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I Am Scared of My Emotions

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    Surrender

    I come from a broken home that appears to be perfect.i belong no where because i am unusual.i do not appear to be normal, and i have never met anyone like me.i push away those who seem to care about me,in fear of hurting them.i fear everything in life.i worry about every word i...
    Alightonthewater Alightonthewater 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 15, 2011

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    I Fake Happiness So Well

    Im 21, 6'2, black/japanese, I work at A&F its my job to pretend that im happy, im supposed to wear a smile everyday but when I clock out im back to my miserable reality. I hate myself. I hate my life. Im useless, broke with no car, low self-esteem and social anxiety. I walk...
    jjuarezz jjuarezz 22-25, M Jun 14, 2013

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    Can't Afford To Feel Things.

    I know that in order to get beyond certain things from my past, and get beyond my depression, I need to talk about them.  The problem is that when I've discussed painful things with my therapist, it's left me in a state where I can't function for days.  I'm so afraid that if...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 30, 2012

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    Learning ...

    I rarely show much emotion in day to day life.  I am generally cheerful and usually have a smile.  It's all part of the job really.  I am nice to people - if someone is feeling down I am the one who makes cups of tea and provides the soothing words.  Generally...
    womaninbliss womaninbliss 51-55, F 5 Responses Jan 30, 2010

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    2 U

    My emotions have gotten me into a lot of trouble in recent times so I find myself questioning if they will continue to do so where you are concerned. I don't want to get hurt again so I play cat and mouse getting more scared the the closer you get to me. I am always the mouse in...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 19 Responses Jan 30, 2010

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    Not Just Scared - Terrified

    i've been controlling my emotions for years, i use to be very good at in fact. But these days i'm having more problems at controling, it's like what use to a calm lake has become the raging and i'm hard pressed to keep it all locked behind my mask. I'm terrified that i will lose...
    Corlath Corlath 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 17, 2010

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    Personality Changes?

    my emotions change so much to were i get sudden personallity change to were i start to hurt people and i try to stop hanging out with them and i gets sad. =(
    gothicromantic gothicromantic 16-17, F Jul 12, 2009

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    Once Bitten...

    I fell into depression, that lasted for about a decade.  Whether or not my lifestyle (unhappily married) contributed, influenced, or made it, I don't know, but that life was destroyed before I found my way out.  Yes, out.  It's been over a year since I had a major...
    zenandi zenandi 31-35, M 3 Responses Jul 12, 2009

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    I'm scared of getting close to people

    as I've been hurt quite a lot, now I'm struggling and I feel like breaking down half the time, I'm so stressed and annoyed and angry, yesterday I burst into tears because I couldn't find my left shoe.
    BritishK BritishK 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 8

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    Emotions

    Emotions,They scare me,Sometimes,I don't understand,Please bare with me,I'm doing my best.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Dec 16, 2011

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    It'S Been Some Time

    Hi, everyone. It's been some time since I've shared anything. I've been a bit down lately and tonight I sort of have an "aha" moment. I realised that I might be scared of my emotions, but at the same time, I chase after them. Take problems, for example. I don't like them. Nobody...
    lyn2726 lyn2726 31-35, F Mar 7, 2013

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    The More I Feel, The Further I Run

    I've just realised something about myself recently. The stronger I feel towards something or someone, the more I push it/him/her away. The more intense the emotion, the more I get unsettled and uncomfortable. My reaction: run away. Run as fast as I can and don't look back. I also...
    lyn2726 lyn2726 31-35, F 2 Responses May 11, 2012

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    I Wrote This...this Is How I Feel

    Love is a myth and everyday i kill to try to make it true, id die for you,my life for you,my everything is you. but you dont see what i see,Do You? i see love in black and white,no colors what so ever, No one sees how dark it is,no one knows what its like under the cover, hide...
    TheMyth TheMyth 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 31, 2012

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    Don't Know What to Do

     sometimes like right now the way I feel really scares me, I feel so alone so depressed that it feels like nothing will ever get better no matter how hard I try, I begin to feel so worthless that I can't help feeling like the world is better off without me . This is where...
    sweetstacey sweetstacey 26-30, F Aug 26, 2008

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    I Have Become A Monster

    i am not doing a good job of adjusting to my new family, i mean i thought i was but now i realize im not. They adopted me to help me and put me in a better place. My past is filled with all types of repeated abuse and lots of different foster homes...something I keep trying to...
    AquilaAqua AquilaAqua 13-15, M 2 Responses Sep 29, 2012

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    Only the Topping

    When i get angry or sad i barely show it but im afraid that if i show it it will explode. If i get to angry (which i never let myself do) im afraid that i would do something drastic and lose something close to me. and if i get too sad ill be sad for days and become sick. i only...
    theshortloud1 theshortloud1 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 18, 2009

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    My Emotions

    are like another person.  They are an entity unto themselves.  My passions can be horrifying and intense.  Last night I deleted my entire post in a fit of rage.  Nothing violent, just intense anger.  I felt I was too addicted to this site, which to some...
    lightpainter lightpainter 56-60, M 3 Responses May 5, 2010

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    I Am Afraid Of Losing Control Of Myself

    Some details may be upsetting. FYI.  I do not trust myself. I don't trust anyone else, either. I have been dealing with severe depression and anxiety for about two years (I've had it all my life, but it's been really, really bad these past 2 years). I have not been working-- I...
    spacebear spacebear 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 12, 2013

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    Repressed And Bottle Up My Emotions

    I bottle up and repressed my emotions because i am very afraid of expressing it and feeling overwhelmed. I am afraid of how repressing it only make it worst. The more repressing and bottle up i do, the more lonely, depressed i feel. Isn't this normal?
    TinaFeyforever TinaFeyforever 26-30, F Feb 20, 2013

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    jazzyphay2 jazzyphay2 22-25, F Sep 8

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    hey.. Im AsHlEy XD. ive been through alot. ive been through alot more then u could imagine. when i was born my mom wanted a boy. i went hom to a dad who didn't care. then one day...
    ooprincess27oo ooprincess27oo 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 7

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    I await the day You hurt me more, this time a hurt that I can't easily forget, nor accept. Slowly, I feel your taking my Heart and crumbling piece by piece in your tight embrace...
    Xenasdreams Xenasdreams 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 17

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    it really scares me when i think someone is falling for me ... i try so hard that no one would ... but even after that whenever i feel that someone's getting really comfortable...
    curiousmoi curiousmoi 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 21

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    I can only feel people's emotions if I have some type of relationship with them-if we're nothing other than acquaintances-if the emotion is very strong, or if I am concentrating on...
    Pixyqueen55 Pixyqueen55 13-15, F Sep 14

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    I can't say I remember ever feeling emotions but my friend who is now my roommate makes me feel something. Sadness, happiness, empathy, it doesn't matter, I've never actually felt...
    MexBoxOne MexBoxOne 18-21, M 6 days ago

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    This is me....through and through.... I guess it's cause am phlegmatic I hate bothering people with my problems or even my emotions...so am always happy around them...smiling...
    CurvyandChic CurvyandChic 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    I am so scared about whats going to happen in the future. Im scared of getting older, I'm scared of the fear of getting sick, I'm scared of getting an illness that will change...
    behappy4 behappy4 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 19

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    I don't get bullied, I have a lot of really good friends, I don't give a crap about what people care about me, and I love all of my classes. I just don't know why i'm scared to go...
    alice4114 alice4114 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 30

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    So I have an older sister that moved to the other side of the country a few years ago.. She's a year older than me and it's because our family decided to split up. She lives with...
    ravenzewolf ravenzewolf 13-15, F Sep 8

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    It sounds silly since I'm only 20, but I'm scared of growing older. I'm scared of increasing health threats as my age gets older, scared of wrinkles scared of getting bigger if I...
    behappy4 behappy4 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 15

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    I am scared. Im scared that i've been doing and saying the wrong things lately and that im pushing away the people that matter the most to me. I don't know if im pushing them away...
    Raptax231 Raptax231 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 17

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    Trying to capture a moment in a person's life, exactly congruent to how they perceived it, is so impossible to me. Emotion Clatter of young infatuation Calmness right before you...
    VeraRose VeraRose 13-15, F Aug 30

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    This is a really bad habit I have. I bottle up everything and then one day explode. It really sucks. I just want to share my emotions easier.
    NoxEstelle NoxEstelle 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 31

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    A lot of people tend to hide their emotions behind faces. Well, I hide mine behind humour or a sweet person. I love to bring joy to people! To see their faces light up, to see...
    MixedEmotions2000 MixedEmotions2000 13-15, M 1 Response Sep 1

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    This has become clear to me over time. I have emotions, and I feel things, but not the way others do. I try to understand but listening to someone explain why they feel the way...
    Audienceof1 Audienceof1 26-30, M 1 Response Sep 1

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    There is no place for emotions and feelings and no one cares.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Sep 1

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    Ever since i was 8 i keep my emotions to myself after my father died. I never wanted to bother my family and i hate the feeling of being the spotlight. Now that i am older its a...
    urwarthoghumper urwarthoghumper 18-21, M Sep 7

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    so I haven't liked someone in a while. like I've thought guys were cute and **** but I really like someone now. and everyone says he likes me too but I don't have a clue of what to...
    fuckinglife fuckinglife 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 17

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    This is a difficult subject for me because of how isolated it makes me feel. Ever since I can remember, I've always been overly sensitive to the energies that other people emit. I...
    ADargis ADargis 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 18

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    I have so many mixed emotions about everything right know and idk what to do or say... 😣
    BrutallyHonest316 BrutallyHonest316 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 22

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    I have a problem with always holding in my anger, stress and emotions. Then one day someone pushes me to the edge and I explode, I just scream and cry. I'm sure there are a lot of...
    marilynnrox marilynnrox 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I feel strong emotions, but have trouble expressing them. Sadness at some points, and appreciation for the few people I have runs deep, but I don't know how to tell the truth...
    Almostanonymous Almostanonymous 22-25, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    emotionally defective...? ok so, I'm not the type of person that gets emotional, I try to avoid emotional situations as much as I can and I come off as indifferent and...
    Rainatmidnight97 Rainatmidnight97 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    We people have feelings and emotions. It's what makes us human beings. For me, it's very important to express your feelings correctly or the people whom you're expressing to might...
    KatieP767 KatieP767 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    Just like people. Not all emotions dress the same. It's funny how public schools want put kids in uniform.
    ValhallaAwaits ValhallaAwaits 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    I unfortunately have built this barrier between myself and other people and for some reason it restricts me from feeling emotions such as sadness and viewing it as a weakness. I'm...
    sabrinasilveira sabrinasilveira 16-17, F 18 hrs ago

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    *all emotions ______________
    CassieWithAnO CassieWithAnO 13-15, F 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    Earlier today as I was walking pup, we came across a body of a sparrow. My tiny guy sniffed it for a moment and went on with his business. Later my mother stopped by and asked...
    koorlo koorlo 22-25, F Sep 14

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    I am scared to sleep. My bf touches me in my sleep. I wake up terrified and unsure what to do. Last time I jumped awake. He says I woke him up from me jumping awake... It scares...
    Thisismynickname Thisismynickname 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 22

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