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I Am Scared of My Emotions

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    Can't Afford To Feel Things.

    I know that in order to get beyond certain things from my past, and get beyond my depression, I need to talk about them.  The problem is that when I've discussed painful things with my therapist, it's left me in a state where I can't function for days.  I'm so afraid that if...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 30, 2012

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    It'S Been Some Time

    Hi, everyone. It's been some time since I've shared anything. I've been a bit down lately and tonight I sort of have an "aha" moment. I realised that I might be scared of my emotions, but at the same time, I chase after them. Take problems, for example. I don't like them. Nobody...
    lyn2726 lyn2726 31-35, F Mar 7, 2013

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    Once Bitten...

    I fell into depression, that lasted for about a decade.  Whether or not my lifestyle (unhappily married) contributed, influenced, or made it, I don't know, but that life was destroyed before I found my way out.  Yes, out.  It's been over a year since I had a major...
    zenandi zenandi 31-35, M 3 Responses Jul 12, 2009

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    I Have Become A Monster

    i am not doing a good job of adjusting to my new family, i mean i thought i was but now i realize im not. They adopted me to help me and put me in a better place. My past is filled with all types of repeated abuse and lots of different foster homes...something I keep trying to...
    AquilaAqua AquilaAqua 13-15, M 2 Responses Sep 29, 2012

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    Only the Topping

    When i get angry or sad i barely show it but im afraid that if i show it it will explode. If i get to angry (which i never let myself do) im afraid that i would do something drastic and lose something close to me. and if i get too sad ill be sad for days and become sick. i only...
    theshortloud1 theshortloud1 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 18, 2009

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    The More I Feel, The Further I Run

    I've just realised something about myself recently. The stronger I feel towards something or someone, the more I push it/him/her away. The more intense the emotion, the more I get unsettled and uncomfortable. My reaction: run away. Run as fast as I can and don't look back. I also...
    lyn2726 lyn2726 31-35, F 2 Responses May 11, 2012

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    2 U

    My emotions have gotten me into a lot of trouble in recent times so I find myself questioning if they will continue to do so where you are concerned. I don't want to get hurt again so I play cat and mouse getting more scared the the closer you get to me. I am always the mouse in...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 19 Responses Jan 30, 2010

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    Personality Changes?

    my emotions change so much to were i get sudden personallity change to were i start to hurt people and i try to stop hanging out with them and i gets sad. =(
    gothicromantic gothicromantic 16-17, F Jul 12, 2009

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    Learning ...

    I rarely show much emotion in day to day life.  I am generally cheerful and usually have a smile.  It's all part of the job really.  I am nice to people - if someone is feeling down I am the one who makes cups of tea and provides the soothing words.  Generally...
    womaninbliss womaninbliss 51-55, F 5 Responses Jan 30, 2010

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    My Emotions

    are like another person.  They are an entity unto themselves.  My passions can be horrifying and intense.  Last night I deleted my entire post in a fit of rage.  Nothing violent, just intense anger.  I felt I was too addicted to this site, which to some...
    lightpainter lightpainter 56-60, M 3 Responses May 5, 2010

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    Surrender

    I come from a broken home that appears to be perfect.i belong no where because i am unusual.i do not appear to be normal, and i have never met anyone like me.i push away those who seem to care about me,in fear of hurting them.i fear everything in life.i worry about every word i...
    Alightonthewater Alightonthewater 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 15, 2011

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    Don't Know What to Do

     sometimes like right now the way I feel really scares me, I feel so alone so depressed that it feels like nothing will ever get better no matter how hard I try, I begin to feel so worthless that I can't help feeling like the world is better off without me . This is where...
    sweetstacey sweetstacey 26-30, F Aug 26, 2008

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    I Fake Happiness So Well

    Im 21, 6'2, black/japanese, I work at A&F its my job to pretend that im happy, im supposed to wear a smile everyday but when I clock out im back to my miserable reality. I hate myself. I hate my life. Im useless, broke with no car, low self-esteem and social anxiety. I walk...
    jjuarezz jjuarezz 22-25, M Jun 14, 2013

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    I Wrote This...this Is How I Feel

    Love is a myth and everyday i kill to try to make it true, id die for you,my life for you,my everything is you. but you dont see what i see,Do You? i see love in black and white,no colors what so ever, No one sees how dark it is,no one knows what its like under the cover, hide...
    TheMyth TheMyth 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 31, 2012

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    Repressed And Bottle Up My Emotions

    I bottle up and repressed my emotions because i am very afraid of expressing it and feeling overwhelmed. I am afraid of how repressing it only make it worst. The more repressing and bottle up i do, the more lonely, depressed i feel. Isn't this normal?
    TinaFeyforever TinaFeyforever 26-30, F Feb 20, 2013

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    Not Just Scared - Terrified

    i've been controlling my emotions for years, i use to be very good at in fact. But these days i'm having more problems at controling, it's like what use to a calm lake has become the raging and i'm hard pressed to keep it all locked behind my mask. I'm terrified that i will lose...
    Corlath Corlath 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 17, 2010

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    I'm scared of getting close to people

    as I've been hurt quite a lot, now I'm struggling and I feel like breaking down half the time, I'm so stressed and annoyed and angry, yesterday I burst into tears because I couldn't find my left shoe.
    BritishK BritishK 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 8

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    I Am Afraid Of Losing Control Of Myself

    Some details may be upsetting. FYI.  I do not trust myself. I don't trust anyone else, either. I have been dealing with severe depression and anxiety for about two years (I've had it all my life, but it's been really, really bad these past 2 years). I have not been working-- I...
    spacebear spacebear 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 12, 2013

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    Emotions

    Emotions,They scare me,Sometimes,I don't understand,Please bare with me,I'm doing my best.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Dec 16, 2011

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    I don't know. I just have a feeling and it's scaring me. I haven't been me this week and I haven't been able to control my emotions. I've been more negative even when I'm trying...
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    The walls are tall and thick, for what lies behind them are protected from the harsh world.Once there were no walls at all....torn to pieces by people who kept taking piece by...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F Nov 29

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    lonetraveller24 lonetraveller24 26-30, F Dec 10

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    Commitment scares the **** out of meIt's the skipped beats and heart pains which shattered most of my illusions of love and relationships. It is the promises and people who over...
    BloviatingBuffoon BloviatingBuffoon 70+, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I use my emotions as a guide for me. I use anger to let me know that something is blocking me from having what I want. I use happiness to let me know I am getting what I want. I...
    tryingagainII tryingagainII 56-60, M 3 Responses Nov 30

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    Hi, so I guess I'll start by telling you about myself and what I've been going through. I'm 17, currently still studying, love animals, enjoy learning, relish in vacations and...I...
    hesitations hesitations 16-17, M Dec 3

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    when I was little my dad beat me and yelled not to cry...Or else I would get more... Perhaps that's how this all started then throughout my teen years I've had a few mentally...
    boxgirl1987 boxgirl1987 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 23

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    I want to learn how to handle my emotions while under attack. It is critical to be able to be my best self, or at least an acceptable version of myself, when I am under attack...
    tryingagainII tryingagainII 56-60, M Dec 3

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    so from my own experiences, it is not ok to show how you are feeling if it is in any way negative. I am at a low right now, and any time i dont want to talk or am not peppy happy...
    lilbit33 lilbit33 22-25, F Dec 4

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    its so crazy how people can be so up and down 24 hours a day. How a person can change your mood from one moment to the next.or an experience can make you feel either powerful or...
    neesieluv neesieluv 22-25, F Dec 11

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    The only emotions people can barely see in me is mad.
    meandmythought meandmythought 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 19

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    I have personally done this for years, for so long that it's just a part of me now. After years of constant verbal and psychological, sometimes physical, abuse/bullying throughout...
    thx10050 thx10050 31-35, M 5 Responses Nov 20

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    I have mixed emotions about a certain person who I'm very close with. A part of me want everything that's best for them because of course me being your friend i want nothing but...
    cookii cookii 18-21, F Nov 22

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    Isn't Thanksgiving Day supposed to be spent with your family and surrounded by love? And if somebody doesn't want to do something or say something, why do they accuse you for...
    breannabmk1023 breannabmk1023 13-15, F Nov 27

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    When I feel hurt I get angry and when I get angry I become stubborn and resentful. I have a war inside myself and the other person has no clue about it. They don't know how I feel...
    bexk bexk 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 28

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    I don't know what it is. But I'm just so mad, sad, upset, depressed. I have mixed emotions right now and it's just so overwhelming, also my little brother has bad anger issues and...
    Midnightangelx Midnightangelx 16-17, F Nov 29

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    I'm desperately trying to control my breathing, so that I don't start bursting a rage, and cry. ****, I hate emotions.
    PokeCotard PokeCotard 13-15, M Dec 1

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    So I'm definitely someone who is less emotional and more logical because, for some reason, I always associate emotions with irrationality, even though that's not always the case...
    VicAshley01 VicAshley01 26-30, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Every time I think about this my heart threatens to pound it's way out of my chest. Okay so I'm getting some feeling for this amazing guy. But I'm scared. And at first I thought...
    DeijiDaze DeijiDaze 18-21, F Nov 22

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    I am like an after school Au Pair (or in america "babysitter" for this little girl who lives near me named Vivien but I just call her Viv. And her and her mum got in a bad car...
    LandonS LandonS 16-17, M 1 Response Dec 7

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    Yes I'm scared of relationships. Every time I have liked a guy and tried going for it they would hurt me before we even got into the relationship so I have been scared of getting...
    brenda4696 brenda4696 18-21, F 6 Responses Dec 10

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    I'm scared of abuse when I'm in relationships with my girlfriend. Sometimes I don't like when she hit me or do stuff like abused me. It can be end up of our relationship. Cause I'm...
    shaqwanna shaqwanna 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 19

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    Im scared of myself. i look in the mirror and i don't recognize the person staring back at me. i don't like her. we haven't known each other very long. actually, i don't know her...
    wishingforrecovery wishingforrecovery 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 23

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    I'm so scared of it somedays. People treat old people like a disease or like they are a joke. Just because of their outward appearance. Especially teenagers. It makes me so sad...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 1 Response Nov 24

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    So I know my other stories have been depressing and mostly me being so negative saying I'll never find love, or that happiness of a relationship.. well that's true, but it's just...
    kmisfit123 kmisfit123 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 25

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    I have always been scared of the ocean, i know how to swim but I'm scared of sharks and jelly fish. People are like there is a small chance that you will ever be bitten. I say...
    MichaelEgitto MichaelEgitto 13-15, M 1 Response Nov 26

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    I have had too much rejection in the past, especially for my age; and none of it has been dating. I have absolutely, positively, 100% no chance with dating. So I am scared to even...