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I Am Scared

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    i'm always feeling alone.

    i am the one my family keeps secrets from and runs circles around me. i wish i felt more loved but i don't i feel small and alone. i'm afraid to make someone angry or upset i have to be very careful of what i say. i am afraid my family might throw me away someday its my...
    minibird minibird 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 14

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    I am 15 years old and have been struggling with

    depression and anxiety since I was about 5. I have been in and out of treatment centers and on many different medications to try to help with these problems, but nothing worked. I just recently found out i have a rare brain condition called Chiari Malformation. It is known to...
    ozzylover99 ozzylover99 13-15, F Jan 11

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    I'm scared af right now in around 10 mins I'm

    asking my mom if I can do online schooling and I still have no idea how to exactly ask her
    bmth52 bmth52 13-15, F Jan 20

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    i'm scared. i am scared to count on him.

    he doesnt take care of himself. i cant change that. but we need to help each other. will it work? i will be alone in the apartment most of the week. i am scared of this.
    kpl2014 kpl2014 26-30, F a week ago

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    All I want for this New Year is to feel safe,

    and for my friend to feel safe. Why is that too much to ask for?
    Blackbutterflies99 Blackbutterflies99 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 1

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    I am scared. It's said

    that you have to inward to find your happiness, to find out who you really are. But what happens when you look inwards, when you delve into the deepest recesses of yourself and what you see is not what you expected? What if its just empty and dark? what if all the light has gone...
    TheWickedJester TheWickedJester 26-30, M Jan 19

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    Do you ever have those nights

    where you're positive you won't wake up.
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 4 Responses Dec 27, 2014

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    Last Night

    I woke up last night, and the wind was blowing, there was a treebranch banging on my window. I got up and walked through thehouse. The moon was shining brightly through the window's,casting spooky, eerie shadows everywhere. When I reachedthe living room, and to my surprise saw...
    Greeneyes21 Greeneyes21 46-50, F 4 Responses Feb 19, 2013

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    My foster family saw my cuts today,

    and they were fresh from last night. They want to make me see a therapist and go to a rehab like place for people who self harm, but I'm scared to go.
    lostgirl2001 lostgirl2001 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 10

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    As ridiculous as it is,

    never have I been so nervous to get on a plane as I am today.
    dearalexe dearalexe 22-25, F Jan 10

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    Of running out of time

    before I reach happiness and have repaired my relationship with God.
    CBlaze22 CBlaze22 18-21 1 Response Jan 18

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    Recently, I started having symptoms of cancer

    from swollen red painful lymph nodes, night sweats, bone pain and more. The news is bad. In scared. I truly have never felt this way. I have no clue what to do. Who to talk to. Why me? I've always given of myself. Donated, gave away to those in need... Why me? Is that selfish...
    Myfateismyown Myfateismyown 36-40, M 1 Response Jan 4

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    Well, perhaps scared is not quite the word.

    Somehow I thought it a good idea to watch the shower scene from 'Psycho' just before bed. Somehow the implied violence and the delicate way in which it deals with what occurs is far more frightening than watching every detail. Not to mention the music!
    kennedy10505 kennedy10505 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 29, 2014

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    To Be Honest I Am Scared.

    I don't think about it much as I employ mindfulness in my daily life, staying in the NOW, so my thoughts don't wander. It helps. But, when I lie in bed at night, in the dark, in the silence, my mind goes to the future. I try to feel how it will be when I leave the home I love...
    Carissimi Carissimi 56-60, F 2 Responses Dec 4, 2014

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    Because studies have shown

    that infidelity is, in fact, inherited. And I have always been 'dad's little girl'.
    dearalexe dearalexe 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Trusting someone with your heart

    that you've never met is probably one of the scariest things.
    supermommyof2 supermommyof2 18-21, F 1 Response May 7, 2014

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    A New Diagnoses

    I was recently diagnosed with schizophrenia and moderate depression. It was the hardest thing that I ever heard in my life. I'm only 18, and in my first year of college. How can this happen to me? This can't happen to me....I don't know how to live anymore....
    Athlete2012 Athlete2012 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 28, 2012

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    I'm not positive anymore.

    .. If I feel the slightest bit of happiness my mind kind of snaps back, and I'm reminded about my pain, I'm overwhelmed with my life right now. I've finally made a doctors appointment, she'll hear what I have to say then slam a prescription of antidepressants in front of me and...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 1 Response Jan 23

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    So I just came home from Halloween horror nights

    and I'm thoroughly freaked out. I absolutely love horror movies, but for some reason one of the houses I went too left a horrible impression on me. I can't even fall asleep because I'm so scared.
    Stephy1420 Stephy1420 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 13, 2014

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    ****. I am so scared.

    Omg. I can't believe I agreed to go on this camp. Omg. Omg omg.
    Scaredmonster Scaredmonster 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 16

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    When I was a child people would tell me

    that one day I would be a heart breaker. I didn't really understand what it meant but it didn't sound appealing to me. I was confused as to why they had huge smiles on their face while exclaiming this. To me it seemed like a horrible concept, breaking peoples hearts. Whatever it...
    baconrind baconrind 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 18, 2014

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    A NEW CHALLENGER APPROACHES: ----MID TERM

    ENGLISH EXAM---- *fight!*
    dabram71 dabram71 16-17, M Oct 16, 2014

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    I feel very tensed, depressed

    and nervous also I am having racing negative thoughts. I think I am bipolar, depression and anxiety. D:
    mynameispaul23 mynameispaul23 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 1

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    The Night It All Changed

    I'm sure I knew this was coming.  I hoped it wouldn't.  But here I am, 31 years old locked in my parents bedroom with my two year old daughter waiting for my drunk husband to try and beat down the door.  For once in my life though, I actually know I am doing...
    Claire17 Claire17 31-35 17 Responses Aug 29, 2009

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    I'm scared your gonna crush on her again,

    but this time you don't fight your feelings, Leave me, Get her, And forget I ever existed. Tell me I'm wrong about my thoughts, please.. 💔
    13AussieBabe13 13AussieBabe13 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 18, 2014

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    I can't believe I wanted to grow up.

    The thought of being one year older kills me. I am not ready to think about what home I will end up at or how I will die. I am not ready to get grey hair. I am already to old and I am below 20 so people call me young. The years rush by so fast I with they would not. I want my...
    Scaredmonster Scaredmonster 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 13

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    someone will regonise me

    if i put a pic up
    lukew1503 lukew1503 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 26, 2014

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    Blindsided, Bushwhacked When I Least Expected It

    But isn't that how it happens? What an emotional roller coaster! From the depths of despair to undeserved happiness. I don't know what I have done to meet such an awesome person but I need to continue doing it. My only fear is I will wake up and it will all have been a dream...
    michael1971 michael1971 41-45, M Nov 27, 2013

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    Was Looking Through My Messages

    Idk who the hell sent this...but I just received easily the creepiest message I have EVER gotten on EP and it isn't funny. The person who sent this is now "Deleted" I guess but damn that was a scary message...I'm honestly pretty shaken up now and to whoever sent it, I hope you...
    Sammiebaby1016 Sammiebaby1016 18-21, F 10 Responses Jun 15, 2013

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    Can't even drive out of city limits w/o fear of

    seeing him or her. What's my problem? I remind satan I'm going to heaven & he can't control my thoughts. What am I missing? What obvious sign is The Redeemer showing me that I'm just not getting?! Struggling here...
    lackluster40 lackluster40 36-40, F 4 days ago

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    I'm Scared Because Everybody Dies

    Everybody I love, everybody I care about, everyone who has ever inspired me, everyone who has ever smiled at me or lifted my spirits, everybody dies. The older I get the more I face the profound loss of everyone I care about. Either that or I face the only way not to experience...
    humdinger humdinger 46-50, F 4 Responses Sep 12, 2007

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    My wife and I are competitive.

    I'm so proud of her. She's continuing her education and has potential to become a DH at her work. I'm making more money than her currently, but my job seems like it's more of the same empty promises. And I worry that the company may go out of business. I will love her regardless...
    ogre1971 ogre1971 41-45, M Jan 15

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    My dad recently started going back to church

    and the pastor had told him that I was in danger.. That honestly scares me, cause I don't know what that could mean. I also had a dream not too long ago, we were in church , or some holy type of area, and there was a person that could have possibly been a pastor, and he was...
    lunazteca lunazteca 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 19

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    People on EP scare me!

    They are so freaky! 😭
    watermelongirl watermelongirl 16-17, F 4 Responses Jul 9, 2014

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    "Am I gonna be lonely

    for the rest of my life?" I think it's no longer a question for me. People change but I know myself to well to engage in a relationship. That's why I'm scared because this is it. Me. Just me. Having parents who have a dysfunctional relationship affects me a lot. Although I...
    Someonefrom1980 Someonefrom1980 26-30, F 8 hrs ago

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    I let myself become much too attacted.

    Please don't ever let me go. I need you more than you will ever know my darling.
    Rose11231 Rose11231 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 24, 2014

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    My depressive thoughts always come in to my head

    when I start to imagine my future.
    Scaredmonster Scaredmonster 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    My friend but a scary show on

    and it's a marathon:( I hate scary movies. She is asleep now and I can't find the controller, and when she was still awake I asked if we could change it, and she snapped at me:/
    Shealyee Shealyee 13-15, F Dec 29, 2014

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    I got tired. Too tired.

    Too sick. Too had enough. Too fed up. I am tired. The thing I scare most. It happens. Because the sweet candy you gave me ones. Turned out that was a drug. I got addicted. But it started to kill me. And now I am dying.
    rockettothemoon08 rockettothemoon08 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 9

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    Hate

     I'm afraid of me, and honestly - afraid of living. The ever-lingering feeling of total inability to escape from being alive. Though, I feel no want for ending it, it's just a sad shame for it all to continue. The feeling is tremendously bitter, the soul is ripped apart...
    tokenmatch tokenmatch 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 16, 2009

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    I have recently began watching **** ,

    I stopped for a very long time but one day I got curious again and clicked on a video I only watched less than a min , I'm in a relationship where **** is considered cheating and I felt a huge mass of guilt by just clicking on it . A few nights have passed and my curiosity kept...
    Lovelyloo Lovelyloo 22-25, F 4 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    BloodofAmara BloodofAmara 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 29, 2014

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    Age and Fear

    I am 59 years old. I moved to Texas to be near my Sister in 2004.  My Sister died in Oct 2008. While here I have been isolated from most people.  Now that she has passed.  I need to find a job to support myself.  I never thought of myself as unemployable but I...
    cstx3201 cstx3201 56-60 5 Responses Jul 13, 2009

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    This is for you Arwa.

    .. I am reaally scared that I'm going to do badly on my grades and my mom and dad will get mad. I don't really care too much as I don't know wtf I'm going to do with my life but ugh
    ImNotReallyFine ImNotReallyFine 16-17, M Dec 8, 2014

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    I Thought It Would Never End:'(

    My sexual abuse started at the age of 6. It went on til I was 14 so for 8 years. It was by someone I love and trusted... my brother. The day I reported it I got sent away to CPS. Now my brother denies the whole thing. That is what makes it the hardest. And he never got charges...
    sugarpiehunnybunch sugarpiehunnybunch 18-21, F 18 Responses Dec 25, 2012

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    the Thing That Scares Me Most

    In a word: Failure I worry all the time that somehow I am going to screw up everything I'm doing at the moment. I worry about bills, house payments most of all. I earn just about enough to just get me by and my major problem is I'm terrible with handling money. One of the ways...
    Deyve Deyve 19-21, M 4 Responses Jul 24, 2006

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    I really need to talk to someone.

    I am so freaked out and terrified at the moment.
    NoF7cksSeven NoF7cksSeven 18-21, F 8 Responses Jan 13

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    I'm not ready to tell my friends about my

    self-harm and I might go swimming tomorrow. I can't hide my cuts when I'm swimming. I suggested going to a movie instead. I'm afraid our plans to go to the movies won't happen and we end up going in the pool.
    thoughtfulstars thoughtfulstars 13-15, F 9 Responses May 22, 2014

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    I don't know what to do any more ,

    it seems like I've messed up time and time again, I can't even help the person I love most any more , he won't speak to me long , if at all anymore , things were good for a while , I was a little happier , buts it's all crumbling down around me , I didn't think I would be at...
    sommer02 sommer02 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 24

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    Being raised as a Christian kid with 5 other

    siblings and parents shoving down your throat that being different is dangerous and a sin I was terrified not being able to tell anyone and think that I would never be let in to heaven. Everything changed once i joined my school GSA club freshmen year where I learned that I was...
    maggiesparks maggiesparks 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 31, 2014

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    I Am Scared.

    I am scared that those honest stories that I have written are a figment of my imagination. I am scared that if I make the sacrifices today to go for what I think is true today it will not be worth it. I am scared that one day I will wake up and realise this was all just a big...
    autumnsparrow autumnsparrow 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 20, 2013

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    Oblivion I always see

    and hear the word called Oblivion, i thought it is beautiful, an art but i saw the true meaning of this word; i never thought it would scare me. Oblivion is a word about an act of forgetting something, some place or someone. As a child and up until now, i've always craved the...
    CursedRaven CursedRaven 16-17, F 5 Responses