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I Am Self Destructive and Seeking the Path to Reconstruction

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    I admit. I have self destructive tendencies. The most self destructive tendencies I have is withdrawing from people and escaping into my imagination. Whatever emotion I'm feeling, I get lost into it by imagining scenarios and playing out scenes in my head that further keep me in...
    Tummie Tummie 26-30, M 5 Responses Jul 23, 2008

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    When you know you are doing it wrong, but keep doing it... what do you do? I can care so much about him, but still I don't know how to be happy or deserve to be happy. UGH 3
    sbhasty sbhasty 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 3, 2012

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    The Destructive Me?

    I am currently seeking the real reason why i destroy things....Last week, I was a fool..I destroyed alot of things-- even the things i found very important to me..I destroyed the only friendship i had..and also the one i loved for all my life...I once told myself to change...
    JeremyHere JeremyHere 18-21, M Jan 21, 2011

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    my story

    I don't know why I break things. 
    canadiangoose canadiangoose 51-55 1 Response Nov 11, 2009

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    My List of Self Destructive Habits

    Dwelling on my emotions - This is especially the case when I'm angry or feeling sad. My imagination begins to feed into it and I become even more unaware of what's actually going on. Also I play music to further keep me angry or sad when I try not to. I consider music as a...
    Tummie Tummie 26-30, M 15 Responses Jul 31, 2008

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     It has been awhile since I created this group and written stories in it. As of right now, I think I'm dealing with my self destructive tendencies (like escaping in fantasies and feeling flawed) and I can feel myself changing for the better. There are still improvements that...
    Tummie Tummie 26-30, M 11 Responses Apr 13, 2009

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    I'll tell you what feels really good... When you can be happy with the person you are inside your own skin and being able to walk around without some illusory self - a "social...
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    Let people hate you, let them judge you, let them talk bad about you. In the end, they are nobody to you, right? Do what you want and what makes YOU happy, cos your the one who has...
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    I think everybody should be kind to themselves in life. Sadly I am a person who beats myself up other a lot of things in my life and it often leads me down the path of depression...
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    Oh well... congratulations, you screwed it all up again. If I've learnt anything now, after scaring away someone who wanted to help, perhaps... I'm still heavily guarded, and the...
    AmethystCluster AmethystCluster 26-30, F 7 Responses 4 days ago

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    The things I'm learning and the rate at which I'm changing as a person is beyond description. Every time I think I'm complete as a person and that I don't need to know anything...
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    What have I done...... My first glimpses of fear, were insecurities. The basic, standard, social anxieties. Feeling inadequate around others. This was early in my life, age 9-15...
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    I ended my therapy appointments tonight. Grateful for a woman who truly saw me at my lowest and picked me up. She and I hugged when I left. Time to let things settle. I...
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    As I walk through today, may my senses be enhanced. May my eyes see others the way You have seen, do see and will see me in days to come. May my eyes see past the front people put...
    meto2015 meto2015 41-45, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    Or at least he WAS my fresh start. NOT anymore due to the fact that literally EVERYTHING that comes out of this mans mouth are all LIES. You could be wearing a blue shirt and he...
    ImNotTelling33 ImNotTelling33 41-45, F 6 days ago

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    To me, self destruction is not a recreational activity, it's a religion.
    FreedFromFallacy FreedFromFallacy 22-25, F 6 days ago

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    sometimes i think tht wht iz our life?nd many people dnt know meaning of our life..we have just 60-100 years for living this one life.after tht we all hav to die...so we should...
    Nowshin Nowshin 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    A reminder of my place in this world. Weak, sad and pathetic. Clean for only about 2 weeks. Trigger? The thought of facing people from the past. Having to admit and face my...
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    I always hear people speaking about how a women has no self respect if she wears skin tight clothes that show so much skin. I think that when women where clothing like that it...
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    Sometimes I can be my worst enemy. I can be so self destructive. I've cut myself in the past, yes, but more than that I have so much self hatred that I have yet to work through...
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    I wish I was past this point already. Changing from looking without to looking within...I feel like I am losing so much. I have been carrying this grief around with me every day...
    JustTheSun JustTheSun 26-30 4 Responses Jan 29

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    Rhymes and Reasons don't come when I need them. But as I look back on my days living, from beginning innocence, to middle abuse, and now where I am out of the abuse but lingering...
    meto2015 meto2015 41-45, F 1 Response Jan 28

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    Father I Thank You for what You are doing in me, through me and around me. May You soften my spiritual senses, my eyes, my ears and my being. Father You know the battle that I go...
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    This vid proves me was smart Me said do gratitude list And victory list And list of awesome And goals Four out of seven By my mind seeking a boost for me...
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    I just sit around feeling sorry for myself, yet I keep myself in that position by my fear of taking action. I don't think that I'm trying to be a martyr, but it may come across...
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    I found this article on the internet and i found it very useful. I can never understand if I love myself enough, even if I am a very self confident woman (yes, the two things can...
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    Hey...don't ignore this,just give me a chance to explain Don't grab your "tools" whenever you feel bad.Remind yourself what will happen if you give up.How are you going to deal...
    ghostdolly ghostdolly 13-15, F Jan 24

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    Hey...don't ignore this,just give me a chance to explain Don't grab your "tools" whenever you feel bad.Remind yourself what will happen if you give up.How are you going to deal...
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    Hey...don't ignore this,just give me a chance to explain Don't grab your "tools" whenever you feel bad.Remind yourself what will happen if you give up.How are you going to deal...
    ghostdolly ghostdolly 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 24

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    Hey...don't ignore this,just give me a chance to explain Don't grab your "tools" whenever you feel bad.Remind yourself what will happen if you give up.How are you going to deal...
    ghostdolly ghostdolly 13-15, F Jan 24

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    Hey...don't ignore this,just give me a chance to explain Don't grab your "tools" whenever you feel bad.Remind yourself what will happen if you give up.How are you going to deal...
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