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I Am Self Destructive and Seeking the Path to Reconstruction

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    my story

    I don't know why I break things. 
    canadiangoose canadiangoose 51-55 1 Response Nov 11, 2009

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    My List of Self Destructive Habits

    Dwelling on my emotions - This is especially the case when I'm angry or feeling sad. My imagination begins to feed into it and I become even more unaware of what's actually going on. Also I play music to further keep me angry or sad when I try not to. I consider music as a...
    Tummie Tummie 26-30, M 15 Responses Jul 31, 2008

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    Wow!

     It has been awhile since I created this group and written stories in it. As of right now, I think I'm dealing with my self destructive tendencies (like escaping in fantasies and feeling flawed) and I can feel myself changing for the better. There are still improvements that...
    Tummie Tummie 26-30, M 11 Responses Apr 13, 2009

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    The Destructive Me?

    I am currently seeking the real reason why i destroy things....Last week, I was a fool..I destroyed alot of things-- even the things i found very important to me..I destroyed the only friendship i had..and also the one i loved for all my life...I once told myself to change...
    jeremywashere jeremywashere 18-21, M Jan 21, 2011

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    Yup

    I admit. I have self destructive tendencies. The most self destructive tendencies I have is withdrawing from people and escaping into my imagination. Whatever emotion I'm feeling, I get lost into it by imagining scenarios and playing out scenes in my head that further keep me in...
    Tummie Tummie 26-30, M 5 Responses Jul 23, 2008

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    When

    When you know you are doing it wrong, but keep doing it... what do you do? I can care so much about him, but still I don't know how to be happy or deserve to be happy. UGH 3
    sbhasty sbhasty 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 3, 2012

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    Despite myself, I find a way to not focus on what is important or what matters but tend to drift away into a fantasy world created by my mind. Although there was a very special...
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    I dont mine taking risk or doing dangerous stuff, i dont mind drinking And smoking, even in My family all the Men has suffer from cancer, i dont think twice when i have to do...
    Sorrowonmyheart Sorrowonmyheart 18-21, M 4 days ago

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    u always said I will destroy u.......there u have it.....happy..........I am gone........a bridge is harder than a car.....I am willing to test that theory......btw....they will...
    huckleberrybunches huckleberrybunches 36-40, M 4 Responses Feb 15

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    This is my first time using this app. The first time I really even heard about it. But I Googled something that brought me here. I am a self-harmer. For ten years now (and still...
    NovaSixx NovaSixx 22-25, F 1 hr ago

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    Selfish people have a very narrow focus. They are focused on getting what they want, when they want it. Instead of seeing others' opinions, feelings, and desires as guides ( things...
    Zelaleme Zelaleme 46-50, F Feb 8

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    I don't exactly know why I'm writing this. I'm not one to seek attention, I never have been. I guess that's why I'm writing this... To show that self harm isn't for attention. I...
    Ticcat Ticcat 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Self Harm has always been a problem from me, ever since I started cutting a few years ago, I never really knew how to stop. I mean I would be able to stop for a few days, weeks...
    queenmallow queenmallow 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    I'm what people consider a "bum", yet I have no intentions of going down this path. I've got my self in a hole after I left school, I have no idea what to do! I've developed...
    Sourceofalex Sourceofalex 16-17, M 2 Responses Feb 16

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    Did a lot of drugs. Joined the Navy. Went to college, met a girl, went to grad school and got a PhD in engineering, got married, had two kids. Was told "I never loved you, I only...
    HeroHeroGoDoYourJob HeroHeroGoDoYourJob 41-45, M 3 Responses Feb 12

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    I am constantly working on my inner self and changing things I don't like about myself. I can be stubborn so its a challenge sometimes lol. I am currently working on being more...
    ZZlmeleneyZZ ZZlmeleneyZZ 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 23

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    I feel really selfish, and I am not sure how to change. In my group of friends, I dated one of them. She is now dating this guy in my group of friends. The two of them show so much...
    Blackbutterflies99 Blackbutterflies99 13-15, F Feb 24

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    divorce male, age 53 seeking a women who is really interested in the Female Led Relationship!! I am from the Boston Area, I'm not a wimp,but I do love and date strong, women who...
    ssubslv4u ssubslv4u 46-50, M Feb 6

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    I don't think we can ever lose our inner peace, our inner quiet. I think it is always there. Sure, it can be covered up, ignored, and drowned out, but it is never truly gone. We...
    HonorTheTrickster HonorTheTrickster 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 11

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    I am seeking a younger woman for casual times maybe leading to ltr and starting a family.
    mrfarmer mrfarmer 51-55, M 6 days ago

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    Cub seeking a cougar I'm 18
    curiousguy1996 curiousguy1996 18-21, M 2 days ago

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    I feel like no one knows the real me. Like I won't let anyone know the real me. I'm afraid they won't understand me or want to be my friend anymore. It's pathetic but I've lost so...
    SexyAngelBitches SexyAngelBitches 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 18

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    it is really sad when someone gets bullied. it really is. the pain makes you wanna end life but you wanna be strong. to a point, I wanted to end my life because of bullies at my...
    ThatOneSomaliGirl ThatOneSomaliGirl 13-15, F 3 Responses Feb 24

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    It comes to a point when your having a disagreement with someone, so they block you before you can have your say. Pathetic.
    DaddysBabyPrincess1 DaddysBabyPrincess1 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 13

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    I think i picked the wrong career path. I know its still early and its not too late for me to change it but i dont have the guts to do it. And i cant imagine doing it for the rest...
    Grimmface Grimmface 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 14

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    I admit it I am a dork, I play pathfinder xD but if you have the right group of friends its crazy fun :)
    Jwolf1342 Jwolf1342 18-21, M Feb 14

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    So many people in my age group are beginning to self harm and it makes me sick. I wish I could stop. This is my story: When I was younger, I would look at self harmers and go, "My...
    lily13576349 lily13576349 13-15, F Feb 17

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    A Journey begins by taking the first step. A spiritual path is as much about noticing what we notice as it is about meditating, reading spiritual texts & cleansing. Each one of...
    fireeagle7 fireeagle7 61-65, M Feb 19

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    The cycle repeats itself year after year We shed old thoughts we once held dear Rebirth, renewal is the name of the game It's all there is to it..life is not lame See through...
    MistyMoon1 MistyMoon1 41-45, F 3 Responses Feb 24

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    She showed me visions of a time when duties were not kept, the pain and sorrow were unbearable. He kept me safe by stopping reality. Our duty is both a blessing and a curse. We...
    CDragontamer CDragontamer 31-35, T 2 Responses Feb 25

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    Very pathetic. Don't bother.
    Gemz2411 Gemz2411 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    not in the meaning of selfish but I spend 70% of my day time alone in my work I tried not to talk to others I left home some times I stop the car and set with my self I love my...
    tetomni tetomni 31-35, M 1 Response Feb 10

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    I'm honestly tired of people glorifying self harm. I'm done and I need a good rant. Depression is NOT fun, it's NOT a choice, and more importantly self harm is NOT beautiful. It's...
    Whathi Whathi 16-17, F 6 Responses 6 days ago

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    There is this guy in my school who we'll just call Adam for privacy's sake. We used to be really close friends when we were little but the only thing that I think I've ever even...
    HypoallergenicUnicorn HypoallergenicUnicorn 13-15, F Feb 18

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    People who have self respect and act in a respectful, decent and dignified way are those that I then in turn respect. Took me a long long time to learn this. If you have self...
    nunos nunos 51-55, M 2 Responses Feb 20

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    I always try to exercise my honesty towards myself. Additionally, there are moments that I indulge with my vanity. One of which is taking pictures of my self aka "selfies". I...
    BloviatingBuffoon BloviatingBuffoon 70+, F 11 Responses Feb 25

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    Honestly you can't find people with self-respect anymore ... I really admire a person who can take the time to really understand their self-worth . Exposing yourself isn't...
    xolex18 xolex18 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    just a heads up my spelling is not the greatest nor is my grammar so please be easy xP. my entire life it has been so easy for me to find the greatness in others and bring it out...
    Lugelogistics93 Lugelogistics93 18-21, M 2 days ago

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    I lost it long ago and now i have rediscovered it within again.Well being traumatized has made me a weakling and dependent person and i ended up being clingy and a bit over polite...
    GenuineAngel GenuineAngel 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Why idk. But I have an entire album of hundreds of selfies. If I ever go missing the police will have a very wide selection of photos to pick from for my missing persons poster. I...
    Daring2care4u Daring2care4u 26-30 2 Responses Feb 7

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    I am not self confident at all because I got a round face ,I really hate that ,but I can't change anything as I was born to be kind of that , I can't even look up person when I...
    jessicatong jessicatong 26-30, F 14 Responses Feb 8

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    Dear self-confidence, I miss you a lot. Specially in these periods of hard working. Building up self-confidence is difficult, I do sport, I try to stay positive, I try to be myself...
    CrookedMat CrookedMat 26-30, M 4 Responses Feb 8

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