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I Am Shutting Down

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    Everyone has issues, and problems that they are facing.  I do share bits and pieces of how I feel and what is going on with a select few...but, really, not all of it. I made that mistake once, I won't do that again. I take responsibility for this because, well...I did it to...
    SweetlyLingering SweetlyLingering 66-70, F 1 Response Feb 26, 2012

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    I'm so afraid of getting hurt.

    Of feeling love. Or feeling joy. Because the minute I'm happy... Standing on my feet.... The rug gets snatched from under me. I'm closing up. Shutting down. I can't take it anymore. I can't escape my own head.
    BrokenPhoenixx BrokenPhoenixx 18-21, F Jan 15, 2014

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    I Changed Direction

    I used to be shut down but I opened up to my girlfriend as things were going smoothly.. Now I'm changing direction, I'm closing down to everyone and everything and I feel like I can't tell anyone anything and don't have the rights to be upset, sad or anything. I always cry to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 4, 2011

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    Hi all. Not really sure what this app is all

    about. But I lost my fiancée in a horrific truck accident on Friday night. Just reaching out to others who have also lost someone.
    skysie skysie 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 16, 2014

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    Saving My Sanity?

    I don't really want to. I would like to still be "there" I'm shutting Down to damn near everything at this point except my friends? I don't even know at the moment what's going on. What I can feel right now is that my heart hurts and I really just want to curl up in a nice little...
    CowgirlMagic CowgirlMagic 18-21, F Jul 13, 2011

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    I feel tight inside and its all I can feel.

    I am not right. I just want to sit in this dark silence until I feel something else. I forced myself through work now I want nothing just silence. I don't care if I am here tomorrow. I can't turn off the negative thoughts I have been ripping myself down all day. I am beginning...
    december2010 december2010 41-45, T 8 Responses Apr 14

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    Older And Need Help, I Am Shutting Down...

    I am a writer by profession, and I have published a few books and ebooks. Recently I have been having a hard time completing my latest manuscript because I feel like it's all completely hopeless. I belong to several social networks but I keep running into trolls, and with no...
    tm914 tm914 56-60 3 Responses Apr 23, 2011

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    human cruelty is killing me.

    even though we know there are nice people out there. these ideas even doesn't help us... They choke us They destroyed us They controul us...SICK i hate you i hate you i hate you a lot stay away from me as far as you can.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 15

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    Well, it won't be the first time.

    I don't what else to do :(
    HidingBehindTheShadows HidingBehindTheShadows 18-21, M Oct 8, 2014

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    Do You Know This Feeling?

    I can't be the only one who is constantly hitting delete. I never know where to begin...or even express at all for that matter. I've hid so much of myself all these years that it overwhelms me. I'm so suffocated in here, but nothing is saving me. I want to understand what...
    Kkl3v Kkl3v 18-21, F Mar 14, 2013

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    A Shutter Is Coming Down....

    Around my heart. I believe that everyone has limits as to how much hurt they can humanly take before something takes over and you change. I am still sensitive, caring and kind but I have learnt to hold back now. I know I come across as very caring and kind and that isn't always a...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F 5 Responses Aug 16, 2011

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    Subhuman

    I feel like i'm just a quivering mass of nerves, not in human form or sometimes i don't feel normal human emotion. Something's wrong with me.
    NikkiBlack NikkiBlack 16-17, F 4 Responses Aug 19, 2009

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    he doesn't know but..

    . I'm pushing people away.. and he's one of them, I'll tell him of course... but I still feel bad, I even started crying.. then I read his status and.. it made it even more worse.. but I have to, just like I have to with other people.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 28

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    I just don't know what I want anymore.

    Everything seems okay, but I'm getting tired of this jaded world. What's the point of trying to make sense of anything. It's never going to be what you think it is.
    LeviathanWhiteStag LeviathanWhiteStag 16-17, F Mar 31, 2014

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    Saving My Sanity?

    I don't really want to. I would like to still be "there" I'm shutting Down to damn near everything at this point except my friends? I don't even know at the moment what's going on. What I can feel right now is that my heart hurts and I really just want to curl up in a nice little...
    CowgirlMagic CowgirlMagic 18-21, F Jul 13, 2011

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    In the times of silence

    that is when I am deepest in thought. I shut myself off from the world around me. I have been told I have a tendency to go into ghost mode. Some think it is because I am angry, some think it's because I simply do not care. These are both untrue, I am silenced by the fear of...
    NewBeginnings77 NewBeginnings77 31-35, F 2 Responses Apr 30

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    I Feel So Alone

    I go to a counsellor for anxiety and depression, and I can't seem to tell her half the things that are going on. I've shut her out of half my life I need help with. But I just can't bring myself to tell her. I feel stupid and pathetic. Like everyone's just laughing at me because...
    MessedUpGirl MessedUpGirl 22-25, F 4 Responses May 10, 2012

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    I Dont Even Kniw Why

    So on monday i woke up feeling so horrible about myself hating myself for being me.i was so not up for school but it would have been worse if i didnt go. I got to school and i almost cried in front if my teacher when he asked what was wrong... I think he saw and said i disnt have...
    rageandhate rageandhate 18-21 2 Responses Feb 27, 2013

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    I Am Through Sharing Now

    I am. I have had it. I will no longer let anyone else in. I know what happens now when I do. they love me, they leave me. I am sure it's me now. Goodbye, connection with others. No, this is not a suicide thing. But it is a spiritual death.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 29, 2013

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    Basically enough said.

    ...That moment when the fog begins to clear and for a moment you are able to see the light. My words fail me as they usually did around you, I feel empty though, I no longer have the words to give as I once was able to before. So I have left them here and there spread out like a...
    NewBeginnings77 NewBeginnings77 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 11

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    Fading to black...

    I can't explain it but I feel it happening. I'm distancing myself from everyone and everything. Shutting down. Some people have an off switch, I don't. I just sort of fade to black.
    zillaron zillaron 51-55, M 15 Responses Aug 19, 2009

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    Don't Make Me Feel Again ...

    Please don't smile at me in that way Please don't reach into my heart and make me feel something Please don't touch me in a way i can't handle please don't hold me because i may just break Please don't make my heart ache for you Please let me walk quietly away into the dark I can...
    deadinsideout deadinsideout 26-30, F Jul 23, 2013

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    damn... it´s just that.

    .. I was so up, so high on achievements (so ridiculous, so small)... now I have nothing... I feel worthless, like if I leave now no one will care... What am I doing with my life? why am I pushing away all those who love me? just... just want to sleep... and never wake...
    jsabina11 jsabina11 18-21, M Mar 21, 2014

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    Loner Forever

    first of all, i would like to ask anyone who reads this that they could give some advice because i would like a third party perspective please! so here i am in high school, it was last year in this class with someone i used to be friends with in middle school and we start...
    catcraig catcraig 16-17, F Apr 30, 2010

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    I feel very excited to share my experiences or just write them down!!!
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    I found it out today when I wanted to go check out some of my early teenhood quizzes and instead got redirected to the very lame teen nick site. Then I did a google search and I...
    Allforaview Allforaview 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    It's annoys the hell out of me if someone asks me to calm down ... Really ... I know how to calm down I don't need your two cents ...
    UrbanLights UrbanLights 36-40, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    When I am alone I let the tears fall down my face, I don't push them away, and I don't try to hide them. I don't wipe them away, I let my tears fall down my face, I let them wash...
    BroknGirl89 BroknGirl89 26-30, F 3 days ago

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    When I am being yelled and screamed at, I shut down. I can't handle it at all. I can take a lot, lord knows that, but when you get up in my face, and you yell and scream at me, I...
    BroknGirl89 BroknGirl89 26-30, F 3 days ago

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    This is a personality trait that goes right through me. I am usually an understanding person and I get that sometimes people have a bad day or are mad at the world, but if you are...
    455cargirl 455cargirl 36-40, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I would love to be tied down and tickled past my limits by who I don't care!! By what I don't care be evil!!
    Allstar1993 Allstar1993 22-25, M 3 days ago

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    I love sneaking a peek down a woman's shirt!
    visualicon2011 visualicon2011 26-30 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    You told me you loved me, I wasn't sure if I could give you my heart. You want me to notice you, but take no notice in me. I'm not looking for another horribly unbalanced...
    Cadiaaya Cadiaaya 26-30, F 5 days ago

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    I am feeling down.. it feels like someone just destroyed me and knock me down
    MarryJ420 MarryJ420 18-21, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I would really appreciate it if you don't grab me or try to convince me to calm down when I'm clearly upset it will only escalate the situation.
    shericka1992 shericka1992 22-25, F 6 days ago

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    the last time she told me she loves me was the night I broke down because I had a feeling our family would break soon. the next day my mom chose drugs and another family over the...
    blackwoodwolf blackwoodwolf 18-21, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    tomorrow is the day the girl who I loved for more than 6 years is leaving my town for her college and I'm just trying to help her getting her fear out and talking to her normally...
    milind3012 milind3012 18-21, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    If I was any more down to earth, I be six feet under......
    AfanOfbigNaturals AfanOfbigNaturals 46-50, M 3 Responses a week ago

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    I'm not really humble or down-to-earth so when I meet people who are, I really see the discrepancy between myself and them and feel a lot of respect for how they carry themselves...
    spark16 spark16 26-30, M 1 Response a week ago

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    Back in middle school I got into a fight with 2 jocks who were bullying one of my classmates. Did I get hurt? Yeah. My head got slammed against a brick wall. Did the teacher care...
    Thalassophobic Thalassophobic 18-21, M a week ago

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    Lately I've been feeling down. I am an empath and I pick up other emotions like a sponge. Why is this world so evil? Why is this world so full with egoism and coldness? People are...
    Hyadeansoul Hyadeansoul 18-21, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    hate life at the minute. I am sick of being let down by people who say they will be there when you need them.
    Mrpenfold78 Mrpenfold78 36-40, M Jun 28

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    Some days, or don't know what I'm doing wrong. I don't feel like I am, I pick up after him and satisfy him when I have to. Listening to him talk about himself has become a hobby of...
    nikknikk nikknikk 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 28

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    Us girls are sun tanning today and Cindy looks very hot..I would love to go down on here...If i have my way about it i will....Today..YUM
    CLPLIKESFUN CLPLIKESFUN 46-50 4 Responses Jun 27

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