I Am Sad

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    Good bye EP and all my friends

    although most of you I would like to stay in touch with. One way or another. Perhaps we will all meet up on another site. Although I am heavy hearted, I do understand why they are shutting down the site. It's evolution has taken it to a place it was never meant to go. And that...
    Hikingguy Hikingguy
    46-50, M
    2 Responses Mar 23
    silentruelove silentruelove
    26-30, M
    Apr 21

    Can't believe experience project is shutting

    down....I've been going on here for several years now and it has served as a diary, a place where I connect with others, and a sort of online home away from home. I've never found another site quite like this one. I'm not sure what I'll do after it's gone. I know I complain...
    Hush92 Hush92
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 23

    I don't know why I decided to watch Degrassi.

    All the best characters die 🙄
    starling156 starling156
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Apr 11

    If someone really wanted you,

    they'd actually put some effort into trying to get your attention and make sacrifices for you. They wouldn't just tell you, they want you; they'd show you in every little way possible that they want you.
    DeathThrone DeathThrone
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 13, 2015

    The questions I ask don't show up in the Q/A

    anymore... *one tear falls* lol
    sassycookie sassycookie
    18-21, F
    12 Responses Jan 9

    So finally his money came through,

    but now he's told me he needs to renew his passport. That could take about six weeks, plane tickets are gonna be astronomical by then, he's still unemployed...I'll have to cover most of the ticket and I'm flat broke. I dunno. I feel let down and I feel like I'm not really worth...
    Largenincharge Largenincharge
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 21

    It took me 30 seconds to remember your number,

    when I used to know it by heart. Your face... I can't fvcking remember it. Maybe this is for the better since you hurt me... But it's making me sad. I'm forgetting...... And it's all becoming one big blur. Like a whole lifetime ago.
    MirusMe MirusMe
    18-21, M
    4 Responses Apr 20

    There was no guy sitting under my Christmas

    tree this morning :( Santa didn't get me what I asked for :'(
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    12 Responses Dec 25, 2014
    sarahbear420 sarahbear420
    18-21, F
    5 Responses May 15, 2014

    So Sad

    I waited for you for so long. I watched my phone, every night, waiting on a phone call that somewhere in the back of my mind I knew I’d never get. I just wanted to hear you say that you were sorry for what you did, and that maybe you wanted to get back together. I hoped and...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Dec 10, 2012

    It's coming down to the wire.

    EP will soon be silent. I've made some great friends, and I'm going to miss them terribly. But I'm hopeful all of us will connect again somewhere. See y'all soon.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 20

    Omg T.T truth is so hard to accept.

    ..And words are hurting just like gunshots...
    Saya024 Saya024
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 21

    I was looking around in my study

    and I found a picture of me when I was 4 years old. I saw myself with the big grin on my face i was young not yet aware of the world and it's hardships I was carefree and enjoying all that life had to give then I looked in the mirror and the person looking back at me was...
    SladeBolinLeaderofEp SladeBolinLeaderofEp
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Apr 9
    MysteriousLion MysteriousLion
    22-25, M
    Apr 20

    I'm Sorry My Sadness Makes You Uncomfortable

    I'm not "fine". I'm not even okay and I'm certainly not good. What's worse is that I haven't felt that I have the right to feel anything less than "okay". I have felt as if I don't have the right to feel sad. I have been shamed for feeling sad. I have been invalidated in such...
    WalterMighty WalterMighty
    22-25
    10 Responses Jul 10, 2013

    I feel like I wear a mask I don't

    even know who the real me is. I feel like crying, this isn't who or even what I was supposed to be I'm not happy at all. I barely have friends, just because I have a smile face people think I'm happy or I instantly have no problems. I feel like screaming at them to fix me, I'm...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    14 Responses Nov 24, 2014

    Oh man... Three days

    and this place is gone. I still need to try to get my stories... I can't believe this place is gonna be gone 😔
    katariffik katariffik
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Apr 18

    Returning home today from the cancer hospital.

    I felt emotionally drained. Was I im some sort of nightmare Was the diagnosis my dad was given bladder cancer I softly said to myself be strong Farmmaid Be strong for him and don't let him see you cry I felt so guilty cause in the car ride to the hospital i selfishly...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    9 Responses May 15, 2015

    I am deeply sad that 39 of my stories were

    removed from EP today. That is 39 incidents of thoughts and feelings (and excitement) that I shared. I never talked about anything illegal, was never gratuitous or vulgar, and my stories were about the thoughts and feelings I have about becoming more sexual as I turned 40...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    49 Responses Sep 18, 2014

    WHY do girls push away nice guys

    but talk to the bad ones and want to be with them
    hotspot1989 hotspot1989
    26-30, M
    4 Responses Apr 9

    Feeling so alone today

    and so heartbroken for so many reasons and now EP is closing 😞 it's going to be hard to not have you all to reach out too on days like these 😞
    Poison89 Poison89
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Apr 20
    RickaylaBeard RickaylaBeard
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Nov 2, 2014

    ery sad that Ep is closing :( like this

    if you want me to post a dirty pic and also for those who want to stay in contact with me here is my info Snapchat: jadagreen1999 Instagram: jadaisgreen Skype: jadaisgreen K_k: jadaisgreen Vent: Jadagee
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 20

    My best friends in the company are not

    regularised. It made me cry already, but the mere thought of their absence is always successful at making me sad. Imagine getting used to their presence and company, then suddenly, BAM! GOODBYE! This is why one shouldn't get attached. EP is closing and it is giving me some sort...
    Dewms Dewms
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 21

    So it's pretty sad when someone you think values

    and cares about you just walks away or stops talking without closure. For someone like me, it makes me go back and question every word, encounter or if anything was ever real or if I was only used. Hmm, I have a lot more faith in people I think and sometimes my kindness and care...
    sweetartventure sweetartventure
    31-35, F
    16 Responses Mar 10, 2015

    Endless Tears

      To cry alone.  It is better then the rain.   At least then no one can see my hurt.   It seems the cold of winter comes through to the center of my soul so often.   It comes more then once a year.     The sadness in my heart; it is...
    stormynightsky stormynightsky
    22-25, F
    11 Responses Apr 13, 2009

    We were on lock down at work there was a

    shooting ,,at our sister agency. 14 fatalities. Hugs needed.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Dec 2, 2015

    It's like, I'm calm on the outside,

    and screaming and crying and suffering underneath. I hate life, sometimes.
    actuelly actuelly
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Sep 18, 2015

    If there is any kind of meaningful advice I

    as a very childish 22 year old can give you, it's to NOT date your neighbour! Ever.
    sadiejane22 sadiejane22
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Apr 10

    I might not right here

    after this. as the flame of my candle began flickering I realized it would soon blow out. I have a beautiful joint to smoke and this peculiar sound the burning wicks making oddly reminded me of Ep. my history. I spend a lot of time re reading my entries. an old habit. I'm...
    Unmasked Unmasked
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Apr 14

    On Friday I will be 18 years old .

    A adult . I have no in life friends . I have maybe two friends online . A woman who is older than me much older actually hhh . And a guy the same age as me . I still can't over the bullying I had at school almost three years ago that lasted for four years . So many problems from...
    roseblood123 roseblood123
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Apr 20

    I don't usually care about what people think of

    me, but this person, I do care. I care very much and he hates me because he thinks I'm a slag. When I never lied, nor cheated, or been disloyal. I loved him. I told him and he disregarded it like a passing hello on the street from a stranger. I gave him everything. My time...
    LittleLover19 LittleLover19
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Apr 18

    I wish there was at least one decent guy

    who would take the time to know me and love me for my personality and not just my looks..
    MarieMe21 MarieMe21
    18-21, F
    8 Responses Jan 11, 2015

    One of the ladies I support has been absent

    from program for the last two weeks. I have been asking for updates on her condition daily. Today my worries about her livelihood were confirmed. She's very ill and is currently being admitted into hospital. She has a rather large mass within her digestive system. It sounds...
    snowberry75 snowberry75
    36-40, F
    1 Response Jun 19, 2015

    I wish to die.. every day torches me in one way

    or the other.. I feel a strong urge to get freedom from this physical world. I wish I could die.. :(
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Apr 7
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Aug 17, 2015

    Just found out about to site bummer

    where is everyone going to go?
    Zerozko Zerozko
    22-25, M
    1 Response Apr 10

    oh my ******* god oh my ******* god oh my

    ******* ******* ******* god whyyyy **** **** ****
    Unmasked Unmasked
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 21

    it's sad that EP is shutting down.

    I've made many many great friends here and will miss every one lots.
    p0ppunknotpills p0ppunknotpills
    18-21, M
    1 Response Apr 6
    Drag0nMaster Drag0nMaster
    18-21, F
    Apr 20

    I am just crying my eyes out

    as I write. I feel so empty inside.... Why was I born? Why would I have been chosen to live such a life?! I hate myself!!!! My dad came in my room, as usual. That disgusting, scumbag of him!!!! I HATE HIM I HATE HIM!!!!!!!!! He did me... but he was so slow and gentle and...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    8 Responses Jul 23, 2015

    Your parents always tell you to say hi to the

    kid⁰who sits alone at lunch but no one tells you what to do⁰when that kid is you.
    iamsal iamsal
    13-15, F
    1 Response Apr 21

    I know everything is temporary,

    even the good people you meet. But for once, I want this to not be true. For once, I just want someone to stay. I'm tired of being left behind. :/
    glassbonespaperskin glassbonespaperskin
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 8

    All of It

    You called me up at 1:30 this morning, so drunk you were repeating yourself over and over.  I love you too.  You can't just "unlove" someone, especially someone you write songs for after fifteen years.  Oh *****, you've had an ankle bracelet on for five...
    puck61 puck61
    51-55, M
    15 Responses Nov 25, 2008

    why do ppl block someone

    when u talked before so nice and had a real good chat with each other ?? I really don't get it anymore
    goven99 goven99
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 30, 2014

    R.I.P. Victoria Wood.

    Writer, musician, actor, director. One of the funniest people of her generation! If you don't know of her work. Go to youtube. Type in: Victoria Wood Let's do it.
    picklebobble picklebobble
    51-55, M
    1 Response Apr 20

    never get too attached to someone

    unless u know that the person has the same feelings for u too one sided espectations destroys u mentally and breaks your soul apart
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    6 Responses Jan 19

    It's nice to know that people are trying to set

    up new EP, but do you really think it can compensate all the stories gathered over the years? Come on..it's like burning down the old library full of old books and saying, oh don't be sad, we built a new one for you. I don't say I don't like the idea. It's still better than...
    OpenlyHonestly OpenlyHonestly
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Apr 16
    DessyLove DessyLove
    18-21, F
    Aug 11, 2014

    I really am. I thought I would be cool with EP

    closing. But it has been such a large part of my life and the friends I've made. Now as we are winding down to the last couple of hours, I can't help but feeling empty. So long everybody. good luck and lets hope for all that is good.
    Hikingguy Hikingguy
    46-50, M
    2 Responses Apr 21
    Lovethis14 Lovethis14
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 2

    and thats putting it mildly,

    I am having my usual psycho attacks.. worse cz the only person who can calm me wont talk to me. And I try to think past it, but I cant, I am stuck. And I have nobody to talk to. Whole day I spent crying myself to sleep, waking up, checking phone, repeat. now I cant even sleep...
    bujji14 bujji14
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 9

    :( i wish i didnt exist anymore.

    i am not even existing. i feel like if i didnt exist anymore.. nothing will really changed or no one will know that i dont anymore existing cus im not really existing. i feel so emotional today. after... after.. after... afterr.... ;< thats a secret. i wish i wasnt that nosy...
    yayepisoverimsad yayepisoverimsad
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Apr 7

    I Am Sad.

    I am sad for me. And I am sad for you, too. I am sad that the earth is hurting, and so are her people. I am sad that corporations and government are synonymous. I am sad that millions of people have nothing to eat. I am sad that trees are being cut down every second. I am sad...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    8 Responses Jan 28, 2013

    Does anyone have those nights

    where you just lay in your bed and curl up in a ball, wrapped up in a blanket and you just cry? :(
    Foreverdeleted Foreverdeleted
    18-21, F
    10 Responses Aug 31, 2014

    Life is kicking me in the heart!

    My mother who is ill. My sister did not tell me she was ill and in the hospital, due to her hate for me. My dearest friend, OldMountainMan here, who is dying of cancer. He won't be coming home from the hospital. I am heading back to my home area to be with them. To see what I...
    MorningBreeze MorningBreeze
    56-60, F
    14 Responses Jul 28, 2015

    Your parents always tell you to say hi to the

    kid⁰who sits alone at lunch but no one tells you what to do⁰when that kid is you.
    iamsal iamsal
    13-15, F
    3 Responses Apr 21

    EP is like a ghost town,

    and it's getting quieter every day :( I miss my EP community!
    GypsyMiss GypsyMiss
    36-40, F
    6 Responses Apr 4
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