I Am Scared to Get Too Close Again

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    So I have an older sister

    that moved to the other side of the country a few years ago.. She's a year older than me and it's because our family decided to split up. She lives with our real mom and stepdad and I live with my adoption mom and real dad and stepmom..currently, I have about 7 younger siblings...
    ravenzewolf ravenzewolf
    16-17, F
    Sep 8, 2014

    I push people away' I can't be close to anyone

    really, because when I feel like their Falling in love I always seem to mess it up. Sometimes I wish I Could make things work I am scared to death to get close to anyone again. I been hurt to much' used' lied too' dumped for other chicks and just so guys could play wit my...
    jazzyphay2 jazzyphay2
    22-25, F
    Sep 8, 2014

    I've had people step on me,

    spit in my face, and kick me while I'm down. I've been dehumanized, shamed, neglected, and manipulated. I still stand here, waiting for life, but I'm nowhere near proud. I'm hunched over in defeat, my legs shaking And my lip quivering. Will others kick me down after I'm finally...
    Ginkofishin Ginkofishin
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 29, 2015
    angelkinzz angelkinzz
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 27, 2015

    Dear People of EP I am not interested in

    getting close with you. Chatting is fine, but I am guarded. I'm not here to make friends and I believe that real friendships made on the Internet are rare. Truthfully, I don't ever expect these relationships to last...any of them. I'm sorry to the few of you who will probably be...
    Hannah1100 Hannah1100
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Feb 21, 2016

    I come so close to letting new people in

    because I really do want to, but right when they've almost made it, right when they're about to cross the gap, I shut them out. I guess I am broken, no matter how much I don't want to admit it. I want to believe I'm strong, better than to let my past determine my future, but I...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Sep 9, 2014

    But I Want You

    oh my god, i am so in love with you. i want you so much right now. and i still need to keep resisting you. the risk is too high that you are going to hurt me. you chase me, you want to know if wanted to kiss you that night when you tried. of course i did, i long for your touch...
    thinkandfeel thinkandfeel
    36-40, F
    Oct 7, 2010

    I'm scared of relationships now.

    ... they never work out
    angelkinzz angelkinzz
    18-21, F
    Sep 8, 2014

    I've shared a lot with this man,

    but in light of recent events, I don't think I can ever trust him with how I feel, or anything actually. It took a lot of courage for me to finally talk about the things that I purposely hid from him. It makes me sad that I don't have anyone to talk to, once again. I'm alone...
    oddpodd oddpodd
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Feb 7, 2016

    Lost Heart

    during the beginning of my adolescense i was a hopepless romantic. Finding and jumping to each relationship going from girl to girl falling to hard and tried too hard to find the perfect girl for me.  I gave up, but during the summer of 2006 i met her, and her name was...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Oct 6, 2009
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