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I Am Rebuilding Myself

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    I Was Falling But I Never Began To Take Flight

    I've been destroyed by countless others over and over. My family is the second leading destructor of my life, I being the first. I've to become what they wanted but it never worked because in the end I could only be myself. The truth of it all was no one would except the true me...
    Mesroeman Mesroeman 18-21 May 26, 2013

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    Rebuilding

    I just got through the worst episode of mental illness I have ever had in my life (yes mental illness is real and, at least in my case, messed me up physically and emotionally). I'm rebuilding from here. I know it can be done. I dream of building a truly beautiful life out of...
    irah1234 irah1234 31-35, M 3 Responses Dec 14, 2012

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    Changes

    So much has changed with me this past year, and I feel the biggest is yet to come. I reached a point in my life where I could fall no further, lose any more hope. So rock bottom shall be the foundation I build my life firmly upon. I don't know where I'm going from here, or even...
    truenight99 truenight99 26-30, M Nov 26, 2013

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    The Puzzle

    I am actively rebuilding myself, it is something that I feel I need to do. I spend more time on it that I do on my coursework, which speaks volumes on my dedication to college. I find it much like building a puzzle without having all the pieces - you go in blind. But the more...
    Lullacus Lullacus 22-25, F May 29, 2013

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    Some new things. Before,

    I had mentioned in one of my earlier experiences about my lady friend possibly being pregnant. I'm a father to a beautiful little girl. Whom now is 4 months old. However, things between my lady friend and I aren't working out yet, I keep trying to stick it out hoping for the...
    SociallyAwkward1982 SociallyAwkward1982 31-35, M Mar 27

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    I will try to be the most depressed I can be

    so I can ignore ppl and get good marks so my dad would be happy
    DrowningInPain2 DrowningInPain2 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    Related Experiences

    Dreams of moments past are just that dreams Yet when they speak to you in volumes repetitively It's hard not to get lost in their meaning and story once more I see many a scenario...
    PoeticMute PoeticMute 31-35, M 6 days ago

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    I think I have always believed that I am not a complete person, that my life is about making up for that, becoming 'better'. Life has seemed to me to be the task of becoming a...
    Angiethebrave Angiethebrave 31-35, F 11 hrs ago

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    Ugh I'm so tired of being fat but when I try to starve myself I can neverrrrrr do it cuz when I see food I eat . I weigh 128 and I'm 5'1 I wanna be atleast 115 . So I'm going to...
    Kaileyynicole Kaileyynicole 16-17, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    My mom hates me. My stepdad hates me. I feel like I should just give up and kill myself. I hate everything about me. I just wanna die. I hate myself more than anyone on the...
    naddo630 naddo630 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    If only you saw the things I do to amuse myself haha you'd probably think that I was at too intoxicated or on something, really though lol
    XxBadXVibesxX XxBadXVibesxX 13-15, F 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    I despise myself. Somebody please shoot me. I can't take this anymore. I really can't. All my life I've been unhappy, but now it's getting worse. I cry all the time and I honestly...
    halfpace halfpace 16-17, F 3 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    I used to be one of the prettiest girls. and I disfigured my self. with my own fingers. I decided I wanted a smaller jaw and smaller lips. little did I know the devil was...
    unlovednbroken unlovednbroken 18-21, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    My story is that I have a sickness inside that I don't know how to make go away. It's hard to define this sickness other than a pervading poison that is eating me from the inside...
    Shellybelle Shellybelle 41-45, F 4 Responses Aug 26

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    The group "I want to kill myself" is not available to me on EP. That is bullshit. So I'm here. There's not much I can think of to say. I have been wanting to kill myself for a...
    Orange666 Orange666 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 5

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    I'm depressed and it's hard. It's gotten bad enough that I started cutting myself for tons of different reasons. Sometimes I feel so numb inside that I cut myself so I can feel...
    benjamintkw benjamintkw 13-15, M 6 days ago

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    Do I love myself?! I have started wondering do I really love myself? I mean of course I do I'm adorable! At least that's what I always say. But do I really love who I am, am I...
    ariel2891 ariel2891 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    There are days when I won't be able to do anything but feel. (I say only "feel" because I can't quite find the words. I feel bad about myself and everything else, but not really...
    TwoWastedCigarettes TwoWastedCigarettes 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    I have accepted myself, not in a way that I know myself therefore I should change everything to fit in the society and #yolo. No not that, but simply I have accepted that, me, who...
    anon152 anon152 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    It's therapy to me. The relaxing part of the day. If I don't talk to myself, I think that would make me even crazier than how society already sees me. I'm an introvert. I hate...
    dustyoldclock dustyoldclock 18-21, F Aug 20

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    I hate myself the pain and humiliation I caused my parents by marrying outside my religion. I hate myself for for forcing my husband to convert to my religion albeit for show...
    Hbee1980 Hbee1980 31-35, F 2 Responses Aug 23

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    I'm trying to find my own version of happiness and a life that feels right for me. I have so many sides of me I'm trying to fit all together. I consider myself relatively traveled...
    ajrestless ajrestless 18-21, F Aug 28

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    Partly by myself.. Havent done it active-active.. But active/passively or call it passively-active. I sort of have the belief, that when everyone is gone. Just by myself. Then I...
    mirkwood86 mirkwood86 26-30, M Aug 29

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    Today I went for a swim at my local lake. As I jumped into the water with enthusiasm, I was determined to swim to the little island far off in distance. I paddled and paddled and I...
    BLVLFreeSwim BLVLFreeSwim 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 1

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    This is the first time I am opening up about myself, and I truly cannot stand the person I am, all for one small aspect of me that in reality should not be as big of a deal as I...
    skh22 skh22 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 7

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    Especially when other people are in the picture. When others speak fondly of me, I get upset. I want them to just shut up, and that makes me feel like a bad person. Some days I...
    iKitKat iKitKat 18-21, F a week ago

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    Leave me alone for now I'm deep in thought, treacherous territory I know It's what I must do to decompress from a day of scattered thought I never thought I'd get to a stage where...
    PoeticMute PoeticMute 31-35, M a week ago

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    I hate myself for all the lies and deception I inflicted on my current boyfriend. I blame my family particularly. I am a cheater and this means I have broken my own value system. I...
    Deadlynightshade5 Deadlynightshade5 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 27

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    I have cut myself multiple times. I used to insert safety pins into my wrists whenever I was suffering. I tried to overdose myself with glucophage and adol, that I've lost count.I...
    BridaPaulo BridaPaulo 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 3

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    I look at myself sometimes and wonder why I'm still here. Many moments in my past I could have easily stumbled further than I have. It has become quite a battle to journey through...
    PoeticMute PoeticMute 31-35, M 4 days ago

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    You know you’ve come to a low point in your life where you’d wish, practically begged, that your mother should have swallowed you, or aborted you when she had the chance. A...
    EatingSheep EatingSheep 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I am 5'7 and 205 pounds. In high school I used to be 120 pounds and looked sick, but I felt beautiful. I hate myself so much for how much weight I put on. I hate going outside...
    Calicogirl20 Calicogirl20 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 21

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    Umm this started when 9 idk how well i stared talking to myself my room LOL Kun idk know how i stared but i talk to myself alot alot and its normal for me i get caught by my little...
    Deeshnay Deeshnay 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 21

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    I like myself very much. I take care of myself. I never let anything go to waste. I find myself very attractive. I like myself very much. I knew I was going to live a happy life...
    lycheechan lycheechan 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 25

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    I was looking for the page "I Am Ashamed of Being Myself," and I could have sworn that I clicked on it, but instead Firefox led me here. So what I'm going to do is tell the story...
    Kurokagi Kurokagi 18-21 Sep 2

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    When I get frustrated or extremely upset or argue with someone I want to hurt myself. Its mainly when I argue with my close friends and mother. I feel so bad about things I said or...
    kleox7x kleox7x 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    I never for a second thought my life would take the turns it has I'm greatly appreciated for all the people I have met, love, lost Along the way, you are my current saviours For...
    PoeticMute PoeticMute 31-35, M 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    It doesn't matter what the outcome is Just the way you reach your end game That's the most important step that can be achieved Don't pay attention to the naysayers that sit by the...
    PoeticMute PoeticMute 31-35, M 6 days ago

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    I forget the days as the nights close in they all seem to run together now. For reasons unknown to me the medication agreement I have accepted Has placed me in a mellow zone, free...
    PoeticMute PoeticMute 31-35, M 4 days ago

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    I love things but I make myself believe I don't love them. I hate things and I try to love them. I know how am I yet I try to change! I know that I want to be intersting yet I try...
    Idonotcareanymore Idonotcareanymore 18-21 4 days ago

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    I have to keep telling myself this. I can do this. I can graduate college with an offer letter. I can get at least 65 for my english. I am not going to disappoint my old man. I can...
    minyue minyue 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I seriously think there is something wrong with me because I don't just talk to myself, I talk to myself like there's another person next to me. I mean I'm aware that I'm talking...
    DiamondInTheSkye DiamondInTheSkye 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I grew up a good girl. Meeting everyone's desires, my dad an alcoholic, my mom a 100% narcissist. I lost my best friend, my grandma, when I was 16. And then everything spiraled out...
    Seekingmyself23 Seekingmyself23 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 17

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    So this is my first post. I feel awkward for even telling anyone this but, ... I hate myself. It's hard to explain the feeling you have when you can blatantly say what you've truly...
    Halloween482 Halloween482 18-21, M Aug 18

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    Once again Facebook asking me What's on my mind. Dearest, you know?... I haven't words to tell or explain that mess inside of my head. But... Today I want to try. Try to start talk...
    WhineWolfe WhineWolfe 16-17, F Aug 19

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    Well im only 11. I started touching myself i bielive when i was 10. My freind who has been my freind since 1st grade Im in 6th grade now. Well she and i used To kiss . Looking back...
    damnMcCoy damnMcCoy 16-17, T 2 Responses Aug 19

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    I am a 20 year old junior guy in college. I have never posted anything on this, but more than anything I am using this as a way to vent. So here I go. I hate myself. There are so...
    slopez7597 slopez7597 18-21, M 3 Responses Aug 21

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    I talk to myself all the time but like when I'm around others they just look at me as if I've gone crazy. They always be like Megan who are you talking to and I