I Am Scared

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    Once this website is gone.

    What do I do? It is everything for me. I am shattered. This is the only place I feel safe. The only place I go when wanting to hurt myself or others. This site is everything to me because when things get tough I can come here. Knowing no one knows me, knowing my secrets and pain...
    SecretAbby SecretAbby
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 28, 2016
    Juffed Juffed
    22-25, M
    Feb 27, 2016

    My biggest fear is never finding myself.

    Being swallowed up by outside influences and living a life created for regular people with regular minds. Never finding out what I'm capable of.. What my true desires are.. Slowly losing sight of what it's like to have a completely independent outlook on life.
    Rosaalie Rosaalie
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Feb 12, 2015

    I let myself become much too attacted.

    Please don't ever let me go. I need you more than you will ever know my darling.
    Rose11231 Rose11231
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jul 24, 2014

    Last Night

    I woke up last night, and the wind was blowing, there was a treebranch banging on my window. I got up and walked through thehouse. The moon was shining brightly through the window's,casting spooky, eerie shadows everywhere. When I reachedthe living room, and to my surprise saw...
    Greeneyes21 Greeneyes21
    46-50, F
    3 Responses Feb 19, 2013

    My best friend is moving schools AND moving

    houses. She's all I've had at school and if she goes, I'll have no one at all. I'll have to go back to sitting alone reading, not looking forward to lunches but in fact dreading them because I just look like a loner. As soon as she became my friend I was happy because I had...
    AReadingWriter AReadingWriter
    16-17, F
    Apr 9, 2016

    I'm scared your gonna crush on her again,

    but this time you don't fight your feelings, Leave me, Get her, And forget I ever existed. Tell me I'm wrong about my thoughts, please.. 💔
    13AussieBabe13 13AussieBabe13
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jun 18, 2014

    I don't want to be this person.

    I feel bad as though I have trapped you with me in this craziness. If I knew how messed up I am, I would have warned you. I love you, I know you love me...but sometimes I wonder if I should just tell you to go find someone who will not be so much to deal with. I would be civil...
    deleted deleted
    12 Responses Nov 18, 2014

    there is a loud scary thunderstorm

    and I can't go to sleep. I wish I had someone to hold me.:'(
    jesusfan1999 jesusfan1999
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 17, 2016

    I've never told this to anyone.

    To be honest, I don't even dare. I scare myself just knowing that I'm thinking of it. I know I'm not going to do anything but I don't want these kind of thoughts. Sometimes, when I'm passing the street, I wish a car would just come and run me over. I can feel how I'm slowing...
    Laraamani Laraamani
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Feb 20, 2016

    It's not that long till I turn 18.

    I'm not scared of growing older but.. the process of graduating school and what to do next terrifies me. I have a basic idea and its not a very good one. I haven't even had a job before. How the hell am I going to pay off hundreds of thousands of debt? Its not like I can pull it...
    GrinchFairy GrinchFairy
    1 Response Mar 13, 2016

    Well I told my dad about my weight I'm still at

    86 lbs so he set up yet ANOTHER appointment tommorow where the doctor is just gonna try to tell me I'm anorexic ugh he prescribed me these pills last time they do not help in fact I lost 5 lbs since the last visit and I'm really scared :/ I really do eat a lot and it bothers me...
    RnneKK RnneKK
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 18, 2015

    my period is 17 days late

    and when i was only a week late i took 3 test and 2 were negative and the other was positive but im not 100% sure if i am pregnant. i dont have a lot of the symptoms the only thing im experiencing is increased urination, stomach pain, back pain, fatigue, and thats it.
    theperksofme theperksofme
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 12, 2016

    I always took EP for granted.

    .... I just came here when I needed it or when I was lonely. Now it's shutting down, and I'm scared. Scared for me, scared for my friends, and scared for everyone that has found help in this site. I will miss you all.
    Firechiic Firechiic
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Apr 11, 2016

    when is it ok to leave nasty messages on church

    boards in the middle the night? its scary cause no one saw whoever did this.
    sassygirl15 sassygirl15
    16-17, F
    8 Responses Jun 15, 2015

    When someone scares me I shake

    for like 5 seconds and fall into a fetal position No screaming or flailing of the arms And that **** hurts. Try having every muscle in your body clench and release rapidly. It's like having a seizure when your awake. And trust me I know what that feels like....
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Feb 3, 2015

    I am scared... I am afraid

    that my dreams will never come true. I want to inspire people. I want to make people feel like their life is worth living. I want to make people smile. I want to make them feel like they are not alone. It is my dream and it always will be but how can it be dream if I feel like...
    AnnaWarrior101 AnnaWarrior101
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 4, 2016

    I've been getting too little sleep like from

    2-4 hours on average...I'm so scared for my health. Been doing this for months. I think I've damaged my brain cells real bad. I can't even think straight anymore :( My skin is acting weird (probably from antibiotics)...I think I need to go to the doctor's. I'm really scared...
    deleted deleted
    6 Responses Oct 22, 2015

    I Thought It Would Never End:'(

    My sexual abuse started at the age of 6. It went on til I was 14 so for 8 years. It was by someone I love and trusted... my brother. The day I reported it I got sent away to CPS. Now my brother denies the whole thing. That is what makes it the hardest. And he never got charges...
    sugarpiehunnybunch sugarpiehunnybunch
    18-21, F
    15 Responses Dec 25, 2012

    I am terrified that I might lose the woman I

    love ...... I have never felt this kind of pain ...... I am so worried that the most beautiful and wonderful woman I have ever met is in danger.... Please talk to me and to your friends..... My heart and soul are in your hands ....... Please don't do anything rash my darling...
    deleted deleted
    Feb 22, 2016

    I've been having the same nightmares

    for the last couple of years now, but today it was a bit different. In the dream, I'm usually in my bed trying to fall asleep, but something keeps on tugging my covers away and then it pulls them completely off of me. It grabs me by the ankle and tries to pull me into the...
    Letmebee Letmebee
    26-30, F
    Apr 15, 2016

    I thought I'd shave before bed

    but nope. I end up cutting my lip and its been bleeding for like 15 minutes and it won't stop. I'm gonna bleed out😂
    BensonLahh BensonLahh
    18-21, M
    4 Responses May 26, 2015

    Words cannot explain,

    so so so so scared
    Ariellight Ariellight
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Oct 11, 2015

    I'm not ready to tell my friends about my

    self-harm and I might go swimming tomorrow. I can't hide my cuts when I'm swimming. I suggested going to a movie instead. I'm afraid our plans to go to the movies won't happen and we end up going in the pool.
    thoughtfulstars thoughtfulstars
    16-17, F
    7 Responses May 22, 2014

    I am scared to fall asleep right now

    for fear of nightmares :(
    christy0909 christy0909
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 15, 2015

    My job had gotten so much better.

    Now I feel like it's about to get significantly worse. Honestly, I'm terrified. My co-teacher is leaving. I don't think I can do this without her.
    SaundraMae SaundraMae
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Jan 21, 2016

    The Night It All Changed

    I'm sure I knew this was coming.  I hoped it wouldn't.  But here I am, 31 years old locked in my parents bedroom with my two year old daughter waiting for my drunk husband to try and beat down the door.  For once in my life though, I actually know I am doing...
    Claire17 Claire17
    14 Responses Aug 29, 2009

    I'm scared here. My landlord came to our

    apartment & of course I'm home alone & long story short I'm standin outside, talkin to the cops cause there's this man ( they said ) goin around creepin on kids in the nabiorhood. They asked me if I've seen anythin out of the ordinary. Well I told em there's this dark van parked...
    SuchHorribleThings SuchHorribleThings
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 29, 2016

    I feel dumb saying this.

    I am scared to revise and study for my A level exams. They are like a month away and I cant do it I just feel so stupid. I'm afraid of failing and getting crap grades. I want to do medicine but the average entrance grade is like three A's and I don't know if I can get there. My...
    FatsXbambino FatsXbambino
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 7, 2016

    Alrighty. SO once again I'm doing my

    makeup/masculine conturing(?) eh... Anyways I was looking really manly and butch when *knockknockknock* two girls who look a bit older than me were at the door asking me if I want to watch a video about "Our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ" I was having a mini heart attack because...
    RachelDare RachelDare
    2 Responses Mar 18, 2016

    I'm pregnant for a couple of weeks :(

    and I don't know what to do, I want to keep the baby but my stomach hurts a lot
    123enguyen 123enguyen
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 15, 2016

    Was Looking Through My Messages

    Idk who the hell sent this...but I just received easily the creepiest message I have EVER gotten on EP and it isn't funny. The person who sent this is now "Deleted" I guess but damn that was a scary message...I'm honestly pretty shaken up now and to whoever sent it, I hope you...
    Sammiebaby1016 Sammiebaby1016
    22-25, F
    8 Responses Jun 15, 2013

    I am a big dude and everyone says I should to

    football and say I would be awesome but when I say I'm good a few people say that's because he's scared and maybe I am to be honest I'm terrified of this world I'm terrified om what will happen next I am going mad because of my fear I may look like I'm cool not a cate ib the...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Mar 8, 2016

    To Be Honest I Am Scared.

    I don't think about it much as I employ mindfulness in my daily life, staying in the NOW, so my thoughts don't wander. It helps. But, when I lie in bed at night, in the dark, in the silence, my mind goes to the future. I try to feel how it will be when I leave the home I love...
    Carissimi Carissimi
    56-60, F
    1 Response Dec 4, 2014

    "My I'm said when you want to do bad you won't

    get far in life". That's true.. right now. I've screwed up. I've done some really stupid things for the past 6+ months. Ever since September. And again they're catching up to me. She doesn't know about the bad things I do, except for my grades are dropping really bad...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Apr 12, 2016

    But being scared is good

    for me. Grommit again running at.... Well let's find out. You keep us young my mother says. Well on our toes. And all the possibilities flash past my eyes. But I am still glad I am doing it
    grommit3 grommit3
    41-45, F
    1 Response Jun 21, 2015

    I'm the bladeYou're the knifeI'm the

    weightYou're the kiteThey were right when they saidWe were breathing underwaterOut of place all the timeIn a world that wasn't mine to takeI'll waitIs this my life?AhhhAm I breathing underwater?Is this my life?AhhhAm I breathing underwater?I'm the bladeYou're the knifeI'm the...
    Lunadelobos Lunadelobos
    Mar 17, 2016

    I дon't know what caused it,

    what keeps it going, or what's gonna stop it. Suddenly, I'm as sensitive as an open wound, anд I f33l as if I'm turning toxic to people around me. I n33д help, quickly...
    JamaltheMedic JamaltheMedic
    18-21, M
    1 Response Mar 14, 2016

    So both my parents have died within the last

    four months, my cousins funeral is Tuesday and now sitting at the hosptial with my aunt who just found out she has congestive heart failure. Agh.
    kshine27 kshine27
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Oct 10, 2015

    I've had immunizations before.

    They've never bothered me. Had reactions but they weren't bad. The usual pain at injection site, rash, and sleepiness. I've recently gotten 3. I didn't really need them but decided that I should have them as a precaution. I'll be going off too college soon and new environment...
    SylenaEverlasting SylenaEverlasting
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 21, 2016

    I'm Scared Because Everybody Dies

    Everybody I love, everybody I care about, everyone who has ever inspired me, everyone who has ever smiled at me or lifted my spirits, everybody dies. The older I get the more I face the profound loss of everyone I care about. Either that or I face the only way not to experience...
    humdinger humdinger
    46-50, F
    4 Responses Sep 12, 2007

    I'm not positive anymore.

    .. If I feel the slightest bit of happiness my mind kind of snaps back, and I'm reminded about my pain, I'm overwhelmed with my life right now. I've finally made a doctors appointment, she'll hear what I have to say then slam a prescription of antidepressants in front of me and...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny
    70+, F
    1 Response Jan 23, 2015

    the Thing That Scares Me Most

    In a word: Failure I worry all the time that somehow I am going to screw up everything I'm doing at the moment. I worry about bills, house payments most of all. I earn just about enough to just get me by and my major problem is I'm terrible with handling money. One of the ways...
    Deyve Deyve
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Jul 24, 2006

    I think I want to shut down myself.

    I get so attached to people and they leave. I am scared of leaving here. I am scared of facing the world without my safe place. I like being somewhat anonymous. I am scared of feeling so utterly insignificant. That I can't attach to another site. I am scared for those who are...
    geminikygirl16 geminikygirl16
    46-50, F
    10 Responses Mar 31, 2016

    So.. This guy that used to be at my

    cheerleading gym, he was on my team with me, it was back in 2012, and I had the biggest crush on him. He was so cute, I was 12 and he was 18, he was my backspot, and I trusted him with my life. One day he just never showed up at the gym for practice, everyone said he quit...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Feb 2, 2015

    I feel like I'm on the verge of a nightmare I

    don't feel well I don't want to be on medication I want it to stop
    Hush92 Hush92
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 17, 2016

    Because EP allows you to be anonymous,

    people get to show their true sides that might not necessarily be acceptable in real life. Considering the number of pervs on here, it scares me to think how many people I know in real life are actually like them and are just hiding it...
    Letmebee Letmebee
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Mar 16, 2016

    I am sure many of you are familiar with the

    fundraiser of the Polar Bear Plunge - Running into the ocean at very cold temperatures in the middle of February. I am 16-years-old who has been craving doing this since I was 11. I am not one afraid of the ocean, during summer time I will be the first one in the ocean and the...
    StephlyBoz StephlyBoz
    18-21, F
    Feb 19, 2016
    Escapist101 Escapist101
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 5, 2016

    Oblivion I always see

    and hear the word called Oblivion, i thought it is beautiful, an art but i saw the true meaning of this word; i never thought it would scare me. Oblivion is a word about an act of forgetting something, some place or someone. As a child and up until now, i've always craved the...
    KarasuEm KarasuEm
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Oct 16, 2014

    Today I released that I'm scared.

    I put on my game face every day, say the right things and act confidently. I believe the things I say too. But then my dad came out of the office, mad and tired. He'd been arguing with my mom again over the phone. He talked about how insane she was, and all the usual stuff. My...
    dabram71 dabram71
    18-21, M
    Dec 8, 2015

    My moms boyfriend molested me today.

    I've been molested before by my father and I had to switch schools because of it.
    Choirbabe6 Choirbabe6
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Apr 9, 2016

    Can every please pray

    for me & keep me in your blessings & prayers! I have a big day in the morning today! & I'm extremely bricking it! Please! I hope it's positive! I know I'm just a stranger but it will be such a help! Thank You! Wish me luck ahh Xx
    anisha07969 anisha07969
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Nov 5, 2014

    I feel scare of everything ,

    i never thought I will experience this again . The feeling of losing everything but the biggest fear of all is losi
    Appolo123 Appolo123
    18-21, M
    Mar 6, 2016

    I am scared to get out of my comfort zone

    and when I do I feel continuous anxiety until I get through it.
    tiki18 tiki18
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 25, 2016

    i am scared of facing not talking with someone

    who i really cared for so long, but not every thing change. But still i wanted to fix my mess with her.
    yupyupiknow2 yupyupiknow2
    22-25, M
    Mar 15, 2016
    JamaltheMedic JamaltheMedic
    18-21, M
    1 Response Mar 23, 2016
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