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I Am Scared of Losing People I Really Love

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    My boyfriend had open heart surgery 3 years ago.

    2 years ago he suffered 2 strokes, most likely a complication of the surgery. Since then, I am constantly scared when I can't get in touch with him. I was expecting the surgery, but it was still hard to see him in the hospital so vulnerable and weak and in pain. The strokes...
    saralu923 saralu923 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 15, 2014

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    The thought genuinely terrifies me - I HAVE

    lost people I love, and people have abandoned me. It's a fear I've got and people wonder why I'm so clingy, and that makes me scared I'm trying too hard and... The cycle continues.
    DisguisedAsMe DisguisedAsMe 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 11, 2014

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    I am not scared of death

    but very very scared of loosing people I love a lot...After my Dad passed away, I just realised that nothing can be as scary as death.. The emptiness of that person in our heart, can not be replaced with anything...
    Waldena Waldena 22-25, F Feb 24

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    Just how can you share your life with someone

    only for them to wake up and tell you they don't love you anymore?
    emiveritas emiveritas 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 2

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    I'm scared of losing people,

    I wonder if people are scared of losing me.........
    Kst97 Kst97 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 3

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    I cannot exist without him.

    I don't think he can exist without me either. The problem is he doesn't even feel like existing. I don't want him to feel like a burden on me. His depression is temporary. He is such a loving, wonderful boyfriend. I cannot explain his behavior lately. It makes no sense, and it...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F Aug 10, 2014

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    maybe it's really losing those people.

    maybe it's not. either way, it really hurts. especially when you see they don't seem to mind that you're not really part of their life anymore. bf, gf, bff, whoever. it hurts and it's sad :/
    youngandinexperienced youngandinexperienced 16-17, F Feb 6

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    I'm going to lose you all.

    My parents found out about EP and now I'm going to die. They will take away the only people I care about, and the only reasons I'm still alive. I love you guys. I love you so so much. *hugs you tightly* I'm sorry it all had to end this way.
    PorcelainGrenade PorcelainGrenade 13-15, F 11 Responses Dec 8, 2014

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    My Dad. His heart isn't working the right way.

    Its skipping beats. I'm so scared to lose my Dad. He's the person I've modeled myself after. Looked up to. I'm so scared.
    KOOLKAT446 KOOLKAT446 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 7

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    I Will Not Accept Losing My Daughter.

    It never will be acceptable.  I can't even imagine losing her.  I feel like I would die with her.  A big part of me would.  It would only be my other children and grandchildren that would keep me breathing.  My daughter and I have always been connected in...
    WarriorMom WarriorMom 51-55, F 21 Responses Jan 4, 2009

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    Last night was the worst night of my life I

    didn't sleep at all and it was all my own fault you sent me a pic which was a massive thing for you and instead of just taking it and appreciating it I went off on one about how I will delete as you didn't want to send it when I should no you are independent enough to make your...
    Sirwithherkey Sirwithherkey 36-40, M 2 Responses Dec 7, 2014

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    Like , I feel like I cant

    even put up with myself. How do I be satisfied with myself . Almost Everyone I love ends up leaving. I keep getting broken up with and im so good to the people im in relationships with... so what is wrong with me ? I keep trying to change how I look but it seems like they all...
    anthonymusto55 anthonymusto55 16-17, M 1 Response Mar 31, 2014

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    theres only one person on here ,

    and she knows who she is ;) this applies for you.
    xxSTEVE7xx xxSTEVE7xx 31-35, M Nov 8, 2014

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    I just been informed

    that my dad may only have a few days to a few weeks longer to live... I have already lost my mom when I was 19; I am now 24 and about to have a baby that may never know either of his grandparents... Why is life so hard?
    emeraldtriangle420 emeraldtriangle420 22-25, F 12 Responses Aug 6, 2014

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    2 friends in 3 days, I don't want to live this

    way if I lose someone else before the end of the year, I'll break, cry and my parents don't know what happened
    MariKun MariKun 16-17, M Dec 8, 2014

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    I feel horrible for what I have done.

    He left his email up on my laptop after leaving for work this morning. My intentions were to complete my last 2 finals until I saw something in his email that has me worried. I'm not familiar with military talk, procedures, standards, nor regulations first and foremost. But his...
    PixieStixs PixieStixs 18-21, F Dec 10, 2014

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    I'm shipping out tomorrow

    and I am so scared I'll be losing someone before I can get back. But it will most likely happen and I've spent so long preparing for that eventuality, though it all goes away when the loss is so close. I'm scared. I'm scared. I'm scared. I'm scared for the ones I love and the...
    bakeittwice bakeittwice 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 17

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    I have always wanted to die,

    but what if people really love me? Are they afraid of losing me? I'm terrified of losing someone I love. But how would it affect them if I killed myself? I have wanted to for so long...
    childlover4evr childlover4evr 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 30, 2014

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    School just ended. There were a lot of tears

    and it was really emotional. I ******* hate my school with a passion. The rules are stupid, the kids are judgmental losers, and the staff are plain hateful. But I met some of the most amazing people. I had a group that welcomed me, and we all sat at one round table at lunch...
    ForeverJayy ForeverJayy 18-21, M 4 Responses Jun 1, 2014

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    Love Hurts...

    When you love someone, it is much more than just a feeling. You invest time in getting to know them on a totally different level. The amount of time, trust, interest you give is huge, and the emotions run deeper than just at surface level. It is a real and overwhelming feeling...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses May 11, 2013

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    I am an anxious person

    when it comes to relationships, whether they are familial, romantic or platonic. The closer I am to somebody, the more I fear of making mistakes. In the past, I used to distance myself when I thought I was messing up, but I have learned to overcome this feeling. However, I am...
    crystalhaze crystalhaze 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 30

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    I Am Afraid....

    Dear Friends and loved ones, I am afraid of losing all of you who read this and those too, who do not. I am an imperfect woman. My flaws are many and I am ashamed even to think of them. With that comes the question, will they all still love me and care for me if they know...
    MegJgeM MegJgeM 31-35, F 4 Responses Jan 16, 2009

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    I'm afraid I'm gonna lose everything

    and everyone I care about :( I don't want to be alone :( I don't want to lose my love or anyone :(
    EmbraceTheEVIL EmbraceTheEVIL 18-21, M 5 Responses Apr 8

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    I often wonder how I could go on

    if I lost my loved ones, my child, parents, my only friend. Especially if I'm used to talking to them everyday, it's pure agony trying to imagine such a thing. death. I will never be the same if something bad was to happen to the people that I love. I know life and death is real...
    SentimentalMood SentimentalMood 36-40, F 1 Response Jun 26, 2014

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    and it happens all the time.

    because I care way too much and they don't care at all... just walk away like everyone else.. I'll get over it.. its not easy, but I always do..
    Louder4life Louder4life 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    I get attached too soo .

    .. But because of my fear to losing people, i couldn't love freely.. My girlfriend recently broke up with me without any reason.. :( I badly want her back just wish to hold her tight in my arms so that she can forget the world..
    dieinyourarms dieinyourarms 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 7

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    Abnormalize Abnormalize 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 5

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    I need to have a conversation with my husband

    but I'm scared. It's so easy to just go along always agreeing it's so easy to always do what I've done. I'm scared because I already know the answer and I'm afraid to hear it from him. I want to have a baby he won't even talk about it. I e tried to just accept that I won't have...
    Slackergirl Slackergirl 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 11

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    It's a very unpleasant feeling,

    I try not to get attached to people because I'm scared of the day that I'll lose them. Maybe it's because of bad experiences that I feel like that but anyhow it's a very bothersome thing.
    Psychedilc Psychedilc 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 6, 2014

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    Don't Go

    I can't bare to see you walking out. I can't bare to see you fading away. I just need you here. Breathing awake and right here. I'm not finished with you. I need your arms to shelter me. I need your love. I need your affection. I need your attention. I...
    LylaRocks LylaRocks 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 15, 2009

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    My senior. My William.

    My first kiss. My best friend. He doesn't want to exist anymore. He hasn't wanted to exist for a long, long time. He told me this. And now he won't text back.
    PaigetheBook PaigetheBook 16-17, F May 1, 2014

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    If there is one thing I'm truly scared of

    inside, it's losing the people I truly love and care about. And losing the ones that truly love and care about me...
    ajl04 ajl04 18-21, M 3 Responses Mar 16, 2014

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    Constantly. Wanted gone

    before them. But life had me stay to meet new.
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M Mar 8

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    You still make my heart flutter

    when I hear you coming down the hall. I still smile when I hear your laugh from another room. You still excite me when I think of you. I love to rub your back, kiss your neck and touch you as we pass by. Why don't you feel the same? I cannot remember the last time you touched me...
    alostson alostson 41-45, M Jan 27

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    This suddenly occurred to me,

    What if I die today and no one Will remember me?? would anyone miss me??? What kind of legacy would I leave?? I wanna leave behind something beautiful!!!! People should remember me for Tue good I've done!, Linkin Park lyrics sure sums up my feelings "Cause when my times comes...
    DanielJD DanielJD 13-15, M 1 Response Mar 28

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    i am very lonely because i am losing facebook

    friends that i thought that liked me. as i told you last week about Facebook i had posted about a certain person too much and i threatened suicide. now i had deactivated my account and returned to Facebook at least several friends blocked or removed me as a friend. i feel like i...
    db174 db174 31-35, F 5 Responses Mar 24

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    Ive been betrayed by people I love

    so many times, ive lost so many people I care about. I cant take it anymore, im afraid il lose everyone I love.
    Louisaxxx Louisaxxx 18-21, F Jan 31, 2014

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    I'm scared of losing my 2 awesome little dogs,

    one of them is kinda starting to get old. Though she is very active. The youngest one is really active and she really likes me, she is smart and funny and always pretends to be a baby and plays. She is like a very hairy baby. She loves to be held all the time and is very sweet...
    Morgee3304 Morgee3304 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 22

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    In all honesty I'm so afraid of my grandma

    dying. My grandpa and grandma raised me and he passed away when i was 15. Its weird just how recent the hurt feels. Each time its like a punch to the gut. My parents abandoned my siblings and me since i was three. So honestly whether it be death or someone choosing to walk away...
    forgotten0fairytale forgotten0fairytale 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 2

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    Californialexiiiiiii Californialexiiiiiii 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 1

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    I just realised why I distance myself from

    relationships, its because Im scared of losing anyone close to me. I have wasted so many years when I could have been in some really great relationships, Ive decided now that the next gurl who shows interest in me, Im going to accept her, Ill even consider another Trans Gurl if...
    MelbTransgurl MelbTransgurl 46-50, T 3 Responses Feb 6

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    My mother is sick and has been

    for years. She had a cancer scare when I was around 8 but luckily there was just some sort of fungus or some other that had grown, but she still needed 2/3's of each lung removed. She is on an oxygen tank 24/7, she has COPD and many other problems. She's been losing her memory...
    SweetCyanide SweetCyanide 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 9, 2014

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    Fears Are Real ... For All of Us

    Fear is the emotion common to everyone. It is also something that I struggle with and I try to allow it to be all-consuming. I am not afraid of dying because I know that is inevitable and have accepted salvation as my answer. So fear of what you ask? As you know if you've read...
    Josie06 Josie06 56-60, F 4 Responses Nov 24, 2008

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    I Just Didnt Realize How Scared I Was

    before i start....this story is not about death....a couple weeks ago my husband quit calling. i didnt know what was wrong, when i finally got a hold of him i was relieved to find out that he was fine but devestated when he said he no longer wanted to come home. he said being at...
    antiyou antiyou 26-30, F 17 Responses Feb 26, 2008

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    Saying you want to spend the rest of your life

    with someone,.it still scares me because I don't want to lose her 😪😪
    XodolsWasHere XodolsWasHere 16-17, M 4 Responses Dec 9, 2014

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    I have always wanted to die,

    but what if people really love me? Are they afraid of losing me? I'm terrified of losing someone I love. But how would it affect them if I killed myself? I have wanted to for so long...
    Childlover4evr2 Childlover4evr2 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 10

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