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I Am Rebuilding Myself

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 268 People

    I Was Falling But I Never Began To Take Flight

    I've been destroyed by countless others over and over. My family is the second leading destructor of my life, I being the first. I've to become what they wanted but it never worked because in the end I could only be myself. The truth of it all was no one would except the true me...
    Mesroeman Mesroeman 18-21 May 26, 2013

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    Rebuilding

    I just got through the worst episode of mental illness I have ever had in my life (yes mental illness is real and, at least in my case, messed me up physically and emotionally). I'm rebuilding from here. I know it can be done. I dream of building a truly beautiful life out of...
    irah1234 irah1234 31-35, M 3 Responses Dec 14, 2012

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    Changes

    So much has changed with me this past year, and I feel the biggest is yet to come. I reached a point in my life where I could fall no further, lose any more hope. So rock bottom shall be the foundation I build my life firmly upon. I don't know where I'm going from here, or even...
    truenight99 truenight99 26-30, M Nov 26, 2013

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    Some new things. Before,

    I had mentioned in one of my earlier experiences about my lady friend possibly being pregnant. I'm a father to a beautiful little girl. Whom now is 4 months old. However, things between my lady friend and I aren't working out yet, I keep trying to stick it out hoping for the...
    SociallyAwkward1982 SociallyAwkward1982 31-35, M Mar 27, 2014

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    I will try to be the most depressed I can be

    so I can ignore ppl and get good marks so my dad would be happy
    Silentsuffer Silentsuffer 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 27, 2014

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    The Puzzle

    I am actively rebuilding myself, it is something that I feel I need to do. I spend more time on it that I do on my coursework, which speaks volumes on my dedication to college. I find it much like building a puzzle without having all the pieces - you go in blind. But the more...
    Lullacus Lullacus 22-25, F May 29, 2013

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    it's all because of self hate. i hate myself and dont care about me. i message older men online. im the stupid girl that reply's to the pervets. that accepts strangers friend...
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    Today I woke up thinking about what I want out of life. I realized that I have put myself in an awful situation in a relationship in my life. I have compromised what I believe in...
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    I have spent my life trying to be someone else, and even pretending to be someone other than who I am, because I didn't feel I could be liked or loved for who I am. I have a rotten...
    Hockeyplayer56 Hockeyplayer56 46-50, M 10 hrs ago

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    In fact, I keep me to myself. I am lively. Brave. Funny. But only in my head. And I can't seem to get it out, in fear that I might be wrong. Because in this world where I live in...
    BlackRosesAmongLilies BlackRosesAmongLilies 13-15 10 hrs ago

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    I Am pathetic i cant even kill myself
    emre3211 emre3211 22-25, T 9 hrs ago

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    I haven't cried in two days cry a lot like really a lot and I have been able to restrain myself
    maleeny maleeny 18-21, F 4 hrs ago

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    I used to be overweight when I was younger. Since junior year of high school, I have lost 30 pounds and kept it off. But even 4 years later, I still have the mentality of being...
    SimplyEm SimplyEm 18-21, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    YOUR LIFE IS YOURS TO DESTROY OR BUILD! The truthiest of all the truths is that you're the only person who has to live with yourself. It's all up to you to make yourself feel good...
    BetterWorldd BetterWorldd 26-30, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Why.Must.I.Be.Here? I can't handle myself. I just can't... I'm so done and over myself.. I sell myself short, I disrespect myself, I intentionally hurt myself... I'm all sorts...
    Catho Catho 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 19

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    Ever since I was bullied at primary, I've lost myself. I wrote a list about myself and they were actually nice but deep down I still dislike myself for some reason. I've tried to...
    Myalee Myalee 41-45, F Mar 28

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    I guess it's easy to say this; sometimes in the past it has made me cringe reading it. I guess because deep down I suffer from low self esteem, maybe even in some ways self...
    sometimeslonelytoo sometimeslonelytoo 41-45, M 7 Responses Mar 31

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    I have social anxiety I am socially awkward I am very difficult to get close to I am not friendly I am an introvert I am shy I think I could never find anyone I could get close to...
    myEmpty myEmpty 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 1

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    I'm a fairly confident person in my own confines. I'm not confident in public like I used to be. Some people say I have a stocky body frame. I wish I could change that but as much...
    Danwitt21 Danwitt21 18-21, M Apr 4

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    I blame myself when things don't go right even if its not my fault because the only one who can fix the problem is myself. also sometimes its good to vent but who wants to listen...
    me0883 me0883 22-25, M Apr 6

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    Im struggling. Just like I've always been. Ppl never are what they seem. I trust ppl an they all eventually turn on me. I take a huge risk letting them know a few things about my...
    AquilaAqua AquilaAqua 13-15, M 2 Responses Mar 29

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    I have hated myself since I was 13. It started as low self esteem but every time I made a mistake I would hate myself a little more. I am now 21 and would love to just be gone. I...
    sierraladeirdre sierraladeirdre 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 30

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    I write because it is part of me. Something inside me call to put how I feel on the page. I write alone, with my thoughts coming out of my head, with feelings coming out of my...
    bemyvalentine bemyvalentine 56-60, F 8 Responses Apr 1

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    A few things about me... I leave disjointed pieces of myself all over the Internet. I do not have multiple personalities in a schizophrenic sense, but I am tired of the separation...
    adianoeta adianoeta 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 3

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    I drained 25 pounds of blood in one session of cutting myself in a hot bath.... It's stupid, life is hard enough as it is without me having to hide thick cuts, ugly scars...
    iamFrightened iamFrightened 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 4

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    I mostly hit myself when I feel stupid. I punch myself in the head and face I slap myself in the face. I punch myself in the legs arms chest stomach. .. I even sometimes bang my...
    DeeDoubleYoux DeeDoubleYoux 22-25, F Apr 4

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    Looking at other posts on this site makes my problems feel so much smaller. Thinking about it rationally I guess I have it pretty good. But I still feel like... no one would miss...
    jthakkar1998 jthakkar1998 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 14

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    I want to change my life. I've taken already some steps, but I can't stop now or it's all just gonna revert back to where I started from! Changing who I am, how I look at the world...
    Featherwings Featherwings 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 16

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    I like to take many pictures and look at myself in the mirror a lot and people think I'm vain and conceited. However, there's a good enough reason for this... I never really had...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F 3 Responses Apr 18

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    I've struggled with depression since I was 7 or 8. I handled it by pretending it wasn't happening and didn't talk about it. Honestly I don't think anyone knew when I was younger...
    transtastic transtastic 18-21, T 4 Responses Apr 19

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    I have been married for 9 years and that marriage is now coming to an end. We are on good terms. I would even say we are friends. Just in the process of getting divorce papers...
    girlx427 girlx427 31-35, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    today me and a friend decided that we were going to get pizza after my class so we got a medium between the two of us cos she usually only has one or two slices. at first i only...
    likesthembig likesthembig 18-21, T 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I love myself like someone who crushes on a celebrity, but me and my crush are the same. I could spend hours just staring at myself in the mirror. My boyfriend actually walked in...
    TGBman TGBman 22-25, M 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I know this sounds really stupid, but I have terrible issues dealing with guilt, and there have been so many times when I lay face down under the covers in my bed and think about...
    TheEnduringSunrise TheEnduringSunrise 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    I am freaking out, I am witnessing how I lose myself So this week it was my first time going to college. I expected it to go terribly, with me wanting to escape and feel...
    AZChomp644 AZChomp644 18-21, M 2 days ago

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    So, this is my story!, Im a single 36 year old woman, with a big heart that hides behind the wall, who loves to be in love, but also hates it sometimes. I havenĀ“t dated much, few...
    Gaialion Gaialion 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    I was home alone today and depressed about life.I heard cutting helps people who are depressed.So I got a new razor and cut my upper arm 5 times.This is when I realized my...
    ironpack ironpack 13-15, M 2 Responses Mar 30

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    Why do i have to go telling people my opinions.... i only get attacked for it..... please people, for the love of God, don't judge me on my opinions. i just got called a pervert...
    hopelesslyalone7654321 hopelesslyalone7654321 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 2

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    Yesterday, again, i promised myself to not gamble... I even asked my best friend to come to my work a hour before i was finished so he could "watch over me" and not let me go...
    iamlostinmydreams iamlostinmydreams 31-35, M 1 Response Apr 4

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    1. I am creative. 2. I am sensitive emotionally. 3. I am into details and can express myself really well, some say I am rather eloquent and articulate. 4. I am very friendly... it...
    blankcheck4urhart blankcheck4urhart 36-40, F Apr 5

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    I'm so angry at myself I wish I could clone myself and beat myself up. I have so much hatred in my heart right now and I don't really know how it came to be. When I'm at work I can...
    ForeverALoser ForeverALoser 22-25, M Apr 6