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    One of the ladies I support has been absent

    from program for the last two weeks. I have been asking for updates on her condition daily. Today my worries about her livelihood were confirmed. She's very ill and is currently being admitted into hospital. She has a rather large mass within her digestive system. It sounds...
    snowberry75 snowberry75 36-40, F 4 Responses Jun 19

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    I feel like I wear a mask I don't

    even know who the real me is. I feel like crying, this isn't who or even what I was supposed to be I'm not happy at all. I barely have friends, just because I have a smile face people think I'm happy or I instantly have no problems. I feel like screaming at them to fix me, I'm...
    deleted deleted 26-30 16 Responses Nov 24, 2014

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    Does anyone have those nights

    where you just lay in your bed and curl up in a ball, wrapped up in a blanket and you just cry? :(
    Faiithh Faiithh 16-17, F 9 Responses Aug 31, 2014

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    Endless Tears

      To cry alone.  It is better then the rain.   At least then no one can see my hurt.   It seems the cold of winter comes through to the center of my soul so often.   It comes more then once a year.     The sadness in my heart; it is...
    stormynightsky stormynightsky 22-25, F 11 Responses Apr 13, 2009

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    I finally was able to sleep good

    for the first time in a long time and woke up to find my cute little terrier Spot dead I keep thinking it is my fault I should have heard him yelping for help. But I heard nothing I am the worst dog owner ever could not protect one little dog. My head is in a dark place right...
    aurawolf999 aurawolf999 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    All of It

    You called me up at 1:30 this morning, so drunk you were repeating yourself over and over.  I love you too.  You can't just "unlove" someone, especially someone you write songs for after fifteen years.  Oh *****, you've had an ankle bracelet on for five...
    puck61 puck61 51-55, M 17 Responses Nov 25, 2008

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    I carry a great amount of sadness within me,

    but I usually keep it buried and rarely take notice of it or let it show. I hope one day I can set it free when I have achieved what's necessarily and can live my life the way I want to ;)
    Eir89 Eir89 36-40, F 7 Responses Jun 7

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    RickaylaBeard RickaylaBeard 18-21, F 7 Responses Nov 2, 2014

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    I have no practical or useful talents.

    I feel like a loser. What job could I ever get, simultaneously be really good at and enjoy? Right now it feels like none.
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 19

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    Sometimes the people

    who look the happiest might be hiding behind the worst pain :(
    Whothehellcares1 Whothehellcares1 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 21, 2014

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    I have been insulted

    and bullied a lot in the past and I have been feeling and thinking negative for a long time and I talk to myself repeating the things I said or wanted to say constantly. I want to become a manga artist but I keep wasting my time acting out or thinking negative. I even waste time...
    FoxFan64 FoxFan64 13-15, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I want to be happy again.

    .. It sucks that I see parents with their children and I cant see me with mine. I know that I wanted a better life for them but I wonder if I made a mistake.. I would love to see them but I cant... All I have of them is their toys, photos, and memories...
    tasha2kids tasha2kids 26-30, F Aug 18

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    So it's pretty sad when someone you think values

    and cares about you just walks away or stops talking without closure. For someone like me, it makes me go back and question every word, encounter or if anything was ever real or if I was only used. Hmm, I have a lot more faith in people I think and sometimes my kindness and care...
    sweetartventure sweetartventure 31-35, F 22 Responses Mar 10

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    Playing music at long term care in the hospital?

    It's a hard thing to do. But the last thing to go is the sense of sound :')
    AdolfHipster15 AdolfHipster15 16-17, M 1 Response Dec 5, 2014

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    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 5 Responses Aug 17

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    When somebody tells you

    that you always mess everything up, your worthless, and they hate you all the time. You kinda start to believe it
    KylieLaine KylieLaine 18-21, F 11 Responses Jul 18, 2014

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    This lack of appetite thing is really

    frustrating. I hardly ever want to eat anything anymore. I'll get hungry still but food is so unappealing to me. Sometimes thinking about eating food makes me feel nauseous even, depending on what it is. I still make myself eat regularly because I don't want to starve myself but...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    People who spends more time

    and energy into repressing and hiding their thoughts and feelings are most likely to be more depressed than those who admits they're depressed. I'm one of them cause I hate whining and I despise attention seeking. Fvck it. I'll just ugh. Go and sleep and hopefully I don't feel...
    sarasakun sarasakun 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    If someone really wanted you,

    they'd actually put some effort into trying to get your attention and make sacrifices for you. They wouldn't just tell you, they want you; they'd show you in every little way possible that they want you.
    DeathThrone DeathThrone 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 13

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    So I just watched "the angriest man in Brooklyn.

    " And I actually cried.. Like.. Idk.. I just really miss robin Williams :/
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 5 Responses Dec 20, 2014

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    There was no guy sitting under my Christmas

    tree this morning :( Santa didn't get me what I asked for :'(
    bluegirlie98 bluegirlie98 16-17, F 12 Responses Dec 25, 2014

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    DessyLove DessyLove 18-21, F Aug 11, 2014

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    Some of you will know about my love affair with

    apples..an affair that has lasted nigh on 25 years. An "old" (now departed RIP)friend used to call me Adrienne Oliver (thanks Agatha Christie)due to the madness (called scattiness) and presence of apples everywhere I travel. Anyway-after another night of searing Apple related...
    GalateaSpheres GalateaSpheres 36-40, F 16 Responses Jul 26

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    saramae01 saramae01 13-15, F 7 Responses Jun 25, 2014

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    so finally...mum said she hates me.

    ...and i can see that in her eyes too...the only person in the world i live for now hates me...i am just a bloody burden to her whos responsibilities she has to bore....i hate myself even more now...i live for my mum...her dreams...her happiness...i can't even imagine of hurting...
    Ahaanaa Ahaanaa 13-15, F 6 Responses 3 days ago

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    I Am Sad.

    I am sad for me. And I am sad for you, too. I am sad that the earth is hurting, and so are her people. I am sad that corporations and government are synonymous. I am sad that millions of people have nothing to eat. I am sad that trees are being cut down every second. I am sad...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Jan 28, 2013

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    I only wanna a family my own too !

    Women should just have kids and husband I think ! Since I study for a really long time , end up I have nothing ! Just me ! So **** up !! Why life screwed me up ! I do not understand why !! I better just die !! Maybe suicide is the reason !! I am sad and hate my life !! I...
    NoneEver NoneEver 22-25, F 1 Response a week ago

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    That pain in your chest

    when you know that you're just their second option, or maybe the last option they have. When that person doesn't care about your feelings, doesn't care you're reaching out for theirs. When you have to accept your condition and truth you'll face sooner. I wish my heart...
    Ikimoem0 Ikimoem0 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 25

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    :............( :( :( :(

    why does thus always happen toe??? :.....(
    babe25 babe25 22-25, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    sarahbear420 sarahbear420 16-17, F 5 Responses May 15, 2014

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    ellcios ellcios 18-21, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I am just crying my eyes out

    as I write. I feel so empty inside.... Why was I born? Why would I have been chosen to live such a life?! I hate myself!!!! My dad came in my room, as usual. That disgusting, scumbag of him!!!! I HATE HIM I HATE HIM!!!!!!!!! He did me... but he was so slow and gentle and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 17 Responses Jul 23

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    I wish I had someone in my extended family

    who I felt close to. I read about all these people who have special bonds with their extended family members and that's just not the case with me. Makes family reunions (which happen maybe once a year) more awkward than pleasant and heartwarming. Ah well.
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I was browsing around on YouTube last night

    when I found an extremely terrifying video of a massive explosion that erupted in Tianjin, China. It happened on August 12 this year. This happened around two weeks ago. I am shocked by the magnitude of this explosion. So many people died and many others were injured by it. I...
    lonewolf2323 lonewolf2323 18-21, M 4 days ago

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    Just haven't been able to eat properly due to

    something wrong with my ribs. Yesterday i saw a bulge where my ribs suppose to be and it was red and sore and i couldn't breathe. I don't eat much or move much. And because of widespread swelling I've been feeling really low about my weight loss efforts. I can go from looking...
    HigherCalling HigherCalling 26-30, F Aug 20

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    I'm not happy right now

    but at the same time im beginning to see that im clinging to the idea of him because i dont believe i will find anyone else. In the end it was me with the problem. I knew from the start that i did not love him. He was nice to me, handsome and funny. But thats not enough. It...
    HigherCalling HigherCalling 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    This morning were putting down one of our dogs

    down because she's severely diabetic. So it's gonna be rough today.
    cartoonfan4ever cartoonfan4ever 18-21, M 14 Responses Mar 14

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    The first girl I ever made out with just died

    from cancer. My father is nearly dead from cancer and my mother in law is soon to follow. Also related to cancer. These are the first death and imminent deaths of people I am close to and really care about. I talk to my father and mil , I tell them I love them, visit them, all...
    Rerelaxed Rerelaxed 36-40, M Aug 19

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    Mommy leaving to go to London šŸ˜“ i wanna go

    so bad šŸ˜­šŸ˜­āœˆļø
    JiggyIndiii JiggyIndiii 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 18

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    So Sad

    I waited for you for so long. I watched my phone, every night, waiting on a phone call that somewhere in the back of my mind I knew Iā€™d never get. I just wanted to hear you say that you were sorry for what you did, and that maybe you wanted to get back together. I hoped and...
    Timothy4321 Timothy4321 18-21, M 4 Responses Dec 10, 2012

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    I thought I knew better,

    but I was wrong. Months ago I had found out a friend lied. Fast forward to now, and I found out by accident this time that my same friend lied again. Will I ever learn? I hope so. :/
    lonelytwilite lonelytwilite 51-55, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Life is kicking me in the heart!

    My mother who is ill. My sister did not tell me she was ill and in the hospital, due to her hate for me. My dearest friend, OldMountainMan here, who is dying of cancer. He won't be coming home from the hospital. I am heading back to my home area to be with them. To see what I...
    MorningBreeze MorningBreeze 56-60, F 19 Responses Jul 28

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    I feel like I just don't really care about

    people outside of my immediate family. My siblings are the same way. We moved so often as kids everyone else was just temporary, what good was it to become deeply attached to anyone? To anyone else who's moved a lot do you also feel this way? Like I have a lot of friends and...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I'm Sorry My Sadness Makes You Uncomfortable

    I'm not "fine". I'm not even okay and I'm certainly not good. What's worse is that I haven't felt that I have the right to feel anything less than "okay". I have felt as if I don't have the right to feel sad. I have been shamed for feeling sad. I have been invalidated in such...
    WalterMighty WalterMighty 22-25 10 Responses Jul 10, 2013

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    I had planned to not write

    for a while but I am deeply agonised. I need a catharsis for my pathos and writing is the only way I can find that. I feel alone and depressed. Maybe I am PMSing but I have just reasons to be upset. My mother is treating me coldly and all that her insensitivity is causing me is...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 18

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    I hereby confess I failed to appreciate the

    true value of every single moment until it all became a memory. Missing every single moment of joy and true bliss. Memories that never wane.
    anathema09 anathema09 26-30, M 2 Responses 5 hrs ago

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