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I Am Recovering From Self Mutilation

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 175 People

    I Slipped

    Up the other day when I had gone almost a year w/out cutting or trying to. It's hard to do it these days when I know better and I have my son in my life. It was just a terrible rush of all the negatives in my life and I felt strongly like I had hit rock bottom and so I stood in...
    IMeWed IMeWed 26-30, F 2 Responses May 14, 2011

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    I just threw away my blades last week.

    .. I felt really lost afterwards and only hope I can learn to live and cope with life without them. I have self-harmed for about 2 years on and off, and although I didn't do it for long, it became addicting so fast. The first time I tried to stay clean of cutting I began to burn...
    Neverthinenough Neverthinenough 16-17, F Mar 6, 2014

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    Oh So Tempting

    Over time i've become severely depressed and anxious, as a result, i ended up pulling out my eyebrows and eyelashes (and yes, it is a form of self mutilation because of the pain and feeling of releasing pressure sensations that come with doing such a thing),  not with tweesers...
    Mishy17 Mishy17 16-17, F Jun 2, 2011

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    Bye Bye Blades..

    I've selfharmed for over 4 years .. I've bruised,scratched,burned,pulled hair, and the thing I've done the most and my "preference" is cutting.... Today my boyfriend told me how proud he was that i threw away my blades.. but thats not totally true.. i did throw them away but i...
    Megs11 Megs11 18-21 Aug 18, 2013

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    Just Me And My Story...

    It's been 2 and a half years since my last time cutting myself. Yes, I'm a recovering cutter. I tried other forms of self mutilation, like burning but it made me think too much of Hell to serve the purpose I wanted. My thing was a nice shiney new razor blade...slices like butter...
    kookoobananas52 kookoobananas52 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 18, 2011

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    I'm 6-ish weeks clean now,

    and it's pretty cool. I can wear shirts now! What a relief - it'll be Summer here soon. The fear of relapse is still always in the back of my head.
    Kneetar04 Kneetar04 18-21, F Nov 4, 2014

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    I was in a 4 year battle with myself.

    I self harmed as a way to release the pain and remind myself that I still have the ability to feel. Also because I hated myself and wanted to die constantly. I have struggled with severe anxiety since 7th grade and I'm now in 11th grade. I have nervous breakdowns pretty often...
    sydneyyumholtz sydneyyumholtz 18-21, F Apr 22, 2014

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    My Struggle

    Ive been struggling with self mutilation since elementary school. The first time i hurt myself is strangely easy to remember, there have been so many instances since then, they all blur together. What i do remember is being overwhelmingly upset, and alone. The first time i hurt...
    itallhitsthewall itallhitsthewall 22-25, F Mar 7, 2013

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    Contemplating

    I have real abandonment issues. My father(my chief supporter most of the time)and my doctor are out of the country right now. I feel depressed and just want to sleep all the time. I have 2 and1//2 years without cutting. I just switched to overdosing which can still get me in...
    sparkles10 sparkles10 46-50 Oct 13, 2012

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    I have been battling depression

    for nine years now. Despite my efforts to hide my self injury, my parents eventually found out. It happened when I was at my friends house, figured changing into my hoodie for the night wouldnt show anything too bad. I was wrong. In that short few seconds of my left arm being...
    tayelizabeth tayelizabeth 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 22, 2014

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    My Scars...

    my scars are finally healing..for the past year or so i've covered most up with makeup trying not to have people notice but when they did find out that i had cut they wanted to see.... they want to see my scars but they are almost faded and i don't want to make more because i...
    zyx262524 zyx262524 18-21, F 1 Response May 14, 2013

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    My Story

    I used to cut myself when i was angry, I dont have very many cuts, but i go to therapy because of this, one day, I went crazy, and I cut alot, on my wrists, all extremely shallow, like scrapes, and now, every times I look at my wrist i just hate it, heaps of people comment...
    shineaway12 shineaway12 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 24, 2012

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    Struggling Not To Hurt Me

    I have been off and on cutting for 8 years. Wow that seems so long. Every time I try to stop eventually I just go back. The first time my mom found out, I was in 9th grade. The school counselor called home when she found a letter I wrote about downing a bottle of pills and just...
    forgottenxxmemories forgottenxxmemories 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 16, 2011

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    I guess I am the only male on here.

    I have scars on my wrists and arms, that are very visable, from cutting. I used to pick the scabs after cutting, thus the scars. I haven't done it in years, but I still carry a razor blade. I thought about cutting for the past couple of weeks, but haven't.
    marques30s marques30s 31-35, M Oct 30, 2014

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    Hurts So Good..

    The only thing holding me back is the promise I made to myself. It's been 6 months, we've got to see how long I can go. Can I just make it to a year? At least... It's so hard. Especially in moments like these, where I reach out for a helping hand, only to see my hand is the only...
    WiltingBlossom WiltingBlossom 18-21, F 5 Responses May 25, 2011

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    The Road Half Travled

    recovery is hard for many people because the pain was addicting it leaves a constant ache or pull but for me it's a little different. I've heard so many people say i needed to punish myself or it provides release but for me pain has warped itself just enough that i know it's...
    scarsrundeep scarsrundeep 13-15, M Jul 22, 2012

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    I'm in the middle of packing everything that reminds me of my ex in a box. this includes a bday and Christmas gift he gave me. a photo from our last date. homecoming photo and...
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    Yesterday was my 1 month of being clean from cutting. I feel proud of that. No more ugly scars that people stare at. It was like everyone was seeing my fresh cuts, but no one cared...
    Nick54 Nick54 18-21, M Apr 21

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    Chesher Chesher 18-21, M Apr 3

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    My mother is an emotional-manipulator and my father.. well he isnt a good person.. he did things to me.. when I was little up until I was 12. Im 14 now, and I realize now that...
    ShiningSkies ShiningSkies 13-15 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I used to be REALLY psychotic, I'm trying to change that.
    northhatesyou northhatesyou 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 9

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    I'm finally getting better but I was wondering if anyone else has had a binging problem following the weeks after they began recovery? I got put on a strict meal plan and all my...
    belhowwol belhowwol 16-17, F Apr 13

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    Picked up these babies at work today. I have 100 of these little guys. And they're even “sterilized by gamma radiation.” Fancy. I've been craving to have a razor near by. Maybe...
    Ha12mo17y Ha12mo17y 26-30, F Apr 18

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    I had shoulder surgery 12 days ago...bone spurs, arthritis, etc, and I am in EXCRUCIATING pain!! The pain has gotten worse the past two days. I layed in the recliner last night and...
    Bubblez2020 Bubblez2020 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 22

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    I broke my streak... it was April 2nd exactly 11 months of being clean. I ****** it all up and cut up my entire stomach with those same weak safety scissors. Even though the...
    MorbidRainbow MorbidRainbow 13-15, F Apr 4

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    I did it again :( what is wrong with me
    jorgoth jorgoth 16-17, M 2 Responses Apr 14

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    im currently recovering from a 10 year heroin addiction. from the ages of 15 to 27 i was a hardcore addict ,mostly prostituting and then just panhandling because i couldnt live...
    foxyoxy123 foxyoxy123 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    Withdrawals from effexxor are a living hell. I swear. I tried getting off three times and can't. I forgot my pills and I'm over at family's house for the holidays. I can't function...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F Apr 11

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    I think my finger is infected... Not even from self harm... But... I still love it.. It hurts so much... And I hope that it gets worse... Why do I enjoy the pain.. That actually...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 18

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    I swear to God that I'll never cut so deep like this again or cut at all. I'm going through hell with the healing process. Hurts like a motherfcker and it's so slow. I don't have...
    AndreaCulea AndreaCulea 22-25, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    It's been a couple months since my last episode. It's exhausting living a life with self harm. If you have any questions about self harm just comment or message me. Please be...
    TickleMeCell TickleMeCell 16-17, T 1 Response Apr 8

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    Here's a selfie out on the track I push around every afternoon as part of my workout
    mattywheels25 mattywheels25 26-30, M 8 hrs ago

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    Here's a selfie on the track I push around every afternoon as part of my workout
    mattywheels25 mattywheels25 26-30, M 8 hrs ago

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    Here's a selfie on the track I push around every afternoon as part of my workout
    mattywheels25 mattywheels25 26-30, M 8 hrs ago

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    Selfie yesterday!!
    Donna717 Donna717 36-40, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    Dad just came back in my room and went "how come the weekend you have a sleep over you always want to skip the following Monday? " I never realised I do that and I only skip...
    KXTb KXTb 18-21, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    The first time I was born I was a part of a race called the Coloric. I grew up and learned the trade of a healer. When I turned 14 I was tested for Mana (magickal) ability, and...
    MargoSkylar MargoSkylar 13-15, F a week ago

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    I've bitten my nails for as long as I can remember. As a child I bit my fingernails and toenails (gross, I know). I stopped biting my toenails probably around the age of 8, maybe 9...
    wxitch wxitch 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    Haven't been on here in five months alot had changed ive been sober for five months ive moved from cali to phoenix az and have a home and i am so blesses to be 14 weeks pregnant my...
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