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I Am Shutting Down

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    Basically enough said.

    ...That moment when the fog begins to clear and for a moment you are able to see the light. My words fail me as they usually did around you, I feel empty though, I no longer have the words to give as I once was able to before. So I have left them here and there spread out like a...
    NewBeginnings77 NewBeginnings77 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 11, 2015

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    A Shutter Is Coming Down....

    Around my heart. I believe that everyone has limits as to how much hurt they can humanly take before something takes over and you change. I am still sensitive, caring and kind but I have learnt to hold back now. I know I come across as very caring and kind and that isn't always a...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F 5 Responses Aug 16, 2011

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    human cruelty is killing me.

    even though we know there are nice people out there. these ideas even doesn't help us... They choke us They destroyed us They controul us...SICK i hate you i hate you i hate you a lot stay away from me as far as you can.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 15, 2015

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    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 36-40, F Nov 21, 2015

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    Loner Forever

    first of all, i would like to ask anyone who reads this that they could give some advice because i would like a third party perspective please! so here i am in high school, it was last year in this class with someone i used to be friends with in middle school and we start...
    catcraig catcraig 16-17, F Apr 30, 2010

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    Saving My Sanity?

    I don't really want to. I would like to still be "there" I'm shutting Down to damn near everything at this point except my friends? I don't even know at the moment what's going on. What I can feel right now is that my heart hurts and I really just want to curl up in a nice little...
    CowgirlMagic CowgirlMagic 18-21, F Jul 13, 2011

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    I Dont Even Kniw Why

    So on monday i woke up feeling so horrible about myself hating myself for being me.i was so not up for school but it would have been worse if i didnt go. I got to school and i almost cried in front if my teacher when he asked what was wrong... I think he saw and said i disnt have...
    rageandhate rageandhate 18-21 2 Responses Feb 27, 2013

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    I just don't know what I want anymore.

    Everything seems okay, but I'm getting tired of this jaded world. What's the point of trying to make sense of anything. It's never going to be what you think it is.
    LeviathanWhiteStag LeviathanWhiteStag 16-17, F Mar 31, 2014

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    he doesn't know but..

    . I'm pushing people away.. and he's one of them, I'll tell him of course... but I still feel bad, I even started crying.. then I read his status and.. it made it even more worse.. but I have to, just like I have to with other people.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 28, 2015

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    Necessary

    Everyone has issues, and problems that they are facing.  I do share bits and pieces of how I feel and what is going on with a select few...but, really, not all of it. I made that mistake once, I won't do that again. I take responsibility for this because, well...I did it to...
    SweetlyLingering SweetlyLingering 66-70, F 1 Response Feb 26, 2012

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    I Am Through Sharing Now

    I am. I have had it. I will no longer let anyone else in. I know what happens now when I do. they love me, they leave me. I am sure it's me now. Goodbye, connection with others. No, this is not a suicide thing. But it is a spiritual death.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 29, 2013

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    Well, it won't be the first time.

    I don't what else to do :(
    PopulaceInOne PopulaceInOne 18-21, M Oct 8, 2014

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    Saving My Sanity?

    I don't really want to. I would like to still be "there" I'm shutting Down to damn near everything at this point except my friends? I don't even know at the moment what's going on. What I can feel right now is that my heart hurts and I really just want to curl up in a nice little...
    CowgirlMagic CowgirlMagic 18-21, F Jul 13, 2011

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    I Changed Direction

    I used to be shut down but I opened up to my girlfriend as things were going smoothly.. Now I'm changing direction, I'm closing down to everyone and everything and I feel like I can't tell anyone anything and don't have the rights to be upset, sad or anything. I always cry to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 4, 2011

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    Hi all. Not really sure what this app is all

    about. But I lost my fiancée in a horrific truck accident on Friday night. Just reaching out to others who have also lost someone.
    skysie skysie 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 16, 2014

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    I feel tight inside and its all I can feel.

    I am not right. I just want to sit in this dark silence until I feel something else. I forced myself through work now I want nothing just silence. I don't care if I am here tomorrow. I can't turn off the negative thoughts I have been ripping myself down all day. I am beginning...
    december2010 december2010 41-45, T 7 Responses Apr 14, 2015

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    Don't Make Me Feel Again ...

    Please don't smile at me in that way Please don't reach into my heart and make me feel something Please don't touch me in a way i can't handle please don't hold me because i may just break Please don't make my heart ache for you Please let me walk quietly away into the dark I can...
    deadinsideout deadinsideout 26-30, F Jul 23, 2013

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    damn... it´s just that.

    .. I was so up, so high on achievements (so ridiculous, so small)... now I have nothing... I feel worthless, like if I leave now no one will care... What am I doing with my life? why am I pushing away all those who love me? just... just want to sleep... and never wake...
    jsabina11 jsabina11 18-21, M Mar 21, 2014

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    I'm so afraid of getting hurt.

    Of feeling love. Or feeling joy. Because the minute I'm happy... Standing on my feet.... The rug gets snatched from under me. I'm closing up. Shutting down. I can't take it anymore. I can't escape my own head.
    BrokenPhoenixx BrokenPhoenixx 18-21, F Jan 15, 2014

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    Older And Need Help, I Am Shutting Down...

    I am a writer by profession, and I have published a few books and ebooks. Recently I have been having a hard time completing my latest manuscript because I feel like it's all completely hopeless. I belong to several social networks but I keep running into trolls, and with no...
    tm914 tm914 56-60 3 Responses Apr 23, 2011

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    Fading to black...

    I can't explain it but I feel it happening. I'm distancing myself from everyone and everything. Shutting down. Some people have an off switch, I don't. I just sort of fade to black.
    zillaron zillaron 51-55, M 15 Responses Aug 19, 2009

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    I Feel So Alone

    I go to a counsellor for anxiety and depression, and I can't seem to tell her half the things that are going on. I've shut her out of half my life I need help with. But I just can't bring myself to tell her. I feel stupid and pathetic. Like everyone's just laughing at me because...
    MessedUpGirl MessedUpGirl 22-25, F 4 Responses May 10, 2012

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    Shades on Hoodie up Earbuds in Shields raised

    Emotions shutting down See you when I'm human again
    Zaliana Zaliana 36-40, F 2 Responses Jan 14

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    Subhuman

    I feel like i'm just a quivering mass of nerves, not in human form or sometimes i don't feel normal human emotion. Something's wrong with me.
    NikkiBlack NikkiBlack 16-17, F 4 Responses Aug 19, 2009

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    Do You Know This Feeling?

    I can't be the only one who is constantly hitting delete. I never know where to begin...or even express at all for that matter. I've hid so much of myself all these years that it overwhelms me. I'm so suffocated in here, but nothing is saving me. I want to understand what...
    Kkl3v Kkl3v 18-21, F Mar 14, 2013

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    In the times of silence

    that is when I am deepest in thought. I shut myself off from the world around me. I have been told I have a tendency to go into ghost mode. Some think it is because I am angry, some think it's because I simply do not care. These are both untrue, I am silenced by the fear of...
    NewBeginnings77 NewBeginnings77 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 30, 2015

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    I try and stop it by having back up plans but even they get cancelled. All the time.
    cantpick cantpick 18-21, F 3 hrs ago

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    I used to do this more often in which I use a cheap red notebook to write down all my feelings or thoughts. Now I just got to burn it before someone accidently finds it....
    Christy243 Christy243 13-15, F 5 hrs ago

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    I have Prostate cancer that has been caught early. I have a positive attitude and i will not allow myself to be down. I will overcome my Cancer.
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    Sometimes I feel like I'm totally crazy. I can be drowning in a pool of misery, wishing I could just sleep forever, crying for no ******* reason.... then someone cracks a stupid...
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    My friend loves showing pics of her P When her panty is down here is her kick 893scorpion
    PantyQueen95 PantyQueen95 18-21, T 19 hrs ago

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    my mother makes me pull them down for a spanking
    heatherheadly2000 heatherheadly2000 13-15, F 20 hrs ago

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    writing down my thoughts keep me sane. helps me understand why I am doing what I am doing.
    dgjf123 dgjf123 26-30, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm often too shy or worried about burdening people to vocalise my thoughts. But I've found keeping a journal to be very therapeutic and helpful at helping me to make sense of...
    thisisjuno thisisjuno 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I don't actually tend to write down my thoughts, feels like it's a waste if it's just for me, anything for me feels like a waste. But I do write to my friends, which is why this...
    KittySoules KittySoules 22-25, T 1 Response 1 day ago

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    when im depress or mad I write down things that I wanted to say instead of being an idiot that show people how depressed and mad I am... its better to be a shadow then being seen...
    nuryuriana20 nuryuriana20 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    So today it's finally happened: I've been told to move out. Just like that. After nearly Ninteen years of neglect and little love from my parents (you can read about their abuse in...
    WesHester WesHester 18-21, M 7 Responses 2 days ago

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    I been going 4 in a half month without my fiance and i am about to break down i been crying for a hole day. and his family said he did it to his self to get lock up. will his young...
    Buttercake30 Buttercake30 36-40 1 Response 2 days ago

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    i don't know how much more of this pain i can take tonight. They said to sit with my feet up - but it hurts too much. Sitting with my feet down seems to hurt the least right now...
    LoneSouls LoneSouls 31-35, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I think about different guy's lifting my wifes little skirt and pulling her black tights and white knickers down while shes stood in front of me
    knickersstain knickersstain 46-50, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I would love to watch my wife held down by 2 guys while the other one pushes her skirt up and rips down her black tights and white knickers
    knickersstain knickersstain 46-50, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I don't think it's just TV either. I think the growth of technology is dumbing us down. when I was a kid we made our games up, we used our imagination, something I feel is greatly...
    BigDean1471 BigDean1471 41-45, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Empty. It's the only word that comes to mind. When inside my head it's everything but,.... So many conflictions inside myself. When insides are Violent, Violet, blue, green, sad...
    Sometimesilence Sometimesilence 18-21, F a week ago

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