in my mind i don't matter,all that matters is that if i can help someone i well i don't care what would happen to me.like i skip a lot of school not to smoke weed like ever body thinks but to talk to someone and help them out iv been tolled that am going to faleing my classes...
I have a mentally ill 18 year old sister. My parents are in denial over her problems and so it has all been left to me. She recently attempted suicide and although I was in the hospital with her all that night, I was back in work the next day as though nothing had happened.
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You already are
Everything experienced illuminated
You have always been
Is pure memory made real
From the belief in each other
As the collective source of light
Giving bright golden awareness
when I place myself before others the guilt starts eating away at me.
I don't like falling in love or having a crush on somebody, because I place my feelings before theirs.
I have placed my school work on hold to help a friend through a crisis and I don't feel guilty.
I grew up in a not bad neighborhood where you would always have to watch your back in case something bad happened. My parents raised me to believe never to trust anyone and to be completely selfish.
But even when I was a kid, I'd look around at the people around me and yearn to...
There isnt any time where I dont put myself second. I would rather see all my friends and what family I have left first, happy and putting myself on the back burner. When I care or love the people that are in my life this selfless part of me comes so naturally.