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I Am Rediscovering Myself

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 136 People

    Who The Heck Am I?

    Everything I once knew as ME seems distant and bogus. After losing my job and 98% of my friends as a result of my actions and my situation, I'm not realizing that the life I built was an elaborate play-act lasting almost 37 years. Now what?
    mirthy mirthy 36-40 Feb 19, 2013

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    I Need Myself Back.........

    I feel like I lost myself somewhere in the way when I leaned on someone so much that I forgot who I am , is it right and what to do I have been helpless indecisive insecure needy possessive and been in denial been delusional been blaming accusing and that's not me I cant believe...
    apersonlikeme apersonlikeme 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 21, 2013

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    Contemplating....

     Good Morning all,Im doing pretty good. I just started yesterday a group called WAVE, women against violence everywhere and it seems like its going to be good, already we are discussing how living in a mentally abusive situation for years clouds your view of reality and how your...
    browneyesopening browneyesopening 36-40, F Aug 23, 2011

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    Somebody's Something

    I went from being somebody's daughter to somebody's wife.  And then I was somebody's mother.  Somebody's employee.  Somebody's volunteer.  It was a lot of somebody's somethings and it all filled my life, but now the roles have shifted a bit and I have...
    WonderfullyAware WonderfullyAware 46-50, F 2 Responses Feb 27, 2010

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    I Don't Know What More There Is For Me to Say

    It's almost like 'I am rediscovering myself' is all there is to say. I guess ever since a week ago, when I realized that the novel I'm writing, I love it so much because the main character is the real me. Actually I kind of discovered that while talking to my therapist. I said...
    LonelySoul LonelySoul 18-21, F Dec 12, 2007

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    I have always been confident

    and comfortable being me. Always looking for the good in people and any circumstance I find myself in. Very passionate about my beliefs and in the "greater good". But my values and trust in people tend to leave me vulnerable and quite often taken advantage of. The big struggle...
    MUTTofSOCIETY MUTTofSOCIETY 26-30, M Jan 25, 2014

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    Right now, I'm rediscovering the things

    that used to make me happy so I don't feel completely dead on the inside.
    LittleMidnight LittleMidnight 18-21 Jul 25

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    Hopeless Or Hopefull

    Oh yeah, most definitely I am a hopeless romantic,,, Okay, I think I am a hopeless romantic,,, at least I know I used to be. Okay,,,, let's say I am a hopeless romantic who has lost hope,,, or maybe I am just a hopeful romantic, or a hoping to be a hopeless romantic. I know...
    lvyourtoes lvyourtoes 56-60, M Oct 14, 2012

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    Road To Rediscovery

    I know who I use to be and what I use to like to do. I'm fully aware of that girl, her transgressions, her successes, her beauty, her passions, and her dislikes. But while admiring the girl I was, I feel like I've lost sight who I have become and what she likes. I've asked myself...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 10, 2012

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    Its a Very Scary Journey

     i'm in the beginning phase where i could just back out and turn around and then wake up one day and realize how little ive learned . I dont remember many things from my childhood and some of it i think i blocked , and  i want to open those doors . I want to face myself...
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme 26-30, F Jan 11, 2008

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    Rediscovering Myself

    I’m rediscovering myself, The happy old self, I used to be, That’s what I want, To be happy again, Smiling, Laughing, That’s me, Happy again.
    startinover1 startinover1 46-50 1 Response Apr 2, 2012

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    Unexpected Realization

    I was searching the library.  I had a problem to solve.  i knew my now ex-wife had a problem and someone had mentioned that maybe my wife was co-dependent.  I'd been married for 15 years and I was ready to try anything to fix the problem.  I found the section...
    ekardris ekardris 46-50, M 1 Response Oct 13, 2009

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    The Leopard

    They say "A leopard can't change its spots" and I am finding that to be true. Not that I want to change who I am; I am comfortable in my own skin but there are a few things I would like to work on. Let me start out by saying "everyone has problems" and for most people their...
    lvyourtoes lvyourtoes 56-60, M Oct 13, 2012

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    Finally Sober

    I am learning who I really am.  I am thinking it will take about 20 years before I get it but I am trying.
    kaf0201 kaf0201 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 12, 2008

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    Related Experiences

    I always wonder if I killed myself will people care about me cuz right now it seem like no one cares about me only my best friend that care and I tried to kill myself so many time...
    lookket lookket 18-21, F 3 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    so, today I heard some pretty bad things about myself. I'm trying not to let it phase me, but it still upsets me. I had to let go of a friend this year, and if I'm being honest...
    Azureeblue Azureeblue 31-35, F 3 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    I don't mean like if I have the answer to question or something and sometimes you might just say ''yes!'' out loud as a sort of 'well done' to yourself. It's kinda different for me...
    Eninferno Eninferno 13-15, F 3 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    And honestly, I don't like it... Deep in the inside, I know it's better to just accept that I'm not nice at all, which is how I've seen myself as for a long time now. I know as...
    Sil833 Sil833 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Hello Everyone -- I came across this site when I googled "I hate my family" so I figured I'd give it a shot to hopefully find other people who can relate. I am so sad lately...
    hifuckedupworld hifuckedupworld 26-30, F 1 day ago

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    I don't ask people about themselves, because I don't want to be nosy. I was always told as a child not to be nosy, and not to ask too many questions. Questions were annoying...
    ItisonlyI ItisonlyI 26-30, M 3 days ago

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    I fell back on my old habit of cutting so I could feel numb mentally . When my dad found out he looked so sad and it makes me so mad at myself. I wish I hadn't done it. I only did...
    rosedimond99 rosedimond99 16-17, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    The Power of expression I am 27. Uptill now, I felt that I have been very expressive in sharing what I feel. I felt I am straightforward. But when I look back, I realized that it...
    Xpressionist Xpressionist 26-30, F 5 days ago

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    Last year when I was being bullied/abused/isolated by my classmates, I used to cut myself as a form of stress-relief to ease myself away from the pain. But now, I've been clean...
    LittleMidnight LittleMidnight 18-21 1 Response 5 days ago

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    this is a true experience, and just for note I don't like peeing myself at all. I don't mind desperation in private, but I don't like it in public or find it fun at all. This for...
    kgirl17 kgirl17 18-21 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Since 4 months I have been fattening myself up every single minute of the day I gained weight rapidly each and everyday thanks to a friend here with my girlfriend I turned into an...
    M19946 M19946 18-21 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Sometimes i just dont really want to be myself Sorry this is a rant... I was raised as a spoiled child and I still am. I always had to have everything I wanted and refused to...
    Pillemy Pillemy 18-21 1 Response 5 days ago

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    It's one of these nights again.I hate myself.I hate everything about myself, everything that is in my life and everything that is not.I hate perfect people and those lucky enough...
    yeniC yeniC 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    hymn of nothingness oh i have serve feels like eternity to feel...joy and sadness illuminate my path with darkness and nothingness away from all this madness unite me with...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M 5 days ago

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    Just about the time I think I have everything in my life under control, I realize I don't, not really. Then I begin to think about why I don't. That leads me to a thinking of a...
    comeonletsgo comeonletsgo 61-65, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I'm trying to, anyway. I'm currently in my last week of an intensive outpatient program for drug addiction and mental health issues. A lot of the things I've learned from this...
    TheCallipygist TheCallipygist 22-25, M 5 Responses 6 days ago

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    I often like to cut my fingertips to remind myself how much of a monster i can be. The cuts represent claws. If im not careful with what i touch, i will hurt myself. When i hurt...
    ForgedFromFire ForgedFromFire 16-17, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Some time ago I promised myself I wouldn't cut myself with a knife anymore. Last night I broke that promise. According to my promise this means I have a problem with cutting. I...
    jsualmtha jsualmtha 18-21, F a week ago

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    I really want to kill myself. My life is going on horribly. My mother has psychotic depression, she has been on an affair for 9 years & has just recently stopped after being...
    mangoseed mangoseed 18-21, F 14 Responses a week ago

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    I tend to have full blown conversations with myself. I am well aware that no one is there, but for as long as I can remember I've talked to myself and acted out conversations. For...
    OldSoulRedux OldSoulRedux 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 22

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    reflecting a color only i can see greeted by monsters of my insecurities sleep..escape to another galaxy dream are monsters snatching away my sanity light some candles in...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M Aug 19

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    I talked to my ex after what was a couple months. We actually had a conversation this time. I decided to be frank with him and asked him what he wanted from me. He said he wanted...
    HigherCalling HigherCalling 26-30, F Aug 19

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    When I am in my room.. When the lights are out.. When the noise and sound are gone.. When I am alone laying in my bed or sitting in my chair... I feel the most myself. The me I am...
    chaekowski chaekowski 26-30, M Aug 18

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    wish i didn't know didn't expected now it's killing me to see you in reality didn't predict to witness this cruelty poisonous and so cold, smiling, throne of all your...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M Aug 17

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    There are moments in my life recently where I'm disappointed in myself. At 35 I was set financially, loved my career although it didn't allow for much personal time, family time or...
    cacutie3 cacutie3 36-40, F Aug 17

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    I never admitted this to myself. I'm afraid of being abandoned. I'm super sensitive to ridicule and humiliation. I hate my parents. I wrote mom a letter when I was about 6-7...
    MentAl69noMAD MentAl69noMAD 18-21 2 Responses Aug 16

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    I don't even know myself let alone able to be myself. I am so fake. I have social anxiety, which is getting better, but only because I force myself to behave more enthusiastic, or...
    WhereaboutsUnknown WhereaboutsUnknown 22-25, F Aug 16

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    I always fantasise about hurting myself, especially in public. I analysed myself (as cold as I could be) and found that I could be seeking for attention. I hate that part of myself...
    sabrina1ryo sabrina1ryo 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 16

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