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I Am Rebuilding Myself

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    So much has changed with me this past year, and I feel the biggest is yet to come. I reached a point in my life where I could fall no further, lose any more hope. So rock bottom shall be the foundation I build my life firmly upon. I don't know where I'm going from here, or even...
    truenight99 truenight99 26-30, M Nov 26, 2013

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    I am definitely rebuilding myself.

    2015 has been one of the worst years of my life. From the loss of a longterm relationship to the loss of several friends. Taking time to rebuild me to a better person for myself and more importantly for my kids.
    ButtercupBrown15 ButtercupBrown15 36-40, F 3 Responses Aug 13

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    The Puzzle

    I am actively rebuilding myself, it is something that I feel I need to do. I spend more time on it that I do on my coursework, which speaks volumes on my dedication to college. I find it much like building a puzzle without having all the pieces - you go in blind. But the more...
    Lullacus Lullacus 22-25, F May 29, 2013

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    I will try to be the most depressed I can be

    so I can ignore ppl and get good marks so my dad would be happy
    Silentsuffer Silentsuffer 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 27, 2014

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    I Was Falling But I Never Began To Take Flight

    I've been destroyed by countless others over and over. My family is the second leading destructor of my life, I being the first. I've to become what they wanted but it never worked because in the end I could only be myself. The truth of it all was no one would except the true me...
    Mesroeman Mesroeman 18-21 May 26, 2013

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    My daughters met my man

    for a casual ice cream before we went to the theatre. It went well. Then we had a play date with him n his daughter. They got on like a house on fire. It was effortless and easy. They even organised that we should stay for a sleep over. Three little faces pleading and so we...
    Sunrise13 Sunrise13 36-40, F Aug 7

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    I'm reaching the conclusion of the custody

    battle which has consumed my life for the last eighteen months. I will soon have time to fill when my daughters are with their father. Tonight is the second weekend without them. I miss them like crazy but tonight inside of crying I went to a meet-up at a restaurant. It was fun...
    Sunrise13 Sunrise13 36-40, F 6 Responses Jun 6

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    Rebuilding

    I just got through the worst episode of mental illness I have ever had in my life (yes mental illness is real and, at least in my case, messed me up physically and emotionally). I'm rebuilding from here. I know it can be done. I dream of building a truly beautiful life out of...
    irah1234 irah1234 31-35, M 3 Responses Dec 14, 2012

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    A year ago I sat on a train following the same

    route just like today A year ago I was heading to my ex husbands trail for assaulting me. He was found guilty a year ago today n it was over turned at appeal in sept. A year ago I was devastated with my life. Scared. N travelled to face the most horrific day of my life alone...
    Sunrise13 Sunrise13 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 4

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    Some new things. Before,

    I had mentioned in one of my earlier experiences about my lady friend possibly being pregnant. I'm a father to a beautiful little girl. Whom now is 4 months old. However, things between my lady friend and I aren't working out yet, I keep trying to stick it out hoping for the...
    SociallyAwkward1982 SociallyAwkward1982 31-35, M Mar 27, 2014

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    Trying to practice more patience with myself.
    Kelsiii Kelsiii 22-25, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    how do you let go of your past, when u you keep beating yourself up about things that have happened or worse things that could have happened. when I was about 8 I got a half...
    twoface444 twoface444 16-17, F 4 hrs ago

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    I feel like I should just put and end to myself sometimes, well most of the time.
    staygoldenbaby staygoldenbaby 16-17, F 3 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    I'm playing with myself in my attends. While I was playing I peed all over my hand. It's fun to be playing with myself in a dry diaper and then then start peeing. I'm still playing...
    tylerlovesdisposablediapers tylerlovesdisposablediapers 16-17, M 11 hrs ago

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    Confusing feelings about my teacher. I started having a crush on them 2 years ago, but then tried to rationalise with myself. They are more than twice my age, possibly in a...
    andiloveit andiloveit 18-21, F 5 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    I can't even look at myself in the mirror because I just hate myself. I don't believe I deserve to be happy or to feel content. I try really hard at trying to find a job but keep...
    alice0493 alice0493 22-25, F 13 hrs ago

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    I'm scared of being alone im scared my depression will take over me I tried so hard to fight but somehow it keeps coming back to me I don't know what to do I tried so keep strong...
    bearberryx3 bearberryx3 18-21, F 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    I fell back on my old habit of cutting so I could feel numb mentally . When my dad found out he looked so sad and it makes me so mad at myself. I wish I hadn't done it. I only did...
    rosedimond99 rosedimond99 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    The Power of expression I am 27. Uptill now, I felt that I have been very expressive in sharing what I feel. I felt I am straightforward. But when I look back, I realized that it...
    Xpressionist Xpressionist 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    Last year when I was being bullied/abused/isolated by my classmates, I used to cut myself as a form of stress-relief to ease myself away from the pain. But now, I've been clean...
    LittleMidnight LittleMidnight 18-21 1 Response 2 days ago

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    this is a true experience, and just for note I don't like peeing myself at all. I don't mind desperation in private, but I don't like it in public or find it fun at all. This for...
    kgirl17 kgirl17 18-21 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Since 4 months I have been fattening myself up every single minute of the day I gained weight rapidly each and everyday thanks to a friend here with my girlfriend I turned into an...
    M19946 M19946 18-21 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Sometimes i just dont really want to be myself Sorry this is a rant... I was raised as a spoiled child and I still am. I always had to have everything I wanted and refused to...
    Pillemy Pillemy 18-21 1 Response 3 days ago

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    It's one of these nights again.I hate myself.I hate everything about myself, everything that is in my life and everything that is not.I hate perfect people and those lucky enough...
    yeniC yeniC 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    hymn of nothingness oh i have serve feels like eternity to feel...joy and sadness illuminate my path with darkness and nothingness away from all this madness unite me with...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M 3 days ago

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    Just about the time I think I have everything in my life under control, I realize I don't, not really. Then I begin to think about why I don't. That leads me to a thinking of a...
    comeonletsgo comeonletsgo 61-65, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I'm trying to, anyway. I'm currently in my last week of an intensive outpatient program for drug addiction and mental health issues. A lot of the things I've learned from this...
    TheCallipygist TheCallipygist 22-25, M 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    I often like to cut my fingertips to remind myself how much of a monster i can be. The cuts represent claws. If im not careful with what i touch, i will hurt myself. When i hurt...
    ForgedFromFire ForgedFromFire 16-17, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Some time ago I promised myself I wouldn't cut myself with a knife anymore. Last night I broke that promise. According to my promise this means I have a problem with cutting. I...
    jsualmtha jsualmtha 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    I really want to kill myself. My life is going on horribly. My mother has psychotic depression, she has been on an affair for 9 years & has just recently stopped after being...
    mangoseed mangoseed 18-21, F 16 Responses 5 days ago

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    I tend to have full blown conversations with myself. I am well aware that no one is there, but for as long as I can remember I've talked to myself and acted out conversations. For...
    OldSoulRedux OldSoulRedux 22-25, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    reflecting a color only i can see greeted by monsters of my insecurities sleep..escape to another galaxy dream are monsters snatching away my sanity light some candles in...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M Aug 19

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    I talked to my ex after what was a couple months. We actually had a conversation this time. I decided to be frank with him and asked him what he wanted from me. He said he wanted...
    HigherCalling HigherCalling 26-30, F Aug 19

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    When I am in my room.. When the lights are out.. When the noise and sound are gone.. When I am alone laying in my bed or sitting in my chair... I feel the most myself. The me I am...
    chaekowski chaekowski 26-30, M Aug 18

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    wish i didn't know didn't expected now it's killing me to see you in reality didn't predict to witness this cruelty poisonous and so cold, smiling, throne of all your...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M Aug 17

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    There are moments in my life recently where I'm disappointed in myself. At 35 I was set financially, loved my career although it didn't allow for much personal time, family time or...
    cacutie3 cacutie3 36-40, F Aug 17

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    I never admitted this to myself. I'm afraid of being abandoned. I'm super sensitive to ridicule and humiliation. I hate my parents. I wrote mom a letter when I was about 6-7...
    MentAl69noMAD MentAl69noMAD 18-21 2 Responses Aug 16

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    I don't even know myself let alone able to be myself. I am so fake. I have social anxiety, which is getting better, but only because I force myself to behave more enthusiastic, or...
    WhereaboutsUnknown WhereaboutsUnknown 22-25, F Aug 16

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    I always fantasise about hurting myself, especially in public. I analysed myself (as cold as I could be) and found that I could be seeking for attention. I hate that part of myself...
    sabrina1ryo sabrina1ryo 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 16

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    I have never admitted this to anyone, but I self-punish. The thing is, I've always done this. I remember doing it when I was two years old. A lot of times, I'll get into moods...
    ChristineGalaxies ChristineGalaxies 13-15, F Aug 16

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    hopes..dreams wake up and expecting to witness some change disappointed again..thinking why do i try why not live the rest in my cage realizing it's the only place i belong...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 15

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    Yesterday at 6pm, when the cleaning team came in their usual round, the cleaning lady was taken by my tearful eyes. I was crying and for all my life, that was an impossible scene...
    StrongWoman9 StrongWoman9 26-30, F Aug 14