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I Am Scared of Being Happy

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    what goes up must come down.

    the higher you get the harder the fall. and that terrifies me.
    bonedecay bonedecay 13-15, F Aug 11, 2014

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    I Don't Deserve It

    I'm not writing this for anyone's pity, I'm writing it because it's simply the truth. Even though I want to be happy, GENUINELY happy, every time I get close to feeling so, I get plagued with memories of how I've caused my loved ones so much pain with all of the stupid things I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Mar 25, 2012

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    I'm not scared of being happy- I just feel

    guilty being happy when the people I care about are so sad.
    TaliaRice TaliaRice 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 14, 2014

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    I Used To Love Flying Kites.

    It seems the more i look forward to something, the more i have to worry about it not happening. Whenever i get excited for something, i feel guilty about being happy, i havent done anything to feel guilty about though. i noticed it when the other day, i thought about how i...
    Dandelion11 Dandelion11 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 22, 2010

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    Does This Make Any Sense, Not to Me.

    As much as I hate being miserable, being happy scares the shat out of me.  If I'm miserable, I don't have further to fall.   But most of the time when I'm happy, it's taken away from me.  So, I struggle to be contented and put on the best happy facade I can...
    BlasphemousAngel BlasphemousAngel 31-35, M 1 Response May 17, 2009

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    ... or actually basically always. But I try hard not to show it. The truth is: I feel ashamed for not being loved. I feel ashamed for living alone, without a loving partner...
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    well not really, being happy makes you vaunerable to deception... the happier you are the more likely you are to be blinded by it and miss what is really going on... i would...
    nzginger nzginger 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 12

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    High school these past 3 months has been so stressful that I find myself more and more not being happy and instead in my room alone. I already denounced a friendship with a close...
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    Idk I just can't sleep anymore I keep waking up early, I keep having bad thoughts come back then they go away everything is just killing me inside Idk why but I'm just happy to...
    shyguy747 shyguy747 13-15, M Mar 12

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    i think i finely have my life together, i am depressed, but i want to chance that. im quiting smoking weed daily(i havnt been able for a week anyways) same with drinking. im...
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    My partner and I have been together almost 2 years now. They have been seriously tough we have had more downs then up even before we started dating. I am madly in love with him and...
    SecretAbby SecretAbby 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 5

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    strawberryblonde89 strawberryblonde89 26-30, F 3 Responses Mar 15

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    After almost 4 yrs of lies, lack of affection, communication, and attention, and an almost nonexistant sex life I am ready to divorce. I have talked to my husband about spending...
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    I hate the word SKINNY. People talk about my body so much that I'm crying by the end of today. Just when I get all happy someone brings me down. I've tried so hard to laugh with...
    Whitney4234 Whitney4234 22-25, F Mar 13

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    yup. i have definitely fallen in love with him. it drives me crazy, and probably him crazy, too. i just want him. i want every part of him. i want him every minute of the day. i...
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    I hate being gay because it means that I will be alone for the rest of my life. The feeling of liking someone is so wonderful yet you should stop right aways cause that guy that...
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    You might ask why I am scared? Well, I don't like the direction that the world is headed in, not only for the environment, but the way that people don't get along with each other...
    mavrick0417 mavrick0417 36-40, M 8 Responses Mar 17

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    I love the rush of being scared. My heart beats fast, it's hard to breathe, I react quickly.
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    As most of you gurls know I worked in my younger years as a shampoogirl in Miss Judy's beauty parlour. A job I loved and miss very much. Well to start this story on most Saturdays...
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    My psychologist and me get along, but he's extremely judgemental and really gets on my nerves at times and is seriously such an a**hole. The other day, I told him about me wanting...
    MegaManZero97 MegaManZero97 16-17, M 1 Response Mar 22

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    I wish people would stop labeling being single the worst thing in the world. There are a lot of things that are way more worse than being single. A lot of people are not mentally...
    Peridot22 Peridot22 22-25, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I am scared. I've been sexually, physically, and mentally abused by a family member along with being bullied at school. This is the cause f my anxiety. I can't handle rough housing...
    CorieLynn CorieLynn 13-15 3 Responses Mar 2

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    I'm 15 and scared of the dark. I get really paranoid at night. I constantly feel as if I am being watched and I sometimes hear voices. There is this elderly lady who haunts my...
    sailboats34 sailboats34 13-15, M Mar 17

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    I have been burned many times. been though bad break ups. I have been hurt so many times. I am scared of getting hurt.. I love men.. I can't be with a man... but thought of being...
    missjdragon20 missjdragon20 26-30, F 1 day ago

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    I hope you can't even imagine the pain I went through. People say there's 3 types of abuse... Take em all, put em in a blender, mix it and out comes a big disgusting mush of pain...
    bluecupcakes bluecupcakes 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 14

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