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I Am Recovering From Self Mutilation

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 173 People

    My Scars...

    my scars are finally healing..for the past year or so i've covered most up with makeup trying not to have people notice but when they did find out that i had cut they wanted to see.... they want to see my scars but they are almost faded and i don't want to make more because i...
    zyx262524 zyx262524 18-21, F 1 Response May 14, 2013

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    Documentary: Self Harm

    Have you self-harmed and want to share your story? You will be paid for your time. Location: world wide Format: online video interview. If in Ontario Canada, an in-person interview can be arranged. All work is carried out in a compassionate and respectful manner. Inbox with...
    clajournalism clajournalism 22-25, F Oct 11, 2012

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    I guess I am the only male on here.

    I have scars on my wrists and arms, that are very visable, from cutting. I used to pick the scabs after cutting, thus the scars. I haven't done it in years, but I still carry a razor blade. I thought about cutting for the past couple of weeks, but haven't.
    marques30s marques30s 31-35, M Oct 30

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    Hurts So Good..

    The only thing holding me back is the promise I made to myself. It's been 6 months, we've got to see how long I can go. Can I just make it to a year? At least... It's so hard. Especially in moments like these, where I reach out for a helping hand, only to see my hand is the only...
    WiltingBlossom WiltingBlossom 18-21, F 5 Responses May 25, 2011

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    Bye Bye Blades..

    I've selfharmed for over 4 years .. I've bruised,scratched,burned,pulled hair, and the thing I've done the most and my "preference" is cutting.... Today my boyfriend told me how proud he was that i threw away my blades.. but thats not totally true.. i did throw them away but i...
    Megs11 Megs11 16-17 Aug 18, 2013

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    I have been battling depression

    for nine years now. Despite my efforts to hide my self injury, my parents eventually found out. It happened when I was at my friends house, figured changing into my hoodie for the night wouldnt show anything too bad. I was wrong. In that short few seconds of my left arm being...
    tayelizabeth tayelizabeth 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 22

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    Oh So Tempting

    Over time i've become severely depressed and anxious, as a result, i ended up pulling out my eyebrows and eyelashes (and yes, it is a form of self mutilation because of the pain and feeling of releasing pressure sensations that come with doing such a thing),  not with tweesers...
    Mishy17 Mishy17 16-17, F Jun 2, 2011

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    The Road Half Travled

    recovery is hard for many people because the pain was addicting it leaves a constant ache or pull but for me it's a little different. I've heard so many people say i needed to punish myself or it provides release but for me pain has warped itself just enough that i know it's...
    scarsrundeep scarsrundeep 13-15, M Jul 22, 2012

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    I was in a 4 year battle with myself.

    I self harmed as a way to release the pain and remind myself that I still have the ability to feel. Also because I hated myself and wanted to die constantly. I have struggled with severe anxiety since 7th grade and I'm now in 11th grade. I have nervous breakdowns pretty often...
    sydneyyumholtz sydneyyumholtz 16-17, F Apr 22

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    Contemplating

    I have real abandonment issues. My father(my chief supporter most of the time)and my doctor are out of the country right now. I feel depressed and just want to sleep all the time. I have 2 and1//2 years without cutting. I just switched to overdosing which can still get me in...
    sparkles10 sparkles10 46-50 Oct 13, 2012

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    I just threw away my blades last week.

    .. I felt really lost afterwards and only hope I can learn to live and cope with life without them. I have self-harmed for about 2 years on and off, and although I didn't do it for long, it became addicting so fast. The first time I tried to stay clean of cutting I began to burn...
    Neverthinenough Neverthinenough 16-17, F Mar 6

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    I Slipped

    Up the other day when I had gone almost a year w/out cutting or trying to. It's hard to do it these days when I know better and I have my son in my life. It was just a terrible rush of all the negatives in my life and I felt strongly like I had hit rock bottom and so I stood in...
    IMeWed IMeWed 26-30, F 2 Responses May 14, 2011

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    Just Me And My Story...

    It's been 2 and a half years since my last time cutting myself. Yes, I'm a recovering cutter. I tried other forms of self mutilation, like burning but it made me think too much of Hell to serve the purpose I wanted. My thing was a nice shiney new razor blade...slices like butter...
    kookoobananas52 kookoobananas52 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 18, 2011

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    My Struggle

    Ive been struggling with self mutilation since elementary school. The first time i hurt myself is strangely easy to remember, there have been so many instances since then, they all blur together. What i do remember is being overwhelmingly upset, and alone. The first time i hurt...
    itallhitsthewall itallhitsthewall 22-25, F Mar 7, 2013

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    My Story

    I used to cut myself when i was angry, I dont have very many cuts, but i go to therapy because of this, one day, I went crazy, and I cut alot, on my wrists, all extremely shallow, like scrapes, and now, every times I look at my wrist i just hate it, heaps of people comment...
    shineaway12 shineaway12 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 24, 2012

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    Struggling Not To Hurt Me

    I have been off and on cutting for 8 years. Wow that seems so long. Every time I try to stop eventually I just go back. The first time my mom found out, I was in 9th grade. The school counselor called home when she found a letter I wrote about downing a bottle of pills and just...
    forgottenxxmemories forgottenxxmemories 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 16, 2011

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    I'm 6-ish weeks clean now,

    and it's pretty cool. I can wear shirts now! What a relief - it'll be Summer here soon. The fear of relapse is still always in the back of my head.
    Kneetar04 Kneetar04 18-21, F Nov 4

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    Related Experiences

    Is someone available to talk? Im recovering from abuse. Still. This is very difficult. I am goin thru suffering. lotta suffering.. :( help?
    amtired amtired 22-25 5 Responses Dec 1

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    I have been recovering from an ed for over half a year. I am getting worried because I've missed my period for a while year. What should I do?????
    comfortablynumb9 comfortablynumb9 22-25, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Hey there. There is no such thing somebody can fix you. You gotta fix yourself! Is all in you! In your mind! You gotta learn to see your pain and understand it. And try to not let...
    LovelyLilly13 LovelyLilly13 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    I've self harmed since I was 10 and I'm now 15, I just can't stop.
    Frankiehw Frankiehw 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 4

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    My name is Jamie. I am 17 years old, and I have had trouble with depression, anxiety, self harm for a long long while now. Does anyone else have these issues? I feel like I'm alone...
    bruhitsjamie bruhitsjamie 16-17, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    i have depression. i have days where i dont wanna get dressed or go out of the house most days i dont even leave my bedroom. any support from people with these same issues would be...
    ycram1990 ycram1990 22-25, F a week ago

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    I just want it all to stop.
    Harley4260 Harley4260 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 24

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    its becoming a struggle to ignore the feeling or voice in my head or whatever you want to call it that encourages me to do something i know ill regret theres just this pit in my...
    Lathor Lathor 22-25, M Dec 6

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    I've never talked to anyone else with my anxiety disorder (Trichotillomania) . So I'm sending this out into the void in hope that someone else out there may want someone to relate...
    Phalona Phalona 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    If you had have asked me a year ago what depression was, I would have given you that same old answer about how it just seems to be a thrown around term for people who "get a bit...
    Georgiana72 Georgiana72 16-17, F 2 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    Can someone please tell me what's wrong with me. Why am I not good enough? Why did he feel like I deserved abuse? Why did the ones before him feel like I didn't deserve to be...
    WhereIsTheLogic WhereIsTheLogic 31-35, F 8 Responses Nov 21

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    so I am suffering. still. STILL! dammit. damn him who does he think he is/? tellin meto kill myself and callin me names n crap. wtf. if i was so bad whyd he continue talking to me...
    amtired amtired 22-25 2 Responses Nov 24

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    I started cutting at age 12. id cut to numb the pain, to feel something, to calm my rage, it just depended on the situation. I finally quit at age 27. for 3 yrs I was cut free...
    wickedlilangel69 wickedlilangel69 31-35, F Nov 29

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    I have strained my hamstring and twisted my ankle on my left leg, and I have a match tomorrow. Is there anything I can do to help recover?
    Alexcity Alexcity 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 2

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    The first time I cut was after my emotionally abusive boyfriend was yelling at me. He was screaming over the phone and I couldn't take it. At the time I had already thinking about...
    AlysonBlack AlysonBlack 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I'm getting sick of my past abuse controlling my sex life. I want to think about sex like a normal person. I want sex to be empowering. I don't want it to be psychologically...
    Scal92 Scal92 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I'm 75 days clean oh my lanta.
    myhappylittlepill myhappylittlepill 13-15, F Nov 25

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    Judge me if you want but you don't even know my name so why would you?
    Queennnnnnn Queennnnnnn 13-15, F Dec 2

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    even if people try to understand why I do it they just don't get the fact that I'm broken and empty inside
    thedeathmist thedeathmist 16-17, F Dec 7

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    I haven't self harmed for 3 years and I'm still recovering from my past..
    Brookedrumm Brookedrumm 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 19

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    Lately I've decided to really try to stoop self harming and so far it is going really well. I'm still not ready to recover from my ED (eating disorder) but self harm has made such...
    littlecrazymia littlecrazymia 13-15, F 5 Responses Nov 18

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    I want to go back to the old self that wandered for a time. 'Tho I know, the trauma has changed me somehow. Despite the hurt, the pain, the mess that "accidentally" visited, the...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F Nov 25

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    I've been clean a little over 13 months now. I'm not expecting miracles or anything but damn I thought some aspect of life would be easier, I was wrong, life's still messy I'm just...
    shannonshart shannonshart 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 18

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    I started my wheat free diet including most grains and I lost 5 pounds and my joint pain reduced dramatically. I'm hoping that I see more progress as time goes on. At first it was...
    HigherCalling HigherCalling 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 6

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    Been clean for about 5 months now, just wanted to know if any other recovering self harmer gets triggered by their scars? Sounds weird but I don't want them to go away, they are...
    rjade rjade 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 22

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    The Gift He hands me a package wrapped in silver paper with a hot pink bow on top. The box is square and thin, with a little weight to it. He says nothing as he hands it to me and...
    Overwhelmed15 Overwhelmed15 26-30, F 3 Responses Nov 30

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    So. After years and years of having great luck. Knowing all the right people to get me out of trouble. It all finally came apart. Last night I left work about 1030pm and went to...
    QBRAIDER QBRAIDER 26-30, M 1 Response Dec 6

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    I wake to the cold; another day, The weather not the cause of my way, I'm sore, tired; I'm here but I'm not, Not unusual at my regular spot. They know I like whiskey, they think I...
    MDaddysGirlM MDaddysGirlM 22-25, F Dec 7

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    Stopped feeling soowihsydal. Before halloween. Still losing hope. But sad then mad then numb. Serenity gone. Health fading. License jeopardized. But mad not...
    OddlyScintilating OddlyScintilating 46-50, M 1 Response Dec 1

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    Anyone who is looking to supplement their income or live a more natural healthier life. Would you like to make some extra money not only for the holidays coming up but maybe to...
    CassieBennett CassieBennett 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 9

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