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I Am Remembering Repressed Memories

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 100 People

    Child Trauma And Starvation For Intimacy The Real Cause Of Most Mental Health Issues

    This I would bey is the sole reason for your so called depression. It is trauma and dissociation in the brain/nervous system, a wounded spirit, and a broken heart, caused be neglect, abuse, or pack of attachment in childhood (especially if it was before age 8). This almost...
    Ajushi Ajushi 41-45, M Nov 19, 2013

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    Too Much To Handle

    I can never say they are real. Ever. Because I just feel too afraid they would be. I am only 16 years old and I guess that's a bit young. Which could be the main reason why little have believed me. Two years ago when I was headed into freshman year. I began having these...
    Naelextip Naelextip 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 12, 2013

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    Been not well. Have such intense feelings of

    disgust to the point where I want and need to just claw my skin off. It feels like I am going to go absolutely insane. I was driving with my boyfriend last night and started to get these emotions and feelings and body pains that seemingly came from 'nowhere'. I had to pull over...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 21, 2014

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    I hope my ex doesn't see this.

    he's a user here, I've moved on already but I saw his post saying that "girls am I attractive or not". I remember our skype calls and everything. the happiness I was in when we were together and just now I saw a post he posted when we broke up and it said something about losing...
    nicolexo113 nicolexo113 16-17, F Nov 20, 2014

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    I typed this whole long thing then accidentally

    deleted it so I'm going to sum it up: I became good friends with someone online but he became kind of controlling and abusive, continually blowing up on me and always asking who i was talking to or who i was friends with so one day i left. Eventgaully i forgot why we had...
    kxCobra kxCobra 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 14, 2014

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    :d

    Nothing a good shower can't fix. :D I had this dream today. It was a nightmare, many of my fears balled up into one. Only now, recalling the dream, I realize why it bothered me so much. I don't like remembering. Makes me want to puke. Makes me wonder. Nothing a good shower...
    Jujalee Jujalee 66-70 4 Responses Oct 24, 2011

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    I Feel Stuck In That Moment

    I have a memory, or set of memories, that I had forgotten for quite a while. They aren't even visual memories I suppose, just sensory and emotional fragments that pop up when i don't expect... A hand, large, aged, rough, sliding down my stomach, reaching beneath my stockings. My...
    scantilycladsoul scantilycladsoul 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 27, 2012

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    For a while in my life the last few years,

    off and on, there was some beautiful moments of repose. The last of which was several months ago. Don't get me wrong, I have always been struggling, but it was at least do-able. I actually thought I was starting to 'get over' this stuff. I guess it was just wishful thinking. Or...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 19, 2014

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    I don't know if they're repressed

    or fantasised. I don't think I'll ever know for sure and my life is on pause in the mean time. I function and smile but I'm dead on the inside - my eyes are hollow and my smile is fake but nobody sees. I am so desperate - I'm scared of what the future holds
    butterflydanse butterflydanse 31-35, F Aug 31, 2014

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    Tremory

    Together on each end but torn in the middle. trying to solve the riddle. Made a deal with the devil dont know how to play the fiddle. Ashen in the morning, abundantly clearminded by night holding on to my entrails, trying not to fall behind. Tying my pieces together making...
    Laurenbug Laurenbug 18-21 Oct 18, 2012

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    Getting Beyond Control.....

    for the past couple years it's getting unbearable.. the most hatefull discusting things come to my mind and anything gets me conecting the dots. i can't focus without worrying about the past, it starts getting vividly present inside of me. this comes true mostly in dreams where i...
    lunarstrings lunarstrings 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 6, 2011

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    I Think I Have Repressed Memories

    I am 18 years old and nearing the end of my freshman year of college. I have had depression and been diagnosed as clinically depressed for 10 years. I have started to think I have repressed memories because my friends here have told me that the conversations and events I...
    kansengar kansengar 18-21 3 Responses Apr 21, 2013

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    Is It Really Better To Forget?

    I'm recently discovering that my mind forgets things that are hard for me. I don't know why but, things are coming to light now & I've gone exploring. I'm a person that likes to know the truth, even if it sucks. Well it's called repressed memory.. and I feel like I'm going crazy...
    taylerlaynne taylerlaynne 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 5, 2013

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    Being Handed The Memories

    This is just my personal feelings, but I feel I had help from angels when I was a child to put my abuse into a place that helped me to deal with the trauma until a time when I was able to handle getting those feelings handed back to me. The place it went helped me to give a false...
    Handed Handed 41-45, F 3 Responses Jul 22, 2012

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    I have a lot of repressed memories.

    And they started jumping out on me. There is a lot more to my life than i thought...
    AnjaM98 AnjaM98 16-17, F Sep 2, 2014

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    Any More Good Books On Repressed Memories?

    I've been scouring libraries and books for recovering repressed memories and childhood sexual abuse ever since I recovered some earlier this year. So far, I've read: Repressed Memories: A Journey to Recovery from Sexual Abuse -- Renee Fredrickson, Ph.D. Blind to Betrayal: Why...
    reclaiminglife reclaiminglife 31-35, F Oct 14, 2013

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    sikandtired93 sikandtired93 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 5, 2014

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    I Can't Remember Most Things Before Age 6

    I used to think it was because I was too stressed out and couldn't process immigrating to the US. You know, the whole new language, completely new world thing.... And now I realize it was actually because I was sexually abused as a child. Apparently, my brain was doing it's best...
    reclaiminglife reclaiminglife 31-35, F 7 Responses Oct 27, 2013

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    This is only a small amount of the abuse

    that has happened in my childhood. It happened by many people for a long time. But this is what I need to talk about right now. I have a very large amount of stuff to talk about. I just got out of therapy and I'm just shaking like a leaf right now. It was a very difficult...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    My Attempt At Poetry

    I used to write poems all the time when I was in a teenager/adolescent. They were all very similar to each other and usually about some boy that had recently broken my heart and expressed feelings that seemed to be more drastic than the situation called for. I definitely wasn't...
    VieveStar VieveStar 31-35, F Mar 22, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    I've wondered for a long time if I am emotionally repressed to some degree. I feel as though I go through the motions of daily life, showing the emotions I am expected to show...
    emeraldfire2065 emeraldfire2065 26-30, F 1 day ago

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    A part of me is determined not to forget even though it only brings me pain! I feel responsible for remembering and carrying the pain with me into every facet of my life.The most...
    lauren71 lauren71 41-45, F 2 Responses Mar 5

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    Memories can be hard to remember. It can cause me so many pain. The ones I share these memories with are gone. They forgot about me. They ignored me, or stopped talking to me, and...
    RhinosaurusRex RhinosaurusRex 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 20

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    I'm not sure if this is something that becomes more important to us as we get older, or whether it is simply a way of thinking, of living. But for me, it is all about the memories...
    Chrye Chrye 51-55, F 3 Responses Mar 1

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    I cherish memories which are close to my heart ....with the people who care and love me for who I am- love you all
    spicycook spicycook 41-45, M Mar 6

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    Today i went to the playground with my son Kaiden :) It just reminded me of the time my mom took me to the same exact playground ;P memories... Kaiden loves the playground! He...
    MommyToKaiden MommyToKaiden 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 7

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    Life is a rough biography. Memories smooth out the edges
    TCL009 TCL009 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 10

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    I remember seeing my daughters living conditions before I adopted her. I still have nightmares and I'm sure she does too. I also have memories of my mother kicking me out of her...
    Retro5NAF Retro5NAF 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 18

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    Kansas on the radio....brings up a lot of memories from my rocker days: coy boy boots, big hair, tie dye and Aerosmith shirts...Good times!
    MFeisty MFeisty 41-45, F 5 Responses Mar 19

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    I do this on a regular basis. It feels good to laugh and sharing it with someone else is even better!
    myzterieboy myzterieboy 41-45, M 1 Response Mar 8

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    Me. My looks. My face. Was at a restaurant. A tiny girl jumped up. And yelled beetlejuice three times. Was at starbucks. Got asked for an autograph. Asked why...
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M Mar 18

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    Growing up I always looked older than my actual age (never had a shortage of other kids willing to use that for getting them cigarettes or alcohol). One of my closest friends at...
    Bumblelion Bumblelion 31-35, M Mar 18

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    I think a lot about the apartments I've lived in. The offices are the only nice part. Kind of like how a Bengali Tiger is a beautiful sight until you find yourself inside of one...
    Modiwolfshit Modiwolfshit 41-45, M 2 Responses Mar 20

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    I do this a lot where I just remember something funny and start laughing uncontrollably. Sometimes I do this around my friends and they be like "Is this girl drunk" but I'm...
    BlackMagicAttack BlackMagicAttack 26-30, F 6 Responses Mar 21

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    Today's Harry Potter/London Fog in my area reminded me of my second grade teachers explanation for fog...,"fog is basically a dying cloud". That hurt my feelings so much. I thought...
    bombchu bombchu 22-25, F Mar 3

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    What would I do without your smart mouth? Drawing me in, and you kicking me out You've got my head spinning, no kidding, I can't pin you down What's going on in that beautiful mind...
    Listening2us Listening2us 26-30, F Mar 3

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    My head is everywhere today and full to the brim. Forgive me. :) It popped into my head unbidden. A curious scene I always thought. More curious still that I recall it so vividly...
    justNIK justNIK 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 3

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    Has anyone as a child experimented with the same sex? I was about 6 or 7 years old. I knew what I was doing but I did it anyway. I am completely heterosexual now. Not that it's...
    Usernamesimpleman Usernamesimpleman 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 4

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    Story(s)? I look up as a man enters the hottub. Why does he have to come in? Now I can't play with my noodle! I think bitterly. I sigh, resigning to the side of the tub and...
    kingbrizo kingbrizo 18-21 Mar 4

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    I remember I was in band, I was a proud trombone player. During one of our concerts I was getting into the music and was moving my slide to six position and my slide flew off my...
    jbm1984 jbm1984 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 5

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    From fourth grade up. And they never fade.
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M Mar 10

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    Weekly. It bites deep. But pals cure that. If i cant.
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M Mar 10

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    It was the first time I had ever met his mother. Later that day, after I returned from the post office, and he had gone out on an errand, his mother told me that he watched me from...
    Carissimi Carissimi 56-60, F 3 Responses Mar 12

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    Be careful with the risks and choices. Think long and hard. I plan to give it all I have. I suppose that's what matters.