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I Am Scared of My Emotions

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    I Fake Happiness So Well

    Im 21, 6'2, black/japanese, I work at A&F its my job to pretend that im happy, im supposed to wear a smile everyday but when I clock out im back to my miserable reality. I hate myself. I hate my life. Im useless, broke with no car, low self-esteem and social anxiety. I walk...
    jjuarezz jjuarezz 22-25, M Jun 14, 2013

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    Once Bitten...

    I fell into depression, that lasted for about a decade.  Whether or not my lifestyle (unhappily married) contributed, influenced, or made it, I don't know, but that life was destroyed before I found my way out.  Yes, out.  It's been over a year since I had a major...
    zenandi zenandi 31-35, M 3 Responses Jul 12, 2009

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    It'S Been Some Time

    Hi, everyone. It's been some time since I've shared anything. I've been a bit down lately and tonight I sort of have an "aha" moment. I realised that I might be scared of my emotions, but at the same time, I chase after them. Take problems, for example. I don't like them. Nobody...
    lyn2726 lyn2726 31-35, F Mar 7, 2013

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    Repressed And Bottle Up My Emotions

    I bottle up and repressed my emotions because i am very afraid of expressing it and feeling overwhelmed. I am afraid of how repressing it only make it worst. The more repressing and bottle up i do, the more lonely, depressed i feel. Isn't this normal?
    TinaFeyforever TinaFeyforever 26-30, F Feb 20, 2013

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    Not Just Scared - Terrified

    i've been controlling my emotions for years, i use to be very good at in fact. But these days i'm having more problems at controling, it's like what use to a calm lake has become the raging and i'm hard pressed to keep it all locked behind my mask. I'm terrified that i will lose...
    Corlath Corlath 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 17, 2010

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    Only the Topping

    When i get angry or sad i barely show it but im afraid that if i show it it will explode. If i get to angry (which i never let myself do) im afraid that i would do something drastic and lose something close to me. and if i get too sad ill be sad for days and become sick. i only...
    theshortloud1 theshortloud1 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 18, 2009

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    Learning ...

    I rarely show much emotion in day to day life.  I am generally cheerful and usually have a smile.  It's all part of the job really.  I am nice to people - if someone is feeling down I am the one who makes cups of tea and provides the soothing words.  Generally...
    womaninbliss womaninbliss 51-55, F 5 Responses Jan 30, 2010

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    The More I Feel, The Further I Run

    I've just realised something about myself recently. The stronger I feel towards something or someone, the more I push it/him/her away. The more intense the emotion, the more I get unsettled and uncomfortable. My reaction: run away. Run as fast as I can and don't look back. I also...
    lyn2726 lyn2726 31-35, F 2 Responses May 11, 2012

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    I Am Afraid Of Losing Control Of Myself

    Some details may be upsetting. FYI.  I do not trust myself. I don't trust anyone else, either. I have been dealing with severe depression and anxiety for about two years (I've had it all my life, but it's been really, really bad these past 2 years). I have not been working-- I...
    spacebear spacebear 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 12, 2013

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    I'm scared of getting close to people

    as I've been hurt quite a lot, now I'm struggling and I feel like breaking down half the time, I'm so stressed and annoyed and angry, yesterday I burst into tears because I couldn't find my left shoe.
    BritishK BritishK 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 8

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    Surrender

    I come from a broken home that appears to be perfect.i belong no where because i am unusual.i do not appear to be normal, and i have never met anyone like me.i push away those who seem to care about me,in fear of hurting them.i fear everything in life.i worry about every word i...
    Alightonthewater Alightonthewater 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 15, 2011

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    Can't Afford To Feel Things.

    I know that in order to get beyond certain things from my past, and get beyond my depression, I need to talk about them.  The problem is that when I've discussed painful things with my therapist, it's left me in a state where I can't function for days.  I'm so afraid that if...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 30, 2012

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    I Wrote This...this Is How I Feel

    Love is a myth and everyday i kill to try to make it true, id die for you,my life for you,my everything is you. but you dont see what i see,Do You? i see love in black and white,no colors what so ever, No one sees how dark it is,no one knows what its like under the cover, hide...
    TheMyth TheMyth 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 31, 2012

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    I Have Become A Monster

    i am not doing a good job of adjusting to my new family, i mean i thought i was but now i realize im not. They adopted me to help me and put me in a better place. My past is filled with all types of repeated abuse and lots of different foster homes...something I keep trying to...
    AquilaAqua AquilaAqua 13-15, M 2 Responses Sep 29, 2012

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    2 U

    My emotions have gotten me into a lot of trouble in recent times so I find myself questioning if they will continue to do so where you are concerned. I don't want to get hurt again so I play cat and mouse getting more scared the the closer you get to me. I am always the mouse in...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 19 Responses Jan 30, 2010

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    Don't Know What to Do

     sometimes like right now the way I feel really scares me, I feel so alone so depressed that it feels like nothing will ever get better no matter how hard I try, I begin to feel so worthless that I can't help feeling like the world is better off without me . This is where...
    sweetstacey sweetstacey 26-30, F Aug 26, 2008

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    Emotions

    Emotions,They scare me,Sometimes,I don't understand,Please bare with me,I'm doing my best.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Dec 16, 2011

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    My Emotions

    are like another person.  They are an entity unto themselves.  My passions can be horrifying and intense.  Last night I deleted my entire post in a fit of rage.  Nothing violent, just intense anger.  I felt I was too addicted to this site, which to some...
    lightpainter lightpainter 56-60, M 3 Responses May 5, 2010

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    Personality Changes?

    my emotions change so much to were i get sudden personallity change to were i start to hurt people and i try to stop hanging out with them and i gets sad. =(
    gothicromantic gothicromantic 16-17, F Jul 12, 2009

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    I'm scared of my emotions, and I don't know what to do. I try to fight them, to lock them away, or eliminate them, but no matter what I do, no matter how logical I try to be, I can...
    Nix0 Nix0 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 12

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    I always feel pain when go through emotions. That makes me weak. I am a emotional person. If I feel for some one can not able to detached my emotions away. People says should not...
    Smunai Smunai 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 14

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    When there are things that happened that you swear you never wanted...but your friends say you do. And did. And you beg them to trust your voice alone. But they refuse to believe...
    Levi1 Levi1 13-15, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I can show emotions like anger or hapiness but thats about it, the other emotions are just too uncomfortable and awkward for me. My sister once called me heartless for not reacting...
    bloodstone98 bloodstone98 16-17, F Jul 5

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    They run us, they rule every fibre in us.... we hate them, we love them, we need them to make us human... We try to shut them out, close them out, turn them off or just push...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F Jul 15

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    I don't know what's wrong with me. Just all of a sudden be become paranoid. It's been going on for almost two weeks. I feel watched, I feel like any second something is going to...
    secretlyfelix secretlyfelix 18-21, F Jul 5

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    Absolutely. I count myself as an emotional person and in turn, my emotions have a huge impact on me. I sometimes make decisions based on them, I let them rule me without knowing it...
    MindvsHeartAJ MindvsHeartAJ 18-21, T Jul 9

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    I am scared of the uncertainity which clouds our lives.I am scared of how everything will work out in the end. I am scared of changing yet the only way to outgrow one's fear is to...
    booklover4ever booklover4ever 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 20

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    I was drawing Tuesday night.. And I was listening to music I do that so I don't get scared. I used to be afraid to go in my own room. me and Jake used to sleep with dad every...
    KovusShame KovusShame 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    Right now I'm sitting here terrified that my two year old daughter might be sick and throw up. Terrified. I'm shaking, I'm dizzy, I feel nauseous just from the thought. Why? Who...
    jaisikae jaisikae 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 3

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    Why do I think like this? My mother thinks I'm going crazy. She wants to take me to the doctors. I just can't sleep or eat. I'm tired but I can't sleep. I had a panic attack a...
    Raven628 Raven628 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 9

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    I want to release all my emotions and beat someone to a bloody pulp
    sorrybouttheugly sorrybouttheugly 16-17 Jul 6

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    I want to release all my emotions and beat someone to a bloody pulp
    sorrybouttheugly sorrybouttheugly 16-17 Jul 6

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    I'm sick and tired of opening up to people who just take me for granted. You think you can trust someone and then they use it as a weakness. This makes me tend to hide my emotions...
    eliam14 eliam14 18-21, M Jul 12

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    I don't like to talk about my feelings or what's going on in my life; it makes me feel stupid, and when I try to talk to people about why I hold in my feelings I get a lecture...
    oliviarosev oliviarosev 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 13

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    I'm tired of feeling like I'm going to be replaced.. I hate having to feel like everything I do I mess up.. I was taught to stay strong but I can't when people are messing with my...
    annabell89 annabell89 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 14

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    when I have no control over them. once we learn to control our emotions we can lean from them, learn about who we are and what we believe in
    Li1981 Li1981 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 14

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    We separated just over a month ago and I did not do well at first where as you appeared to be managing better. Then a while later, you showed how you really felt, but alas it was...
    whoosah whoosah 31-35, M Jul 15

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    I'm 20 years old Muslim background girl....i love my religion and i'm really proud to be born as a muslim girl....The plot twist is if you ask me am i a loyal Muslim follower the...
    FelixFelicity03 FelixFelicity03 18-21, F Jul 16

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    I have really strong feelings and emotions sometimes. Sometimes it's a blessing, and sometimes it can be a curse haha... right now it's kind of a mixture of both. :/
    Oasisdawn3 Oasisdawn3 18-21, F a week ago

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    They say that saying how you feel will make you feel better , but they are lying I'd rather bottle these emotions and feel nothing at all , then feel so much pain and not know what...
    mimilsu mimilsu 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    Think My Emotions Are Like a Rollercoaster Sometimes
    michigan11 michigan11 22-25, M 1 day ago

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    Hi, my name is Tiffany. I have a strong connection with this experience mainly because it happened this year. I've been in relationships that range from 1month to 10months, but...
    Tiffersneeze Tiffersneeze 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 30

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    i was on this ride and at the beginning of the ride i was scared anxious, and knew something was wrong i wanted to get off but the men reassured me that nothing would go wrong i...
    AnnaDevigne AnnaDevigne 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 10

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    Imagine a single flower for our soul and with each encounter of our potential find in a perfect soul mate they pick a petal from us. They disappear with apart of us, our petal...
    Xenasdreams Xenasdreams 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 21

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    I'm terrified my mom is going to get a check-up at the doctors soon and I'm just so scared that she's gonna be diagnosed with cancer I've been crying for about 20 minutes now...
    oOMissDiorOo oOMissDiorOo 13-15, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I'm really scared that I'm gonna be pregnant. I had unprotected sex with a guy who already has two kids and he ********** in me. I take bc but I'm not very consistent and I'm...
    kitten96 kitten96 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I'm really scared to tell my boyfriend about all the abuse I went through as kid. I am also scared to tell him about how my mom try's to control me all the time.
    findingbeauty2468 findingbeauty2468 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 30

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    I am scared. I feel like there is so much wrong with me... But I keep it in... And someday... I'll explode. A part of me thinks I should go get help. Help with every thing. But...
    TubaAtheist TubaAtheist 18-21, F Jul 1

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    I want to know my real family but I'm scared they'll hate me because I love them so much and I've never even met them yet physically. I worry that I'll be a burden to them, that...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F Jul 1

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