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I Am Sick of Defending Myself

My actions are just that MINE! I have reasons that are NOT needed to be explained to YOU. 24 People

    Wishing I Didnt Exist!!

    All my life I've always seemed to be the scapegoat. The root of everyone's problems. Hearing my brothers and sister constantly tell me how they had it so much harder and how I was spoiled. Or how I rarely ask for help but when i have everyone turns their backs on me. But like an...
    janinej84 janinej84 26-30 Jun 4, 2012

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    That's Awful!

    No one ever gets me or understands me. Then EVERYBODY ALWAYS STARTS TO PROJECT THEIR OWN ABSOLUTELY LIMITED THOUGHTS AND VIEWS, explaining ME WHAT I AM. Noone ever sees that THEY ALL ONLY SEE THEMSELVES IN ME - NOT ME.  I am sick of DEFENDING MYSELF - I AM NOT LIKE ANY OF...
    Thought1 Thought1 22-25 5 Responses Sep 2, 2009

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    To My Father and Others Like Him!

     Alright I have a bone to pick with people like my father. Growing up I have been Christian and my father has been Atheist. I have never loved him any less for it. However he has always told me how stupid I am for what I believe and withheld his affection from me many times...
    InsanelyMe08 InsanelyMe08 18-21, F 13 Responses Sep 3, 2009

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    Not So Much Defending As Explaining

    But yeah, it gets tiring. I can't explain why I'm doing something I'll get seemingly no benefit from.. I don't know! I just do things that I like whether I can even do them right or not.. I'll go all the way to see them finished. For other things, I have absolutely no motivation...
    FreeFallWall FreeFallWall 22-25, M Oct 21, 2012

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    SICK OF THE HELL AND LIFE AND THIS PAIN
    lovelinessbathes lovelinessbathes 31-35, M 3 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    can't wait for the week to be over. I was so we excited for this week. I was going back to school. I was finally going to get the certification that I was waiting for. I was going...
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    Live without pretending, love without depending, listen without defending, speak without offending.
    Kinggalxy Kinggalxy 18-21, M Jan 5

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    Whenever I post a picture of myself on here (a few times) I get comments and messages like "You're Beautiful." "You're pretty" stuff like that. I'm not here to fish for compliments...
    vaashapenin vaashapenin 16-17, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    I don't really feel emotional pain anymore, I don't think. when something hurts I feel this wave of.. I'm not sure.. grief? maybe torment? it ripples across me. I get chills and it...
    CrimMonroe CrimMonroe 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 13

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    I've always had weight issues and struggled with wanting to be thinner. In Mid October of 2014 I was 5'5 138 pounds. I was prescribed adderall for add, I began to see I didn't eat...
    mjglynn mjglynn 13-15, F Jan 6

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    Well, sick is a strong word. I just dislike it. Don't assume. PLEASE. If you can't avoid it, try assuming the positive for a change. Up until a couple of years ago I sat in my smug...
    justNIK justNIK 41-45, F 1 day ago

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    I am so tired of having to deal with all the backstabbing and lying my sons father throws at me. I'm just exhausted from being so emotional. We have been through a lot together...
    britlx3 britlx3 18-21, F Jan 4

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    This is literally what I've been saying to myself for a while. I didn't know this was an experience. But, this accurately describes me. Sleep is so peaceful, because when I'm...
    RhinosaurusRex RhinosaurusRex 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 13

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    I'm sick of always messing things up when everything seems to be going good. I'm sick of having to be the one that lets his loved ones down. I'm sick of seeing my friends get...
    Johnnyky Johnnyky 18-21 Jan 11

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    My life went on, every difficulty I faced, I tried to prove to be stronger. On the outside, I looked happy and my life seemed easy going to others. On the inside, I was struggling...
    mewmy mewmy 26-30, F Jan 19

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    I never thought our family would be faced with this. Worst of all I am mad at myself for being so resentful. I hate the fact he is sick. I hate the loneliness that comes with it...
    Jewel1201 Jewel1201 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 20

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    I'm tired all the time. It's dragging me down now and I'm fed up with it. I also get gas and feel genuinely ill a lot too. It feels as if the toxicity is moving down over a few...
    cloudsoflife cloudsoflife 26-30, M 3 Responses Jan 18

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    I was born normal, just like every one else. When i was about 11ish I began to notice I different. Most kids around my age like hanging out, talk about sports tv shows, the works...
    blacknight2345 blacknight2345 18-21, M 3 days ago

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    there comes a time you have to admit you are wrong. That time came for me recently. As far as I can tell, I screwed up. Royally. I said things that I cannot take back. Did things...
    AceWarbringer AceWarbringer 31-35, M 14 hrs ago

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    I know that my sense of humor is odd at times so I keep a lot of comments to myself. But if people could hear what is rolling around in my brain they would either laugh with me or...
    jfar123 jfar123 41-45, M 2 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    i feel sick i shouldnt have done what i did its not even been a day and i miss her im so stupid and worthless even just if shed talk to me again im so stupid and pathetic ive...
    greatbritain1707 greatbritain1707 16-17, M Jan 2

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    A while back someone asked me a question when I responded on a sexless marriage forum. I never answered the question, but thought about it for quite some time now. They wanted to...
    sundancesoul sundancesoul 46-50, F 2 Responses Jan 3

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    Screaming at the window Watch me die another day Hopeless situation endless price I have to pay Sanity now it's beyond me there's no choice Diary of a madman Walk the line again...
    joophomme joophomme 41-45 2 days ago

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    I see myself as average, or maybe less. But hear different things for other people. Compliments are very hard for me because I tend to believe they are some form of a sick joke...
    MsBree01 MsBree01 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 29, 2014

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    I feel like I make bad choices on purpose just to punish myself. I put myself in situations that I know will make me miserable. It's like I'm my own slave, being punished for not...
    BoundlessPancake BoundlessPancake 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 3

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    I'm Bi and I've known since grade 4...and now I'm in yr 11 and in yr 8 i told my bff (well at least she was before hand) that i am bi and she promised to not tell anyone but of...
    Ashes27 Ashes27 13-15, F Jan 6

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    This happens all the time. If I don't want to or want to do something, why do people always have to question it? If I want to go watch a movie with the little friends I have, why...
    maddie91101 maddie91101 13-15, F Jan 9

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    I have a habit of starving myself, it's like I can't eat until my hands turn purple, or I don't eat until I feel sick. Other girls my age can just eat and eat, I could do that also...
    jeyhere jeyhere 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 10

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    I just need to vent. I am feeling frustrated and stressed out. I'm trying not to be, but I don't really know if it's working. My family has had it so incredibly rough, we just can...
    Aimee17 Aimee17 41-45, F 45 Responses Jan 13

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    I wrote a post in the group on facebook where people personally know me offending them because there is a virus going around and they do not shower so i wrote a very offensive post...
    wanderingbubble wanderingbubble 18-21, F Jan 15

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    I'm sick of it all. I'm sick of this and having to act perfect so ppl won't get hurt. I just wanna cry till I die or something. I am so sick of ppl that I love ding. I am not...
    Silentsuffer Silentsuffer 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 16

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    Actually, I love being sick..but not before presenting project on Thursday... help..help.. I am sick. I like 2million attentions when I am sick lol. Oh dear..poor me
    SwanLake78 SwanLake78 36-40, F 3 Responses Jan 19

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    I am one of those people who never talks about there problems. I watch so many people complain about the stupidest things when I'm hiding the lost terrible things to myself. I've...
    hailey29223 hailey29223 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 20

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    i'm still sick.so i cut my hair myself. it's refreshing!
    juryandrews juryandrews 31-35, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I never get sick.My husband and my three children are sick every year.I never get anything.I don't understand why.
    Amethystgem98 Amethystgem98 36-40, F 1 Response Dec 29, 2014

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    I'm a sick sick person, listening to music and fantasizing about dark stuff you'd see in horror or thriller movies
    styxc styxc 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 1

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    I absolutely dislike being sick!! But I haven't been sick in over a year now. I've finally managed to boost my immune system and now, it's easier for me to keep viruses away. :D...
    ShakenButNotBroken ShakenButNotBroken 18-21, F Jan 1

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    I feel like NO ONE gets it, There are so many of us dealing with health issues and since no two people are the same no two issues are the same.... Sure they can be dealing with the...
    LoveWhitz LoveWhitz 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    I live for other people. They run my life. My yes no choices decisions what how when who why are all decided by them. My cans. My cants. I'm sick of it. I do something I want. Wow...
    anisha07969 anisha07969 18-21, F Jan 4

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    Mehta couldn't I have been one of those lucky girls that doesn't experience morning sickness? I feel sorry for my partner at the moment...as when I get morning sickness I say "it's...
    moonlighteclipse moonlighteclipse 16-17, F Jan 8

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    Was so sick for the past 3 month just got out of hospital and the worst thing is that no one came to see me when I was sick felt and still feel so unlove but life must go on and I...
    justme414 justme414 26-30, M 1 Response Jan 8

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    Bloody morning sickness! When will it end?! In thrilled that I'm going to be a mum but the sickness is really tiring me out
    JenniBob JenniBob 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 9

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    Its funny how being sick can make even the manliest man sound like a six year old girl having a temper tantrum. or it could just be me when I'm sick.
    bw32 bw32 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 11