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I Am Self Destructive and Seeking the Path to Reconstruction

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    I admit. I have self destructive tendencies. The most self destructive tendencies I have is withdrawing from people and escaping into my imagination. Whatever emotion I'm feeling, I get lost into it by imagining scenarios and playing out scenes in my head that further keep me in...
    Tummie Tummie 26-30, M 5 Responses Jul 23, 2008

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    Wow!

     It has been awhile since I created this group and written stories in it. As of right now, I think I'm dealing with my self destructive tendencies (like escaping in fantasies and feeling flawed) and I can feel myself changing for the better. There are still improvements that...
    Tummie Tummie 26-30, M 11 Responses Apr 13, 2009

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    When

    When you know you are doing it wrong, but keep doing it... what do you do? I can care so much about him, but still I don't know how to be happy or deserve to be happy. UGH 3
    sbhasty sbhasty 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 3, 2012

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    My List of Self Destructive Habits

    Dwelling on my emotions - This is especially the case when I'm angry or feeling sad. My imagination begins to feed into it and I become even more unaware of what's actually going on. Also I play music to further keep me angry or sad when I try not to. I consider music as a...
    Tummie Tummie 26-30, M 15 Responses Jul 31, 2008

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    my story

    I don't know why I break things. 
    canadiangoose canadiangoose 51-55 1 Response Nov 11, 2009

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    The Destructive Me?

    I am currently seeking the real reason why i destroy things....Last week, I was a fool..I destroyed alot of things-- even the things i found very important to me..I destroyed the only friendship i had..and also the one i loved for all my life...I once told myself to change...
    jeremywashere jeremywashere 18-21, M Jan 21, 2011

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    I am destructive. Everything I care about I destroy. I seem like answer understanding person but in the end I am only pain and suffering. Don't bother with me. Don't trust me- don...
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    I trick myself into thinking nobody likes me and then because of that I act weird and thus nobody likes me
    hebr0 hebr0 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 15

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    Well more like I want to be comfortable in my own body. I really want to be able to take my clothes off and not be self conscious in front of people. Like in the locker room for...
    maria20144 maria20144 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 2

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    Selfharm is a cry for help ... It is not intentionally reacted upon oneself to purposely cut, burn, hit themselves ... It is a sentiment of relief and it is not a "attention...
    Angelanorexic Angelanorexic 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 12

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    My goal: to be the person I want to be with in more ways then one... With this in mind I find myself getting anxiety from a place of self perfectionism, but then I take a step...
    mzwhat mzwhat 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I always take selfies when I'm sad, that's why I never smile on selfies :)
    liana10 liana10 13-15, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    What will anything I write here contribute to that? I'll forget it the next day. But inside I know that I just want self improvement, self reliance. It won't come the easy way.. i...
    FreeFallWall FreeFallWall 22-25, M Aug 1

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    The world continues to move around me. The chatter, the frenzy, the seeking, the competition. What is it that each of us is striving for? How many are even aware? Or are we just...
    mistletoe41 mistletoe41 41-45, F 2 Responses Aug 24

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    I don't feel like having my name on here incase someone I know is reading this, but I'm a 15 year old Australian. and I self mutilate. The Sunday before I went back to school I...
    bonedecay bonedecay 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 7

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    I'm a **** up to this world , my family hates me I hate me , I'm beginning to think that if I was just gone no one would care . All I do is mess **** up I can't even be a proper...
    HaddyT HaddyT 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 20

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    Just cut my self twice on my stomach cuz I'm afraid people will start asking questions about my wrist and stuff...
    lamiavarc lamiavarc 16-17, F 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    Effective way to gain self-confidence: Every time I lock the door and go to work, no matter how I feel, (fearful of the world, anxious of uncertainty), I say a little prayer: " I...
    samemay54 samemay54 51-55, F 1 Response 15 hrs ago

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    I wanna try and stop self harming myself. But it's so hard doing it. All I need help and finding people who actually care about me.
    CuttingIsMyBestFriend CuttingIsMyBestFriend 18-21, F 3 hrs ago

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    I wanna try and stop self harming myself. But it's so hard doing it. All I need help and finding people who actually care about me.
    CuttingIsMyBestFriend CuttingIsMyBestFriend 18-21, F 3 hrs ago

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    I wanna try and stop self harming myself. But it's so hard doing it. All I need help and finding people who actually care about me.
    CuttingIsMyBestFriend CuttingIsMyBestFriend 18-21, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    As much as I love my hobby (Photography) I am very self conscious about being seen photographing in public, as ridiculous as it sounds most of the time I can't bring myself too do...
    BoredintheUK96 BoredintheUK96 16-17, M 2 hrs ago

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    Someone gave me these silly 3D movie glasses at a party...naturally i took a selfie
    juuuules juuuules 18-21, F 3 Responses 17 mins ago

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    My parents don't understand why I do it, they never will. They call me mad and "attention seeking" I don't know how I can explain to them it keeps me alive....
    Arianna191 Arianna191 13-15, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I find that seeking one is wrong but if it finds you on your way ride along it's easier to not let it take hold of you
    abillawolf abillawolf 26-30, T Aug 10

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    I am a mature cd and am seeking gurlfriends and admirers to share stories , tips and just be friends. I am so lonely right now mostly because of where i live.I have so many fun...
    susansfun susansfun 51-55, T 13 Responses Aug 14

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    I'm a Cougar seeking a Cub :) ONLY HMU IF YOU ARE LEGAL, LIVE IN SOUTHEASTERN MASS, BE 420 FRIENDLY, MATURE & NOT LOOKIN' FOR FWB!
    christinelove69 christinelove69 41-45, F 6 Responses Aug 14

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    i am seeking for true mistress i will be your Obedient slave i am ready to doing any ordering from you lick and suck your feet searve you BDSM also...waiting you
    fetishfeet fetishfeet 46-50, M 3 Responses Aug 18

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    i am seeking for a slave that willing to be tease online and pursue it real time.....
    mistressmegan001 mistressmegan001 26-30, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I am starting to give up on life, each day I grow emotionally weaker and weaker. I am always getting heartbroken or friendzoned from girls that I like. Every crush that I have ever...
    elugo777 elugo777 18-21, M 9 Responses Aug 3

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    literally you need to have the confidence of Beyoncé to handle today's society and that's pathetic as heck
    radicalkiah radicalkiah 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 6

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    I was just thinking of how I get hurt my ppl that I love and care for over and over again . It hurts just thinking of it I was betrayed by the girl that I once called BFF (3 years...
    DrowningInPain2 DrowningInPain2 13-15, F Aug 6

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    I think am done know, am just to pathetic Stupid ugly, I **** everything up.....maybe it's time to go
    Chesher Chesher 18-21, M Aug 21

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    I've self harmed since I was 12 (I'm almost 15 now) I started when I was 12 when my online friend told me she self harms so I guess being 12 I did a stupid thing, I self harmed to...
    Yuki101 Yuki101 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 14

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    I have suffered with the big D for 5 years now. It started with a car accident. An accident caused by a change in a disability. Epilepsy. Is it selfish to feel down because a...
    DelanaWenbe DelanaWenbe 46-50, M Aug 14

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    I am the walking wolf I am not wounded Tonight was ushered in by a beautiful day I touchdown back at my birthright I carry myself upwards and onwards Through the sun dripped...
    faintking faintking 26-30, M 6 days ago

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    There comes a time in life when you have to choose What do you have to win or what are you willing to lose do you stay within the crowd and follow what everyone chooses to do Or...
    ajrestless ajrestless 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    "Took this from a friend here on EP. Found it astonishing in its simplicity. And I love it. I think, we do dream of this kind of passion, so pure so soft but boundless. How...
    NonchalantEros NonchalantEros 31-35, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    My loneliness is still here even when ur just downstairs. I feel pathetic coz now I've resorted to watching this romantic tv show on hallmark channel to feel vicariously through...
    SummerChristmas SummerChristmas 36-40, F 22 hrs ago

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    19 weeks clean today...that's right!! Every week I just get more excited!! I can't believe I'm almost at 5 months...last time I made it 4 and I lost it all...this time is different...
    ashricard ashricard 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 4

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    I remember the first time i self harm that time i was realy stress out and don"t know what to do that"s why i selfharm at first i would selfharm at a visible place because i...
    nagaseiori nagaseiori 18-21, F Aug 11

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    If you cut or use to, please read this. I'm doing a survey for future understanding of self harm as I may become a therapist. I understand that a lot of people don't like talking...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Aug 18

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    Ok, some people believe self harm is only cutting yourself. But let me tell you self harm can be done in so many more ways. I've always had an issue with anger, and a big one at...
    Redmaynes Redmaynes 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 20

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    I have discovered that this is my biggest flaw and challenge in life. Low self-esteem truly affects me and causes me both physical and mental distress that is unbearable much of...
    misscoffee misscoffee 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 21

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    Have you cut or deliberately injured yourself in the past year? We invite you to share your experience by participating in a quick online study to learn more about people’s...
    uwyoresearcher uwyoresearcher 22-25, F Aug 22

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    Selfie here, selfie there, here selfie there selfie everywhere a selfie. Hahahaha (;
    ForeverYoung09 ForeverYoung09 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    i think to be selfish in some extent is not bad ,because u can help any one only when u help ur self ,we are bound to do work for our selves first rather than anyone else whether...
    rev429 rev429 18-21, M 3 days ago

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