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I Am Recently Widowed

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    Forty Two Days Later. I'M Still Stuck.

    I lost my husband forty two days ago. I lost a whole part of my life. My children lost their daddy. I lost the man I married, I'd lost him since he was diagnosed but now...now I had no one to hug, or to squeeze hands with. Even when he was so I L he couldn't feel that, at least...
    MegMog MegMog 36-40, F 4 Responses Apr 8, 2013

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    I lost my husband and soulmate on June 27 due

    to cardiac arrest (first time) and I miss him so much. It was early morning he was at home with our 4 year old and when I got home he was gone.. He was only 39..
    mhac123 mhac123 31-35, F 3 Responses Jul 16, 2015

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    I was married 51 years

    and together 53. lost him april 25 don't know how to go on
    Dab3lucky Dab3lucky 66-70, F 4 Responses May 14, 2015

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    I recently lost my wife of 37 years,

    due to complications from liver disease. I am devastated. But with the Lords help and the support of family and friends, I pray that the lost to our family and the huge hole in my heart will begin to heal. My prayers and sympathy goes out to anyone who has had to go through...
    gasman1 gasman1 61-65, M 7 Responses Dec 26, 2014

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    My husband Dave of 15 years lost his battle

    with CHF and other related issues. I am lost without him and miss him so much, I still sleep on the couch where I was sleeping before he died so I could get up and help him when he needed it, he was sleeping in a hospital bed. I get some comfort knowing he's not in pain anymore...
    Grannygoosie Grannygoosie 51-55, F 1 Response Mar 14, 2015

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    There was a moment that changed my life.

    In one moment, I was changed forever. One moment I was married to the love of my life. The next moment, I was a lost, scared, and broken widow. Cherish every moment. You never know when life will change
    Mcrossbrand Mcrossbrand 46-50, F 3 Responses Jun 22, 2015

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    My wife of 25 years recently passed away.

    She was in pain and discomfort for over 10 years. Her health starting deteriorating at an accelerated pace for the last two years. I was too busy trying to help keep her alive and comfortable to realize how close she was to dying, so when her heart finally gave out, it was...
    rocinante2112 rocinante2112 46-50, M 2 Responses Apr 21, 2015

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    I have to choose everyday to be happy

    for myself. Sometimes I lack the energy but I don't want to get stuck on this same spot so I force myself to continue smiling & living life.
    NotperfectEver NotperfectEver 41-45, F 4 Responses Aug 8, 2015

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    Went away for the weekend to renew my Austswim

    training. While away i started to feel some normality again...some what anyway. But now im back home i cant shake this OVER whelming feeling of utter loneness....i feeling like a huge tidal wave has knocked me down on my butt :(
    tilly75 tilly75 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 25, 2015

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    I missed my wife.I searching

    for life partner to continue the life
    nareshkumarbhutani nareshkumarbhutani 36-40, M 3 Responses Nov 26, 2015

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    I became a widow 3 years ago this month.

    My husband and 3 of our oldest sons were involved in a head on traffic accident when a male teenage drunk driver going the wrong way on the freeway hit our van. All four occupants in our van were killed instantly upon contact.
    singlemomwith5kids singlemomwith5kids 46-50, F 5 Responses Aug 1, 2015

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    My husband was killed In Feb 2015.

    I feel like I am living a nightmare. My doctor wants me to take Zoloft and Ativan. I am afraid to take medication. I have insomnia. I just want to feel normal again. I feel great sadness and anxiety. My family don't understand. I need support. I feel like I am dreaming. Is this...
    i5202000s i5202000s 41-45, F 2 Responses Jun 20, 2015

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    My husband died suddenly two months ago tonight.

    He was only 51 years old and so healthy, strong and vital that I still can't understand what happened. He died while he was away on a business trip in Saudi Arabia and just never came home. Something went wrong with his heart and he died in his sleep. It has devastated me...
    mhammond mhammond 51-55 3 Responses Mar 7, 2015

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    Ive had quite the wretched year.

    My husband was Navy and passed away august 6th of 2014 and since then life has been a nightmare. I suffer from severe depression, anxiety, and ptsd. Because of this my son, born two months before my husband's untimely death at 21, was given to my mother in law. I completed a...
    watchyourgrammar watchyourgrammar 22-25, F Jan 11

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    Getting Worse? Getting Better?

    It's still so hard. I cry at the drop of a hat. And ten minutes later I'm angry. And then I'm just resigned to it all. And it goes on and on. It has only been four months since he died. I guess I just feel like I am still swimming in sadness and grief and everyone else has...
    terrishaun terrishaun 46-50, F 3 Responses Oct 30, 2013

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    I guess I'll be in on the conversation.

    This last November (2014) my wife passed away from multiple myeloma cancer. We were engaged about 40 years ago. I was in the military and got orders overseas. I got the ring back. What can I say, she was 18 and changed her mind. Six years ago I contacted her and we started...
    jw97005 jw97005 61-65, M 2 Responses May 10, 2015

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    In one week it will be four months

    since the love of my life died before we could make it to the hospital. He had called into work that day because he'd overslept. He went back to bed and came out four hours later and said to me "Get dressed, I'm having a heart attack". We live way out in the sticks, so I didn...
    BlueWidowAngy BlueWidowAngy 41-45, F 4 Responses Sep 7, 2015

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    Missing Him

    I lost my Husband 7 months ago. I miss him so much, the emptiness and loneliness are the hardest things to deal with. I put a smile on my face and push myself everyday. People say it gets easier but no one tells me if the broken heart I have will ever stop hurting. He was my...
    Leeand29 Leeand29 51-55, F 16 Responses Nov 6, 2013

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    My husband died suddenly almost 3 months ago.

    He was only 43, I miss him so much. I have a 10 & 11 year old. It still doesn't seem real even though I know it is. His heart just stopped, my kids and I found him and couldn't get him to wake up and it's very hard to get that memory out of my mind. Or at the hospital when they...
    LoLoEvie LoLoEvie 46-50, F 2 Responses Mar 6, 2015

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    Car lasted as long as my marriage.

    I brought it for when I got married so could drive wife around an died within 6 months of her going. silly to get attached to a piece of metal but feels like another part of her going..
    Widower1 Widower1 31-35 1 Response Apr 27, 2015

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    I miss my husband. Cancer took him way too soon.

    I don't the way out of my grief. I miss him saying "hello sweetie" or the way he made me laugh or his warm kisses. I just miss him. I'm angry that everyone else gets to be happy all I can do is cry
    Mgant102862 Mgant102862 51-55, F 6 Responses Nov 23, 2015

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    I lost my husband one year ago to bladder cancer

    and I still miss him so terribly much. I just need someone to talk to,.
    ConLee ConLee 61-65, F 5 Responses Mar 26, 2014

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    It's the 31st today. I suddenly realized

    that it's been 2 months. And it doesn't feel any easier.. What to do? When will I feel better? I'm thinking 6 months and then a year, 2 years.. will go by so quickly.. will this pain and sadness and regret and everything go away..? I reckon the answer will be No. It doesn't go...
    Tisimi Tisimi 31-35, F 3 Responses Mar 30, 2014

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    I reunited with someone I dated back in the 60!

    s marred in 2011 passed away 10 mo ltr my heart is broken
    paz1 paz1 56-60 Mar 9, 2015

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    I Am 38 and Lost My 40-year-old Husband of 19 Years On 1/6/2009

    It is still unreal to me.  I stumbled onto this web site while searching for sites on being recently widowed.  My husband has been my best friend for over 20 years.  We did everything together.  He was a coal-miner and an avid hunter, especially turkey and...
    stacybob stacybob 36-40 14 Responses Feb 2, 2009

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    8 Months And 6 Days

      since Leah died, and week by week I am changing. I know the first couple of weeks I was so afraid that I would forget her;  I couldn’t remember her face, I couldn’t remember her voice, I couldn’t remember any happy times. As the weeks went by I...
    mergelayers mergelayers 51-55, M 7 Responses Apr 30, 2010

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    My husband died 49 days ago.

    . on Lunar new Year.. He went to his hometown to visit his family and I stayed at home with our 2 daughters, 1 and a half and 3 and a half.. The next morning, on New Year's Day my mother in law calls and tells us the news.. His heart stopped in his sleep. He was 26. And I am 29...
    Tisimi Tisimi 31-35, F 6 Responses Mar 19, 2014

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    My Husband passed away in his sleep June 19,

    2015. He had been dealing with complications from a head injury but had been doing fine and now he is gone.
    RobieW RobieW 56-60, F 7 Responses Jul 6, 2015

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    I recently lost my husband in Jan.

    We were together for 12 years.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses May 12, 2015

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    Now, the Dark of Winter

    Thirty four years ... they held us up as an example to the less fortunate ones whose relationships fell apart. "They're like this," her youngest brother told her, waving his hand up and down, "but you guys are like this --" a steady, level sweep.  Others noted the intensity...
    windlion windlion 56-60, M 8 Responses Oct 18, 2008

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    I can only wish you all find peace

    and happiness it is a few years since I lost my wife and I was very lost without her but things have got easier as time passes,but never forgotten wishing you a brighter New Year ahead
    sunnlad sunnlad 46-50, M 3 Responses Dec 28, 2015

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    Widowed twice, first married

    for 29 years. He died of Lung cancer. It has now been 4 months since husband of 21 years died of liver cancer. It is much more difficult this time. Maybe because I am older & cannot cope as well. I live alone except for my poodle. Need to communicate with female 65-75 for...
    cook4j cook4j 70+, F 2 Responses Mar 3, 2015

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    Two weeks ago i lost my beautiful husband to

    stomach cancer. He put up a brave fight for 9 months but once the cemo stopped working........it just happened soo fast and he was gone. He went into hospital on the Wednesday for pain management, the following Thursday he was put into an induced coma and passed away the next...
    tilly75 tilly75 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 18, 2015

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    I lost my beloved wife on May 31st,

    2015, after 31 glorious years together and everytime someone tells me that it is God's will, I want to punch them. I don't want a God that sends an ill or accident to a son, It must be another thing that can destroy a love as big as ours. Once I thought, please God dont' charge...
    alfonsordgz alfonsordgz 51-55, M 7 Responses Jul 13, 2015

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    Worth Reading May Help

    I have lost the one I love, the one I cherish. My lover, my best friend, my whole life. Either you have stumbled across this because you want to find out how to help me, or I have given this to you. How I am Feeling • I am numb. I am in shock. I am emotionally exhausted...
    barb111 barb111 51-55, F 14 Responses Jul 3, 2012

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      I am looking for someone,

    well really a woman, to be a friend. I am 61 and lost me wife in Nov 2014. I am moving on with my life but miss that company and sensibility of a woman. I am not trying to replace her but there is a void. I have daughters and we talk. There is the parent child relationship which...
    jw97005 jw97005 61-65, M 4 Responses May 18, 2015

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    My husband was killed In Feb 2015.

    I feel like I am living a nightmare. My doctor wants me to take Zoloft and Ativan. I am afraid to take medication. I have insomnia. I just want to feel normal again. I feel great sadness and anxiety. My family don't understand. I feel like I am dreaming every day? Is this normal...
    i5202000s i5202000s 41-45, F 4 Responses Jun 20, 2015

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    Strange Days

    **** faced. I was going to go to a basketball game tonight (the good guys won, without me in attendance)  but it turns out there was a conspiracy to keep me from going. My wine glass kept getting topped off and by the time I caught on the game had already started and...
    mergelayers mergelayers 51-55, M 4 Responses Mar 7, 2010

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    I have decided to use this experience

    as a sounding board. I have 45 days widowed and have come to the understanding that I am no longer excepted into my in-laws family. They have a hatred for me and a blame against me for my wife's death. This leaves me very few people to speak with about grieving because when she...
    Shmily68 Shmily68 46-50, M 1 Response Mar 25, 2014

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    Who Am I?

    My wife of over 30 yrs died suddenly about six weeks ago.  I have been taking a lot of meds to deal with the grief and I am sure that I would be non functional if it weren't for them.  In some moments of clarity, it occurs to me that people at my age can easily die...
    Iusedto Iusedto 61-65, M 16 Responses Sep 6, 2008

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    I want to share something

    that inspires me to continue with my life. When you are suffering cancer a lot of remedies come to your door, from relatives, from friends even from unknown people. When chemo wasn't working anymore my wife found a theory that says cancer and other major illnesses come from...
    alfonsordgz alfonsordgz 51-55, M 1 Response Jul 27, 2015

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    Dying of Grief

    My wife died suddenly last July.  I am doing a lot better although I will still have those sad moments when I am thinking to myself how much fun it will be to tell my wife about something that just happened and then realize I won't be able to.  Immediately...
    Iusedto Iusedto 61-65, M 7 Responses Feb 10, 2009

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    I have just recently lost my best friend,

    my soul mate, my lover and wife. We met when we were 14, that was 30 years ago. She moved in two door down from my parents house and I told her that first day that I would marry her and spend the rest of our lives together. Five years later we were walking down the isle together...
    BankofDad BankofDad 36-40, M 4 Responses Feb 5, 2014

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    Okay it's been one month

    or a little over. It still seems like yesterday that she was sitting right here with me. The long lonely nights make it worse. I know there was a lot of silence between us but now the silences just deafening. Every little thing has its reminder of you and I sit here tonight...
    Shmily68 Shmily68 46-50, M 2 Responses Mar 25, 2014

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    My husband died of ischemic heart disease about

    7 months ago while we were on a trip in Russia. It was a complete shock to me as he had never experienced any chest pain before. My doctor told me it can happen quite sudden and fast. These 7 months had been a heart-breaking and lonely journey for me. However, I'm slowly...
    Sandrafu Sandrafu 41-45, F 3 Responses Mar 8, 2015

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