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I Am Rediscovering Myself

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    Unexpected Realization

    I was searching the library.  I had a problem to solve.  i knew my now ex-wife had a problem and someone had mentioned that maybe my wife was co-dependent.  I'd been married for 15 years and I was ready to try anything to fix the problem.  I found the section...
    ekardris ekardris 46-50, M 1 Response Oct 13, 2009

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    Who The Heck Am I?

    Everything I once knew as ME seems distant and bogus. After losing my job and 98% of my friends as a result of my actions and my situation, I'm not realizing that the life I built was an elaborate play-act lasting almost 37 years. Now what?
    mirthy mirthy 36-40 1 Response Feb 19, 2013

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    I Need Myself Back.........

    I feel like I lost myself somewhere in the way when I leaned on someone so much that I forgot who I am , is it right and what to do I have been helpless indecisive insecure needy possessive and been in denial been delusional been blaming accusing and that's not me I cant believe...
    aloserlikeme aloserlikeme 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 21, 2013

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    I Don't Know What More There Is For Me to Say

    It's almost like 'I am rediscovering myself' is all there is to say. I guess ever since a week ago, when I realized that the novel I'm writing, I love it so much because the main character is the real me. Actually I kind of discovered that while talking to my therapist. I said...
    LonelySoul LonelySoul 18-21, F Dec 12, 2007

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    I have always been confident

    and comfortable being me. Always looking for the good in people and any circumstance I find myself in. Very passionate about my beliefs and in the "greater good". But my values and trust in people tend to leave me vulnerable and quite often taken advantage of. The big struggle...
    MUTTofSOCIETY MUTTofSOCIETY 26-30, M Jan 25

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    Somebody's Something

    I went from being somebody's daughter to somebody's wife.  And then I was somebody's mother.  Somebody's employee.  Somebody's volunteer.  It was a lot of somebody's somethings and it all filled my life, but now the roles have shifted a bit and I have...
    WonderfullyAware WonderfullyAware 46-50, F 2 Responses Feb 27, 2010

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    The Leopard

    They say "A leopard can't change its spots" and I am finding that to be true. Not that I want to change who I am; I am comfortable in my own skin but there are a few things I would like to work on. Let me start out by saying "everyone has problems" and for most people their...
    lvyourtoes lvyourtoes 56-60, M Oct 13, 2012

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    Road To Rediscovery

    I know who I use to be and what I use to like to do. I'm fully aware of that girl, her transgressions, her successes, her beauty, her passions, and her dislikes. But while admiring the girl I was, I feel like I've lost sight who I have become and what she likes. I've asked myself...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 10, 2012

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    Rediscovering Myself

    I’m rediscovering myself, The happy old self, I used to be, That’s what I want, To be happy again, Smiling, Laughing, That’s me, Happy again.
    startinover1 startinover1 46-50 1 Response Apr 2, 2012

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    Its a Very Scary Journey

     i'm in the beginning phase where i could just back out and turn around and then wake up one day and realize how little ive learned . I dont remember many things from my childhood and some of it i think i blocked , and  i want to open those doors . I want to face myself...
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme 26-30, F Jan 11, 2008

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    Contemplating....

     Good Morning all,Im doing pretty good. I just started yesterday a group called WAVE, women against violence everywhere and it seems like its going to be good, already we are discussing how living in a mentally abusive situation for years clouds your view of reality and how your...
    browneyesopening browneyesopening 36-40, F Aug 23, 2011

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    Hopeless Or Hopefull

    Oh yeah, most definitely I am a hopeless romantic,,, Okay, I think I am a hopeless romantic,,, at least I know I used to be. Okay,,,, let's say I am a hopeless romantic who has lost hope,,, or maybe I am just a hopeful romantic, or a hoping to be a hopeless romantic. I know...
    lvyourtoes lvyourtoes 56-60, M Oct 14, 2012

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    Finally Sober

    I am learning who I really am.  I am thinking it will take about 20 years before I get it but I am trying.
    kaf0201 kaf0201 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 12, 2008

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    Looking at all my friends on Facebook, them tagging themselves travelling and posting posts about themselves showing them happy and charming, is killing me. I was the one to be...
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    I find myself wanting to cut. Been clean for 2 months. Trust me im trying really hard to stay clean. I've been a cutter since i was 13 i think... Was able to stay clean for 3 years...
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    Typing with my right hand touching myself with my left - that's me now, that's me whilst I chat with you on EP. Join me!!
    Inspector999 Inspector999 46-50, M 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    I always talk to myself. I don't really talk much to other people If I don't know them ( face to face ) but I don't even know when I'm doing it haha
    AlfieEscandellDerosa AlfieEscandellDerosa 13-15, M 4 hrs ago

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    Its taken a few decades but i have found myself. I will not compromise on anything or anyone who is going to drag me back to who i was.
    Quanitta Quanitta 26-30, F 2 hrs ago

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    I know it takes two but why don't I hold him accountable too for the end of our relationship? We got into a fight in February and stopped talking to each other, it was a game of...
    shasha73 shasha73 41-45 1 hr ago

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    I know it takes two but why don't I hold him accountable too for the end of our relationship? We got into a fight in February and stopped talking to each other, it was a game of...
    shasha73 shasha73 41-45 1 hr ago

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    I can't seem to let my past go.. I cNt stop thinking of the horrible things I've done Asa teenager now I 20 yrs old .. But it haunts me to this day to think of those things I did...
    amoriette amoriette 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 hr ago

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    My story is that I have a sickness inside that I don't know how to make go away. It's hard to define this sickness other than a pervading poison that is eating me from the inside...
    Shellybelle Shellybelle 41-45, F 4 Responses Aug 26

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    The group "I want to kill myself" is not available to me on EP. That is bullshit. So I'm here. There's not much I can think of to say. I have been wanting to kill myself for a...
    Orange666 Orange666 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 5

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    I'm depressed and it's hard. It's gotten bad enough that I started cutting myself for tons of different reasons. Sometimes I feel so numb inside that I cut myself so I can feel...
    benjamintkw benjamintkw 13-15, M Sep 10

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    Do I love myself?! I have started wondering do I really love myself? I mean of course I do I'm adorable! At least that's what I always say. But do I really love who I am, am I...
    ariel2891 ariel2891 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    There are days when I won't be able to do anything but feel. (I say only "feel" because I can't quite find the words. I feel bad about myself and everything else, but not really...
    TwoWastedCigarettes TwoWastedCigarettes 16-17, F 3 days ago

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    I have accepted myself, not in a way that I know myself therefore I should change everything to fit in the society and #yolo. No not that, but simply I have accepted that, me, who...
    anon152 anon152 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    It's therapy to me. The relaxing part of the day. If I don't talk to myself, I think that would make me even crazier than how society already sees me. I'm an introvert. I hate...
    dustyoldclock dustyoldclock 18-21, F Aug 20

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    I hate myself the pain and humiliation I caused my parents by marrying outside my religion. I hate myself for for forcing my husband to convert to my religion albeit for show...
    Hbee1980 Hbee1980 31-35, F 3 Responses Aug 23

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    I'm trying to find my own version of happiness and a life that feels right for me. I have so many sides of me I'm trying to fit all together. I consider myself relatively traveled...
    ajrestless ajrestless 18-21, F Aug 28

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    Partly by myself.. Havent done it active-active.. But active/passively or call it passively-active. I sort of have the belief, that when everyone is gone. Just by myself. Then I...
    mirkwood86 mirkwood86 26-30, M Aug 29

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    Today I went for a swim at my local lake. As I jumped into the water with enthusiasm, I was determined to swim to the little island far off in distance. I paddled and paddled and I...
    BLVLFreeSwim BLVLFreeSwim 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 1

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    This is the first time I am opening up about myself, and I truly cannot stand the person I am, all for one small aspect of me that in reality should not be as big of a deal as I...
    skh22 skh22 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 7

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    Especially when other people are in the picture. When others speak fondly of me, I get upset. I want them to just shut up, and that makes me feel like a bad person. Some days I...
    iKitKat iKitKat 18-21, F Sep 10

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    Leave me alone for now I'm deep in thought, treacherous territory I know It's what I must do to decompress from a day of scattered thought I never thought I'd get to a stage where...
    PoeticMute PoeticMute 31-35, M Sep 10

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    I hate myself for all the lies and deception I inflicted on my current boyfriend. I blame my family particularly. I am a cheater and this means I have broken my own value system. I...
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    I have cut myself multiple times. I used to insert safety pins into my wrists whenever I was suffering. I tried to overdose myself with glucophage and adol, that I've lost count.I...
    BridaPaulo BridaPaulo 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 3

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    I look at myself sometimes and wonder why I'm still here. Many moments in my past I could have easily stumbled further than I have. It has become quite a battle to journey through...
    PoeticMute PoeticMute 31-35, M 6 days ago

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    You know you’ve come to a low point in your life where you’d wish, practically begged, that your mother should have swallowed you, or aborted you when she had the chance. A...
    EatingSheep EatingSheep 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Looming thought's yet to be processed have me considering ideas that shouldn't Why do these happen I don't know, my understanding is just that from where I sit I dwell On the...
    PoeticMute PoeticMute 31-35, M 1 day ago

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    I am 5'7 and 205 pounds. In high school I used to be 120 pounds and looked sick, but I felt beautiful. I hate myself so much for how much weight I put on. I hate going outside...
    Calicogirl20 Calicogirl20 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 21

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    Umm this started when 9 idk how well i stared talking to myself my room LOL Kun idk know how i stared but i talk to myself alot alot and its normal for me i get caught by my little...
    Deeshnay Deeshnay 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 21

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    I like myself very much. I take care of myself. I never let anything go to waste. I find myself very attractive. I like myself very much. I knew I was going to live a happy life...
    lycheechan lycheechan 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 25

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    I was looking for the page "I Am Ashamed of Being Myself," and I could have sworn that I clicked on it, but instead Firefox led me here. So what I'm going to do is tell the story...
    Kurokagi Kurokagi 18-21 Sep 2

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    When I get frustrated or extremely upset or argue with someone I want to hurt myself. Its mainly when I argue with my close friends and mother. I feel so bad about things I said or...
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