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I Am Rebuilding Myself

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    The Puzzle

    I am actively rebuilding myself, it is something that I feel I need to do. I spend more time on it that I do on my coursework, which speaks volumes on my dedication to college. I find it much like building a puzzle without having all the pieces - you go in blind. But the more...
    Lullacus Lullacus 18-21, F May 29, 2013

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    Rebuilding

    I just got through the worst episode of mental illness I have ever had in my life (yes mental illness is real and, at least in my case, messed me up physically and emotionally). I'm rebuilding from here. I know it can be done. I dream of building a truly beautiful life out of...
    irah1234 irah1234 31-35, M 3 Responses Dec 14, 2012

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    Changes

    So much has changed with me this past year, and I feel the biggest is yet to come. I reached a point in my life where I could fall no further, lose any more hope. So rock bottom shall be the foundation I build my life firmly upon. I don't know where I'm going from here, or even...
    truenight99 truenight99 26-30, M Nov 26, 2013

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    I Was Falling But I Never Began To Take Flight

    I've been destroyed by countless others over and over. My family is the second leading destructor of my life, I being the first. I've to become what they wanted but it never worked because in the end I could only be myself. The truth of it all was no one would except the true me...
    Mesroeman Mesroeman 18-21 May 26, 2013

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    Some new things. Before,

    I had mentioned in one of my earlier experiences about my lady friend possibly being pregnant. I'm a father to a beautiful little girl. Whom now is 4 months old. However, things between my lady friend and I aren't working out yet, I keep trying to stick it out hoping for the...
    SociallyAwkward1982 SociallyAwkward1982 31-35, M Mar 27

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    I will try to be the most depressed I can be

    so I can ignore ppl and get good marks so my dad would be happy
    DrowningInPain2 DrowningInPain2 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    Kijiji ad! strange? yep? am I lonely? yep? Soooooo....rebuilding new friendships is hard! especially after all the fallout being in limbo with my marriage separation and fighting...
    wiseprotector wiseprotector 41-45, M Jul 31

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    I hate myself the pain and humiliation I caused my parents by marrying outside my religion. I hate myself for for forcing my husband to convert to my religion albeit for show...
    Hbee1980 Hbee1980 31-35, F 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    In bed touching myself. Feels so good
    lemtb lemtb 36-40, M 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    I feel claustrophobic in my own skin. I don't want to be me anymore. I honestly don't know how people go through life "happy" because for me life is literally just hard. It's hard...
    marisolitude marisolitude 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 25

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    I cut myself today. I am so ashamed. I haven't done something like that since I was a teenager. I used to cut myself all the time when I was younger. I had some issues growing up I...
    Thinkofme Thinkofme 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 10

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    I, I HATE myself. I hate myself so much. I hate myself so much, it's hard for me to explain just how much. I don't think you'll ever be able to comprehend the amount of hatred and...
    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 13-15, F 11 Responses Jul 24

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    It's weird, but whenever I'm with friends, I basically look at myself from an outside sort of view. When I'm with them and I say something inappropriate or if I use a curse word, I...
    londontravella londontravella 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 26

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    It all started about 4 years ago in junior high. I started growing up, going through hormonal changes, and some adjustments in life. And in the process I started dating (Late I...
    kittybabe100 kittybabe100 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 2

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    I am really bad due to self punishment and can be really negative on myself! I beat myself up, hate myself when i make a mistake or say something wrong or annoy someone or do...
    MilweePetite MilweePetite 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 4

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    Today I talked like "a guy" to my friend who's a girl, and she didn't like it. She told me so.... actually she didn't. She said she had some things to do and she wanted to go. I...
    MCxxOPREVxxOG MCxxOPREVxxOG 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 6

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    I hurt myself again. After several years, I hurt myself again. I chose to hurt myself rather than hurt others. Everything is coming back to me. The pain, agony, self-pity and...
    purplefreespirit purplefreespirit 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 9

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    I don't have money for food, a place to stay. So I'm going homeless, no family and nobody who can help me. My drug addiction doesn't really help either. I am having a tough time...
    YoungRidah YoungRidah 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 9

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    i appreciate my own company. i always have but ive been lonely too. now im making a bit of effort because ive left myself alone or in someone elses hands for too long. its weird...
    luckylassie luckylassie 51-55, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Identity is a state of mind in which someone recognizes/identifies their traits that leads to finding out who they are and what they do and not that of someone else. For the first...
    Sanora Sanora 18-21, F Jul 24

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    Since I was young I enjoy having conversations with myself. Sometimes it's just me scolding myself or I pretend there is somebody asking me questions and I imagine myself in...
    yetanotherhuman yetanotherhuman 26-30, M Jul 27

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    The other day at work I had an epiphany that I really truly love myself. I was thinking of a party that I went to..my first one. I refused to drink any alcohol when all of my best...
    londontravella londontravella 18-21, F Jul 29

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    what i have for myself is beyond hate. i hate everything about myself. i hate my own existence. i hate my parents for having me. i hate god for creating such a weak helpless being...
    SlaveToMyBullshit SlaveToMyBullshit 18-21 1 Response Aug 1

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    I love spending time by myself. Probably mostly because of my social anxiety, but also because of the way I was raised. As a teenager with high school parents, I was never allowed...
    Skywalker1979 Skywalker1979 31-35, M Aug 8

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    There is a saying that everything in life comes as a blessing. It's part of our destiny and our path towards our life. We perceive events in our lives as good or bad, we make...
    xogymfish xogymfish 16-17, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    It's therapy to me. The relaxing part of the day. If I don't talk to myself, I think that would make me even crazier than how society already sees me. I'm an introvert. I hate...
    dustyoldclock dustyoldclock 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    I think I learned to hate myself To say I hated myself As a way to punish myself for being Powerless in the face of hurt And unable to express my anger With all the things I...
    dispossessed dispossessed 46-50, F 8 Responses Jul 25

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    Often times we are our own worst enemy. In my case I push myself way too hard. Whatever I do I want to be the best at in the competitive sense, but just so that I can feel content...
    Pacificdiem Pacificdiem 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 27

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    I met an amazing girl yesterday. I don't think it was the first time I had seen her but it was the first time we were introduced. At first I thought she was a couple years older...
    persononinternet persononinternet 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 29

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    Most people wouldn't understand and I don't expect you too. No one knows I hurt myself not even my closest friends, I only punch myself in the ribs and punch walls and throw...
    heyapple69 heyapple69 66-70, F 2 Responses Jul 30

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    At times I tell myself I can handle what Im feeling for that girl. I tell myself I can be friends with her and that its just only friendly love. I try to make myself believe all...
    realandtrue realandtrue 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 30

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    What to hate about me? I'm too perfect to live in this world XD jk! Seriously.. Sometimes i love myself like a lover other times like a best friend Sometimes I hate myself but...
    AutoLove0 AutoLove0 22-25, F Aug 3

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    I grew up in a fairly conservative Midwest town, and as such told myself when I was younger that I would never be one of "those girls who makes out with other girls at parties or...
    hottiewithabody94 hottiewithabody94 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 4

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    I have been out of work for over a year. I am trying to find work but it is very difficult. Lately I have been mad at myself and feeling down. I started spanking myself. I get nude...
    mmccoy43 mmccoy43 41-45, M Aug 7

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    I'm having those feelings again. I've been trying hard to believe in myself and be productive. Doing that I feel requires self-esteem of some sort. So I'd like to let these...
    StokesQuirky StokesQuirky 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 9

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    So I'm super cool. Like the coolest person out there. So when I'm in my room I'll go over to my mirror and start rapping. Just to myself. And it's like really hardcore rapping like...
    Wynnieskye Wynnieskye 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 12

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    I am 5'7 and 205 pounds. In high school I used to be 120 pounds and looked sick, but I felt beautiful. I hate myself so much for how much weight I put on. I hate going outside...
    Calicogirl20 Calicogirl20 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Umm this started when 9 idk how well i stared talking to myself my room LOL Kun idk know how i stared but i talk to myself alot alot and its normal for me i get caught by my little...
    Deeshnay Deeshnay 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I don't know when did this start, but I've always considered myself as an ugly person, period. No one could convince me the opposite, I don't believe them! I have the talent for...
    youaremygift youaremygift 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 24

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    I really do hate myself, there's nothing worse then knowing that you've completely messed up not just your own life but others as well, constantly letting people down. I always...
    Verix Verix 18-21, M 5 Responses Jul 25

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    I hate myself! I hate that I'm on here complaining about myself and my life, when it really isn't that bad. So many other people have a far worse situation then I do. And it makes...
    bluegirlie98 bluegirlie98 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 25

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    I realize that no one is perfect, but when people point out the annoy, selfish, rude things I do, many times unaware, it really gets to me. I try to work on myself and improve, but...
    dorothea779 dorothea779 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 25

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    Call me crazy, but it's true no matter how you look at it. I can be having a good day, a bad day, I can help anyone I please, yet I'll still hate myself. Usually it's because of...
    Killamunjaro Killamunjaro 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 25

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    I feel very bored with myself. Lately I feel like I've lost me zeal for live. I have stopped living and started just passing through. Surviving life instead of living. I see others...
    flowerloverxxv flowerloverxxv 22-25, F Jul 26

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    I lost myself somewhere along the way when I found love, a deep, penetrating love that I've never known before, that I never could've imagined for myself. And I'm grateful that I...
    Heartbeatangel Heartbeatangel 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 27

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    Sometimes I feel like I'm ever good enough I'm hard on myself If I do something wrong I'll get angry with myself or get frustrated I'm not perfect but sometimes I do hate myself
    andreaespe andreaespe 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 27

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    I love the feeling of talking to "someone else"! I usually give myself encouraging pep talks to cheer myself up and keep myself going! :) I also talk about the people I hate and...
    Redhy11 Redhy11 16-17, F 4 Responses Jul 28

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