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I Am Rebuilding Myself

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    Rebuilding

    I just got through the worst episode of mental illness I have ever had in my life (yes mental illness is real and, at least in my case, messed me up physically and emotionally). I'm rebuilding from here. I know it can be done. I dream of building a truly beautiful life out of...
    irah1234 irah1234 31-35, M 3 Responses Dec 14, 2012

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    The Puzzle

    I am actively rebuilding myself, it is something that I feel I need to do. I spend more time on it that I do on my coursework, which speaks volumes on my dedication to college. I find it much like building a puzzle without having all the pieces - you go in blind. But the more...
    Lullacus Lullacus 22-25, F May 29, 2013

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    I will try to be the most depressed I can be

    so I can ignore ppl and get good marks so my dad would be happy
    Silentsuffer Silentsuffer 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 27, 2014

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    Some new things. Before,

    I had mentioned in one of my earlier experiences about my lady friend possibly being pregnant. I'm a father to a beautiful little girl. Whom now is 4 months old. However, things between my lady friend and I aren't working out yet, I keep trying to stick it out hoping for the...
    SociallyAwkward1982 SociallyAwkward1982 31-35, M Mar 27, 2014

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    I Was Falling But I Never Began To Take Flight

    I've been destroyed by countless others over and over. My family is the second leading destructor of my life, I being the first. I've to become what they wanted but it never worked because in the end I could only be myself. The truth of it all was no one would except the true me...
    Mesroeman Mesroeman 18-21 May 26, 2013

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    Changes

    So much has changed with me this past year, and I feel the biggest is yet to come. I reached a point in my life where I could fall no further, lose any more hope. So rock bottom shall be the foundation I build my life firmly upon. I don't know where I'm going from here, or even...
    truenight99 truenight99 26-30, M Nov 26, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    I look back on my experiences and stories that I've accumulated and I say to myself 'what were you thinking?'. I'm always updating my profile, changing it to fit the person I'm...
    Kay06 Kay06 18-21, F 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    I have sat through the entirety of several episodes of Keeping Up With the Kardashians. It's said confession is good for the soul. Yet I don't feel any better about myself.
    Bumblelion Bumblelion 31-35, M 3 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    I am not here to share pics of myself. I totally understand if people are but its not for me, so hopefully people can understand that the same way too! :)
    shans20 shans20 18-21, F 9 hrs ago

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    I am truly sitting in my office at me desk watching xhamster chatting with people on EP and touching myself. if you read this lets chat
    sidenetgoal sidenetgoal 36-40, M 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    I wish I wasn't so hard on myself but I'm afraid if I stop I won't have any motivation to move forward. It's as if I have this real of all my shortcomings and it just plays again...
    honestlyanonymouslyme honestlyanonymouslyme 22-25, F May 3

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    I'm here again tonight, just when i thought i should have by now feeling more better about myself after the short escape from the hermit shell i've been self-confined in - I'm not...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F May 9

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    This became a longer story then I wanted to be, but its my story and I carry it with pride. I have always been a weirdo and I love myself for it. I am now in a point in my life...
    GuiltBear GuiltBear 31-35, M 1 Response May 20

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    Something went wrong in my life at one time. I am so preoccupied by my looks it's disgusting. I used to have the lowest self esteem, I was antisocial, hated my looks, hated my skin...
    Abdulaziz94 Abdulaziz94 18-21, M May 2

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    I am having hard time starting conversations or meeting people, it is even worse when I am expecting someone to talk to me . Maybe it is just my lack of experience in that field...
    LFSomething LFSomething 22-25, M 3 Responses May 2

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    Over this past year I've changed.The truth is I can hardly recognise myself,I'm almost a completely different person from before.I'm not really sure what triggered this change,it...
    MeAndMySelf98 MeAndMySelf98 16-17, M May 10

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    My body is a prison. I hate every single inch of myself, and sometimes it's unbearable. I am such a disappointment to everyone, including myself, and I'm pretty sure my boyfriend...
    Mickkeyy Mickkeyy 18-21, F 1 Response May 2

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    I am a 20 year old from London who studies Performance at University, which is about to end in a week. After that ill be off to America for five months working and experiencing new...
    Amyflorence Amyflorence 18-21, F 1 Response May 4

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    I have made this profile few days ago with a decision to face my fears of socialization and gain some insight in my own along with other people's similar problems. At first I...
    LFSomething LFSomething 22-25, M 1 Response May 6

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    This is to all the people who have thought about giving up. I 1st must say, god has not given up on you. All my life I have been worried about what others have thought of me. I...
    theplanofaction theplanofaction 22-25, M May 11

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    Dear God, I pray that I get to have the courage and the perseverance to fight and not care of the risks involved. I am truly ashamed of myself. If it was only myself, I would...
    mareliberum mareliberum 26-30 May 20

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    I don't trust myself to be capable, smart, mature or brave enough to do what I truly want to do with my life. I'm not even able to admit to myself exactly what it is I want from...
    Magicalcarebear Magicalcarebear 22-25, F 1 Response May 20

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    Had an incredibly painful migraine today. I was supposed to be hosting family dinner tonight and I had to cancel. I feel awful about it. But I realize that the migraine is my body...
    Searchingformyshalom Searchingformyshalom 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I'm ending a lot of relationships that aren't mutually beneficial, in order to collect my energy together and create space for something new to grow within. Something new as in...
    earthcentreRise earthcentreRise 22-25 3 days ago

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    I've been broken into pieces for years but it's time to dust myself off and fix myself up. I want to work on my confidence so I can do all the little things everyone else does that...
    kdauthor kdauthor 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I cant seem to combat against it for very long, my mind always seems to find its way trickling back into thoughts of him...He, who is my best friend. I felt awkward about the...
    SophisticatedPsychopath SophisticatedPsychopath 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    One thing I have noticed and I don't know whether to be 'proud' of it but I am certainly happy with it, Is that I can truly laugh most things off and I can laugh at myself most...
    Traveller96 Traveller96 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 29

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    I find myself lusting for my ex but having no real desire to be with him. Makes me question myself a bit. Am I capable of loving anyone? Maybe it's me with the issues. Shouldn't I...
    HigherCalling HigherCalling 26-30, F 2 Responses May 2

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    I hate myself I often dream of how I'd make a time machine to torture myself as a child I am always one reason away from making myself bleed I constantly battle depression I feel...
    omss omss 18-21, M May 3

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    more than i think i do . i hate myself because of how i am perceived . i hate myself to extent that i cant say why i do. i dont want to have friends because i dont want...
    lonesomedove80 lonesomedove80 31-35, F 2 Responses May 3

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    I've really messed up on my freshman year at college.. I usually do not have a difficult time putting myself out there and making new friends but in my first of college I've made...
    dabc12 dabc12 18-21, F 1 Response May 4

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    I try as hard as I can to make those I love and admire proud of me, but every day in some way I'm told "You're not good enough" or "you're not attractive at all." I try to prove I...
    SomethingThatWorks SomethingThatWorks 18-21, F May 5

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    i dont know what to do i think im spirling downwards. im a failure and i just want to give up. ill never make it into college i know people dont care about that stuff bc of...
    JannieL3 JannieL3 16-17, F May 6

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    The demons. They win again. They take over my whole self. My whole being. They push away others. They manifest themselves deep in my mind. They turn those who are trying to help me...
    Alexz72 Alexz72 22-25, F 1 Response May 6

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    I've always had trouble with my self-esteem and base it too much on winning the approval of others. Because I always view myself as needing to have something to offer other people...
    brianwmc9 brianwmc9 22-25, M 5 Responses May 6

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    After a long heart to heart last night, I realized that there are so many things I have to do. I have to work on myself. I keep convincing myself that I'm fine, but I'm not. I need...
    tempestsarekind tempestsarekind 22-25, M 1 Response May 7

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    I have two loving parents and two great brothers. My other family is loving-ish but we are dysfunctional and no where near perfect. But I am loved. But this factor just makes me...
    HollowHeart17 HollowHeart17 18-21, F 1 Response May 7

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    Honestly, I don't need to love myself to love someone. In my mind that's bullshit. Althought i need to love myself in order to let myself be loved. Just don't give advise if that...
    paiva1904 paiva1904 18-21, M May 8

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    I'm new here, I love to write poetry to express myself but often feel I need real people to talk to and be myself around that won't judge me, im comfortable with who I am but...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 8

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    words can never describe how much i hate myself. i don't blame anyone for not caring about me and no wonder why I always end up alone . how they shut me out and label me...
    lonesomedove80 lonesomedove80 31-35, F 2 Responses May 10

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    So I am so angry at myself I went to the bar yesterday I smashed my finger Friday and so when I went to the bar they saw my finger and said that they needed to drain it well 2 guys...
    SpiritWolfe741 SpiritWolfe741 36-40, F 2 Responses May 13

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