I Am Severely Depressed

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    I lost my older sister in a car accident a

    little over a year ago. She was my best friend I miss her so much everyday. My depression is getting worse. I'm on anti depressants but I still feel empty like there is nothing left in life to be happy about. Nothing brings me joy.
    tattedgal tattedgal
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Nov 29, 2013

    every day ill have a time

    where I just feel so tense and overwhelmed in life I just wanna be able to bring up my happiness again be able to tell occasional jokes and laugh it gets tiring bein depressed
    aaronpayne aaronpayne
    22-25, M
    1 Response Nov 18, 2015

    I don't even mind being depressed anymore.

    It's just life. Life sucks and then you die.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jul 16, 2015

    If you need a sign to stay,

    this is it. If you need a reason to stay, I'll tell you some. Life is very short unless you believe in reincarnation, we probably only have one life on this planet. You only live once. Yes, YOLO. It's true. I know life seems like a really big mess and that it will never be good...
    giathedancer giathedancer
    13-15, F
    Jul 16, 2015

    I am definitely suffering.

    Severe depression is like being in hell on earth. It's like crawling through the abyss in reverse. The pain, the anxiety and the feeling of worthlessness are insufferable. This is my only release at the moment. I'm tired of living with this lack of joy. I'm exhausted. It's...
    PiscesDream PiscesDream
    46-50, F
    Feb 5, 2015

    So I guess my girl bff abbi isn't my girl bff

    anymore because when we were on the way home she was talking to her new friends and then she turned back to me and was like I can't come out for a week im grounded and im like whatever I don't care because I could hear them talking about me and then she turns back to her new...
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123
    13-15, F
    1 Response May 26, 2015
    dqtxeb25 dqtxeb25
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 31, 2015
    SladeBolinLeaderofEp SladeBolinLeaderofEp
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jan 3

    I cried myself to sleep last night

    because a bully here just found my weakness and decided to use it against me. Only because an argument! Now headaches and swollen eyes is what I have to deal with. I just have this thought while eating breakfast it's a pain to eat when I don't want to. But it's not as bad as...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Aug 31, 2014

    There's no place for me In this society anymore.

    all of my allies have abandoned nobody understands me people just don't like me overall. people say they understand what I'm going through. all lies not one soul understands of what I've lost or have had to endure just a facade. I tried to be happy be the guy I used to be but no...
    SladeBolinLeaderofEp SladeBolinLeaderofEp
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Nov 18, 2015

    I feel like i want to kill myself my life is

    not worth living i spend all day everyday on my own
    pinkglitteress pinkglitteress
    22-25, F
    Mar 24, 2014

    it is indeed true. 100% absolute.

    the tides seem to have turned for Tue worse. as I walked today i had a revelation. I'm at the brink of my mind talking means nothing anymore. useless therapy. tons of anti depressants mean nothing to me anymore. I've accepted this fact that deep down in my soul. I'm unhappy...
    SladeBolinLeaderofEp SladeBolinLeaderofEp
    18-21, M
    Nov 9, 2015

    I have had suicidal thoughts.

    I have had too many failures. I cannot handle more. My mother feels I am worth nothing, she has even asked me to leave home. I am technically disowned. I have trust issues, no friends, I am practically isolated. I feel frustrated, lonely and depressed.
    evanescentme evanescentme
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jan 21, 2015

    I dont want to do anything.

    Cant even work up the energy to shower, clean, watch tv, take a walk, go anywhere. I just feel like a lifeless blob. I am constantly thinking and worrying. Constantly want to run away and just get lost. I feel like I have no support or understanding. I feel judged and like...
    akrysrose akrysrose
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jul 6, 2014

    I thought I could hide my sadness behind the

    happiness you brought me, but then you left and it all came rushing back. I don't know if this pain is worth enduring.
    aholliday3300 aholliday3300
    16-17, F
    1 Response Nov 4, 2014

    I really hope no one will mind me kept typing

    the same frustration and depression related to what I am facing. I tried my best to occupy myself, watch tv, watch YouTube... But once I am in the toilet to try to release the bit and bit of urine makes my heart sank and make me depressed. I guess this aren't going to be...
    sadboi sadboi
    26-30, M
    1 Response Apr 17, 2014

    I have been depressed

    for 6 months now with frequent thoughts of pain, suffering and death. the last two months for me was the most scarring, emotional and devestating moment of my life, a series of heart breaking events such as backstab, loss of parental love, numerous conflict, pressure from...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Dec 18, 2015

    Depressed And Insecure

    I have been dealing with depression and anxiety for quite sometime now. Sometimes I feel like Wow I'm feeling pretty good, then the next day I want to blow my head off. It's like a roller costar. I have no clue what to do, I've tried multiple medications, but they only help so...
    ap6119 ap6119
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Sep 24, 2010

    I love homework. I love doing it.

    Last year, I got into a period of worse depression. I stopped doing my homework. I still got good enough grades, but I'm sure my teacher noticed how the quality of my assignments dropped. I remember distinctly how I left a project until the last minute- in class- and quickly...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Feb 18, 2015

    I'm new here at experience project.

    .. I am really depressed. A sophomore in college struggling to figure out if I want to change the career path I have been on for so long. I had an argument with my best friend today... We've been having issues lately and I feel like its mostly my fault. We are both depressed...
    BlueFields BlueFields
    18-21, F
    2 Responses May 5, 2015

    God this depression is too much.

    I can feel myself bursting into tears at any moment. and that'll look stupid since I'm on the bus.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jun 11, 2015

    Depressed As Hell !

    Hi there - Have just deleted one post, as it got too suicidal and downbeat even for me. Not sure what anyone gets out of reading about our misery ? Have been as depressed as hell for around 12 years, had every treatment, nothing makes the slightest difference. It baffles me how...
    TonyCantlay TonyCantlay
    56-60, M
    8 Responses Oct 6, 2010

    I get suicidal sometimes.

    ..I tried killing myself and i self harmed.Burning,cutting,etc I don't care that much about life. I am transgender.It sucks big time. I guess this is kind of a venting post.I am sad cause my life is like totally f*cked up.I have epilepsy,thyroid problems,gastritis,colorblindness...
    Mihael122 Mihael122
    18-21, T
    2 Responses Oct 24, 2014

    I'm not depressed. But I just wanted to say you

    are the strongest people. The most beautiful people. I know it's hard to think about that and you might laugh, but it's true. You've already pulled through so much, even if it's just the beginning. I wish you all the best, and I know depression is the worst thing to go through...
    giathedancer giathedancer
    13-15, F
    Jul 11, 2015

    Ayahuasca Cures Depression

    If you suffer from PTSD or any form of depression, Ayahuasca can cure you. Take a minute to read my story about my experience with Ayahuasca. I recovered from 20 years of severe uni-polar depression by taking Ayahuasca 8 times over a two week period. If you suffer from...
    AlexLight101 AlexLight101
    26-30, M
    Mar 17, 2013

    I seem so happy and excited

    yet I'm not. As soon as I let the barriers down I'm just a sad, broken girl whose parents don't love and never hug. I'm a girl who was given anything in the world but the love I needed. I never was praised, only patronised at the smallest mistake. I still am that little girl but...
    AllyBear101 AllyBear101
    16-17, F
    1 Response Feb 20, 2014

    Here We Go Again...

    Hello everyone, I have suffered on and off for nearly forty years, however I usually cope quite well, and do my best to keep on going. When things are bad I try and think of people that are worse off than my self that usually helps as does helping others it gives me a buzz...
    rebelwithoutacause44 rebelwithoutacause44
    41-45, F
    4 Responses Feb 6, 2010

    Its really a prision,

    at I certain point pretending is the only way to go on, but honestly I feel bad for the few people that decide to have me as friend cuz im always hoping that some of them will give me a reason to live, the motivation I need to do things, but I hurt them one way or another, I don...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Nov 29, 2015

    Everyday I wake up feeling mentally

    and emotionally drained, uninspired and disconnected. It is a constant psychological struggle, the most difficult part - seeming not to be able to maintain any kind of positive mental state for any significant amount of time.
    meowmix29 meowmix29
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 13, 2015

    When you feel alone when your not

    and the only people to keep you company are the demons inside constantly fighting a war within your very being. that's how I feel sometimes. like all the happiness has been sucked clean from me and in it's stead is sadness and sorrow from an unknown source. to deal with people...
    SladeBolinLeaderofEp SladeBolinLeaderofEp
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Feb 28

    Well as most might have read I am about to go

    through my separation and will have to move in July. Right now I love where I live and spent my entire life hating where I grew up and wanting out. Now I have to return due to money and my separation agreement and I could not be more depressed if I tried. I keep thinking that...
    VBLOVE1106 VBLOVE1106
    26-30, F
    Jan 30, 2015

    I don't understand people

    who care about me. I get that I'm a nice person, but does my mental/emotional well being really matter? I don't think so, maybe that's why I sit here alone and isolate myself a day laugh at how stupid the world is, when I'm the one not doing anything productive. Just running in...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jul 24, 2015

    I'm more depressed when I'm being normal

    and doing nothing about it - when I'm crying and having a mental breakdown I am in a better state because I'm crying for help , I'm asking for someone to help me. But the next day I wake up and I no longer feel that pain that I felt yesterday. And so once again I walk on with...
    TheWestlifer TheWestlifer
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 2, 2015

    I know nobody wants to hear about all of my sad

    thoughts so I will say something comical. I am a great liar! If I use enough sarcasm.
    chasetheweirdo8 chasetheweirdo8
    16-17, M
    5 Responses Nov 27, 2015

    Extreme Depression

    I am a 45 year old guy who has been living my father my entire life. I have gotten so much emotional abuse from him in the last 25 years of my life. I have always had so much fear and anxiety about moving out and living on my own because I am extremely afraid of the loneliness. I...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses May 30, 2013

    It's funny how you're there

    for others in their time of need when they're struggling, but when you need them they seem to act as if you're some pesky stranger. Isn't it?
    Britt4ny Britt4ny
    70+, F
    May 22, 2015

    I was already drowning in the dark

    and you had to push me down further to make yourself feel better and free. I can't believe you would do this to me. You knew it would hurt me, but you still did it anyway. I never would've done this to you. You said I could've trusted you, but now that I think about it, I could...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jul 21, 2015

    I've been rather hesitant to post this

    because I recognize how redundant it may sound. For months now I have been sinking into a rather deep and dark depression, one that has enveloped every aspect of my life. I noticed I was heading into it mid to late October, as things at work became a struggle. My aunt, whom I've...
    opyettbld92 opyettbld92
    22-25, M
    Jan 19

    I know this is completely irrational,

    at least in my head. Emotion and reason are frequently opposites, though. My mom is moving across the country to be with my alcoholic father. Everyone says I should love him, and on some hidden level I know I actually do. He's just hurt me so much in the past that I hide any...
    lepamplemousse lepamplemousse
    22-25, F
    1 Response Sep 6, 2015

    **Trigger Warning** I keep noticing my

    friends leaving my life. Only a few have stuck by me through this mess, and I can't thank them enough for that (including some people on here; you know who you are <3). Still, I've been feeling terrible. I'm betrayed over and over again, and I keep trusting people who I know...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Jun 10, 2015

    I have had so much happen in the past 6 years

    that I can't hold it in anymore. I've lost so many friends because they don't understand what I go through. I'm not a daughter in my parents eyes. I have a guy who made my life hell for 2 years and hit me and would not leave me alone and told me he could kill me. I just would...
    Bebechristine14 Bebechristine14
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 7, 2014

    READ

    You’re sitting at your desk. You know it’s time to go. You’ve said that to yourself over a million times. But this time you know, for sure, is real. You’re tired. You’re just so very tired. Your parents pissed you off. Like school wasn’t bad enough today. You go to...
    prettybrowneyes1993 prettybrowneyes1993
    18-21, F
    Oct 18, 2013

    I have really bad depression,

    talking to my friends and family, hanging out with my friends, nothing is working, I sit in the corner and cry, I just want to take some pills and sleep forever or take a knife and slash my throat or wrist and bleed out.
    elainenguyen619 elainenguyen619
    16-17, F
    6 Responses Dec 25, 2015

    And no one around me notices.

    I never feel like talking to anyone about it, and I rarely feel like anyone actually cares when I do, which makes me less likely to talk about it.
    Yukiteru Yukiteru
    22-25, M
    1 Response Oct 14, 2015

    Hello, my name is Milly.

    I've wanted to tell someone about how I've come to want to die. I can't go through with it though I've tried. I am too cowardly see. I've always hidden my depression and suicidal thoughts as I can't bear the thought of hurting my friends and family - especially my parents. So...
    Millymae Millymae
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 25, 2014

    Six things to tell yourself today!

    1. I matter 2. I'll get through this 3. I am beautiful 4. I deserve to be loved 5. I can find peace, happiness, and contentment 6. I have the power and will to survive
    giathedancer giathedancer
    13-15, F
    1 Response Jul 16, 2015
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