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I Am Self Destructive and Seeking the Path to Reconstruction

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    My List of Self Destructive Habits

    Dwelling on my emotions - This is especially the case when I'm angry or feeling sad. My imagination begins to feed into it and I become even more unaware of what's actually going on. Also I play music to further keep me angry or sad when I try not to. I consider music as a...
    Tummie Tummie 26-30, M 15 Responses Jul 31, 2008

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    When

    When you know you are doing it wrong, but keep doing it... what do you do? I can care so much about him, but still I don't know how to be happy or deserve to be happy. UGH 3
    sbhasty sbhasty 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 3, 2012

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    my story

    I don't know why I break things. 
    canadiangoose canadiangoose 51-55 1 Response Nov 11, 2009

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    The Destructive Me?

    I am currently seeking the real reason why i destroy things....Last week, I was a fool..I destroyed alot of things-- even the things i found very important to me..I destroyed the only friendship i had..and also the one i loved for all my life...I once told myself to change...
    jeremywashere jeremywashere 18-21, M Jan 21, 2011

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    Wow!

     It has been awhile since I created this group and written stories in it. As of right now, I think I'm dealing with my self destructive tendencies (like escaping in fantasies and feeling flawed) and I can feel myself changing for the better. There are still improvements that...
    Tummie Tummie 26-30, M 11 Responses Apr 13, 2009

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    Yup

    I admit. I have self destructive tendencies. The most self destructive tendencies I have is withdrawing from people and escaping into my imagination. Whatever emotion I'm feeling, I get lost into it by imagining scenarios and playing out scenes in my head that further keep me in...
    Tummie Tummie 26-30, M 5 Responses Jul 23, 2008

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