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I Am Recovering From Cutting

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 288 People

    I have depression & anxiety.

    . but I have not put a sharp object to my my body in... 4 years. but these last 6 months have been extremely hard since especially since in June I accidentally cut my thigh on a log and it was a deep gash. it felt so good. It wasn't painful, it made me feel- happy. Now, when...
    IWishTheyKnew IWishTheyKnew
    22-25, F
    1 Response Sep 12, 2015

    Everything Can Be Manipulated.

    I would love to say that I was recovering from Self Harm, though I never felt like I was recovering.. I've never been a calm carefree person, that's just the way I always was, when I was a 4 & 5 I wasn't carefree then, I was so strict on myself and worried of making a fool of...
    Optimistic96 Optimistic96
    18-21, F
    Apr 2, 2012

    The Heart

    I have been depressed for about a two years now. When I was 10, I found my mother lying on the floor, blood dripping from her arms. She was cutting herself. Now I am bullied in school. It started with me repeatedly scratching my arms And piercing them with pins. Then it moved to...
    brokenheart13 brokenheart13
    1 Response Apr 7, 2012

    1 Year!

    It has been a year since I've cut. Unfortunately that does not include all self-harm, but I'm really proud to say I haven't given myself any new scars for over a year. This is due in large part to my boyfriend, who I love very dearly. I know he'd see the cuts, so when I'm in a...
    MechanicalBunny MechanicalBunny
    22-25, F
    Aug 6, 2012

    Hello again Miss me old friend Cause I missed

    you Every time I do Every time You declare your done I get sad Please come back Don't leave me alone I'm cold I need your warmth Hello friend Miss me Cause I missed you
    thatone6 thatone6
    18-21, F
    Feb 8, 2015

    Im In Love With Him

    U are my blade you were there at the worst time time u all was lefted me with hopes and dreams falling apart u all so loss my way to cope with the prsent touch it u let me bleed till i could not bleed no more u covered my mouth and heard me cry....
    carlabrown123 carlabrown123
    Mar 7, 2012

    I haven't cut since September,

    2014. I feel the urge rising again. The days and nights are getting longer and longer, lonelier and lonelier. I don't know how much longer I can deal with this. I've gone so long, I shouldn't start over... But I'm getting so tempted. I don't know if I won't.
    dontyouunderstand dontyouunderstand
    1 Response May 17, 2015

    I Am Barely Recovered But Working Towards Full Recovery

    I am sixteen years old. I have many problems and one of them i am recovering from. That problem is Cutting. I have done many other things but this started when i was 11. I was raped and my best friend was killed. Also, i was a victim of child abuse ever since i was born. My mom...
    tragedyhappens tragedyhappens
    26-30, F
    8 Responses Oct 18, 2007

    After 7 Years Its Time

    I have spent 7 years being addicted to cutting, I am 19 and i have a kid now so I am saying its time for me to stop and it is one of the hardest things for me to do. I know its time to leave the past in the past and move forward, but its easier said then done. I just have to keep...
    jess426 jess426
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jun 16, 2012

    Lost the Need

       I have spent many years being a cutter as I had stated in a previous entry,  and I stopped for many years, Forced myself to stop,k and though it was not always easy, and I had many times where I slipped, but eventually I stopped completly for many years...
    MoonShade MoonShade
    3 Responses Jul 25, 2009

    Life Goes On, But Scars Remain

    I was 14 when I started. I couldn't handle my moms drinking and emotional abuse anymore but I didn't have any one to talk to and my emotions were getting harder and harder to contain. I then read the book Cut, by Patricia McCormick and I figured I'd give cutting a try. The amount...
    ConfusedTeenGirl ConfusedTeenGirl
    22-25, F
    1 Response Dec 14, 2012

    Razor Sharp Memories.

    i used to cut. i couldnt admit it before but now im very open about it. i started because i couldnt take the pain from being teased to tears everyday. it was my escape. it felt good, and i loved it. i depended on it to make me happy, and even though i wasnt even close to being...
    finallyhappy finallyhappy
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Nov 27, 2007

    I started cutting at age 12.

    id cut to numb the pain, to feel something, to calm my rage, it just depended on the situation. I finally quit at age 27. for 3 yrs I was cut free. then I lapsed a couple times this yr. now with the stress im under. I keep having the urge to. im fighting it with everything in me...
    WickedlilAngel WickedlilAngel
    31-35, F
    1 Response Nov 29, 2014

    It's Been Two Years...

    L et me start out by saying that I've not cut myself in over 2 years.   After 8 very long years of self-injury I finally came to terms with my pain, and learned other ways of dealing with it. When I was 12 years old I started out cutting myself with pushpins - I had a...
    lovintherace lovintherace
    22-25, F
    4 Responses May 22, 2008

    Old Friends

    Hello old friend Small and sharp You’ve been watching me All day I heard you I saw you I tried to fight you But your persistent And cunning And sweet. I don’t understand How after All these years I still love you Need you Use you To get what I need What I want. I’d...
    Magickba115 Magickba115
    36-40, F
    Apr 27, 2012

    So my cat scratched my arm

    and ever since its reminded me of cuts in my arms and its giving me mixed emotions and there not good ones
    thatone6 thatone6
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 7, 2015

    My Untold Story About My Life

    It all was happy I was having a great childhood.Until 1st grade I was bullied alot.By people swearing at me to throwing Chairs and tables at me.I didn't know about self harm then.But every night I would Beat myself with heavy objects.I would cry myself to sleep.This continued but...
    Knifelove Knifelove
    Apr 4, 2012


    Recorvering from this is very difficult. Its like a drug. Its been two or three months since the last time I have cutt but its been the hardest months of my life. My wrists pulsate and my vaines turn bright blue and you can see them all up and down my arms. I do miss everything...
    FCVirginia19 FCVirginia19
    18-21, F
    Jun 23, 2012

    My Strugge With Self Harm

    I want to tell you my story…It’s a story of love and loss, pain and healing. It is a hard story to tell, writing it out makes me feel very vulnerable. I’m exposing myself to you, the reader. I am finding, though, that each time I tell my story...
    EmmyR EmmyR
    2 Responses Jan 24, 2009

    Share Your Experience- Help Increase Understanding About Self-injury If It Is Current For You!

    Have you intentionally cut yourself in the last 30 days? We invite you to share your experience by participating in a short online study. The purpose of this research is to examine health factors related to self-injury. The results from this study are completely confidential and...
    ODUResearcher ODUResearcher
    26-30, F
    May 21, 2012

    Posted On Another Site, Wanted to Put It Hear. See If It Helped At All.

    It’s funny how people just love to jump on you for anything now a days. Your trying to be honest when you use something like this I suppose. People like me do know the answer to our problems, but after awhile the rode can get hard to travel, and thous around us say just...
    BloodyMistrel BloodyMistrel
    2 Responses May 15, 2009

    The first time I cut was

    after my emotionally abusive boyfriend was yelling at me. He was screaming over the phone and I couldn't take it. At the time I had already thinking about it for a while... I scratched as a kid, but nothing to bad... I hung up on him and cut my thigh. He spammed my phone and...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Dec 13, 2014

    I haven't cut in a year

    but I am starting to get the urge to start cutting again due to all the drama from my family....
    SkylarMatthews SkylarMatthews
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Oct 7, 2015

    My Skin Is Now Art.

    I have chronic daily migraines. Because my GP was so slow in getting things moving and setting goals, I felt lost. I began cutting after my boyfriend had cut my shoulder during a scene. I realized that it helped transfer the pain some. A week after the scene, I went and bought...
    Distraught55 Distraught55
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Aug 23, 2013

    Cutting Away the Memories.......

    I am sixteen and I have decided that it would be best if I recovered from cutting.  It is bringing me nothing to gain and everything to lose.  I have lost friends.  I have lost families trust over lying about it.  But, most importantly I lost myself and who I...
    Arisha09 Arisha09
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Jul 4, 2007

    I Stared

    i dont remeber weni started i used to burn myself wen i lived with my mom and nnow she is mentaly abusing me so i started cutting .....i dont know y i find enjoyment in it....it doesnt really even seem to hurt, the blood was a wake ^ call letn me no i' still here....it's all real...
    MoreCuts MoreCuts
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Nov 5, 2007

    Such a Beautiful Monster

    My story may seem insignificant to some, I know it isn't the worst of tales, but it's mine. The first time I hurt myself for real (before it was just snapping bands on my wrists, holding ice till it melted, writing on my wrists/legs with red sharpies, painting my mouth/wrists...
    Flowersfallen Flowersfallen
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Aug 8, 2009

    What To Do?

    I am weak. I am terrible. It has been 10 days since the last time I cut myself and everyday I want to do it more then the day before. I don't cut now because I know I need to stop, but I hate where my life is. I hate everything about myself. The only thing that keeps me alive is...
    crazyswimmer146 crazyswimmer146
    4 Responses Dec 15, 2011


       Hmm how to start this? I will start with the past then the present. I started when I was twelve.It was the summer between sixth and seventh grade.My bestfriend had just died a few months before and I bottled it up inside. I kept quiet about it  for months,and no...
    Deadgirlsareeasy Deadgirlsareeasy
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 1, 2009

    I'm 32 years old and yesterday I had my "Ah ha"

    moment. I have been labeled many things: bulimic, anorexic, depressed and cutter. Through it all I mainain some level of control, even if only in my mind. Yesterday, after an unbelievable day I decided to take a blade to my skin. It's been over 3 years since I had done such a...
    Stoppingtheinsanity Stoppingtheinsanity
    31-35, F
    1 Response Apr 1, 2014

    Trying And Hoping...

    I have been a cutter since I think it was the age of 10, and I am now 21. It has been hard years in the world of growing up. As of now the last time I cut was about a month ago, yes I was alone at my uncle's house and for some reason I got extremely depressed and I cut myself. I...
    strawberry99 strawberry99
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Aug 14, 2011


    i started cutting about 7 and half years ago and im 27 now and i still cut i havent cut for a week or so but it helps me deal with my anger and family issues i hate my mom she is the closet thing to the devil and well i always feel alone and i always get used for sex /money and...
    deleted deleted
    Feb 22, 2012
    Kindheartedsoul Kindheartedsoul
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 5, 2015

    It Gets Better!

    It has been 1 year since I've self-harmed and I could not be more proud. I had been cutting and burning myself everyday for almost 4 years and I finally found the strength to stop. I took everyday minute by minute because for me my self-harm was an addiction. If I could get...
    deleted deleted
    5 Responses Oct 5, 2013

    Picked up these babies at work today.

    I have 100 of these little guys. And they're even “sterilized by gamma radiation.” Fancy. I've been craving to have a razor near by. Maybe not to necessarily bleed, but just to hold. To hold the instrument. I know what it can do. To have the power to do it or not instead of...
    Ha12mo17y Ha12mo17y
    31-35, F
    Apr 18, 2015

    I Don't Do It Anymore..

    i havent cut myself for awhile...i used to cut all the time but i realized after 6 yrs of cutting that i was only making things worse... i will never cut again! i've come too far if there is anyone that is going through this and just need somebody to talk to feel free to...
    LittleFerrett LittleFerrett
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jul 24, 2009

    Kinda Recovering,...yet Still Quiting

    I started cutting in the fourth grade, may 2 1999 the day that my grandpa passed away. Between that time and now cutting has been a very easy but now so enjoyable outlet of releasing pain, anger, stress, emotional and physical discomforts, insecurity, fear and many other...
    lezaroo89 lezaroo89
    22-25, F
    Feb 11, 2010


    That date will probably be forever in my memory, at the back of my thoughts. That was the last time I cut. It was also a pretty tragic day. Let's see, where to start. Well earlier that week I lost my cat Ivo, he wasn't just any cat you see. He came to me when I called him, He was...
    deleted deleted
    Jul 8, 2013

    I'm thinking about cutting right now

    and it sucks.. I need someone to care and be here for me because I can't do this alone...
    lgbtprideeee lgbtprideeee
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jul 1, 2015

    My Doggie <3

    I've been cutting for 4 years now. A few months ago I tried to kill myself and now have 3 dark purple scars across my wrist. Then my dog was diagnosed with cancer and we had to put him down because it hurt him too much.. I held him as he died... He was always there for me and...
    happycrab happycrab
    18-21, T
    4 Responses May 22, 2011

    Help The Pain Go Away

    I've been cutting for about a year. I don't do it very often and no one knows except for a couple of my friends. I cut so it takes away all the emotional pain and depression that I go through every day. I started cutting after my ex-boyfriend raped me and when I moved. It was all...
    Jocelyn45 Jocelyn45
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Mar 22, 2012

    So, I am still a very avid cutter.

    I only do this on my left forearm, and I'm transferring to a new school. I don't want anyone to see this. I can't use makeup on fresh cuts, and I've been wearing long fingerless gloves, but people keep asking why. Any ideas on what to do?
    hopeisneverlost hopeisneverlost
    22-25, F
    Apr 7, 2016

    Even cutting isn't helping today.

    I thought I was over this
    wanderlander wanderlander
    26-30, F
    1 Response Sep 10, 2015

    I'm So Scared :(

    I did it again. I don't know why. but I did. I was trying to find the pressure gauge thing for the truck in the grainery. I saw shards of glass on the floor. I had thoughts of just picking one up and just a small scratch, that was all. so I did. went a wee bit deeper than a...
    Distraught55 Distraught55
    22-25, F
    Sep 16, 2013

    Long Road

    I have been cutting since I was 13 years old. It began as a way to deal with my SA. I just got out of the hospital, my second time in a psych ward, and I really want to make the last time I cut the very last time. It only hurts more. Its a vicious addiction and not a good way to...
    silverlining silverlining
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Jul 4, 2007
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