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I Am Recovering From Self Mutilation

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    My Struggle

    Ive been struggling with self mutilation since elementary school. The first time i hurt myself is strangely easy to remember, there have been so many instances since then, they all blur together. What i do remember is being overwhelmingly upset, and alone. The first time i hurt...
    itallhitsthewall itallhitsthewall 22-25, F Mar 7, 2013

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    The Road Half Travled

    recovery is hard for many people because the pain was addicting it leaves a constant ache or pull but for me it's a little different. I've heard so many people say i needed to punish myself or it provides release but for me pain has warped itself just enough that i know it's...
    scarsrundeep scarsrundeep 13-15, M Jul 22, 2012

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    Just Me And My Story...

    It's been 2 and a half years since my last time cutting myself. Yes, I'm a recovering cutter. I tried other forms of self mutilation, like burning but it made me think too much of Hell to serve the purpose I wanted. My thing was a nice shiney new razor blade...slices like butter...
    kookoobananas52 kookoobananas52 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 18, 2011

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    I was in a 4 year battle with myself.

    I self harmed as a way to release the pain and remind myself that I still have the ability to feel. Also because I hated myself and wanted to die constantly. I have struggled with severe anxiety since 7th grade and I'm now in 11th grade. I have nervous breakdowns pretty often...
    sydneyyumholtz sydneyyumholtz 16-17, F Apr 22

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    Hurts So Good..

    The only thing holding me back is the promise I made to myself. It's been 6 months, we've got to see how long I can go. Can I just make it to a year? At least... It's so hard. Especially in moments like these, where I reach out for a helping hand, only to see my hand is the only...
    WiltingBlossom WiltingBlossom 18-21, F 5 Responses May 25, 2011

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    I Slipped

    Up the other day when I had gone almost a year w/out cutting or trying to. It's hard to do it these days when I know better and I have my son in my life. It was just a terrible rush of all the negatives in my life and I felt strongly like I had hit rock bottom and so I stood in...
    IMeWed IMeWed 26-30, F 2 Responses May 14, 2011

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    I just threw away my blades last week.

    .. I felt really lost afterwards and only hope I can learn to live and cope with life without them. I have self-harmed for about 2 years on and off, and although I didn't do it for long, it became addicting so fast. The first time I tried to stay clean of cutting I began to burn...
    Neverthinenough Neverthinenough 16-17, F Mar 6

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    Bye Bye Blades..

    I've selfharmed for over 4 years .. I've bruised,scratched,burned,pulled hair, and the thing I've done the most and my "preference" is cutting.... Today my boyfriend told me how proud he was that i threw away my blades.. but thats not totally true.. i did throw them away but i...
    Megs11 Megs11 16-17 Aug 18, 2013

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    My Scars...

    my scars are finally healing..for the past year or so i've covered most up with makeup trying not to have people notice but when they did find out that i had cut they wanted to see.... they want to see my scars but they are almost faded and i don't want to make more because i...
    zyx262524 zyx262524 18-21, F 1 Response May 14, 2013

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    Documentary: Self Harm

    Have you self-harmed and want to share your story? You will be paid for your time. Location: world wide Format: online video interview. If in Ontario Canada, an in-person interview can be arranged. All work is carried out in a compassionate and respectful manner. Inbox with...
    clajournalism clajournalism 22-25, F Oct 11, 2012

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    Oh So Tempting

    Over time i've become severely depressed and anxious, as a result, i ended up pulling out my eyebrows and eyelashes (and yes, it is a form of self mutilation because of the pain and feeling of releasing pressure sensations that come with doing such a thing),  not with tweesers...
    Mishy17 Mishy17 16-17, F Jun 2, 2011

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    Contemplating

    I have real abandonment issues. My father(my chief supporter most of the time)and my doctor are out of the country right now. I feel depressed and just want to sleep all the time. I have 2 and1//2 years without cutting. I just switched to overdosing which can still get me in...
    sparkles10 sparkles10 46-50 Oct 13, 2012

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    My Story

    I used to cut myself when i was angry, I dont have very many cuts, but i go to therapy because of this, one day, I went crazy, and I cut alot, on my wrists, all extremely shallow, like scrapes, and now, every times I look at my wrist i just hate it, heaps of people comment...
    shineaway12 shineaway12 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 24, 2012

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    I have been battling depression

    for nine years now. Despite my efforts to hide my self injury, my parents eventually found out. It happened when I was at my friends house, figured changing into my hoodie for the night wouldnt show anything too bad. I was wrong. In that short few seconds of my left arm being...
    tayelizabeth tayelizabeth 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 22

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    Struggling Not To Hurt Me

    I have been off and on cutting for 8 years. Wow that seems so long. Every time I try to stop eventually I just go back. The first time my mom found out, I was in 9th grade. The school counselor called home when she found a letter I wrote about downing a bottle of pills and just...
    forgottenxxmemories forgottenxxmemories 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 16, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    Sometimes people just never understand we don't do self harm because it is cool, because it is the new trend. We just can't ******* help it, I ******* hate myself, I do not want to...
    fragilityelegance fragilityelegance 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Out of all people, she asked me to take her as her date at a wedding. I secretly had a crush on her so the obviously answer was yes. I later meet her whole family and we got along...
    Xisaac13x Xisaac13x 18-21, M Jul 11

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    Anyone stop drinking and doing drugs cold turkey after being ****** up( outside work )for over three years? Or what self help steps did you take?
    amsfee amsfee 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I'm currently 7weeks and 5 days clean from my addiction. Addiction runs in my family and so does alcoholism, abuse, and depression. I have depression and I think I might be an...
    StargirlWarrior StargirlWarrior 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 6

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    I'm going to have shoulder surgery in a few days and I'm really worried about the pain and what to expect. If anyone has any knowledge of what to expect from personal experience of...
    clandastine clandastine 18-21, F Jul 15

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    Ugh I said that this site would be the one I'd be true to myself since I can't really get myself into that in real life so I guess its time for me to get over with this topic... I...
    alpaqqa alpaqqa 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 7

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    I'm really struggling today..... The continual pen clicking, tapping the desk, eating with mouths open, talking with food in the mouth, whining about work and life. It's just too...
    rural84 rural84 26-30, F 4 Responses Jun 29

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    I have depression. I need anyone under 18 preferably a girl to talk to me I have cut myself multiple times due to depression I feel so alone no one talks to me my girlfriend I love...
    LGKolor LGKolor 18-21, M a week ago

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    My husband and I were in a motorcycle wreck in Feb. (2 days after our wedding in India). I'm interested in getting to know other people dealing with Compartment Syndrome, in hopes...
    JenniferLakhlani JenniferLakhlani 36-40, F Jul 13

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    So I didn't really have a operation but something did happen to my shoulder I must of been ten so a little while a go and I was on a school trip and I fell if a barrel I had to go...
    flowerpie flowerpie 13-15, F Jul 15

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    I Was in a 7 year relationship (I was 17 he was 25 when we met),And in the beginning it was great (or so I Naively thought....) but slowly he became controlling,demanding and what...
    Naggi12 Naggi12 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    It's pathetic, but every day I pray that he calls or texts me. Every. Day. Sad
    Rojayazul Rojayazul 36-40, F 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    A whole year and a half and I've come so close today... what the hell is wrong with me? I just lost my positivity and everything I've worked hard to develop...
    appleof5 appleof5 16-17, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    All my life things have been weird for me. I've always been in-tuned with the paranormal world; e.i., I have had bizarre dreams, I seen shadow people, I have been touched by things...
    Celticrose1991 Celticrose1991 22-25 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I'm 17 years old, and I am recovering from an addiction to Crystal Methamphetamine. The first step in recovery is admitting you have a problem. My first step, was thinking about my...
    angoscia angoscia 16-17 1 Response Jul 19

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    It's weird to complain about that. My mother was a psychologist and she worked hard on me since I was a child to make me confident and have great self steem... and she was...
    tuttyfrutty tuttyfrutty 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 11

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    I haven't self harmed in 5 weeks as the urges are getting unbearable, I feel so vulnerable because I'm trying to recovery from selfharm and I can't seem to make the voices in my...
    Angelanorexic Angelanorexic 18-21, F Jul 14

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    From all the cold and heartless things I've seen happen around the world i find my self doubting that god ever existed. why would a man with such great power sit by and ignore all...
    FrostyMethod FrostyMethod 18-21, M 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    how can you say you torture me? you're already thinking about someone else. when he comes home, you'll be in his arms and I'll be gone but I know my day will come I know...
    mierdamundo mierdamundo 31-35 3 hrs ago

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    Last October, my drinking had gotten to the point where a concerned out-of-town acquaintance called the local police out of concern for my well-being. Long story short, I was...
    brattyjenn brattyjenn 41-45, F 3 Responses Jul 3

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    After being cheated on by my girlfriends in numerous relationships my depression worsened and I started to self-harm again, after being clean for a whole year. My whole...
    l0velyinsides l0velyinsides 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    I was just on the phone with my partner. He didn't notice he'd been talking about what he wants to get for himself. Time ran out he had to leave for work not realising i hadn't...
    imshiela34 imshiela34 31-35, F 4 hrs ago

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    As much as it is scary to admit, sobriety is becoming a very enjoyable experience for me. These last few weeks have been incredibly challenging but I have survived them and I have...
    Overwhelmed15 Overwhelmed15 26-30, F 4 Responses Jun 28

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    Hello, I don't know why I'm addressing this as if I'm talking to someone but I think it's nice to think I'm talking to someone else. These posts are mostly for me to see my growth...
    MorbidRainbow MorbidRainbow 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 14

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    Yeah. I do. Sometimes. But I'm slowly recovering :)
    leahevans leahevans 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 17

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    Drugs. Alcohol. Self-harm.
    Halezzzz Halezzzz 16-17, F a week ago

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    I relapsed last night 😡 I'm so mad and frustrated at myself, for letting it happen, but my boyfriend really helped and supported me through the entire night and I feel closer to...
    KylieLaine KylieLaine 18-21, F 10 Responses Jul 15

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    Hi, my name is Kylie and Im a recovering drug addict officially 1 week clean from cocaine, heroin, and prescription medication. Hardest week of my life but every day gets a little...
    KylieLaine KylieLaine 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 10

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    Hi everyone, My first experimentation with any kind of drugs was when I was 14 on my birthday. My cousin gave me a blunt as a birthday gift... I had no addiction to it, but it...
    mladenok mladenok 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 15

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    Hi, my name is Kylie and I'm a recovering addict and 4 days clean (:
    KylieLaine KylieLaine 18-21, F 55 Responses Jul 5

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    So I might as well spill the beans. I'm posting right now while withdrawing from yet another stupid binge of Opiates. I cannot beat my demons, but I have no one I really love. So...
    JoeValentine JoeValentine 26-30 1 Response Jul 7

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    10 months Thinking about how I have been sober for 10 months is completely overwhelming and doesn’t seem real. In fact, it sort of makes me feel panic to think about how far I...
    Overwhelmed15 Overwhelmed15 26-30, F 6 Responses Jul 11

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    Well, I messed up and relapsed yesterday. Gotta start from square one now. Its ok though, relapsing sometimes is part of recovery. At least I did the right thing this time, I told...
    angoscia angoscia 16-17 a week ago

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