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I Am Recovering From Childhood Sexual Abuse

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    Why Can't I Let Go?

    It's funny how all my happy memories of my childhood were kind of destroyed by one person I hardly knew. How can someone take away anothers joy?.. When I was about 7 years old, my uncle, on my dads side, a man I had never seen or met was in need of a place to live. My father was...
    ThatOneGirl7396 ThatOneGirl7396 16-17, F 5 Responses Nov 18, 2012

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    I Need to Remember It!

    I cannot remember fully.  I just get a vague sense of what happened to me at 3. My father recently admitted to abusing me. Instead of filling me in on details, he just asked what I could recall. I declined to answer, and said I didn't wanna talk about it. I didn't trust his...
    emmasharn emmasharn 31-35, F 2 Responses May 13, 2009

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    I don't even remember it,

    and I'm not even sure if it happened. But all signs point to it and my doctors are suggesting it. I'm meeting with a friend today, as a hook up. I'm terrified, but I need to know if I'm just being stupid or if I really was molested as a child and these are the after-effects.
    SegaStar SegaStar 16-17, F Jan 11

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    I Just Recently Remembered, And Only A Bit

    I only just remembered a few nights ago, and what I do remember isn't much, but here's what I know for sure. It was when I was 5-7 and I was living on base housing in England. The girl was around 11 or 12 and I remember going to her house fairly often. When I would visit her she...
    OrdinalChaos OrdinalChaos 18-21, M Oct 3, 2012

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    Why Can't I Get Over It?

    i was raped when i was 9 by a much older teenager who lived next door. i have the worst memory and even now can't remember things that happened just a few months ago. i remember my dark high school period followed by college when my first sexual experience brought it all back...
    passel passel 31-35, F 4 Responses Oct 7, 2011

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    How Much Was I Worth?

    Some writing from my blog www.diaryofabrokenchild.blogspot.com How much did they pay you daddy? How much was I worth? Was I a good girl, doing the things you had showed me since birth? You told me I was growing and said I was meant to learn the women's way So I laid on my...
    silverstar415850 silverstar415850 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 22, 2013

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    In Case I Didn't Get Enough the First Time....

      I had been abused by my father when I was 3, and after, a few cases of inc*est from my brother up to my mid 20's.  And I went thru a very promiscuous stage b4 going off s*ex altogether. Am in a happy relationship with a nice man, but I have not been able to face s*ex...
    emmasharn emmasharn 31-35, F 5 Responses May 17, 2009

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    So You Think You Can F*uck With a Kid? You Lose, W*anker

      copyright@emmasharn    Children live on instinct, that is all they’ve got.  They haven’t trained in b*ullshit, like the adults with a lot.  You can never force a child to trust you if it can’t.  They don’t use your tactics...
    emmasharn emmasharn 31-35, F 2 Responses May 16, 2009

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    How Do You Cope With The After Effects Of Abuse?

    I was abused (sexually and emotionally) by a guy I worked for from the age of 12 to 19, and during that time, at age 15, I got into a ten year relationship (which I ended recently) with a guy who I hoped would protect me and help me, but instead used the emotional damage I have...
    ConfusedGal25 ConfusedGal25 22-25 2 Responses Jun 15, 2011

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    Can You Ever Have A Normal Life

    From the time I was 7 until I was 16, my stepfather sexually and physically abused me. He didn't rape me, but there are other ways to mess a childs mind and self esteem up. I dont know if I can write about what he did to me here. I remember that he started messing with my...
    bitchkitty bitchkitty 46-50, F 1 Response Jun 27, 2012

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    I Just Didn'know

    It started when i was 10. A friend of my dads. He acted like he wanted to be my big brother. It started as just touching and petting. He had intercourse with me when I was 12. It went on for years till his wife caught us. My dad confronted me I convinced him it wasn't true. So it...
    arei27 arei27 26-30 3 Responses Nov 20, 2010

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    Is anyone still coming to terms with a lot of

    what happened? It's like there are a lot of things that we don't talk about in the open and that even a therapist wouldn't understand. Somethings you just don't talk about or even mention, you know?
    EmmaBrun EmmaBrun 13-15, F 8 Responses Jan 2

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    I was abused for over 28 years in the carer

    system under social services and out of the social service system
    andrewash andrewash 46-50, M Jan 9

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    My victim impact statement.

    I feel my life crumbling down into one big mess and I just can't dig myself out. This man was suppose to be my protector against all evils in the world, to be my role model in life, and most important he was Suppose to be family. But all he was is a devil in disguise , he was...
    chels18 chels18 18-21, F 4 Responses May 5

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    Trying To Tell My Mom About The Abuse.

    I thought today was the day I practiced saying what I was going to say in the shower but when I sat down next to her to spill the beans I felt like I was starting to panic. I became slightly uncomfortable, I started having chest pain, and now I have a migraine. She deserves to...
    TheEdgeOfEarth TheEdgeOfEarth 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 21, 2013

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    I Am So Angry At The World!

    *warning for my language and maybe trigger?* How can these people just do these things! everytime I see another person has been abused as a kid.. I just want to go on a f****** killing spree. Why would anyone want to rape a 5 year old when they have someone their age right down...
    TangledLife TangledLife 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 9, 2013

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    When I was 11 years old my dad went to prison

    and I went to live with my grandfather, one night I was lying in his bed and out of no where he grabbed my wrist and made me touch his penis.. I said "I don't like it" and he responded with "that's why I done it" .. It only happened 3 years ago and I finally told my dad this...
    Alicolette Alicolette 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 28

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    How Many Of Us Are Angry

    I am simply angry at the thought that I don't know why my grandfather would decide to touch me sexually and than have the never to tell me not to tell anyone. I am angry because the thoughts of what happened invade my mind at times when there's no one to talk to. I know there are...
    DJ95 DJ95 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 4, 2013

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    My Blog About Surviving

    Originally I started my blog just to have a diary to write in about my sexual abuse as a child. Recently a few others have found it and followed me and Its so nice to get the support. But after talking with friends who are also survivors they told me my writings really help them...
    silverstar415850 silverstar415850 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 23, 2012

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    i was seven year old my uncle had sex with

    and get to bed with i told my mum when was 15 year old i hate him because of it he made out that my fault
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 14, 2013

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    My dad sexually abused

    and raped me since I was about 6 years old and the last one I can remember was when I was 11 wher he was trying to do somthing and I kicked him trying to get away and he got really angery and kicked me back grabbed my hair took me to his room and threw me on his bed and tore my...
    misaka12 misaka12 13-15, F 21 Responses Dec 29, 2013

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    You Need Me More Than I Need You....Except You'll Never Get Me Again....

      copyright@emmasharn    Abuse me, abuse me, try to confuse me. You must excuse me, for making you choose me, you didn’t think that you’d ever lose me. How can I have s*ex appeal as a child? I can’t imagine what drove you so wild. Before I was...
    emmasharn emmasharn 31-35, F 1 Response May 16, 2009

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    Am I Lucky?

    "This is a story that I have never told. I have to get this off my chest to let it go." This is a line from a Demi Lovato song that I love. I have told my story before, but telling people face to face-people who you love and are supposed to love you-can produce different...
    thepurplelover thepurplelover 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 12, 2013

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    I have just watched this film,

    Silent House and it really triggered a lot of bad memories.Like a lot of them for all of that dont know i have been abused as a child by my grandfather and it was awful it went on for a few years and i just got really upset.I wouldn't of watch it if i knew what it was about.I...
    SammyLautner SammyLautner 13-15, F Mar 23

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    EmmaBrun EmmaBrun 13-15, F 3 Responses May 7

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    I Doubt I Will Ever Really Get Over It

    I have accepted I may never get over the abuse and the rape... it was compounded by abuse by the film group, catholics and dutch people and people in the radio, film and music industry.... those people are very twisted and egoistic ... they just go about abusing most young women...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 8, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    its hard to say the words its hard to even think
    maleeny maleeny 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    back then i was just a kid my brother,who i trusted took advantage in the most horrible way . yes i dont remeber the first time but i remember most of it to know that it was real...
    maleeny maleeny 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    On Sexual Abuse I will go, with the reason I am composing this letter, this is I'm sending this missive, because my daughter who is 8, was sexually assaulted, By my 22 year old...
    IrmaH IrmaH 36-40 Aug 21

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    On Sexual Abuse I will go, with the reason I am composing this letter, this is I'm sending this missive, because my daughter who is 8, was sexually assaulted, By my 22 year old...
    IrmaH IrmaH 36-40 2 Responses Aug 21

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    where do you start... at the beginning I guess. It all started when I was 4, I can remember trying to tell my mother about it,, She either didn't want to except it or didn't...
    wnme wnme 51-55, F 1 Response Aug 31

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    My foster mom had me sexually abused in the hospital. By a "doctor". I was seven. I had many many hospital stays growing up, treating my chronic lung condition. I'm a victim of...
    iMinnow iMinnow 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 28

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    This is a sensitive subj to talk about, when I was 5-6 I was sexually abused by my uncle, I still remember everything although in 16 now. I never did something about it, I still...
    myownmind2 myownmind2 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 4

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    my new baby girl was the result of long term sexual abuse... im scared she will look like my abuser or be violent or something... she's also had cystic fibrosis and there is so...
    ana097 ana097 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 8

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    I posted my experiences about my sexual abuse so people knew they weren't alone and that I'm truly willing to help. I hate that people attack me and say I need help. I'm the way I...
    xaliroox xaliroox 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 24

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    I was sexually abused and I feel like no one else knows how I feel x x x
    elizabethjay elizabethjay 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 31

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    I was sexually abused by my older brother and I told my mom but she didn't really seem to take much concern and it honestly kills me inside to ever be around him
    hellandtoast666 hellandtoast666 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 3

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    When I was five years old, a man sexually abused me more than twice. I'm afraid to tell people, because what if they see me differently or disgusted??
    samjuliah samjuliah 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    Im actually recovered now. I've been recovered for a few months now. its my third time recovering from anorexia. third times the charm, right? I've been struggling with it for over...
    wishingforrecovery wishingforrecovery 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 26

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    Never talked about it more then two or three times in my life and yesterday I just said it to my best friend and I saw his reaction then I knew I never told him that I was abused...
    Dengel85 Dengel85 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 26

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    I feel like I have more problems now that I've admitted to myself I've been abused, than when I was actually being abused. I'm in therapy but it's been a year already. I've made...
    wanderinggrl wanderinggrl 26-30, T 3 Responses Aug 26

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    Is it wrong to only want to speak to women about my abuse? It was a man who did it, I just feel more comfortable this way. :(
    dontknowmylife dontknowmylife 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 28

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    When i was a very little girl, between 2 - 5 i think. My daddy left us. Us being me, my brother, and my mom. She worked very hard to take care of us. Therefore I never had a lot of...
    CleverSiri CleverSiri 13-15, F 6 Responses Sep 12

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    When I was 14 I had been put on a work experience project by the school. I was working for two weeks in a hotel. The manager there was in his mid 20's and after the placement was...
    monstahmash monstahmash 22-25, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    My stepfather abused me weeks after we moved in with him. I was 16. He screwed me behind my moms back for two years. He just died, I am not sad.
    caitlintells caitlintells 36-40, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    I need to ask a question for any women my age. Please understand that I'm not trying to make you feel uncomfortable or flirt, nothing like that. Just looking for some feedback. How...
    dontknowmylife dontknowmylife 18-21, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    A few years ago my dad had alcohol addiction. One night he was so drunk he crept into my room and you know the rest.
    loveVictorandDumas loveVictorandDumas 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 22

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    I broke my right ankle this past June playing kickball. My left foot kinda slipped and then my right foot just snapped all the way to the right. It was absolutely horrifying. I was...
    lawsoncr lawsoncr 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 23

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    My dad started abusing me around 9. I never want to have sex. It's not something I ever want to experience with someone. How can I ever have a relationship that's more than...
    wanderinggrl wanderinggrl 26-30, T 3 Responses Aug 24

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    anyone available to talk tonight? I am having some flashbacks and I feel bad. :(
    EmmaBrun EmmaBrun 13-15, F 6 Responses Aug 28

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