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I Am Remembering Repressed Memories

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    sikandtired93 sikandtired93 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 5, 2014

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    I Can't Remember Most Things Before Age 6

    I used to think it was because I was too stressed out and couldn't process immigrating to the US. You know, the whole new language, completely new world thing.... And now I realize it was actually because I was sexually abused as a child. Apparently, my brain was doing it's best...
    reclaiminglife reclaiminglife 31-35, F 7 Responses Oct 27, 2013

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    Getting Beyond Control.....

    for the past couple years it's getting unbearable.. the most hatefull discusting things come to my mind and anything gets me conecting the dots. i can't focus without worrying about the past, it starts getting vividly present inside of me. this comes true mostly in dreams where i...
    lunarstrings lunarstrings 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 6, 2011

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    I don't know if they're repressed

    or fantasised. I don't think I'll ever know for sure and my life is on pause in the mean time. I function and smile but I'm dead on the inside - my eyes are hollow and my smile is fake but nobody sees. I am so desperate - I'm scared of what the future holds
    butterflydanse butterflydanse 31-35, F Aug 31, 2014

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    For a while in my life the last few years,

    off and on, there was some beautiful moments of repose. The last of which was several months ago. Don't get me wrong, I have always been struggling, but it was at least do-able. I actually thought I was starting to 'get over' this stuff. I guess it was just wishful thinking. Or...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 19, 2014

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    My Attempt At Poetry

    I used to write poems all the time when I was in a teenager/adolescent. They were all very similar to each other and usually about some boy that had recently broken my heart and expressed feelings that seemed to be more drastic than the situation called for. I definitely wasn't...
    VieveStar VieveStar 31-35, F Mar 22, 2013

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    I Feel Stuck In That Moment

    I have a memory, or set of memories, that I had forgotten for quite a while. They aren't even visual memories I suppose, just sensory and emotional fragments that pop up when i don't expect... A hand, large, aged, rough, sliding down my stomach, reaching beneath my stockings. My...
    scantilycladsoul scantilycladsoul 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 27, 2012

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    Being Handed The Memories

    This is just my personal feelings, but I feel I had help from angels when I was a child to put my abuse into a place that helped me to deal with the trauma until a time when I was able to handle getting those feelings handed back to me. The place it went helped me to give a false...
    Handed Handed 41-45, F 3 Responses Jul 22, 2012

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    Child Trauma And Starvation For Intimacy The Real Cause Of Most Mental Health Issues

    This I would bey is the sole reason for your so called depression. It is trauma and dissociation in the brain/nervous system, a wounded spirit, and a broken heart, caused be neglect, abuse, or pack of attachment in childhood (especially if it was before age 8). This almost...
    Ajushi Ajushi 36-40, M Nov 19, 2013

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    Any More Good Books On Repressed Memories?

    I've been scouring libraries and books for recovering repressed memories and childhood sexual abuse ever since I recovered some earlier this year. So far, I've read: Repressed Memories: A Journey to Recovery from Sexual Abuse -- Renee Fredrickson, Ph.D. Blind to Betrayal: Why...
    reclaiminglife reclaiminglife 31-35, F Oct 14, 2013

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    Been not well. Have such intense feelings of

    disgust to the point where I want and need to just claw my skin off. It feels like I am going to go absolutely insane. I was driving with my boyfriend last night and started to get these emotions and feelings and body pains that seemingly came from 'nowhere'. I had to pull over...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 21, 2014

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    I have a lot of repressed memories.

    And they started jumping out on me. There is a lot more to my life than i thought...
    AnjaM98 AnjaM98 16-17, F Sep 2, 2014

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    I typed this whole long thing then accidentally

    deleted it so I'm going to sum it up: I became good friends with someone online but he became kind of controlling and abusive, continually blowing up on me and always asking who i was talking to or who i was friends with so one day i left. Eventgaully i forgot why we had...
    kxCobra kxCobra 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 14, 2014

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    Tremory

    Together on each end but torn in the middle. trying to solve the riddle. Made a deal with the devil dont know how to play the fiddle. Ashen in the morning, abundantly clearminded by night holding on to my entrails, trying not to fall behind. Tying my pieces together making...
    Laurenbug Laurenbug 18-21 Oct 18, 2012

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    :d

    Nothing a good shower can't fix. :D I had this dream today. It was a nightmare, many of my fears balled up into one. Only now, recalling the dream, I realize why it bothered me so much. I don't like remembering. Makes me want to puke. Makes me wonder. Nothing a good shower...
    Jujalee Jujalee 70+ 4 Responses Oct 24, 2011

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    Is It Really Better To Forget?

    I'm recently discovering that my mind forgets things that are hard for me. I don't know why but, things are coming to light now & I've gone exploring. I'm a person that likes to know the truth, even if it sucks. Well it's called repressed memory.. and I feel like I'm going crazy...
    taylerlaynne taylerlaynne 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 5, 2013

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    I Think I Have Repressed Memories

    I am 18 years old and nearing the end of my freshman year of college. I have had depression and been diagnosed as clinically depressed for 10 years. I have started to think I have repressed memories because my friends here have told me that the conversations and events I...
    kansengar kansengar 18-21 3 Responses Apr 21, 2013

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    I hope my ex doesn't see this.

    he's a user here, I've moved on already but I saw his post saying that "girls am I attractive or not". I remember our skype calls and everything. the happiness I was in when we were together and just now I saw a post he posted when we broke up and it said something about losing...
    nicolexo113 nicolexo113 16-17, F Nov 20, 2014

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    Too Much To Handle

    I can never say they are real. Ever. Because I just feel too afraid they would be. I am only 16 years old and I guess that's a bit young. Which could be the main reason why little have believed me. Two years ago when I was headed into freshman year. I began having these...
    Naelextip Naelextip 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 12, 2013

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    Does anyone else feel pain behind your eyes, bloodshot almost, an urge to cry but you can't? It almost feels like I am remembering something but don't know what it is.I try to...
    madeofstars madeofstars 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 10

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    A smile danced upon the edges of my lips, when the memory of you flashed in my mind. Remembering me, on your lap. The notion of the 'Oreo game', playing out. You always let me have...
    ASoldiersLoveBug ASoldiersLoveBug 22-25, F Jan 5

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    This is going to be VERY emotional becuase this was truly the WORST day of my life. Out of the twenty-eight years of being on this planet, this was the day of sadness.Back in...
    FashionQueen86 FashionQueen86 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 19

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    Should I be grateful I saw myself even before I was myself today? Anyway, to the main point. During another counsel session today, medical expertise tried to help me out by using...
    iTetra iTetra 13-15, F Jan 11

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    Some people are hard to forget.I remember the memories we shared though,with both of you,I remember what you would tell me K you seemed so wise to me sometimes knowledgeable,smart...
    simpleandpossible simpleandpossible 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 12

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    There is no way to substantiate what I am about to say, but then I guess this is not about proof. Through the help of others, I have learned that I have been around for a little...
    Drachona Drachona 18-21 Jan 17

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    what makes memories flash into your mind, when they come they can make you smile or they can make you cry, but I am so glad that I have each and every one of them, just had one...
    Shamrock40 Shamrock40 36-40, M 1 Response Jan 3

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    They are great memories I'd never trade for anything. Camp fires, girlfriends, kindergarden, my first school dance, my first kiss. I can never forget them nor would I want to
    NewBeginnings5 NewBeginnings5 22-25 2 Responses Jan 8

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    I want to forget, but can't. I'm haunted by them and the ripple effect it had on my life. I've experienced the darkest side of people, people I thought I could trust, people I...
    fracturedforever fracturedforever 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 9

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    Those perfect memories with always stay in my heart. And I'm sure there are so many more coming soon!
    dariada dariada 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 10

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    Memories are significant to me... Some are warmly cherished moments, floating upon the clouds along with my dreams. Never ceasing to display their depth of happiness... often...
    WithGracefulness WithGracefulness 46-50, F 7 Responses Jan 12

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    What to do when a formerly abused and abandoned child survives and comes of age to become a young adult haunted by the memories? What to do when sleep is often interrupted by...
    TenThousandSorrows TenThousandSorrows 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 24

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    The uncle I suspect of raping me died this Monday... And memories started to haunt me again. All the things I keep inside... Most of them are about my grandmother. He used to live...
    Mellangela Mellangela 26-30, F 1 Response a week ago

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    lmfao, so today I was laughing hard. in English we were about to start reading a book as a class about the Vietnam war, the lieutenant kept reading letters from a girl who he liked...
    dksl14 dksl14 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 6

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    I do this all the time XD My brain just like keeps reminding me of funny things throughout the day to keep me happy and motivated but sometimes I laugh out loud :P. People probably...
    NapalmNinja NapalmNinja 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 7

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    I'm sitting here watching tv and some movie comes on with an actress who I met and did work for. Once a few years back I was doing a fire damage and pack out of contents in said...
    NoahLandon83 NoahLandon83 31-35, M 18 hrs ago

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    Learning I love sour cream and onion chips dipped in mustard. All thanks to a drunken night tasting things off my friends body.
    lynnox lynnox 22-25, F Jan 2

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    sparkydream sparkydream 18-21, F Jan 3

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    I see you from afar, and my heart longs to cross the expanse to be with you, but my anchor is set and my sails are not unfurled. Maybe one day, I’ll be able to raise the anchor...
    Carissimi Carissimi 56-60, F 3 Responses Jan 5

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    When I was around 2-5 years old, I had visited my friends house. I wanted to go to the washroom, but her mom was in there, so she dared me to go pee behind the stereo. So I did...
    sassymcassy sassymcassy 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 6

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    I remember when life was easy and peoples were kind , days of my childhood keep visiting my head : my grandfather's horse the green leafs of all that trees in country side I miss...
    NNightwalkeRR NNightwalkeRR 26-30, M 1 Response Jan 8

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    "All this bad blood here Won't you let it dry? It's been cold for years Won't you let it lie?" -Bastille I haven't heard this song in forever but these lines have been stuck in...
    OBuddyOpal OBuddyOpal 13-15, F Jan 8

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    One day, you'll be just a memory for some people...do your best to be a good one...
    Brunette4U Brunette4U 31-35, F Jan 9

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    Right now, my father is in the den rehearsing...and man...it's like his bass is singing. Compared to him? I'm garbage. Lol This isn't a pity party. You have to understand one...
    yourguardingangel yourguardingangel 18-21, M Jan 11

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    One time I was 8 and was a soccer (American kind) player from 7 - 14 years old. Anyways, I had an upset stomach before the game but went out and played anyway. Partway through the...
    html92 html92 22-25, M Jan 13

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    he's crazy about me, but his mom don't like me....
    mimsNayla mimsNayla 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 13

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    He invited me to spend my weekend with his family(just his mother and his sister). I went and thought it went pretty well because his mom really kind to me. When i asked him...
    mimsNayla mimsNayla 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 13

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    Looking up the ceiling all night just thinking about the STUPID things I did with my life and wishing I could change it and telling myself it shouldn't have never happen.. But it...
    DaOneandOnlyOne DaOneandOnlyOne 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 13

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