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I Am Sick of Being Strong

For those of us who have amazing inner strength, but want to find someone to lean on once in awhile 197 People

    I'm tired of being strong.

    I'm tired of holding it back. I'm tired of putting on a false front. I want to scream my heart out. I want to break walls. I want to rip my hair out. I don't want to feel so conflicted. I'm just so sick of being good. I want to be bad.
    Tayns2010 Tayns2010 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 17, 2014

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    They said I should be ashamed,

    because I let loose the tears that bled from my heart. I have shown my grief and so therefore I have been weak and yet, when I show them a mask carved of stone, they are baffled why I am so cold.
    AB2WUS AB2WUS 22-25 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Sometimes...

    people see how strong i am and they are happy to lean on me, and that's fine... sometimes.... but then... who do I lean on when they see how strong i am and automatically think that i never fail and never need anyone else?!?that's not true.  I need to leave someone else in...
    ElvenLady ElvenLady 36-40, F 2 Responses Dec 1, 2011

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    So Tired

    I am very strong.  This is not news.  But blast it, even strong people get tired!  I've slammed into my limit, I don't think I can take much more.  I want to let someone else carry these burdens for a while.Problem is that I haven't got anyone I can hand them off to.  I'm...
    Plaid Plaid 31-35, F Aug 27, 2011

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    Stay Strong

    Everyone signed up for this group for a reason. We are the pillars of strength. The people God or whoever you believe in set out on the planet to assist others. But we get sick of it. I know I WAS. In just my short teenage life, I have pulled people from the darkness of their...
    SoloHD SoloHD 18-21, M Jan 18, 2013

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    First To Find Out

    The other day I noticed a trend in my life: I always have to figure things out in life on my own. I went into public school after nine years of private Christian school without anyone to help me ease into the transition. I didn't necessarily need the help, because I'm good with...
    HazelnutEyes HazelnutEyes 18-21 1 Response Mar 5, 2013

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    I've Always Had This Strength About Me

    The strength is kind of an illusion.. I'm strong because I think I have to be not because I want to be. I've come to know that My "strength" is fear based. it's kind of a stubborn/foolish pride kind of strength too, I'll admit it. I know it's not something to boast about, but I'm...
    wack1985 wack1985 26-30, F Aug 28, 2011

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    I'm Tired of Always Being the Strong One.

     ~ I was the strong one for my ex. I took on his bills, the stress, his moods, everything. I'm still the strong one for momma & my grandparents. I have to show that I can take things in stride or they "worry" which just adds more stress. I am so DAMN tired...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 30, 2009

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    When Do I Get To...

    Lean on and rely on someone else? For those playing the home game, I was abused as a child. My dad took pleasure in beating me, and my mom said that she wished she had an abortion on me. When I turned 18, I was turned out of my home without a place to go. I was lucky to be able...
    drcynic drcynic 26-30, M 9 Responses Dec 30, 2007

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    Isn't There Someone Out There Who Is Worthy of My Trust?

    I have always had inner strength.  Since I was little, I had confidence in myself.  I knew I didn't have all the answers, but I was still confident in the fact that I knew I didn't need to know everything! My parents divorced when I was 10, and I was strong enough to...
    Bella724 Bella724 26-30, F 4 Responses Dec 30, 2007

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    I've been let down so many times in my life that

    now when stuff happens to me where I have to move and and get on with my life I don't have a problem but everyone around me knows I'm like that and if they chase me I don't answer and I ignore them because i protect myself and be strong but I'm tired of it ... I wanna feel...
    Liveandlovefree Liveandlovefree 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 16, 2013

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    All Aboard!!

    The train is leaving the station and I want to hop on so badly..  I have an 12 y/o unstable bi -polar son who just can't seem to get it right.  I'm so tired of being patient and loving but I know it's now that he needs me the most..   It's so difficult to...
    Sabrina0202 Sabrina0202 41-45, F 2 Responses Jan 22, 2008

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    Sometimes I Feel Like Taking A baseball Bat And Hitting All The Unwanteds Out Of My Life!

    It gets so overwhelming at times. Keeping a happy face is what the society invariably expects us to do. Does anyone care what the person might be actually suffering? My family's a mess, i am tired of taking **** in relationships and the way too much work load is burning the life...
    frootiee frootiee 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 4, 2011

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    Strong

    I am always getting told I strong I am sometimes I believe it sometimes I don't I want to thank. My Ep family for believing in me I show you the side of me I can't show my real family my mom gets really sad when she thinks I'm suffering I guess that's why I hide in my bedroom a...
    TheDevilsOwn TheDevilsOwn 22-25, M 5 Responses Apr 16, 2011

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    Heloo :)))

    All the stories i've read just now were sad ( well i wasnt looking for anything happy though so its fine..)and i kindda got tired of it so i'm writing a weird one right now.Please, i you find it at anyway random and doesnt make any sense then stop and go away.I've been known for...
    doodlesareawesome doodlesareawesome 13-15 Oct 12, 2011

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    I Can't Do It

    I am always strong, When im upset I dont say anything, when im hurting I dont say anything... I dont wanna upset other people, and people always seek me out for advice, and I love being there for my friends and family... but damnit, I feel like breaking down, just wish I had...
    discreetlyme91 discreetlyme91 22-25 2 Responses Apr 9, 2012

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    No One Sees the Softness of My Steel.

    This story is definitely going to sound angry compared to my other writings on here, but this is how I am feeling right now and I know EP is a great place to get it all out. I am so sick of being told I am strong.  What does "strong" mean? That I hold up...
    patchworkofmistakes patchworkofmistakes 26-30, F 10 Responses Jan 2, 2008

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    Surrogacy?

    Hi every one, this is my first post so i hope it is ok, i'm hoping for discussions and opinions. OK, well i'm 18 and a half and i am a proud lesbian. i have a group of gay friends and we're all pretty close. and i love them all! I was sitting in our local bar on sunday...
    SKatie11 SKatie11 18-21 Mar 9, 2011

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    I

    Am honestly so tired of people telling me to be strong . My energy for that is gone, I'm am getting psychically sick from the stress people put on me . And recently I've become very sick with a bad cough now they have me on a tone of medicine and waiting for test results to come...
    morganx97 morganx97 16-17, F Nov 14, 2013

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    I'm Sick of Being Strong, Too

    I've never shared my story with anyone before.   When I was six my first grade teacher was a monster.   She would slap me around, accuse me of lying constantly, she'd lock me in the closet and she told me that I was evil and my parents didn't love me. ...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jan 1, 2008

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    More And More So Lately

    i just...it's all so pointless.  why put on the act?  why act happy when i'm really not?  why pull myself together when i'd rather just fall apart for a while?  i don't want my life to always be this way.  honestly, my daughter is the only reason i get...
    KinkyFlower KinkyFlower 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 13, 2010

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    I Can't Be There For Everyone

    I have been the one in my family who is always the strong one, always the one to lean on, always the one to look up to. Well this time just this one time I wish I wasn't that one person. I am very sick, I have 2 wonderful babies, being a single mother is difficult enough, now to...
    confusedBUTneverLOST confusedBUTneverLOST 22-25, F Nov 26, 2011

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    In My Mothers Image

    She always wants me to stand up and be the toughest. But what if I am not her and I am not made to be rough. at school my life crumples and my mother knows this but apparently thats not enough. Why don't you yell back? Teach them a lesson or don't even listen. I cant be like her...
    cookie285 cookie285 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 10, 2012

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    I'm Giving Up This Time...

    All my short, pathetic life I have been forced to be strong. My parents constantly convincing me that having emotions is wrong, and now this has lead me to have several emotional problems on my own. I am still forced to be strong while I'm dying inside, every day while I drown in...
    YourDisasterInEverAfter YourDisasterInEverAfter 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 4, 2012

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