I Am Recovering From Childhood Sexual Abuse

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 208 People

    I'm getting sick of my past abuse controlling

    my sex life. I want to think about sex like a normal person. I want sex to be empowering. I don't want it to be psychologically damaging every time I have a ******* ******.
    Scal92 Scal92
    22-25, F
    1 Response Dec 16, 2014

    I have just watched this film,

    Silent House and it really triggered a lot of bad memories.Like a lot of them for all of that dont know i have been abused as a child by my grandfather and it was awful it went on for a few years and i just got really upset.I wouldn't of watch it if i knew what it was about.I...
    SammyLautner SammyLautner
    13-15, F
    Mar 23, 2014

    So You Think You Can F*uck With a Kid? You Lose, W*anker

      copyright@emmasharn    Children live on instinct, that is all they’ve got.  They haven’t trained in b*ullshit, like the adults with a lot.  You can never force a child to trust you if it can’t.  They don’t use your tactics...
    emmasharn emmasharn
    31-35, F
    2 Responses May 16, 2009

    I Just Recently Remembered, And Only A Bit

    I only just remembered a few nights ago, and what I do remember isn't much, but here's what I know for sure. It was when I was 5-7 and I was living on base housing in England. The girl was around 11 or 12 and I remember going to her house fairly often. When I would visit her she...
    OrdinalChaos OrdinalChaos
    18-21, M
    Oct 3, 2012

    Can You Ever Have A Normal Life

    From the time I was 7 until I was 16, my stepfather sexually and physically abused me. He didn't rape me, but there are other ways to mess a childs mind and self esteem up. I dont know if I can write about what he did to me here. I remember that he started messing with my...
    bitchkitty bitchkitty
    46-50, F
    1 Response Jun 27, 2012

    My victim impact statement.

    I feel my life crumbling down into one big mess and I just can't dig myself out. This man was suppose to be my protector against all evils in the world, to be my role model in life, and most important he was Suppose to be family. But all he was is a devil in disguise , he was...
    chels18 chels18
    18-21, F
    5 Responses May 5, 2014

    Is anyone still coming to terms with a lot of

    what happened? It's like there are a lot of things that we don't talk about in the open and that even a therapist wouldn't understand. Somethings you just don't talk about or even mention, you know?
    EmmaBrun EmmaBrun
    16-17, F
    8 Responses Jan 2, 2014

    one less ********* in the world tonight.

    :) so naturally that puts me in to a very good mood.
    SystemK SystemK
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jun 29, 2015

    When I was 11 years old my dad went to prison

    and I went to live with my grandfather, one night I was lying in his bed and out of no where he grabbed my wrist and made me touch his penis.. I said "I don't like it" and he responded with "that's why I done it" .. It only happened 3 years ago and I finally told my dad this...
    Alicolette Alicolette
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Feb 28, 2014

    Am I Lucky?

    "This is a story that I have never told. I have to get this off my chest to let it go." This is a line from a Demi Lovato song that I love. I have told my story before, but telling people face to face-people who you love and are supposed to love you-can produce different...
    thepurplelover thepurplelover
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 12, 2013

    Why Can't I Get Over It?

    i was raped when i was 9 by a much older teenager who lived next door. i have the worst memory and even now can't remember things that happened just a few months ago. i remember my dark high school period followed by college when my first sexual experience brought it all back...
    passel passel
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Oct 7, 2011

    I was abused for over 28 years in the carer

    system under social services and out of the social service system
    andrewash andrewash
    46-50, M
    Jan 9, 2014

    You Need Me More Than I Need You....Except You'll Never Get Me Again....

      copyright@emmasharn    Abuse me, abuse me, try to confuse me. You must excuse me, for making you choose me, you didn’t think that you’d ever lose me. How can I have s*ex appeal as a child? I can’t imagine what drove you so wild. Before I was...
    emmasharn emmasharn
    31-35, F
    1 Response May 16, 2009

    How Many Of Us Are Angry

    I am simply angry at the thought that I don't know why my grandfather would decide to touch me sexually and than have the never to tell me not to tell anyone. I am angry because the thoughts of what happened invade my mind at times when there's no one to talk to. I know there are...
    DJ95 DJ95
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 4, 2013

    In Case I Didn't Get Enough the First Time....

      I had been abused by my father when I was 3, and after, a few cases of inc*est from my brother up to my mid 20's.  And I went thru a very promiscuous stage b4 going off s*ex altogether. Am in a happy relationship with a nice man, but I have not been able to face s*ex...
    emmasharn emmasharn
    31-35, F
    5 Responses May 17, 2009

    I really need someone to talk to.

    I've been okay for a few weeks now but I'm having a really rough day today. Please, if you're a woman (it was a guy who did it and I just can't talk to a guy about it, I'm sorry.. I just can't) please, I need someone to talk to.
    dontknowmylife dontknowmylife
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Dec 26, 2014

    I Doubt I Will Ever Really Get Over It

    I have accepted I may never get over the abuse and the rape... it was compounded by abuse by the film group, catholics and dutch people and people in the radio, film and music industry.... those people are very twisted and egoistic ... they just go about abusing most young women...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Oct 8, 2011
    EmmaBrun EmmaBrun
    16-17, F
    3 Responses May 7, 2014

    Why Can't I Let Go?

    It's funny how all my happy memories of my childhood were kind of destroyed by one person I hardly knew. How can someone take away anothers joy?.. When I was about 7 years old, my uncle, on my dads side, a man I had never seen or met was in need of a place to live. My father was...
    ThatOneGirl7396 ThatOneGirl7396
    16-17, F
    5 Responses Nov 18, 2012

    My Blog About Surviving

    Originally I started my blog just to have a diary to write in about my sexual abuse as a child. Recently a few others have found it and followed me and Its so nice to get the support. But after talking with friends who are also survivors they told me my writings really help them...
    silverstar415850 silverstar415850
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 23, 2012

    I Am So Angry At The World!

    *warning for my language and maybe trigger?* How can these people just do these things! everytime I see another person has been abused as a kid.. I just want to go on a f****** killing spree. Why would anyone want to rape a 5 year old when they have someone their age right down...
    TangledLife TangledLife
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 9, 2013

    I Just Didn'know

    It started when i was 10. A friend of my dads. He acted like he wanted to be my big brother. It started as just touching and petting. He had intercourse with me when I was 12. It went on for years till his wife caught us. My dad confronted me I convinced him it wasn't true. So it...
    arei27 arei27
    26-30
    3 Responses Nov 20, 2010

    How Do You Cope With The After Effects Of Abuse?

    I was abused (sexually and emotionally) by a guy I worked for from the age of 12 to 19, and during that time, at age 15, I got into a ten year relationship (which I ended recently) with a guy who I hoped would protect me and help me, but instead used the emotional damage I have...
    ConfusedGal25 ConfusedGal25
    22-25
    2 Responses Jun 15, 2011

    I don't even remember it,

    and I'm not even sure if it happened. But all signs point to it and my doctors are suggesting it. I'm meeting with a friend today, as a hook up. I'm terrified, but I need to know if I'm just being stupid or if I really was molested as a child and these are the after-effects.
    SegaStar SegaStar
    16-17, F
    Jan 11, 2014

    How Much Was I Worth?

    Some writing from my blog www.diaryofabrokenchild.blogspot.com How much did they pay you daddy? How much was I worth? Was I a good girl, doing the things you had showed me since birth? You told me I was growing and said I was meant to learn the women's way So I laid on my...
    silverstar415850 silverstar415850
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Jan 22, 2013

    Trying To Tell My Mom About The Abuse.

    I thought today was the day I practiced saying what I was going to say in the shower but when I sat down next to her to spill the beans I felt like I was starting to panic. I became slightly uncomfortable, I started having chest pain, and now I have a migraine. She deserves to...
    TheEdgeOfEarth TheEdgeOfEarth
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Oct 21, 2013

    I Need to Remember It!

    I cannot remember fully.  I just get a vague sense of what happened to me at 3. My father recently admitted to abusing me. Instead of filling me in on details, he just asked what I could recall. I declined to answer, and said I didn't wanna talk about it. I didn't trust his...
    emmasharn emmasharn
    31-35, F
    2 Responses May 13, 2009

    i was seven year old my uncle had sex with

    and get to bed with i told my mum when was 15 year old i hate him because of it he made out that my fault
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Dec 14, 2013

    My dad sexually abused

    and raped me since I was about 6 years old and the last one I can remember was when I was 11 wher he was trying to do somthing and I kicked him trying to get away and he got really angery and kicked me back grabbed my hair took me to his room and threw me on his bed and tore my...
    misaka12 misaka12
    13-15, F
    17 Responses Dec 29, 2013

    I smile I laugh I enjoy the company of those

    around me They enjoy my mask For a while I live in a fools paradise Surrounded by those who love me My family One side heaven The other hell Torn by death But for me Torn by the one person who is capable of disarming me in an instant As years go by his eyes remain the same Cold...
    srmc928 srmc928
    16-17, F
    Dec 26, 2014

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    To sum up my childhood memories, I guess one can say that I had a semi-normal and only a semi-happy childhood. I attended a small private boarding school overseas and suffered...
    spankemotk spankemotk
    56-60, M
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    I miss my sexual ways it's been to long
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    Mariavampiremm Mariavampiremm
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    From community before other close people who did hurt me the most.
    joemane36 joemane36
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    emilyflys26 emilyflys26
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    Nonotu Nonotu
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    I fantasies about being raped but I don't think I actually want it to happen
    innocentsoul innocentsoul
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    You have no morals if you force someone to face their abuser. "She's your mother" is not a effing excuse.
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    321Peach 321Peach
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