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I Am Sick of Being Strong

For those of us who have amazing inner strength, but want to find someone to lean on once in awhile 175 People

    No One Sees the Softness of My Steel.

    This story is definitely going to sound angry compared to my other writings on here, but this is how I am feeling right now and I know EP is a great place to get it all out. I am so sick of being told I am strong.  What does "strong" mean? That I hold up...
    patchworkofmistakes patchworkofmistakes 26-30, F 10 Responses Jan 2, 2008

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    In My Mothers Image

    She always wants me to stand up and be the toughest. But what if I am not her and I am not made to be rough. at school my life crumples and my mother knows this but apparently thats not enough. Why don't you yell back? Teach them a lesson or don't even listen. I cant be like her...
    cookie285 cookie285 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 10, 2012

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    I'm Giving Up This Time...

    All my short, pathetic life I have been forced to be strong. My parents constantly convincing me that having emotions is wrong, and now this has lead me to have several emotional problems on my own. I am still forced to be strong while I'm dying inside, every day while I drown in...
    YourDisasterInEverAfter YourDisasterInEverAfter 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 4, 2012

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    Stay Strong

    Everyone signed up for this group for a reason. We are the pillars of strength. The people God or whoever you believe in set out on the planet to assist others. But we get sick of it. I know I WAS. In just my short teenage life, I have pulled people from the darkness of their...
    SoloHD SoloHD 18-21, M Jan 18, 2013

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    Sometimes I Feel Like Taking A baseball Bat And Hitting All The Unwanteds Out Of My Life!

    It gets so overwhelming at times. Keeping a happy face is what the society invariably expects us to do. Does anyone care what the person might be actually suffering? My family's a mess, i am tired of taking **** in relationships and the way too much work load is burning the life...
    frootiee frootiee 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 4, 2011

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    All Aboard!!

    The train is leaving the station and I want to hop on so badly..  I have an 12 y/o unstable bi -polar son who just can't seem to get it right.  I'm so tired of being patient and loving but I know it's now that he needs me the most..   It's so difficult to...
    Sabrina0202 Sabrina0202 41-45, F 2 Responses Jan 22, 2008

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    I've been let down so many times in my life that

    now when stuff happens to me where I have to move and and get on with my life I don't have a problem but everyone around me knows I'm like that and if they chase me I don't answer and I ignore them because i protect myself and be strong but I'm tired of it ... I wanna feel...
    Liveandlovefree Liveandlovefree 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 16, 2013

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    First To Find Out

    The other day I noticed a trend in my life: I always have to figure things out in life on my own. I went into public school after nine years of private Christian school without anyone to help me ease into the transition. I didn't necessarily need the help, because I'm good with...
    HazelnutEyes HazelnutEyes 18-21 1 Response Mar 5, 2013

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    Surrogacy?

    Hi every one, this is my first post so i hope it is ok, i'm hoping for discussions and opinions. OK, well i'm 18 and a half and i am a proud lesbian. i have a group of gay friends and we're all pretty close. and i love them all! I was sitting in our local bar on sunday...
    SKatie11 SKatie11 18-21 Mar 9, 2011

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    I

    Am honestly so tired of people telling me to be strong . My energy for that is gone, I'm am getting psychically sick from the stress people put on me . And recently I've become very sick with a bad cough now they have me on a tone of medicine and waiting for test results to come...
    morganx97 morganx97 16-17, F Nov 14, 2013

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    I'm Tired of Always Being the Strong One.

     ~ I was the strong one for my ex. I took on his bills, the stress, his moods, everything. I'm still the strong one for momma & my grandparents. I have to show that I can take things in stride or they "worry" which just adds more stress. I am so DAMN tired...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 30, 2009

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    I Can't Be There For Everyone

    I have been the one in my family who is always the strong one, always the one to lean on, always the one to look up to. Well this time just this one time I wish I wasn't that one person. I am very sick, I have 2 wonderful babies, being a single mother is difficult enough, now to...
    confusedBUTneverLOST confusedBUTneverLOST 22-25, F Nov 26, 2011

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    I've Always Had This Strength About Me

    The strength is kind of an illusion.. I'm strong because I think I have to be not because I want to be. I've come to know that My "strength" is fear based. it's kind of a stubborn/foolish pride kind of strength too, I'll admit it. I know it's not something to boast about, but I'm...
    wack1985 wack1985 26-30, F Aug 28, 2011

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    Heloo :)))

    All the stories i've read just now were sad ( well i wasnt looking for anything happy though so its fine..)and i kindda got tired of it so i'm writing a weird one right now.Please, i you find it at anyway random and doesnt make any sense then stop and go away.I've been known for...
    doodlesareawesome doodlesareawesome 13-15 Oct 12, 2011

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    More And More So Lately

    i just...it's all so pointless.  why put on the act?  why act happy when i'm really not?  why pull myself together when i'd rather just fall apart for a while?  i don't want my life to always be this way.  honestly, my daughter is the only reason i get...
    KinkyFlower KinkyFlower 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 13, 2010

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    Strong

    I am always getting told I strong I am sometimes I believe it sometimes I don't I want to thank. My Ep family for believing in me I show you the side of me I can't show my real family my mom gets really sad when she thinks I'm suffering I guess that's why I hide in my bedroom a...
    TheDevilsOwn TheDevilsOwn 22-25, M 5 Responses Apr 16, 2011

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    Isn't There Someone Out There Who Is Worthy of My Trust?

    I have always had inner strength.  Since I was little, I had confidence in myself.  I knew I didn't have all the answers, but I was still confident in the fact that I knew I didn't need to know everything! My parents divorced when I was 10, and I was strong enough to...
    Bella724 Bella724 26-30, F 4 Responses Dec 30, 2007

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    I'm Sick of Being Strong, Too

    I've never shared my story with anyone before.   When I was six my first grade teacher was a monster.   She would slap me around, accuse me of lying constantly, she'd lock me in the closet and she told me that I was evil and my parents didn't love me. ...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jan 1, 2008

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    I Can't Do It

    I am always strong, When im upset I dont say anything, when im hurting I dont say anything... I dont wanna upset other people, and people always seek me out for advice, and I love being there for my friends and family... but damnit, I feel like breaking down, just wish I had...
    discreetlyme91 discreetlyme91 22-25 2 Responses Apr 9, 2012

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    When Do I Get To...

    Lean on and rely on someone else? For those playing the home game, I was abused as a child. My dad took pleasure in beating me, and my mom said that she wished she had an abortion on me. When I turned 18, I was turned out of my home without a place to go. I was lucky to be able...
    drcynic drcynic 26-30, M 9 Responses Dec 30, 2007

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    I'm tired of being strong.

    I'm tired of holding it back. I'm tired of putting on a false front. I want to scream my heart out. I want to break walls. I want to rip my hair out. I don't want to feel so conflicted. I'm just so sick of being good. I want to be bad.
    Tayns2010 Tayns2010 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 17

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    Sometimes...

    people see how strong i am and they are happy to lean on me, and that's fine... sometimes.... but then... who do I lean on when they see how strong i am and automatically think that i never fail and never need anyone else?!?that's not true.  I need to leave someone else in...
    ElvenLady ElvenLady 36-40, F 2 Responses Dec 1, 2011

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    So Tired

    I am very strong.  This is not news.  But blast it, even strong people get tired!  I've slammed into my limit, I don't think I can take much more.  I want to let someone else carry these burdens for a while.Problem is that I haven't got anyone I can hand them off to.  I'm...
    Plaid Plaid 31-35, F Aug 27, 2011

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    Im Always Holding Back For Them

    i never hated my siblings or my mother for this its just what i do for them. i let everyone inside and outside of my family take a piece of me i allowed them to cry on my shoulder....or whatever. Their problems always came first and its not like i have two siblings no i am the...
    Anicia47 Anicia47 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 10, 2012

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    Crownthequeen Crownthequeen 13-15, F Aug 27

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    I believe in being strong no matter what, Even when everything seems to be going wrong. I am a strong woman & believe that woman's that always smiles are the prettiest. I believe...
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    Wow when you have been through some much and you bust your *** to rebuild yourself. Then there's that moment when it starts to crumble again and you have to catch yourself. No way...
    WolfhunterJD WolfhunterJD 41-45, M 2 Responses Sep 7

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    My story is that I have a sickness inside that I don't know how to make go away. It's hard to define this sickness other than a pervading poison that is eating me from the inside...
    Shellybelle Shellybelle 41-45, F 4 Responses Aug 26

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    Currently, my husband is struggling with CVS (Cyclic Vomiting Syndrome). This is probably one of the most frustrating things for someone you love to have. He will be fine for a few...
    kristinap123 kristinap123 22-25, F 16 hrs ago

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    :'( it's funny how I watched the movie contagion, and then get sick lol.... Ugh I can't breathe :/
    bluegirlie98 bluegirlie98 13-15, F 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    I'm sick and tired of having to play the role of a mother instead of just being a child. I'm sick of all the responsibility I'm sick and tired of people who use me. I'm sick...
    WelcomeTheSilence WelcomeTheSilence 16-17, F Aug 31

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    After three weeks of being sick and just avoiding my bias walked up to me and said, Dave you feeling alright man? Of course, my dad came out of me. Yeah I'm fine. I continued to go...
    Sheismybestfriend Sheismybestfriend 26-30, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    America soldier I'm just trying to be a father Raise a daughter and a son Be a lover to their mother Everything to everyone Up and at 'em, bright and early I'm all business in...
    bloodstream11 bloodstream11 18-21, M 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I'm sick of it. Why doesn't anyone realize I hurt just as much as them. Why is that because I'm not athletic or do a lot of physically strenuous activity that I can't be tired? Why...
    tRueInSAnItY tRueInSAnItY 16-17, F 4 Responses Sep 2

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    I hate being sick! Ughh! And it's soo cold outside :P that had nothing to do with me being sick but ya I hate being sick!
    PANDASAREAWESOME67 PANDASAREAWESOME67 13-15, M Aug 23

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    After this I don't remember much, I don't even remember what happened after that day. But I do remember living in another town in an actual house. I remember my first friend ever...
    Sheismybestfriend Sheismybestfriend 26-30, M 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    Here I am again, in pain and grief. Have come back to this platform to share my feelings. While writing this experience, I realized that how much I depend on this platform, which...
    ProudToBeGirl ProudToBeGirl 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 24

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    I hate being sick. Now for some reason, I've been sick (cold, flu) for past two weeks. It's so horrible. I've been few days at work and tried to live my life, but it just doesn't...
    ddaa0 ddaa0 31-35, M 1 Response Sep 7

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    This has been happening the past couple months. (Before anyone asks, I am not pregnant) No matter what I eat, whether its a small amount or a bigger amount, I feel sick. I use to...
    beautifulgoodbye beautifulgoodbye 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 11

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    I hate it, and i know this sounds crazy, but i hate missing school and staying in bed, almost more than i hate the actual symptoms. Dad told me this morning i wasn't allowed to go...
    bridgetdarcy998 bridgetdarcy998 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 20

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    I was lied to every day for four years. He lied about being married to another woman and it's only this last week he has come clean about it. I feel used and also like I've been...
    Mimimanxcat Mimimanxcat 31-35, F 9 Responses Aug 24

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    I'm done. With everything. I keep wishing for the day I'll die, but it just doesn't seem to happen. Probably has something to do with me, because I'm a failure who can't get...
    jennamarie210 jennamarie210 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 24

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    Dammit. Alternate plan for the day - stay home, in bed, not talking, and force down a bunch of stuff I wouldn't normal consume in concentrated doses. I'm not a baby when I am sick...
    piprimate piprimate 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 2

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    I'm contemplating on whether j should watch catching fire on netflix while laying here and being sick, or just lay here and be sick
    bluegirlie98 bluegirlie98 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    For years I've been told that I'm admired for being a strong woman. Why? Because after my first husband I moved on and was a single mother? Because I had to find my own self worth...
    Phoenixsa71 Phoenixsa71 41-45, F 3 Responses Aug 23

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    I get sick very easily. I can feel sick because I ate or drank too much, or because I am nervous about something, and I have a bad case of motionsickness. Also, when someone else...
    pukeboy pukeboy 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 27

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    I'm so sick of being blamed for everything that happens. apparently everyone else is perfect. So tired of the lies people say, the things people do, so sick and tired of me.
    stormyjones stormyjones 13-15 1 Response Sep 10

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    I really am a sissy when it comes to being sick... I have a horrible cold... And my wisdom teeth are trying to come in now (I'm 23. Wtf?!) I've slept most of the day. I just dread...
    LoveCures09 LoveCures09 22-25, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Ok so I'm new to this but here goes a bit about me I've always kept my head in the clouds a dreamer seeing the best not the worst in people full of life always happy and through...
    melabella1 melabella1 26-30, F Aug 29

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    I used to be an intermediate/advanced yogi. I stretched and practiced yoga about an hour a day. I could do oversplits, camel and pigeon backbends, bird of paradise. I also liked...
    Acebo Acebo 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 2