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I Am Scared of Being Happy

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    Does This Make Any Sense, Not to Me.

    As much as I hate being miserable, being happy scares the shat out of me.  If I'm miserable, I don't have further to fall.   But most of the time when I'm happy, it's taken away from me.  So, I struggle to be contented and put on the best happy facade I can...
    BlasphemousAngel BlasphemousAngel 31-35, M 1 Response May 17, 2009

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    I Don't Deserve It

    I'm not writing this for anyone's pity, I'm writing it because it's simply the truth. Even though I want to be happy, GENUINELY happy, every time I get close to feeling so, I get plagued with memories of how I've caused my loved ones so much pain with all of the stupid things I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Mar 25, 2012

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    I'm not scared of being happy- I just feel

    guilty being happy when the people I care about are so sad.
    TaliaRice TaliaRice 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 14, 2014

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    I Used To Love Flying Kites.

    It seems the more i look forward to something, the more i have to worry about it not happening. Whenever i get excited for something, i feel guilty about being happy, i havent done anything to feel guilty about though. i noticed it when the other day, i thought about how i...
    Dandelion11 Dandelion11 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 22, 2010

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    what goes up must come down.

    the higher you get the harder the fall. and that terrifies me.
    bonedecay bonedecay 13-15, F Aug 11, 2014

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    Driftingminds Driftingminds 16-17, F Dec 31, 2014

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    Its kinda my unwritten life story, being leftbehind. People around me would just move on with their lives and be happy whether by having soo many people around them to care about...
    TheLeftBehind TheLeftBehind 16-17, M 6 hrs ago

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    I'm gona get my final exam results tomorrow and I'm ******* scared :'( I know nothing can be done right now but I just wish to see myself being happy and not sad once I get my...
    amazingmoment90 amazingmoment90 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 5

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    Well I am 19 years old, I've been in 2 abusive relation ships one for 3 years and one im still in every time I try to get into a serious relation ship im always scared and don't...
    alexis121 alexis121 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 2

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    Being happy is a state of mind,making someone happy, is very good luck.Happiness comes by believing that you're happy.You can't make someone else happy.All you can do is present...
    AfanOfbigNaturals AfanOfbigNaturals 41-45, M 6 days ago

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    Just be happy. Sounds too simplistic, doesn't it? But, in actuality, we can have much more happiness if we choose to consider things from a positive perspective.Everyone...
    pfloyd121 pfloyd121 46-50, M 6 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    Sometimes I wonder: Am I ever going to be truly happy with my life? Honestly I don't think I have ever been truly happy. I know that we can't go thru life just being happy all of...
    vikkianne vikkianne 31-35, F Jan 15

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    it definitely isnt easy. just seeing you message me. i could see my heart beating through my chest. i dont know how to feel, what to say. because i love you. but i feel as though...
    Ebolaa Ebolaa 16-17, M 1 Response Jan 6

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    its only after the relationship before you realize how happy you were. and i miss being happy. a relationship is like a story. it has a beginning, middle, and end. the worst thing...
    Ebolaa Ebolaa 16-17, M 1 Response Jan 2

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    Things have a funny way of working themselves out in life, I never thought it would happen to me..but it did, eventually. I haven't been on ep in SUCH a long while and my life has...
    followthewhiterabbit followthewhiterabbit 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 12

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    Life is not always not always what one wants it to be., but to make the best of it as it is the only way of being happy. - Jennie Jerome Churchill
    expressomarkie expressomarkie 46-50, M 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I know it's pretty hard to make it work but it worth a shot lol! So this is it! I mean being happy is mentally good and the more you know how to deal with stuff the more you become...
    Sparklecat Sparklecat 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 2

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    Being happy doesn't do how I feel justice I can't actually find the words to describe how I feel amazing, wonderful, ecstatic are some I can think off and all of this because of...
    Sirwithherkey Sirwithherkey 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 7

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    Sometimes just the attempt at being happy for only a few seconds can be such a hassle. I've been this way for a while now and it's just eating away at me, will I feel this way...
    smokebombtom smokebombtom 18-21, M Jan 13

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    I have been with my bf on and off for 9 years I am still a virgin , he has cheated the entire time but I still love him…I wonder if Im too scared to have sex or if Im emotionally...
    Trixxy22 Trixxy22 22-25, F 19 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    Think my eyes are the only good thins I got cos I get lots of comments about them wish I was bit hotter so I could have a gf and am 320lbs and am happy being that big just dunno...
    thebigscottishguy thebigscottishguy 22-25, M 2 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    Please would you help me to forward my email to doctor chamath rampathirana My name is evangelia amirhom and 2011 I was a patient under the care of doctor chamath rampathirana and...
    newyear15 newyear15 31-35, F 5 hrs ago

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    ohhh yesss.... it is fun and exciting being so naked around here
    curvyhornyboi curvyhornyboi 22-25, M 2 hrs ago

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    The Shower Hey guys, before I tell you my story you must know that I`m from germany and my english isn`t perfect. Maybe there some mistakes in my text. Some months ago I was on a...
    Mickie19 Mickie19 18-21, M 25 mins ago

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    i dont know what my futures gonna be like. not in general. with you.. maybe we'll end up being something even more than just boyfriend and girlfriend. but maybe im just getting my...
    Ebolaa Ebolaa 16-17, M Jan 7

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    You know that thing where, for days and weeks, and maybe even longer, you are strolling along in life, thinking and maybe even knowing that I think I might be doing more than okay...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    Its not so much scared, its more worried. We're going to have a natural birth when we get pregnant. I'm kind of high risk (I have epilepsy and anemia) so there's one thing to be...
    WildFlowerChild19 WildFlowerChild19 18-21, F Jan 4

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    I am really scare and depressed .I may be smiling in the outside but in the inside i am just slowly breaking and falling apart .Last year since I gotten depression it really hit me...
    Appolo123 Appolo123 16-17, M 4 days ago

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    I felt like I wanted to cry at church today... saw something that made my heart warm into tears. It was a scene of a family, so loving, so touching. A mother, a father and their...
    AB2WUS AB2WUS 22-25 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    Although I am lonely and crave love, I am scared of a relationship. I grew up in an extremely dysfunctional abusive family and was the scapegoat. I literally never saw my parents...
    lonelygurl92 lonelygurl92 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    All my life I've played it safe and never did anything dangerous like drugs i dont even like to drink that much but i have had my moments i try to play it safe then my friends call...
    leon625 leon625 18-21, M Dec 27, 2014

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    Finally I got a scholarship to study abroad. I am soooo happy. But this morning it just hit me. I have to leave home and fly 4000 km to be in a new country. I have to take care of...
    Onamika Onamika 31-35, F Jan 8

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    m moving out when I turn 18, and I'm absolutely terrified. I'm... feeling really small right now, so I guess that's why I'm writing this. My story is long, but relevant. I was...
    theydunnomyname theydunnomyname 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 8

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    I'm scared of guys I don't know why I just always have been its stopped me getting in to relationships I'm shy aswell. There is one guy I'm not scared of and he's asked me out...
    anestacia anestacia 18-21, F Dec 30, 2014

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    It seems like i have had a crush on this one guy for a while now. i have never really liked someone before I never thought that it could really hurt. i know that we will never be...
    LuvlyLola LuvlyLola 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 11

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    My dad tried to strangle me today....on Christmas...he was going to kill me.... But my mom who was coming to get me to take me and my brother home....to her house my parents are...
    Alli13146 Alli13146 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 25, 2014

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    For those of you who don't know, in July I got pregnant and had a miscarriage at about five weeks. For the last few months, I've been dealing with it as best I can. I have...
    ReesesPeaces ReesesPeaces 16-17, F Dec 27, 2014

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    Recently, I started having symptoms of cancer from swollen red painful lymph nodes, night sweats, bone pain and more. The news is bad. In scared. I truly have never felt this way...
    Myfateismyown Myfateismyown 36-40, M 1 Response Jan 4

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    I'm embarrassed of how scared I am to come out as bi... to even my best friend who knows me better than anyone. I'm scared that when I finally do, everyone will say they already...
    EileenDover EileenDover 22-25, F Jan 8

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    I want to come out and tell them that im bi and that they need to accept that But they are... 'hands on' people and im scared that they'll get violent with me for not being the...
    xXxMarissaxXx xXxMarissaxXx 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 9

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    Never be scared to fall in love especially when the person shares qualities you find attractive. Being scared I borderline pathetic because you are stopping you self from pursuing...
    Deuz Deuz 18-21, M Jan 12

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    So very scared, I get attached to random people I feel I need. Random people get attached to me. For instance one insecure and very nice gal wanted to be friends. OK well we...
    YeahthatsMylife YeahthatsMylife 26-30, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I love being alone and like not hanging around other people because I feel comfortable enough to do things by and for myself, but the times I do get lonely I get kinda sad but then...
    jynx1 jynx1 18-21, F 14 hrs ago

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    I'm sure you don't care, but i'll tell you anyway. I suffer from chronic pain and digestive issues. Basicially an Autoimmune disease. It controls my life. I am not well enough to...
    HigherCalling HigherCalling 22-25, F 2 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    Yes I am a being of light and darkness and I am a god.I hold the power of light and darkness. Human beings create there own destiny.You will know if your destiny is full of light...
    Nemesis456 Nemesis456 26-30, M 7 hrs ago

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    Scaredd Of Helloo, Aintt Scaredd Of GoodByeee ...
    conniee3 conniee3 18-21, F Dec 25, 2014