I Am Scared of Being Happy

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    what goes up must come down.

    the higher you get the harder the fall. and that terrifies me.
    bonedecay bonedecay
    16-17, F
    Aug 11, 2014

    Does This Make Any Sense, Not to Me.

    As much as I hate being miserable, being happy scares the shat out of me.  If I'm miserable, I don't have further to fall.   But most of the time when I'm happy, it's taken away from me.  So, I struggle to be contented and put on the best happy facade I can...
    BlasphemousAngel BlasphemousAngel
    31-35, M
    1 Response May 17, 2009

    I Don't Deserve It

    I'm not writing this for anyone's pity, I'm writing it because it's simply the truth. Even though I want to be happy, GENUINELY happy, every time I get close to feeling so, I get plagued with memories of how I've caused my loved ones so much pain with all of the stupid things I...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Mar 25, 2012

    it never fails, when I'm happy

    or something good happens, in less then 24 hours there is always something that will hit hard, a lie, a death, sickness etc. just last more than one day please!
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Nov 17, 2015

    I'm not scared of being happy- I just feel

    guilty being happy when the people I care about are so sad.
    TaliaRice TaliaRice
    18-21, F
    Dec 14, 2014

    I Used To Love Flying Kites.

    It seems the more i look forward to something, the more i have to worry about it not happening. Whenever i get excited for something, i feel guilty about being happy, i havent done anything to feel guilty about though. i noticed it when the other day, i thought about how i...
    Dandelion11 Dandelion11
    16-17, F
    1 Response Feb 22, 2010
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