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I Am Scared of My Emotions

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    Can't Afford To Feel Things.

    I know that in order to get beyond certain things from my past, and get beyond my depression, I need to talk about them.  The problem is that when I've discussed painful things with my therapist, it's left me in a state where I can't function for days.  I'm so afraid that if...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 30, 2012

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    The More I Feel, The Further I Run

    I've just realised something about myself recently. The stronger I feel towards something or someone, the more I push it/him/her away. The more intense the emotion, the more I get unsettled and uncomfortable. My reaction: run away. Run as fast as I can and don't look back. I also...
    lyn2726 lyn2726 31-35, F 2 Responses May 11, 2012

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    I'm scared of getting close to people

    as I've been hurt quite a lot, now I'm struggling and I feel like breaking down half the time, I'm so stressed and annoyed and angry, yesterday I burst into tears because I couldn't find my left shoe.
    BritishK BritishK 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 8

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    Learning ...

    I rarely show much emotion in day to day life.  I am generally cheerful and usually have a smile.  It's all part of the job really.  I am nice to people - if someone is feeling down I am the one who makes cups of tea and provides the soothing words.  Generally...
    womaninbliss womaninbliss 51-55, F 5 Responses Jan 30, 2010

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    I Wrote This...this Is How I Feel

    Love is a myth and everyday i kill to try to make it true, id die for you,my life for you,my everything is you. but you dont see what i see,Do You? i see love in black and white,no colors what so ever, No one sees how dark it is,no one knows what its like under the cover, hide...
    TheMyth TheMyth 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 31, 2012

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    2 U

    My emotions have gotten me into a lot of trouble in recent times so I find myself questioning if they will continue to do so where you are concerned. I don't want to get hurt again so I play cat and mouse getting more scared the the closer you get to me. I am always the mouse in...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 19 Responses Jan 30, 2010

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    Repressed And Bottle Up My Emotions

    I bottle up and repressed my emotions because i am very afraid of expressing it and feeling overwhelmed. I am afraid of how repressing it only make it worst. The more repressing and bottle up i do, the more lonely, depressed i feel. Isn't this normal?
    TinaFeyforever TinaFeyforever 26-30, F Feb 20, 2013

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    I Am Afraid Of Losing Control Of Myself

    Some details may be upsetting. FYI.  I do not trust myself. I don't trust anyone else, either. I have been dealing with severe depression and anxiety for about two years (I've had it all my life, but it's been really, really bad these past 2 years). I have not been working-- I...
    spacebear spacebear 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 12, 2013

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    Not Just Scared - Terrified

    i've been controlling my emotions for years, i use to be very good at in fact. But these days i'm having more problems at controling, it's like what use to a calm lake has become the raging and i'm hard pressed to keep it all locked behind my mask. I'm terrified that i will lose...
    Corlath Corlath 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 17, 2010

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    Emotions

    Emotions,They scare me,Sometimes,I don't understand,Please bare with me,I'm doing my best.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Dec 16, 2011

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    Only the Topping

    When i get angry or sad i barely show it but im afraid that if i show it it will explode. If i get to angry (which i never let myself do) im afraid that i would do something drastic and lose something close to me. and if i get too sad ill be sad for days and become sick. i only...
    theshortloud1 theshortloud1 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 18, 2009

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    I Fake Happiness So Well

    Im 21, 6'2, black/japanese, I work at A&F its my job to pretend that im happy, im supposed to wear a smile everyday but when I clock out im back to my miserable reality. I hate myself. I hate my life. Im useless, broke with no car, low self-esteem and social anxiety. I walk...
    jjuarezz jjuarezz 22-25, M Jun 14, 2013

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    Once Bitten...

    I fell into depression, that lasted for about a decade.  Whether or not my lifestyle (unhappily married) contributed, influenced, or made it, I don't know, but that life was destroyed before I found my way out.  Yes, out.  It's been over a year since I had a major...
    zenandi zenandi 31-35, M 3 Responses Jul 12, 2009

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    Don't Know What to Do

     sometimes like right now the way I feel really scares me, I feel so alone so depressed that it feels like nothing will ever get better no matter how hard I try, I begin to feel so worthless that I can't help feeling like the world is better off without me . This is where...
    sweetstacey sweetstacey 26-30, F Aug 26, 2008

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    It'S Been Some Time

    Hi, everyone. It's been some time since I've shared anything. I've been a bit down lately and tonight I sort of have an "aha" moment. I realised that I might be scared of my emotions, but at the same time, I chase after them. Take problems, for example. I don't like them. Nobody...
    lyn2726 lyn2726 31-35, F Mar 7, 2013

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    Personality Changes?

    my emotions change so much to were i get sudden personallity change to were i start to hurt people and i try to stop hanging out with them and i gets sad. =(
    gothicromantic gothicromantic 16-17, F Jul 12, 2009

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    My Emotions

    are like another person.  They are an entity unto themselves.  My passions can be horrifying and intense.  Last night I deleted my entire post in a fit of rage.  Nothing violent, just intense anger.  I felt I was too addicted to this site, which to some...
    lightpainter lightpainter 56-60, M 3 Responses May 5, 2010

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    I Have Become A Monster

    i am not doing a good job of adjusting to my new family, i mean i thought i was but now i realize im not. They adopted me to help me and put me in a better place. My past is filled with all types of repeated abuse and lots of different foster homes...something I keep trying to...
    AquilaAqua AquilaAqua 13-15, M 2 Responses Sep 29, 2012

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    Surrender

    I come from a broken home that appears to be perfect.i belong no where because i am unusual.i do not appear to be normal, and i have never met anyone like me.i push away those who seem to care about me,in fear of hurting them.i fear everything in life.i worry about every word i...
    Alightonthewater Alightonthewater 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 15, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    i'm scared to show my real emotions with people...so i just push people away....but when some one does get close enough, they always seem to hurt me....
    kittens4484 kittens4484 16-17, F Oct 14

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    Well, it happened. I've lost the person I love. He's gone. He presented what he thought would be deal breakers for me in this relationship, and I accepted them. He left me anyway...
    NastasyaFilippovna NastasyaFilippovna 22-25, F 1 Response a week ago

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    My boyfriend and I have been together over 2 and a half yrs now. We had a break up about 6 months ago mostly because I felt like we were at a stall mate. I wanted marriage he wasn...
    lovelynlively lovelynlively 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 1

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    I don't know what to say. I just typed a lot of stuff on my iPad, but I decided to start afresh. The only way to keep from worsening a situation is to spend personal time thinking...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F Oct 2

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    I'm using the depression as a shield. And although it has made me not want to be here You don't need to fear me trying to take my life away Because there is no point I will fail...
    innerself000 innerself000 18-21, F a week ago

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    Every person have emotions inside of them. Just like me myself and I. I'm the type of person to bottled up my emotions and use other ways to express myself. I express myself...
    msunique1989 msunique1989 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 18

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    It's hard being an emotional person because every little thing tends to affect me. Some times I feel like a human sponge as I soak in all the good and bad vibes from people. I...
    Susana1985 Susana1985 26-30, F 4 Responses Oct 12

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    Getting some weird mixed emotions I'm like happy but sad. Idk. I'm sober too. Mixed emotions are the worse. 🚶
    SunshineH316 SunshineH316 22-25, F Oct 15

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    I've never really been able to relate to people's emotions... or at least, I haven't been able to in the last year or so. I know I sound completely horrible, but I don't know how...
    VeronicaVoom VeronicaVoom 18-21, F Oct 15

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    I have a troubled family, currently. My parents are going through a tough time and it's causing me to internalize bad emotions. I've never been good at expressing myself either...
    BlackBeach BlackBeach 22-25, M Oct 20

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    Bottling isn't a strong enough word. I used to outright deny them. Pretend they didn't exist. That's done a huge amount of damage I think. It's only... Last three months, maybe...
    sometimeslonelytoo sometimeslonelytoo 41-45, M 3 Responses a week ago

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    It never really occurred to me that my teachers could be a danger to me or anyone around me until the day I graduated from Primary school. I saw this teacher(who never taught me...
    AbyssalSilence AbyssalSilence 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I'm in a seriouse relationship with this wonderful man who means the world to me, and who loves me very much. I've been torturing myself with doubts and fears. You see, I have a...
    Emilia94 Emilia94 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 5

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    We were distant. For the past 2 weeks I barely saw her and barely messaged her. I don't want to lose her. I don't want to be alone. I'm sorry for my imperfections. If only I...
    SomeGuy322 SomeGuy322 16-17, M 5 days ago

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    Emotions can ruin a marriage...
    Brandnue Brandnue 31-35, F 4 Responses Oct 6

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    I'm very good a hiding my emotions and filling it with others to show others. I once had an argument and thirty seconds later, I seemed happy and cheery. I felt like I was going to...
    Superpoke Superpoke 13-15, M Oct 10

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    I've been doing so well lately. He was my in every single one of my thoughts both drunken and sober. After weeks of heartache and upset I finally realized that he was not what I...
    sademptynothing sademptynothing 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 12

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    Lately my emotions have been up at down lately. I'm not talking about being bi-polar but the things I'm surrounded with everyday seem to really **** me off. I'm not sure if it's...
    Arexa Arexa 13-15 1 Response a week ago

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    Just been tired of my emotions lately
    Izy96 Izy96 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I am scared, I need to change jobs and although the change is needed and I want it I can't help but feel like this is going to ruin things. I am scared that I will hate it, that I...
    charlieedwards charlieedwards 18-21, M Oct 9

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    I am so tired. These past few months it has gotten worse. I don't know how to behave around new people or people I barely know, especially those I feel inferior around. That counts...
    haroni haroni 22-25, F Oct 14

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    I haven't been on in a while, because I tried to kill myself and ended up pretty bad. But I'm not dead, so it was a waste of time. I'm scared of myself now, and I'm scared about...
    Rubyrooo Rubyrooo 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 2

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    I'm scared of losing everything again. I have been through some of the worst things possible and I have come a long way from all that. I'm doing so well. I've been clean and sober...
    angelwings1998 angelwings1998 26-30, F 2 Responses Oct 6

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    First off, I'm going to start this out by saying I had an abortion about 5 years ago, you was not there to experience why I had one, so don't judge me for my actions. I was almost...
    Wvgirl20 Wvgirl20 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 7

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    I'm going to the doctors tomorrow...:( because I cut myself to deep and my mom found out, so she's getting me some help:/ first she looked at me like I was stupid, then a little...
    jeyhere jeyhere 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 7

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    I went to the doctors with my throat thinking it was tonsillitis. They've told me I need to go back tomorrow. It's apparently important. As my previous post states I make myself...
    kadesxx kadesxx 18-21, F Oct 8

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    I not exactly scared of the Ebola virus. But I'm scared for the world. The Ebola virus is spreading throughout Africa super fast and there might be a new case of it in Australia! I...
    SweetWolf2 SweetWolf2 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 9

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    What's there to be scared of? I lost love. It only cleaved my heart and soul in two, and left me nothing but a husk of a person... no joy, no happiness, no reason to exist. Yea...
    unluckE unluckE 31-35, M 1 Response Oct 9

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    I really like my friend. I think I falling in love with her but I don't want to because I'm scared. She's my first female crush and already I'm having these feelings. I want to be...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 14

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    There's several things I am scared! I'm scared to lose my bf who is locked up & I don't hear from him much or his family or friends! Nothing happening, according to his letter I...
    ncsweetfem ncsweetfem 36-40, F Oct 15

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