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I Am Scared of My Emotions

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    Can't Afford To Feel Things.

    I know that in order to get beyond certain things from my past, and get beyond my depression, I need to talk about them.  The problem is that when I've discussed painful things with my therapist, it's left me in a state where I can't function for days.  I'm so afraid that if...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 30, 2012

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    I Fake Happiness So Well

    Im 21, 6'2, black/japanese, I work at A&F its my job to pretend that im happy, im supposed to wear a smile everyday but when I clock out im back to my miserable reality. I hate myself. I hate my life. Im useless, broke with no car, low self-esteem and social anxiety. I walk...
    jjuarezz jjuarezz 22-25, M Jun 14, 2013

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    I Have Become A Monster

    i am not doing a good job of adjusting to my new family, i mean i thought i was but now i realize im not. They adopted me to help me and put me in a better place. My past is filled with all types of repeated abuse and lots of different foster homes...something I keep trying to...
    AquilaAqua AquilaAqua 13-15, M 2 Responses Sep 29, 2012

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    Personality Changes?

    my emotions change so much to were i get sudden personallity change to were i start to hurt people and i try to stop hanging out with them and i gets sad. =(
    gothicromantic gothicromantic 16-17, F Jul 12, 2009

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    The More I Feel, The Further I Run

    I've just realised something about myself recently. The stronger I feel towards something or someone, the more I push it/him/her away. The more intense the emotion, the more I get unsettled and uncomfortable. My reaction: run away. Run as fast as I can and don't look back. I also...
    lyn2726 lyn2726 31-35, F 2 Responses May 11, 2012

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    Surrender

    I come from a broken home that appears to be perfect.i belong no where because i am unusual.i do not appear to be normal, and i have never met anyone like me.i push away those who seem to care about me,in fear of hurting them.i fear everything in life.i worry about every word i...
    Alightonthewater Alightonthewater 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 15, 2011

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    Emotions

    Emotions,They scare me,Sometimes,I don't understand,Please bare with me,I'm doing my best.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Dec 16, 2011

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    Don't Know What to Do

     sometimes like right now the way I feel really scares me, I feel so alone so depressed that it feels like nothing will ever get better no matter how hard I try, I begin to feel so worthless that I can't help feeling like the world is better off without me . This is where...
    sweetstacey sweetstacey 26-30, F Aug 26, 2008

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    Once Bitten...

    I fell into depression, that lasted for about a decade.  Whether or not my lifestyle (unhappily married) contributed, influenced, or made it, I don't know, but that life was destroyed before I found my way out.  Yes, out.  It's been over a year since I had a major...
    zenandi zenandi 31-35, M 3 Responses Jul 12, 2009

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    2 U

    My emotions have gotten me into a lot of trouble in recent times so I find myself questioning if they will continue to do so where you are concerned. I don't want to get hurt again so I play cat and mouse getting more scared the the closer you get to me. I am always the mouse in...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 19 Responses Jan 30, 2010

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    Learning ...

    I rarely show much emotion in day to day life.  I am generally cheerful and usually have a smile.  It's all part of the job really.  I am nice to people - if someone is feeling down I am the one who makes cups of tea and provides the soothing words.  Generally...
    womaninbliss womaninbliss 51-55, F 5 Responses Jan 30, 2010

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    I'm scared of getting close to people

    as I've been hurt quite a lot, now I'm struggling and I feel like breaking down half the time, I'm so stressed and annoyed and angry, yesterday I burst into tears because I couldn't find my left shoe.
    BritishK BritishK 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 8, 2014

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    It'S Been Some Time

    Hi, everyone. It's been some time since I've shared anything. I've been a bit down lately and tonight I sort of have an "aha" moment. I realised that I might be scared of my emotions, but at the same time, I chase after them. Take problems, for example. I don't like them. Nobody...
    lyn2726 lyn2726 31-35, F Mar 7, 2013

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    Repressed And Bottle Up My Emotions

    I bottle up and repressed my emotions because i am very afraid of expressing it and feeling overwhelmed. I am afraid of how repressing it only make it worst. The more repressing and bottle up i do, the more lonely, depressed i feel. Isn't this normal?
    TinaFeyforever TinaFeyforever 26-30, F Feb 20, 2013

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    I Wrote This...this Is How I Feel

    Love is a myth and everyday i kill to try to make it true, id die for you,my life for you,my everything is you. but you dont see what i see,Do You? i see love in black and white,no colors what so ever, No one sees how dark it is,no one knows what its like under the cover, hide...
    TheMyth TheMyth 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 31, 2012

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    I Am Afraid Of Losing Control Of Myself

    Some details may be upsetting. FYI.  I do not trust myself. I don't trust anyone else, either. I have been dealing with severe depression and anxiety for about two years (I've had it all my life, but it's been really, really bad these past 2 years). I have not been working-- I...
    spacebear spacebear 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 12, 2013

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    Not Just Scared - Terrified

    i've been controlling my emotions for years, i use to be very good at in fact. But these days i'm having more problems at controling, it's like what use to a calm lake has become the raging and i'm hard pressed to keep it all locked behind my mask. I'm terrified that i will lose...
    Corlath Corlath 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 17, 2010

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    My Emotions

    are like another person.  They are an entity unto themselves.  My passions can be horrifying and intense.  Last night I deleted my entire post in a fit of rage.  Nothing violent, just intense anger.  I felt I was too addicted to this site, which to some...
    lightpainter lightpainter 56-60, M 3 Responses May 5, 2010

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    Only the Topping

    When i get angry or sad i barely show it but im afraid that if i show it it will explode. If i get to angry (which i never let myself do) im afraid that i would do something drastic and lose something close to me. and if i get too sad ill be sad for days and become sick. i only...
    theshortloud1 theshortloud1 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 18, 2009

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    Related Experiences

    it makes sense. rejection, heartbreak, loss. they're the most painful emotions. love ends up giving you those more often than not. I'm scared to love. love has ruined me.
    charkzilla20 charkzilla20 16-17, M Feb 14

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    I don't deal with emotions well. I tend to not deal with them at all, actually. I just ignore them. I pass off whatever it is I'm feeling as me just being dumb again, or I get mad...
    brimc7 brimc7 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 14

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    I met an amazing woman, we took it slow as friends first... first kiss... first date... and i of course developed feelings for her and she did it as well... you know, that kind of...
    sparrowmctavish sparrowmctavish 26-30, M Feb 4

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    I know you scared You should ask us if we scared too I know you scared Me too I know you scared You should ask us if we scared too If you was there Then we'd just knew you cared...
    LoneLegend LoneLegend 16-17, M 5 days ago

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    I know this is a little off since i'm talking about this and posting it a phew days later but bare in mind i'm just trying to figure everything out from everything before and now...
    BushMaster243 BushMaster243 16-17, M Feb 15

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    it's not like i like being this way, as if i am being this cold and emotionless on purpose. apparently, my normal facial expression makes me look like an angry serial killer. or...
    Kihon Kihon 16-17, F 3 Responses Feb 4

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    oooooo you play with my emotions or feelings you've awakens the bear/dog/dragon in me. word of advice just don't do it
    ashleysokolik ashleysokolik 13-15, F Feb 4

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    People never see the harrowing lust in me for savagery and anarchy. I struggle to order my amoral desires to conform alongside societal elements of culture which is bound by this...
    AcousticAnne AcousticAnne 26-30, F Feb 15

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    had to fight emotions alone now it's time to right my wrongs
    trevb trevb 18-21, M Feb 15

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    I may not be a handsome guy but lemme tell ya, that I respect the beauty of others. I may not have a perfect attitude but at least I tolerate egos of others. I may talk a lot to...
    viciouswarrior viciouswarrior 26-30, M Feb 21

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    The girl Alissa from Beyond Scared Straight that started crying when she met the inmates and got scared. I think she is so cute and i know she did bad stuff to be on the show but I...
    storykid storykid 18-21, M Feb 3

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    I am scared of the people in this house. They abused my wife to the point where her brain felt the need to split up and have alters handle it. She has DID because of what they...
    Remotay88 Remotay88 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 6

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    Last night at 2 something in the morning i decided to watch a horror film. My three kids were deep asleep in bed. My visiting sister was asleep on my couch, so that left my mum and...
    queenofhearts15 queenofhearts15 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 21

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    Two days ago I broke up with my boyfriend of 5 years. I am 21 & originally from Jersey which is where my family resides. I left NJ when I graduated high school at the age of 17...
    ukfm15 ukfm15 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I realized that , I've been with my boyfriend for 3 years , and yesterday I tried to break up with himI realized then that I've been scared the whole time of being alone that I've...
    Delusionalkrysti Delusionalkrysti 22-25, F Feb 3

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    I know I shouldn't feel this way in my own home. I'm 17 and when I was 12 and 13 my brother did some stuff that he should not have to me and my little sister. Nothing extremely bad...
    Tara884248 Tara884248 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 4

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    I was raped by 5 men last night...and one of them was my dad, I'm so scared that someone els is gonna try to hurt me, I feel so dirty and broken. The worst part was, my mom came...
    imsinkinkimg imsinkinkimg 13-15, F 9 Responses Feb 5

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    I'm so scared of being fussed at by my grandfather. I got lost driving and I couldn't go home I had to go strait into work. So he came and took my car( at my job) Now he's gonna...
    abbigailbooo abbigailbooo 18-21, F Feb 8

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    I found out last night that my husband has been on face book ,I haven't talked to him in over a year now . And he has been posting on his page that he is happy and that's all good...
    monica0215 monica0215 51-55, F 1 Response Feb 8

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    I am too scared to fall in love. This girl that I like (we say we're boyfriend and girlfriend but we're not official) just went to her ex's house last night and hasn't texted me...
    ofskies ofskies 18-21, M Feb 8

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    I don't know what the future holds. I know what it will hold if I continue on this path but I am not sure I want to follow it anymore. I am scared of the unknown but it could bring...
    CuriousCD66 CuriousCD66 46-50, T 2 Responses Feb 11

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    I need to have a conversation with my husband but I'm scared. It's so easy to just go along always agreeing it's so easy to always do what I've done. I'm scared because I already...
    Slackergirl Slackergirl 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 11

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    Yes I'm alone sometime's & I feel so scared being alone. I've lot of friend's and everyone's busy with there life as for myself I feel like life hate's me I don't belong here...
    billyaldo billyaldo 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 12

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    I love my girlfriend so much but the girls before her have hurt me so bad that i'm not even me anymore. But i really like Erin(my gf) like i love her. Im just scared like really...
    xxxalyssabrownxxx xxxalyssabrownxxx 13-15, F Feb 17

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    I am not scared of death but very very scared of loosing people I love a lot...After my Dad passed away, I just realised that nothing can be as scary as death.. The emptiness of...
    Waldena Waldena 22-25, F