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I Am Scared of Losing People I Really Love

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    Boyfriend of 4 years

    and me (in LDR) are currently in a break. 1.5 months ago he told me he is not happy anymore and not sure that he still wants a future with me. I realize that our relationship is declining since the last few months, but I thought our relationship is stronger than this. I am so...
    reachoutmydream reachoutmydream 26-30, F 5 Responses May 11, 2015

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    I'm going to lose you all.

    My parents found out about EP and now I'm going to die. They will take away the only people I care about, and the only reasons I'm still alive. I love you guys. I love you so so much. *hugs you tightly* I'm sorry it all had to end this way.
    deleted deleted 26-30 11 Responses Dec 8, 2014

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    I'm scared of losing a lot of my loved ones,

    but sometimes losing the most beautiful people in my life is what I fear losing the most! (The two families who love me no less because I'm not their blood relative!) Some people in my high school forgot that these people aren't really my family but they absolutely adore most of...
    derricksautism derricksautism 18-21, M a week ago

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    The worst fear ever! I can't imagine life

    without my beloved family. 😣😦
    WhatIf2 WhatIf2 16-17, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I don't understand what the problem is now?

    All of a sudden you stop talking to me so I decide to give you time, you probably have an explanation. I was right. Apparently our relationship got too intense for you so you said that you didn't want anyone of us to get hurt so it's best to stay friends and not to talk on the...
    Laraamani Laraamani 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 26, 2015

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    At the root of my behaviour,

    this simple but constant fear breathes. Every year I watch my parents age, hearing an imaginary ticking clock, counting down the time I have left with them. I avoid arguing when they get difficult, because not only am I afraid they will get too worked up, but anything can...
    sophiebelle27 sophiebelle27 26-30, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    My Son Patrick Patrick is my oldest son.

    He is the first of four. I lost my third, Andrew because he was premature and only lived for 11 hours and 40 minutes and he died in my arms as I sat rocking him next to the incubator. That was one of my most painful losses. I have thanked God for not allowing me to actually...
    Jackie69C Jackie69C 46-50, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    After my last break up I went pretty much

    insane. I was the one who was "clingy", as she said, and I asked for a second chance, not realizing that I already used that up. The saying about not appreciating someone until they're gone is true. Very true (also I watched 500 Days of Summer TWICE in a ROW after we separated...
    PorQueDidPoorKayAkaDKDecay PorQueDidPoorKayAkaDKDecay 13-15, M Dec 19, 2015

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    I'm afraid I'm gonna lose everything

    and everyone I care about :( I don't want to be alone :( I don't want to lose my love or anyone :(
    PopulaceInOne PopulaceInOne 18-21, M 4 Responses Apr 8, 2015

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    I just been informed

    that my dad may only have a few days to a few weeks longer to live... I have already lost my mom when I was 19; I am now 24 and about to have a baby that may never know either of his grandparents... Why is life so hard?
    emeraldtriangle420 emeraldtriangle420 22-25, F 10 Responses Aug 6, 2014

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    This is the heart of

    which my pain derives. It is the reason I feel fear. If you have nothing to lose, then there is nothing to fear. I am terrified of liking this person too greatly. At first it felt amazing, but the more I think about and talk about it, the worse I feel. It's better than jumping...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I am very close to my grandfather.

    I've even dedicated an experience to him and how much I love him. He's very special to me for many reasons. I go to his house often, and lately he's been fighting with my grandmother. I'm afraid this is because he's drinking again. His breath even smelled like alcohol...
    DeIuxedEdition DeIuxedEdition 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 28, 2015

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    vf702 vf702 26-30, F Oct 14, 2015

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    Callmesasha Callmesasha 13-15, F 4 Responses Nov 19, 2015

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    Its always the ones you love

    that has the ability to hurt you the most.
    Spirit000 Spirit000 22-25, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    2 friends in 3 days, I don't want to live this

    way if I lose someone else before the end of the year, I'll break, cry and my parents don't know what happened
    MoriyaSuwako MoriyaSuwako 16-17, M Dec 8, 2014

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    well since being on here I have fallen in love

    with someone who means the absolute world to me. She has three beautiful kids. I have grown immense feelings for her and grown feelings for her kids from being told little about them. They seem to have great individual personalities. I have become so attached to my girl that I...
    BarbiesMan BarbiesMan 31-35, M 2 Responses Oct 6, 2015

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    I used to feel like a part of your life.

    Now I feel like I hardly know you...
    Jennifer337 Jennifer337 31-35, T Jul 16, 2015

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    when i was little my mom lost me at the

    department store •~•
    lesbianpeter lesbianpeter 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 18, 2015

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    swaged104 swaged104 13-15, M 2 Responses Oct 18, 2015

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    Here I am again, confused.

    First you talk about our future, talk about me to your friends and now u just said how ur going to sleep with other girls as soon as u get your own place. I understand that, you are young and of course you want to live and try things out. I don't know... We are not a "thing" yet...
    Laraamani Laraamani 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 2, 2015

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    You get so scared you start to close yourself

    up. That way you don't get attached to people and don't get disappointed when they do leave. But then it just leaves you.
    LookAtTheStars103 LookAtTheStars103 16-17, F Nov 3, 2015

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    Months ago u said that u didn't want to talk in

    "this level", that u had never liked me in that sort of way. I was devastated. I laid so many emotions on u and for you to say that, it really crushed me. I stepped back from you and figured that we could still be friends. But then it was you who started going down this "more...
    Laraamani Laraamani 22-25, F Feb 6

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    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 20, 2015

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    School just ended. There were a lot of tears

    and it was really emotional. I ******* hate my school with a passion. The rules are stupid, the kids are judgmental losers, and the staff are plain hateful. But I met some of the most amazing people. I had a group that welcomed me, and we all sat at one round table at lunch...
    ForeverJayy ForeverJayy 18-21, M 4 Responses Jun 1, 2014

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    Me and My Grandfather fish day in

    and day out. He owns a Fishing Store, he is moving to a lake so he can fish more, he made a joke that is his "final home". This made me think if what it will be like without him. I went home and couldn't stop thinking about it.
    OwenLovesFish OwenLovesFish 41-45, M Sep 8, 2015

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    We all have our issues,

    I guess I have a few more than most. The biggest one is a fear of commitment/change. I don't mean in love, though it ties in somewhere. I mean in life in general. I fear going to see friends or doing things my brain classes as inefficient. Yet I feel horrible being left out or...
    VoicesInTheShadows VoicesInTheShadows 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 18, 2015

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    This makes me pull into myself

    and distrust them. I can't seem to love and just love anymore... I dont want my grandmother to die. I know one day she will have to. I see her growing old. It bothers me. My gfs granny died the other day. And now I think about mine. I try being with her but now I feel I am...
    Backspaceblogger Backspaceblogger 26-30 4 days ago

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    If there is one thing I'm truly scared of

    inside, it's losing the people I truly love and care about. And losing the ones that truly love and care about me...
    ajl04 ajl04 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 16, 2014

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    lex1515 lex1515 13-15, F 3 Responses May 22, 2015

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    Heart broken again. Just typically.

    Three months have passed and I finally told you that I like you, even though you probably knew. You started to get more distant and cold after I told you that so I asked if something was wrong, you said no. The coldness and arrogance continued and after a while, I lost words, I...
    Laraamani Laraamani 22-25, F Dec 17, 2015

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    Do you know this feeling

    when you watch someone so important to you grow older and older and older. And the older this person gets the scarier it is. The fear of losing that person grow bigger than that person and it makes you regret. not regret having so much more memories. Regret loving that...
    aliveness aliveness 16-17, F Aug 24, 2015

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    I have always wanted to die,

    but what if people really love me? Are they afraid of losing me? I'm terrified of losing someone I love. But how would it affect them if I killed myself? I have wanted to for so long...
    Childlover4evr2 Childlover4evr2 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 10, 2015

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    Abnormalize Abnormalize 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 5, 2015

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    Ok then, thinking I'm bi,

    want to experience it but don't want to loose my family. Don't know whether it's just escapism or real feelings! I don't know where to turn!
    byenewman byenewman 46-50, M Sep 21, 2015

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    Just how can you share your life with someone

    only for them to wake up and tell you they don't love you anymore?
    emiveritas emiveritas 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 2, 2015

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    So scared its my worst nightmare

    and I just had a giant dozy of a nightmare that drove me insane.
    YangXiaoLong14 YangXiaoLong14 16-17, T Aug 11, 2015

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    This suddenly occurred to me,

    What if I die today and no one Will remember me?? would anyone miss me??? What kind of legacy would I leave?? I wanna leave behind something beautiful!!!! People should remember me for Tue good I've done!, Linkin Park lyrics sure sums up my feelings "Cause when my times comes...
    DanielJD DanielJD 16-17, M Mar 28, 2015

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    I often wonder how I could go on

    if I lost my loved ones, my child, parents, my only friend. Especially if I'm used to talking to them everyday, it's pure agony trying to imagine such a thing. death. I will never be the same if something bad was to happen to the people that I love. I know life and death is real...
    SentimentalMood SentimentalMood 36-40, F 1 Response Jun 26, 2014

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    I Just Didnt Realize How Scared I Was

    before i start....this story is not about death....a couple weeks ago my husband quit calling. i didnt know what was wrong, when i finally got a hold of him i was relieved to find out that he was fine but devestated when he said he no longer wanted to come home. he said being at...
    antiyou antiyou 26-30, F 14 Responses Feb 26, 2008

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    Saying you want to spend the rest of your life

    with someone,.it still scares me because I don't want to lose her 😪😪
    XodolsWasHere XodolsWasHere 16-17, M 3 Responses Dec 9, 2014

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    TimePrincess TimePrincess 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 18, 2015

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    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 3, 2015

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    I'm very vulnerable when it comes to my friends.

    I say that because I've lost some to car accidents or other deaths. I have one best friend who is my world because she was the only one I could literally go to because she lives near me. we hangout and I feel better. I'm so afraid that she'll die and I'll be alone. I couldn't...
    Viciouspistols Viciouspistols 26-30, F Oct 28, 2015

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    Love Hurts...

    When you love someone, it is much more than just a feeling. You invest time in getting to know them on a totally different level. The amount of time, trust, interest you give is huge, and the emotions run deeper than just at surface level. It is a real and overwhelming feeling...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses May 11, 2013

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