I Am Searching For Myself

Last few years I have felt down. I have most symptoms of depression, but it's not depression. I know I'm not depressed because things don't look so grey all the time. I can still enjoy pleasures of life and everything, but inside I'm...

After waiting 7 long weeks, I finally got my genetic testing results back (see the original story Is Genetic Testing My Answer if you don't know what I am talking about).

It was helpful in some ways in that it filled in the blanks...

Your beauty intoxicates all you encounter,
Yet you fail to notice,
This is your blunder,

You've had a rough time,
Though now it is over,
But yet you continue clinging to what is left over,

And in doing this your depression grows...

If I cry
Don't halt me

If I cry
Don't stop me
Let the rain of tears fall on ground
And moisten the soil
For I like its silty fragrance.

If I cry
Don't pat my sodden cheeks
For it will not help me
Removing the clouds of self-pity
From...

It became more than I could take and I was left with no other choice but to separate myself from the only life I knew. My family has done everything they could to hold me back, to keep me in the flock despite them seeing that I am...

I feel quite sad in myself. I've never discovered who I am, and feel like I'm lacking inner love & appreciation to self. I can tell I'm projecting my inner sadness towards others, and that's heartbreaking in itself. I don't know where...

Some aspects of my life have always been a mystery to me. As a child, I was adopted by strangers, who by virtue of their cruelty, became enemies. Although I didn't know I was adopted at the time, I knew that I was not their child...

What does it mean to search for yourself? I look down i see my body. Doesn't go anywhere with out me. I get asked what i want for dinner i can give an answer so i know how it is i am feeling. I know wether i hate or love my job. If i am...

It been always so pleasure some for me to know through Ep stories,we all humans are so same one nature,though there are 4 human races in the world but we in nature are so same many combine problems, pains,worries miseries,failure,lucky...

Honestly, I think I've been searching for myself since the day I was born, haha.
I've had times where everything seems the same, and times where I take a spontaneous trip,
and others where my family has had to call me, worried, because...

Personally,
I am searching for more than what lies on the surface of me. I feel there is more to me to be discovered. I am still amazed by things I do, say, feel, experience and the way I change.
I look for the beautiful things...

I am searching for myself. I have yet to find me.I know what I am looking for.I know some of things that I am.But I still dont know for sure yet. I know what I want to be "WHEN I GROW UP" but....I AM...

I have no clue who I am yet...

Sometimes, I feel like I have a good grasp, but other days I feel so lost.