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I Am Severely Depressed

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    any words of enlightenment would be nice.

    .. I have been battling major depression for 11 years. I still battle with urges to self harm, and I am scared my depression will ruin my relationship. I have had suicidal thoughts almost every single day of my life, for the passed 4 years. therapy is what I need but I'm not...
    ecress ecress 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 20, 2014

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    I was in a relationship

    for a little over a year. We broke up in March. Since then she has moved in with her best friend and has a great life. I am stuck and can't get over it. I still cry about it at least once a day. How do I move on? Everything reminds me of her.
    Upchurch503 Upchurch503 31-35, M 1 Response Jul 22, 2014

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    I sleep 12-17 hours a day,

    I don't really understand why. I mean, my life is rocky but it's not as bad now, as it was 2 years and 3 months ago. Now things are... Neutral. Everything is good and bad. Basically my life is nothing. So why do I feel suicidal? Like **** this sh*t. I just don't understand why I...
    deademotion11 deademotion11 22-25, M 2 Responses Dec 14, 2014

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    deviness deviness 13-15, F Apr 16, 2014

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    Depressed And Insecure

    I have been dealing with depression and anxiety for quite sometime now. Sometimes I feel like Wow I'm feeling pretty good, then the next day I want to blow my head off. It's like a roller costar. I have no clue what to do, I've tried multiple medications, but they only help so...
    ap6119 ap6119 22-25, F 6 Responses Sep 24, 2010

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    Can't stand looking at the mirror

    and now I want to cry I'll give time a few months for the scars to heal if it doesn't fully heal I'll end it. I've seen the end result of acne scars before on other people's face and I'd rather die than look like that...call me stupid/superficial/shallow or whatever I can't live...
    GrumpyMe GrumpyMe 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 25, 2014

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    I really hope no one will mind me kept typing

    the same frustration and depression related to what I am facing. I tried my best to occupy myself, watch tv, watch YouTube... But once I am in the toilet to try to release the bit and bit of urine makes my heart sank and make me depressed. I guess this aren't going to be...
    sadboi sadboi 26-30, M 2 Responses Apr 17, 2014

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    justyouandme123 justyouandme123 41-45, F 1 Response Oct 30, 2014

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    I'm depressed and a mess

    and I hate it . I feel like sucha burden on everyone because all I do is cry . I feel like my boyfriend hates me somedays because of it . I cry everyday because I wish his daughter was mine , I've been in her life since the second day she was born and a month after she was born...
    brookieboo8090 brookieboo8090 18-21, F 2 Responses May 12, 2014

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    I cried myself to sleep last night

    because a bully here just found my weakness and decided to use it against me. Only because an argument! Now headaches and swollen eyes is what I have to deal with. I just have this thought while eating breakfast it's a pain to eat when I don't want to. But it's not as bad as...
    GrumpyMe GrumpyMe 22-25, F 4 Responses Aug 31, 2014

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    Here We Go Again...

    Hello everyone, I have suffered on and off for nearly forty years, however I usually cope quite well, and do my best to keep on going. When things are bad I try and think of people that are worse off than my self that usually helps as does helping others it gives me a buzz...
    rebelwithoutacause44 rebelwithoutacause44 41-45, F 4 Responses Feb 6, 2010

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    I have had suicidal thoughts.

    I have had too many failures. I cannot handle more. My mother feels I am worth nothing, she has even asked me to leave home. I am technically disowned. I have trust issues, no friends, I am practically isolated. I feel frustrated, lonely and depressed.
    evanescentme evanescentme 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 21

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    I have had so much happen in the past 6 years

    that I can't hold it in anymore. I've lost so many friends because they don't understand what I go through. I'm not a daughter in my parents eyes. I have a guy who made my life hell for 2 years and hit me and would not leave me alone and told me he could kill me. I just would...
    Bebechristine14 Bebechristine14 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 7, 2014

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    Thinking about getting a dog.

    Not only will he/or she provide emotional therapy, but will be a continual companion that will love without condition... Or at least that's what I hope. Does this sound like a decent idea?
    Austinforshort Austinforshort 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 23, 2014

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    I'm super depressed and I cut.

    . I just feel like I'm a nobody and I feel like there's no point in existing on here.
    sammynicole23 sammynicole23 16-17, F Apr 22, 2014

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    I don't understand what is going on with me !

    I have been crying alot, and I just have this awful sadness that is lingering over me.I use to be this strong woman, capable of anything. Now I feel like I am losing it!Ever since I had my son I have been a emotional train wreck.And now I am starting to feel useless and helpless...
    roses2004 roses2004 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 12, 2014

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    I've been depressed since I was about 6 years

    old. I started self-harming at 9 and tried to commit suicide for the first time at 11. I used to hate it when people would ask me questions like "What do you like to do?" because I honestly had no idea. I was talking to my mom about it the other day, and she told me that when I...
    Saithe Saithe 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 7, 2014

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    I Am Severely Depressed And Lost.

    I find it so hard to get through the day without crying?  I have dealt with depression for 31 years and I have tried everything and nothing works.  I have tried different doctors many medications and nothing made me feel any better.  I used to be able to talk to my best friend...
    metalicaero03 metalicaero03 31-35 3 Responses Jun 24, 2011

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    I cannot forget how the doctor just trying to

    shove me away by prescribing me some medication that a problem by just guessing and not doing a confirm diagnosis. I am still having pain at the base of my penis. And the doctor said my urine flow like a sixty year old man after taking the flow test. Initially he told me I was...
    sadboi sadboi 26-30, M May 8, 2014

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    I lost my older sister in a car accident a

    little over a year ago. She was my best friend I miss her so much everyday. My depression is getting worse. I'm on anti depressants but I still feel empty like there is nothing left in life to be happy about. Nothing brings me joy.
    tattedgal tattedgal 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 29, 2013

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    READ

    You’re sitting at your desk. You know it’s time to go. You’ve said that to yourself over a million times. But this time you know, for sure, is real. You’re tired. You’re just so very tired. Your parents pissed you off. Like school wasn’t bad enough today. You go to...
    prettybrowneyes1993 prettybrowneyes1993 18-21, F Oct 18, 2013

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    ywilliam31 ywilliam31 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 9, 2014

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    Depressed As Hell !

    Hi there - Have just deleted one post, as it got too suicidal and downbeat even for me. Not sure what anyone gets out of reading about our misery ? Have been as depressed as hell for around 12 years, had every treatment, nothing makes the slightest difference. It baffles me how...
    TonyCantlay TonyCantlay 56-60, M 9 Responses Oct 6, 2010

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    All I want is to have my bladder

    and prostate ultrasound done, and receive the correct treatment, but it's so hard. The hospital I went for two times the doctor were not helpful due to too many non serious cases people there, and they told me mine is not serious. Unable to urinate properly to clear my bladder...
    sadboi sadboi 26-30, M Apr 16, 2014

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    My mom throws me down by calling me a ****,

    *****, tramp and everything under the sun. The passion in her voice. Why didn't I succeed when I attempted to kill myself 5 other times? Why'd I have to survive and not my twin? What's my purpose?
    ohwee12 ohwee12 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 1, 2013

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    Ever since this school year started,

    I have been overly depressed. So many things have been going on in my life-school and home. At home, my parents have been fighting. I've been getting screamed at by both for little things. And at school, I had a boyfriend and he cheated on me after a week and a day. I see him...
    sassysarah98 sassysarah98 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 25, 2014

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    I was trying to get my life back together.

    ... I was trying to be a better person with the one person who treated me like I was normal and I didn't need to change...Today... my heart just lost hope... I've gotten back the desire to self destruct...To die and leave my purpose... and all because he made me realize that I...
    hulkgirl hulkgirl 18-21 Sep 28, 2014

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    Lost The Job

    Lost the job, now every time I wake up I have an emotionally stabbing pain through my chest and brain. It creates fear and anxiety I jump out of bed carrying all of this weight of failure and feel like a useless piece of ****. what do I do?
    goofball83 goofball83 26-30, M 2 Responses May 27, 2013

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    I feel like i want to kill myself my life is

    not worth living i spend all day everyday on my own
    pinkglitteress pinkglitteress 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 24, 2014

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    I really feel depressed

    and lonely and Im already thinking of committing suicide. Please help. I still want to save my life.
    Spencer024 Spencer024 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 30, 2014

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    Watching my mum playing candy crush,

    seeing her smile. I used to share all my problem with my mum. And she's always there for me. But I couldn't share with her about my urinary problem condition with her now as she have stage 4 pancreatic cancer. Today my sister texted me and told me her cancer cell increased in...
    sadboi sadboi 26-30, M Apr 17, 2014

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    A lot of things happened to me lately.

    And I couldn't handle it. I feel that I loss everything. My job, my love, my health... All just happened all in one. I couldn't take it anymore. I fallen into deep despair. Feeling helpless and lonely.
    sadboi sadboi 26-30, M May 14, 2014

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    Well as most might have read I am about to go

    through my separation and will have to move in July. Right now I love where I live and spent my entire life hating where I grew up and wanting out. Now I have to return due to money and my separation agreement and I could not be more depressed if I tried. I keep thinking that...
    VBLOVE1106 VBLOVE1106 26-30, F 17 hrs ago

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    Ayahuasca Cures Depression

    If you suffer from PTSD or any form of depression, Ayahuasca can cure you. Take a minute to read my story about my experience with Ayahuasca. I recovered from 20 years of severe uni-polar depression by taking Ayahuasca 8 times over a two week period. If you suffer from...
    AlexLight101 AlexLight101 22-25, M Mar 17, 2013

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    Dear dad, stop acting like you are the best

    father in the world. I know your secrets, and you're one of the reasons why I have trust issues.
    Spencer024 Spencer024 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 1, 2014

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    im pretty sure my mom is the cause of my

    depression and I feel like if I am forced to transfer to a college in my state I will end up killing myself because im already on that very edge every single day
    thelostgirl25 thelostgirl25 22-25, F 1 Response May 30, 2014

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    I am able to urine now

    and the pain that I always thought is in the urinary tract was actually pain underneath the penis. I finally located the pain because last night pain was intense. It may not be associate with any bladder or prostate problem which I suspected. I think my penis was slightly...
    sadboi sadboi 26-30, M Apr 21, 2014

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    Okay, so, I'm depressed

    but not suicidal, I fail to see the joys of life. I want to constantly sleep. I have heard here and there. That I should volunteer. I... Don't feel I am (emotionally) well enough to volunteer. So I write to try to cope, I've tried hotlines (2) but I can't find a long term fix...
    deademotion11 deademotion11 22-25, M 2 Responses Dec 16, 2014

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    Lies And Hurt Of My Family

    ok my half brother who is now in his early twenties,had a false accuzation held against him by my step sister who hated him and tried to destroy my family,SHE LIED telling everyone my brother raped her,this i no is untrue,as my brother is a weak and slim,and shy,and he never...
    shayeshaye shayeshaye 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 6, 2012

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    I dont want to do anything.

    Cant even work up the energy to shower, clean, watch tv, take a walk, go anywhere. I just feel like a lifeless blob. I am constantly thinking and worrying. Constantly want to run away and just get lost. I feel like I have no support or understanding. I feel judged and like...
    akrysrose akrysrose 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 6, 2014

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    I get suicidal sometimes.

    ..I tried killing myself and i self harmed.Burning,cutting,etc I don't care that much about life. I am transgender.It sucks big time. I guess this is kind of a venting post.I am sad cause my life is like totally f*cked up.I have epilepsy,thyroid problems,gastritis,colorblindness...
    Mihael122 Mihael122 18-21, T 2 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    Hello, my name is Milly.

    I've wanted to tell someone about how I've come to want to die. I can't go through with it though I've tried. I am too cowardly see. I've always hidden my depression and suicidal thoughts as I can't bear the thought of hurting my friends and family - especially my parents. So...
    Millymae Millymae 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 25, 2014

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    I seem so happy and excited

    yet I'm not. As soon as I let the barriers down I'm just a sad, broken girl whose parents don't love and never hug. I'm a girl who was given anything in the world but the love I needed. I never was praised, only patronised at the smallest mistake. I still am that little girl but...
    AllyBear101 AllyBear101 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 20, 2014

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    sadboi sadboi 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 17, 2014

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    Extreme Depression

    I am a 45 year old guy who has been living my father my entire life. I have gotten so much emotional abuse from him in the last 25 years of my life. I have always had so much fear and anxiety about moving out and living on my own because I am extremely afraid of the loneliness. I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses May 30, 2013

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    I Hate Me

    I really hate being me. I'm 15 and I really don't see a point to keep living all I want to do is get away from this life I'm living. Most of the time I would rather sleep then try to deal with it. I really don't see the point when there's nothing I want to do and everyday of my...
    melrox7 melrox7 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 11, 2013

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    I thought I could hide my sadness behind the

    happiness you brought me, but then you left and it all came rushing back. I don't know if this pain is worth enduring.
    aholliday3300 aholliday3300 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 4, 2014

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    I suffer from major depression.

    It has pretty much consumed me. I guess maybe it is to be expected with major grief either way it is hard to handle. I lost my daughter, grandmother and ex husband all in the matter of a year. This last year (2013) was horrible was sucidal. I attempted sucide three times. I am...
    Angela1989 Angela1989 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 6, 2014

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