl. Whom now is 4 months old. However, things between my lady friend and I aren't working out yet, I keep trying to stick it out hoping for the...
    SociallyAwkward1982 SociallyAwkward1982 31-35, M Mar 27

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    Changes

    So much has changed with me this past year, and I feel the biggest is yet to come. I reached a point in my life where I could fall no further, lose any more hope. So rock bottom shall be the foundation I build my life firmly upon. I don't know where I'm going from here, or even...
    truenight99 truenight99 26-30, M Nov 26, 2013

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    I will try to be the most depressed I can be

    so I can ignore ppl and get good marks so my dad would be happy
    Ummaperson Ummaperson 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    Rebuilding

    I just got through the worst episode of mental illness I have ever had in my life (yes mental illness is real and, at least in my case, messed me up physically and emotionally). I'm rebuilding from here. I know it can be done. I dream of building a truly beautiful life out of...
    irah1234 irah1234 31-35, M 3 Responses Dec 14, 2012

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    The Puzzle

    I am actively rebuilding myself, it is something that I feel I need to do. I spend more time on it that I do on my coursework, which speaks volumes on my dedication to college. I find it much like building a puzzle without having all the pieces - you go in blind. But the more...
    Lullacus Lullacus 22-25, F May 29, 2013

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    I Was Falling But I Never Began To Take Flight

    I've been destroyed by countless others over and over. My family is the second leading destructor of my life, I being the first. I've to become what they wanted but it never worked because in the end I could only be myself. The truth of it all was no one would except the true me...
    Mesroeman Mesroeman 18-21 May 26, 2013

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    I cut people out i fight to stay alive trying to fight for my friends to stay. Crying every time i hear there name, they don't know my story yet they judge. Blocking people out not...
    Wolfee2012 Wolfee2012 13-15, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    I really hate having to explain myself over and over. This is to all u older horny a** men. Yeah I said I like older guys but I don't mean in a sexual way or I wanna be with u in a...
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    I journal a lot. I've been journaling for yeeaaars. I need something to do in my old age- reading all my old journals. I may not do it myself, but I think it would be sweet if one...
    astrokitty4341 astrokitty4341 22-25, F 1 hr ago

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    I am learning to trust myself, to see myself as a friend, not an enemy. I will wake up in the morning, look at the mirror and say to myself that I trust myself unconditionally. I...
    Close2You Close2You 26-30, M Nov 9

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    lets put it this way. i hate myself for lettin people fool the hell outta me i hate myself for trusting i hate myself for liking someone i shouldn't i hate myself writing this i...
    johnL3 johnL3 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 3

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    (Just before I begin, I don't mean I love myself physically, I just mean I mentally love myself so much that it hurts. I just wanted to clear that up.) Anyway, the thing is, I...
    KittyyKat420 KittyyKat420 18-21, F Nov 5

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    I just hate myself. I really do. I did work really hard to improve myself. What I hate about myself lately is that I seemed to have lost my motivation for life. I just don't care...
    ChrisBoshi ChrisBoshi 22-25 1 Response Nov 12

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    I just hate myself. I really do. I did work really hard to improve myself. What I hate about myself lately is that I seemed to have lost my motivation for life. I just don't care...
    ChrisBoshi ChrisBoshi 22-25 Nov 12

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    I honestly don't know what I'd do if I met myself.. In all honesty I really hate myself sometimes, but I also wouldn't ever want to be someone else. See, that's the confusing part...
    brimc7 brimc7 16-17, F Nov 13

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    I find myself really hating the things that I do, the feelings that I have, or the inadequacies that I feel. I envy sometimes people who are bold and fearless in trying new things...
    liveurbestlifenow liveurbestlifenow 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 14

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    I have hated myself for as long as I can rememeber it may appeared that I was in love with myself. But that was all part of my act. I loathe myself for a lot of different reasons...
    xdarkangelx666 xdarkangelx666 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 20

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    Things have been going pretty unsmooth as of late. My dog died, my mother relapsed into her alcoholism, my father and sister are going away for the holidays (for the first time...
    jennazan jennazan 22-25, F a week ago

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    I keep things to myself as a way to protect myself. I have always had a problem sticking to what I promise those around me, and myself; my dreams remained as such, and the changes...
    SavAleMar SavAleMar 22-25, M 2 Responses Oct 28

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    The urge never goes away. As a matter of fact, I kind of want to cut right now. Since I quit I never have, but when I feel bad and have no outlet for my feelings, cutting again...
    SpilledSecrets SpilledSecrets 22-25, F Oct 29

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    I suffer from depression, I self harm almost every night now and I have a lot of suicidal thoughts. I get bullied for my appearance, skin colour and weight. My parents expect me to...
    IllBeGoneSoon IllBeGoneSoon 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 30

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    Oh dear this could take a while lol ok.. 1. I love to talk just as much as I love to listen. So you may get interrupted - but that does not mean that I want you to stop talking...
    Notthatkindofgirl Notthatkindofgirl 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 30

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    I have felt lonely so I had cut myself to cope with the fact that I'm not special or important. the loneliness hurt me bad today and I couldn't stop myself. I haven't cut in almost...
    OnlineCake OnlineCake 26-30, F Nov 2

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    I wanted to cut myself. To make me feel. I wanted to start small. A "paper cut" on my finger. So I found a knife I kept on my desk and ran my finger over it time and time again. It...
    emotionalapathetic emotionalapathetic 13-15, F Nov 5

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    I sometimes talk with myself. And my mum does it too. Back in the day, when my little sister and I were younger, we always found it funny that our mother could be talking with...
    Skywalker1979 Skywalker1979 31-35, M 1 Response Nov 7

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    I just don't find myself that pretty. I'm very average in my opinion. I wouldn't say I see myself as ugly. But I don't see myself that attractive. Though, I am nice and kind and...
    masmelo masmelo 16-17, F Nov 9

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    Before I start, I realise this will be a short but chaotic story, as I'm just writing down my emotions in a certain state of what I believe to be panic...
    Keyamon Keyamon 22-25, M 1 Response Nov 9

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    My self-esteem is at an all time low. I want to die again. I want to just...stop existing. School is stressing me out, my life is stressing me out, I can't stop comparing myself to...
    Skollon Skollon 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 13

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    I used to think that my standards of the people I wanted to associate myself with were too high. Nobody around me, at my age, seemed to be meeting it. I questioned whether I was...
    spotofhope spotofhope 13-15, F Nov 15

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    Saying that I hate myself sounds so harsh and cruel but its more or less what it is. It's not something that emerged during my early teenage years but rather something that's been...
    lokiirs lokiirs 16-17, F Nov 15

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    I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate you!!!! I hate you!!!!! I hate you!!!!
    walkinwonder walkinwonder 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 18

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    For as long as I can remember I've never been comfortable in my own skin. Most of the little confidence I did have was shattered a few years ago, when the girls at my school...
    Awhiteorchid Awhiteorchid 16-17, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I cut myself before cause I can't stand living here on earth like, I wanna kill myself cause I'm a mess. I'm depressed and I even decided to be dropped-out of school and then my...
    xxBoyishGirlxx xxBoyishGirlxx 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I'm a young male adult and, I've been chosen by God to preach his word. So I am trying my hardest to better myself. So that people may look at me and see his grace instead of my...
    BubbaSasquatch BubbaSasquatch 18-21, M 3 days ago

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    I often write or type what I feel not because I prefer to express myself that way, but rather no one seems to be too concerned with what I have to say. I have always been pushed...
    rrainfall rrainfall 31-35, F 3 days ago

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    I wrote this in 09 Am I me? Can I really only be me? Does it make sense to say that I am only Me, different from all else, and existing as only myself. I certainly don't...
    chimbie88 chimbie88 31-35, M 2 days ago

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    I've stayed at my sister's every night this week except this night. She went out to eat, and I'd just be sitting there doing nothing anyway. I ended up going to my niece's and...
    NastasyaFilippovna NastasyaFilippovna 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 30

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    I love to touch and play with myself when no one is home!! My problem is once I get started in the morning sometimes I play with myself all day long!!! I swear!! I love it!!! I...
    Coffeetyme Coffeetyme 41-45, F 31 Responses Oct 31

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    I always feel so uncomfortable towards those of the opposite sex.. Whether I find them attractive or not. I hate it. A while ago I went to the school library.. I like it there cuz...
    kangaroo02 kangaroo02 16-17, F Nov 4

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    I don't hate myself and I don't love you but I'm not happy with myself for coming back to you. You give me reasons to leave but I can't bring myself to give up on you.
    HappyHart5 HappyHart5 16-17, F Nov 4

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    I have a lot of dysphoria. I have hated myself for years, and sometimes, I think I'm getting better, but I still hate myself. I hate my body. I hate my body. I want to be a boy. I...
    savakora savakora 16-17 Nov 5

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    Sometimes life becomes too much for me to handle and it's easier to view myself and others as objects. Mostly myself. If I am just an object, nothing matters. I can drink all I...
    neverlandgirl22 neverlandgirl22 22-25, F Nov 7

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    Slam poetry piece: Unperturbed view of future's abyss. So now the lines of seemingly well constructed literature are literally eating me. If I look at all the white spaces in...
    LegitimateRabbit LegitimateRabbit 18-21, M Nov 8

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    I hate it when I do it. The normal lies I tell to myself are: It's going to be okay, Everything will be fine, Nothing's wrong with you.. Everyday I tell myself that I'm really just...
    PureLies PureLies 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 10

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    Sometimes I wonder who I was before all of this. Before I became so damaged.. before I got so hurt. Was I a happier person? Was I more fun to be around? Maybe I wasn't so angry and...
    boomkimchaloy boomkimchaloy 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 12

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    I'm not a writer, sometimes I lack common sense, and other times I make no sense at all. If you still with me for the nect few minutes though I only hope that it gives you some...
    InfinitelyCurious InfinitelyCurious 18-21, F Nov 12

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