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I Am Self Destructive and Seeking the Path to Reconstruction

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    My List of Self Destructive Habits

    Dwelling on my emotions - This is especially the case when I'm angry or feeling sad. My imagination begins to feed into it and I become even more unaware of what's actually going on. Also I play music to further keep me angry or sad when I try not to. I consider music as a...
    Tummie Tummie 26-30, M 15 Responses Jul 31, 2008

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    Wow!

     It has been awhile since I created this group and written stories in it. As of right now, I think I'm dealing with my self destructive tendencies (like escaping in fantasies and feeling flawed) and I can feel myself changing for the better. There are still improvements that...
    Tummie Tummie 26-30, M 11 Responses Apr 13, 2009

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    The Destructive Me?

    I am currently seeking the real reason why i destroy things....Last week, I was a fool..I destroyed alot of things-- even the things i found very important to me..I destroyed the only friendship i had..and also the one i loved for all my life...I once told myself to change...
    jeremywashere jeremywashere 18-21, M Jan 21, 2011

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    my story

    I don't know why I break things. 
    canadiangoose canadiangoose 51-55 1 Response Nov 11, 2009

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    Yup

    I admit. I have self destructive tendencies. The most self destructive tendencies I have is withdrawing from people and escaping into my imagination. Whatever emotion I'm feeling, I get lost into it by imagining scenarios and playing out scenes in my head that further keep me in...
    Tummie Tummie 26-30, M 5 Responses Jul 23, 2008

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    When

    When you know you are doing it wrong, but keep doing it... what do you do? I can care so much about him, but still I don't know how to be happy or deserve to be happy. UGH 3
    sbhasty sbhasty 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 3, 2012

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    Mysorrow Mysorrow 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 1

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    I push away anyone and everyone worth while and I don't know if it's because I care for them too much or I just don't know how to cope with being loved by people because I can't...
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    I am a pathetic loser with no friends, nor a supportive family.
    PanzerVor PanzerVor 16-17, M 4 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    Sometimes? You're going to message me and it will seem like I'm insane. Guess what? That's probably because you aren't at the level of Devotion to the Craft I'm at. That's also...
    VampGuy1 VampGuy1 22-25, M Mar 19

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    Just last year I had a really bad depression where I ended up self harming... & the depression is starting again . But this time I promised myself that I won't self harm. I will...
    Davidthree Davidthree 13-15, M 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    I've been currently seeking to speak with God on spiritual level ever since then I've been at peace never been comfortable in church's prior to seeking to speak with God is there a...
    Msflaz29 Msflaz29 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 6

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    My dad was very talented and accomplished musically. I loved to listen to him play the accordion, filling the house with beautiful waltzes. Sadly, I lost my dad to illness when I...
    willingtolisten willingtolisten 56-60, M 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    I don't exactly know why I'm writing this. I'm not one to seek attention, I never have been. I guess that's why I'm writing this... To show that self harm isn't for attention. I...
    Ticcat Ticcat 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 2

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    I know I need more. Life would be... better if I had more. But alas, I can't seem to get past my self loathing. Ok, no. I don't loath myself. But... How could anyone see me as more...
    thehonestgentleman thehonestgentleman 18-21, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Honest post of the day. I think I have summed up the basis of my indiscretions. I do not have a low self esteem, I am not seeking an escape, a romance, a revenge. Pure and simple...
    2little2late 2little2late 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 6

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    Every cell in the body-every thought, every belief, every choice, every emotion-vibrates at some level, either working consciously in harmony to creat ones goals, or unconsciously...
    realme75 realme75 36-40, F 3 Responses Mar 9

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    "Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these." Mathew 19:14 I wonder whether we are making huge mistakes in...
    JoannaBe JoannaBe 41-45, F 6 Responses Mar 17

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    You are the only people who know about this, im never telling anyone in person, ever. Okay two weeks ago, during PE class, she wore a tshirt into PE where you can see her wrists...
    imme163 imme163 13-15, F 7 hrs ago

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    I just zone out and forget everything when I self injure. I don't like hurting myself, but I never know when I'm going to.
    TeethTheSizeOfPianoKeys TeethTheSizeOfPianoKeys 18-21, M 4 hrs ago

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    So much for being clean for 4 months. It all started when I was 11 because my dad was abusive. I cut a lot in the month of November 2014 because I was sexually assaulted on...
    CrystalViolet7 CrystalViolet7 13-15, F Mar 12

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    Sometimes out of desperation we tend to get ourselves into something just to fill the emptiness that we have. Chat rooms, social media and other online things we could think of...
    nbsbgal nbsbgal 22-25, F Mar 13

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    We lasted for 13 years together Till you left... Why did you go... I never left you how could I leave you? You kicked me out... You turned your back on me I know I know I didn't...
    LeahLovee LeahLovee 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    Late midnight sitting on the bench... No one around just the dark figures of trees and the moon and stars over the waters Sitting down just enjoying nature and thinking about life...
    LeahLovee LeahLovee 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    Planned obsolescence is the act of designing something to become obsolete or self destruct at a certain point in the future for the purpose of replacing it with something else. We...
    Brooke01 Brooke01 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 20

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    I'm so severely depressed. I don't want to live anymore. No one will ever see me as I see myself - a man... so what's the point? My dysphoria is constantly tearing me apart.. I...
    virtualricki virtualricki 16-17, T 1 Response Mar 15

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    Cub seeking a cougar I'm 18
    curiousguy1996 curiousguy1996 18-21, M Mar 3

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    If you are seeking enlightenment and you really want to discover enlightenment, let go of all of your ideas of what enlightenment looks like. See what is Here right now. Can the...
    SatsangWithTathina SatsangWithTathina 26-30, F Mar 10

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    Today I must speak on experiences, choices, and paths that lead closer or farther away from our created destiny. I imagine my destiny as like a train I must catch. Sometimes when...
    liveurbestlifenow liveurbestlifenow 31-35, F a week ago

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    Because of you I'm going to lose my mind You've been away for so long So desperate, so alone, so pathetic without you You left me please come back, I need your right....now You...
    LeahLovee LeahLovee 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    a path can be walked on by one or by many. if you want to make a new path you have to go where no one ever sets foot
    Mike3569 Mike3569 22-25, M Mar 21

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    Very pathetic. Don't bother.
    Gemz2411 Gemz2411 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 2

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    Self Esteem: The degree to which one values oneself Insecurity: A lack of assurance, uncertainty, unprotectedness. Self Confidence: Assuredness and self reliance Self Belief...
    awsome2 awsome2 18-21, T Mar 9

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    You may have seen mention I am Jewish. Sephardi. I do go to synagogue fairly regularly. This is a worry with the Islamists and their persecution, but hey we've been here before...
    Astrucbmt Astrucbmt 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 18

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    I'm new around here. I've needed to share this with someone for a long time. I'm in my early thirties and my problem is that I am a pathological liar. I lie about everything and...
    liarking liarking 31-35, M 1 Response Mar 20

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    I dont like to write about my self because noone wants to know about anyone here but I will write to know my ownself what I have got....so first my bad side, I am selfish,bit...
    kikforyou kikforyou 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 10

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    A self portrait: minor imperfections on a bad day I look into a mirror and I see unattractiveness staring right back at me. So I try to find the most pleasant facial expression...
    FernwehTardigrade FernwehTardigrade 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 20

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    just a heads up my spelling is not the greatest nor is my grammar so please be easy xP. my entire life it has been so easy for me to find the greatness in others and bring it out...
    Lugelogistics93 Lugelogistics93 18-21, M Mar 3

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    I lost it long ago and now i have rediscovered it within again.Well being traumatized has made me a weakling and dependent person and i ended up being clingy and a bit over polite...
    GenuineAngel GenuineAngel 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 5

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    It may sound a little..(dont know the word now.., arogant?).. I was already tired of it the first time I heard it. Taking a pictures of yourself is a very old thing to do. But...
    mirkwood86 mirkwood86 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 10

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    Taking selfies everyday is my catharsis ,my therapy Since i've been told i'm not beautiful by family or classmates. Then i need desperately my self esteem high. So **** yeah...
    Juri0902 Juri0902 31-35, F 3 Responses Mar 12

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