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I Am Sick of Defending Myself

My actions are just that MINE! I have reasons that are NOT needed to be explained to YOU. 23 People

    To My Father and Others Like Him!

     Alright I have a bone to pick with people like my father. Growing up I have been Christian and my father has been Atheist. I have never loved him any less for it. However he has always told me how stupid I am for what I believe and withheld his affection from me many times...
    InsanelyMe08 InsanelyMe08 18-21, F 13 Responses Sep 3, 2009

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    Wishing I Didnt Exist!!

    All my life I've always seemed to be the scapegoat. The root of everyone's problems. Hearing my brothers and sister constantly tell me how they had it so much harder and how I was spoiled. Or how I rarely ask for help but when i have everyone turns their backs on me. But like an...
    janinej84 janinej84 26-30 Jun 4, 2012

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    That's Awful!

    No one ever gets me or understands me. Then EVERYBODY ALWAYS STARTS TO PROJECT THEIR OWN ABSOLUTELY LIMITED THOUGHTS AND VIEWS, explaining ME WHAT I AM. Noone ever sees that THEY ALL ONLY SEE THEMSELVES IN ME - NOT ME.  I am sick of DEFENDING MYSELF - I AM NOT LIKE ANY OF...
    Thought1 Thought1 22-25 5 Responses Sep 2, 2009

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    Not So Much Defending As Explaining

    But yeah, it gets tiring. I can't explain why I'm doing something I'll get seemingly no benefit from.. I don't know! I just do things that I like whether I can even do them right or not.. I'll go all the way to see them finished. For other things, I have absolutely no motivation...
    FreeFallWall FreeFallWall 22-25, M Oct 21, 2012

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