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I Am Recovering From Childhood Sexual Abuse

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    Trying To Tell My Mom About The Abuse.

    I thought today was the day I practiced saying what I was going to say in the shower but when I sat down next to her to spill the beans I felt like I was starting to panic. I became slightly uncomfortable, I started having chest pain, and now I have a migraine. She deserves to...
    TheEdgeOfEarth TheEdgeOfEarth 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 21, 2013

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    My dad sexually abused

    and raped me since I was about 6 years old and the last one I can remember was when I was 11 wher he was trying to do somthing and I kicked him trying to get away and he got really angery and kicked me back grabbed my hair took me to his room and threw me on his bed and tore my...
    misaka12 misaka12 13-15, F 24 Responses Dec 29, 2013

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    In Case I Didn't Get Enough the First Time....

      I had been abused by my father when I was 3, and after, a few cases of inc*est from my brother up to my mid 20's.  And I went thru a very promiscuous stage b4 going off s*ex altogether. Am in a happy relationship with a nice man, but I have not been able to face s*ex...
    emmasharn emmasharn 31-35, F 5 Responses May 17, 2009

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    i was seven year old my uncle had sex with

    and get to bed with i told my mum when was 15 year old i hate him because of it he made out that my fault
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 14, 2013

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    I Am So Angry At The World!

    *warning for my language and maybe trigger?* How can these people just do these things! everytime I see another person has been abused as a kid.. I just want to go on a f****** killing spree. Why would anyone want to rape a 5 year old when they have someone their age right down...
    TangledLife TangledLife 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 9, 2013

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    I really need someone to talk to.

    I've been okay for a few weeks now but I'm having a really rough day today. Please, if you're a woman (it was a guy who did it and I just can't talk to a guy about it, I'm sorry.. I just can't) please, I need someone to talk to.
    dontknowmylife dontknowmylife 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 26, 2014

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    EmmaBrun EmmaBrun 16-17, F 3 Responses May 7, 2014

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    My victim impact statement.

    I feel my life crumbling down into one big mess and I just can't dig myself out. This man was suppose to be my protector against all evils in the world, to be my role model in life, and most important he was Suppose to be family. But all he was is a devil in disguise , he was...
    chels18 chels18 18-21, F 5 Responses May 5, 2014

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    I Need to Remember It!

    I cannot remember fully.  I just get a vague sense of what happened to me at 3. My father recently admitted to abusing me. Instead of filling me in on details, he just asked what I could recall. I declined to answer, and said I didn't wanna talk about it. I didn't trust his...
    emmasharn emmasharn 31-35, F 2 Responses May 13, 2009

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    When I was 11 years old my dad went to prison

    and I went to live with my grandfather, one night I was lying in his bed and out of no where he grabbed my wrist and made me touch his penis.. I said "I don't like it" and he responded with "that's why I done it" .. It only happened 3 years ago and I finally told my dad this...
    Alicolette Alicolette 13-15, F 3 Responses Feb 28, 2014

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    I have just watched this film,

    Silent House and it really triggered a lot of bad memories.Like a lot of them for all of that dont know i have been abused as a child by my grandfather and it was awful it went on for a few years and i just got really upset.I wouldn't of watch it if i knew what it was about.I...
    SammyLautner SammyLautner 13-15, F Mar 23, 2014

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    Why Can't I Get Over It?

    i was raped when i was 9 by a much older teenager who lived next door. i have the worst memory and even now can't remember things that happened just a few months ago. i remember my dark high school period followed by college when my first sexual experience brought it all back...
    passel passel 31-35, F 4 Responses Oct 7, 2011

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    I don't even remember it,

    and I'm not even sure if it happened. But all signs point to it and my doctors are suggesting it. I'm meeting with a friend today, as a hook up. I'm terrified, but I need to know if I'm just being stupid or if I really was molested as a child and these are the after-effects.
    SegaStar SegaStar 16-17, F Jan 11, 2014

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    I was abused for over 28 years in the carer

    system under social services and out of the social service system
    andrewash andrewash 46-50, M Jan 9, 2014

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    How Do You Cope With The After Effects Of Abuse?

    I was abused (sexually and emotionally) by a guy I worked for from the age of 12 to 19, and during that time, at age 15, I got into a ten year relationship (which I ended recently) with a guy who I hoped would protect me and help me, but instead used the emotional damage I have...
    ConfusedGal25 ConfusedGal25 22-25 2 Responses Jun 15, 2011

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    I smile I laugh I enjoy the company of those

    around me They enjoy my mask For a while I live in a fools paradise Surrounded by those who love me My family One side heaven The other hell Torn by death But for me Torn by the one person who is capable of disarming me in an instant As years go by his eyes remain the same Cold...
    srmc928 srmc928 16-17, F Dec 26, 2014

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    So You Think You Can F*uck With a Kid? You Lose, W*anker

      copyright@emmasharn    Children live on instinct, that is all they’ve got.  They haven’t trained in b*ullshit, like the adults with a lot.  You can never force a child to trust you if it can’t.  They don’t use your tactics...
    emmasharn emmasharn 31-35, F 2 Responses May 16, 2009

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    My Blog About Surviving

    Originally I started my blog just to have a diary to write in about my sexual abuse as a child. Recently a few others have found it and followed me and Its so nice to get the support. But after talking with friends who are also survivors they told me my writings really help them...
    silverstar415850 silverstar415850 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 23, 2012

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    How Many Of Us Are Angry

    I am simply angry at the thought that I don't know why my grandfather would decide to touch me sexually and than have the never to tell me not to tell anyone. I am angry because the thoughts of what happened invade my mind at times when there's no one to talk to. I know there are...
    DJ95 DJ95 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 4, 2013

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    I Just Didn'know

    It started when i was 10. A friend of my dads. He acted like he wanted to be my big brother. It started as just touching and petting. He had intercourse with me when I was 12. It went on for years till his wife caught us. My dad confronted me I convinced him it wasn't true. So it...
    arei27 arei27 26-30 3 Responses Nov 20, 2010

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    Is anyone still coming to terms with a lot of

    what happened? It's like there are a lot of things that we don't talk about in the open and that even a therapist wouldn't understand. Somethings you just don't talk about or even mention, you know?
    EmmaBrun EmmaBrun 16-17, F 8 Responses Jan 2, 2014

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    I Just Recently Remembered, And Only A Bit

    I only just remembered a few nights ago, and what I do remember isn't much, but here's what I know for sure. It was when I was 5-7 and I was living on base housing in England. The girl was around 11 or 12 and I remember going to her house fairly often. When I would visit her she...
    OrdinalChaos OrdinalChaos 18-21, M Oct 3, 2012

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    I'm getting sick of my past abuse controlling

    my sex life. I want to think about sex like a normal person. I want sex to be empowering. I don't want it to be psychologically damaging every time I have a ******* ******.
    Scal92 Scal92 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 16, 2014

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    Why Can't I Let Go?

    It's funny how all my happy memories of my childhood were kind of destroyed by one person I hardly knew. How can someone take away anothers joy?.. When I was about 7 years old, my uncle, on my dads side, a man I had never seen or met was in need of a place to live. My father was...
    ThatOneGirl7396 ThatOneGirl7396 16-17, F 5 Responses Nov 18, 2012

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    I Doubt I Will Ever Really Get Over It

    I have accepted I may never get over the abuse and the rape... it was compounded by abuse by the film group, catholics and dutch people and people in the radio, film and music industry.... those people are very twisted and egoistic ... they just go about abusing most young women...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 8, 2011

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    How Much Was I Worth?

    Some writing from my blog www.diaryofabrokenchild.blogspot.com How much did they pay you daddy? How much was I worth? Was I a good girl, doing the things you had showed me since birth? You told me I was growing and said I was meant to learn the women's way So I laid on my...
    silverstar415850 silverstar415850 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 22, 2013

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    Am I Lucky?

    "This is a story that I have never told. I have to get this off my chest to let it go." This is a line from a Demi Lovato song that I love. I have told my story before, but telling people face to face-people who you love and are supposed to love you-can produce different...
    thepurplelover thepurplelover 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 12, 2013

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    You Need Me More Than I Need You....Except You'll Never Get Me Again....

      copyright@emmasharn    Abuse me, abuse me, try to confuse me. You must excuse me, for making you choose me, you didn’t think that you’d ever lose me. How can I have s*ex appeal as a child? I can’t imagine what drove you so wild. Before I was...
    emmasharn emmasharn 31-35, F 1 Response May 16, 2009

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    Can You Ever Have A Normal Life

    From the time I was 7 until I was 16, my stepfather sexually and physically abused me. He didn't rape me, but there are other ways to mess a childs mind and self esteem up. I dont know if I can write about what he did to me here. I remember that he started messing with my...
    bitchkitty bitchkitty 46-50, F 1 Response Jun 27, 2012

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    Am I the only one that feels this way? I was sexually abused at a young age, and then about three years ago I was abused by my brother in law when living with my sister. I lived...
    MissSeaGal452 MissSeaGal452 22-25, F 3 Responses Feb 19

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    I was sexually abused by my brother 7 years ago and never told anybody. I need help because I don't know what to do. I'm in college. He's three years older than me and still lives...
    Elizabeth180 Elizabeth180 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 3

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    i am survivor of sexually abused by my father. my mother and sisters always beated me up and called me useless,you are joke,ugly,nothing. ...i live alone now. flash back is...
    JerryJerryA JerryJerryA 31-35, F Feb 8

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    i was sexually abused when i was 8 by a woman when she was 21
    priyanujdev priyanujdev 26-30, M Feb 10

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    This is weird admit. My father, he uhm, he would for many years and I didn't know what to do. He would also talk inappropriate things all the time, and the sex he would have with...
    Brie1394 Brie1394 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 13

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    I had been sexually abused by my father. Is there anyone just like me here??
    JerryJerryA JerryJerryA 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 14

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    Begging for a rope to save me from drowning in vicious childhood flashbacks and i am thrown an anchor instead. He must be starving because no matter where i am, his ghost demands...
    writingmyrelease writingmyrelease 26-30, F 3 Responses Feb 14

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    I was abused from the age of 14 by my Aunt and Uncle who I lived with. It continued until I was 18. I still stay in touch with them and it's even talked about, sometimes I think it...
    TheFoxhound8421 TheFoxhound8421 31-35, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I am kinky as a garden hose and gay as they come. But I was not abuse at any time when I was child. I come from a very loving family.
    DonnaDomm DonnaDomm 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 19

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    My wife was sexually assaulted over a period of time when she was in her early teenage years. We are both struggling with this, she as a survivor, and me as the partner of a...
    PHBalanced PHBalanced 46-50, M Feb 5

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    My brother was abusive. When my parents were gone for a week he chained me down in the basement dressed me as a girl and had sex with me for hours he was arrested after my parents...
    G677 G677 41-45, T 5 days ago

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    I got sexual prblms my desires are confused ill love to talk about with someone. Anyone?
    Bluerosered Bluerosered 26-30, F 3 Responses Feb 6

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    When I was 13 I was in a really unhealthy relationship. I wouldn't say he forced me to do anything. But he would ask for things. I would keep saying no but he kept begging.. It...
    maddyxchar maddyxchar 13-15, F Feb 17

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    When i was about 9-14 my dad would come into my room at night and get in bed with me. After this happened a few times he began holding me. Then one night he told me to take my...
    kittiemeow kittiemeow 18-21, F 8 Responses 6 days ago

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    It started a long time ago and stopped when I was 16 (I'm 18 now). My half brother liked to do all sorts of things with me. He especially liked fire, he liked burning my chest or...
    ThatBitch15 ThatBitch15 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 3

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    I am female crossdreamer without any desires of becoming a man or dress like a man
    Bluerosered Bluerosered 26-30, F Feb 10

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    Between the ages of 9 and 12 by my mothers boy friend, I still feel guilty, It made me feel accepted and grown up, My dad left us, so when he was nice to me I wanted him to stay, I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Feb 12

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    Jesus is my doctor and he writes out all of my scriptures
    bittersweet18 bittersweet18 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 16

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    i am so scared to taking bath..i am even scared to going to my bathroom. i don't wanna do anything like talking off clothes things...you know what i mean.. Because everything was...
    JerryJerryA JerryJerryA 31-35, F Feb 16