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I Am Scared of Losing People I Really Love

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    I'm married and have a child.

    I don't love my wife. I met someone who was supposed to be just a harmless fling but I love them with all that I am. I can't just kick my family out though which means I can't treat my love how they deserve to be treated. They have cut off contact with me until I fix things...
    iamsumwun2 iamsumwun2 36-40, M 3 Responses Apr 17

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    Last night was the worst night of my life I

    didn't sleep at all and it was all my own fault you sent me a pic which was a massive thing for you and instead of just taking it and appreciating it I went off on one about how I will delete as you didn't want to send it when I should no you are independent enough to make your...
    Sirwithherkey Sirwithherkey 31-35, M 2 Responses Dec 7

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    I cherish a number of my friends dearly

    and I don't want to lose them ever even though I have already lost a few due to the fact that I was too clingy. So, now with my remaining really close friends I try my best to not be so clingy but some times I just can't help myself. One of my lady friends means a lot to me but...
    Culinaryman23 Culinaryman23 22-25, M Aug 22

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    Well of course I am! That would be pretty silly

    if I loved someone, lost them and life continued normally. I am so scared of losing the people that mean the most to me. I love them because they are irreplaceable so losing them would leave a big hole in my life.
    Raptax231 Raptax231 18-21, M Oct 2

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    I'm scared that if i told you i love you

    and you don't feel the same our friendship will be over :(
    Thiswillbethelast Thiswillbethelast 18-21, F Nov 2

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    I am deeply saddened by the latest news of

    MH370. My thoughts and prayers are with the family and friends of the crews and passengers of that plane. May they stay strong in this difficult time. #RIPMH370
    CtKate27 CtKate27 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    I Just Didnt Realize How Scared I Was

    before i start....this story is not about death....a couple weeks ago my husband quit calling. i didnt know what was wrong, when i finally got a hold of him i was relieved to find out that he was fine but devestated when he said he no longer wanted to come home. he said being at...
    antiyou antiyou 26-30, F 17 Responses Feb 26, 2008

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    I don't know what to say.

    I just typed a lot of stuff on my iPad, but I decided to start afresh. The only way to keep from worsening a situation is to spend personal time thinking about it. I don't claim to be a genius. Well, sometimes I do. It's all in good humour. What I do claim to be is someone who...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F Oct 2

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    Well, it happened. I've lost the person I love.

    He's gone. He presented what he thought would be deal breakers for me in this relationship, and I accepted them. He left me anyway. How is it? How is it I am me, beautiful, intelligent, intuitive, yet he fled and treats me like I'm worthless, useless, ugly? Anger is care. Love...
    NastasyaFilippovna NastasyaFilippovna 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 23

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    I cannot exist without him.

    I don't think he can exist without me either. The problem is he doesn't even feel like existing. I don't want him to feel like a burden on me. His depression is temporary. He is such a loving, wonderful boyfriend. I cannot explain his behavior lately. It makes no sense, and it...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F Aug 10

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    My boyfriend had open heart surgery 3 years ago.

    2 years ago he suffered 2 strokes, most likely a complication of the surgery. Since then, I am constantly scared when I can't get in touch with him. I was expecting the surgery, but it was still hard to see him in the hospital so vulnerable and weak and in pain. The strokes...
    saralu923 saralu923 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 15

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    I feel horrible for what I have done.

    He left his email up on my laptop after leaving for work this morning. My intentions were to complete my last 2 finals until I saw something in his email that has me worried. I'm not familiar with military talk, procedures, standards, nor regulations first and foremost. But his...
    PixieStixs PixieStixs 18-21, F Dec 10

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    I Will Not Accept Losing My Daughter.

    It never will be acceptable.  I can't even imagine losing her.  I feel like I would die with her.  A big part of me would.  It would only be my other children and grandchildren that would keep me breathing.  My daughter and I have always been connected in...
    WarriorMom WarriorMom 51-55, F 21 Responses Jan 4, 2009

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    My mom is literally my BEST FRIEND

    but if my secret ever got out to her.. I'm afraid she would never talked to me again, & it's horrible because I'm her only daughter.
    ConfusedLittleTeenagedGirl ConfusedLittleTeenagedGirl 13-15, F Sep 29

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    I'm going to lose you all.

    My parents found out about EP and now I'm going to die. They will take away the only people I care about, and the only reasons I'm still alive. I love you guys. I love you so so much. *hugs you tightly* I'm sorry it all had to end this way.
    InsanityIsTheButterflysDrug InsanityIsTheButterflysDrug 13-15, F 11 Responses Dec 8

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    Fears Are Real ... For All of Us

    Fear is the emotion common to everyone. It is also something that I struggle with and I try to allow it to be all-consuming. I am not afraid of dying because I know that is inevitable and have accepted salvation as my answer. So fear of what you ask? As you know if you've read...
    Josie06 Josie06 56-60, F 4 Responses Nov 24, 2008

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    All my life, Ive been alone.

    My father killed himself while I was a child, causing my mom into a depression. I was alone at night. Never comforted, never feeling loved or wanted. I grew up practically raised by my grandfather. He was the man in my life I loved and looked up too, and when I turned 6 years of...
    JustPlainScared JustPlainScared 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 16

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    The more time I am alone,

    the more I realize some things. You'd think I'd tell myself this relationship was no good for me, but I'm not. The reason why we are struggling is obvious to me. I'll keep it to myself in case he comes to read this. I've written a lot of stuff to him in my private notes on my...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 2

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    The feeling of never being able to relax.

    All I do is worry about my friends and spend so ******* much time thinking about them killing themselves. Lost 2 of my best friends from suicide in a year
    Themil Themil 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 3

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    My mother is sick and has been

    for years. She had a cancer scare when I was around 8 but luckily there was just some sort of fungus or some other that had grown, but she still needed 2/3's of each lung removed. She is on an oxygen tank 24/7, she has COPD and many other problems. She's been losing her memory...
    SweetCyanide SweetCyanide 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 9

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    I've learned that people will forget what you

    said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. Maya Angelou
    ghazals ghazals 18-21, F Jan 23

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    theres only one person on here ,

    and she knows who she is ;) this applies for you.
    xxSTEVE7xx xxSTEVE7xx 31-35, M Nov 8

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    I don't know what's been up with me recently

    but I've been thinking so much about death and it's terrifying me. The more I think about it the worse it gets.
    ifearsnowmen ifearsnowmen 18-21, M 3 Responses Aug 27

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    I Don't Want To Grow Up...

    Ever since I was a little girl, I have always dreaded growing up. I would cry every night for a week before the first day of school. My parents would ask me what was wrong. I always responded "I don't want to grow up." They would always tell me that when I was older, I would want...
    TeenageDreamer32 TeenageDreamer32 16-17, F 1 Response May 17, 2012

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    I'm in love with a guy

    that doesn't trust me. I do nothing but, try and make him happy. I'm scared all the time and I feel alone. I'm scared to have guy friends and go places because of what he might say. He doesn't even try to get to know my guy friends. I buy him things, I tell him I love him, I...
    ohwee12 ohwee12 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 7

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    It's a very unpleasant feeling,

    I try not to get attached to people because I'm scared of the day that I'll lose them. Maybe it's because of bad experiences that I feel like that but anyhow it's a very bothersome thing.
    Psychedilc Psychedilc 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 6

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    Well I had a good run here looking

    for friends but now I suppose my time is up my grandmas ex husband crashed the computer and now she is going to shut off the wifi today I wish I had made more friends on KIcK and found more trans people but I suppose it's too late 😭I finally will be alone again now I will...
    lovepink73 lovepink73 16-17, T 2 Responses May 6

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    I just been informed

    that my dad may only have a few days to a few weeks longer to live... I have already lost my mom when I was 19; I am now 24 and about to have a baby that may never know either of his grandparents... Why is life so hard?
    emeraldtriangle420 emeraldtriangle420 22-25, F 11 Responses Aug 6

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    I'm heard my mom having sex with the man she's

    having an affair with... I'm blasting music into my ears so I don't hear the moaning. My room is right next to her's so it's pretty loud. I'm absolutely terrified that my father will find out and my family will be separated.
    Rosemaryqueen1 Rosemaryqueen1 13-15, F 4 Responses Aug 12

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    I'm in a seriouse relationship with this

    wonderful man who means the world to me, and who loves me very much. I've been torturing myself with doubts and fears. You see, I have a much different family history then him and I have had a pretty tough life. I'm scared if I was to reveal my past to him, if he would still...
    Emilia94 Emilia94 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 5

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    Saying you want to spend the rest of your life

    with someone,.it still scares me because I don't want to lose her 😪😪
    XodolsWasHere XodolsWasHere 16-17, M 4 Responses Dec 9

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    If there is one thing I'm truly scared of

    inside, it's losing the people I truly love and care about. And losing the ones that truly love and care about me...
    ajl04 ajl04 18-21, M 3 Responses Mar 16

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    2 friends in 3 days, I don't want to live this

    way if I lose someone else before the end of the year, I'll break, cry and my parents don't know what happened
    SirWannabeGhost SirWannabeGhost 16-17, M Dec 8

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    Im Scared Shitless!!! Help!! Advice Pleaseee!!! 😰😰😰😰

    OMFG! I accidently came out to my little sis older sis!! Im freaking out my mom is going to kill me she already hates me b/c she hinted i was gay!! Im scared shitless idk what 2 do! :'( i hate crying... Im not ready to step out of the closer yet, but tomorrow i think i have no...
    Moonzbby Moonzbby 18-21 2 Responses Sep 13, 2013

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    School just ended. There were a lot of tears

    and it was really emotional. I ******* hate my school with a passion. The rules are stupid, the kids are judgmental losers, and the staff are plain hateful. But I met some of the most amazing people. I had a group that welcomed me, and we all sat at one round table at lunch...
    ForeverJayy ForeverJayy 16-17, M 4 Responses Jun 1

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    My grandma died during my last day of finals,

    which was last week. It really sparked my family and relatives. My brother almost died today. He had a seizure and passed out. I've never been so scared in my life.
    Dapperness Dapperness 18-21, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I finally start to speak my mind And

    now it seems to push you away I just want to be there for you but it seems more like I am a bother I want to hear about your day but you don't want to speak I want to be your shoulder to lean on In your time of need, but you ignore it I offer a word of encouragement but you...
    wil137 wil137 26-30, M Nov 10

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    I think my paranoia stems from the fact

    that i fear the loss of my dearest
    Kitry Kitry 13-15, F Sep 29

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    I Am Afraid....

    Dear Friends and loved ones, I am afraid of losing all of you who read this and those too, who do not. I am an imperfect woman. My flaws are many and I am ashamed even to think of them. With that comes the question, will they all still love me and care for me if they know...
    MegJgeM MegJgeM 31-35, F 4 Responses Jan 16, 2009

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    Ive been betrayed by people I love

    so many times, ive lost so many people I care about. I cant take it anymore, im afraid il lose everyone I love.
    Louisaxxx Louisaxxx 18-21, F Jan 31

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    this is me.. I am getting lost in a worldful of

    lies full of fakes beauty, real, in disuses. I can't tell whats real and whats not. It hurts, I can't tell who is real. Who is real, Maybe one day i will
    crazyratchetgirl crazyratchetgirl 13-15, F Jan 31

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    Love Hurts...

    When you love someone, it is much more than just a feeling. You invest time in getting to know them on a totally different level. The amount of time, trust, interest you give is huge, and the emotions run deeper than just at surface level. It is a real and overwhelming feeling...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses May 11, 2013

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    I often wonder how I could go on

    if I lost my loved ones, my child, parents, my only friend. Especially if I'm used to talking to them everyday, it's pure agony trying to imagine such a thing. death. I will never be the same if something bad was to happen to the people that I love. I know life and death is real...
    SentimentalMood SentimentalMood 36-40, F 1 Response Jun 26

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    Don't Go

    I can't bare to see you walking out. I can't bare to see you fading away. I just need you here. Breathing awake and right here. I'm not finished with you. I need your arms to shelter me. I need your love. I need your affection. I need your attention. I...
    LylaRocks LylaRocks 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 15, 2009

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    My senior. My William.

    My first kiss. My best friend. He doesn't want to exist anymore. He hasn't wanted to exist for a long, long time. He told me this. And now he won't text back.
    PaigetheBook PaigetheBook 13-15, F May 1

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    my mom has a diabetes

    and it's so high. she gets like 300, she did go to the doctor, she's taking medication, and last time her diabetes had lower to 200 something, but she just checked and her diabetes gets higher again. i am so scared. i love her so much, more than anything in the world. i love her...
    dasosleefi dasosleefi 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 15

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    So lately I've been going through a hard time

    and I've pretty much lost all my friends except for one really good friend.. They all just keep stabbing me in the back and it hurts so bad.. Any advice on how to handle this would be much appreciated..
    JmarieRohde JmarieRohde 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 4

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    I have always wanted to die,

    but what if people really love me? Are they afraid of losing me? I'm terrified of losing someone I love. But how would it affect them if I killed myself? I have wanted to for so long...
    childlover4evr childlover4evr 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 30

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    My mom just had a biopsy done

    because her doctor found "a lot of very abnormal cells" from her last pap smear, she has been feeling like crap lately too and they are almost positive its cancer. I am still in shock and i cant imagine having to watch her go through something so awful. I know its not exactly...
    RachelMGodwin RachelMGodwin 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 27

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    My best friend is the only person I have.

    I love her more than anything in the whole world. She just started dating our other friend, and I think I might be jealous of him. I don't want to be like that though. I need to let her have a life outside of us. We've already decided that we're living together once we graduate...
    dickdurk dickdurk 16-17, F Oct 4

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    I decided to end my previous story to make it

    shorter. Carrying on. At the end of the day, this is all I know. I haven't changed, and guess what? What made him love me HASN'T CHANGED. That's it. It hasn't changed. He says this has nothing to do with me and I don't need to change. So be it. I still do need to improve, but...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F Oct 2

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