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I Am Scared of My Emotions

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    I Have Become A Monster

    i am not doing a good job of adjusting to my new family, i mean i thought i was but now i realize im not. They adopted me to help me and put me in a better place. My past is filled with all types of repeated abuse and lots of different foster homes...something I keep trying to...
    AquilaAqua AquilaAqua 13-15, M 1 Response Sep 29, 2012

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    Can't Afford To Feel Things.

    I know that in order to get beyond certain things from my past, and get beyond my depression, I need to talk about them.  The problem is that when I've discussed painful things with my therapist, it's left me in a state where I can't function for days.  I'm so afraid that if...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 30, 2012

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    I'm scared of getting close to people

    as I've been hurt quite a lot, now I'm struggling and I feel like breaking down half the time, I'm so stressed and annoyed and angry, yesterday I burst into tears because I couldn't find my left shoe.
    BritishK BritishK 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 8, 2014

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    Surrender

    I come from a broken home that appears to be perfect.i belong no where because i am unusual.i do not appear to be normal, and i have never met anyone like me.i push away those who seem to care about me,in fear of hurting them.i fear everything in life.i worry about every word i...
    Alightonthewater Alightonthewater 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 15, 2011

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    I Wrote This...this Is How I Feel

    Love is a myth and everyday i kill to try to make it true, id die for you,my life for you,my everything is you. but you dont see what i see,Do You? i see love in black and white,no colors what so ever, No one sees how dark it is,no one knows what its like under the cover, hide...
    TheMyth TheMyth 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 31, 2012

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    Once Bitten...

    I fell into depression, that lasted for about a decade.  Whether or not my lifestyle (unhappily married) contributed, influenced, or made it, I don't know, but that life was destroyed before I found my way out.  Yes, out.  It's been over a year since I had a major...
    zenandi zenandi 31-35, M 3 Responses Jul 12, 2009

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    Repressed And Bottle Up My Emotions

    I bottle up and repressed my emotions because i am very afraid of expressing it and feeling overwhelmed. I am afraid of how repressing it only make it worst. The more repressing and bottle up i do, the more lonely, depressed i feel. Isn't this normal?
    TinaFeyforever TinaFeyforever 26-30, F Feb 20, 2013

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    The More I Feel, The Further I Run

    I've just realised something about myself recently. The stronger I feel towards something or someone, the more I push it/him/her away. The more intense the emotion, the more I get unsettled and uncomfortable. My reaction: run away. Run as fast as I can and don't look back. I also...
    lyn2726 lyn2726 31-35, F 2 Responses May 11, 2012

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    Don't Know What to Do

     sometimes like right now the way I feel really scares me, I feel so alone so depressed that it feels like nothing will ever get better no matter how hard I try, I begin to feel so worthless that I can't help feeling like the world is better off without me . This is where...
    sweetstacey sweetstacey 26-30, F Aug 26, 2008

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    Not Just Scared - Terrified

    i've been controlling my emotions for years, i use to be very good at in fact. But these days i'm having more problems at controling, it's like what use to a calm lake has become the raging and i'm hard pressed to keep it all locked behind my mask. I'm terrified that i will lose...
    Corlath Corlath 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 17, 2010

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    Emotions

    Emotions,They scare me,Sometimes,I don't understand,Please bare with me,I'm doing my best.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Dec 16, 2011

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    My Emotions

    are like another person.  They are an entity unto themselves.  My passions can be horrifying and intense.  Last night I deleted my entire post in a fit of rage.  Nothing violent, just intense anger.  I felt I was too addicted to this site, which to some...
    lightpainter lightpainter 56-60, M 3 Responses May 5, 2010

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    Only the Topping

    When i get angry or sad i barely show it but im afraid that if i show it it will explode. If i get to angry (which i never let myself do) im afraid that i would do something drastic and lose something close to me. and if i get too sad ill be sad for days and become sick. i only...
    theshortloud1 theshortloud1 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 18, 2009

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    It'S Been Some Time

    Hi, everyone. It's been some time since I've shared anything. I've been a bit down lately and tonight I sort of have an "aha" moment. I realised that I might be scared of my emotions, but at the same time, I chase after them. Take problems, for example. I don't like them. Nobody...
    lyn2726 lyn2726 31-35, F Mar 7, 2013

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    Learning ...

    I rarely show much emotion in day to day life.  I am generally cheerful and usually have a smile.  It's all part of the job really.  I am nice to people - if someone is feeling down I am the one who makes cups of tea and provides the soothing words.  Generally...
    womaninbliss womaninbliss 51-55, F 4 Responses Jan 30, 2010

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    Personality Changes?

    my emotions change so much to were i get sudden personallity change to were i start to hurt people and i try to stop hanging out with them and i gets sad. =(
    gothicromantic gothicromantic 16-17, F Jul 12, 2009

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    I Am Afraid Of Losing Control Of Myself

    Some details may be upsetting. FYI.  I do not trust myself. I don't trust anyone else, either. I have been dealing with severe depression and anxiety for about two years (I've had it all my life, but it's been really, really bad these past 2 years). I have not been working-- I...
    spacebear spacebear 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 12, 2013

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    2 U

    My emotions have gotten me into a lot of trouble in recent times so I find myself questioning if they will continue to do so where you are concerned. I don't want to get hurt again so I play cat and mouse getting more scared the the closer you get to me. I am always the mouse in...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 17 Responses Jan 30, 2010

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    I like them,at least am starting to like them more/appreciate them,they're not always easy to deal with to feel but i like having them,I wouldn't be me without them feel like...
    simpleandpossible simpleandpossible 22-25, F May 19

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    After not feeling my emotions for a little while I can physically feel knots in my back popping or dissipating when I allow myself to feel again. Emotions are powerful and will...
    Wbyogimaso Wbyogimaso 26-30, M May 2

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    I just don't care anymore, its like part of me cares and the other part is that I don't care. Part of me is I have emotions and part of me is that there is no emotions.
    elainenguyen619 elainenguyen619 36-40, F May 2

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    I actually have a high EQ (emotional quotient) butI can't express my emotions. I am really tired, I feel like I am acting although the day. I can't say what I think, I don't know...
    nekonyan6 nekonyan6 13-15, F 1 Response May 4

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    My mind is every where...it is no where....it is all over... My emotions rage like a fire...then silent like ice...then somber of a summer breeze.....then hard as the dark, cold...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 4 Responses May 4

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    My mom says I'm too independent and I don't tell her about my life or my feelings. It's hard for me to tell people how I feel because they'd just look at me like I'm crazy. Even I...
    ToluDee ToluDee 16-17, F 2 Responses May 15

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    Sometimes it's hard for me to arrange the entangled mess of emotions and thoughts that reside in the restless spaces of my mind into coherent words. It feels like an internal...
    ArcticNorah ArcticNorah 16-17, F May 19

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    I know I have emotions but this is one of the times, that I can't tell where they are... maybe I left them in bed. It's almost like I'm so used to the meaningless flurry of...
    LadySweetz LadySweetz 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    I'm really terrified of getting attached to people as well as places. I never wanted to buy anything I couldn't just pack in a bag and move. It used to fill me with a lot of...
    honestlyanonymouslyme honestlyanonymouslyme 22-25, F 4 Responses May 3

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    i am scared of losing my other half. i get increasingly scared now as me and my other half are in different school now. due to all the arguments before maybe our love is nt the...
    LuCiFeRz LuCiFeRz 18-21, F 2 Responses May 1

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    I am scared of so many things. Of love, my future, my thoughts and actions. I am scared that I will always love him and will have to see him love other people that aren't me and...
    WhyWasIStupid WhyWasIStupid 18-21, F 1 Response May 7

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    I was in an abusive, violent and honestly terrifying relationship for a year and half with a boy who clearly didn't love me. not only did he force me into sex, he used to beat me...
    princesskatie7 princesskatie7 16-17, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    This is why I don't drink anymore. My emotions pour out when I don't want them to. MAKE IT STOP! ...Please?
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F Apr 30

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    Even though I'm not going through someone's problem. I become sad because I feel like it's my problem and I be wanting to help that person with there emotions or whatever is going...
    yrnjojo yrnjojo 16-17, M 1 Response May 6

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    I have like a million emotions within me
    Vanessyi Vanessyi 18-21, F May 12

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    This might have something to do with the favt that most of my life, i taught myself to block out most emotions, pain, crying, sadness etc. So when i meet someone i get along with...
    Anth1290 Anth1290 22-25, M May 13

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    I keep my emotions bottled up because u have no idea who u can trust especially where I live its sad because even my cousin runs off and tells lies about me
    anshaw anshaw 13-15, F 2 Responses May 13

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    I find it really difficult to share my emotions. I've become so used to just putting a fake smile up that I can't tell people how I really feel: empty, lonely, cold and alone...
    tamsin100 tamsin100 13-15, F 1 Response May 15

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    Beach Meditation aroused by her emotions seduced by this soft breeze her heart started to melt, as a fountain of chocolate youth wanting to try the fruit of risk and of truth as...
    livingtruthfully livingtruthfully 36-40, F 1 Response May 16

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    I feel as though the number of emotions one reacts to has dwindled in this generation. When one is happy, others take notice, and might walk over and speak to them. When one is...
    Batfan101 Batfan101 16-17, M 1 Response May 17

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    This is close enough, I guess. I just don't "share" much. It's not my thing. My emotions aren't bottled up like a carbonated soda; it's more like water in a water bottle. This...
    junedew junedew 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Boyfriend of 4 years and me (in LDR) are currently in a break. 1.5 months ago he told me he is not happy anymore and not sure that he still wants a future with me. I realize that...
    reachoutmydream reachoutmydream 26-30, F 7 Responses May 11

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    In august 2014 I was raped by a man in a hotel room. Only 3 people know about this and they all live away from me. You could say it was my fault I mean why did I go into that hotel...
    Elise96 Elise96 18-21, F 2 Responses May 15

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    I'll be honest. I am scared. I am scared to take that leap of faith in facing this future that I might or might not have. I know that bring scared is normal, but it can be so...
    Syafika Syafika 18-21, F 1 Response May 19

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    I'm scared I won't be able to move. I'm having trouble finding somewhere to live and I'm scared I won't get into de anza. I'm really scared that I won't be able to be with my...
    CeBeY1 CeBeY1 18-21, F 2 days ago