I Am Recovering From Self Mutilation

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 173 People

    The other night I relapsed bad.

    I have to go see my cousins from out of town tomorrow and I'm afraid they'll see my arms.
    justme9957 justme9957
    13-15, F
    5 Responses Dec 30, 2015

    I just threw away my blades last week.

    .. I felt really lost afterwards and only hope I can learn to live and cope with life without them. I have self-harmed for about 2 years on and off, and although I didn't do it for long, it became addicting so fast. The first time I tried to stay clean of cutting I began to burn...
    Neverthinenough Neverthinenough
    18-21, F
    Mar 6, 2014

    Oh So Tempting

    Over time i've become severely depressed and anxious, as a result, i ended up pulling out my eyebrows and eyelashes (and yes, it is a form of self mutilation because of the pain and feeling of releasing pressure sensations that come with doing such a thing),  not with tweesers...
    Mishy17 Mishy17
    16-17, F
    Jun 2, 2011

    I'm trying really hard not to relapse

    but the urges are so strong. Please please please help me.
    justme9957 justme9957
    13-15, F
    1 Response Dec 1, 2015

    Bye Bye Blades..

    I've selfharmed for over 4 years .. I've bruised,scratched,burned,pulled hair, and the thing I've done the most and my "preference" is cutting.... Today my boyfriend told me how proud he was that i threw away my blades.. but thats not totally true.. i did throw them away but i...
    Megs11 Megs11
    18-21
    Aug 18, 2013

    I was in a 4 year battle with myself.

    I self harmed as a way to release the pain and remind myself that I still have the ability to feel. Also because I hated myself and wanted to die constantly. I have struggled with severe anxiety since 7th grade and I'm now in 11th grade. I have nervous breakdowns pretty often...
    sydneyyumholtz sydneyyumholtz
    18-21, F
    Apr 22, 2014

    The Road Half Travled

    recovery is hard for many people because the pain was addicting it leaves a constant ache or pull but for me it's a little different. I've heard so many people say i needed to punish myself or it provides release but for me pain has warped itself just enough that i know it's...
    scarsrundeep scarsrundeep
    13-15, M
    Jul 22, 2012

    I guess I am the only male on here.

    I have scars on my wrists and arms, that are very visable, from cutting. I used to pick the scabs after cutting, thus the scars. I haven't done it in years, but I still carry a razor blade. I thought about cutting for the past couple of weeks, but haven't.
    marques30s marques30s
    31-35, M
    Oct 30, 2014

    My Story

    I used to cut myself when i was angry, I dont have very many cuts, but i go to therapy because of this, one day, I went crazy, and I cut alot, on my wrists, all extremely shallow, like scrapes, and now, every times I look at my wrist i just hate it, heaps of people comment...
    shineaway12 shineaway12
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Mar 24, 2012

    All I want to do is cut right now.

    I want the pain and the release.
    justme9957 justme9957
    13-15, F
    Mar 13

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    clajournalism clajournalism
    22-25, F
    Oct 11, 2012

    Hurts So Good..

    The only thing holding me back is the promise I made to myself. It's been 6 months, we've got to see how long I can go. Can I just make it to a year? At least... It's so hard. Especially in moments like these, where I reach out for a helping hand, only to see my hand is the only...
    WiltingBlossom WiltingBlossom
    18-21, F
    5 Responses May 25, 2011

    I Slipped

    Up the other day when I had gone almost a year w/out cutting or trying to. It's hard to do it these days when I know better and I have my son in my life. It was just a terrible rush of all the negatives in my life and I felt strongly like I had hit rock bottom and so I stood in...
    IMeWed IMeWed
    26-30, F
    2 Responses May 14, 2011

    My Struggle

    Ive been struggling with self mutilation since elementary school. The first time i hurt myself is strangely easy to remember, there have been so many instances since then, they all blur together. What i do remember is being overwhelmingly upset, and alone. The first time i hurt...
    itallhitsthewall itallhitsthewall
    22-25, F
    Mar 7, 2013

    I've been clean for about 3 months maybe.

    But I had to stop my therapy because our insurance ran out. I quit cold turkey and I thought i was doing fine. But now the urges are coming back again.
    justme9957 justme9957
    13-15, F
    Nov 30, 2015

    Contemplating

    I have real abandonment issues. My father(my chief supporter most of the time)and my doctor are out of the country right now. I feel depressed and just want to sleep all the time. I have 2 and1//2 years without cutting. I just switched to overdosing which can still get me in...
    sparkles10 sparkles10
    46-50
    Oct 13, 2012

    Struggling Not To Hurt Me

    I have been off and on cutting for 8 years. Wow that seems so long. Every time I try to stop eventually I just go back. The first time my mom found out, I was in 9th grade. The school counselor called home when she found a letter I wrote about downing a bottle of pills and just...
    forgottenxxmemories forgottenxxmemories
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 16, 2011

    I'm 6-ish weeks clean now,

    and it's pretty cool. I can wear shirts now! What a relief - it'll be Summer here soon. The fear of relapse is still always in the back of my head.
    Kneetar04 Kneetar04
    18-21, F
    Nov 4, 2014

    My Scars...

    my scars are finally healing..for the past year or so i've covered most up with makeup trying not to have people notice but when they did find out that i had cut they wanted to see.... they want to see my scars but they are almost faded and i don't want to make more because i...
    zyx262524 zyx262524
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 14, 2013

    I have been battling depression

    for nine years now. Despite my efforts to hide my self injury, my parents eventually found out. It happened when I was at my friends house, figured changing into my hoodie for the night wouldnt show anything too bad. I was wrong. In that short few seconds of my left arm being...
    tayelizabeth tayelizabeth
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Apr 22, 2014

    Just Me And My Story...

    It's been 2 and a half years since my last time cutting myself. Yes, I'm a recovering cutter. I tried other forms of self mutilation, like burning but it made me think too much of Hell to serve the purpose I wanted. My thing was a nice shiney new razor blade...slices like butter...
    kookoobananas52 kookoobananas52
    26-30, F
    1 Response Aug 18, 2011

    I was working at the bakery today

    and my supervisor, Frank, saw my arms. She grabbed them and looked me in the eye and asked me if I was okay. I said I am doing better. Because I am. But I wanted to Cry because she was so sweet. She pulled me into the kitchen and gave me a hug. She said we're all a little bit...
    justme9957 justme9957
    13-15, F
    Mar 8
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