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I Am Recovering From Self Mutilation

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 165 People

    My Scars...

    my scars are finally healing..for the past year or so i've covered most up with makeup trying not to have people notice but when they did find out that i had cut they wanted to see.... they want to see my scars but they are almost faded and i don't want to make more because i...
    zyx262524 zyx262524 18-21, F 1 Response May 14, 2013

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    The Road Half Travled

    recovery is hard for many people because the pain was addicting it leaves a constant ache or pull but for me it's a little different. I've heard so many people say i needed to punish myself or it provides release but for me pain has warped itself just enough that i know it's...
    scarsrundeep scarsrundeep 13-15, M Jul 22, 2012

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    I have been battling depression

    for nine years now. Despite my efforts to hide my self injury, my parents eventually found out. It happened when I was at my friends house, figured changing into my hoodie for the night wouldnt show anything too bad. I was wrong. In that short few seconds of my left arm being...
    tayelizabeth tayelizabeth 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 22

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    I Slipped

    Up the other day when I had gone almost a year w/out cutting or trying to. It's hard to do it these days when I know better and I have my son in my life. It was just a terrible rush of all the negatives in my life and I felt strongly like I had hit rock bottom and so I stood in...
    IMeWed IMeWed 26-30, F 2 Responses May 14, 2011

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    Just Me And My Story...

    It's been 2 and a half years since my last time cutting myself. Yes, I'm a recovering cutter. I tried other forms of self mutilation, like burning but it made me think too much of Hell to serve the purpose I wanted. My thing was a nice shiney new razor blade...slices like butter...
    kookoobananas52 kookoobananas52 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 18, 2011

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    My Struggle

    Ive been struggling with self mutilation since elementary school. The first time i hurt myself is strangely easy to remember, there have been so many instances since then, they all blur together. What i do remember is being overwhelmingly upset, and alone. The first time i hurt...
    itallhitsthewall itallhitsthewall 22-25, F Mar 7, 2013

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    I was in a 4 year battle with myself.

    I self harmed as a way to release the pain and remind myself that I still have the ability to feel. Also because I hated myself and wanted to die constantly. I have struggled with severe anxiety since 7th grade and I'm now in 11th grade. I have nervous breakdowns pretty often...
    sydneyyumholtz sydneyyumholtz 16-17, F Apr 22

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    Struggling Not To Hurt Me

    I have been off and on cutting for 8 years. Wow that seems so long. Every time I try to stop eventually I just go back. The first time my mom found out, I was in 9th grade. The school counselor called home when she found a letter I wrote about downing a bottle of pills and just...
    forgottenxxmemories forgottenxxmemories 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 16, 2011

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    Hurts So Good..

    The only thing holding me back is the promise I made to myself. It's been 6 months, we've got to see how long I can go. Can I just make it to a year? At least... It's so hard. Especially in moments like these, where I reach out for a helping hand, only to see my hand is the only...
    WiltingBlossom WiltingBlossom 18-21, F 5 Responses May 25, 2011

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    Bye Bye Blades..

    I've selfharmed for over 4 years .. I've bruised,scratched,burned,pulled hair, and the thing I've done the most and my "preference" is cutting.... Today my boyfriend told me how proud he was that i threw away my blades.. but thats not totally true.. i did throw them away but i...
    Megs11 Megs11 16-17 Aug 18, 2013

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    I just threw away my blades last week.

    .. I felt really lost afterwards and only hope I can learn to live and cope with life without them. I have self-harmed for about 2 years on and off, and although I didn't do it for long, it became addicting so fast. The first time I tried to stay clean of cutting I began to burn...
    Neverthinenough Neverthinenough 16-17, F Mar 6

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    Oh So Tempting

    Over time i've become severely depressed and anxious, as a result, i ended up pulling out my eyebrows and eyelashes (and yes, it is a form of self mutilation because of the pain and feeling of releasing pressure sensations that come with doing such a thing),  not with tweesers...
    Mishy17 Mishy17 16-17, F Jun 2, 2011

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    Contemplating

    I have real abandonment issues. My father(my chief supporter most of the time)and my doctor are out of the country right now. I feel depressed and just want to sleep all the time. I have 2 and1//2 years without cutting. I just switched to overdosing which can still get me in...
    sparkles10 sparkles10 46-50 Oct 13, 2012

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    Documentary: Self Harm

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    clajournalism clajournalism 22-25, F Oct 11, 2012

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    My Story

    I used to cut myself when i was angry, I dont have very many cuts, but i go to therapy because of this, one day, I went crazy, and I cut alot, on my wrists, all extremely shallow, like scrapes, and now, every times I look at my wrist i just hate it, heaps of people comment...
    shineaway12 shineaway12 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 24, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    Idk how to even start this this is my first post on here and I'm basically writing because I have nobody to talk to. All these ppl who claim they love me always want me to be there...
    Mjkittycass1985 Mjkittycass1985 26-30, F 6 Responses Aug 4

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    Im actually recovered now. I've been recovered for a few months now. its my third time recovering from anorexia. third times the charm, right? I've been struggling with it for over...
    wishingforrecovery wishingforrecovery 16-17, F 2 days ago

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    my diagnosis remains unclear to me cause ive been diagnosed with so many things.But i do suffer from depression.I do cut and burn myself. And my anxiety though ive never been...
    Passionfruit3 Passionfruit3 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 20

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    I hate when people as me if I'm "still depressed" like they think depression just leaves.
    Lexikay99 Lexikay99 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 5

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    it's like i cant breath without a blade near me at all times over the last few day's iv'e been really close to cutting again here's a question for any other cutters out there do...
    BenjaminChapman BenjaminChapman 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 7

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    I'm getting better but it still hurts a lot. I've been battling it for almost 2 years now...
    suicidalprincesss suicidalprincesss 13-15, F Aug 9

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    Life sucks, I've had enough of feeling like this and having this.
    Skpitt Skpitt 31-35, F Aug 11

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    I'm so sad that it hurts /:
    disasterland disasterland 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 13

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    Umm I'm just not happy where I am now. but I believe thing it will get better when it comes right time. Since I have my med Zoloft for treat with anti-depression and have an...
    xoshorty21 xoshorty21 22-25, F Aug 19

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    no matter how much or how many times people or really /a/ person really says they love me and want to make me happy and will protect me... I can't help but feel that they actually...
    FullHotel FullHotel 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 19

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    I've always been a gentle and quite person. I rarely got angry... I was just sad. I read about people who were always angry because of their depression. I never understood till now...
    FullHotel FullHotel 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 19

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    I can't take it anymore. Relapsing so hard.
    disasterland disasterland 18-21, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    Time to wake up and kicks life's ***! :)
    TeddyOrTeddie TeddyOrTeddie 13-15, M Aug 1

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    This is horrid :( I get the summer off to spend time with the kids and I break my ankle in a mountain (on a trip too) and now I am on my 3 rd week of recovery. The kids are bored...
    kel25 kel25 26-30 Aug 8

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    My BF/ fiancé of 12 years had an emotional affair. I'm so hurt and was blind sided by this. He says it's done and he loves me, it was a month of purely texts then one day he said...
    jeslynn26 jeslynn26 31-35, F Aug 15

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    I'm in a normal weight range now, but I still weigh myself every day. 104 is good 105 is not. Is this the typical experience?
    married1987 married1987 41-45, F 1 Response Aug 17

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    If you've seen any of my posts, you'd know that I haven't been the most positive person lately. I'm ready now to accept the fact that I'm going to be hated by a lot of people and I...
    Ellyhi Ellyhi 13-15, F Aug 17

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    I broke my right ankle this past June playing kickball. My left foot kinda slipped and then my right foot just snapped all the way to the right. It was absolutely horrifying. I was...
    lawsoncr lawsoncr 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I just flushed my blades and I plan to tell my therapist when I see her in a few days. I really want to recover and I hope I can.
    waffles0113 waffles0113 13-15 Jul 29

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    I am super triggered right now. Guess it's my fault though. I'll feel better soon but yeah. People hitting on me and asking sexual questions is really triggering.
    feralady feralady 18-21, F Jul 30

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    Have you cut or deliberately injured yourself in the past year? We invite you to share your experience by participating in a quick online study to learn more about people’s...
    uwyoresearcher uwyoresearcher 22-25, F 6 days ago

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    I don't know where it all went wrong but my life is a mess my life has never been easy and i have always had struggles to overcome but it has never been this bad i am suffering...
    jennylontay148 jennylontay148 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 14

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    I"ve been free from self harm for 2 months never though i would make it ;)
    nagaseiori nagaseiori 18-21, F Aug 11

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    I got a great idea! We all can dig a nice big cesspool of human waste and go skinny dippin in it. Rub raw waste on each other bodies, hair, and maybe eat some. Wouldn't be fun to...
    KawaiiDemon KawaiiDemon 18-21 Aug 20

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    19 weeks clean today...that's right!! Every week I just get more excited!! I can't believe I'm almost at 5 months...last time I made it 4 and I lost it all...this time is different...
    ashricard ashricard 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 4

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    i think to be selfish in some extent is not bad ,because u can help any one only when u help ur self ,we are bound to do work for our selves first rather than anyone else whether...
    rev429 rev429 18-21, M 5 hrs ago

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    I cant really say used to. Im still recovering and am only around 12-14 weeks clean. I just really wish I had someone to talk to about this stuff. That maybe recovering would be...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 1

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    18.5 weeks clean...I've been doing a good job but today I lost another friend...a friend of mine says he still has feelings for me and even though I've told him I just want to be...
    ashricard ashricard 18-21, F Jul 31

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    since the age of 12 i have self harmed, i have a lot of scars and i regret them all but i still cant help but cut myself, however i used to do it daily and now its once a week or...
    fantasycaver fantasycaver 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 2

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    I don't know why but I love to see people's selfies, everyone is perfect in their own way. And the only way you can prove that is to be yourself. Nobody else can be that person. So...
    HappensForAReason HappensForAReason 13-15, M 7 hrs ago

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    Smile is the best way to show that you're OK. Fridayyy selfie (:
    ElleFrancene ElleFrancene 18-21, F 4 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    His addiction destroyed us, ripped us apart time and time again. A year has passed and despite all odds, here we are again, starting anew. He recently left rehab, and by all...
    danii92 danii92 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 2

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    I have spent my entire life seeking and yearning for only one thing… relief from the pain of my horrific childhood. I have always fought alone and tried to do the best I could...
    Overwhelmed15 Overwhelmed15 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 13

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    Today I decided that it is time for me to honestly and genuinely start accepting the success in my life. I am someone who has always worked hard in an effort to overcome what I...