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I Am Scared of My Emotions

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 236 People

    I Am Afraid Of Losing Control Of Myself

    Some details may be upsetting. FYI.  I do not trust myself. I don't trust anyone else, either. I have been dealing with severe depression and anxiety for about two years (I've had it all my life, but it's been really, really bad these past 2 years). I have not been working-- I...
    spacebear spacebear 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 12, 2013

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    Emotions

    Emotions,They scare me,Sometimes,I don't understand,Please bare with me,I'm doing my best.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Dec 16, 2011

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    It'S Been Some Time

    Hi, everyone. It's been some time since I've shared anything. I've been a bit down lately and tonight I sort of have an "aha" moment. I realised that I might be scared of my emotions, but at the same time, I chase after them. Take problems, for example. I don't like them. Nobody...
    lyn2726 lyn2726 31-35, F Mar 7, 2013

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    My Emotions

    are like another person.  They are an entity unto themselves.  My passions can be horrifying and intense.  Last night I deleted my entire post in a fit of rage.  Nothing violent, just intense anger.  I felt I was too addicted to this site, which to some...
    lightpainter lightpainter 56-60, M 3 Responses May 5, 2010

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    Not Just Scared - Terrified

    i've been controlling my emotions for years, i use to be very good at in fact. But these days i'm having more problems at controling, it's like what use to a calm lake has become the raging and i'm hard pressed to keep it all locked behind my mask. I'm terrified that i will lose...
    Corlath Corlath 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 17, 2010

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    Repressed And Bottle Up My Emotions

    I bottle up and repressed my emotions because i am very afraid of expressing it and feeling overwhelmed. I am afraid of how repressing it only make it worst. The more repressing and bottle up i do, the more lonely, depressed i feel. Isn't this normal?
    TinaFeyforever TinaFeyforever 26-30, F Feb 20, 2013

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    I Wrote This...this Is How I Feel

    Love is a myth and everyday i kill to try to make it true, id die for you,my life for you,my everything is you. but you dont see what i see,Do You? i see love in black and white,no colors what so ever, No one sees how dark it is,no one knows what its like under the cover, hide...
    TheMyth TheMyth 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 31, 2012

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    Learning ...

    I rarely show much emotion in day to day life.  I am generally cheerful and usually have a smile.  It's all part of the job really.  I am nice to people - if someone is feeling down I am the one who makes cups of tea and provides the soothing words.  Generally...
    womaninbliss womaninbliss 51-55, F 4 Responses Jan 30, 2010

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    The More I Feel, The Further I Run

    I've just realised something about myself recently. The stronger I feel towards something or someone, the more I push it/him/her away. The more intense the emotion, the more I get unsettled and uncomfortable. My reaction: run away. Run as fast as I can and don't look back. I also...
    lyn2726 lyn2726 31-35, F 2 Responses May 11, 2012

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    I Have Become A Monster

    i am not doing a good job of adjusting to my new family, i mean i thought i was but now i realize im not. They adopted me to help me and put me in a better place. My past is filled with all types of repeated abuse and lots of different foster homes...something I keep trying to...
    AquilaAqua AquilaAqua 13-15, M 2 Responses Sep 29, 2012

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    Once Bitten...

    I fell into depression, that lasted for about a decade.  Whether or not my lifestyle (unhappily married) contributed, influenced, or made it, I don't know, but that life was destroyed before I found my way out.  Yes, out.  It's been over a year since I had a major...
    zenandi zenandi 31-35, M 3 Responses Jul 12, 2009

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    Surrender

    I come from a broken home that appears to be perfect.i belong no where because i am unusual.i do not appear to be normal, and i have never met anyone like me.i push away those who seem to care about me,in fear of hurting them.i fear everything in life.i worry about every word i...
    Alightonthewater Alightonthewater 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 15, 2011

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    Can't Afford To Feel Things.

    I know that in order to get beyond certain things from my past, and get beyond my depression, I need to talk about them.  The problem is that when I've discussed painful things with my therapist, it's left me in a state where I can't function for days.  I'm so afraid that if...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 30, 2012

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    Don't Know What to Do

     sometimes like right now the way I feel really scares me, I feel so alone so depressed that it feels like nothing will ever get better no matter how hard I try, I begin to feel so worthless that I can't help feeling like the world is better off without me . This is where...
    sweetstacey sweetstacey 26-30, F Aug 26, 2008

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    Only the Topping

    When i get angry or sad i barely show it but im afraid that if i show it it will explode. If i get to angry (which i never let myself do) im afraid that i would do something drastic and lose something close to me. and if i get too sad ill be sad for days and become sick. i only...
    theshortloud1 theshortloud1 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 18, 2009

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    2 U

    My emotions have gotten me into a lot of trouble in recent times so I find myself questioning if they will continue to do so where you are concerned. I don't want to get hurt again so I play cat and mouse getting more scared the the closer you get to me. I am always the mouse in...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 17 Responses Jan 30, 2010

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    I'm scared of getting close to people

    as I've been hurt quite a lot, now I'm struggling and I feel like breaking down half the time, I'm so stressed and annoyed and angry, yesterday I burst into tears because I couldn't find my left shoe.
    BritishK BritishK 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 8, 2014

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    Personality Changes?

    my emotions change so much to were i get sudden personallity change to were i start to hurt people and i try to stop hanging out with them and i gets sad. =(
    gothicromantic gothicromantic 16-17, F Jul 12, 2009

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    I have been having a lot of family issues and they are getting worse. I came home from a week away to not being welcome in anyway. My mother still cooked me dinner but because of...
    SecretAbby SecretAbby 18-21, F Apr 16

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    So I met a girl recently who spiked my interest in astrology, which i had been raised to mistrust and reject. It was a sin to entertain it because it was seeking counsel in...
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    I can't help it, I always have always will. Until eventually I burst, I think I'm pretty much at that point (again) now. God, it's the worst feeling. With everything that's going...
    xDarkxxAngelx xDarkxxAngelx 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 15

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    confession of a Love Sick Fool #3 After my break up with my boyfriend I should be getting back out there right? but every guy who said they liked me I pushed away. In the back of...
    lilnekomeow lilnekomeow 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 24

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    I have been feeling a lot of extremes lately and I know I feel the emotions, but I dont know what to call them or what to do with them. I dont know what is happening to me. I... I...
    lilbit33 lilbit33 22-25, F Apr 6

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    I feel like two different people when it comes to showing emotions, online and face to face. The online me will open up and let you know what I feel easily. That's because I'm...
    shoreguyct shoreguyct 46-50, M 1 Response Apr 9

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    I'm scared of everything lately. I'm scared of living. I'm terrified of dying, which I suppose is why I stay. The fear of death and what's after is more overwhelming than the fear...
    wishingforrecovery wishingforrecovery 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 7

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    It can certainly become the most lethal of Emotions. I'm not at all sure why I don't experience " jealously" at times or in similar circumstances where other people do. During my...
    Mmmcherries Mmmcherries 46-50, F 5 Responses Apr 10

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    I am scared to meet someone new that almost takes my breath away, that makes me pause, think longer, and take a breath before I proceed. I am afraid to meet this "perfect" being...
    74Kitty 74Kitty 22-25, F Apr 13

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    After not feeling my emotions for a little while I can physically feel knots in my back popping or dissipating when I allow myself to feel again. Emotions are powerful and will...
    Wbyogimaso Wbyogimaso 26-30, M 3 days ago

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    I just don't care anymore, its like part of me cares and the other part is that I don't care. Part of me is I have emotions and part of me is that there is no emotions.
    elainenguyen619 elainenguyen619 36-40, F 2 days ago

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    I actually have a high EQ (emotional quotient) butI can't express my emotions. I am really tired, I feel like I am acting although the day. I can't say what I think, I don't know...
    nekonyan6 nekonyan6 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    My mind is every where...it is no where....it is all over... My emotions rage like a fire...then silent like ice...then somber of a summer breeze.....then hard as the dark, cold...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm really terrified of getting attached to people as well as places. I never wanted to buy anything I couldn't just pack in a bag and move. It used to fill me with a lot of...
    honestlyanonymouslyme honestlyanonymouslyme 22-25, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I'm scared to death of balloons I know it's a irrational fear I know balloons can't really hurt me I know that I should like them but I don't and no matter how many times people...
    colorfulshadow colorfulshadow 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 25

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    So a few nights ago (on Monday) I decided to drink. I do have a problem but I was drinking responsibly (School is out this week and I didn't work the next day. It was my weekend...
    FallenAngel1997 FallenAngel1997 16-17 1 Response Apr 9

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    i am scared of losing my other half. i get increasingly scared now as me and my other half are in different school now. due to all the arguments before maybe our love is nt the...
    LuCiFeRz LuCiFeRz 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Of everything and things I know I shouldn't be scared of.I'm scared of things I know I shouldn't be scared of coz they r completely normal and right but I feel scared every time I...
    tomg2200 tomg2200 18-21, M Apr 7

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    I don't have a car, but I drive. But only when I'm back home and I use my parents car. However, I only drive on the streets I know. Now I moved to a place where it's almost...
    mtea mtea 26-30, F Apr 14

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    I'm scared of every aspect of my life right now. I'm scared that I won't end the semester as strong as I began it. Scared that I'll lose my scholarship, scared that I'll fail my...
    theloveofmylife2 theloveofmylife2 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 16

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    I'm scared that nothing will work out in the end. I'm scared that all dreams of mine will be crushed. I'm scared that I'll be worthless. I'm scared of...everything.
    ArtInsanity ArtInsanity 13-15, F Apr 25

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    ... I'm so scared to love again. I'm so scared to desire forever with a person; only for them, after many years, to betray/to cheat/to fall out of love/to hurt. I'm so freakn...
    Ichizu Ichizu 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 26

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    I was told today that I was a "heartless, no good human being" because I couldn't relate to what the person was saying when they said they were sad. I tried to explain that I...
    bledotbizdotuk bledotbizdotuk 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 5

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    I feel it. The bottle. I feel the emotions piling up, the cracks getting stronger and bigger. It won't be long now.
    EgoInSomnisResurget EgoInSomnisResurget 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 12