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I Am Recovering From Childhood Sexual Abuse

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    I Am So Angry At The World!

    *warning for my language and maybe trigger?* How can these people just do these things! everytime I see another person has been abused as a kid.. I just want to go on a f****** killing spree. Why would anyone want to rape a 5 year old when they have someone their age right down...
    TangledLife TangledLife 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 9, 2013

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    Am I Lucky?

    "This is a story that I have never told. I have to get this off my chest to let it go." This is a line from a Demi Lovato song that I love. I have told my story before, but telling people face to face-people who you love and are supposed to love you-can produce different...
    thepurplelover thepurplelover 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 12, 2013

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    So You Think You Can F*uck With a Kid? You Lose, W*anker

      copyright@emmasharn    Children live on instinct, that is all they’ve got.  They haven’t trained in b*ullshit, like the adults with a lot.  You can never force a child to trust you if it can’t.  They don’t use your tactics...
    emmasharn emmasharn 31-35, F 2 Responses May 16, 2009

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    How Much Was I Worth?

    Some writing from my blog www.diaryofabrokenchild.blogspot.com How much did they pay you daddy? How much was I worth? Was I a good girl, doing the things you had showed me since birth? You told me I was growing and said I was meant to learn the women's way So I laid on my...
    silverstar415850 silverstar415850 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 22, 2013

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    I don't even remember it,

    and I'm not even sure if it happened. But all signs point to it and my doctors are suggesting it. I'm meeting with a friend today, as a hook up. I'm terrified, but I need to know if I'm just being stupid or if I really was molested as a child and these are the after-effects.
    SegaStar SegaStar 13-15, F Jan 11

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    In Case I Didn't Get Enough the First Time....

      I had been abused by my father when I was 3, and after, a few cases of inc*est from my brother up to my mid 20's.  And I went thru a very promiscuous stage b4 going off s*ex altogether. Am in a happy relationship with a nice man, but I have not been able to face s*ex...
    emmasharn emmasharn 31-35, F 5 Responses May 17, 2009

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    Why Can't I Let Go?

    It's funny how all my happy memories of my childhood were kind of destroyed by one person I hardly knew. How can someone take away anothers joy?.. When I was about 7 years old, my uncle, on my dads side, a man I had never seen or met was in need of a place to live. My father was...
    ThatOneGirl7396 ThatOneGirl7396 16-17, F 5 Responses Nov 18, 2012

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    I Just Didn'know

    It started when i was 10. A friend of my dads. He acted like he wanted to be my big brother. It started as just touching and petting. He had intercourse with me when I was 12. It went on for years till his wife caught us. My dad confronted me I convinced him it wasn't true. So it...
    arei27 arei27 26-30 3 Responses Nov 20, 2010

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    Why Can't I Get Over It?

    i was raped when i was 9 by a much older teenager who lived next door. i have the worst memory and even now can't remember things that happened just a few months ago. i remember my dark high school period followed by college when my first sexual experience brought it all back...
    passel passel 31-35, F 4 Responses Oct 7, 2011

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    Trying To Tell My Mom About The Abuse.

    I thought today was the day I practiced saying what I was going to say in the shower but when I sat down next to her to spill the beans I felt like I was starting to panic. I became slightly uncomfortable, I started having chest pain, and now I have a migraine. She deserves to...
    TheEdgeOfEarth TheEdgeOfEarth 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 21, 2013

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    You Need Me More Than I Need You....Except You'll Never Get Me Again....

      copyright@emmasharn    Abuse me, abuse me, try to confuse me. You must excuse me, for making you choose me, you didn’t think that you’d ever lose me. How can I have s*ex appeal as a child? I can’t imagine what drove you so wild. Before I was...
    emmasharn emmasharn 31-35, F 1 Response May 16, 2009

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    I Need to Remember It!

    I cannot remember fully.  I just get a vague sense of what happened to me at 3. My father recently admitted to abusing me. Instead of filling me in on details, he just asked what I could recall. I declined to answer, and said I didn't wanna talk about it. I didn't trust his...
    emmasharn emmasharn 31-35, F 2 Responses May 13, 2009

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    Can You Ever Have A Normal Life

    From the time I was 7 until I was 16, my stepfather sexually and physically abused me. He didn't rape me, but there are other ways to mess a childs mind and self esteem up. I dont know if I can write about what he did to me here. I remember that he started messing with my...
    bitchkitty bitchkitty 46-50, F 1 Response Jun 27, 2012

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    I Doubt I Will Ever Really Get Over It

    I have accepted I may never get over the abuse and the rape... it was compounded by abuse by the film group, catholics and dutch people and people in the radio, film and music industry.... those people are very twisted and egoistic ... they just go about abusing most young women...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 8, 2011

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    My Blog About Surviving

    Originally I started my blog just to have a diary to write in about my sexual abuse as a child. Recently a few others have found it and followed me and Its so nice to get the support. But after talking with friends who are also survivors they told me my writings really help them...
    silverstar415850 silverstar415850 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 23, 2012

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    My dad sexually abused

    and raped me since I was about 6 years old and the last one I can remember was when I was 11 wher he was trying to do somthing and I kicked him trying to get away and he got really angery and kicked me back grabbed my hair took me to his room and threw me on his bed and tore my...
    misaka12 misaka12 13-15, F 12 Responses Dec 29, 2013

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    I was abused for over 28 years in the carer

    system under social services and out of the social service system
    andrewash andrewash 41-45, M Jan 9

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    Is anyone still coming to terms with a lot of

    what happened? It's like there are a lot of things that we don't talk about in the open and that even a therapist wouldn't understand. Somethings you just don't talk about or even mention, you know?
    EmmaBrun EmmaBrun 13-15, F 8 Responses Jan 2

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    How Many Of Us Are Angry

    I am simply angry at the thought that I don't know why my grandfather would decide to touch me sexually and than have the never to tell me not to tell anyone. I am angry because the thoughts of what happened invade my mind at times when there's no one to talk to. I know there are...
    DJ95 DJ95 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 4, 2013

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    I have just watched this film,

    Silent House and it really triggered a lot of bad memories.Like a lot of them for all of that dont know i have been abused as a child by my grandfather and it was awful it went on for a few years and i just got really upset.I wouldn't of watch it if i knew what it was about.I...
    SammyLautner SammyLautner 13-15, F Mar 23

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    i was seven year old my uncle had sex with

    and get to bed with i told my mum when was 15 year old i hate him because of it he made out that my fault
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 14, 2013

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    When I was 11 years old my dad went to prison

    and I went to live with my grandfather, one night I was lying in his bed and out of no where he grabbed my wrist and made me touch his penis.. I said "I don't like it" and he responded with "that's why I done it" .. It only happened 3 years ago and I finally told my dad this...
    Alicolette Alicolette 13-15, F Feb 28

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    I Just Recently Remembered, And Only A Bit

    I only just remembered a few nights ago, and what I do remember isn't much, but here's what I know for sure. It was when I was 5-7 and I was living on base housing in England. The girl was around 11 or 12 and I remember going to her house fairly often. When I would visit her she...
    OrdinalChaos OrdinalChaos 18-21, M Oct 3, 2012

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    I'm recovering from the years of abuse, lost friends, hateful words, self harm, neglect, and most of all; no one caring. I'm ready to fight until I'm happy. It's time to be the...
    Wishingtobegone Wishingtobegone 13-15, F 1 hr ago

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    My mom just told me the other day that I might have been sexually abused when I was 4. I was like, "What do you mean, "might" ? " She would drop me off at daycare when she went to...
    innerself000 innerself000 18-21 1 Response Apr 7

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    My name is Dakota. I'm 14. I'm a victim of sexual abuse. I'm overcoming this trauma one day at a time. I'm learning to trust again. If you want to know my back story, please read...
    mouthdakota mouthdakota 18-21, M 5 Responses Mar 22

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    I was sexually abused by my older brother and was raped by my two cousin when I was a little girl from that day till now I wish I wasn't here in this world n I still wonder in...
    ezzyrock ezzyrock 13-15, F 4 Responses Mar 30

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    I was sexually abused by my step grandfather I mean I remember I was at least 6 years old. But who is to say he wasn't sexually abusing me since before then
    Reynastaxx Reynastaxx 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    I think that most of the things I allow sexually had to do with me being sexually abuse when I was younger I need professional help
    Reynastaxx Reynastaxx 26-30, F 3 Responses Mar 24

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    I've been sexually abused by my uncle and my grandfather both different days,thank god I wasnt raped, but there was a lot of fingering and as a little kid it hurt so bad,my uncle...
    Score16 Score16 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    For 10 years I was sexually abused by the man who I thought to be my father. When I found out that he wasn't my real dad, it made me feel better.
    Wanderlust7 Wanderlust7 16-17, F Mar 27

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    I my sexual abusers confessed! I won!
    Reinya85 Reinya85 26-30 2 Responses Apr 4

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    I am actually curious and have more of a question regarding this topic. Why do people who have been sexually abused desire to be hurt in such a way again? Or why do they turn into...
    TheSimsWePlay TheSimsWePlay 22-25, F 5 Responses 6 days ago

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    Hi, it's Dakota again. I've already told my story of being raped by my uncle and three strange men last summer, just after I turned 14. One of the men was killed in a bad drug deal...
    mouthdakota mouthdakota 18-21, M 10 Responses Apr 4

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    This is something I have a hard time admitting and even though I have talked about the abuse to people I trust, I never let them know it was him. 10 years after the last incident...
    shierahawke88 shierahawke88 36-40, F 3 Responses Mar 31

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    When I was about 4 years old, almost 5 my mother had met this man, who was about to be in our lives for a very long time. When I just got into kindergarten he had fallen off a...
    JustALittleGirl123 JustALittleGirl123 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 3

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    My abuse started when I was married to my ex-husband. He would make me call him in late for work and then he would rape me. This went on for about three years. I also remember...
    randi123456 randi123456 56-60, F Mar 31

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    Well I'm Stefan I'm 17 my dad passed away when I was 3 my mom married again my current step father he's from Ukraine he has a son 14 yo my younger stepbrother my mom died 6 years...
    stefan14 stefan14 16-17, M 2 Responses Apr 3

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    Never thought I'd actually ever find someone I trust. I can be 3 seconds from walking off a bridge and he says the simplistic thing and I feel better. Unfortunately, it had to be a...
    Ashclo Ashclo 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 4

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    I plan on providing a more detailed story, but I feel I need to get the gist out. My dad molested me on multiple occasions/felt me up/acted perverted towards me and my sister. One...
    graymoth graymoth 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    It isn't me but my 7yr old little cousin. He goes to a private Lutheran school and went to school on Friday with his hair in the same fashion as the main character in Vikings. A...
    SurpriseMeToday SurpriseMeToday 18-21, F Mar 22

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    Ok so when I was a little girl I used to be really close to my dad and all the time I would lay next to him on the couch and he would always pet me on my arms and head but then be...
    ninaaba14 ninaaba14 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 22

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    Writing a book ,anyone want to contribute there stories in this,No perverts!!!!
    Ursick Ursick 13-15, M 1 Response Mar 30

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    Never show your wounds to those without any of their own, for they will only open them wider, trying to understand. - Rachel Wolchin Not many people can understand and those who...
    BaileyWolf BaileyWolf 16-17, M 1 Response Mar 31

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    I feel like I need to depend on someone else to provide my happiness. I need someone to control me the way my father did for 10 years.
    Wanderlust7 Wanderlust7 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 31

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    When I was a child, I had an uncle that raped me over and over. I feared him, I was taken into a room as my pants was pulled down to my ankles and he forced himself inside me. I...
    Mark223 Mark223 36-40, M 3 Responses Apr 3

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    Well, im in recovery again. eating is a sometimes ok thing. Some days im hungry and give in, other days anna's in control. i cant wait to be rid of this eating disorder once and...
    wishingforrecovery wishingforrecovery 16-17, F Apr 3

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    The night mates are haunting. He comes into my dreams and scares me. I can't control it and I can't just end it. It like I'm a little helpless girl again and no one can save me...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 7

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    Well I just want to post that some time has passed and I have learned a lot. First I wake up every morning and I love the person staring back at me. I have integrity and a life...
    Sugar973 Sugar973 46-50, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    To make my story short parents broke up when I was three lived with mom dad started to molest me shortly after they split. Then at the age of five my mom started dating this...
    justwanabe justwanabe 22-25, F 6 Responses Apr 9

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    I was too by a nos of preditors need to talk with other survivers
    sibble sibble 56-60, F 1 Response Apr 12

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    The only "love" I've ever experienced was when he had his hands in my pants. I went out of my way to protect my sister and my mom. I thought I was doing the right thing.
    Wanderlust7 Wanderlust7 16-17, F 5 days ago

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