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I Am Remembering Repressed Memories

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 101 People

    I typed this whole long thing then accidentally

    deleted it so I'm going to sum it up: I became good friends with someone online but he became kind of controlling and abusive, continually blowing up on me and always asking who i was talking to or who i was friends with so one day i left. Eventgaully i forgot why we had...
    kxCobra kxCobra 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 14

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    I hope my ex doesn't see this.

    he's a user here, I've moved on already but I saw his post saying that "girls am I attractive or not". I remember our skype calls and everything. the happiness I was in when we were together and just now I saw a post he posted when we broke up and it said something about losing...
    nicolexo113 nicolexo113 16-17, F Nov 20

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    I Can't Remember Most Things Before Age 6

    I used to think it was because I was too stressed out and couldn't process immigrating to the US. You know, the whole new language, completely new world thing.... And now I realize it was actually because I was sexually abused as a child. Apparently, my brain was doing it's best...
    reclaiminglife reclaiminglife 31-35, F 7 Responses Oct 27, 2013

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    Being Handed The Memories

    This is just my personal feelings, but I feel I had help from angels when I was a child to put my abuse into a place that helped me to deal with the trauma until a time when I was able to handle getting those feelings handed back to me. The place it went helped me to give a false...
    Handed Handed 41-45, F 3 Responses Jul 22, 2012

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    My Attempt At Poetry

    I used to write poems all the time when I was in a teenager/adolescent. They were all very similar to each other and usually about some boy that had recently broken my heart and expressed feelings that seemed to be more drastic than the situation called for. I definitely wasn't...
    VieveStar VieveStar 31-35, F Mar 22, 2013

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    Getting Beyond Control.....

    for the past couple years it's getting unbearable.. the most hatefull discusting things come to my mind and anything gets me conecting the dots. i can't focus without worrying about the past, it starts getting vividly present inside of me. this comes true mostly in dreams where i...
    lunarstrings lunarstrings 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 6, 2011

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    I have a lot of repressed memories.

    And they started jumping out on me. There is a lot more to my life than i thought...
    AnjaM98 AnjaM98 16-17, F Sep 2

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    I Feel Stuck In That Moment

    I have a memory, or set of memories, that I had forgotten for quite a while. They aren't even visual memories I suppose, just sensory and emotional fragments that pop up when i don't expect... A hand, large, aged, rough, sliding down my stomach, reaching beneath my stockings. My...
    scantilycladsoul scantilycladsoul 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 27, 2012

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    Any More Good Books On Repressed Memories?

    I've been scouring libraries and books for recovering repressed memories and childhood sexual abuse ever since I recovered some earlier this year. So far, I've read: Repressed Memories: A Journey to Recovery from Sexual Abuse -- Renee Fredrickson, Ph.D. Blind to Betrayal: Why...
    reclaiminglife reclaiminglife 31-35, F Oct 14, 2013

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    Been not well. Have such intense feelings of

    disgust to the point where I want and need to just claw my skin off. It feels like I am going to go absolutely insane. I was driving with my boyfriend last night and started to get these emotions and feelings and body pains that seemingly came from 'nowhere'. I had to pull over...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 21

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    I Think I Have Repressed Memories

    I am 18 years old and nearing the end of my freshman year of college. I have had depression and been diagnosed as clinically depressed for 10 years. I have started to think I have repressed memories because my friends here have told me that the conversations and events I...
    kansengar kansengar 18-21 3 Responses Apr 21, 2013

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    sikandtired93 sikandtired93 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 5

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    Is It Really Better To Forget?

    I'm recently discovering that my mind forgets things that are hard for me. I don't know why but, things are coming to light now & I've gone exploring. I'm a person that likes to know the truth, even if it sucks. Well it's called repressed memory.. and I feel like I'm going crazy...
    taylerlaynne taylerlaynne 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 5, 2013

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    Child Trauma And Starvation For Intimacy The Real Cause Of Most Mental Health Issues

    This I would bey is the sole reason for your so called depression. It is trauma and dissociation in the brain/nervous system, a wounded spirit, and a broken heart, caused be neglect, abuse, or pack of attachment in childhood (especially if it was before age 8). This almost...
    Ajushi Ajushi 31-35, M Nov 19, 2013

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    And it's hard to know what's real

    and what's fake. But how do I figure it all out all alone at 17 years old?
    Jennuhhxoxo Jennuhhxoxo 18-21, F Mar 16

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    For a while in my life the last few years,

    off and on, there was some beautiful moments of repose. The last of which was several months ago. Don't get me wrong, I have always been struggling, but it was at least do-able. I actually thought I was starting to 'get over' this stuff. I guess it was just wishful thinking. Or...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 19

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    Tremory

    Together on each end but torn in the middle. trying to solve the riddle. Made a deal with the devil dont know how to play the fiddle. Ashen in the morning, abundantly clearminded by night holding on to my entrails, trying not to fall behind. Tying my pieces together making...
    Laurenbug Laurenbug 18-21 Oct 18, 2012

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    :d

    Nothing a good shower can't fix. :D I had this dream today. It was a nightmare, many of my fears balled up into one. Only now, recalling the dream, I realize why it bothered me so much. I don't like remembering. Makes me want to puke. Makes me wonder. Nothing a good shower...
    Jujalee Jujalee 70+ 4 Responses Oct 24, 2011

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    I don't know if they're repressed

    or fantasised. I don't think I'll ever know for sure and my life is on pause in the mean time. I function and smile but I'm dead on the inside - my eyes are hollow and my smile is fake but nobody sees. I am so desperate - I'm scared of what the future holds
    butterflydanse butterflydanse 31-35, F Aug 31

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    Too Much To Handle

    I can never say they are real. Ever. Because I just feel too afraid they would be. I am only 16 years old and I guess that's a bit young. Which could be the main reason why little have believed me. Two years ago when I was headed into freshman year. I began having these...
    Naelextip Naelextip 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 12, 2013

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    Slowly I'm becoming her. The one who lies distant within my own memories. My memories distant but so clear. Questions still run wild inside my messed up mind. They lie with...
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    I laughed so loud during reading period this morning remembering something my friend said, I forgot about the thing until I made eye contact with my friend and I cracked up so hard...
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    Good memories are the most important thing in my life right now. Without good memories, the silence will be a deadly rain that I must take shelter from. Although my life has not...
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    I feel the memories flow past me like when the wind catches strains of my hair and the feeling of an uplifting from the heavens as I gaze out the window at the mountians, I feel...
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