I Am Scared of Myself

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    its a strange feeling

    but im scared of myself i feel that if i stayed in this family with this stress life another person will come out of me ... i am just.. scared of the hidden person inside me.... that i never met yet but im sure this person will not stay silence while watching me suffering...
    zooz77 zooz77
    22-25, F
    Apr 18, 2016

    Painful Fear

    After months of lowness I'm slapped across the face by wild imagination, after months of curling up in a ball at night and crying myself to sleep I grab hold of inspiration and TUG, using it to pull myself out. I'm suddenly not scared of people. Im not scared of the phone ringing...
    WordHustler1995 WordHustler1995
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 15, 2012

    Truth Is

    in 1998 my father kill my mother and then killed himself leaving two children alone in the world. my mothers aunt took care of us until my brother was 16 and i was 14. then we both got a legal document saying we could live alone together. so that's what we did. my brother...
    sadbutstillsmiling sadbutstillsmiling
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 20, 2013

    Every now and then I can't control myself

    and I start to...I dunno...just kinda...go...weird, I suppose. Well, I'm beginning to get scared of myself! Recently I've started to hurt myself deliberately to try and stop myself for being...me? I dunno whether it is me but I don't seem to care while I'm going weird and then...
    TheKidInTheCorner TheKidInTheCorner
    16-17, M
    1 Response Jun 14, 2014

    Consciousness of Consciousness

    I weird myself out sometimes. Its kind of freaky when I look at myself in the mirror, my inner self sees my outer self and I realize what I am or I think about the essence of my being. You really have two sides to your existence in this improbable universe. You have your body but...
    Pablito1973 Pablito1973
    36-40, M
    2 Responses Sep 17, 2008

    As little children we are scared of the

    "monsters" under our bed as we grow up we realize those monsters are us and we are no longer safe...
    Mackenzie2413 Mackenzie2413
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jun 12, 2014

    Sometimes I am afraid of myself.

    .. I am afraid that I will grow up to be a murderer. This is a legitamate fear that is on my mind constantly. Normal people don't worry they will go crazy and kill their family, do they? I sometimes catch myself thinking of the various ways I could kill someone. I see a cop at...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Feb 18, 2015

    A Hell Of My Own Making

    I'm scared of someone around me actually seeing how bad I hurt. I smile and take the verbal abuse they don't even realize they give any more but inside my head I'm screaming. Inside I think I'm the worse of my tormentors. I try to be positive but I just end up a confusing...
    ColdBehindTheSmile ColdBehindTheSmile
    22-25, F
    Jul 14, 2013


    I am scared of myself. The other day I just had a screaming match with myself in the mirror. I can realize my problems all I want but I just... can't seem to change them. I want help so badly but I'm afraid of what will happen to me. I'm afraid that I will lose the only good...
    irealeeamakat irealeeamakat
    18-21, F
    Jan 18, 2010

    I sometimes wish life was a dream

    and that would end when I wake up. I wish I commited suicide because of the amount of times people said "GET AWAY FROM ME" or "dont touch me" or stuff like that... I dont know why but I cry most of the time because of them. I think something is wrong with me or im just going...
    StormTheSkrill StormTheSkrill
    18-21, F
    Feb 25, 2016

    I stopped harming myself in June of 2014.

    My life started getting great. I told the people closest to me about it and we cried and I promised I wouldn't do it again. But now it's all falling apart again and I'm scared I'm gonna lose control and do it again. I feel empty. I feel like the person I've always been has...
    ihatemyselfandmylife ihatemyselfandmylife
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 21, 2015
    JustSei JustSei
    18-21, F
    Dec 6, 2015

    I was born normal, just like every one else.

    When i was about 11ish I began to notice I different. Most kids around my age like hanging out, talk about sports tv shows, the works. I was more interested in literal fighting, I would poke bullies into attacking me just so I could beat them up. I never attacked first because i...
    blacknight2345 blacknight2345
    22-25, M
    Jan 26, 2015

    i think the devil inside me is just causing

    toooo much destruction and i can't get it out. I am so stuck
    Thedepressedgirlatthewindow Thedepressedgirlatthewindow
    18-21, F
    Apr 12, 2015

    Status: Angry?

    I don't know where this is coming from. I came to post something different on my status, but suddenly, just... bam. Anger. I don't know where it's coming from, but I feel like it's just rolling off of me in waves. Does this happen? It's so strange, because I've just...
    HalcyonMeansPeace HalcyonMeansPeace
    16-17, M
    Oct 21, 2013

    Ok so my weight kind of always been a thing

    that I wasn't really happy with. I like to stay within a certain range and for the most part I do. I'll go through a phase where I will work out a lot and not really eat that much and lose weight and then I go back to eating normal and then I go back to working out and...
    Ashley1421 Ashley1421
    16-17, F
    1 Response Aug 4, 2014

    I Am Capable of Doing Great and Horrible Things.

    It takes a lot of my energy to restrain myself from doing what I naturally feel like doing.  I don't want to hurt anyone, but I want to do things that, because of what they are, are very very hurtful.  I find myself often mentally exhausting my superego.  I...
    Mistake Mistake
    26-30, M
    5 Responses Dec 17, 2008

    I scare myself, sometimes the person in my head

    isn't me, sometimes I break my personality down to the point where there are three distinct voices in my head, someday I feel like I'll just kill someone for the fun of it, it scares me, and I have existed like this for a while. Some days I wonder 'what if I put that bag around...
    nicky411 nicky411
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Sep 1, 2015

    Im Scared Of Me!!

    i am my own worst enemy, i always put myself down, and i always tell myself that im no good and worthless, even though i know deep down that im so much better than that!!
    cowshed123 cowshed123
    36-40, M
    1 Response Jan 31, 2012

    I took a nap right now

    and I had a really horrible dream, and when I woke up I had scratches all over my arms and some on my face. I had to clip my nails, like wtf 0.0 I know I did it to myself I had blood in my nails. anyone else like this?
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Dec 25, 2014

    I'm scared that I can't control myself well

    enough one day and I'll end up killing someone
    Catariean Catariean
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 9, 2015

    Not Sure

    Sometimes I am unsure who I am inside, it's not that I do not know who I am for I do. But someplace in me I can feel such a bloodthirst, a craving like it's scratching in me to get out. At those time I suprese the deadly in me which would go into fight with anyone or the part in...
    Barlong Barlong
    26-30, F
    Dec 8, 2011


    I hate being around most people and I feel really annoyed and agitated. I've bottled it up so much now I have to self harm. I constantly think about death, suicide and murder to the point that it affects my sleep
    Pinappleturtle Pinappleturtle
    1 Response Feb 21, 2012
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