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I Am Recovering From Self Mutilation

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 174 People

    Oh So Tempting

    Over time i've become severely depressed and anxious, as a result, i ended up pulling out my eyebrows and eyelashes (and yes, it is a form of self mutilation because of the pain and feeling of releasing pressure sensations that come with doing such a thing),  not with tweesers...
    Mishy17 Mishy17 16-17, F Jun 2, 2011

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    Bye Bye Blades..

    I've selfharmed for over 4 years .. I've bruised,scratched,burned,pulled hair, and the thing I've done the most and my "preference" is cutting.... Today my boyfriend told me how proud he was that i threw away my blades.. but thats not totally true.. i did throw them away but i...
    Megs11 Megs11 16-17 Aug 18, 2013

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    I Slipped

    Up the other day when I had gone almost a year w/out cutting or trying to. It's hard to do it these days when I know better and I have my son in my life. It was just a terrible rush of all the negatives in my life and I felt strongly like I had hit rock bottom and so I stood in...
    IMeWed IMeWed 26-30, F 2 Responses May 14, 2011

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    I'm 6-ish weeks clean now,

    and it's pretty cool. I can wear shirts now! What a relief - it'll be Summer here soon. The fear of relapse is still always in the back of my head.
    Kneetar04 Kneetar04 18-21, F Nov 4, 2014

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    Documentary: Self Harm

    Have you self-harmed and want to share your story? You will be paid for your time. Location: world wide Format: online video interview. If in Ontario Canada, an in-person interview can be arranged. All work is carried out in a compassionate and respectful manner. Inbox with...
    clajournalism clajournalism 22-25, F Oct 11, 2012

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    My Struggle

    Ive been struggling with self mutilation since elementary school. The first time i hurt myself is strangely easy to remember, there have been so many instances since then, they all blur together. What i do remember is being overwhelmingly upset, and alone. The first time i hurt...
    itallhitsthewall itallhitsthewall 22-25, F Mar 7, 2013

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    Hurts So Good..

    The only thing holding me back is the promise I made to myself. It's been 6 months, we've got to see how long I can go. Can I just make it to a year? At least... It's so hard. Especially in moments like these, where I reach out for a helping hand, only to see my hand is the only...
    WiltingBlossom WiltingBlossom 18-21, F 5 Responses May 25, 2011

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    The Road Half Travled

    recovery is hard for many people because the pain was addicting it leaves a constant ache or pull but for me it's a little different. I've heard so many people say i needed to punish myself or it provides release but for me pain has warped itself just enough that i know it's...
    scarsrundeep scarsrundeep 13-15, M Jul 22, 2012

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    Contemplating

    I have real abandonment issues. My father(my chief supporter most of the time)and my doctor are out of the country right now. I feel depressed and just want to sleep all the time. I have 2 and1//2 years without cutting. I just switched to overdosing which can still get me in...
    sparkles10 sparkles10 46-50 Oct 13, 2012

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    My Story

    I used to cut myself when i was angry, I dont have very many cuts, but i go to therapy because of this, one day, I went crazy, and I cut alot, on my wrists, all extremely shallow, like scrapes, and now, every times I look at my wrist i just hate it, heaps of people comment...
    shineaway12 shineaway12 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 24, 2012

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    Just Me And My Story...

    It's been 2 and a half years since my last time cutting myself. Yes, I'm a recovering cutter. I tried other forms of self mutilation, like burning but it made me think too much of Hell to serve the purpose I wanted. My thing was a nice shiney new razor blade...slices like butter...
    kookoobananas52 kookoobananas52 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 18, 2011

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    I have been battling depression

    for nine years now. Despite my efforts to hide my self injury, my parents eventually found out. It happened when I was at my friends house, figured changing into my hoodie for the night wouldnt show anything too bad. I was wrong. In that short few seconds of my left arm being...
    tayelizabeth tayelizabeth 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 22, 2014

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    I guess I am the only male on here.

    I have scars on my wrists and arms, that are very visable, from cutting. I used to pick the scabs after cutting, thus the scars. I haven't done it in years, but I still carry a razor blade. I thought about cutting for the past couple of weeks, but haven't.
    marques30s marques30s 31-35, M Oct 30, 2014

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    I was in a 4 year battle with myself.

    I self harmed as a way to release the pain and remind myself that I still have the ability to feel. Also because I hated myself and wanted to die constantly. I have struggled with severe anxiety since 7th grade and I'm now in 11th grade. I have nervous breakdowns pretty often...
    sydneyyumholtz sydneyyumholtz 16-17, F Apr 22, 2014

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    I just threw away my blades last week.

    .. I felt really lost afterwards and only hope I can learn to live and cope with life without them. I have self-harmed for about 2 years on and off, and although I didn't do it for long, it became addicting so fast. The first time I tried to stay clean of cutting I began to burn...
    Neverthinenough Neverthinenough 16-17, F Mar 6, 2014

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    Struggling Not To Hurt Me

    I have been off and on cutting for 8 years. Wow that seems so long. Every time I try to stop eventually I just go back. The first time my mom found out, I was in 9th grade. The school counselor called home when she found a letter I wrote about downing a bottle of pills and just...
    forgottenxxmemories forgottenxxmemories 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 16, 2011

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    My Scars...

    my scars are finally healing..for the past year or so i've covered most up with makeup trying not to have people notice but when they did find out that i had cut they wanted to see.... they want to see my scars but they are almost faded and i don't want to make more because i...
    zyx262524 zyx262524 18-21, F 1 Response May 14, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    I'm a popular girl friends with everyone at school . " You're so pretty , You're so gorgeous" is all I hear but when I look in the mirror I see different all I can do is cry I see...
    dasiy456 dasiy456 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 3

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    If you are suicidal, please get help if you can't find help within yourself. But, please, do not seek help from your teenage friends, especially if they struggle with their own...
    junipersun21 junipersun21 18-21, F Mar 12

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    My last post here was in August. I didn't make a full recovery, and I cut again. I lost all sight of hope and God. I tried killing myself a few times, then got scared and stopped...
    Ellytheoutcast Ellytheoutcast 13-15, F Mar 15

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    I'm a three-sport athlete, so I always seem to have some sort of injury. First it was my ankle and knee from soccer, then swimming made my knee worse, and now I'm catching for...
    scsoccer scsoccer 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    You Know You're Depressed, When you cry for no reason, when you talk to yourself, or even, when you think too Much..! =(
    Diana172 Diana172 13-15, F Mar 3

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    I need to stay strong.....I can't let the little things get to me...I promised him I would try and I don't break promises.....So why do I keep ******* up
    Mylo248 Mylo248 16-17, F Mar 3

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    I don't want to move back in with my family. But I have to because "I'm a danger to myself and others." The thought is unbearable.
    CatsSuckBalls CatsSuckBalls 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 4

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    being let down makes me sad which in turn makes me want to cut/burn I don't want to fight it anymore I want my sweet release
    curioustiff curioustiff 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 4

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    I find it hard to even find the energy to get out of bed in the mornings, knowing all that awaits me is another day of the same bullshit that drove me to want to kill myself the...
    crabspanner crabspanner 36-40, M Mar 4

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    I have been dealing with all of this since I was 10 I never have and never will be good enough
    boredgirl02 boredgirl02 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 8

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    I'm so severely depressed. I don't want to live anymore. No one will ever see me as I see myself - a man... so what's the point? My dysphoria is constantly tearing me apart.. I...
    virtualricki virtualricki 16-17, T 1 Response Mar 15

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    I never thought people who cut themselves were strong. I know it sounds mean to say but honestly I feel as though people who go on cutting sprees and self mutilation are actually...
    3dayweekend 3dayweekend 18-21, M 7 Responses Mar 18

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    I'm honestly tired of people glorifying self harm. I'm done and I need a good rant. Depression is NOT fun, it's NOT a choice, and more importantly self harm is NOT beautiful. It's...
    Whathi Whathi 16-17, F 7 Responses Feb 28

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    with everything that has happened to me I wonder if I have become one of these people. like I spend a lot of time over analysing, the things I say, the things I do... how it will...
    lilygeorge12 lilygeorge12 22-25, F 1 Response 26 mins ago

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    My son, who came close to estranging me after his mother and I divorced largely due to my alcoholism, had been emotionally scarred so deeply by my actions that he had decided he...
    grasser grasser 56-60, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    yesterday (24th of March) was... It was hard. I didn't feel bad or anxious until late night, and even then it wasn't that bad really. I however had a problem. At about mid-day I...
    bluecupcakes bluecupcakes 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I mess up sometimes, I do. But I am so much better than I used to. 'I haven't self harmed in over half a year (minus some minor mess ups, maybe 3-5 times.) I'm scared of it getting...
    bluecupcakes bluecupcakes 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Most of my scars have faded now but I still get the urge to occasionally. When I do get upset I go over the scar in liquid eye liner and remember all the different reasons I...
    justfloatingby2day justfloatingby2day 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    I find myself sitting alone chain smoking butts at this very moment with many supportive friends I know that always have my back, but what im going through has left me with no one...
    sjm07 sjm07 26-30, F Mar 2

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    I stopped cutting about 100 or so days ago but today I relapsed and I feel like absolute crap. :/ I was recovering but this happened
    littleanjii littleanjii 16-17, F Mar 18

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    Over 5 years now, but slowly recovering. I'm also hoping to get a tattoo soon to cover some old scars.
    TickleMeCell TickleMeCell 16-17, T 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Yep. I thought I was recovering. Keyword: Thought.
    UndyingLovatic UndyingLovatic 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 12

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    the only people I ever talk about this stuff with is people I'm close to, but when ever i say just a little too much they seem to get squeamish, so I only answer questions when...
    DarkSideOfTheWall DarkSideOfTheWall 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    Religious Tolerance.org states: "Origins of the name "Easter." "The name "Easter" originated with the names of an ancient Goddess and God. The venerable Bede (672 - 735 C.E.), a...
    Kate95350 Kate95350 61-65, F 2 Responses Mar 3

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    I no longer believe the Nicene Creed, created by the Council of Nicaea in 325 C.E. by the Roman Emperor Constantine. Today I am a Deist who believes in The God of Nature, reason...
    Kate95350 Kate95350 61-65, F Mar 2

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    18 months! Today marks one and a half years sober!!!!! My life is so insanely different from when I first stopped drinking that I really don’t even know what to say. It has...
    Overwhelmed15 Overwhelmed15 26-30, F 3 Responses Mar 11

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