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I Am Recovering From Childhood Sexual Abuse

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 174 People

    My Blog About Surviving

    Originally I started my blog just to have a diary to write in about my sexual abuse as a child. Recently a few others have found it and followed me and Its so nice to get the support. But after talking with friends who are also survivors they told me my writings really help them...
    silverstar415850 silverstar415850 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 23, 2012

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    Is anyone still coming to terms with a lot of

    what happened? It's like there are a lot of things that we don't talk about in the open and that even a therapist wouldn't understand. Somethings you just don't talk about or even mention, you know?
    EmmaBrun EmmaBrun 13-15, F 8 Responses Jan 2

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    I Am So Angry At The World!

    *warning for my language and maybe trigger?* How can these people just do these things! everytime I see another person has been abused as a kid.. I just want to go on a f****** killing spree. Why would anyone want to rape a 5 year old when they have someone their age right down...
    TangledLife TangledLife 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 9, 2013

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    I was abused for over 28 years in the carer

    system under social services and out of the social service system
    andrewash andrewash 46-50, M Jan 9

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    When I was 11 years old my dad went to prison

    and I went to live with my grandfather, one night I was lying in his bed and out of no where he grabbed my wrist and made me touch his penis.. I said "I don't like it" and he responded with "that's why I done it" .. It only happened 3 years ago and I finally told my dad this...
    Alicolette Alicolette 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 28

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    I Just Recently Remembered, And Only A Bit

    I only just remembered a few nights ago, and what I do remember isn't much, but here's what I know for sure. It was when I was 5-7 and I was living on base housing in England. The girl was around 11 or 12 and I remember going to her house fairly often. When I would visit her she...
    OrdinalChaos OrdinalChaos 18-21, M Oct 3, 2012

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    How Do You Cope With The After Effects Of Abuse?

    I was abused (sexually and emotionally) by a guy I worked for from the age of 12 to 19, and during that time, at age 15, I got into a ten year relationship (which I ended recently) with a guy who I hoped would protect me and help me, but instead used the emotional damage I have...
    ConfusedGal25 ConfusedGal25 22-25 2 Responses Jun 15, 2011

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    I Doubt I Will Ever Really Get Over It

    I have accepted I may never get over the abuse and the rape... it was compounded by abuse by the film group, catholics and dutch people and people in the radio, film and music industry.... those people are very twisted and egoistic ... they just go about abusing most young women...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 8, 2011

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    My victim impact statement.

    I feel my life crumbling down into one big mess and I just can't dig myself out. This man was suppose to be my protector against all evils in the world, to be my role model in life, and most important he was Suppose to be family. But all he was is a devil in disguise , he was...
    chels18 chels18 18-21, F 4 Responses May 5

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    How Many Of Us Are Angry

    I am simply angry at the thought that I don't know why my grandfather would decide to touch me sexually and than have the never to tell me not to tell anyone. I am angry because the thoughts of what happened invade my mind at times when there's no one to talk to. I know there are...
    DJ95 DJ95 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 4, 2013

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    How Much Was I Worth?

    Some writing from my blog www.diaryofabrokenchild.blogspot.com How much did they pay you daddy? How much was I worth? Was I a good girl, doing the things you had showed me since birth? You told me I was growing and said I was meant to learn the women's way So I laid on my...
    silverstar415850 silverstar415850 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 22, 2013

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    Trying To Tell My Mom About The Abuse.

    I thought today was the day I practiced saying what I was going to say in the shower but when I sat down next to her to spill the beans I felt like I was starting to panic. I became slightly uncomfortable, I started having chest pain, and now I have a migraine. She deserves to...
    TheEdgeOfEarth TheEdgeOfEarth 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 21, 2013

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    Can You Ever Have A Normal Life

    From the time I was 7 until I was 16, my stepfather sexually and physically abused me. He didn't rape me, but there are other ways to mess a childs mind and self esteem up. I dont know if I can write about what he did to me here. I remember that he started messing with my...
    bitchkitty bitchkitty 46-50, F 1 Response Jun 27, 2012

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    In Case I Didn't Get Enough the First Time....

      I had been abused by my father when I was 3, and after, a few cases of inc*est from my brother up to my mid 20's.  And I went thru a very promiscuous stage b4 going off s*ex altogether. Am in a happy relationship with a nice man, but I have not been able to face s*ex...
    emmasharn emmasharn 31-35, F 5 Responses May 17, 2009

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    EmmaBrun EmmaBrun 13-15, F 3 Responses May 7

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    I don't even remember it,

    and I'm not even sure if it happened. But all signs point to it and my doctors are suggesting it. I'm meeting with a friend today, as a hook up. I'm terrified, but I need to know if I'm just being stupid or if I really was molested as a child and these are the after-effects.
    SegaStar SegaStar 16-17, F Jan 11

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    I Need to Remember It!

    I cannot remember fully.  I just get a vague sense of what happened to me at 3. My father recently admitted to abusing me. Instead of filling me in on details, he just asked what I could recall. I declined to answer, and said I didn't wanna talk about it. I didn't trust his...
    emmasharn emmasharn 31-35, F 2 Responses May 13, 2009

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    My dad sexually abused

    and raped me since I was about 6 years old and the last one I can remember was when I was 11 wher he was trying to do somthing and I kicked him trying to get away and he got really angery and kicked me back grabbed my hair took me to his room and threw me on his bed and tore my...
    misaka12 misaka12 13-15, F 21 Responses Dec 29, 2013

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    Why Can't I Get Over It?

    i was raped when i was 9 by a much older teenager who lived next door. i have the worst memory and even now can't remember things that happened just a few months ago. i remember my dark high school period followed by college when my first sexual experience brought it all back...
    passel passel 31-35, F 4 Responses Oct 7, 2011

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    You Need Me More Than I Need You....Except You'll Never Get Me Again....

      copyright@emmasharn    Abuse me, abuse me, try to confuse me. You must excuse me, for making you choose me, you didn’t think that you’d ever lose me. How can I have s*ex appeal as a child? I can’t imagine what drove you so wild. Before I was...
    emmasharn emmasharn 31-35, F 1 Response May 16, 2009

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    So You Think You Can F*uck With a Kid? You Lose, W*anker

      copyright@emmasharn    Children live on instinct, that is all they’ve got.  They haven’t trained in b*ullshit, like the adults with a lot.  You can never force a child to trust you if it can’t.  They don’t use your tactics...
    emmasharn emmasharn 31-35, F 2 Responses May 16, 2009

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    I have just watched this film,

    Silent House and it really triggered a lot of bad memories.Like a lot of them for all of that dont know i have been abused as a child by my grandfather and it was awful it went on for a few years and i just got really upset.I wouldn't of watch it if i knew what it was about.I...
    SammyLautner SammyLautner 13-15, F Mar 23

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    i was seven year old my uncle had sex with

    and get to bed with i told my mum when was 15 year old i hate him because of it he made out that my fault
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 14, 2013

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    Am I Lucky?

    "This is a story that I have never told. I have to get this off my chest to let it go." This is a line from a Demi Lovato song that I love. I have told my story before, but telling people face to face-people who you love and are supposed to love you-can produce different...
    thepurplelover thepurplelover 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 12, 2013

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    I Just Didn'know

    It started when i was 10. A friend of my dads. He acted like he wanted to be my big brother. It started as just touching and petting. He had intercourse with me when I was 12. It went on for years till his wife caught us. My dad confronted me I convinced him it wasn't true. So it...
    arei27 arei27 26-30 3 Responses Nov 20, 2010

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    Why Can't I Let Go?

    It's funny how all my happy memories of my childhood were kind of destroyed by one person I hardly knew. How can someone take away anothers joy?.. When I was about 7 years old, my uncle, on my dads side, a man I had never seen or met was in need of a place to live. My father was...
    ThatOneGirl7396 ThatOneGirl7396 16-17, F 5 Responses Nov 18, 2012

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    I'm not going to get into the details, but my Spanish teacher molested me all through middle school. The problem is I never told anyone about it and now I'm worried that he'll do...
    davidginsberg davidginsberg 13-15, M 1 Response Aug 8

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    On Sexual Abuse I will go, with the reason I am composing this letter, this is I'm sending this missive, because my daughter who is 8, was sexually assaulted, By my 22 year old...
    IrmaH IrmaH 36-40 Aug 21

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    On Sexual Abuse I will go, with the reason I am composing this letter, this is I'm sending this missive, because my daughter who is 8, was sexually assaulted, By my 22 year old...
    IrmaH IrmaH 36-40 1 Response Aug 21

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    I can't remember my childhood, I barely remember anything that happened before I hit age 7. I've been to therapy a lot since I was in 3rd grade. I started hating myself in 3rd...
    mysteriousanonymous mysteriousanonymous 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 7

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    I was sexually abused ever since I could remember. Later on I figured out I was molested from before I was 2 until I was 12. I was molested by my older male cousin and my older...
    MgkLez96 MgkLez96 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 1

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    I was sexually abused by my step father from age 6 to age 17 :(
    timjsmiles0016 timjsmiles0016 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 17

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    My foster mom had me sexually abused in the hospital. By a "doctor". I was seven. I had many many hospital stays growing up, treating my chronic lung condition. I'm a victim of...
    iMinnow iMinnow 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    My brother abused me for 7 years. I just recently was able to find that courage to tell someone. Now I'm free from the physical abuse but I'm still scarred. It affects my life so...
    xaliroox xaliroox 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 16

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    I was sexually abused. There I said it... I've never really fully admitted it before. half the time I just think it was a really bad dream. it was about a year ago when I was 12. I...
    mackhunter1111 mackhunter1111 13-15, T 2 Responses Aug 5

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    18 years ago my mother's boyfriend, at the time, sexually abused me. Twice. After the second time, i went to tell my mother the next morning and she didnt believe me. And still...
    Amb505 Amb505 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 20

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    I posted my experiences about my sexual abuse so people knew they weren't alone and that I'm truly willing to help. I hate that people attack me and say I need help. I'm the way I...
    xaliroox xaliroox 16-17, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Im actually recovered now. I've been recovered for a few months now. its my third time recovering from anorexia. third times the charm, right? I've been struggling with it for over...
    wishingforrecovery wishingforrecovery 16-17, F 3 days ago

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    At 45 years old I'm starting to notice how my nighmarish childhood has and still is effecting me. I'm the youngest of 3 children and family scapegoat. Both my parents were youngest...
    brainwrecked brainwrecked 36-40, F Aug 15

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    At 45 years old I'm starting to notice how my nighmarish childhood has and still is effecting me. I'm the youngest of 3 children and family scapegoat. Both my parents were youngest...
    brainwrecked brainwrecked 36-40, F Aug 15

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    My dad in on trial right now and is being accused of sexually abusing his ex girlfriends grad children when they were 12 and 14. They are now 17 and 20. This has been a nightmare...
    jamiewins jamiewins 36-40, F 2 Responses Aug 7

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    I was sleeping, out cold. My mum came in my room to attend to my little brother and let the dog in with her. My dog started to lick my hand and I heard rustling from my mum. I...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 30

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    Never talked about it more then two or three times in my life and yesterday I just said it to my best friend and I saw his reaction then I knew I never told him that I was abused...
    Dengel85 Dengel85 26-30, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    *sigh* Sometimes i hate life, my life that is. but i should be grateful that im even alive is because of God. what do you do when your older sister reads your journal, which she...
    nekokitty13 nekokitty13 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 8

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    I feel like I have more problems now that I've admitted to myself I've been abused, than when I was actually being abused. I'm in therapy but it's been a year already. I've made...
    wanderinggrl wanderinggrl 26-30, T 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    Is it wrong to only want to speak to women about my abuse? It was a man who did it, I just feel more comfortable this way. :(
    dontknowmylife dontknowmylife 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    When I was 7 or 8 my brother told me to the garage with him because it was late at night so I went and put on my shoes and went with him. When we got in the garage my brother...
    BeccaPayne BeccaPayne 13-15, F 11 Responses Aug 6

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    Before, i was unable to tell this story. It was very hard. The only way i have managed to come through in speaking of it was to talk to a friend about it, then soon another friend...
    iris801 iris801 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 20

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    This is again when I was young, around 8-10yrs, may be..... My cousin was staying in my grandpa's place and was working somewhere. He should've been in his early 20s. Whenever I...
    tickoo2 tickoo2 36-40, M 2 hrs ago

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    on not looking for pity I'm looking to help :) https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=57h_eu9XX44
    overcomer98 overcomer98 16-17, F Jul 30

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