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I Am Rebuilding Myself

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    Changes

    So much has changed with me this past year, and I feel the biggest is yet to come. I reached a point in my life where I could fall no further, lose any more hope. So rock bottom shall be the foundation I build my life firmly upon. I don't know where I'm going from here, or even...
    truenight99 truenight99 26-30, M Nov 26, 2013

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    I will try to be the most depressed I can be

    so I can ignore ppl and get good marks so my dad would be happy
    Silentsuffer Silentsuffer 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 27, 2014

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    The Puzzle

    I am actively rebuilding myself, it is something that I feel I need to do. I spend more time on it that I do on my coursework, which speaks volumes on my dedication to college. I find it much like building a puzzle without having all the pieces - you go in blind. But the more...
    Lullacus Lullacus 22-25, F May 29, 2013

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    Rebuilding

    I just got through the worst episode of mental illness I have ever had in my life (yes mental illness is real and, at least in my case, messed me up physically and emotionally). I'm rebuilding from here. I know it can be done. I dream of building a truly beautiful life out of...
    irah1234 irah1234 31-35, M 3 Responses Dec 14, 2012

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    Some new things. Before,

    I had mentioned in one of my earlier experiences about my lady friend possibly being pregnant. I'm a father to a beautiful little girl. Whom now is 4 months old. However, things between my lady friend and I aren't working out yet, I keep trying to stick it out hoping for the...
    SociallyAwkward1982 SociallyAwkward1982 31-35, M Mar 27, 2014

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    I Was Falling But I Never Began To Take Flight

    I've been destroyed by countless others over and over. My family is the second leading destructor of my life, I being the first. I've to become what they wanted but it never worked because in the end I could only be myself. The truth of it all was no one would except the true me...
    Mesroeman Mesroeman 18-21 May 26, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    I built my life around being us. Now I'm free to be myself. The first 9 months was grief...everything that goes with it. I'm lookin at it as a blessing now.
    efron1 efron1 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 20

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    I have an urgent need to forgive myself for something I did in high school. For years I've been very harsh with myself about this mistake and I've been telling myself that what I...
    NamelessNomad NamelessNomad 22-25, F Jan 20

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    I hated how I say to people that Im proud of myself and I loved it. I hated how **** I am. I hated how I can be so confident. I hated how I interact with others. I hated how I feel...
    shishishosho97 shishishosho97 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    Honestly I am 34 and no high school education. I had kids at 18,29,21 . Been married 2x and never done a damn thing for myself . I come from a place and daily that has the...
    KittenHasClaws1980 KittenHasClaws1980 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 2

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    I'm fifteen. I'm a sophomore and I've been continually depressed since last summer when the first girl I legitimately fell for got really mad at me and then moved away. I just sent...
    GuiltyLover GuiltyLover 13-15, M 1 Response Jan 17

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    narcissistic maybe- i grew up with no self confidence. i was the black sheep of my family and the middle child, chubby and shy. when i graduated i started loosing my "baby weight...
    snelletrail snelletrail 26-30, F 3 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    The title says it all. Well yeah, I really do hate myself. I've been hospitalized 3 times in the past year for suicide attempts, self-harm, and drug use. I've done so many things...
    shecancareless shecancareless 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 30, 2014

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    Last year was a game changer for me..i left my boyfriend of five years last February. It was difficult to do but I don't regret it. It took me over a year to work up the courage...
    lambkin lambkin 26-30, F 4 Responses Jan 6

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    I feel like I do of course im a walking contradiction so maybe im not after all..uhhh I dont know why the hell it's so hard for me to give a crap about myself anymore unless I have...
    simpleandpossible simpleandpossible 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 8

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    …and I never get bored of myself or hate myself... I love being myself at all times; perhaps I am a little narcissistic... Oh well, better than self hating, no? Although I don't...
    MissGaga MissGaga 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 15

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    I want to break down and slash my wrist and watch the blood hit the ground. I think to myself, what urges this on? Why am I so depressed, so angry, confused, upset. I just wanna...
    fade77 fade77 13-15, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    I feel like I am always giving more than I can. I try to fix everyone without taking the time to fix myself. I am attracted to people who have many problems. I don't know why, I...
    SkyDean SkyDean 16-17, F Dec 31, 2014

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    so here we are - 2015!!! a whole new year to mess up, lol :) I hope this one is good to me, and that I am successful at improving myself. I have really lived a very long life - I...
    milehighHeartbreak milehighHeartbreak 31-35, M 2 Responses Jan 1

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    I annoy myself so much. my mind never stops talking. i hate the sound of my own voice. i hate my reflection. i hate the way i look. i hate my personality. i hate everything about...
    EnjoyTheSilenceX EnjoyTheSilenceX 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    I do not know why I posted the last story. I think I'm just weird and over it. All of my sh!t's gonna be on blast one day. If not, then I've pretty much given up on becoming famous...
    adianoeta adianoeta 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 2

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    Even though i felt lonely, felt depression and suicidal things creeping up on my back bone, the only thing thats keeping me now from waking up with a razor and slitted wrist is the...
    CursedRaven CursedRaven 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    I was 12 years old when I and thirty other kids were waiting outside in front of the school. It was the first week of secondary school. In a few minutes we would bike to a nearby...
    Jemoeder Jemoeder 26-30 1 Response Jan 4

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    if I make someone important upset or make myself upset I'll say negative things to myself and lock myself in my room and starve myself no matter how hungry I am
    LilahWolf LilahWolf 16-17, F Jan 5

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    I'm so fat and ugly and stupid. I'm a massive screw up, I can't do anything right. I can't stick to a diet because I'm such a fatass. I have no self control. I barely have any...
    SheSaid15 SheSaid15 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 7

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    Now I will pick myself up and brush myself off. Do what's exactly right by me: study hard, workout hard, take great care of myself... love myself so completely. I will be even...
    Summerandroses Summerandroses 22-25, F 7 Responses Jan 9

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    I generally isolate myself in my place 2-3 times a week, so that i can be completely alone, and nothing negative will happen in my life. I am self employed, and my business is so...
    herbals4ever herbals4ever 46-50, M 1 Response Jan 13

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    Whenever I post a picture of myself on here (a few times) I get comments and messages like "You're Beautiful." "You're pretty" stuff like that. I'm not here to fish for compliments...
    vaashapenin vaashapenin 16-17, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    I was going through a very difficult time with my best friend. She was having issues with self-hatred and suicidal thoughts and attempts that I was there to see or hear about. I...
    sociallyxawk sociallyxawk 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 29, 2014

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    I've done somethings I'm not proud of and now I can't even bring myself to look at my reflection. I despise myself I hate that I hate myself that I'm so pitiful and incapable of...
    Alx42 Alx42 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 29, 2014

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    I wrote ab out my bad traits in 2014 and i promised i'll eliminate these traits by 2015 : EP Link I'd like to share this story with you to tell ya what i have eliminated up till...
    Mvendetta2 Mvendetta2 18-21, M Jan 1

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    I've sworn to myself that THIS year I WILL lose weight so that I can feel better about myself. I have low self esteem, partly because I feel ugly because I'm so fat. Whenever I get...
    ConfessionsOfALostGurl ConfessionsOfALostGurl 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 3

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    How can you keep living on when you absolutely dislike yourself? I guess its a question that everybody asks themselves but a question I keep asking myself more and more often as...
    xrainey xrainey 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    I hate being strong when I know I'm weak...but I act that way so ppl don't look at me with pity I hate being beautiful when I feel ugly, i put on makeup and dress to impress, but...
    boxgirl1987 boxgirl1987 26-30, F Jan 4

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    I look in the mirror and I'm unhappy. I compare myself to others and I am so awful. I see pictures of myself and I can't even look at them. I do things that annoy people or I make...
    taylorsuzenski taylorsuzenski 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    I have been trying to "pick myself up by my bootstraps" as folks have a REAL affinity for saying. It is going pretty well, although I am still having my hardships. It seems like...
    milehighHeartbreak milehighHeartbreak 31-35, M 2 Responses Jan 5

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    I've always had weight issues and struggled with wanting to be thinner. In Mid October of 2014 I was 5'5 138 pounds. I was prescribed adderall for add, I began to see I didn't eat...
    mjglynn mjglynn 13-15, F Jan 6

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    hi guys I'm new to this website so yea /. well I'm 16 and I've played softball all my life last year was the one year I couldn't play because of a shoulder injury lately I have...
    JenEspinosa17 JenEspinosa17 16-17, F Jan 7

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    Single and alone, it was a huge change which I never signed up to go through. Every single day, I go out into the big scary world, and I live my life without him. I would go...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 7 Responses Jan 9

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    Today marks the day of change. I've noticed I've gotten better with myself in growth. A year ago today I wanted to die, I hated myself more than anything in the world. But now I...
    acorn288 acorn288 16-17, F Jan 9

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    Just do I don't have a story, maybe I just need to give myself a shake and am feeling sorry for myself. Just over the past few months all I do is sleep a lot and it's just pure...
    myselfxox myselfxox 31-35, F Jan 9

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    After yrs of being told (in a roundabout way) I finally see for myself that I'm just not a happy person. I have bad habits of worrying and stressing over every stupid little thing...
    lilldemen lilldemen 36-40, F 2 Responses Jan 10

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    Yep, I hate myself. Constant litany of self hate. Going on and on. It also doesn't help that dad is constantly belittling me, and my sister insults my intelligence every time I see...
    nicias nicias 13-15, M 3 Responses Jan 11

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    I hate myself because I can't make any friends , the one true friend I have is my bf , and hes always asleep when I need him. How did I become such a loner , I hate myself for not...
    Lovelyloo Lovelyloo 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 12

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    It hasn't been 2015 for 3 weeks, and already I'm so ashamed, confused, depressed. Last year at her party I kissed the brother of my bestfriends friend and she got a little pissed...
    imdonewiththis imdonewiththis 16-17, F Jan 12

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    I hate being myself. I'm really stupid and I'm not pretty /: no one likes me in person because I'm a stupid depressed loser. My own family doesn't like me... They think I am too...
    disasterland disasterland 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 15

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