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I Am Scared of My Emotions

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    I Wrote This...this Is How I Feel

    Love is a myth and everyday i kill to try to make it true, id die for you,my life for you,my everything is you. but you dont see what i see,Do You? i see love in black and white,no colors what so ever, No one sees how dark it is,no one knows what its like under the cover, hide...
    TheMyth TheMyth 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 31, 2012

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    Personality Changes?

    my emotions change so much to were i get sudden personallity change to were i start to hurt people and i try to stop hanging out with them and i gets sad. =(
    gothicromantic gothicromantic 16-17, F Jul 12, 2009

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    Not Just Scared - Terrified

    i've been controlling my emotions for years, i use to be very good at in fact. But these days i'm having more problems at controling, it's like what use to a calm lake has become the raging and i'm hard pressed to keep it all locked behind my mask. I'm terrified that i will lose...
    Corlath Corlath 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 17, 2010

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    I Am Afraid Of Losing Control Of Myself

    Some details may be upsetting. FYI.  I do not trust myself. I don't trust anyone else, either. I have been dealing with severe depression and anxiety for about two years (I've had it all my life, but it's been really, really bad these past 2 years). I have not been working-- I...
    spacebear spacebear 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 12, 2013

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    Once Bitten...

    I fell into depression, that lasted for about a decade.  Whether or not my lifestyle (unhappily married) contributed, influenced, or made it, I don't know, but that life was destroyed before I found my way out.  Yes, out.  It's been over a year since I had a major...
    zenandi zenandi 31-35, M 3 Responses Jul 12, 2009

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    I Have Become A Monster

    i am not doing a good job of adjusting to my new family, i mean i thought i was but now i realize im not. They adopted me to help me and put me in a better place. My past is filled with all types of repeated abuse and lots of different foster homes...something I keep trying to...
    AquilaAqua AquilaAqua 13-15, M 1 Response Sep 29, 2012

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    It'S Been Some Time

    Hi, everyone. It's been some time since I've shared anything. I've been a bit down lately and tonight I sort of have an "aha" moment. I realised that I might be scared of my emotions, but at the same time, I chase after them. Take problems, for example. I don't like them. Nobody...
    lyn2726 lyn2726 31-35, F Mar 7, 2013

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    Don't Know What to Do

     sometimes like right now the way I feel really scares me, I feel so alone so depressed that it feels like nothing will ever get better no matter how hard I try, I begin to feel so worthless that I can't help feeling like the world is better off without me . This is where...
    sweetstacey sweetstacey 26-30, F Aug 26, 2008

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    Only the Topping

    When i get angry or sad i barely show it but im afraid that if i show it it will explode. If i get to angry (which i never let myself do) im afraid that i would do something drastic and lose something close to me. and if i get too sad ill be sad for days and become sick. i only...
    theshortloud1 theshortloud1 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 18, 2009

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    The More I Feel, The Further I Run

    I've just realised something about myself recently. The stronger I feel towards something or someone, the more I push it/him/her away. The more intense the emotion, the more I get unsettled and uncomfortable. My reaction: run away. Run as fast as I can and don't look back. I also...
    lyn2726 lyn2726 31-35, F 2 Responses May 11, 2012

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    My Emotions

    are like another person.  They are an entity unto themselves.  My passions can be horrifying and intense.  Last night I deleted my entire post in a fit of rage.  Nothing violent, just intense anger.  I felt I was too addicted to this site, which to some...
    lightpainter lightpainter 56-60, M 3 Responses May 5, 2010

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    Emotions

    Emotions,They scare me,Sometimes,I don't understand,Please bare with me,I'm doing my best.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Dec 16, 2011

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    Can't Afford To Feel Things.

    I know that in order to get beyond certain things from my past, and get beyond my depression, I need to talk about them.  The problem is that when I've discussed painful things with my therapist, it's left me in a state where I can't function for days.  I'm so afraid that if...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 30, 2012

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    2 U

    My emotions have gotten me into a lot of trouble in recent times so I find myself questioning if they will continue to do so where you are concerned. I don't want to get hurt again so I play cat and mouse getting more scared the the closer you get to me. I am always the mouse in...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 17 Responses Jan 30, 2010

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    Repressed And Bottle Up My Emotions

    I bottle up and repressed my emotions because i am very afraid of expressing it and feeling overwhelmed. I am afraid of how repressing it only make it worst. The more repressing and bottle up i do, the more lonely, depressed i feel. Isn't this normal?
    TinaFeyforever TinaFeyforever 26-30, F Feb 20, 2013

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    I'm scared of getting close to people

    as I've been hurt quite a lot, now I'm struggling and I feel like breaking down half the time, I'm so stressed and annoyed and angry, yesterday I burst into tears because I couldn't find my left shoe.
    BritishK BritishK 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 8, 2014

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    Surrender

    I come from a broken home that appears to be perfect.i belong no where because i am unusual.i do not appear to be normal, and i have never met anyone like me.i push away those who seem to care about me,in fear of hurting them.i fear everything in life.i worry about every word i...
    Alightonthewater Alightonthewater 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 15, 2011

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    Learning ...

    I rarely show much emotion in day to day life.  I am generally cheerful and usually have a smile.  It's all part of the job really.  I am nice to people - if someone is feeling down I am the one who makes cups of tea and provides the soothing words.  Generally...
    womaninbliss womaninbliss 51-55, F 4 Responses Jan 30, 2010

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    Oh **** that. So what if I get attached? what if he leaves me? what if I get heartbroken? Am I really going to live the rest of my life fearing the consequences ? If that's the...
    psychicfrost psychicfrost 18-21, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    i honestly wish i was crazy. i probably am. it all started a few years ago. a fire had burned down my house and the only thing that had survived it was a doll i made. naturally i...
    selselsky selselsky 13-15, F 5 hrs ago

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    one observers opinion here is that people need to learn how to do the opposite of what their emotions are telling them to do. WHEN? Example when someone brings up the past and...
    Teal6 Teal6 36-40, F 21 hrs ago

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    I'm scared of relationships because I've seen fake ones more than I've seen real ones. Nobody is true anymore. I question if real love even exists. My now ex boyfriend cheated on...
    Livers95 Livers95 18-21, F 1 Response 22 hrs ago

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    I used to have this middle school friend that I spent most of my school days with. I thought she was a good friend but she was selfish. She only thought about herself all the times...
    Beanyy25 Beanyy25 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I'm certainly the best at this I can't stand showing emotion, I don't even like showing emotions wen I'm alone I feel like I'm about to cry I start punching walls and ****. Like...
    AmbitiousNature AmbitiousNature 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I'm scared. I'm really scared at the moment. I read for my life, I feel like I'm going to die.
    LurkingShadow LurkingShadow 13-15, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm sitting here alone in my apartment after I refused an invitation to go out and do something. I... just can't seem to do it after the conversation that I had with one of my...
    FireCoyote FireCoyote 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    I am scared. Me my 17 year old sister and 13 year old brother are gonna talk to my tablet addicted mother and my alcoholic father tomorrow.We are gonna tell them how we feel and...
    MusicLover4Eternity MusicLover4Eternity 13-15, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    I feel like I can't open up to anyone unless it's completely anonymous (hence me being on this site). I think that's part of the reason that I feel so lonely, because I can't talk...
    AWalkingCliche AWalkingCliche 16-17, M 3 days ago

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    It's hard for me to express my emotions since i hate crying. I cry when im mad or sad. I guess I just dont want to show my vulnerable side to people. I'm used to being my own...
    Artandabstarct Artandabstarct 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I know that I'm only 13 but I think I have fallin in love before. It's just that when I did I got heartbroken! Ever since then it's been hard for me to trust any guys. Like are you...
    Disappointed01 Disappointed01 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    It's not that I'm scared of the prospect of entering a relationship, it's that I'm scared of being in one and my partner leaving... It takes two people to begin a relationship, but...
    briannawolf briannawolf 18-21, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    I feel so unexperienced, such a pathetic little person in this huge world. My parents have made me scared of a slight change or challenge, I am a home rat, sitting and waiting for...
    Lltenti Lltenti 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Something knocked on my window a few mins ago waking me from my sleep and I'm scared asf. I went to see what it was and NO ONE WAS THERE, I went to go see if it was my cousin...
    peacemcmarion peacemcmarion 16-17, M 6 days ago

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    I'm so scared of the future. I'm going to uni, but I'm so scared of making any wrong decisions. I'm absolutely scared to death that these wrong decisions will turn into a bad...
    notarikon notarikon 16-17 1 Response 6 days ago

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    The reason is simple. I don't belong in the kingdom of love. Love isn't something my body, my mind, my thoughts are meant for. My personality is too complicated and sometimes...
    colourflame colourflame 13-15, F 5 Responses 6 days ago

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    My emotions are all swirled up inside of me and i wish they'd go away. I wish i didn't care about anything
    annonymous56 annonymous56 13-15, F a week ago

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    I'm only young, 19, but I am terrified of relationships. I have commitment issues. I can find a guy I love and obsess over him but as soon as he gets close to me (like as a...
    IndianaRoyals IndianaRoyals 18-21, F 8 Responses a week ago

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    What is fear? This constant feeling of being 'scared' It's a torturous feeling if you do not know how to control it. In other words, Fear is a beast that needs to be defeated. It...
    Terrabyte12 Terrabyte12 16-17, M Jun 22

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    As an empathic person I'd like to take a minute to compare some people and their emotions to the basic definition of a Black hole, not as an insult but as psychological awareness...
    zehero zehero 22-25, M Jun 21

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    ....and that's exactly how it is.Breaking off a relationship is never easy, no matter on which end you find yourself. Especially if it was a bad relationship where you...
    JaneD22 JaneD22 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 19

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    I hate not being able to express my emotions
    samesame101 samesame101 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 17

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    That's my bestfriend and we went to a food chain to talk about her problems about her boyfriend-------The main reason why is that i don't want to get hurt. I sometimes comfort my...
    ritztwain ritztwain 18-21, M Jun 17

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    I don't think many people have read my stories, but if anyone has or does, thank you. Life has been quite a rollercoaster and I feel I've lived, which is good. But (yeah, that...
    Sporadico Sporadico 18-21, M Jun 16

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