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I Am Recovering From Self Mutilation

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 171 People

    I have been battling depression

    for nine years now. Despite my efforts to hide my self injury, my parents eventually found out. It happened when I was at my friends house, figured changing into my hoodie for the night wouldnt show anything too bad. I was wrong. In that short few seconds of my left arm being...
    tayelizabeth tayelizabeth 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 22

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    Documentary: Self Harm

    Have you self-harmed and want to share your story? You will be paid for your time. Location: world wide Format: online video interview. If in Ontario Canada, an in-person interview can be arranged. All work is carried out in a compassionate and respectful manner. Inbox with...
    clajournalism clajournalism 22-25, F Oct 11, 2012

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    I just threw away my blades last week.

    .. I felt really lost afterwards and only hope I can learn to live and cope with life without them. I have self-harmed for about 2 years on and off, and although I didn't do it for long, it became addicting so fast. The first time I tried to stay clean of cutting I began to burn...
    Neverthinenough Neverthinenough 16-17, F Mar 6

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    I'm 6-ish weeks clean now,

    and it's pretty cool. I can wear shirts now! What a relief - it'll be Summer here soon. The fear of relapse is still always in the back of my head.
    Kneetar04 Kneetar04 18-21, F Nov 4

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    My Scars...

    my scars are finally healing..for the past year or so i've covered most up with makeup trying not to have people notice but when they did find out that i had cut they wanted to see.... they want to see my scars but they are almost faded and i don't want to make more because i...
    zyx262524 zyx262524 18-21, F 1 Response May 14, 2013

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    Hurts So Good..

    The only thing holding me back is the promise I made to myself. It's been 6 months, we've got to see how long I can go. Can I just make it to a year? At least... It's so hard. Especially in moments like these, where I reach out for a helping hand, only to see my hand is the only...
    WiltingBlossom WiltingBlossom 18-21, F 5 Responses May 25, 2011

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    I Slipped

    Up the other day when I had gone almost a year w/out cutting or trying to. It's hard to do it these days when I know better and I have my son in my life. It was just a terrible rush of all the negatives in my life and I felt strongly like I had hit rock bottom and so I stood in...
    IMeWed IMeWed 26-30, F 2 Responses May 14, 2011

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    I was in a 4 year battle with myself.

    I self harmed as a way to release the pain and remind myself that I still have the ability to feel. Also because I hated myself and wanted to die constantly. I have struggled with severe anxiety since 7th grade and I'm now in 11th grade. I have nervous breakdowns pretty often...
    sydneyyumholtz sydneyyumholtz 16-17, F Apr 22

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    Oh So Tempting

    Over time i've become severely depressed and anxious, as a result, i ended up pulling out my eyebrows and eyelashes (and yes, it is a form of self mutilation because of the pain and feeling of releasing pressure sensations that come with doing such a thing),  not with tweesers...
    Mishy17 Mishy17 16-17, F Jun 2, 2011

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    My Struggle

    Ive been struggling with self mutilation since elementary school. The first time i hurt myself is strangely easy to remember, there have been so many instances since then, they all blur together. What i do remember is being overwhelmingly upset, and alone. The first time i hurt...
    itallhitsthewall itallhitsthewall 22-25, F Mar 7, 2013

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    Bye Bye Blades..

    I've selfharmed for over 4 years .. I've bruised,scratched,burned,pulled hair, and the thing I've done the most and my "preference" is cutting.... Today my boyfriend told me how proud he was that i threw away my blades.. but thats not totally true.. i did throw them away but i...
    Megs11 Megs11 16-17 Aug 18, 2013

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    Just Me And My Story...

    It's been 2 and a half years since my last time cutting myself. Yes, I'm a recovering cutter. I tried other forms of self mutilation, like burning but it made me think too much of Hell to serve the purpose I wanted. My thing was a nice shiney new razor blade...slices like butter...
    kookoobananas52 kookoobananas52 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 18, 2011

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    My Story

    I used to cut myself when i was angry, I dont have very many cuts, but i go to therapy because of this, one day, I went crazy, and I cut alot, on my wrists, all extremely shallow, like scrapes, and now, every times I look at my wrist i just hate it, heaps of people comment...
    shineaway12 shineaway12 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 24, 2012

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    Struggling Not To Hurt Me

    I have been off and on cutting for 8 years. Wow that seems so long. Every time I try to stop eventually I just go back. The first time my mom found out, I was in 9th grade. The school counselor called home when she found a letter I wrote about downing a bottle of pills and just...
    forgottenxxmemories forgottenxxmemories 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 16, 2011

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    I guess I am the only male on here.

    I have scars on my wrists and arms, that are very visable, from cutting. I used to pick the scabs after cutting, thus the scars. I haven't done it in years, but I still carry a razor blade. I thought about cutting for the past couple of weeks, but haven't.
    marques30s marques30s 31-35, M Oct 30

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    The Road Half Travled

    recovery is hard for many people because the pain was addicting it leaves a constant ache or pull but for me it's a little different. I've heard so many people say i needed to punish myself or it provides release but for me pain has warped itself just enough that i know it's...
    scarsrundeep scarsrundeep 13-15, M Jul 22, 2012

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    Contemplating

    I have real abandonment issues. My father(my chief supporter most of the time)and my doctor are out of the country right now. I feel depressed and just want to sleep all the time. I have 2 and1//2 years without cutting. I just switched to overdosing which can still get me in...
    sparkles10 sparkles10 46-50 Oct 13, 2012

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    So i thought i would post on here because i don't have anyone to talk to. So basically i'm 16, i have a lot of problems.. I am deeply depressed, i have bad anxiety/social anxiety...
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    Cool, calm, and surprisingly collected, the world is quite a funny place. The highest of regrets now lay easy on my mind and dare not fester, as they once did. This is just a slice...
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    I find myself thinking more often than I should that it would be great to just sleep forever. I like sleep, it's death without the commitment.
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    I've tried my hardest to stop, to stay clean even for some days; but I can't...Everything hit me at once, my cutting and eating disorders are peaking up again, worst than ever. I...
    RozzebellConta RozzebellConta 18-21, F a week ago

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    Does anyone wanna chat and listen to some of my favourite sad songs and just cry with me? As pathetic as that sounds it's better than grabbing the razor..
    Gordonzobeanz Gordonzobeanz 18-21, M a week ago

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    DanielleMaree DanielleMaree 26-30, F Nov 1

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    Dislocated and broke it back in January, ice skating. Needed surgery, a plate and 6 screws. Nine months later it still bothers me sometimes and gets sore and a little swollen if...
    LaurelTree68 LaurelTree68 41-45, F Nov 1

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    Again I feel like I'm going crazy. I don't know what to think. I'm afraid of my ex. He had choked me. And slapped me. Called me names. Made me feel low.real low. He also smokes...
    amtired amtired 22-25 1 Response Nov 6

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    i cut but i pssy cut. nd the dr say im a pssy cutter in not so meany words. superficial cutting as itis but i want ut deep wtf is wrong with me. im sceard to so that saves me yeaaa...
    samtosammie samtosammie 31-35, T Nov 12

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    Training today, stressing my coach out haha
    DanielleMaree DanielleMaree 26-30, F Nov 13

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    I reconnected with a womanizing old friend a few years ago on Facebook. I needed help leaving my husband, who is verbally abusive and a functioning alcoholic. Would swear at me in...
    jameshasmyheart jameshasmyheart 41-45, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Can someone please tell me what's wrong with me. Why am I not good enough? Why did he feel like I deserved abuse? Why did the ones before him feel like I didn't deserve to be...
    WhereIsTheLogic WhereIsTheLogic 31-35, F 7 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm doing good. I'm 8 months clean and I don't plan on going back. The last time I harmed was February 2013, my boyfriend and I had just broken up and it was rough. I wasn't doing...
    Leahisawesome Leahisawesome 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 5

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    I haven't self harmed for 3 years and I'm still recovering from my past..
    Brookedrumm Brookedrumm 16-17, F 3 days ago

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    Today, i was passing by the primary school when a little boy told me that Halloween was over and that I had to lose weight cause I'm fat. He was around 8.. How can you be so mean...
    everybodywantshappiness everybodywantshappiness 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 4

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    I'm just about a month clean from self harm, but the weight of the world keeps making it harder and harder to stay clean.
    BeYou321 BeYou321 13-15, F Nov 4

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    Been clean for about 5 months now, just wanted to know if any other recovering self harmer gets triggered by their scars? Sounds weird but I don't want them to go away, they are...
    rjade rjade 18-21, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    Hi guys. I'm Jennifer and Im 18 years-old and used to be very happy-go-lucky and in love with life. I was in an depression because my best friend commited suicide. I wont go in...
    JennyVDV JennyVDV 18-21, F 14 hrs ago

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    So I am a recovering heroin addict. I am in Cancun right now to get away from all the crap I was surrounding myself with and get a change of scenery. I'm weening off of subutex...
    oooitzalex oooitzalex 26-30, M 3 Responses Nov 6

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    A few years go, my parents go in to HUGE arguments. I hated it. There were some that were just like ehhh and just some that were OMG just stop. I cry every time that my parents...
    cantsaymynamesorry cantsaymynamesorry 13-15, F 28 mins ago

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    Lately I've decided to really try to stoop self harming and so far it is going really well. I'm still not ready to recover from my ED (eating disorder) but self harm has made such...
    littlecrazymia littlecrazymia 13-15, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    Hi my name is ginger. And I really don't know how to start. I've never had anyone ask me about my life but I'll give it a try. I have a brother who I love to pieces even though...
    Ginger1313 Ginger1313 13-15, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    I'm 8 months and 2 days self injury free...but tonight I am having strong urges, my family doesn't believe in my abilities sometimes to make it in life and I'm just feeling down an...
    avey10 avey10 18-21, F Nov 5

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    so im 20 and have had various drink, drug and psychological problems from a young age. This year i was in a psychiatric hospital for a month to get clean and deal with emotional...
    dansimpson40 dansimpson40 18-21, M Nov 9

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