I Am Recovering From Self Mutilation

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 173 People

    Contemplating

    I have real abandonment issues. My father(my chief supporter most of the time)and my doctor are out of the country right now. I feel depressed and just want to sleep all the time. I have 2 and1//2 years without cutting. I just switched to overdosing which can still get me in...
    sparkles10 sparkles10
    46-50
    Oct 13, 2012

    I'm 6-ish weeks clean now,

    and it's pretty cool. I can wear shirts now! What a relief - it'll be Summer here soon. The fear of relapse is still always in the back of my head.
    Kneetar04 Kneetar04
    18-21, F
    Nov 4, 2014

    My Struggle

    Ive been struggling with self mutilation since elementary school. The first time i hurt myself is strangely easy to remember, there have been so many instances since then, they all blur together. What i do remember is being overwhelmingly upset, and alone. The first time i hurt...
    itallhitsthewall itallhitsthewall
    22-25, F
    Mar 7, 2013

    Hurts So Good..

    The only thing holding me back is the promise I made to myself. It's been 6 months, we've got to see how long I can go. Can I just make it to a year? At least... It's so hard. Especially in moments like these, where I reach out for a helping hand, only to see my hand is the only...
    WiltingBlossom WiltingBlossom
    18-21, F
    5 Responses May 25, 2011

    Struggling Not To Hurt Me

    I have been off and on cutting for 8 years. Wow that seems so long. Every time I try to stop eventually I just go back. The first time my mom found out, I was in 9th grade. The school counselor called home when she found a letter I wrote about downing a bottle of pills and just...
    forgottenxxmemories forgottenxxmemories
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 16, 2011

    Just Me And My Story...

    It's been 2 and a half years since my last time cutting myself. Yes, I'm a recovering cutter. I tried other forms of self mutilation, like burning but it made me think too much of Hell to serve the purpose I wanted. My thing was a nice shiney new razor blade...slices like butter...
    kookoobananas52 kookoobananas52
    26-30, F
    1 Response Aug 18, 2011

    I've been clean for about 3 months maybe.

    But I had to stop my therapy because our insurance ran out. I quit cold turkey and I thought i was doing fine. But now the urges are coming back again.
    justme9957 justme9957
    13-15, F
    Nov 30, 2015

    I was working at the bakery today

    and my supervisor, Frank, saw my arms. She grabbed them and looked me in the eye and asked me if I was okay. I said I am doing better. Because I am. But I wanted to Cry because she was so sweet. She pulled me into the kitchen and gave me a hug. She said we're all a little bit...
    justme9957 justme9957
    13-15, F
    Mar 8

    My Scars...

    my scars are finally healing..for the past year or so i've covered most up with makeup trying not to have people notice but when they did find out that i had cut they wanted to see.... they want to see my scars but they are almost faded and i don't want to make more because i...
    zyx262524 zyx262524
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 14, 2013

    I Slipped

    Up the other day when I had gone almost a year w/out cutting or trying to. It's hard to do it these days when I know better and I have my son in my life. It was just a terrible rush of all the negatives in my life and I felt strongly like I had hit rock bottom and so I stood in...
    IMeWed IMeWed
    26-30, F
    2 Responses May 14, 2011

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    clajournalism clajournalism
    22-25, F
    Oct 11, 2012

    The Road Half Travled

    recovery is hard for many people because the pain was addicting it leaves a constant ache or pull but for me it's a little different. I've heard so many people say i needed to punish myself or it provides release but for me pain has warped itself just enough that i know it's...
    scarsrundeep scarsrundeep
    13-15, M
    Jul 22, 2012

    The other night I relapsed bad.

    I have to go see my cousins from out of town tomorrow and I'm afraid they'll see my arms.
    justme9957 justme9957
    13-15, F
    5 Responses Dec 30, 2015

    I just threw away my blades last week.

    .. I felt really lost afterwards and only hope I can learn to live and cope with life without them. I have self-harmed for about 2 years on and off, and although I didn't do it for long, it became addicting so fast. The first time I tried to stay clean of cutting I began to burn...
    Neverthinenough Neverthinenough
    18-21, F
    Mar 6, 2014

    My Story

    I used to cut myself when i was angry, I dont have very many cuts, but i go to therapy because of this, one day, I went crazy, and I cut alot, on my wrists, all extremely shallow, like scrapes, and now, every times I look at my wrist i just hate it, heaps of people comment...
    shineaway12 shineaway12
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Mar 24, 2012

    I guess I am the only male on here.

    I have scars on my wrists and arms, that are very visable, from cutting. I used to pick the scabs after cutting, thus the scars. I haven't done it in years, but I still carry a razor blade. I thought about cutting for the past couple of weeks, but haven't.
    marques30s marques30s
    31-35, M
    Oct 30, 2014

    Bye Bye Blades..

    I've selfharmed for over 4 years .. I've bruised,scratched,burned,pulled hair, and the thing I've done the most and my "preference" is cutting.... Today my boyfriend told me how proud he was that i threw away my blades.. but thats not totally true.. i did throw them away but i...
    Megs11 Megs11
    18-21
    Aug 18, 2013

    Oh So Tempting

    Over time i've become severely depressed and anxious, as a result, i ended up pulling out my eyebrows and eyelashes (and yes, it is a form of self mutilation because of the pain and feeling of releasing pressure sensations that come with doing such a thing),  not with tweesers...
    Mishy17 Mishy17
    16-17, F
    Jun 2, 2011

    I have been battling depression

    for nine years now. Despite my efforts to hide my self injury, my parents eventually found out. It happened when I was at my friends house, figured changing into my hoodie for the night wouldnt show anything too bad. I was wrong. In that short few seconds of my left arm being...
    tayelizabeth tayelizabeth
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Apr 22, 2014

    I was in a 4 year battle with myself.

    I self harmed as a way to release the pain and remind myself that I still have the ability to feel. Also because I hated myself and wanted to die constantly. I have struggled with severe anxiety since 7th grade and I'm now in 11th grade. I have nervous breakdowns pretty often...
    sydneyyumholtz sydneyyumholtz
    18-21, F
    Apr 22, 2014

    All I want to do is cut right now.

    I want the pain and the release.
    justme9957 justme9957
    13-15, F
    Mar 13

    I'm trying really hard not to relapse

    but the urges are so strong. Please please please help me.
    justme9957 justme9957
    13-15, F
    1 Response Dec 1, 2015
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