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I Am Remembering Repressed Memories

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    I Think I Have Repressed Memories

    I am 18 years old and nearing the end of my freshman year of college. I have had depression and been diagnosed as clinically depressed for 10 years. I have started to think I have repressed memories because my friends here have told me that the conversations and events I...
    kansengar kansengar 18-21 3 Responses Apr 21, 2013

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    My Attempt At Poetry

    I used to write poems all the time when I was in a teenager/adolescent. They were all very similar to each other and usually about some boy that had recently broken my heart and expressed feelings that seemed to be more drastic than the situation called for. I definitely wasn't...
    VieveStar VieveStar 31-35, F Mar 22, 2013

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    I don't know if they're repressed

    or fantasised. I don't think I'll ever know for sure and my life is on pause in the mean time. I function and smile but I'm dead on the inside - my eyes are hollow and my smile is fake but nobody sees. I am so desperate - I'm scared of what the future holds
    butterflydanse butterflydanse 31-35, F Aug 31, 2014

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    sikandtired93 sikandtired93 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 5, 2014

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    Tremory

    Together on each end but torn in the middle. trying to solve the riddle. Made a deal with the devil dont know how to play the fiddle. Ashen in the morning, abundantly clearminded by night holding on to my entrails, trying not to fall behind. Tying my pieces together making...
    Laurenbug Laurenbug 18-21 Oct 18, 2012

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    :d

    Nothing a good shower can't fix. :D I had this dream today. It was a nightmare, many of my fears balled up into one. Only now, recalling the dream, I realize why it bothered me so much. I don't like remembering. Makes me want to puke. Makes me wonder. Nothing a good shower...
    Jujalee Jujalee 66-70 4 Responses Oct 24, 2011

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    Any More Good Books On Repressed Memories?

    I've been scouring libraries and books for recovering repressed memories and childhood sexual abuse ever since I recovered some earlier this year. So far, I've read: Repressed Memories: A Journey to Recovery from Sexual Abuse -- Renee Fredrickson, Ph.D. Blind to Betrayal: Why...
    reclaiminglife reclaiminglife 31-35, F Oct 14, 2013

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    I typed this whole long thing then accidentally

    deleted it so I'm going to sum it up: I became good friends with someone online but he became kind of controlling and abusive, continually blowing up on me and always asking who i was talking to or who i was friends with so one day i left. Eventgaully i forgot why we had...
    kxCobra kxCobra 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 14, 2014

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    I Can't Remember Most Things Before Age 6

    I used to think it was because I was too stressed out and couldn't process immigrating to the US. You know, the whole new language, completely new world thing.... And now I realize it was actually because I was sexually abused as a child. Apparently, my brain was doing it's best...
    reclaiminglife reclaiminglife 31-35, F 7 Responses Oct 27, 2013

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    I have a lot of repressed memories.

    And they started jumping out on me. There is a lot more to my life than i thought...
    AnjaM98 AnjaM98 18-21, F Sep 2, 2014

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    I Feel Stuck In That Moment

    I have a memory, or set of memories, that I had forgotten for quite a while. They aren't even visual memories I suppose, just sensory and emotional fragments that pop up when i don't expect... A hand, large, aged, rough, sliding down my stomach, reaching beneath my stockings. My...
    scantilycladsoul scantilycladsoul 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 27, 2012

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    Is It Really Better To Forget?

    I'm recently discovering that my mind forgets things that are hard for me. I don't know why but, things are coming to light now & I've gone exploring. I'm a person that likes to know the truth, even if it sucks. Well it's called repressed memory.. and I feel like I'm going crazy...
    taylerlaynne taylerlaynne 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 5, 2013

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    I hope my ex doesn't see this.

    he's a user here, I've moved on already but I saw his post saying that "girls am I attractive or not". I remember our skype calls and everything. the happiness I was in when we were together and just now I saw a post he posted when we broke up and it said something about losing...
    nicolexo113 nicolexo113 16-17, F Nov 20, 2014

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    This is only a small amount of the abuse

    that has happened in my childhood. It happened by many people for a long time. But this is what I need to talk about right now. I have a very large amount of stuff to talk about. I just got out of therapy and I'm just shaking like a leaf right now. It was a very difficult...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived 22-25, F Mar 24

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    Been not well. Have such intense feelings of

    disgust to the point where I want and need to just claw my skin off. It feels like I am going to go absolutely insane. I was driving with my boyfriend last night and started to get these emotions and feelings and body pains that seemingly came from 'nowhere'. I had to pull over...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 21, 2014

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    Too Much To Handle

    I can never say they are real. Ever. Because I just feel too afraid they would be. I am only 16 years old and I guess that's a bit young. Which could be the main reason why little have believed me. Two years ago when I was headed into freshman year. I began having these...
    Naelextip Naelextip 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 12, 2013

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    Getting Beyond Control.....

    for the past couple years it's getting unbearable.. the most hatefull discusting things come to my mind and anything gets me conecting the dots. i can't focus without worrying about the past, it starts getting vividly present inside of me. this comes true mostly in dreams where i...
    lunarstrings lunarstrings 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 6, 2011

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    Child Trauma And Starvation For Intimacy The Real Cause Of Most Mental Health Issues

    This I would bey is the sole reason for your so called depression. It is trauma and dissociation in the brain/nervous system, a wounded spirit, and a broken heart, caused be neglect, abuse, or pack of attachment in childhood (especially if it was before age 8). This almost...
    Ajushi Ajushi 41-45, M Nov 19, 2013

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    For a while in my life the last few years,

    off and on, there was some beautiful moments of repose. The last of which was several months ago. Don't get me wrong, I have always been struggling, but it was at least do-able. I actually thought I was starting to 'get over' this stuff. I guess it was just wishful thinking. Or...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 19, 2014

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    Being Handed The Memories

    This is just my personal feelings, but I feel I had help from angels when I was a child to put my abuse into a place that helped me to deal with the trauma until a time when I was able to handle getting those feelings handed back to me. The place it went helped me to give a false...
    Handed Handed 41-45, F 3 Responses Jul 22, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    there are some memories that haunt me , memories i don't like at all, they make it hard for me to stay focused and calm.
    mistywillow mistywillow 22-25, M 1 Response May 8

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    Some times I wish time could erase everything... The feelings, the memories, the faces, the losses...everything.
    GalacticMind GalacticMind 13-15, M 1 Response Apr 30

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    I really wish I could though....all of it. The good ones and bad ones....when I remember the memories I only feel one thing...hurt...past is past...because people like me are gone...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 3

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    I hold on to memories. I let them control me.. I should stop because its just making me so terrible. I remember the good times.. and I Cant move on from them.
    Vanessyi Vanessyi 18-21, F 1 Response May 9

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    London Grammar — Strong This will always bring me back to that room I stayed in an airbnb flat in Bath, England on that cold January day. My host had her music on out loud in...
    littlemisslight littlemisslight 26-30, F May 12

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    Memories are so confusing.The happy moments make us cry and the sad moments make us laugh..
    MaddyBale MaddyBale 18-21, F 1 Response May 16

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    I wish I could just put in a new brain. My PTSD can drive me up the wall with flashbacks. I still don't know all my triggers yet stil...but the ganja bud chill you out && the...
    PartyGuy21 PartyGuy21 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    A stuffed lamb (ᵔᴥᵔ) well, it's actually a goat but I call it Lammy. My grandfather used to tell me the the story of how I got it. When I was born my grandparents came to see...
    ChitterChat ChitterChat 26-30, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    so like me,my siblings and my neighbor was playing around in the bedroom....we were jumping around having fun and happy .During the game I remember my little bro was the monster so...
    Ray594 Ray594 22-25, F 3 hrs ago

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    I have done this so many times I bust out laughing some of my friends think am mental.
    sroonaka616 sroonaka616 18-21 May 5

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    School bus..I liked taking it,I would like looking outside the window,seeing new places I hadn't seen and different schools the school bus would stop at to pick the other kids up...
    simpleandpossible simpleandpossible 22-25, F Apr 25

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    I love find old pictures because it's like reliving the moment I remember this day was awesome we where zombies we where playing get the flag I miss my sister and this guy hope one...
    CallMeFaye CallMeFaye 18-21, F Apr 26

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    Me hears lewis black. And bill maher. And jon stewart. Me said what they say. During carter and reagan. Me got shredded. By many. In many ways. For being right...
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M 2 Responses Apr 26

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    I miss my university, i dont know why, but i was allways ignored. Everywhere. I wish i made friends back then but noone noticed me. I was a loner and i will allways be. I wasnt...
    tokyo60s tokyo60s 31-35, F Apr 28

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    One time in Preschool I drew this girl a heart and she told me it looked like a mitten. It hit me right in the honor. 😭I mention this because today I drew a heart and according...
    Knixveus5 Knixveus5 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 30

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    some haunt me ...a feeling that comes over me when it is triggered
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 1

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    I really wish that I could..How does one forget a memory?
    youreable youreable 26-30, F 14 Responses May 3

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    I remember when my sister and I (twins) were 10, we wanted casts SO bad, (we were young and stupid...) so we decided to break our wrists. FUN! we looked up ways to break our wrists...
    ohYaa69 ohYaa69 16-17, F 2 Responses May 3

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    And again all I see is the bonfire burning with all of us sitting together; a guitar and just happiness. Where'd the times go where everything was so easy to handle?
    Kkgunny Kkgunny 16-17, F 1 Response May 3

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    I was married to a marine and he was a great guy from beginning until all hell broke loose . I was married for 3 years . I was abused, mentally and physically, more twards the end...
    backw00dsbarbie88 backw00dsbarbie88 26-30, F 3 Responses May 3

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    Bullies. Want to forget. Want to not care. But. My inner brat wants revenge.
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M 2 Responses May 3

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    I remember the second time we hung out. The first time really didn't count because we only hung out for like 20 min. Anyways it was so perfect. Looking into his face was just...
    Vanessyi Vanessyi 18-21, F May 4

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    I would take off on my bike after Saturday morning cartoons and not come home until the streetlights came on in the evening.
    pinkstarburst pinkstarburst 41-45, F 2 Responses May 4

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