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I Am Secretly Depressed

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    These scars show but I'll never tell...
    iSkateboard iSkateboard 16-17 1 Response Jan 12

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    Deceptive Smile - Almost everyone I meet tells me I have a beautiful smile. I put on a great show-- I know what people want to hear; I smile, do the song and dance that society...
    Panda2232 Panda2232 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 21, 2013

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    Having A Brick Wall Up For Everybody... - I'm a 32 year old mother of two, I'm engaged to be married also. When I was 23 years old I found out I was 2 months pregnant and Hiv...
    tweetybird32 tweetybird32 31-35, F 2 Responses Oct 22, 2012

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    Ashamed To Admit It!! - everything just doesnt seem right just now, i cant be bothered with anything, i have this constant dark feeling that comes over me, im tired all the time, i...
    cowshed123 cowshed123 31-35, M 9 Responses Feb 4, 2012

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    I'm the popular girl. The one with all the advice. Nothing could possibly be wrong. Yet my heart aches. I have no friends and suicide is a constant thought of mine. I hate this...
    pinkkcotton pinkkcotton 26-30, F 2 Responses Feb 24

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    I don't know why I'm depressed. I just have this feeling that I can't explain and my mom has noticed it but she tries not to pressure me into telling her I feel like this. I told...
    BriannaSA BriannaSA 13-15, F Jan 14

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    No One In My Face To Face Life Knows - In fact, everyone thinks I'm very together. I've had people comment to my face how together and calm and laidback I am, and I always just...
    Susannahjade Susannahjade 22-25, F 1 Response May 3, 2013

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    Give Up - I feel like giving up now. I can't seem to experience joy anymore. Where did it go wrong I used to be happy go lucky, and confident and a little cocky. Now it's like I...
    Quinney Quinney 22-25, M 4 Responses Nov 10, 2013

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    Here'S How It Goes:/ - I'm not extremely depressed, but sad. My parents divorced in 2010, and the here years haven't impacted me, but everyone thinks it has. I have been through...
    loyalhoran loyalhoran 13-15, F Nov 12, 2013

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    It's that feeling of emptiness, like you wouldn't care if you woke up dead as you feel like you having nothing to live for. I hide behind fake smiles to those who surround me. But...
    lynettemo lynettemo 13-15, F Jan 15

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    So Happy! ... On The Outside... For You My Friends - I put on a smile for the world, i come to your house to make you feel better i laugh at your jokes even though there...
    mellycaroline mellycaroline 18-21 2 Responses Apr 22, 2011

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    I cried so much my eyes hurt I hate this crying yourself to sleep sucks
    nadirah96 nadirah96 16-17, F Feb 24

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    Motivation - Right now I'm meant to be studying for my a levels. I can't find the motivation anywhere. I can just about get out if bed in the morning never mind sit in silence with...
    Thatpaininside Thatpaininside 18-21, F 1 Response May 10, 2013

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    Learning To Talk Again - So this is me. I come from a good family, with a good amount of money. I live in a nice house in a nice neighborhood. I go to a good school full of good...
    PseudonymousPerson PseudonymousPerson 13-15, F 4 Responses Dec 19, 2012

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    I have been feeling down for about a year now. I know what the reason is and I've been trying to change. I just don't really want anyone to know. I hide it pretty well. I cry when...
    Dreamer32 Dreamer32 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 9

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    12 - "Denise, look at me" why? "What happen, to your arm?" Nothing.....[covers arms] "Then where did the big gashes come from.?" No where.... "......Den--" STOP trying to make me...
    SameOllove SameOllove 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    No One Has a Clue... - I have been in depression most of my adult life and had probably had bouts when I was a child.  It is interesting that no one knows about my depression...
    squidoutofguam squidoutofguam 46-50 2 Responses Jul 18, 2008

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    To Myself - It's all a secret. I can't tell anyone , they will treat me like someone else. They say you have to worry about the quiet ones and isnt that the truth. I put a smile on...
    Youregonnagofarkid Youregonnagofarkid 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 21, 2012

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    I'm that girl that's bubbly and happy. That makes everyone else smile. I'm the funny one that's never sad. Or so it seems Im in high school. I had a great life. I was always...
    JustThatNobody JustThatNobody 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 1

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    I have no one to talk to and I think my dad is going to kill himself. If not, I know he wants to. I wanted to cry but no tears even came out. I think I'm bottling my feelings up...
    paradisex paradisex 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    The Illusion - Suffering depression is an illusion; That makes you believe that you can't be better; That you can't become better than what and where you are right now; We like to...
    indigowitch indigowitch 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 29, 2012

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    The End - Somedays I just want to end it all. I'm so lonely, I have no friends and hardly see my family. No one knows how I feel, what's the point. No one would notice if I was...
    JustJay18 JustJay18 18-21 1 Response Aug 8, 2013

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    The majority say that teens are really exaggerated. You can count me in on that group. But a girl who's really tired. Tired of people, sickness and medine. Everyday of my life, I...
    IAMMELIKEYOU IAMMELIKEYOU 16-17, F Mar 1

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    I don't tell many my life and it's killing me. I am 13 years old and for the past 13 years things have happened. when I was younger I had to deal with my severally autistic sister...
    sniffew sniffew 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 30

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    I think I am depressed because I lack positive people in my life. In family everyone cribs about life. Cribs about getting by. They seek pleasure in material things. Which is fine...
    rohogaka rohogaka 26-30 1 Response Jan 10

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    How Do I Know? - I do not know if I am depressed. I think a lot, and do not know what to do. My grades are going down, I feel like everybody is just pretending to like me these...
    judgingnorwegian judgingnorwegian 16-17, F Oct 17, 2013

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    Well, it is no secret because I know. Is that all matters? No, but it seems like it. With my circumstances and the live and "family" I am stuck in, I suffer depression and nobody...
    ColourmeAmb ColourmeAmb 18-21, F a week ago

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    My name is Cooper Rose. I am 20 years old, and I am from Brighton, England. I am a closet lesbian afraid to tell my strict religious parents. I'm very lonely and I fell in love...
    infinitemoments infinitemoments 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 8

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    Unhappy With Where You Are? - Where we are in life is exactly where we want to be. Not necessarily because it's what we want but because it's good enough. When good enough isn't...
    maxximiliann maxximiliann 36-40, M 2 Responses Apr 20, 2012

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    Yes I Am and I Try to Hide ... - Yes I am and I try to hide it from the world. I put on a big smile and venture out everyday. Only my pillow knows my frustrations and tears and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 13, 2008

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    I seem so happy and excited yet I'm not. As soon as I let the barriers down I'm just a sad, broken girl whose parents don't love and never hug. I'm a girl who was given anything in...
    AllyBear101 AllyBear101 13-15, F Feb 20

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    Connections - I dont know why but my focus levels are out, really bad, i am constantly tired, edgy, very unsocial, i dont want to be social, i find it hard to speak to people...
    ThisChica ThisChica 18-21, F Oct 14, 2013

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    She'S An Angel [Fallen] - Hiding is much easier than showing. Depression is mainly what I cause myself, I stress out so easy, but supposedly I'm perfect. Mother's little angel...
    QueenOfAngels QueenOfAngels 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 30, 2013

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    I Am A Potato - i am reaching 18 years of age soon and i have been unhappy for a while. since about 14 years old have been very insecure and i have a low self-esteem. i do have my...
    kyleesmiley kyleesmiley 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 1, 2012

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    Why Not Start By Listening? - Call it what you will, but there is this part of you – an innate wisdom, if you will – that has tried and tried and tried to get you to stop and...
    maxximiliann maxximiliann 36-40, M Apr 20, 2012

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    Idk Anymore - Have no friends I just have a boring depressing life.I cry each day ,I don't even know why my friends stop talking to me when it was during summer break. I tell...
    Imlonelyjalen Imlonelyjalen 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 21, 2013

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    Mental Breakdown! - I dont know if it is seriously me, but i dont know how longer I can take being the "push over" person. I work all day and then come home to a life style I...
    DiScReTePoEt DiScReTePoEt 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 15, 2012

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    My friends always ask me if I'm okay and all that I all I answer is yeah I'm fine but I lie. Everyday you have to wake up and nobody notices how broken this world really is, they...
    lisha101 lisha101 18-21, F Jan 16

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    Lost - I feel lost. I feel like it's time to give up. I'm done trying.
    baronswim baronswim 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 15, 2013

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    I Have to Put On a Brave Face - It's hard but someone has to do it and in these cases, it has to be me. I've been depressed since Hurricane Katrina, I packed up what I could and we...
    Dimples87 Dimples87 22-25, F 12 Responses Jul 14, 2008

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    I try to keep my mind and my hands busy on projects in order to strive off my constant questions concerning what is the actual purpose of life. During my most quietest moments, I...
    AnythingQuiet AnythingQuiet 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 24

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    Hiding It From Most... - I don't know why the sorrow goes so deep. Why there is no bottom to the pain at times. I try to surround myself with humor and have much to be thankful...
    Snapple10 Snapple10 31-35, F 2 Responses Apr 7, 2012

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    Everyone Has A Limit... - I feel dead.... I'm physically Drained. I'm emotionally ready to explode. I'm mentally ready to shut down. Physically; I can't keep smiling like nothings...
    SameOllove SameOllove 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 20, 2013

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    Everyday I go to school with a smile on my face, I'm not happy but It appears I am. This helps me avoid the questions such as "what's wrong with you, are you okay?". When people...
    kelsey9317 kelsey9317 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 20

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