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I Am Severely Depressed

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    I Am Severely Depressed And Lost.

    I find it so hard to get through the day without crying?  I have dealt with depression for 31 years and I have tried everything and nothing works.  I have tried different doctors many medications and nothing made me feel any better.  I used to be able to talk to my best friend...
    metalicaero03 metalicaero03 31-35 3 Responses Jun 24, 2011

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    I am definitely suffering.

    Severe depression is like being in hell on earth. It's like crawling through the abyss in reverse. The pain, the anxiety and the feeling of worthlessness are insufferable. This is my only release at the moment. I'm tired of living with this lack of joy. I'm exhausted. It's...
    PiscesDream PiscesDream 46-50, F Feb 5

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    ywilliam31 ywilliam31 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 9, 2014

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    I'm new here at experience project.

    .. I am really depressed. A sophomore in college struggling to figure out if I want to change the career path I have been on for so long. I had an argument with my best friend today... We've been having issues lately and I feel like its mostly my fault. We are both depressed...
    BlueFields BlueFields 18-21, F 2 Responses May 5

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    I was already drowning in the dark

    and you had to push me down further to make yourself feel better and free. I can't believe you would do this to me. You knew it would hurt me, but you still did it anyway. I never would've done this to you. You said I could've trusted you, but now that I think about it, I could...
    nathanieljlaw nathanieljlaw 18-21, M Jul 21

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    God this depression is too much.

    I can feel myself bursting into tears at any moment. and that'll look stupid since I'm on the bus.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jun 11

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    Six things to tell yourself today!

    1. I matter 2. I'll get through this 3. I am beautiful 4. I deserve to be loved 5. I can find peace, happiness, and contentment 6. I have the power and will to survive
    giathedancer giathedancer 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 16

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    If you need a sign to stay,

    this is it. If you need a reason to stay, I'll tell you some. Life is very short unless you believe in reincarnation, we probably only have one life on this planet. You only live once. Yes, YOLO. It's true. I know life seems like a really big mess and that it will never be good...
    giathedancer giathedancer 13-15, F Jul 16

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    It's funny how you're there

    for others in their time of need when they're struggling, but when you need them they seem to act as if you're some pesky stranger. Isn't it?
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 1 Response May 22

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    Ayahuasca Cures Depression

    If you suffer from PTSD or any form of depression, Ayahuasca can cure you. Take a minute to read my story about my experience with Ayahuasca. I recovered from 20 years of severe uni-polar depression by taking Ayahuasca 8 times over a two week period. If you suffer from...
    AlexLight101 AlexLight101 22-25, M Mar 17, 2013

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    Depressed As Hell !

    Hi there - Have just deleted one post, as it got too suicidal and downbeat even for me. Not sure what anyone gets out of reading about our misery ? Have been as depressed as hell for around 12 years, had every treatment, nothing makes the slightest difference. It baffles me how...
    TonyCantlay TonyCantlay 56-60, M 9 Responses Oct 6, 2010

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    Lost The Job

    Lost the job, now every time I wake up I have an emotionally stabbing pain through my chest and brain. It creates fear and anxiety I jump out of bed carrying all of this weight of failure and feel like a useless piece of ****. what do I do?
    goofball83 goofball83 26-30, M 1 Response May 27, 2013

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    Extreme Depression

    I am a 45 year old guy who has been living my father my entire life. I have gotten so much emotional abuse from him in the last 25 years of my life. I have always had so much fear and anxiety about moving out and living on my own because I am extremely afraid of the loneliness. I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses May 30, 2013

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    Okay, so, I'm depressed

    but not suicidal, I fail to see the joys of life. I want to constantly sleep. I have heard here and there. That I should volunteer. I... Don't feel I am (emotionally) well enough to volunteer. So I write to try to cope, I've tried hotlines (2) but I can't find a long term fix...
    deademotion11 deademotion11 22-25, M 2 Responses Dec 16, 2014

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    I have had so much happen in the past 6 years

    that I can't hold it in anymore. I've lost so many friends because they don't understand what I go through. I'm not a daughter in my parents eyes. I have a guy who made my life hell for 2 years and hit me and would not leave me alone and told me he could kill me. I just would...
    Bebechristine14 Bebechristine14 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 7, 2014

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    I don't even mind being depressed anymore.

    It's just life. Life sucks and then you die.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 16

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    I'm not depressed. But I just wanted to say you

    are the strongest people. The most beautiful people. I know it's hard to think about that and you might laugh, but it's true. You've already pulled through so much, even if it's just the beginning. I wish you all the best, and I know depression is the worst thing to go through...
    giathedancer giathedancer 13-15, F Jul 11

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    I've been depressed since I was about 6 years

    old. I started self-harming at 9 and tried to commit suicide for the first time at 11. I used to hate it when people would ask me questions like "What do you like to do?" because I honestly had no idea. I was talking to my mom about it the other day, and she told me that when I...
    Saithe Saithe 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 7, 2014

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    I have had suicidal thoughts.

    I have had too many failures. I cannot handle more. My mother feels I am worth nothing, she has even asked me to leave home. I am technically disowned. I have trust issues, no friends, I am practically isolated. I feel frustrated, lonely and depressed.
    evanescentme evanescentme 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 21

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    Thinking about getting a dog.

    Not only will he/or she provide emotional therapy, but will be a continual companion that will love without condition... Or at least that's what I hope. Does this sound like a decent idea?
    Austinforshort Austinforshort 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 23, 2014

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    I really hope no one will mind me kept typing

    the same frustration and depression related to what I am facing. I tried my best to occupy myself, watch tv, watch YouTube... But once I am in the toilet to try to release the bit and bit of urine makes my heart sank and make me depressed. I guess this aren't going to be...
    sadboi sadboi 26-30, M 2 Responses Apr 17, 2014

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    I sleep 12-17 hours a day,

    I don't really understand why. I mean, my life is rocky but it's not as bad now, as it was 2 years and 3 months ago. Now things are... Neutral. Everything is good and bad. Basically my life is nothing. So why do I feel suicidal? Like **** this sh*t. I just don't understand why I...
    deademotion11 deademotion11 22-25, M 2 Responses Dec 14, 2014

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    Here We Go Again...

    Hello everyone, I have suffered on and off for nearly forty years, however I usually cope quite well, and do my best to keep on going. When things are bad I try and think of people that are worse off than my self that usually helps as does helping others it gives me a buzz...
    rebelwithoutacause44 rebelwithoutacause44 41-45, F 4 Responses Feb 6, 2010

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    Can't stand looking at the mirror

    and now I want to cry I'll give time a few months for the scars to heal if it doesn't fully heal I'll end it. I've seen the end result of acne scars before on other people's face and I'd rather die than look like that...call me stupid/superficial/shallow or whatever I can't live...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jul 25, 2014

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    Hello, my name is Milly.

    I've wanted to tell someone about how I've come to want to die. I can't go through with it though I've tried. I am too cowardly see. I've always hidden my depression and suicidal thoughts as I can't bear the thought of hurting my friends and family - especially my parents. So...
    Millymae Millymae 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 25, 2014

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    I get suicidal sometimes.

    ..I tried killing myself and i self harmed.Burning,cutting,etc I don't care that much about life. I am transgender.It sucks big time. I guess this is kind of a venting post.I am sad cause my life is like totally f*cked up.I have epilepsy,thyroid problems,gastritis,colorblindness...
    Mihael122 Mihael122 18-21, T 2 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    I lost my older sister in a car accident a

    little over a year ago. She was my best friend I miss her so much everyday. My depression is getting worse. I'm on anti depressants but I still feel empty like there is nothing left in life to be happy about. Nothing brings me joy.
    tattedgal tattedgal 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 29, 2013

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    justyouandme123 justyouandme123 41-45, F 1 Response Oct 30, 2014

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    I don't understand people

    who care about me. I get that I'm a nice person, but does my mental/emotional well being really matter? I don't think so, maybe that's why I sit here alone and isolate myself a day laugh at how stupid the world is, when I'm the one not doing anything productive. Just running in...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jul 24

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    I feel like i want to kill myself my life is

    not worth living i spend all day everyday on my own
    pinkglitteress pinkglitteress 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 24, 2014

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    **Trigger Warning** I keep noticing my

    friends leaving my life. Only a few have stuck by me through this mess, and I can't thank them enough for that (including some people on here; you know who you are <3). Still, I've been feeling terrible. I'm betrayed over and over again, and I keep trusting people who I know...
    Whobody Whobody 16-17, M 2 Responses Jun 10

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    Everyday I wake up feeling mentally

    and emotionally drained, uninspired and disconnected. It is a constant psychological struggle, the most difficult part - seeming not to be able to maintain any kind of positive mental state for any significant amount of time.
    meowmix29 meowmix29 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 13

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    I Hate Me

    I really hate being me. I'm 15 and I really don't see a point to keep living all I want to do is get away from this life I'm living. Most of the time I would rather sleep then try to deal with it. I really don't see the point when there's nothing I want to do and everyday of my...
    melrox7 melrox7 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 11, 2013

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    I seem so happy and excited

    yet I'm not. As soon as I let the barriers down I'm just a sad, broken girl whose parents don't love and never hug. I'm a girl who was given anything in the world but the love I needed. I never was praised, only patronised at the smallest mistake. I still am that little girl but...
    AllyBear101 AllyBear101 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 20, 2014

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    One of life's cruelest jokes is

    that we want to be around other people but it's other people who start us on the road to depression. Usually abuse, rejection, bullying start it. They cause pain that starts out temporary but day-by-day becomes part of life. If it doesn't stop but just goes on and on with no...
    Amioknow Amioknow 36-40, M 1 Response Jul 3

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    I was trying to get my life back together.

    ... I was trying to be a better person with the one person who treated me like I was normal and I didn't need to change...Today... my heart just lost hope... I've gotten back the desire to self destruct...To die and leave my purpose... and all because he made me realize that I...
    hulkgirl hulkgirl 18-21 Sep 28, 2014

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    I dont want to do anything.

    Cant even work up the energy to shower, clean, watch tv, take a walk, go anywhere. I just feel like a lifeless blob. I am constantly thinking and worrying. Constantly want to run away and just get lost. I feel like I have no support or understanding. I feel judged and like...
    akrysrose akrysrose 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 6, 2014

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    I thought I could hide my sadness behind the

    happiness you brought me, but then you left and it all came rushing back. I don't know if this pain is worth enduring.
    aholliday3300 aholliday3300 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 4, 2014

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    Depressed And Insecure

    I have been dealing with depression and anxiety for quite sometime now. Sometimes I feel like Wow I'm feeling pretty good, then the next day I want to blow my head off. It's like a roller costar. I have no clue what to do, I've tried multiple medications, but they only help so...
    ap6119 ap6119 22-25, F 5 Responses Sep 24, 2010

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    Dear dad, stop acting like you are the best

    father in the world. I know your secrets, and you're one of the reasons why I have trust issues.
    Spencer024 Spencer024 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 1, 2014

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    I don't understand what is going on with me !

    I have been crying alot, and I just have this awful sadness that is lingering over me.I use to be this strong woman, capable of anything. Now I feel like I am losing it!Ever since I had my son I have been a emotional train wreck.And now I am starting to feel useless and helpless...
    roses2004 roses2004 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 12, 2014

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    READ

    You’re sitting at your desk. You know it’s time to go. You’ve said that to yourself over a million times. But this time you know, for sure, is real. You’re tired. You’re just so very tired. Your parents pissed you off. Like school wasn’t bad enough today. You go to...
    prettybrowneyes1993 prettybrowneyes1993 18-21, F Oct 18, 2013

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    So I guess my girl bff abbi isn't my girl bff

    anymore because when we were on the way home she was talking to her new friends and then she turned back to me and was like I can't come out for a week im grounded and im like whatever I don't care because I could hear them talking about me and then she turns back to her new...
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15, F 1 Response May 26

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    I love homework. I love doing it.

    Last year, I got into a period of worse depression. I stopped doing my homework. I still got good enough grades, but I'm sure my teacher noticed how the quality of my assignments dropped. I remember distinctly how I left a project until the last minute- in class- and quickly...
    imperfectprincess imperfectprincess 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 18

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    I cried myself to sleep last night

    because a bully here just found my weakness and decided to use it against me. Only because an argument! Now headaches and swollen eyes is what I have to deal with. I just have this thought while eating breakfast it's a pain to eat when I don't want to. But it's not as bad as...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Aug 31, 2014

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    Well as most might have read I am about to go

    through my separation and will have to move in July. Right now I love where I live and spent my entire life hating where I grew up and wanting out. Now I have to return due to money and my separation agreement and I could not be more depressed if I tried. I keep thinking that...
    VBLOVE1106 VBLOVE1106 26-30, F Jan 30