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I Am Scared

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    I'm Scared Because Everybody Dies

    Everybody I love, everybody I care about, everyone who has ever inspired me, everyone who has ever smiled at me or lifted my spirits, everybody dies. The older I get the more I face the profound loss of everyone I care about. Either that or I face the only way not to experience...
    humdinger humdinger 46-50, F 4 Responses Sep 12, 2007

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    coldkiller3 coldkiller3 13-15 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    Last Night

    I woke up last night, and the wind was blowing, there was a treebranch banging on my window. I got up and walked through thehouse. The moon was shining brightly through the window's,casting spooky, eerie shadows everywhere. When I reachedthe living room, and to my surprise saw...
    Greeneyes21 Greeneyes21 46-50, F 4 Responses Feb 19, 2013

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    First time sleeping at a hospital

    and I'm scared of hospitals. No one is with me and I'm here because of a mental illness. Anyone that can talk and make me feel better/safe would be great.
    AliBashir AliBashir 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 13

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    Of facing this world on my own ,

    wish someone would just hold me and tell me it will be alright
    shannonb78 shannonb78 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 13

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    I'm terrified of my own life.

    Everything around me I feel like I'm living a nightmare. I am constantly in a dreamlike state. I'm scared. I feel like I don't exist, like nothing around me is real. I need help..
    Mayleehawkeye Mayleehawkeye 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 28

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    I just moved into my first apartment,

    and between the stress of being out in the world, depression, and loneliness, I just feel so numb... All I feel is afraid and alone.
    PhantomOfThePopera PhantomOfThePopera 18-21, M Apr 1

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    I Wonder If Anyone Feels the Same??

    Basically, I am scared for the state of EP.  I have noticed that they are now going to be on Good Morning America, advertising this site, no doubt.  Which will then attract so many people.  Right now I am comfortable here because I don't think anyone I know in RL...
    urbrandofheroin urbrandofheroin 22-25, F 15 Responses Apr 22, 2009

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    I am scared because it's raining again.

    ..I heard there is another a storm coming into our country. Now it's raining again.I'm scared of heavy rain specially when I'm home alone. After all our house is beside a river and whenever there is a typhoon, the water level rises and our area is flooded. Around two years ago...
    NatsukiKuroneko NatsukiKuroneko 18-21, F Apr 13

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    Should I

    Want to add something as a goal but don't want everyone to FREAK out
    tulick tulick 31-35, F 19 Responses Jul 23, 2008

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    Do u know that feelin?

    When one of ur parents is like really nice to u and u dont know y... Yea it always scares me
    Bizzlefever Bizzlefever 13-15, F 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    The Night It All Changed

    I'm sure I knew this was coming.  I hoped it wouldn't.  But here I am, 31 years old locked in my parents bedroom with my two year old daughter waiting for my drunk husband to try and beat down the door.  For once in my life though, I actually know I am doing...
    Claire17 Claire17 31-35 17 Responses Aug 29, 2009

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    Sometimes when I am alone

    and your brain takes over and you think too much. I think about my death. It scared me.
    thefallenstar thefallenstar 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 7

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    I'm scared of my own house.

    Especially being home alone. I don't want to be cause I know God is watching out for me and protecting me and he says that there is no reason to fear...but I'm still scared :( You see, my grandma lives with us in her own separate mother in law quarters. If you go in the...
    moemma54 moemma54 13-15, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    It has been a long time

    since I have logged into EP. I am scared that I may have to give up my home due to lack of work. In fact I am terrified of the decision on day of being food vs. the mortgage. I an scared that I will die alone at am furious that any of this even bothers me. I was raised to be...
    lookin4sumthing lookin4sumthing 26-30, M 6 days ago

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    I have so much work due

    and i haven't started anything. This feeling of never getting anything done is horrible. argh.
    nidhiThite nidhiThite 18-21, F Apr 2

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    GaleJake GaleJake 13-15, M 5 days ago

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    Hate

     I'm afraid of me, and honestly - afraid of living. The ever-lingering feeling of total inability to escape from being alive. Though, I feel no want for ending it, it's just a sad shame for it all to continue. The feeling is tremendously bitter, the soul is ripped apart...
    tokenmatch tokenmatch 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 16, 2009

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    I can feel (FEEL!) my sanity slipping in my

    mind. I don't know how to describe it other than you feel completely out of control of your brain and emotions. Sometimes even your actions. I'm terrified to find that actions that used to calm me no longer work. I have done harmful things to myself because of this. I scratched...
    aelizabeth3300 aelizabeth3300 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    I Thought It Would Never End:'(

    My sexual abuse started at the age of 6. It went on til I was 14 so for 8 years. It was by someone I love and trusted... my brother. The day I reported it I got sent away to CPS. Now my brother denies the whole thing. That is what makes it the hardest. And he never got charges...
    sugarpiehunnybunch sugarpiehunnybunch 18-21, F 20 Responses Dec 25, 2012

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    I scared. I'm scared of losing any more weight,

    but scared of gaining more at the same time. I was diagnosed with anorexia, and I always throw up everything i had eaten. what should i do?
    roseinsurvival roseinsurvival 13-15 Apr 4

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    I Get This Way......

    As I realise, especially of late, how alone I am. I am single, have no friends and am not Close with my family. I have a mentally ill sister who is often suicidal. My parents are in denial over this as they dont want to accept it. So the care basically falls onto me. I worry...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 30, 2013

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    someone will regonise me

    if i put a pic up
    lukew1503 lukew1503 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 26

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    I Was Bullied

    In my school there used to be a massive group of people that didn't like Muslims and they used to pick on them... It was not bad until I had to sit next to a lot of them for my lessons. They kicked my chair, kicked me, said threatening stuff because of my color and my religion...
    mysteriousgirl11 mysteriousgirl11 13-15 3 Responses Apr 6, 2012

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    I get scared a lot. I am afraid of people

    leaving me and getting bored of me. But the worst thing is not find a person to spend the rest of my life with. I scared of being alone and some times when people don't text me back it makes me feel I'm not wanted and that they got bored of me. Am I annoying to people? Some time...
    Payton20014 Payton20014 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I've mentioned before

    that I've been suffering from chronic blackouts for at least half of my life. As of late, I also may be going blind in my left eye, but we're pretty sure my vision will come back. Anyway, as it so happens, these blackouts may or may not actually be what are referred to as silent...
    ReesesPeaces ReesesPeaces 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    Horribly.............

    every nerve in my body is afraid..........anxious and right now i am not able to tale it all in my mind so spilling it out here, i am not sure why i am going through this phase of life and i am not able to determine why this soul purging has made its permanent abode in my heart...
    destinygirl22 destinygirl22 26-30, F 3 Responses Mar 31, 2012

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    Age and Fear

    I am 59 years old. I moved to Texas to be near my Sister in 2004.  My Sister died in Oct 2008. While here I have been isolated from most people.  Now that she has passed.  I need to find a job to support myself.  I never thought of myself as unemployable but I...
    cstx3201 cstx3201 56-60 5 Responses Jul 13, 2009

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    I want to donate my kidney to someone

    who needs one in order to stay alive. But I am a bit scared of the results or if I can even do it. Selfish for me to keep a kidney when I can save someone else live. Although I can understand why someone might one to keep their kidney. I hope my parents don't get disappointed...
    87athleteunknown 87athleteunknown 18-21, F Mar 15

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    I'm in Florida for spring break.

    I'm terrified. What if I see her? She goes to college near where I'm staying . . . Thanks to her, I have eight identical nightmares a night, and am an insomniac. I'm scared, I'm scared, I'm scared. No no no no no no no! I need a knife, or scissors, something, anything, sharp...
    ForeverFable13 ForeverFable13 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 29

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    This traffic light inside my head Is always

    green and never red. My thoughts, my dreams and all my fears They all speed past my listening ears. I close my eyes to block it out But inside my head they rush about. I take a breath to slow it down But upon my face appears a frown. My heart beats fast But my breathing slows...
    jaylawr jaylawr 16-17, F Apr 2

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    Last night I had a dream

    that I was cutting really badly... I got to the point that I was at last school year... I would cut a lot and I couldn't stop at all... I would cut 3 or 4 times a day... And last night I had a dream that I got to that point again and I just kept going deeper and deeper with the...
    xxbrokengirl98xx xxbrokengirl98xx 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    You here wants to break a bone

    but is too scared to do it
    YoloSwagGirl YoloSwagGirl 13-15, M 1 Response Apr 7

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    Called Doctor this afternoon.

    The Cone Biopsy is scheduled for Wednesday 4-16-14 its outpatient, as soon as I am coherent I can go home, its day surgery. The nurse I spoke with today said they will call me Tuesday to let me know what time I have to be at the hospital Wednesday Morning. *A cervical cone...
    NYSlilAngel NYSlilAngel 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 11

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    Maybe I'm A Coward?

    I can't believe I'm doing this is what's racing through my head right now.I feel incredibly sick and just threw up all over the floor they might slip and fall in it and find me here.I'm hiding under this hospital bed, I've ripped out the IV's so that there's no evidence that...
    bubblynng08 bubblynng08 22-25, F Mar 19, 2011

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    I Am Scared.

    I am scared that those honest stories that I have written are a figment of my imagination. I am scared that if I make the sacrifices today to go for what I think is true today it will not be worth it. I am scared that one day I will wake up and realise this was all just a big...
    autumnsparrow autumnsparrow 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 20, 2013

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    Mental Case 1

    I think my mental problems are getting worse the more imaginary friends are showing up and the thoughts of hurting people and my self are getting worse I want to be that good girl and stuff but the other side of me wants **** it and stab the next guy that looks at me. I don't...
    KillerRage KillerRage 18-21, F Jan 5, 2013

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    Right now, I'm scared of not getting into

    school. I already applied to one, and I'm confident that I did a good job with my application, but I'm being plagued by self-doubt and fear of failure. According to some students I met at the school, I should be fine. And looking at past accepted portfolios, I do stand a really...
    almaera almaera 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Blindsided, Bushwhacked When I Least Expected It

    But isn't that how it happens? What an emotional roller coaster! From the depths of despair to undeserved happiness. I don't know what I have done to meet such an awesome person but I need to continue doing it. My only fear is I will wake up and it will all have been a dream...
    michael1971 michael1971 41-45, M 1 Response Nov 27, 2013

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    i'm not looking to date i dont think.

    I just need support and answers. Answers that a doctors and web md cant help me with.
    anon2017 anon2017 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I just of my bestfriend.

    because I told her that I love her. and I cant stop crying and cutting and I just need a friend. I need to talk
    foxxiie10 foxxiie10 13-15, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Tomorrow At 2pm

    Tomorrow, I am finally going to go see the cardiologist that I hae been fighting for by myself. I am going to get tested even more intently then before, and I know its going to be hard.   I have been wearing Holster monitors, which record the activity of my heart, but...
    DavesDaughter DavesDaughter 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 28, 2010

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    I Am Going To Change My Life..with No Fear And With Joy.

    Enough being scared by fear. No more..I will try my best to live life as I want, and I know ,what I want is good for me and for others. I have passion for science and love computers. But I am not very intelligent and never was very bright in studies. But I have done things that I...
    arjob arjob 22-25, M Jan 22, 2012

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    I am scared of many things.

    But right now, I am scared of my depression coming back, from oozing its way back into my mind. From returning to its home, which is still recovering from the damage and the decay. Actually... I'm not scared. I'm terrified
    BunnyGruff BunnyGruff 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    My Dad & My Feelings On Whats Going On!

    Okay.... it's happened! They put my dad in a nursing home and he's really bad off.... my nerves are shot and my heart is confused with why he is really holding on.... my mom said that you are considered dead if your temp gets as low as 60 degrees and his was 34.6 degrees...
    Mammy Mammy 36-40, F 3 Responses Apr 30, 2008

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    Scaredy Cat?

    Hi there fellow scaredy cats.. haha I'm kidding.. I'm back again in EP! I've been gone for a couple of months and I need to make my own stories again to make me look legit and not a pervert who's just here for no good. So here's my first story. I'm a scaredy cat. I'm not the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 23, 2013

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    Why? Why does my son do this to me?

    I have explained it to him over and over, but I guess I am not getting my point across. What am I doing wrong? How can I explain it to him. He's a special needs child and sometimes he says things that could get me in a lot of trouble. What if he says the wrong thing to the...
    Mary4life Mary4life 41-45, F 4 Responses Jan 29

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    I'm scared to ****, because of some scary

    bullshit, but I can't do jack **** about it. What am I supposed to do?
    MannedOrbRex MannedOrbRex 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 31

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    I'm scared to love again.

    Scared to be hurt again. Scared of never finding someone who will love me for who am and not judge me. Scared of being lied to again.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 7

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    I'm losing my house. I'm afraid

    that we won't have anywhere to go when the time comes. It's all I can think of. So I'm not sleeping. I'm doing my best to keep my head up but all I want to do is cry all the time. I want to see the bright side of this. But my fear is just weighing over all of my other thoughts...
    xtimeb0mbxx xtimeb0mbxx 18-21, F Apr 9

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    I Am Scared.. For My Result.

    My 10th grade results come out on 17th May. I am scared. I know I didn't do well. I'm an average. I've been an average. I don't really fail, but I don't do well either. And I hate being this average. I don't find anyone like me. It's either topper, or failure. My whole life...
    owlcity01 owlcity01 13-15, M May 15, 2013

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    the Thing That Scares Me Most

    In a word: Failure I worry all the time that somehow I am going to screw up everything I'm doing at the moment. I worry about bills, house payments most of all. I earn just about enough to just get me by and my major problem is I'm terrible with handling money. One of the ways...
    Deyve Deyve 19-21, M 4 Responses Jul 24, 2006

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    Hiya :) Sooooo I kinda freaking out

    hahaha I'm 29. Male. I live in Sydney Australia, I'm pretty healthy and never been in hospital before. Yesturday I was admitted. I am losing sensation in my right leg. I know it's there, I can see it lol but I can't move it. I was expecting to wake up this morning and it be...
    Inpuov Inpuov 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 2

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    A New Diagnoses

    I was recently diagnosed with schizophrenia and moderate depression. It was the hardest thing that I ever heard in my life. I'm only 18, and in my first year of college. How can this happen to me? This can't happen to me....I don't know how to live anymore....
    Athlete2012 Athlete2012 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 28, 2012

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    I'm scared that I may go on a live my life

    without ever being loved by someone outside of my family. I'm also scared that I may never have someone who would want to spend the rest of their life with me. I'm scared of being alone, never feeling the warmth of love. 怖いです。
    fallingpetal fallingpetal 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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