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I Am Self Destructive and Seeking the Path to Reconstruction

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    When you know you are doing it wrong, but keep doing it... what do you do? I can care so much about him, but still I don't know how to be happy or deserve to be happy. UGH 3
    sbhasty sbhasty 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 3, 2012

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    my story

    I don't know why I break things. 
    canadiangoose canadiangoose 51-55 1 Response Nov 11, 2009

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    My List of Self Destructive Habits

    Dwelling on my emotions - This is especially the case when I'm angry or feeling sad. My imagination begins to feed into it and I become even more unaware of what's actually going on. Also I play music to further keep me angry or sad when I try not to. I consider music as a...
    Tummie Tummie 26-30, M 15 Responses Jul 31, 2008

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    The Destructive Me?

    I am currently seeking the real reason why i destroy things....Last week, I was a fool..I destroyed alot of things-- even the things i found very important to me..I destroyed the only friendship i had..and also the one i loved for all my life...I once told myself to change...
    jeremywashere jeremywashere 18-21, M Jan 21, 2011

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    Yup

    I admit. I have self destructive tendencies. The most self destructive tendencies I have is withdrawing from people and escaping into my imagination. Whatever emotion I'm feeling, I get lost into it by imagining scenarios and playing out scenes in my head that further keep me in...
    Tummie Tummie 26-30, M 5 Responses Jul 23, 2008

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    Wow!

     It has been awhile since I created this group and written stories in it. As of right now, I think I'm dealing with my self destructive tendencies (like escaping in fantasies and feeling flawed) and I can feel myself changing for the better. There are still improvements that...
    Tummie Tummie 26-30, M 11 Responses Apr 13, 2009

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    When I screw up I feel hatred towards myself, I have to fight off those self hate words. When I am rejected by a guy-- and only by a guy I like-- I feel anger and wish to hurt them...
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    some people think taking selfie is seeking attention. whatever people say,my idea is NOT. and i do what i want.
    juryandrews juryandrews 31-35, F 4 days ago

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    I sometimes I wish that there was someone, or something to steer me down the right path. Yet I realized a long time ago that, there's no-one but me. Am I going down the right path...
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    Peace from within brings self confidence. Increases my sex appeal and self confidence
    karieme20 karieme20 18-21, F 38 mins ago

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    Note to self: Do not selfie while drunk
    Colourfi Colourfi 13-15, F 2 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    well i love taking selfie so do others but keep in mind never take a selfie while u r drink coz u might look like a creepiest thing in the world belive me lol
    waris1 waris1 16-17, M 5 hrs ago

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    I noticed that "seeking advice" was a category that has not been used. I explored Seeking Advice Experiences and found none. I thought I would be the first. I have much need for...
    tryingagainII tryingagainII 56-60, M 1 Response Nov 30

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    I just want to let all the people who say self harming is "dumb" and "pointless", know that they are very ignorant about the situation and they should just shut up. I used to self...
    Roadtorecovery31997 Roadtorecovery31997 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 3

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    I've been clean of this for over a year now but I look back at the scars, I look back at my old blogs and as pathetic as it sounds, after all the pain I caused myself and people...
    ljevans1234 ljevans1234 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 28

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    I used to have a low self esteem. I used to be emotionally dependent, albeit secretly, upon boyfriends for a sense of worth and happiness. I still have my moments where I wish I...
    topsykrit topsykrit 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I haven't cut in over a year. I don't want to start again, but I feel so bad. I admitted to my mom that I have suicidal thoughts and I have trouble with self harming and she didn't...
    thornedrose thornedrose 18-21, F 3 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    happy selfieee saturday :)
    Alliejxo Alliejxo 22-25, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    I just thought of something, to all the cutters and self harmers like myself too let's all try this idea. When you feel the urge to harm yourself close your eyes an count to 10 or...
    ForTheFallen ForTheFallen 22-25, M 2 hrs ago

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    I'm a under-confident teen, I've been cutting myself for 3 years now! Did some ****! I hate my self, i want to be perfect.. Need to loose weight! Need support! I need to become...
    wannabeanorexic4ever wannabeanorexic4ever 13-15, F 56 mins ago

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    Today has been an easy day. There were no emotional highs or lows, and my attempts to rein in the 'the boy' as I call it has been relatively successful. I am referring to my self...
    pretender2687 pretender2687 26-30, M 1 Response Dec 8

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    I have fears, issues and feelings I bury in shallow graves. For the past three months I've been working two jobs so I don't have a lot of free time.. I've learned how to live in...
    Baconarama Baconarama 22-25 1 Response Nov 22

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    Traveler, there is no path. The path is made by walking. Traveller, the path is your tracks And nothing more. Traveller, there is no path The path is made by walking. By walking...
    PeterDr PeterDr 31-35, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I'm not posting all these posts for attention, I'm trying to help those in need, I know what it's like to have no one, what it's like to not want to be alive, what it's like to...
    Michaelyourguardianangel Michaelyourguardianangel 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 27

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    attention seeking was never my thing ☯
    Hopeisinme Hopeisinme 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 27

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    My mom was my study partner. I would generally spend the week getting a study ready for her and me to talk about on Saturday. It was nice for both of us; I learned how to be a...
    miryam57 miryam57 56-60, F 1 Response Nov 29

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    I am 29, gay, straight-acting, well educated, Hindu and I live in Delhi. I am looking for a MOC with a feminine and closeted lesbian. If anyone is interested, then please mail me...
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    I am 29, gay, straight-acting, well educated, Hindu and I live in Delhi. I am looking for a MOC with a feminine and closeted lesbian. If anyone is interested, then please mail me...
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    I am 29, gay, straight-acting, well educated, Hindu and I live in Delhi. I am looking for a MOC with a feminine and closeted lesbian. If anyone is interested, then please mail me...
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    I am 29, gay, straight-acting, well educated, Hindu and I live in Delhi. I am looking for a MOC with a feminine and closeted lesbian. If anyone is interested, then please mail me...
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    I guess I'm not really SEEKING inner peace, but the door is ******' OPEN and it sure would be welcome!
    OldNRusty OldNRusty 41-45, M 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    I dont think I've even been more sad and frustrated in my life and it's for no apparent reason. The thoughts come and go, I guess I don't mind them. I really just hate being so...
    sunkern sunkern 18-21, M 3 days ago

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    I relapsed after almost a month.. I wanted to stay clean for my birthday. But I just can't. I broke every promise I made, I told myself repetitively that I was better than that...
    xxDarkLoverxx xxDarkLoverxx 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    7 days. 7 freaking days. That's how long I stopped for this time. I'm so pathetic. Apparently I should've disposed of my razor blades. I hate myself.
    kimberlykhaos kimberlykhaos 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I was raised Roman Catholic, my husband had baptist / Roman Catholic influences growing up. I guess you could say we've leaned towards Christianity, but don't have any faith in the...
    Mythriel Mythriel 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 28

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    things are looking up. my new path isn't as easy as I want it to be, but I'm happy. I hope this path leads me to a future I'll enjoy. looks like I just gotta wait and see. wish me...
    SarinasHere SarinasHere 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    my spirit is evolving and maturing once more. i am so sensitive to the changes within me, i feel every stimuli which provokes new emotions and ideas leading me an inch closer to...
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    And that spiritual path is taking me on a technology hiatus for a good month or two! Another awesome way to clear the mind and be present!
    dafunkofamadhatter dafunkofamadhatter 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 27

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    Wouldn't life be more enjoyable if we could all just make money doing the things we love to do? But isn't that what it all comes down to in the end? Money? Money should never be a...
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    The universe gives you what ever experience is essential to your growth. You will never get something you can't handel. I fully believe in that. I am on my own path, and I would...
    Tryitallagain Tryitallagain 16-17, F 5 Responses Dec 1

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    Self esteem issues are real! In fact they are more real now, than they have ever been! Living in a society obsessed by Image! Image! Image!, a society where the world is at the tip...
    pristee88 pristee88 22-25, F Dec 2

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    I really am. I secretly want someone to find me, help me, guide me and save me from myself. I am lost. I am lonely. I am empty. I am worthless. I am pathetic.
    SlaveboyLoser SlaveboyLoser 31-35, M Dec 5

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