I Am Remembering Repressed Memories

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    For a while in my life the last few years,

    off and on, there was some beautiful moments of repose. The last of which was several months ago. Don't get me wrong, I have always been struggling, but it was at least do-able. I actually thought I was starting to 'get over' this stuff. I guess it was just wishful thinking. Or...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Sep 19, 2014

    I Think I Have Repressed Memories

    I am 18 years old and nearing the end of my freshman year of college. I have had depression and been diagnosed as clinically depressed for 10 years. I have started to think I have repressed memories because my friends here have told me that the conversations and events I...
    kansengar kansengar
    18-21
    3 Responses Apr 21, 2013

    Last night i remember something from my

    childhood that pretty much explains everything about me now, i am ashame and upset. i wish i didn't even see the small bits and pieces that i did cause now i know something happened to me. i don't want to know happened next, i don't even want to think about it..
    funkittyful funkittyful
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 14

    I Feel Stuck In That Moment

    I have a memory, or set of memories, that I had forgotten for quite a while. They aren't even visual memories I suppose, just sensory and emotional fragments that pop up when i don't expect... A hand, large, aged, rough, sliding down my stomach, reaching beneath my stockings. My...
    scantilycladsoul scantilycladsoul
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 27, 2012

    Been not well. Have such intense feelings of

    disgust to the point where I want and need to just claw my skin off. It feels like I am going to go absolutely insane. I was driving with my boyfriend last night and started to get these emotions and feelings and body pains that seemingly came from 'nowhere'. I had to pull over...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 21, 2014

    I Can't Remember Most Things Before Age 6

    I used to think it was because I was too stressed out and couldn't process immigrating to the US. You know, the whole new language, completely new world thing.... And now I realize it was actually because I was sexually abused as a child. Apparently, my brain was doing it's best...
    reclaiminglife reclaiminglife
    31-35, F
    7 Responses Oct 27, 2013

    Being Handed The Memories

    This is just my personal feelings, but I feel I had help from angels when I was a child to put my abuse into a place that helped me to deal with the trauma until a time when I was able to handle getting those feelings handed back to me. The place it went helped me to give a false...
    Handed Handed
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Jul 22, 2012

    Any More Good Books On Repressed Memories?

    I've been scouring libraries and books for recovering repressed memories and childhood sexual abuse ever since I recovered some earlier this year. So far, I've read: Repressed Memories: A Journey to Recovery from Sexual Abuse -- Renee Fredrickson, Ph.D. Blind to Betrayal: Why...
    reclaiminglife reclaiminglife
    31-35, F
    Oct 14, 2013
    sikandtired93 sikandtired93
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Sep 5, 2014

    I don't know if they're repressed

    or fantasised. I don't think I'll ever know for sure and my life is on pause in the mean time. I function and smile but I'm dead on the inside - my eyes are hollow and my smile is fake but nobody sees. I am so desperate - I'm scared of what the future holds
    butterflydanse butterflydanse
    31-35, F
    Aug 31, 2014

    Getting Beyond Control.....

    for the past couple years it's getting unbearable.. the most hatefull discusting things come to my mind and anything gets me conecting the dots. i can't focus without worrying about the past, it starts getting vividly present inside of me. this comes true mostly in dreams where i...
    lunarstrings lunarstrings
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 6, 2011

    :d

    Nothing a good shower can't fix. :D I had this dream today. It was a nightmare, many of my fears balled up into one. Only now, recalling the dream, I realize why it bothered me so much. I don't like remembering. Makes me want to puke. Makes me wonder. Nothing a good shower...
    Jujalee Jujalee
    70+
    3 Responses Oct 24, 2011

    I have gaps in my memory.

    . I can remember preschool but can't remember most of elementary and middle school. I still have trouble remembering things today too for that matter. I've attributed my recent troubles to disassociation. I've disassociated since elementary, I can remember explaining to my mom I...
    mmcdon32 mmcdon32
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 14, 2015

    I typed this whole long thing then accidentally

    deleted it so I'm going to sum it up: I became good friends with someone online but he became kind of controlling and abusive, continually blowing up on me and always asking who i was talking to or who i was friends with so one day i left. Eventgaully i forgot why we had...
    kxCobra kxCobra
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 14, 2014

    Too Much To Handle

    I can never say they are real. Ever. Because I just feel too afraid they would be. I am only 16 years old and I guess that's a bit young. Which could be the main reason why little have believed me. Two years ago when I was headed into freshman year. I began having these...
    Naelextip Naelextip
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jun 12, 2013

    Tremory

    Together on each end but torn in the middle. trying to solve the riddle. Made a deal with the devil dont know how to play the fiddle. Ashen in the morning, abundantly clearminded by night holding on to my entrails, trying not to fall behind. Tying my pieces together making...
    Laurenbug Laurenbug
    18-21
    Oct 18, 2012

    Is It Really Better To Forget?

    I'm recently discovering that my mind forgets things that are hard for me. I don't know why but, things are coming to light now & I've gone exploring. I'm a person that likes to know the truth, even if it sucks. Well it's called repressed memory.. and I feel like I'm going crazy...
    taylerlaynne taylerlaynne
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jul 5, 2013

    I hope my ex doesn't see this.

    he's a user here, I've moved on already but I saw his post saying that "girls am I attractive or not". I remember our skype calls and everything. the happiness I was in when we were together and just now I saw a post he posted when we broke up and it said something about losing...
    nicolexo113 nicolexo113
    16-17, F
    Nov 20, 2014

    This is only a small amount of the abuse

    that has happened in my childhood. It happened by many people for a long time. But this is what I need to talk about right now. I have a very large amount of stuff to talk about. I just got out of therapy and I'm just shaking like a leaf right now. It was a very difficult...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived
    22-25, F
    Mar 24, 2015

    Child Trauma And Starvation For Intimacy The Real Cause Of Most Mental Health Issues

    This I would bey is the sole reason for your so called depression. It is trauma and dissociation in the brain/nervous system, a wounded spirit, and a broken heart, caused be neglect, abuse, or pack of attachment in childhood (especially if it was before age 8). This almost...
    Ajushi Ajushi
    41-45, M
    Nov 19, 2013

    My Attempt At Poetry

    I used to write poems all the time when I was in a teenager/adolescent. They were all very similar to each other and usually about some boy that had recently broken my heart and expressed feelings that seemed to be more drastic than the situation called for. I definitely wasn't...
    VieveStar VieveStar
    31-35, F
    Mar 22, 2013

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    Yes, I do and many of them I have repressed, because I don't want to remember them.
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    The weirdest things can trigger some feelings you wished were gone for good.
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    Memories 6 years. September 1, 2001. I go to school. My mother left me and I was the first time in the classroom. I started to cry. I was afraid that I was left alone. An...
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    I'm really so f*ing done with my life right now. I lived a boring life with barely any fond memories for anything I have done. I crave the feeling for pure happiness. To jump...
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    Don't we all???????????????????????
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    The flavor of life can be bitter to so many, and I'm here to vent as the bad guy of my situation. There's a lot to be said. I sometimes don't realize why I talk so much when I do...
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    I have a scar that until recently I couldn't remember where it came from. I told myself it was a strange stretch mark or something, but for some reason I always hated it. It's to...
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