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I Am Shutting Down

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 274 People

    Saving My Sanity?

    I don't really want to. I would like to still be "there" I'm shutting Down to damn near everything at this point except my friends? I don't even know at the moment what's going on. What I can feel right now is that my heart hurts and I really just want to curl up in a nice little...
    CowgirlMagic CowgirlMagic 18-21, F Jul 13, 2011

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    Necessary

    Everyone has issues, and problems that they are facing.  I do share bits and pieces of how I feel and what is going on with a select few...but, really, not all of it. I made that mistake once, I won't do that again. I take responsibility for this because, well...I did it to...
    SweetlyLingering SweetlyLingering 70+, F 1 Response Feb 26, 2012

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    A Shutter Is Coming Down....

    Around my heart. I believe that everyone has limits as to how much hurt they can humanly take before something takes over and you change. I am still sensitive, caring and kind but I have learnt to hold back now. I know I come across as very caring and kind and that isn't always a...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F 5 Responses Aug 16, 2011

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    Do You Know This Feeling?

    I can't be the only one who is constantly hitting delete. I never know where to begin...or even express at all for that matter. I've hid so much of myself all these years that it overwhelms me. I'm so suffocated in here, but nothing is saving me. I want to understand what...
    Kkl3v Kkl3v 18-21, F Mar 14, 2013

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    Subhuman

    I feel like i'm just a quivering mass of nerves, not in human form or sometimes i don't feel normal human emotion. Something's wrong with me.
    NikkiBlack NikkiBlack 16-17, F 4 Responses Aug 19, 2009

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    Hi all. Not really sure what this app is all

    about. But I lost my fiancée in a horrific truck accident on Friday night. Just reaching out to others who have also lost someone.
    skysie skysie 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 16, 2014

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    Older And Need Help, I Am Shutting Down...

    I am a writer by profession, and I have published a few books and ebooks. Recently I have been having a hard time completing my latest manuscript because I feel like it's all completely hopeless. I belong to several social networks but I keep running into trolls, and with no...
    tm914 tm914 56-60 3 Responses Apr 23, 2011

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    I Feel So Alone

    I go to a counsellor for anxiety and depression, and I can't seem to tell her half the things that are going on. I've shut her out of half my life I need help with. But I just can't bring myself to tell her. I feel stupid and pathetic. Like everyone's just laughing at me because...
    MessedUpGirl MessedUpGirl 22-25, F 4 Responses May 10, 2012

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    I Am Through Sharing Now

    I am. I have had it. I will no longer let anyone else in. I know what happens now when I do. they love me, they leave me. I am sure it's me now. Goodbye, connection with others. No, this is not a suicide thing. But it is a spiritual death.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 29, 2013

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    Well, it won't be the first time.

    I don't what else to do :(
    MusicJunkie666 MusicJunkie666 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 8, 2014

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    I Changed Direction

    I used to be shut down but I opened up to my girlfriend as things were going smoothly.. Now I'm changing direction, I'm closing down to everyone and everything and I feel like I can't tell anyone anything and don't have the rights to be upset, sad or anything. I always cry to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 4, 2011

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    Loner Forever

    first of all, i would like to ask anyone who reads this that they could give some advice because i would like a third party perspective please! so here i am in high school, it was last year in this class with someone i used to be friends with in middle school and we start...
    catcraig catcraig 16-17, F Apr 30, 2010

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    I'm so afraid of getting hurt.

    Of feeling love. Or feeling joy. Because the minute I'm happy... Standing on my feet.... The rug gets snatched from under me. I'm closing up. Shutting down. I can't take it anymore. I can't escape my own head.
    BrokenPhoenixx BrokenPhoenixx 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 15, 2014

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    Saving My Sanity?

    I don't really want to. I would like to still be "there" I'm shutting Down to damn near everything at this point except my friends? I don't even know at the moment what's going on. What I can feel right now is that my heart hurts and I really just want to curl up in a nice little...
    CowgirlMagic CowgirlMagic 18-21, F Jul 13, 2011

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    damn... it´s just that.

    .. I was so up, so high on achievements (so ridiculous, so small)... now I have nothing... I feel worthless, like if I leave now no one will care... What am I doing with my life? why am I pushing away all those who love me? just... just want to sleep... and never wake...
    jsabina11 jsabina11 18-21, M Mar 21, 2014

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    I Dont Even Kniw Why

    So on monday i woke up feeling so horrible about myself hating myself for being me.i was so not up for school but it would have been worse if i didnt go. I got to school and i almost cried in front if my teacher when he asked what was wrong... I think he saw and said i disnt have...
    rageandhate rageandhate 18-21 2 Responses Feb 27, 2013

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    Fading to black...

    I can't explain it but I feel it happening. I'm distancing myself from everyone and everything. Shutting down. Some people have an off switch, I don't. I just sort of fade to black.
    zillaron zillaron 51-55, M 15 Responses Aug 19, 2009

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    Don't Make Me Feel Again ...

    Please don't smile at me in that way Please don't reach into my heart and make me feel something Please don't touch me in a way i can't handle please don't hold me because i may just break Please don't make my heart ache for you Please let me walk quietly away into the dark I can...
    deadinsideout deadinsideout 26-30, F Jul 23, 2013

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    I just don't know what I want anymore.

    Everything seems okay, but I'm getting tired of this jaded world. What's the point of trying to make sense of anything. It's never going to be what you think it is.
    LeviathanWhiteStag LeviathanWhiteStag 16-17, F Mar 31, 2014

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    I'm shutting down..just hope its only for tonight
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    Calm down, calm down, calm down... Oh god... How long has it been since ive had thoughts about death. Oh god... Why! Why! Why! Urghh... It hurts. It hurts so badly.
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    I think I'm becoming a guy... Or like this weird hybrid of girl/guy in a girls body lol. My reaction to the latest Downton Abby episode: me yelling at my T.V. "Lady Grantham...
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    I'm forty and recently learned that bed rest for an extended period can cause havoc 'down there'.. Simply, wash every other day and thing should be good.. but let things slide and...
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    I've let down my closest friends, not meaning to. I had friend in high school who needed me. She was 14, and her parents were forcing her to marry a 21 year old she barely knew...
    DarkwingGoslyn DarkwingGoslyn 31-35 Jan 6

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    I hate my family My father bruising me angrily, My mother filled with neutrality , And my sister enjoying the brutality. Tearing me down happily, Yet I cover it up elaborately...
    vibhasparkle1 vibhasparkle1 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    If there exists such a thing.. I may get offcourse here.. but wikipedia says "There is no single, widely-agreed definition of spirituality". To me, it is understood as something...
    mirkwood86 mirkwood86 26-30, M Jan 2

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    I lived with my mom and her mom from birth till I was about 6. she was 16 raising me. I didn't know any different, it was the way I was raised, how I was influenced, the life I...
    summerwinterfallspring summerwinterfallspring 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 11

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    I love to go down on a woman that's one of my favorite things to do. I haven't went down on a woman in a long time I'm having withdrawal
    bigfrank917 bigfrank917 31-35, M Dec 30, 2014

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    it was alright. we had our ups and downs but even our downs brought us ups. for 3 years we found ways to work through all the **** that life through at us...even if it involved...
    summerwinterfallspring summerwinterfallspring 18-21, F Jan 2

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    I am feeling quite down right now...I'm usually pretty down most of the time, but it's really bad right now..,
    pxthetic pxthetic 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 3

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    1st and foremost I want to make it clear that I admire and respect the police.The following is about one young police officer whom I can only assume was a rookie.In the end all...
    The1960texan The1960texan 51-55, M 4 Responses Jan 8

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    When i was 24-25 years old i lived in the northern Chicago suburbs. My girlfriend Barb (Stephanie Powers look alike) was a nymphomaniac and loved to go down on me while i was...
    goodalways goodalways 51-55, M Jan 12

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    I've noticed that it's usually the smart people who talk like they swallowed an entire library who do this to me. They treat me like crap and hit me repeatedly with words I can't...
    SuicideLullaby SuicideLullaby 31-35, M Jan 12

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    Every thought I have I write it down. I express myself better on paper. my pen and paper is my therapy. everything I go through and feel gets written down. No typing, just writing...
    ladylare ladylare 31-35, F Jan 19

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    This year has barely begun and I've had a mix of feeling down, feeling up, feeling lost and feeling like "seriously this is messed up." No, it hasn't been all bad, but the tone...
    SomeGuy9999 SomeGuy9999 36-40, M 2 Responses Jan 21

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    If you have every planned to do something with your life, while you are still young enough to enjoy having some good honest fun? What about a bucket list, it has occurred to me...
    sensualbeauty1 sensualbeauty1 46-50, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I fell down when I was walking to class in the rain. I was not sure if I would be on time and I injured my knees. It was painful but I now know not to run in the rain.
    hanticklish hanticklish 18-21, M Dec 30, 2014

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    I can eat it all day and night!! I love to have you climb on top and ride me good and hard! Feeling her getting wetter and dripping down my face and then your release all in my...
    forsale79 forsale79 31-35, M 1 Response Dec 30, 2014

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    My ex & I became friends again 4 or 5 months ago, yet today he said goodbye & that he doesn't think he can be just friends with me. After crying for 20 minutes, I see on Facebook...
    untamedx3heart untamedx3heart 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    I have never felt so low and down as I do today and I can't seem to snap myself out of it. Doesn't look like 2015 is going to start off very well :-(
    Sirwithherkey Sirwithherkey 31-35, M 3 Responses Dec 31, 2014

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    I know why I'm feeling down, it's ok I guess. I just want to get drunk and forget. So many things in my head. Not even sure I want to talk about it. :-( just feel lost and confused...
    Uoaman Uoaman 36-40, M 1 Response Jan 2

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    I love going down on a woman it's the best thing I love when a woman claiming that high point an come all in my mouth
    luvps luvps 31-35, M Jan 3

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    My cousin and his friends pulled my string bikini pants off to get me back because we pantsed two of them the day before while they were peeking at my sister getting changed. We...
    missbec missbec 18-21, F 9 Responses Jan 5

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    Part 5 If you didn't read the others I suggest you do because it might not make sense to you if you start reading from when times start going down hill to when it was all happy...
    BushMaster243 BushMaster243 16-17, M Jan 6

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    If I'm being told to calm down, I'm probably very upset. And that will only make me more upset.