I Am Scared I Won't Be There

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 37 People

    The Goal, Don't Doubt It Can Be Reached.

    I imagine my goal. A place I will be at. Physical and literal in terms of a location, but also abstract in terms of a part of my life journey. Unrealistic. A gorgeous mountainous area, with woods, waterfalls, lakes, with a diverse community enough to qualify as ...
    Jiemusu Jiemusu
    22-25, M
    Aug 10, 2010

    Same Nightmare

    I have the same night mare form time to time that I am alone in my home and I have missed everyone and that they are gone forever and I never got to say goodbye    
    librakitty05 librakitty05
    41-45, F
    6 Responses Apr 15, 2009

    What Happens?

    Sometimes feeling hopeful doesnt work. And when fear strikes, where do end up? Where do we go for help? Encouragement? What happens when I'M gone?
    jeffery4ever jeffery4ever
    13-15, F
    Apr 15, 2009

    I Guess I'm Thinking Of The Rapture

    or Heaven...I'm scared I would have done myself in with my lack of faith...I am sooooo torn these days with God and the afterlife issues...but in the end, I want to be in the right place....but right now, I'm full of doubt and bitterness and frustration about my spirituality
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Oct 12, 2009

    When I Lose My Dad.......

    I know he hasn't been the best father in the world. He definitely won't win any awards, but he's the only father I've ever had. I love him so much, doesn't matter to me that I haven't seen him in close to 15 years. It doesn't matter that we rarily talk. I don't want him dying...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 25, 2009

    Please Don't Go...

    Don't, not before I get there...please. I have to hold your hand and kiss your face... I willl go insane if I'm not there.
    TheRealWoman TheRealWoman
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Apr 15, 2009

    to walk that last mile.

     to pick you up,to comfort and support.to hear you.to carry you when you are to weak.and to protect.to keep you warm in the cold.my strength is fading.i must be quick.the road is narrow and so long.i must prepare you for what you will face.my child,never lose hope.i will be...
    ghostofmyself ghostofmyself
    36-40
    Nov 11, 2009

    Related Experiences

    ok, this will be my last post. i just want to thank everybody to make this page a special part in my life. & i want to give my best thanks to my best friend here "toniyl", you are...
    Dolunay80 Dolunay80
    31-35, M
    Apr 21
    I I love her but she didn't love me back. I think of her consistently and not just when I'm lonely, even when I'm busy midday. I try my best to stop or hinder how I feel, but I can...
    LostHaze LostHaze
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Apr 20
    Today i meet another doctor. What i thought would be another person saying there is nothing indicating that something is wrong. instead i get a doctor who tells me this is the...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 20
     But it happens, so I'll end this two year with  the song what impressed me most during the more than two year I was here,  it was posted  by one of...
    kingkyrie kingkyrie
    51-55, M
    1 Response Apr 20
    I hate calling him Dad because there's a difference in being a father and being a dad; He definitely ain't my dad. It just ****** me off when I clean up after him and he goes to my...
    Stormeyes Stormeyes
    18-21, F
    Apr 20
    I am a 15 year old girl with two almost divorced parents. I am so sad and I have been so depressed during the past two weeks I didn't know what to do. Seeing my mom hurting and...
    wondur wondur
    13-15, F
    1 Response Apr 19
    Simple and sincere language. I wish more people would listen to a song like this, because it deserves some ears. The content is not rly that applicable, but I'll set this as a...
    SparkofDecency SparkofDecency
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 19
    I am genuinely in love with Anne Frank. She was beautiful, witty, and graceful young woman who light was snuffed out far too early. I frequently fantasize about being Peter van...
    jasonBK1 jasonBK1
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Apr 19
    I like this girl in my tech school but I can't tell her because she wouldn't care. She talks to a lot of guys and craziest part is we have a snapchat and we had a great convo on...
    YourSecretAdmire22 YourSecretAdmire22
    22-25, M
    1 Response Apr 18
    I cant talk to anyone in person who I think will understand my thoughts and where I am in my life! I keep quiet!
    S1885 S1885
    46-50, M
    1 Response Apr 18
    there is a loud scary thunderstorm and I can't go to sleep. I wish I had someone to hold me.:'(
    jesusfan1999 jesusfan1999
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 17
    Sometime it's too much too take in. I don't know what to say and all I do is smile.. I don't even feel like m doing anything different ... I m just trying to be there for them...
    Dezeena Dezeena
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 16
    Watching all these ghost videos and murders and urban legends and videos where people say in the future people will find out and I'm just over here rethinking my whole existence...
    Botdf1shutup Botdf1shutup
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 16
    always guards me at night! me scaredy cat
    yayepisoverimsad yayepisoverimsad
    22-25, F
    Apr 16
    I've been having the same nightmares for the last couple of years now, but today it was a bit different. In the dream, I'm usually in my bed trying to fall asleep, but something...
    Letmebee Letmebee
    22-25, F
    Apr 15
    okay where to start where to start when I was about 25 years old I lost a whole bunch of weight I believe it was a hundred and eighty seven pounds made me feel really good about...
    sonnycapallero85 sonnycapallero85
    31-35, M
    Apr 15
    I've been crying my eyes out because in this 2yr relationship I fell in love. I have never loved anyone like that. I didn't care about his background, I didn't care that everyone...
    linzzy linzzy
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Apr 15
    I have two different perspectives on my thoughts of young adult relationships. There can be one boy I fall for and get screwed over in the end. My emotions are all over the place...
    Thatgurl17 Thatgurl17
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 14
    I've been through a blender, you could say. Age 2, I'm diagnosed with a genetic eye condition that eats away at my vision. Age 6, I'm diagnosed with mild Asperger's Syndrome. Age...
    AsYetNameless AsYetNameless
    13-15, T
    6 Responses Apr 14
    I am unsure if I am scared of falling in love... or that I am not ready to fall in love again. Recently out of a 5 year long term relationship with an ex I met in my early 20's...
    JfromV JfromV
    26-30, F
    Apr 14
    Feint- We Won't Be Alone https://youtu.be/SItIaWAjI_4
    ArrowPewPew ArrowPewPew
    18-21
    Apr 13
    I am alone with nobody in my life who I can trust. I'm scared to live but scared to die. I don't want to live, but I don't want to cause my family that pain. or maybe it's just...
    Desperate10 Desperate10
    22-25, F
    Apr 13
    "My I'm said when you want to do bad you won't get far in life". That's true.. right now. I've screwed up. I've done some really stupid things for the past 6+ months. Ever since...
    LeahLovee LeahLovee
    70+, F
    2 Responses Apr 12
    I got hired for a paraprofession teaching position. I asked a question yeaterday about some advice and someone said, "Wow, you wanna be a teacher? That sucks. They dont get paid...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 12
    When don't I hate you? I should, I really should. But I don't even now, when I really think about it I should. I should hate you because every time we get "close" we are pushed...
    yalefred yalefred
    22-25, M
    Apr 11
    When don't I hate you? I should, I really should. But I don't even now, when I really think about it I should. I should hate you because every time we get "close" we are pushed...
    yalefred yalefred
    22-25, M
    Apr 11
    I got in major, major trouble with a teacher last week and i just came back from a huge punishment. they yelled at me to the point where i was scared that they would get physical...
    PandaBirdable PandaBirdable
    13-15, F
    1 Response Apr 11
    Nine important facts to remember as we grow older: Number 9 - Death is the number 1 killer in the world. Number 8 - Life is sexually transmitted. Number 7 - Good health is merely...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Apr 11
    so I was on my daily jog and out of nowhere there was a really bad smell and mosquitos started attacking me hell I started running to my house and taking off my sweater and my...
    PrettyEvelin PrettyEvelin
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 11
    I eventually want to get married to the right person. With that said do you think it's foolish to be with someone you really like but don't want to marry? Would I be wasting my...
    thenicholasexperience thenicholasexperience
    31-35, M
    7 Responses Apr 11
    What is the purpose of life? Why do I even exist in the first place? 18th of March, 2016. I'll never forget that day. My instincts told me from that day and onwards, everything...
    Violetblossoms Violetblossoms
    18-21, F
    Apr 11
    I honestly don't feel the need to, just keep everything natural
    BecauseTheWindIsHigh BecauseTheWindIsHigh
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Apr 10
    An open letter to ExperienceProject team; The day I received an email with a subject "Until We Meet Again", I had a fuzzy feeling but doubting that it's bad. Until I read it, and...
    Beliebingxx Beliebingxx
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Apr 10
    Well last night I was talking to an old friend (white girl) we were very close back in school, actually we were a thing and that feeling is still kinder there. I spoke to her...
    chrihey chrihey
    16-17, M
    Apr 10
    ok.... so I thought I had friends I found out with a hard tight way. years ago a few months before my sister died I had a few freinds over. jon and ron two brothers who came from...
    dailyracingdadboy dailyracingdadboy
    26-30, M
    Apr 9
    my best friend is a beautiful woman and we would be an amazing couple but she's terrified of losing people she really loves so she won't date them. thus her love life is **** and I...
    monkeyl1v3r monkeyl1v3r
    36-40, M
    1 Response Apr 9
    My best friend is moving schools AND moving houses. She's all I've had at school and if she goes, I'll have no one at all. I'll have to go back to sitting alone reading, not...
    AReadingWriter AReadingWriter
    13-15, F
    Apr 9
    I'm nice and an *******. I manipulate others to get what I want because I want more. I've been hurt. I've been back stabbed. I've been robbed left naked by the wayside. I'm done...
    DaFufinator DaFufinator
    22-25, M
    Apr 9
    Ever since I was in school I had always been an outsider. I was always the weird kid that nobody talked to. I had a few friends throughout my school years but those friendships...
    Heretic9320 Heretic9320
    18-21, M
    Apr 8
    And the one person that told me he'd be in my life and wasn't leaving, left. I feel so incredibly empty. I have no one now. Officially friendless. But I guess I knew this day would...
    battlewounds battlewounds
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 8
    This story was flagged and removed from another website, so I might as well post it here. I won't mention the name of the site, as that would be inappropriate. The story was...
    Rutterman Rutterman
    36-40, M
    9 Responses Apr 7
    I never used to be that scared person but now it feels like the only emotions I have are fear and sadness. I'm so afraid of becoming homeless one day and having no money. Failing...
    FatsXbambino FatsXbambino
    16-17, F
    Apr 7
    I feel dumb saying this. I am scared to revise and study for my A level exams. They are like a month away and I cant do it I just feel so stupid. I'm afraid of failing and getting...
    FatsXbambino FatsXbambino
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 7
    It is sad to see the Experience Project die. I came here in 2014, and at that point, I was about one year into a serious illness that destroyed - and continues to impair - a lot...
    pone22 pone22
    41-45, M
    6 Responses Apr 7
    poem small little child crying softly nowhere to call home why don't you just go? I don't have a place that I can call home
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 7
    i can't decide which is worse, being lied to or finding out that he's playing one person off against another, then throwing one to the lions just because he can. Worse still is...
    LoneSouls LoneSouls
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Apr 7
    the way things keep going the more I loose hope. I lie and say I trust it all but I really really don't. you aren't the one I thought I knew you were someone completely new. as...
    learellie learellie
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 7
    she won't let me ask a question about Charlie Sheen
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Apr 7
    There is an grassy path that leads to the woods that's enticing me. Sometimes, I will start down the path, admiring the beautiful flowers, but then I would get scared. I can't see...
    BernadetteAshley BernadetteAshley
    31-35, F
    1 Response Apr 6
    I'm confused because I'm falling for my friend. We've been friends since high school. And I just realized that I'm treating her differently than my other best friends now that we...
    reps reps
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 6
    Tomorrow is the day... Tomorrow, I have to let my child go into the hands of God and have an abortion. I never wanted this to happen. But, when there are complications within my...
    kmar2 kmar2
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Apr 6
    I'm so scared of growing up... Looking at my parent's lives... I'm just really scared that life is gonna be crap.. I can't even sit in an entire OSAP seminar... It's so...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Apr 6
    I recently confessed to the girl I loved for three years. She questioned me about my confession and towards the end of our discussion, she said "no, it won't work out because your...
    Adoflamingo Adoflamingo
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Apr 6
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