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I Am Recovering From Self Mutilation

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    Contemplating

    I have real abandonment issues. My father(my chief supporter most of the time)and my doctor are out of the country right now. I feel depressed and just want to sleep all the time. I have 2 and1//2 years without cutting. I just switched to overdosing which can still get me in...
    sparkles10 sparkles10 46-50 Oct 13, 2012

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    I Slipped

    Up the other day when I had gone almost a year w/out cutting or trying to. It's hard to do it these days when I know better and I have my son in my life. It was just a terrible rush of all the negatives in my life and I felt strongly like I had hit rock bottom and so I stood in...
    IMeWed IMeWed 26-30, F 2 Responses May 14, 2011

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    I just threw away my blades last week.

    .. I felt really lost afterwards and only hope I can learn to live and cope with life without them. I have self-harmed for about 2 years on and off, and although I didn't do it for long, it became addicting so fast. The first time I tried to stay clean of cutting I began to burn...
    Neverthinenough Neverthinenough 16-17, F Mar 6

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    Documentary: Self Harm

    Have you self-harmed and want to share your story? You will be paid for your time. Location: world wide Format: online video interview. If in Ontario Canada, an in-person interview can be arranged. All work is carried out in a compassionate and respectful manner. Inbox with...
    clajournalism clajournalism 22-25, F Oct 11, 2012

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    Struggling Not To Hurt Me

    I have been off and on cutting for 8 years. Wow that seems so long. Every time I try to stop eventually I just go back. The first time my mom found out, I was in 9th grade. The school counselor called home when she found a letter I wrote about downing a bottle of pills and just...
    forgottenxxmemories forgottenxxmemories 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 16, 2011

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    Hurts So Good..

    The only thing holding me back is the promise I made to myself. It's been 6 months, we've got to see how long I can go. Can I just make it to a year? At least... It's so hard. Especially in moments like these, where I reach out for a helping hand, only to see my hand is the only...
    WiltingBlossom WiltingBlossom 18-21, F 5 Responses May 25, 2011

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    Bye Bye Blades..

    I've selfharmed for over 4 years .. I've bruised,scratched,burned,pulled hair, and the thing I've done the most and my "preference" is cutting.... Today my boyfriend told me how proud he was that i threw away my blades.. but thats not totally true.. i did throw them away but i...
    Megs11 Megs11 16-17 Aug 18, 2013

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    Just Me And My Story...

    It's been 2 and a half years since my last time cutting myself. Yes, I'm a recovering cutter. I tried other forms of self mutilation, like burning but it made me think too much of Hell to serve the purpose I wanted. My thing was a nice shiney new razor blade...slices like butter...
    kookoobananas52 kookoobananas52 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 18, 2011

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    My Struggle

    Ive been struggling with self mutilation since elementary school. The first time i hurt myself is strangely easy to remember, there have been so many instances since then, they all blur together. What i do remember is being overwhelmingly upset, and alone. The first time i hurt...
    itallhitsthewall itallhitsthewall 22-25, F Mar 7, 2013

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    My Scars...

    my scars are finally healing..for the past year or so i've covered most up with makeup trying not to have people notice but when they did find out that i had cut they wanted to see.... they want to see my scars but they are almost faded and i don't want to make more because i...
    zyx262524 zyx262524 18-21, F 1 Response May 14, 2013

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    Oh So Tempting

    Over time i've become severely depressed and anxious, as a result, i ended up pulling out my eyebrows and eyelashes (and yes, it is a form of self mutilation because of the pain and feeling of releasing pressure sensations that come with doing such a thing),  not with tweesers...
    Mishy17 Mishy17 16-17, F Jun 2, 2011

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    The Road Half Travled

    recovery is hard for many people because the pain was addicting it leaves a constant ache or pull but for me it's a little different. I've heard so many people say i needed to punish myself or it provides release but for me pain has warped itself just enough that i know it's...
    scarsrundeep scarsrundeep 13-15, M Jul 22, 2012

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    My Story

    I used to cut myself when i was angry, I dont have very many cuts, but i go to therapy because of this, one day, I went crazy, and I cut alot, on my wrists, all extremely shallow, like scrapes, and now, every times I look at my wrist i just hate it, heaps of people comment...
    shineaway12 shineaway12 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 24, 2012

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    Well, im in recovery again. eating is a sometimes ok thing. Some days im hungry and give in, other days anna's in control. i cant wait to be rid of this eating disorder once and...
    wishingforrecovery wishingforrecovery 16-17, F Apr 3

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    Well I just want to post that some time has passed and I have learned a lot. First I wake up every morning and I love the person staring back at me. I have integrity and a life...
    Sugar973 Sugar973 46-50, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    I was clean from cutting for almost 6 months, and I thought I was ready to start recovering from my alcohol abuse, and I fell right back into cutting. I guess recovering from more...
    Amidala97 Amidala97 16-17, F 6 Responses Apr 7

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    always here if someone needs advice or help or anything concerning recovering from an eating disorder, relapsing, etc. I'm happy to help!
    kissthedeadly kissthedeadly 18-21, F Apr 9

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    actually, I choose to call myself a child of the living God, that is in recovery from alcohol. I refuse to identify myself with the sin I used to commit. I know if i drank again...
    jesusfreak247 jesusfreak247 56-60 10 hrs ago

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    I did it. I finally called a helpline about my self harm and depression problems and I'm so proud of myself. I then told my brother. I had cut that afternoon, but it was a bad one...
    writercookies writercookies 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    I'm not going to go into much of the background, but the experience is something I've kept inside of me and is dying for a release. It began when everyone around me became so fed...
    borderlinesymmetry borderlinesymmetry 13-15, F Apr 11

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    I was self harm free for about five months, and one day I started having rushing thoughts I started overthinking everything I saw everything that wasn't bad as a horrible thing . I...
    uunbroken uunbroken 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    It's been about 4 months since I've self harmed. I have been self harming since I was 12 and I'm 20 now. Although it's been 4 months I struggle everyday not to harm. Cutting and...
    ashricard ashricard 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 19

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    I am battling with self harm. I am slowly but surely recovering, and I've been using things like the Butterfly Project to help me (: I'm about.. What. About a week clean? Every day...
    alexialove01 alexialove01 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    I was 4 months self harm free but then I relapsed. Now I'm 3 weeks clean no where near 4 months but I'll hopefully get there. I'm just fighting the urge, fighting the addiction. It...
    ashricard ashricard 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I am currently visiting my sister and brother-in-law who are very practicing Catholics. So every Friday we go to the church, stand in line, and pay too much for a bad fish...
    usedchild usedchild 56-60, M 1 day ago

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    I'm sick of people seeing self harm as asking for attention and people saying "you've ruined your body are you happy now?" Do u honestly think I did this to be happy?!?
    jinxxypoo134 jinxxypoo134 13-15, F 8 hrs ago

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    I was not circumcised as a baby, as is common in the U.S. for me it happened closer to puberty and I have always wanted my foreskin back. I think my dad didn't want my brother or...
    artonthebrain artonthebrain 41-45, M 5 days ago

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    I am a recovering alcoholic , I haven't drank in ten yrs , but I've watched my husband get blitzed everyday of his life for the last ten yrs , we have a 12 yr old daughter together...
    donewitit donewitit 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 20

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    I was molested by a priest when I was a child. When I decided to finally face-up to my abuse and re-explore my spirituality, I first searched the web. I wanted to find out about my...
    usedchild usedchild 56-60, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Humanae Motus Therefore We base Our words on the first principles of a human and Christian doctrine of transport when We are obliged once more to declare that the direct...
    MarkFree MarkFree 51-55, M Mar 24

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    For you (many, girls), who cut yourselves. Please remember that some of us love you, care about you. ----- Food for thought (an article from Psychology Today) ----- Sax on Sex...
    Karll Karll 56-60, M 1 Response Mar 29

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    All ideologies are meaningless, whether religious or political, for it is conceptual thinking, the conceptual word, which has so unfortunately divided man. Religion is the frozen...
    StarWanderer StarWanderer 56-60, M 1 Response Mar 30

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    I am an adult who was molested by a priest. Can, or even, should I reconcile with the church that I loved and had utter faith in as a child, when that very faith and trust left...
    usedchild usedchild 56-60, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    That night I was scrolling through tumblr. I recently searched up the words skinny, thigh gap, anorexia, collar bones, death, self harm,....etc. I decided I would film what goes...
    MorbidRainbow MorbidRainbow 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Have you ever felt like your driving force in your mind made a bad turn? You off the right road and somehow got lost? Negative self talk can do damage to self esteem. It can have...
    aries3296 aries3296 46-50, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Soo I don't have a name for it... But yeahh Anger is a sign of depression they say that with alittle treatment you'll be okay. But one day when everything is gone and black and...
    olivias78 olivias78 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 23

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    It started when I was 10 or 11. Things were going badly at home and I was struggling with undiagnosed depression and anxiety. I'd cut to relieve my anxiety and keep me calm, to...
    skinnylittlewrists skinnylittlewrists 16-17, F Mar 31

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    Truth is I don't think I've ever had any Self Esteem or Confidence. I say that only because looking back throughout my life I cannot recall a time where I was truly okay with being...
    needinganescape needinganescape 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 1

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    Throughout my entire life, I've struggled with self esteem. From childhood through my sophomore year in college, I was always teased and was the main topic for everyone's cruel and...
    Paul1538 Paul1538 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 25

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    Every person has dealt with low self-esteem and so have I. It’s not the best feeling in the world, but it’s not that bad either. The way we value ourselves is a hard thing to...
    BeingAnAnglophile BeingAnAnglophile 16-17, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    For a long time I would let people walk all over me, say offensive things and humiliate me. Recently I felt crippled by this lack of respect from others and decided to change my...
    NYMama10 NYMama10 26-30, F Mar 23

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    This is what someone else posted on FB: "Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up...
    phoebegolde phoebegolde 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 26

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    I self harm. Ill admit it. No I wasn't raped (that is sad though. If that has happened to you I'm sorry) No I'm not bullied or abused. I'm not writing this to get sympathy. I just...
    blackbird96 blackbird96 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 30

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    I self harm. I've been self harming since i was 11 years old i am now 14 and i am slowly starting to recover. A year ago i attempted suicide and nearly succeed, but my best mate...
    jayspiller1 jayspiller1 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Darkerthanlightash Darkerthanlightash 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 22

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    Yesterday was one of the manyyy times I cut and I keep telling myself that I have to stop, and therapy is not helping. My friends only threaten me saying they will leave me if I...
    gabiandmikayla gabiandmikayla 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 3

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    I read from time to time someone leaving for the good of a love or not telling the one they love how they feel to all of you i have this to say. You are being selfish, If we...
    Greywlf Greywlf 56-60, M 3 Responses Apr 8

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    I am trying self-harming now, I had a fairly bad day today, so I'm alone in the kitchen and I thought of trying something completely different and not like me - I came to this site...
    jayja45 jayja45 18-21, M Apr 11

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    I was not born a talker. And I have had long phases when I do not have the patience to listen to people, because if you do, you get tired of how self-absorbed people are. (And this...
    cocoonedspace cocoonedspace 26-30, F Apr 11

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