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I Am Scared of My Emotions

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    The More I Feel, The Further I Run

    I've just realised something about myself recently. The stronger I feel towards something or someone, the more I push it/him/her away. The more intense the emotion, the more I get unsettled and uncomfortable. My reaction: run away. Run as fast as I can and don't look back. I also...
    lyn2726 lyn2726 31-35, F 2 Responses May 11, 2012

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    I'm scared of getting close to people

    as I've been hurt quite a lot, now I'm struggling and I feel like breaking down half the time, I'm so stressed and annoyed and angry, yesterday I burst into tears because I couldn't find my left shoe.
    BritishK BritishK 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 8

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    My Emotions

    are like another person.  They are an entity unto themselves.  My passions can be horrifying and intense.  Last night I deleted my entire post in a fit of rage.  Nothing violent, just intense anger.  I felt I was too addicted to this site, which to some...
    lightpainter lightpainter 56-60, M 3 Responses May 5, 2010

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    Don't Know What to Do

     sometimes like right now the way I feel really scares me, I feel so alone so depressed that it feels like nothing will ever get better no matter how hard I try, I begin to feel so worthless that I can't help feeling like the world is better off without me . This is where...
    sweetstacey sweetstacey 26-30, F Aug 26, 2008

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    Not Just Scared - Terrified

    i've been controlling my emotions for years, i use to be very good at in fact. But these days i'm having more problems at controling, it's like what use to a calm lake has become the raging and i'm hard pressed to keep it all locked behind my mask. I'm terrified that i will lose...
    Corlath Corlath 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 17, 2010

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    Repressed And Bottle Up My Emotions

    I bottle up and repressed my emotions because i am very afraid of expressing it and feeling overwhelmed. I am afraid of how repressing it only make it worst. The more repressing and bottle up i do, the more lonely, depressed i feel. Isn't this normal?
    TinaFeyforever TinaFeyforever 26-30, F Feb 20, 2013

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    I Wrote This...this Is How I Feel

    Love is a myth and everyday i kill to try to make it true, id die for you,my life for you,my everything is you. but you dont see what i see,Do You? i see love in black and white,no colors what so ever, No one sees how dark it is,no one knows what its like under the cover, hide...
    TheMyth TheMyth 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 31, 2012

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    Only the Topping

    When i get angry or sad i barely show it but im afraid that if i show it it will explode. If i get to angry (which i never let myself do) im afraid that i would do something drastic and lose something close to me. and if i get too sad ill be sad for days and become sick. i only...
    theshortloud1 theshortloud1 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 18, 2009

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    I Am Afraid Of Losing Control Of Myself

    Some details may be upsetting. FYI.  I do not trust myself. I don't trust anyone else, either. I have been dealing with severe depression and anxiety for about two years (I've had it all my life, but it's been really, really bad these past 2 years). I have not been working-- I...
    spacebear spacebear 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 12, 2013

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    Emotions

    Emotions,They scare me,Sometimes,I don't understand,Please bare with me,I'm doing my best.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Dec 16, 2011

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    I Fake Happiness So Well

    Im 21, 6'2, black/japanese, I work at A&F its my job to pretend that im happy, im supposed to wear a smile everyday but when I clock out im back to my miserable reality. I hate myself. I hate my life. Im useless, broke with no car, low self-esteem and social anxiety. I walk...
    jjuarezz jjuarezz 22-25, M Jun 14, 2013

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    Learning ...

    I rarely show much emotion in day to day life.  I am generally cheerful and usually have a smile.  It's all part of the job really.  I am nice to people - if someone is feeling down I am the one who makes cups of tea and provides the soothing words.  Generally...
    womaninbliss womaninbliss 51-55, F 5 Responses Jan 30, 2010

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    I Have Become A Monster

    i am not doing a good job of adjusting to my new family, i mean i thought i was but now i realize im not. They adopted me to help me and put me in a better place. My past is filled with all types of repeated abuse and lots of different foster homes...something I keep trying to...
    AquilaAqua AquilaAqua 13-15, M 2 Responses Sep 29, 2012

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    Surrender

    I come from a broken home that appears to be perfect.i belong no where because i am unusual.i do not appear to be normal, and i have never met anyone like me.i push away those who seem to care about me,in fear of hurting them.i fear everything in life.i worry about every word i...
    Alightonthewater Alightonthewater 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 15, 2011

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    Personality Changes?

    my emotions change so much to were i get sudden personallity change to were i start to hurt people and i try to stop hanging out with them and i gets sad. =(
    gothicromantic gothicromantic 16-17, F Jul 12, 2009

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    Once Bitten...

    I fell into depression, that lasted for about a decade.  Whether or not my lifestyle (unhappily married) contributed, influenced, or made it, I don't know, but that life was destroyed before I found my way out.  Yes, out.  It's been over a year since I had a major...
    zenandi zenandi 31-35, M 3 Responses Jul 12, 2009

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    It'S Been Some Time

    Hi, everyone. It's been some time since I've shared anything. I've been a bit down lately and tonight I sort of have an "aha" moment. I realised that I might be scared of my emotions, but at the same time, I chase after them. Take problems, for example. I don't like them. Nobody...
    lyn2726 lyn2726 31-35, F Mar 7, 2013

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    2 U

    My emotions have gotten me into a lot of trouble in recent times so I find myself questioning if they will continue to do so where you are concerned. I don't want to get hurt again so I play cat and mouse getting more scared the the closer you get to me. I am always the mouse in...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 19 Responses Jan 30, 2010

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    Can't Afford To Feel Things.

    I know that in order to get beyond certain things from my past, and get beyond my depression, I need to talk about them.  The problem is that when I've discussed painful things with my therapist, it's left me in a state where I can't function for days.  I'm so afraid that if...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 30, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    I'm scared of... probably hundreds of things in this world. Many of these fear came from my past, came from random moments and others were just because I had them. And most of them...
    jxstagirl jxstagirl 13-15, F Nov 7

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    I'm so F()$@ing Alone I know plenty of people in my life. I used to think I was alone when I was surrounded by people. Now I realize, I'm so alone because, I am alone. It's a...
    Atlas0Scar Atlas0Scar 18-21, M Nov 8

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    Well, it happened. I've lost the person I love. He's gone. He presented what he thought would be deal breakers for me in this relationship, and I accepted them. He left me anyway...
    NastasyaFilippovna NastasyaFilippovna 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 23

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    I'm starting to fall in love with my classmate and I feel very guilty because I'm not able to control my feelings.I'm scared to get hurt again and with all those emotions that take...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses a week ago

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    I'm using the depression as a shield. And although it has made me not want to be here You don't need to fear me trying to take my life away Because there is no point I will fail...
    innerself000 innerself000 18-21, F Oct 24

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    It's hard to open up to someone when you once shut off for really long time and decided to lose up for one person and slowly but surely open for someone. Funny what once stranger...
    masmelo masmelo 16-17, F 1 Response a week ago

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    whenever u feel scared or mean or angry or sad : say fast I love you I thank you I am sorry I forgive you this blesses the vibes around you
    carloslara7 carloslara7 31-35, M 5 days ago

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    I'm hurt all the time. I don't want to cry for the way I feel inside. I just want someone to hold me... I'm alone in the dark, please try to find me. If no one cares, I don't see a...
    nivanvc nivanvc 36-40, M 3 days ago

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    I am learning t to accept low level emotions. I have difficulty with emotions. I feel them, I always have, I just don't like to feel them. I have battled with them before and I am...
    tryingagainII tryingagainII 56-60, M Nov 7

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    Bottling isn't a strong enough word. I used to outright deny them. Pretend they didn't exist. That's done a huge amount of damage I think. It's only... Last three months, maybe...
    sometimeslonelytoo sometimeslonelytoo 41-45, M 6 Responses Oct 23

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    It never really occurred to me that my teachers could be a danger to me or anyone around me until the day I graduated from Primary school. I saw this teacher(who never taught me...
    AbyssalSilence AbyssalSilence 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 27

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    We were distant. For the past 2 weeks I barely saw her and barely messaged her. I don't want to lose her. I don't want to be alone. I'm sorry for my imperfections. If only I...
    SomeGuy322 SomeGuy322 16-17, M Oct 25

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    I'm scared of falling in love. I'm scared of being friends. I'm scared of talking. I'm scared if social interaction because what if they judge me
    rawerimadino rawerimadino 16-17, F 4 Responses Nov 4

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    Lately my emotions have been up at down lately. I'm not talking about being bi-polar but the things I'm surrounded with everyday seem to really **** me off. I'm not sure if it's...
    Arexa Arexa 13-15 1 Response Oct 23

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    Just been tired of my emotions lately
    Izy96 Izy96 18-21, F Oct 29

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    I tend to hide my emotions and block people out. I also tend to put on a mask and act like nothings wrong. But honestly in reality im breaking. With my best friends and family im...
    fabiola214 fabiola214 13-15, F Nov 3

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    I miss her so much how are you even suppose to cope? bullying done this too her, bullying took my best ******* friend away! how can someone be so cruel to do that to another...
    skyelybooo skyelybooo 16-17, F Nov 8

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    This is one of the times I can't ******* control my emotions. Only rationality is fighting with my body to going into my mom's room, beating the **** out of her while he squirms...
    Superpoke Superpoke 13-15, M 1 Response Nov 9

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    The only emotions people can barely see in me is mad.
    meandmythought meandmythought 26-30, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I have personally done this for years, for so long that it's just a part of me now. After years of constant verbal and psychological, sometimes physical, abuse/bullying throughout...
    thx10050 thx10050 31-35, M 2 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    I'm very scared of balloons. Especially the ones with helium. As a kid I ran out of the house when balloons were being popped by my mom. I can't stand the loud bang from a rubber...
    Balloonboy33 Balloonboy33 26-30, M 3 Responses Nov 4

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    Yup I get scared. I get scared after watch scary movies at night and I get scared when I go on a night time walk. My biggest fear is being replaced. I hate it but I can't help it...
    Raptax231 Raptax231 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 5

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    Actually, I'm scared to hell of injections, but not from VC or IV needles or any needle used to draw blood outta my body. I know the needle will go directly to one of my veins. The...
    EarlPhantomhive EarlPhantomhive 18-21, F Nov 7

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    So, even though I broke it off, I am still scared of my now ex. When we were together he would try to get me alone with him... When we were alone he would start kissing me and...
    xxbrokengirl98xx xxbrokengirl98xx 16-17, F 4 Responses Oct 22

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    I'm so scared i'm going to lose my mum she got a lesion taken off her finger and the doctor said it was precancerous so they got it before anything developed but what if they're...
    ccher95 ccher95 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 24

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    I'm scared of everything...the dark because it manifests itself into creatures, boys because of their abusive tendencies, the thunder and wind because of how loud it violently...
    Quackimaducky Quackimaducky 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 24

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    i'm so scared of growing up. i don't want to leave school... i know i'll miss seeing people everyday, and i'll be so scared to leave my hometown for university
    artandtravel artandtravel 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 25

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    Well I have to get test done on Monday to see if I have Leukaemia and lung cancer. My doctor is worried about me cause I have been bruising for no reason and he said that there is...
    Byebyebabe Byebyebabe 46-50, F 2 Responses Nov 2

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