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I Am Recovering From Self Mutilation

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 165 People

    I just threw away my blades last week.

    .. I felt really lost afterwards and only hope I can learn to live and cope with life without them. I have self-harmed for about 2 years on and off, and although I didn't do it for long, it became addicting so fast. The first time I tried to stay clean of cutting I began to burn...
    Neverthinenough Neverthinenough 16-17, F Mar 6

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    My Story

    I used to cut myself when i was angry, I dont have very many cuts, but i go to therapy because of this, one day, I went crazy, and I cut alot, on my wrists, all extremely shallow, like scrapes, and now, every times I look at my wrist i just hate it, heaps of people comment...
    shineaway12 shineaway12 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 24, 2012

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    Oh So Tempting

    Over time i've become severely depressed and anxious, as a result, i ended up pulling out my eyebrows and eyelashes (and yes, it is a form of self mutilation because of the pain and feeling of releasing pressure sensations that come with doing such a thing),  not with tweesers...
    Mishy17 Mishy17 16-17, F Jun 2, 2011

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    Documentary: Self Harm

    Have you self-harmed and want to share your story? You will be paid for your time. Location: world wide Format: online video interview. If in Ontario Canada, an in-person interview can be arranged. All work is carried out in a compassionate and respectful manner. Inbox with...
    clajournalism clajournalism 22-25, F Oct 11, 2012

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    I Slipped

    Up the other day when I had gone almost a year w/out cutting or trying to. It's hard to do it these days when I know better and I have my son in my life. It was just a terrible rush of all the negatives in my life and I felt strongly like I had hit rock bottom and so I stood in...
    IMeWed IMeWed 26-30, F 2 Responses May 14, 2011

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    I have been battling depression

    for nine years now. Despite my efforts to hide my self injury, my parents eventually found out. It happened when I was at my friends house, figured changing into my hoodie for the night wouldnt show anything too bad. I was wrong. In that short few seconds of my left arm being...
    tayelizabeth tayelizabeth 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 22

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    My Scars...

    my scars are finally healing..for the past year or so i've covered most up with makeup trying not to have people notice but when they did find out that i had cut they wanted to see.... they want to see my scars but they are almost faded and i don't want to make more because i...
    zyx262524 zyx262524 18-21, F 1 Response May 14, 2013

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    Struggling Not To Hurt Me

    I have been off and on cutting for 8 years. Wow that seems so long. Every time I try to stop eventually I just go back. The first time my mom found out, I was in 9th grade. The school counselor called home when she found a letter I wrote about downing a bottle of pills and just...
    forgottenxxmemories forgottenxxmemories 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 16, 2011

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    The Road Half Travled

    recovery is hard for many people because the pain was addicting it leaves a constant ache or pull but for me it's a little different. I've heard so many people say i needed to punish myself or it provides release but for me pain has warped itself just enough that i know it's...
    scarsrundeep scarsrundeep 13-15, M Jul 22, 2012

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    I was in a 4 year battle with myself.

    I self harmed as a way to release the pain and remind myself that I still have the ability to feel. Also because I hated myself and wanted to die constantly. I have struggled with severe anxiety since 7th grade and I'm now in 11th grade. I have nervous breakdowns pretty often...
    sydneyyumholtz sydneyyumholtz 16-17, F Apr 22

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    Hurts So Good..

    The only thing holding me back is the promise I made to myself. It's been 6 months, we've got to see how long I can go. Can I just make it to a year? At least... It's so hard. Especially in moments like these, where I reach out for a helping hand, only to see my hand is the only...
    WiltingBlossom WiltingBlossom 18-21, F 5 Responses May 25, 2011

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    My Struggle

    Ive been struggling with self mutilation since elementary school. The first time i hurt myself is strangely easy to remember, there have been so many instances since then, they all blur together. What i do remember is being overwhelmingly upset, and alone. The first time i hurt...
    itallhitsthewall itallhitsthewall 22-25, F Mar 7, 2013

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    Just Me And My Story...

    It's been 2 and a half years since my last time cutting myself. Yes, I'm a recovering cutter. I tried other forms of self mutilation, like burning but it made me think too much of Hell to serve the purpose I wanted. My thing was a nice shiney new razor blade...slices like butter...
    kookoobananas52 kookoobananas52 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 18, 2011

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    Contemplating

    I have real abandonment issues. My father(my chief supporter most of the time)and my doctor are out of the country right now. I feel depressed and just want to sleep all the time. I have 2 and1//2 years without cutting. I just switched to overdosing which can still get me in...
    sparkles10 sparkles10 46-50 Oct 13, 2012

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    Bye Bye Blades..

    I've selfharmed for over 4 years .. I've bruised,scratched,burned,pulled hair, and the thing I've done the most and my "preference" is cutting.... Today my boyfriend told me how proud he was that i threw away my blades.. but thats not totally true.. i did throw them away but i...
    Megs11 Megs11 16-17 Aug 18, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    I honestly don't really know if it's official or not, and I don't want to go to a doctor. I think I'm fine managing by myself. I started to have bad anxiety/depression since last...
    AwfullyRad AwfullyRad 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 18

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    I have depression and ive had it for about a year but im clean with no cuts. Although ive had suicidal thoughts and self harm thoughts everyday so my mom decided to put me in...
    KaylaBiskup KaylaBiskup 18-21, F Sep 16

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    I honestly don't know where to start. I've been through so much these past few years and I only recently have got some help from a professional. If you want to know the whole story...
    Hissa79 Hissa79 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I don't even care that I'm doing this again. I don't have any intention of stoping. I never tried stoping before.
    disasterland disasterland 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 31

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    That's all that needs to be said. You want my full story? Message me.
    hs199 hs199 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I really wish I had the attention span to give a full explanation. I haven't regularly harmed myself since high school. It's been 13 years since then. I wish I would have gotten...
    piprimate piprimate 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 4

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    This kind of sh*t is just ridiculous. EP Link Romanticising self harm is just bloody stupid; it's not cute, lovely, 'tragically beautiful' or any of that bullsh*t. It's just a...
    BrokenThread BrokenThread 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    I haven't cut since last March. I tell other people I have recovered, but I refuse to tell myself that. It's just simply not true. Although I have refrained from self harm I am...
    FarrahRelates FarrahRelates 22-25, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    6.5 months clean yesterday!! Gaaaahhh how did this happen?!? Who'd of thought I was strong enough for that :O every week I get farther and farther away from it but every week feels...
    ashricard ashricard 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I believe that The Higher Power (Creator of the Universe) = Intelligent Atomic Energy that formed the universe through the scientific Big Bang Theory and Evolution on planet earth...
    Kate95350 Kate95350 61-65, F 2 Responses Sep 16

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    Hello, gods and goddesses..... I have struggled with bulimia for over 6 years: daily binging and purging, alcohol abuse, stealing, anxiety, and depression. Before that, it was a...
    ElementYogi ElementYogi 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 18

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    Self harm is one of the hardest addictions to overcome that there is.
    lovealwayz lovealwayz 16-17, F a week ago

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    Yesterday was bitter sweet; anyone who is close to me knows the struggles I've had with my current job. It's thankless and extremely stressful. Some nights it literally gives me...
    Alanda510 Alanda510 31-35, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    I guess what I am on the inside is very different from the outside .
    kiddishguy kiddishguy 26-30, M 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    So, I started self-harming 3 years ago due to a lot of things. But anyway back in July, I reached out to my parents and asked for help. I told them everything. Things got better...
    CatySansom CatySansom 16-17, F 2 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    And today one of my favorite teachers asked me how old i was when i first started cutting and why. Apparently she had a 13 year old daughter who has been expressing suicidal...
    AliceInHungerland AliceInHungerland 16-17, F 3 hrs ago

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    Let the countdown begin…. ☺ Only NINE days away from my one-year anniversary has me in a rather reflective mood. I can’t help but sit back and think about the puzzle that...
    Overwhelmed15 Overwhelmed15 26-30, F 6 Responses Sep 2

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    What’s next for my sober life?? Since the excitement of my one year anniversary has finally faded, I am left feeling reflective and wondering where my life is headed next. So...
    Overwhelmed15 Overwhelmed15 26-30, F 4 Responses Sep 21

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    One of the most unattractive qualities in people is being too selfish and self absorbed to understand others or see things from a more objective and realistic perspective. Being so...
    shannonymous shannonymous 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 1

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    I am an Asian woman who grow up in a traditional and patriarchal family. My parents are divorced since I was very little. My mom was busy working trying to make ends meet, thus I...
    ChicaAudaz ChicaAudaz 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    This is a Poem that i wrote, I never write or do anything like that. I've been feeling depressed so i wrote down what i was thinking. This is a Personal Poem about how I feel...
    Nick54 Nick54 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 3

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    I think this is an issue many women have gone through some time in their life. When I was young I hated the way that I looked I was the tall scrawny looking girl in my elementary...
    Morenita79 Morenita79 31-35, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    My goal: to be the person I want to be with in more ways then one... With this in mind I find myself getting anxiety from a place of self perfectionism, but then I take a step...
    OhGK OhGK 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 31

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    There was a small time in my life that my confidence started to bloom. I modeled for a few photographers, I was happy with the way I looked minus a few things if course. I...
    MarKri MarKri 22-25, F Sep 7

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    My unintended story... I did not intend to write this story when I started writing this morning. I guess this must’ve been wanting to come out. My parents divorced a year...
    Iamhere4me Iamhere4me 36-40, M 4 Responses Sep 9

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    The growing trend of taking smartphone selfies is linked to mental health conditions that focus on a person’s obsession with looks. According to psychiatrist Dr David Veal...
    MFBG MFBG 61-65, M Sep 13

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    I am addicted to self-harm. I was depressed and suicidal for about a year. When I first started harming, I did it almost everyday. I have five clean days total over a course of...
    waitwhatssleep waitwhatssleep 13-15, F Sep 20

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    I crawled to the end of the room on my knees. Head phones tangled along my legs as loud music played. The music that still plays. Anything to drown out these thoughts. Wading...
    burrowbunni burrowbunni 18-21, F Sep 22

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    DISCLAIMER; this is very long and I've changed the names :) In 2010 I started year 7 and within the first few months I made two main friends that I had intended to stick with me...
    chanelondon chanelondon 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    10 years ago, I had so much self confidence. I was able to manage and tackle anything that came my way. I was a single young mother, owned my own home, had a great career and was...
    Jenn7791 Jenn7791 36-40, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Brother: "Why is she talking so long in the bathroom?" Dad: "It's because she's a girl. Girls do that." Go ahead and hate if you want to, but this is a really touchy subject...
    DarkOnTheInside13 DarkOnTheInside13 13-15, F 5 Responses Sep 2

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    The first time i cut my self I was 12 years old. My mother had just had one of her best "motherly moments" of my childhood. She shoved me against the sharp counter leaving a long...
    mst529 mst529 13-15, F 3 Responses Sep 3

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    Hi I'm new here. This is a pretty personal post as a first story, but I feel like I can just let it all out on a community whom I am a stranger to. Basically, I used to self harm...
    DieWithYourMaskOn DieWithYourMaskOn 13-15, T 3 Responses Sep 8

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