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I Am Screaming In Pain Under This Smile

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    I Am Screaming In Pain Under This Smile - most of the times i will be smilling not because i will be happy but i hide my pain under the smile.i wish i could have a real smile...
    lucreatia lucreatia 22-25 1 Response Mar 13, 2012

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    Unable To Breathe - i am sick of this constant struggle just to breathe. I am sick of the constant feeling of wanting to scream until my voice is hoarse and my throat is a bloody...
    flyingabyss flyingabyss 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 13, 2011

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    Cleansed - I was scrubbed clean There was nothing left My dignity gone My body wrecked I angered her With what he did She set it up And then she hid Behind excuses She made for...
    SecretBrokenDoll SecretBrokenDoll 36-40, F 5 Responses Feb 24, 2012

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    I know you pretend I'm not anymore...you treat me like a stranger...but i miss you...we had it all...but you let me fall...i miss you...maybe i just miss the feeling of seeing the...
    LaBellaRosaLuna LaBellaRosaLuna 18-21, F Jan 9

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    Look At My Smile And Ignore The Running Mascara - I had been crying all morning as soon as a got to school the mascras wiped away and the smiles put on. "are you ok?" Im fine how...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Feb 27, 2010

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    Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhj!!!!!! I hate my job!!!!!! Ahhhhhhhhhhhh life sucks right now!!!! Just venting
    IloveLife14 IloveLife14 31-35, F Jan 12

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    Always Pretend I Am Fine.... - When I am anything but. I have a horrible homelife and have a difficult relationship with both my parents, particularly my mother. My job with kids...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F Oct 9, 2011

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    What? Why? - Well my best friend visited. Also the best friend of the girl I love. Apparently she feels really strong feelings for him. WHAT? **** my life. Then she screams at me...
    Iceman75 Iceman75 18-21, M Nov 5, 2013

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    Lets Play Pretend - I smile I laugh and giggle I pretend that every things fine when no one knows that I'm crying and screaming underneath that I'm in so much pain and all I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Feb 16, 2010

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    Practice made perfect when I'm forced into keeping others from seeing what's behind my smile
    SurpriseMeToday SurpriseMeToday 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 5

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    Nobody ever sees me faking a smile... They think its all true. They're wrong. Behind this smile is a girl broken as if she was stabbed bit by bit by the people around her. They...
    Amature14 Amature14 13-15, F Mar 18

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    Broken, Crushed, And Dead - This guy and I...we were gonna be together. He said he'd fight for me and stay with me...he loved me, I loved him. Idk what I did wrong...but he told me...
    TrappedAbs TrappedAbs 18-21, F Jul 28, 2013

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    I Dont Understand It. - My lifes getting better but yet I still wanna scream! I still have to force a smile on my face everyday! I want to scream in fustration that others dont...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 20, 2010

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    Facing The World - wipe the tears, put the smile on, and get ready to face the world :P that's me everyday, but it's always better when someone's there to talk to.... but i'm alone...
    turtlefudgecakes turtlefudgecakes 18-21, F 2 Responses May 22, 2011

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    Just... - ...sometimes. I'm often ready to burst into tears under this smile, and sometimes I do. I once saw God, Himself, as I was walking home back when I lived in my parents...
    eleanorssong eleanorssong 56-60, F Nov 3, 2011

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    They Can't Understand - I've accepted that life is pain a long time ago. I figured that my family doesn't need any of the pain that I let myself carry. Somehow it feels right that...
    hurts2much hurts2much 18-21, F Aug 6, 2010

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    Time to take matters into my own hands.
    AllLoveXOXO AllLoveXOXO 18-21, M Feb 16

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    I'll be honest, I can't even fake the smile anymore......
    misslonelyplanet misslonelyplanet 31-35, F Apr 5

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    So long.... So long in agony. I play the clown for all to see. I smile therefore I must be ok. No one cares that the clown is dying inside. But that's ok .... My friends need a...
    popuptarget popuptarget 46-50, M Mar 8

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    Behind My Smile.. - Just look will you, look deep inside of me and see that this stupid smile is merely a mask to over up this pain i hold inside. Inside my heart is just about...
    BrokenAngel35 BrokenAngel35 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 26, 2013

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    New Beginnings - I just want the injustice to end. We have all the documented proof. There is no need for them to continue to fight. They have already lost and the war has barely...
    Legalities Legalities 46-50, F Aug 3, 2010

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    Little Girls Room - I've said a lot somewhere else about this. If I have to be somewhere public it is so hard to not look strained. In my head I'm screaming and have this intense...
    2rustno1 2rustno1 36-40 2 Responses Mar 29, 2012

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    Big Smiles -- People confuse me. I put on a front, a bubbly, happy young adult with all the opportunities in the world before her, a young woman who is grateful for-- sorry, this...
    CharlotteKitten CharlotteKitten 18-21, T Dec 20, 2013

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    No One Notices - It's amazing that no one can see under the false smile now a days. I grin, smile, and laugh with all of my friends, but I feel it clawing to escape. That need to...
    CowgirlMagic CowgirlMagic 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 14, 2011

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    I Dont Know What To Do Anymore :( Someone Please Help... - Anxiety. One seven letter word that ruins everything for me. That discusting feeling in my stomach, that feeling that...
    SomeonePleaseHelpMe SomeonePleaseHelpMe 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 6, 2012

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    Haters - Under this sarcastic, silly smile I am screaming.  I am screaming,"HELP ME!  SAVE ME FROM MYSELF!  WHY AM I ALONE?  WHAT DID I DO TO YOU TO MAKE YOU...
    BBUDS BBUDS 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 24, 2010

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    Yes I Am... - This smile on my face has been painted on. The pain underneathe is what I am feeling. This Smile is to lead you on That everything is okay, and that the smile...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 19, 2010

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    Laugh , Laugh , Laugh - The saying goes 'If you dont laugh you'll cry" thats been my life since , I honestly dont remember , I laugh alot lately and its not real laughter either...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 2, 2011

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    A Smile On The Outside.... - This smile on my face has been painted on. The pain underneathe is what I am feeling. This Smile is to lead you on That everything is okay, and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 17, 2010

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    Just A Poem... - This smile on my face has been painted on. The pain underneathe is what I am feeling. This Smile is to lead you on That everything is okay, and that...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jul 16, 2010

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    F*cking Sick Of Everything... -    I am really sick of all the bullshit... Some "friends" of mine are always taking me down >_< They always judge me for what I like, for what I...
    Nervly Nervly 16-17, M 2 Responses Nov 21, 2013

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    Pain - I hide my pain behind a smile! I go around smiling and I seem so happy but I'm actually dying inside! I cut myself, and beat myself up, and i seem ok! Tht smile I give...
    Ellias95 Ellias95 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 21, 2013

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    Then There Is Me... - There is me. I am the strong one. Depend on me. Look to me. Talk to me. My advice is sound. Nay, stellar. I never panic or raise my voice. My...
    SecretBrokenDoll SecretBrokenDoll 36-40, F 13 Responses Oct 9, 2011

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    Scream No One Will Hear You - Smile no one will see what your hiding behind it laugh no one will know what your really thinking giggle pretend your ok and no one will think...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Mar 30, 2010

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    Just had my braces on. Not even a day yet! Its terribly painful jesus its unimaginably painful. Kill me now please!!
    peishi peishi 16-17, F 1 Response 40 mins ago

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    I'm painting. It's **** but it's a creative start lol
    Naty13 Naty13 13-15, F 1 hr ago

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    When I hide people don't bother to look for me. I hide to well, better if I don't want to be found. I feel alone. I feel like I am hiding all the time behind this expressionless...
    Invisiblegirl07 Invisiblegirl07 13-15, F Apr 7

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    Even though there are times where my life seems to be in the dumps I manage a smile on my face. My first heartbreak, yeah I cried tears and it was hard to look at him but I manage...
    BabyDgay BabyDgay 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    Most of the time I don't feel anything.....I'm like a zombie. I ve learned how to act cheerful, exciting and interesting but half of the time I have no idea what I'm talking about...
    HopeEverlasting HopeEverlasting 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 31

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    Ahhhhhhh my wrist! Sorry for complaining but fu*ck!!!! I felt like screaming when I woke up, but I didn't so I needed to let it out silently. please kick in soon pain meds so I...
    KortneeAnne KortneeAnne 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Through early morning fog I see visions of the things to be the pains that are withheld for me I realize and I can see... That suicide is painless it brings on many changes and I...
    Greywlf Greywlf 56-60, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Thong underwear is the best kind of underwear. Its so comfy and makes me feel sexy. not to mention it gives my legs the most mobility and it keeps them cool. :D
    natessecret natessecret 18-21, M 3 Responses 9 hrs ago

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