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I Am Remembering Repressed Memories

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    For a while in my life the last few years,

    off and on, there was some beautiful moments of repose. The last of which was several months ago. Don't get me wrong, I have always been struggling, but it was at least do-able. I actually thought I was starting to 'get over' this stuff. I guess it was just wishful thinking. Or...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 19, 2014

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    I hope my ex doesn't see this.

    he's a user here, I've moved on already but I saw his post saying that "girls am I attractive or not". I remember our skype calls and everything. the happiness I was in when we were together and just now I saw a post he posted when we broke up and it said something about losing...
    nicolexo113 nicolexo113 16-17, F Nov 20, 2014

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    Getting Beyond Control.....

    for the past couple years it's getting unbearable.. the most hatefull discusting things come to my mind and anything gets me conecting the dots. i can't focus without worrying about the past, it starts getting vividly present inside of me. this comes true mostly in dreams where i...
    lunarstrings lunarstrings 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 6, 2011

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    I Think I Have Repressed Memories

    I am 18 years old and nearing the end of my freshman year of college. I have had depression and been diagnosed as clinically depressed for 10 years. I have started to think I have repressed memories because my friends here have told me that the conversations and events I...
    kansengar kansengar 18-21 3 Responses Apr 21, 2013

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    Too Much To Handle

    I can never say they are real. Ever. Because I just feel too afraid they would be. I am only 16 years old and I guess that's a bit young. Which could be the main reason why little have believed me. Two years ago when I was headed into freshman year. I began having these...
    Naelextip Naelextip 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 12, 2013

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    Is It Really Better To Forget?

    I'm recently discovering that my mind forgets things that are hard for me. I don't know why but, things are coming to light now & I've gone exploring. I'm a person that likes to know the truth, even if it sucks. Well it's called repressed memory.. and I feel like I'm going crazy...
    taylerlaynne taylerlaynne 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 5, 2013

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    sikandtired93 sikandtired93 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 5, 2014

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    I don't know if they're repressed

    or fantasised. I don't think I'll ever know for sure and my life is on pause in the mean time. I function and smile but I'm dead on the inside - my eyes are hollow and my smile is fake but nobody sees. I am so desperate - I'm scared of what the future holds
    butterflydanse butterflydanse 31-35, F Aug 31, 2014

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    My Attempt At Poetry

    I used to write poems all the time when I was in a teenager/adolescent. They were all very similar to each other and usually about some boy that had recently broken my heart and expressed feelings that seemed to be more drastic than the situation called for. I definitely wasn't...
    VieveStar VieveStar 31-35, F Mar 22, 2013

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    Child Trauma And Starvation For Intimacy The Real Cause Of Most Mental Health Issues

    This I would bey is the sole reason for your so called depression. It is trauma and dissociation in the brain/nervous system, a wounded spirit, and a broken heart, caused be neglect, abuse, or pack of attachment in childhood (especially if it was before age 8). This almost...
    Ajushi Ajushi 41-45, M Nov 19, 2013

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    This is only a small amount of the abuse

    that has happened in my childhood. It happened by many people for a long time. But this is what I need to talk about right now. I have a very large amount of stuff to talk about. I just got out of therapy and I'm just shaking like a leaf right now. It was a very difficult...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived 22-25, F Mar 24

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    I Feel Stuck In That Moment

    I have a memory, or set of memories, that I had forgotten for quite a while. They aren't even visual memories I suppose, just sensory and emotional fragments that pop up when i don't expect... A hand, large, aged, rough, sliding down my stomach, reaching beneath my stockings. My...
    scantilycladsoul scantilycladsoul 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 27, 2012

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    :d

    Nothing a good shower can't fix. :D I had this dream today. It was a nightmare, many of my fears balled up into one. Only now, recalling the dream, I realize why it bothered me so much. I don't like remembering. Makes me want to puke. Makes me wonder. Nothing a good shower...
    Jujalee Jujalee 66-70 4 Responses Oct 24, 2011

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    Being Handed The Memories

    This is just my personal feelings, but I feel I had help from angels when I was a child to put my abuse into a place that helped me to deal with the trauma until a time when I was able to handle getting those feelings handed back to me. The place it went helped me to give a false...
    Handed Handed 41-45, F 3 Responses Jul 22, 2012

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    I typed this whole long thing then accidentally

    deleted it so I'm going to sum it up: I became good friends with someone online but he became kind of controlling and abusive, continually blowing up on me and always asking who i was talking to or who i was friends with so one day i left. Eventgaully i forgot why we had...
    kxCobra kxCobra 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 14, 2014

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    Tremory

    Together on each end but torn in the middle. trying to solve the riddle. Made a deal with the devil dont know how to play the fiddle. Ashen in the morning, abundantly clearminded by night holding on to my entrails, trying not to fall behind. Tying my pieces together making...
    Laurenbug Laurenbug 18-21 Oct 18, 2012

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    Any More Good Books On Repressed Memories?

    I've been scouring libraries and books for recovering repressed memories and childhood sexual abuse ever since I recovered some earlier this year. So far, I've read: Repressed Memories: A Journey to Recovery from Sexual Abuse -- Renee Fredrickson, Ph.D. Blind to Betrayal: Why...
    reclaiminglife reclaiminglife 31-35, F Oct 14, 2013

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    I Can't Remember Most Things Before Age 6

    I used to think it was because I was too stressed out and couldn't process immigrating to the US. You know, the whole new language, completely new world thing.... And now I realize it was actually because I was sexually abused as a child. Apparently, my brain was doing it's best...
    reclaiminglife reclaiminglife 31-35, F 7 Responses Oct 27, 2013

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    Been not well. Have such intense feelings of

    disgust to the point where I want and need to just claw my skin off. It feels like I am going to go absolutely insane. I was driving with my boyfriend last night and started to get these emotions and feelings and body pains that seemingly came from 'nowhere'. I had to pull over...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 21, 2014

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    I have a lot of repressed memories.

    And they started jumping out on me. There is a lot more to my life than i thought...
    AnjaM98 AnjaM98 16-17, F Sep 2, 2014

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    I've wondered for a long time if I am emotionally repressed to some degree. I feel as though I go through the motions of daily life, showing the emotions I am expected to show...
    emeraldfire2065 emeraldfire2065 26-30, F Mar 28

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    Last night I received an email from my ex.. I can't stop myself reading it over n over again.. it was beautiful.. she brought me to all the beautiful corners of our love.. they all...
    FaitAccomp1i FaitAccomp1i 70+, M 4 Responses Apr 7

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    Omg... I don't know why I never stop laughing this hard but last year in 8th grade, me and my BESTTT friend SIERRA { I hope you are watching this ;) } ended up being in the same...
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    Memories can be hard to remember. It can cause me so many pain. The ones I share these memories with are gone. They forgot about me. They ignored me, or stopped talking to me, and...
    RhinosaurusRex RhinosaurusRex 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 20

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    i have too many. good memories and bad memories. both leave me hurting. i actually prefer the bad memories to the good ones. the good memories hurt worse
    CallmeHopelessNotRomantic CallmeHopelessNotRomantic 36-40, F Mar 30

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    My grandmother on my mothers side used TCP antiseptic cream .. Now when I use this after one of my 'accident prone' episodes memories flood back of my grandmother.. My grandfather...
    saxappeal saxappeal 46-50, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Kansas on the radio....brings up a lot of memories from my rocker days: coy boy boots, big hair, tie dye and Aerosmith shirts...Good times!
    MFeisty MFeisty 41-45, F 5 Responses Mar 19

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    I write about my childhood memories. I was very young when I remember my father fighting with my mom. I was so very small when I started down the hallway to stop the screams. In...
    Soulrebirth Soulrebirth 46-50, M Mar 30

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    I keep trying to fool myself intoforgetting old memories. It just hurts to much to let them go. I can't let them go because they are forever stuck in the past and haunting my...
    badgirlbee badgirlbee 22-25, F 5 Responses Mar 30

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    I've gone to the extent of avoiding my gruesome memories; I know I've suppressed many of them to the deepest of my mind. I have the knowledge that doing so isn't safe but I feel...
    LoveOverHatred LoveOverHatred 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 31

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    O' My Darling, I Still Love You, I think I always will. I imagine if I'm still alive at 80, and EP is still here, I'll be writing the same thing. I'm not sad. Memories of your...
    Carissimi Carissimi 56-60, F 2 Responses Apr 7

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    Why is it that when I look back at my childhood I can only remember sunny days? Of course there must have been rainy days, dull days, boring days, miserable days, but I can't...
    Wyesman Wyesman 70+, M 5 Responses 6 days ago

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    I think a lot about the apartments I've lived in. The offices are the only nice part. Kind of like how a Bengali Tiger is a beautiful sight until you find yourself inside of one...
    Modiwolfshit Modiwolfshit 41-45, M 2 Responses Mar 20

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    I do this a lot where I just remember something funny and start laughing uncontrollably. Sometimes I do this around my friends and they be like "Is this girl drunk" but I'm...
    BlackMagicAttack BlackMagicAttack 26-30, F 7 Responses Mar 21

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    My father crashed his scooter on the road side while driving, as he was looking at a beautiful woman.
    fhfdcxg fhfdcxg 18-21, M Apr 5

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    A visit to Aunt Myrt and Uncle Grover's. Half an hour. Scenery so familiar as it flies by the car. I loved going places. The speed, the wind whipping through the open windows as we...
    justNIK justNIK 41-45, F 3 Responses Apr 7

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    In a meeting with a high profile client yesterday in a room with 11 people present I was going through my presentation and at one point spoke about the role each member of our team...
    AthenaJones AthenaJones 36-40, F 2 Responses Apr 10

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    So I grew up in with two older brothers, two older sisters, and a younger sister. My older brothers and I weren't very close (heck, none of them were that close to me). And so, I...
    kennyboi317 kennyboi317 18-21 Mar 19

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    Admit it, you have done bad and unfair things and right away, you wish you never did it. You would wish you could go back to the past and fix everything. I just wish that my mind...
    WinchesterLover WinchesterLover 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 20

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    love street /doors this song brings me be back twenty five yrs ago its stuck in my mind dont really know why I was a back packer in south east asia and I got to rajistan india I...
    sirpercival sirpercival 46-50, M Mar 21

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    My brother and I talked and listened to music last night. We took turns playing old songs and reminiscing about where in life we were when that song came out. It was fun and I...
    Jalissay26 Jalissay26 26-30, F Mar 21

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    Regardless of prayers. And meds. And drugs. And car wrecks. And heart attacks on seroquel.
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M Mar 22

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    When I was like 12 or eleven, my grandmom and poppy use Ta watch me a lot me and my brother. We would spend whole summers at there place for what I can remember. I remember playing...
    Mardiez Mardiez 18-21, M Mar 24

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