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I Am Scared of My Emotions

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    When i get angry or sad i barely show it but im afraid that if i show it it will explode. If i get to angry (which i never let myself do) im afraid that i would do something drastic and lose something close to me. and if i get too sad ill be sad for days and become sick. i only...
    theshortloud1 theshortloud1 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 18, 2009

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    I'm scared of getting close to people

    as I've been hurt quite a lot, now I'm struggling and I feel like breaking down half the time, I'm so stressed and annoyed and angry, yesterday I burst into tears because I couldn't find my left shoe.
    BritishK BritishK 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 8, 2014

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    Repressed And Bottle Up My Emotions

    I bottle up and repressed my emotions because i am very afraid of expressing it and feeling overwhelmed. I am afraid of how repressing it only make it worst. The more repressing and bottle up i do, the more lonely, depressed i feel. Isn't this normal?
    TinaFeyforever TinaFeyforever 26-30, F Feb 20, 2013

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    The More I Feel, The Further I Run

    I've just realised something about myself recently. The stronger I feel towards something or someone, the more I push it/him/her away. The more intense the emotion, the more I get unsettled and uncomfortable. My reaction: run away. Run as fast as I can and don't look back. I also...
    lyn2726 lyn2726 31-35, F 2 Responses May 11, 2012

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    Learning ...

    I rarely show much emotion in day to day life.  I am generally cheerful and usually have a smile.  It's all part of the job really.  I am nice to people - if someone is feeling down I am the one who makes cups of tea and provides the soothing words.  Generally...
    womaninbliss womaninbliss 51-55, F 4 Responses Jan 30, 2010

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    Don't Know What to Do

     sometimes like right now the way I feel really scares me, I feel so alone so depressed that it feels like nothing will ever get better no matter how hard I try, I begin to feel so worthless that I can't help feeling like the world is better off without me . This is where...
    sweetstacey sweetstacey 26-30, F Aug 26, 2008

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    Can't Afford To Feel Things.

    I know that in order to get beyond certain things from my past, and get beyond my depression, I need to talk about them.  The problem is that when I've discussed painful things with my therapist, it's left me in a state where I can't function for days.  I'm so afraid that if...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 30, 2012

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    I Have Become A Monster

    i am not doing a good job of adjusting to my new family, i mean i thought i was but now i realize im not. They adopted me to help me and put me in a better place. My past is filled with all types of repeated abuse and lots of different foster homes...something I keep trying to...
    AquilaAqua AquilaAqua 16-17, M 1 Response Sep 29, 2012

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    My Emotions

    are like another person.  They are an entity unto themselves.  My passions can be horrifying and intense.  Last night I deleted my entire post in a fit of rage.  Nothing violent, just intense anger.  I felt I was too addicted to this site, which to some...
    lightpainter lightpainter 56-60, M 3 Responses May 5, 2010

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    I Am Afraid Of Losing Control Of Myself

    Some details may be upsetting. FYI.  I do not trust myself. I don't trust anyone else, either. I have been dealing with severe depression and anxiety for about two years (I've had it all my life, but it's been really, really bad these past 2 years). I have not been working-- I...
    spacebear spacebear 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 12, 2013

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    Once Bitten...

    I fell into depression, that lasted for about a decade.  Whether or not my lifestyle (unhappily married) contributed, influenced, or made it, I don't know, but that life was destroyed before I found my way out.  Yes, out.  It's been over a year since I had a major...
    zenandi zenandi 31-35, M 3 Responses Jul 12, 2009

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    Personality Changes?

    my emotions change so much to were i get sudden personallity change to were i start to hurt people and i try to stop hanging out with them and i gets sad. =(
    gothicromantic gothicromantic 16-17, F Jul 12, 2009

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    Not Just Scared - Terrified

    i've been controlling my emotions for years, i use to be very good at in fact. But these days i'm having more problems at controling, it's like what use to a calm lake has become the raging and i'm hard pressed to keep it all locked behind my mask. I'm terrified that i will lose...
    Corlath Corlath 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 17, 2010

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    Emotions

    Emotions,They scare me,Sometimes,I don't understand,Please bare with me,I'm doing my best.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Dec 16, 2011

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    I Wrote This...this Is How I Feel

    Love is a myth and everyday i kill to try to make it true, id die for you,my life for you,my everything is you. but you dont see what i see,Do You? i see love in black and white,no colors what so ever, No one sees how dark it is,no one knows what its like under the cover, hide...
    TheMyth TheMyth 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 31, 2012

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    2 U

    My emotions have gotten me into a lot of trouble in recent times so I find myself questioning if they will continue to do so where you are concerned. I don't want to get hurt again so I play cat and mouse getting more scared the the closer you get to me. I am always the mouse in...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 17 Responses Jan 30, 2010

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    It'S Been Some Time

    Hi, everyone. It's been some time since I've shared anything. I've been a bit down lately and tonight I sort of have an "aha" moment. I realised that I might be scared of my emotions, but at the same time, I chase after them. Take problems, for example. I don't like them. Nobody...
    lyn2726 lyn2726 31-35, F Mar 7, 2013

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    Surrender

    I come from a broken home that appears to be perfect.i belong no where because i am unusual.i do not appear to be normal, and i have never met anyone like me.i push away those who seem to care about me,in fear of hurting them.i fear everything in life.i worry about every word i...
    Alightonthewater Alightonthewater 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 15, 2011

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    I was never someone who would live with their feelings bottled up. I had to express, or I'd die of suffocation. But then I realised what a mess I am. Noone ever understands. So...
    thecoldheartedqueen thecoldheartedqueen 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Months ago u said that u didn't want to talk in "this level", that u had never liked me in that sort of way. I was devastated. I laid so many emotions on u and for you to say that...
    Laraamani Laraamani 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Months ago u said that u didn't want to talk in "this level", that u had never liked me in that sort of way. I was devastated. I laid so many emotions on u and for you to say that...
    Laraamani Laraamani 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Everyday I think and feel that I have something serious, health wise. I get tired so easily, for most of the time very tired, you wouldn't even know what I mean by very tired, I...
    MissGaga MissGaga 22-25, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    Things have been horrible between me and my husband for some time now. No intimacy , him seeing other women, me not caring about it, you know all the signs we are more friends than...
    KittyKurious KittyKurious 26-30, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    I scared for my mentality. I'm scared of myself. I'm scared that all these thoughts messing about in my head will their toll. I'm scared that I am wrong. I'm scared that I'm right...
    skeletoncliquetop skeletoncliquetop 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    itshardtofindtruelove itshardtofindtruelove 18-21, M 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    You know how you learn the true value of something, only when you don't have it anymore. That's how it was with me. I suffer from epilepsy, and after an unfortunate event also...
    Robberto Robberto 41-45, M 1 Response a week ago

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    It all started quite early, I don't remember when. He wanted to "teach" me how to do stuff, like chopping wood, splitting it into manageable chunks and the like. I thought he was...
    FluttersJay FluttersJay 18-21, T a week ago

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    Purpleflower97 Purpleflower97 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 28

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    So many times I find myself on autopilot, making my way through each day blinded by routine. Autopilot is so much worse during the winter months, I just want to hibernate in the...
    HotMessExpress101 HotMessExpress101 31-35, F 3 Responses Jan 27

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    Past few months i broke up with my fiancee all that white dress dream vanished , he changed on me he was verbally abusing me , call me fat * which I'm not * , ... Etc ,. Until i...
    rooodii rooodii 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 27

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    I hate when women play with my emotions and cheat on me for another man and then tell they are leaving me. I just want to feel loved and appreciated by someone who truly cared...
    Anthony2400 Anthony2400 22-25, M Jan 26

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    I've posted a lot about my previous experiences before..but this experience sticks out for me right now because on Friday I'm going on a date with this guy that I'm really starting...
    cupcakes1995 cupcakes1995 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 26

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    I'm scared of falling in love with the wrong person. I'm scared of being hurt, humiliated, and rejected. I still have hope that one day I will find that person, but I'm scared...
    sagespoo sagespoo 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 26

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    I think it's too late to be scared. Im in too deep. It happened so quickly. I didn't even put up a fight. I surrendered to him so eagerly. I still haven't figured out why it was...
    WickedlyHis WickedlyHis 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 26

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    you want real? you want honesty? well there it is. I am scared. I do anything i can to not think about it. and it gets to be more than I can handle sometimes.
    stevecobb76 stevecobb76 36-40, M Jan 25

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    I am excited and scared at the same time. Because I work so hard to get the future I want.
    darklotus00 darklotus00 26-30, T Jan 25

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