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I Am Rebuilding Myself

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    Rebuilding

    I just got through the worst episode of mental illness I have ever had in my life (yes mental illness is real and, at least in my case, messed me up physically and emotionally). I'm rebuilding from here. I know it can be done. I dream of building a truly beautiful life out of...
    irah1234 irah1234 31-35, M 3 Responses Dec 14, 2012

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    Changes

    So much has changed with me this past year, and I feel the biggest is yet to come. I reached a point in my life where I could fall no further, lose any more hope. So rock bottom shall be the foundation I build my life firmly upon. I don't know where I'm going from here, or even...
    truenight99 truenight99 26-30, M Nov 26, 2013

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    Some new things. Before,

    I had mentioned in one of my earlier experiences about my lady friend possibly being pregnant. I'm a father to a beautiful little girl. Whom now is 4 months old. However, things between my lady friend and I aren't working out yet, I keep trying to stick it out hoping for the...
    SociallyAwkward1982 SociallyAwkward1982 31-35, M Mar 27

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    I Was Falling But I Never Began To Take Flight

    I've been destroyed by countless others over and over. My family is the second leading destructor of my life, I being the first. I've to become what they wanted but it never worked because in the end I could only be myself. The truth of it all was no one would except the true me...
    Mesroeman Mesroeman 18-21 May 26, 2013

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    I will try to be the most depressed I can be

    so I can ignore ppl and get good marks so my dad would be happy
    Ummaperson Ummaperson 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    The Puzzle

    I am actively rebuilding myself, it is something that I feel I need to do. I spend more time on it that I do on my coursework, which speaks volumes on my dedication to college. I find it much like building a puzzle without having all the pieces - you go in blind. But the more...
    Lullacus Lullacus 22-25, F May 29, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    As I began to love myself I found that anguish and emotional suffering are only warning signs that I was living against my own truth. Today, I know, this is “AUTHENTICITY”. As...
    nivanvc nivanvc 36-40, M 1 Response Dec 9

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    Every time I make any kind of mistake- even just getting a bad grade on a test or saying something stupid- I feel like I deserve to be punished for it by hurting myself. I cut my...
    kaleidoscopic21 kaleidoscopic21 13-15, F 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    So i asked a question earlier about whether or not i should go out to hang with friends. ive been at home since im sort of overwhelemed at the moment and having a hard time...
    spreadyourwings spreadyourwings 22-25, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I'm a little worried.... I used to cut myself when I was around 18 or so , I accidentally cut myself and I liked the feeling. I began cutting because I liked the feeling and was...
    Honee86 Honee86 26-30, F 3 days ago

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    For as long as I can remember I've never been comfortable in my own skin. Most of the little confidence I did have was shattered a few years ago, when the girls at my school...
    Awhiteorchid Awhiteorchid 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 22

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    I cut myself before cause I can't stand living here on earth like, I wanna kill myself cause I'm a mess. I'm depressed and I even decided to be dropped-out of school and then my...
    xxBoyishGirlxx xxBoyishGirlxx 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 22

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    I'm a young male adult and, I've been chosen by God to preach his word. So I am trying my hardest to better myself. So that people may look at me and see his grace instead of my...
    BubbaSasquatch BubbaSasquatch 18-21, M Nov 24

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    I often write or type what I feel not because I prefer to express myself that way, but rather no one seems to be too concerned with what I have to say. I have always been pushed...
    rrainfall rrainfall 31-35, F Nov 25

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    I wrote this in 09 Am I me? Can I really only be me? Does it make sense to say that I am only Me, different from all else, and existing as only myself. I certainly don't...
    chimbie88 chimbie88 31-35, M Nov 25

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    Today I received a letter from my dad who has been incarcerated since April. This is the first letter he has sent me. I have not seen him due to circumstances in the family that...
    Aml4 Aml4 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 28

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    I'm currently trying to starve myself and work out. I don't know why but I feel like I do that I'll feel better in myself.. I hate myself so much. If I had the opportunity to kill...
    oxoxJillianxoxo oxoxJillianxoxo 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 30

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    I get those days when I hate myself so much. I've always had the self destruction feeling in my mind but I try to ignore it. Some days it's really hard and I have a strong urge to...
    ponycupcake ponycupcake 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 30

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    I hate myself..People always take avantaged from me. I know it but i don't know how to deny. I care their poeple feeling too much but they don't care my feeling. I cannot really...
    chombongkoch chombongkoch 31-35, F Dec 2

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    I have sealed myself into a safe little box over the years. I am rediscovering myself now and branching out. I have blamed my husband for being controlling, but have realized that...
    NWBiggirl420 NWBiggirl420 36-40, F 4 Responses Dec 3

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    I talk to myself everyday. Sometimes I like to remind myself what I will be doing. I try not to talk to myself in public. I don't think it is a bad thing that I talk to myself.
    Rippie Rippie 22-25, M Dec 3

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    Almost?? I NEVER put myself first. you need me to drive you half way across the country? Sure!! I can't drive but ill be happy to carry you. the ex wants to talk? sure! Im suicidal...
    wishingforrecovery wishingforrecovery 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 8

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    I mean really, a long history of victimization has left me so strong in so many aspects but there is still the residual leftovers deep inside. I tell myself I am worthless, that I...
    SameOldLoneliness SameOldLoneliness 31-35, F 1 Response Dec 8

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    For quite some time now I have seemed to be deeply unhappy with myself. I can't tell you how many days I woke up and just felt like I was nothing. I still don't love myself as much...
    RubyRayne RubyRayne 26-30, F Dec 9

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    I hate my self as stated above. I don't like my face, figure, voice, friends, family, location, and just overall life. I have sever anxiety and always find myself counting and...
    mckennaolsen mckennaolsen 13-15, F Dec 13

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    I have been trying to learn not to hate myself, to know myself as I truly am. I found this book: http://www.peace.ca/powerofnow.htm, It really helped. I learned to stop seeing my...
    PurpleGlassPalace PurpleGlassPalace 26-30, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    mentally torture myself even have cut myself starve dehydrate myself as well . as you can tell I clearly don't love myself
    Mizo0217 Mizo0217 18-21, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I'm falling apart. I had a bad childhood which I got through. I thought I was strong. I told myself I'd never do.. it. I'm doing it... I'm so disappointed but I'm numb. I bottled...
    WeCouldBeDead WeCouldBeDead 16-17, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    THE AFTERMATH... I LOVE GOD FOR MAKING ME, NOT ONLY AS A HUMAN, BUT AS AN INCAPABLE HUMAN... MAYBE IT WAS MEANT FOR ME TO SUFFER... I KNOW MY DESTINY... I LOVE YOU MY DEAR...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    So I thought I should tell u guys all the things I have been threw in life this is hard for me telling u guys but bare with me so I was born on the 7 jan 1996 so as I got older and...
    Scarsdontfade Scarsdontfade 18-21, F 2 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    People think that I'm the happiest person because I smile and laugh a lot. But actually I'm not. Sometime I just want to end everything when everyone that i trust cut all the...
    Julietxxx Julietxxx 16-17, F Nov 22

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    Learned my lesson today. I was late for dance rehearsal today, sooo I put on a my favorite hot pink leggings, a black tank top and some sneakers after a quick shower and all other...
    HeyyMrsCarter HeyyMrsCarter 22-25, F 4 Responses Nov 22

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    Yes I Love Myself...It took me awhile to get to this level of love with myself, but now that I am here...THANK YOU GOD! My GOD, My Creator loves me and ALL whom HE created...Thank...
    yvyie1 yvyie1 51-55, F 1 Response Nov 24

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    I hate myself. I hate being so stupid, and not being good at anything. I hate my face, my nose, my cheeks, my lips, and my eyes. I hate my personality, and my laugh. I hate the way...
    Missprincessgabby Missprincessgabby 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 24

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    I hate myself or being weak, for being caring, sympathetic all these useless things that make the persona weak. I hate myself for bringing the pain on myself from my own...
    Ic3Queen Ic3Queen 22-25, F Nov 24

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    It's been 4 months and I'm doing pretty well considering how close I was to losing myself the first couple of weeks. I was shattered. Crushed beyond repair. People who I'd never...
    queenettejeanette queenettejeanette 13-15, F Nov 25

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    This is the first time i try to ********** myself.I played with myself.I shoved two fingers to my holes.I didn't come,except keep getting wet.After I finished,I feel pain when I...
    jn97 jn97 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 26

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    I had never felt more betrayed I knew thats how it would play out, but I was frantic. Desperate for it to change winds I begged, and howled with the wind. Please. Please, don't let...
    NeverForgeIt NeverForgeIt 16-17, F Nov 26

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    I have older siblings that have already graduated and as you might think, it's not my parents who tell me I need to do better than them, but rather myself saying I need to be...
    FriendOfARazor FriendOfARazor 18-21, F Nov 27

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    I hate myself because I am not pretty. I am bull headed and clumsy. Forgetful and unkind at times. Have bad grades and am a disappointment to me, my friends, and my family. I seek...
    DesyMckenzie DesyMckenzie 13-15, F Nov 27

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    I was raped a little over a year ago, and my body is just damaged goods to me now. I hate it. I am a recovering self harmer, so it's scarred all over. I even have my exes initial...
    BrokenAndBetrayed612 BrokenAndBetrayed612 18-21, M 3 Responses Nov 29

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    I hate my body. My life. Just me. The way I look especially. I'm never first choice, never is never was. I'm not even an option....ppl in my class call me a mistake, annoying...
    TheLoner1234 TheLoner1234 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 30

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    Why do i have to be such a ****** person? All i wanna do is kill myself & continue to self-harm because it's the only thing making me feel like i have a grip on my life. Truth is...
    xxbangbangxx xxbangbangxx 13-15, F 5 Responses Nov 30

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    I let myself go to this boy and now I am struggling to find who I am. I feel myself changing and I want to get back to the independent, happy person I was. I tried to find my...
    murn murn 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 30

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    I hate myself. I know people don't like me. I hate my gender and my skin colour. I hate that I have issues understanding words when others speak to me. I can't finish projects...
    zvezdnyy zvezdnyy 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 1

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    They say its never too late to start :) I was lost in those guys things and fantasy land that I forgot that loving myself aint enough I have to work on myself! I had enough of all...
    ThisIsMeYeah ThisIsMeYeah 18-21, F 10 Responses Dec 1

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