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I Am Remembering Repressed Memories

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    For a while in my life the last few years,

    off and on, there was some beautiful moments of repose. The last of which was several months ago. Don't get me wrong, I have always been struggling, but it was at least do-able. I actually thought I was starting to 'get over' this stuff. I guess it was just wishful thinking. Or...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 19, 2014

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    Child Trauma And Starvation For Intimacy The Real Cause Of Most Mental Health Issues

    This I would bey is the sole reason for your so called depression. It is trauma and dissociation in the brain/nervous system, a wounded spirit, and a broken heart, caused be neglect, abuse, or pack of attachment in childhood (especially if it was before age 8). This almost...
    Ajushi Ajushi 41-45, M Nov 19, 2013

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    :d

    Nothing a good shower can't fix. :D I had this dream today. It was a nightmare, many of my fears balled up into one. Only now, recalling the dream, I realize why it bothered me so much. I don't like remembering. Makes me want to puke. Makes me wonder. Nothing a good shower...
    Jujalee Jujalee 66-70 3 Responses Oct 24, 2011

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    I hope my ex doesn't see this.

    he's a user here, I've moved on already but I saw his post saying that "girls am I attractive or not". I remember our skype calls and everything. the happiness I was in when we were together and just now I saw a post he posted when we broke up and it said something about losing...
    nicolexo113 nicolexo113 16-17, F Nov 20, 2014

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    Any More Good Books On Repressed Memories?

    I've been scouring libraries and books for recovering repressed memories and childhood sexual abuse ever since I recovered some earlier this year. So far, I've read: Repressed Memories: A Journey to Recovery from Sexual Abuse -- Renee Fredrickson, Ph.D. Blind to Betrayal: Why...
    reclaiminglife reclaiminglife 31-35, F Oct 14, 2013

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    I Feel Stuck In That Moment

    I have a memory, or set of memories, that I had forgotten for quite a while. They aren't even visual memories I suppose, just sensory and emotional fragments that pop up when i don't expect... A hand, large, aged, rough, sliding down my stomach, reaching beneath my stockings. My...
    scantilycladsoul scantilycladsoul 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 27, 2012

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    Too Much To Handle

    I can never say they are real. Ever. Because I just feel too afraid they would be. I am only 16 years old and I guess that's a bit young. Which could be the main reason why little have believed me. Two years ago when I was headed into freshman year. I began having these...
    Naelextip Naelextip 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 12, 2013

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    Been not well. Have such intense feelings of

    disgust to the point where I want and need to just claw my skin off. It feels like I am going to go absolutely insane. I was driving with my boyfriend last night and started to get these emotions and feelings and body pains that seemingly came from 'nowhere'. I had to pull over...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 21, 2014

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    Is It Really Better To Forget?

    I'm recently discovering that my mind forgets things that are hard for me. I don't know why but, things are coming to light now & I've gone exploring. I'm a person that likes to know the truth, even if it sucks. Well it's called repressed memory.. and I feel like I'm going crazy...
    taylerlaynne taylerlaynne 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 5, 2013

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    This is only a small amount of the abuse

    that has happened in my childhood. It happened by many people for a long time. But this is what I need to talk about right now. I have a very large amount of stuff to talk about. I just got out of therapy and I'm just shaking like a leaf right now. It was a very difficult...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived 22-25, F Mar 24

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    I Think I Have Repressed Memories

    I am 18 years old and nearing the end of my freshman year of college. I have had depression and been diagnosed as clinically depressed for 10 years. I have started to think I have repressed memories because my friends here have told me that the conversations and events I...
    kansengar kansengar 18-21 3 Responses Apr 21, 2013

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    I typed this whole long thing then accidentally

    deleted it so I'm going to sum it up: I became good friends with someone online but he became kind of controlling and abusive, continually blowing up on me and always asking who i was talking to or who i was friends with so one day i left. Eventgaully i forgot why we had...
    kxCobra kxCobra 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 14, 2014

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    I don't know if they're repressed

    or fantasised. I don't think I'll ever know for sure and my life is on pause in the mean time. I function and smile but I'm dead on the inside - my eyes are hollow and my smile is fake but nobody sees. I am so desperate - I'm scared of what the future holds
    butterflydanse butterflydanse 31-35, F Aug 31, 2014

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    Getting Beyond Control.....

    for the past couple years it's getting unbearable.. the most hatefull discusting things come to my mind and anything gets me conecting the dots. i can't focus without worrying about the past, it starts getting vividly present inside of me. this comes true mostly in dreams where i...
    lunarstrings lunarstrings 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 6, 2011

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    sikandtired93 sikandtired93 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 5, 2014

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    Tremory

    Together on each end but torn in the middle. trying to solve the riddle. Made a deal with the devil dont know how to play the fiddle. Ashen in the morning, abundantly clearminded by night holding on to my entrails, trying not to fall behind. Tying my pieces together making...
    Laurenbug Laurenbug 18-21 Oct 18, 2012

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    My Attempt At Poetry

    I used to write poems all the time when I was in a teenager/adolescent. They were all very similar to each other and usually about some boy that had recently broken my heart and expressed feelings that seemed to be more drastic than the situation called for. I definitely wasn't...
    VieveStar VieveStar 31-35, F Mar 22, 2013

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    I Can't Remember Most Things Before Age 6

    I used to think it was because I was too stressed out and couldn't process immigrating to the US. You know, the whole new language, completely new world thing.... And now I realize it was actually because I was sexually abused as a child. Apparently, my brain was doing it's best...
    reclaiminglife reclaiminglife 31-35, F 7 Responses Oct 27, 2013

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    Being Handed The Memories

    This is just my personal feelings, but I feel I had help from angels when I was a child to put my abuse into a place that helped me to deal with the trauma until a time when I was able to handle getting those feelings handed back to me. The place it went helped me to give a false...
    Handed Handed 41-45, F 3 Responses Jul 22, 2012

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    I have gaps in my memory.

    . I can remember preschool but can't remember most of elementary and middle school. I still have trouble remembering things today too for that matter. I've attributed my recent troubles to disassociation. I've disassociated since elementary, I can remember explaining to my mom I...
    mmcdon32 mmcdon32 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 14

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    Related Experiences

    When I was 16 I had a bad accident and was kept in hospital with multiple breaks to my arm, nerve damage and an injures knee. The curtain was drawn between my bed and the girl next...
    Flybyeden Flybyeden 26-30, F 2 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    As children we remember things with the sight, heart and mind of being a child, but as we grow older we find that the reality of adulthood can often taint these sweet memories and...
    Teamouse Teamouse 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    So, I was on a tiny plane yesterday, and in front of my mom, there was a woman reading 50 Shades Of Grey and she was reading the sex.ual parts! I was able to peek and see what she...
    adriana0102 adriana0102 16-17, F 2 days ago

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    I sometimes have these strange memories of certain shows I use to watch as a child. One memory I have is an episode of punky brewster where the school was having a dress up where...
    jbm1984 jbm1984 31-35, F 3 days ago

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    Remembering some of the dreams I had when I was young, things don't always turn out like you planned
    7lulu 7lulu 41-45, F 4 days ago

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    Some of mine are from a few fleeting moments, like when I was thirteen traveling from a day trip with my parents on a coach, and as we pulled up at the lights I noticed this guy on...
    Teamouse Teamouse 26-30, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    This was in 2013 so i was 13. So this one time i was at my friend isaiahs house getting blazed. It was my first few times i got high. We smoked about a gram (we were lightweights...
    Cheeched2015 Cheeched2015 16-17, M Jul 23

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    I was in grade 3 and it was recess time. The class decided to play tag. I was wearing these tight *** beige pants. Anyways the one that was "it" was coming toward me and i was...
    Cheeched2015 Cheeched2015 16-17, M Jul 23

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    I am a WATER BABY who learned how to swim by taking a plunge at around 4 years of age.
    iCuriousBabe iCuriousBabe 41-45, F 3 Responses Jul 22

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    I just want to forget all those memories and finally move on. If there's any short cut to this I will take it.
    Asereht Asereht 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 22

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    I'm so tired of remembering all of the stuff I tried so hard to forget, I can't do this anymore, I complain I need someone to talk to but then I just push them away. I don't trust...
    IwillBePretty4U IwillBePretty4U 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 21

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    The terror nightmare as a child , and being alone
    wishingwellguy wishingwellguy 36-40, M Jul 21

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    I have so many memories tucked away inside. A few that I could throw away and care to relive but most of them I would repeat over and over again. When asked my most memorable...
    HiddenGems HiddenGems 46-50, F Jul 21

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    I can' forget the memory of "him" no matter how i tried i think deep inside me i still love him even i am married now... why we're not together..if there is another chance i'll do...
    Carolyn17 Carolyn17 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 20

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    Lol I remember when this fuckboy asked me to come to his house so we can "watch netflix & chill" and I was like alright this should be interesting. When I got there he didn't even...
    KaiyaStacks KaiyaStacks 16-17, F 9 Responses Jul 20

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    When you lose someone, you try to remember the last time you saw them. And most of the time it’s a blurry memory, because at that time you had no idea it would be the last.
    RedHwaiting RedHwaiting 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 18

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    I remember childish hopes And impromptu dances Moments that have faded now Left are but memories of what I had And regret of what could have been.
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 3 Responses Jul 18

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    When I was in Grade 8, (4 years ago) This popular kid named (XXXX) used to hide his phone and record people changing in the locker room. I would see him hide it almost everyday but...
    baeleaves baeleaves 13-15, M 1 Response Jul 18

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    I have always been uncomfortable in water, an intuitive told me I drowned in a past life. I liked running in the rain, green tea and liked persimmons, which my mother had told me...
    cLight87 cLight87 22-25 Jul 17

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    We started dating in the summertime. He lived nearly an hour from me and would drive to see me most every night. Often just to watch TV for a couple hours before he had to head...
    justNIK justNIK 41-45, F 4 Responses Jul 17

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    I think I had a past life in WW2 during the Holocaust. Since I was young I had visions of the long barracks and the smoking chimneys. My toddlerhood phobias were of fire, vomit...
    fallenstar23 fallenstar23 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 15

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    Utada hikaru's goodbye happiness I cry every time I listen to it, it's a review of her songs, and brings back so much memories
    MerryMarionC MerryMarionC 31-35, F Jul 15

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    But they never really fade, do they? Everything I want to forget I remember, and everything I need to remember, I forget. The memories never actually go away, the nightmares never...
    KyrBella KyrBella 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 13

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