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I Am Sick of Defending Myself

My actions are just that MINE! I have reasons that are NOT needed to be explained to YOU. 23 People

    Wishing I Didnt Exist!!

    All my life I've always seemed to be the scapegoat. The root of everyone's problems. Hearing my brothers and sister constantly tell me how they had it so much harder and how I was spoiled. Or how I rarely ask for help but when i have everyone turns their backs on me. But like an...
    janinej84 janinej84 26-30 Jun 4, 2012

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    Not So Much Defending As Explaining

    But yeah, it gets tiring. I can't explain why I'm doing something I'll get seemingly no benefit from.. I don't know! I just do things that I like whether I can even do them right or not.. I'll go all the way to see them finished. For other things, I have absolutely no motivation...
    FreeFallWall FreeFallWall 22-25, M Oct 21, 2012

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    To My Father and Others Like Him!

     Alright I have a bone to pick with people like my father. Growing up I have been Christian and my father has been Atheist. I have never loved him any less for it. However he has always told me how stupid I am for what I believe and withheld his affection from me many times...
    InsanelyMe08 InsanelyMe08 18-21, F 13 Responses Sep 3, 2009

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    That's Awful!

    No one ever gets me or understands me. Then EVERYBODY ALWAYS STARTS TO PROJECT THEIR OWN ABSOLUTELY LIMITED THOUGHTS AND VIEWS, explaining ME WHAT I AM. Noone ever sees that THEY ALL ONLY SEE THEMSELVES IN ME - NOT ME.  I am sick of DEFENDING MYSELF - I AM NOT LIKE ANY OF...
    Thought1 Thought1 22-25 5 Responses Sep 2, 2009

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    What is the points of living? I love my boyfriend I really do but I just don't want to live anymore. I have different plans on how I'm going to do it. Guns,Pills like last time or...
    EternallyScreamingInSilence EternallyScreamingInSilence 13-15, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I'm sick of everyone and everything. I'm sick of smiling when all I want to do is cry, I'm sick of guys using me, I'm sick of my parents, I'm sick of my sister, I'm sick of my...
    XxDyingSoulxX XxDyingSoulxX 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Today I forced myself to puke again. I was out with some friends and we were hanging out at the skate park. After a couple of hours of skating I wanted to do something else. So I...
    pukeboy pukeboy 22-25, M Feb 6

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    My 2015 goal involves bettering myself in ever way. eat healthier, be more financially stable, be happier and more social
    betterthanbono betterthanbono 22-25, M 6 hrs ago

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    I really do! I was in the store the other day and just started to laugh uncontrollably! I honestly can't remember why but my GF just looked at me and of course that made me laugh...
    Foreverk22 Foreverk22 22-25, F 5 hrs ago

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    I'm sick of being single. It gets tiring, having nobody to relate to, and only being able to talk about shallow things. I get lonely at times, mostly at night. Sex is a relatively...
    Unbeholden Unbeholden 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 19

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    Is it like normal to bully myself? Idk. I tend to insult me, and think the worst of me... I guess it's because I'd rather listen to this stuff from me, instead of from someone else...
    MissPeruvian MissPeruvian 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 19

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    Sick and tired of the system.. Trying to be better yet making it more worst.... That feeling that you really wanted to explode **** d*mn sh*t..... I want to cry and hide myself in...
    ellesaratoubi ellesaratoubi 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    Please please, I don't wanna live anymore. Today was a terrible day, and I wish I could just delete everything from my memory that happened (actually not only today, but this whole...
    ABACDEE ABACDEE 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 5

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    To be completely honest I truly hate myself. Just the way I look and act make's me absolutely sick to my stomach. I have no confidence in the way I look, I feel as though everyone...
    CarsonKid14 CarsonKid14 13-15, M 6 Responses Feb 22

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    Lies after lies and you think i'll trust you really? After all you've done. Hell no. Stop playing mind games. I'm sick of your dirty lies. Everything you do and everything that...
    nitsers nitsers 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 10

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    at first it seemed alright. just blurred faces laughing, smoke in the air a strange feeling in my gut. i observed everything in grand detail and at the same time i was lost with...
    UnusualAngel UnusualAngel 18-21, F Feb 14

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    1.im writing this list to distract myself from how ****** I feel right now 2. I live in newzealand 3. I am female 4. I am 32 and think I'm old. 5. I want to lose weight. Heaps of...
    Bonnienz Bonnienz 31-35, F 3 Responses Feb 15

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    When you said apathetic, it struck me in many ways. The most apparent intent behind that was the team switch, from offense to neutral. Now it's only me left fighting, which is a...
    InsaneDane InsaneDane 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 22

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    I hate being sick My little sister got me and my mother sick And we are both suffering Meh I hate being sick
    Aroura666 Aroura666 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 10

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    I hate trying to get through every day, just to wake up and feel the same way. I'm only here for my kids and wife. I always say it could be worse and soon after it actually is...
    IWasHereOnce IWasHereOnce 41-45, M 2 Responses Feb 12

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    I got the sickness. THA SPIRITUAL SICKNESS. Ahahaha. But aside from that I got a kinda head sickness too, y'know? I've felt an episode coming on. Too bad I can't just step away...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F Feb 23

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    Simply put if h font get it then you'll never get it cuz I am the easiest person to get to know and I put myself out there already to keep from being rejected later do its not me...
    dying4adoover dying4adoover 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 17

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    I posted an experience on here a while back, it was about how much my parents have decided to try control my life and have resulted in ruining it, and basically this is the sequel...
    moonscapemonoxide moonscapemonoxide 18-21, F Feb 25

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    That's it. I'm no longer opening up to anyone. Nothing good ever comes of it. I'm sick of being thought of as weak and pathetic by everyone with whom I'm stupid enough to tell the...
    kaleidoscopic21 kaleidoscopic21 13-15, F 7 Responses a week ago

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    i hate myself sometimes , i hate being hurt by other people. I'm sick of falling for people and they rejecting me. I want someone to love me and care for me. I want to be happy
    justa333 justa333 18-21, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    Quite honestly I'm sick of being single and I'm sick of being treated horribly in relationships. It's lonely and tiring. I just want to love someone.
    userunknown404 userunknown404 16-17, F 4 Responses Feb 9

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    I have a head cold and had to call of work i hate being sick why does sickness have to exist 😆
    chuckzares chuckzares 26-30, M Feb 11

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    I have been sick, and getting worse, for so many years. I had many doctors and "loved ones" tell me that it was in my head, that I'm just lazy and that there was nothing wrong with...
    Sarahberrycakes Sarahberrycakes 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 22

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    I haven't eaten since breakfast but all of a sudden I feel sick to my stomach like really sick.... Work will not be fun
    pygmypuff pygmypuff 18-21, F a week ago

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    my son got me sick!!! NOOOO:( haven't gotten sick in years!!!
    aclouse aclouse 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I feel like I've been sick more times than I've actually been living on earth which will be 26 years in 2 months. What are some ways to boost my immune system? I'm thinking about...
    alostone alostone 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    Seriously! Never was sick with my son not once this time around ugh I can't even brush my teeth without feeling like I'm going to be sick blah!
    Ana8939 Ana8939 22-25, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I have a cold.. I hate being congested. Sigh, just want this sickness to go away!! Sickness be gone!
    redbetblue2 redbetblue2 16-17, M 19 hrs ago

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    You know you're going to have a great day when it starts with throwing up. Especially when it happens about 20-30 minutes after I took my anxiety meds - so now I'm not even sure if...
    LostandFading LostandFading 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 6

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    I'm sick of it! I don't want to be broken anymore!
    classAteam classAteam 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 8

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    I don't even know who I am anymore. I feel like I'm drowning in a sea of what everyone wants me to be. I'm sick of it.
    DayDreamingDragon DayDreamingDragon 18-21, F Feb 9

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    ImNotRice ImNotRice 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 11

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    EVANESCENCE LYRICS"My Immortal"I'm so tired of being hereSuppressed by all my childish fearsAnd if you have to leaveI wish that you would just leave'Cause your presence still...
    lunadelobos lunadelobos 41-45 1 Response Feb 11

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