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I Am Rebuilding Myself

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    Changes

    So much has changed with me this past year, and I feel the biggest is yet to come. I reached a point in my life where I could fall no further, lose any more hope. So rock bottom shall be the foundation I build my life firmly upon. I don't know where I'm going from here, or even...
    truenight99 truenight99 26-30, M Nov 26, 2013

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    Some new things. Before,

    I had mentioned in one of my earlier experiences about my lady friend possibly being pregnant. I'm a father to a beautiful little girl. Whom now is 4 months old. However, things between my lady friend and I aren't working out yet, I keep trying to stick it out hoping for the...
    SociallyAwkward1982 SociallyAwkward1982 31-35, M Mar 27, 2014

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    I Was Falling But I Never Began To Take Flight

    I've been destroyed by countless others over and over. My family is the second leading destructor of my life, I being the first. I've to become what they wanted but it never worked because in the end I could only be myself. The truth of it all was no one would except the true me...
    Mesroeman Mesroeman 18-21 May 26, 2013

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    Rebuilding

    I just got through the worst episode of mental illness I have ever had in my life (yes mental illness is real and, at least in my case, messed me up physically and emotionally). I'm rebuilding from here. I know it can be done. I dream of building a truly beautiful life out of...
    irah1234 irah1234 31-35, M 3 Responses Dec 14, 2012

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    The Puzzle

    I am actively rebuilding myself, it is something that I feel I need to do. I spend more time on it that I do on my coursework, which speaks volumes on my dedication to college. I find it much like building a puzzle without having all the pieces - you go in blind. But the more...
    Lullacus Lullacus 22-25, F May 29, 2013

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    I will try to be the most depressed I can be

    so I can ignore ppl and get good marks so my dad would be happy
    Silentsuffer Silentsuffer 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 27, 2014

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    Was talked into throwing my collection out some time back. Pretty big and beautiful collection. It was under false pretenses getting me to toss. I regret it. There's something...
    Averageguy41074 Averageguy41074 36-40, M 1 Response Mar 15

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    Advice on rebuilding. Love you first to locate love. EP Link The barriers. EP Link Carlin knew. http://youtu.be/rsL6mKxtOlQ Societys flaw. EP Link Dont believe...
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M Mar 20

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    You cant damage me now. Maybe later because you scheme to conquer but not now. Right now i see my caring as better than your need to look better than me. Me could have left...
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M Mar 20

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    No matter how many times I seem to trust in people the ones close test to me are the ones that can hurt me the most. I've been lied and stabbed in the back by those I thought I...
    Yubikiri Yubikiri 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    Ever since I was younger, I don't react to disappointing others very well. I had always been wary about how they see me and how I should act around them because I feel like no one...
    JalynArr JalynArr 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    I was told I need to prove myself. I admit at this stage in my life I again have hit bottom and filled myself with depression as BPD has raised its ugly head again but in my life...
    wickedone72 wickedone72 41-45, F Mar 5

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    i hate myself i hate my body, my face,my hair i hate how i walk,how i talk i hate looking into mirror i hate how i cant talk to people like a normal person i hate that i see myself...
    yeniC yeniC 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 2

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    all of my life I've put myself on the back burner to help friends and family and in a blink of an eye I turned 36. I've never been in a relationship, I've never really done...
    monteJ monteJ 31-35, M Mar 8

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    Yes I am a cutter but I'm not proud of it at all. in fact I do my best to pretend like they aren't there. I have old ones on my left arm but new and old ones on both of my thighs...
    easterbaby88 easterbaby88 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 12

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    I have recently stopped caring. I used to cut because I just could not handle what was going on in my life. I used to cut because I would hurt so bad that I didn't know how else to...
    lowellwolf lowellwolf 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 13

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    It was a dreadful night that I hope I don't have to relive ever again. My boyfriend and I were at each others throats, testing each others limits and becoming increasingly agitated...
    Ginkofishin Ginkofishin 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 16

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    I put god first and myself second because I can only depend on myself and god, a part of loving myself is putting me first, I'm no longer saying yes to man, just god and myself, I...
    Brandnewhim2015 Brandnewhim2015 26-30, M Mar 19

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    I haven't been happy with myself for awhile. It started with my ex, I became very self conscious about myself. I used to never care, I was very care free but then I started to...
    blooop123 blooop123 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    Ever since I was bullied at primary, I've lost myself. I wrote a list about myself and they were actually nice but deep down I still dislike myself for some reason. I've tried to...
    Myalee Myalee 41-45, F 1 day ago

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    So yeah, me first experience on this site. I am one hell of a insecure girl. It started when I was 12, I had alot of friends but still alot of people called me a pig, or just fat...
    iwannarun iwannarun 16-17, F Mar 9

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    Yesterday I competed at the state academic team thing in Louisville. And I made so many mistakes. I don't know if I'll be able to forgive myself for some of this. I'll always be...
    AshleyWCSloth AshleyWCSloth 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 16

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    They say before You do anything you must first believe that you yourself can do it. Love yourself before loving others, accept yourself before accepting others, But as if would...
    Yuzuru Yuzuru 16-17, M 4 days ago

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    Loving yourself can be challenging. Although it sounds quite elementary and simple -love yourself- it can be a perpetually formidable undertaking. This is doubly hard if you live...
    blutiger blutiger 41-45, F 3 days ago

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    Im struggling. Just like I've always been. Ppl never are what they seem. I trust ppl an they all eventually turn on me. I take a huge risk letting them know a few things about my...
    AquilaAqua AquilaAqua 13-15, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    So right now it's Monday the Second of March 2015, from tomorrow onwards I'm going to starve myself. Im 5'9" and weigh 74kgs, i need to get to my goal of 59kgs. I feel so depressed...
    HannaTheSwedishChick HannaTheSwedishChick 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 2

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    It's not that I think you don't love me. It's the fact that I don't love myself and I make myself think that no one can love me by making impossible connections possible in my mind...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F Mar 2

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    I couldn't help myself after everything that's been going on I just gave in and did it. I feel like I should go back and do it to punish myself for hurting myself but I just don't...
    theultimatesashacourtney theultimatesashacourtney 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 2

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    I have always had a picture of my honeymoon night all planned in my head. i have always wanted to surprise my husband with a gift that god had given me. i am not a girl that is...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 3

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    Does anyone ever do things the hard way, just because? Not particularly do things the hard way, but more of doing them the way the less fortunate would. I seem to do that with so...
    aDesperado aDesperado 18-21, M Mar 5

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    The more I open up about, the more I hate myself. I should never have been born. I'm too screwed up for this world. I'm just so tired and everything's so much effort and I can't...
    WakeUsAndWeDrown WakeUsAndWeDrown 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 5

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    S'group describes me. People always ask for my help, and I help them. I ask myself for help, I try to go through the same steps as I do other people. I split myself into two that...
    C9Poke C9Poke 16-17, M Mar 6

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    A story I posted last year but figured I'd post again this morning as I am up early. :) I like public self-pleasuring, and I like bathrooms. A few months ago at a PTA meeting I...
    NoVADad703 NoVADad703 31-35, M 1 Response Mar 7

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    Today was the first time I touched myself at work. It was quiet and i found myself reading naughty experiences and other peoples fantasies on here, and I couldn't suppress my urges...
    uniqueusername91 uniqueusername91 22-25, F 24 Responses Mar 7

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    aaaaargh!!! roller coaster of emotions again. probably my 'daddy issues' rearing their ugly heads. long story short: I'm happy being alone. i love being single. And Yes, I'd...
    peepsqueek peepsqueek 31-35, F Mar 8

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    Learning because really, I am still not even sure who I am. Most of my life I have been the strong one, the glue that holds everything together. It never mattered if I was falling...
    NewBeginnings77 NewBeginnings77 31-35, F 5 Responses Mar 8

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    i have never liked myself and i dont think i ever will.. i always expect the worst, and because of that, the worst always comes, and I end up hating myself even more. i cannot be...
    neyah20 neyah20 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 10

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    Whatever has happened to me, I don't want to remember. Whatever I remember, I make sure it won’t happen to me again. I'm no one for anyone to remember me as who I am today. I've...
    MyLady9 MyLady9 46-50, F Mar 10

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    I guess I have no room to complain. Keep putting myself back in this position. Aren't we allowed to make mistakes? It's so hurtful to hear that someone won't be there for you...
    katariffik katariffik 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 15

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    I could barely look at myself in the mirror. I wish I could take pictures of myself without disgust. I wish I was one of the cool guys that can talk to girls. I hate myself so much...
    ForeverALoser ForeverALoser 22-25, M 4 Responses Mar 15

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    There's a bloodhound in me. One that possesses not the dignity of a dog trained to hunt, and one anyone knows isn't even as cool as any dog. Still. It's there and though it doesn...
    Ewoo Ewoo 16-17 Mar 16

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    I was having a conversation with a friend today. I known her since the beginning of high school. Never talked to her much until this year because we have classes together now. We...
    anonamanda001 anonamanda001 18-21, F Mar 17

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