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I Am Sick of Defending Myself

My actions are just that MINE! I have reasons that are NOT needed to be explained to YOU. 23 People

    Wishing I Didnt Exist!!

    All my life I've always seemed to be the scapegoat. The root of everyone's problems. Hearing my brothers and sister constantly tell me how they had it so much harder and how I was spoiled. Or how I rarely ask for help but when i have everyone turns their backs on me. But like an...
    janinej84 janinej84 26-30 Jun 4, 2012

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    Not So Much Defending As Explaining

    But yeah, it gets tiring. I can't explain why I'm doing something I'll get seemingly no benefit from.. I don't know! I just do things that I like whether I can even do them right or not.. I'll go all the way to see them finished. For other things, I have absolutely no motivation...
    FreeFallWall FreeFallWall 22-25, M Oct 21, 2012

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    To My Father and Others Like Him!

     Alright I have a bone to pick with people like my father. Growing up I have been Christian and my father has been Atheist. I have never loved him any less for it. However he has always told me how stupid I am for what I believe and withheld his affection from me many times...
    InsanelyMe08 InsanelyMe08 18-21, F 13 Responses Sep 3, 2009

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    That's Awful!

    No one ever gets me or understands me. Then EVERYBODY ALWAYS STARTS TO PROJECT THEIR OWN ABSOLUTELY LIMITED THOUGHTS AND VIEWS, explaining ME WHAT I AM. Noone ever sees that THEY ALL ONLY SEE THEMSELVES IN ME - NOT ME.  I am sick of DEFENDING MYSELF - I AM NOT LIKE ANY OF...
    Thought1 Thought1 22-25 5 Responses Sep 2, 2009

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    (This post applies to everything except my girlfriend) I'm just ******* sick of it... I'm sick of all the lies that I tell people and they tell me... I'm sick of the same routine...
    AnonymousSigh AnonymousSigh 18-21, M Dec 2

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    I'm tired of being surrounded by unhappy people. I'm tired of being the only good thing in everyone's life. Or the only thing that "keeps them going". I'm tired of making stability...
    absolutionist absolutionist 22-25, F 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    I have a flu :( I wanted this weekend to be great but now I'm sick e.e
    HappyWife16 HappyWife16 18-21, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    I'm tired of always feeling sick or being in pain. I feel like crying, but all that does is give me a headache to go along with everything else... I'm done.
    Christinamarie3095 Christinamarie3095 41-45, T 9 hrs ago

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    It's not what this post is about...this post is about getting my feelings out there... My life is so awful, my past was so horrific...I feel so emotionally fcked. You have no idea...
    Levi1 Levi1 13-15, M 2 Responses Dec 7

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    The most controversial thing in my journey of personal development has been determining when to be myself and when to improve. Does trying to improve and change how I am compromise...
    HigherLife HigherLife 18-21, M 4 hrs ago

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    I have diabetes, I have a liver disease that is misunderstood for an STD, I have bi polar, I have anxiety and I have agoraphobia. And recently I SEE why I'm afraid of being in...
    minnieadams minnieadams 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 12

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    I'm a flawed person....inside and out . I guess we all are . For me....I spent my entire life trying to be prefect....trying to look perfect....still I was told I'm just not good...
    Sjenka Sjenka 36-40, F 1 day ago

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    I am not a virgin, I have also been married before and have unfortunately had many experiences of sex without marriage. I really enjoy sex, however, I have always believed sex...
    jrsybelle jrsybelle 26-30, F 11 hrs ago

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    I think it's pretty much a habit of mine to talk to myself lol! Especially when I'm bored or when I'm alone or feel lonely,I'll just look at the people around and talk to myself as...
    yimmyyys yimmyyys 16-17, F 3 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    The holiday season, Thanksgiving in particular, is not an easy time for me. I struggle at this time each year because I lost my Grandfather on Thanksgiving morning some years back...
    Indigolesbian70 Indigolesbian70 41-45, F Nov 26

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    I have become everything I hated. I deserve to be lonely. I deserve nothing. I hurt innocent people. I have lied so badly that it would sicken my friends. It sickens me. To put me...
    ChangingFaces5 ChangingFaces5 22-25 3 Responses Nov 28

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    VillaVuka is BIG LIAR!!! He say "Most people get arrested for the first time in their teens for dumb things like Underage Possesions. I was arrested for the first time aged...
    Bergenbabe Bergenbabe 36-40, F Dec 12

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    As I began to love myself I found that anguish and emotional suffering are only warning signs that I was living against my own truth. Today, I know, this is “AUTHENTICITY”. As...
    nivanvc nivanvc 36-40, M 1 Response Dec 9

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    I hate university. I'm a freshman in my first semester here and deep down, I feel quite uncomfortable about things here. It's been about 2 months since I started uni and I feel sad...
    Saraherman Saraherman 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 26

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    Unfortunately I tend to get sick a lot more than most people because I have a weakened immune system. This means that when a virus is spreading I am much more likely to catch it...
    uglygirl13 uglygirl13 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 5

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    I shouldnt but i do.I tell myself I am ugly and fat and noone can love me because of my weight.
    brandye brandye 22-25, F 21 hrs ago

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    I would like to say thank you, to all of you, for sharing your thougts with me and letting me to see you. Thank you EP for allowing me to express myself in a written word and...
    MyLady9 MyLady9 46-50, F 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    I'd really like to make some changes in my life and improve myself, like leaving EP for starters but there are some things that wouldn't let me leave EP. But I will be a better...
    LoneDovahKiin LoneDovahKiin 22-25, M 2 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    don?t need to explain myself, I know I?m right.
    weirdboyz weirdboyz 18-21, M 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    OMG!!! I would love to cut myself tonight but im having to sleep on the sofa and look after my mum because she had an operation today xxx
    james3950 james3950 13-15, M 4 hrs ago

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    I can't post anything anywhere anymore without some troll either personally attacking me or trying to get whatever I posted taken down. And I'm sick of it. They will even claim...
    SadDrama SadDrama 41-45, F 1 Response Nov 21

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    How bout we all stop judging each other based on things we don't understand. I received a message from someone who made a comment along the lines of "so you're insecure, you cut...
    katie5929 katie5929 22-25, F 10 Responses Nov 23

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    I am sick and tired of people saying that "abortion is murder". And because of that, I am not going to read and comment in groups where people believe that it is murder. That...
    CreoleItalianwoman CreoleItalianwoman 31-35, F 13 Responses Nov 30

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    A letter- by A.Leek I decided that it's about time to just focus on me. To love myself unconditionally. I've not only neglected but I have been so abusive to myself. I have put...
    alxvii alxvii 18-21, F Dec 1

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    Yo. So yeah, I do cut myself. Been cutting for two years now. Call me "emo", sick, whatever you like. It's a release that I'm thankful for, but not so much anymore now that my...
    MakaWolf MakaWolf 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 4

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    Very rarely I ever get sick, but today I don't know what happen, this morning i felt just fine, i went to work like normal and i felt fine, but my stomach started acting up a...
    jennymomof3 jennymomof3 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 8

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    I don't know where to start this off, but I'll just first say that I can't do anything remarkable. I'm not special. I'm not good at anything. I'm just ordinary. I try so hard to...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    When I was about two month old I got sick with pneumonia I almost died but they had to hook me up to a machine called a nebulizer Because of that my lungs are damaged I have a...
    natsufairy12 natsufairy12 13-15, M Nov 24

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    I'm sick of being a pushover. I'm always giving in. But I'm also denying myself. For example, deep down I will be against doing something. I'm pressured (sometimes quite...
    gottabebettertoo gottabebettertoo 31-35, F Nov 25

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    What do I do? I'm very lost with my life and I'm used to hiding my emotions so I'm not sure what I'm feeling right now. Basically a guy in my class is teasing me in almost an...
    Daliak Daliak 16-17, F Nov 25

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    okay. the title is simply stupid and not creative at all, but the funny thing is i kinda feel that way. I'm sick. I'm tired. and it makes me feel sick and tired. i wish i don't...
    alifia alifia 18-21, F Nov 26

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    I hate how society thinks that you HAVE to do this and you HAVE to do that.. No... I don't have to do crap.. and one of those things I don't have to do , is explain myself...
    MorbidPeaches MorbidPeaches 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 27

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    I really hate having to explain myself over and over. This is to all u older horny a** men. Yeah I said I like older guys but I don't mean in a sexual way or I wanna be with u in a...
    xAquariusx xAquariusx 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 28

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    Yep, i cut myself again today... Thanksgiving was the first time i cut in a while so it felt good to do it again. Its like one you get addicted to cutting, you build a tolerance...
    Nick54 Nick54 18-21, M Nov 28

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    Guilt- a feeling that eats you alive. Depression- I've trapped myself in my own mind. Anxiety- it's like being in a cage that's unlocked. There's so many more and I have escaped...
    XbeyonceX XbeyonceX 13-15, F Dec 5

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    My mind is constantly at war with itself. The thoughts that come to me... Always putting myself down. I'm not sure if there's any other way to explain it besides self mental abuse...
    omnomchelsea omnomchelsea 18-21, F Dec 11

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    Hey there. There is no such thing somebody can fix you. You gotta fix yourself! Is all in you! In your mind! You gotta learn to see your pain and understand it. And try to not let...
    LovelyLilly13 LovelyLilly13 22-25, F 6 days ago

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    I feel like I have this wall built up to protect myself from me. Is that even possible i think? I guess it is because i have done it for 15 years now and I finally realized it. Can...
    ghaupt713 ghaupt713 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I'm sick. Went to bed and woke of full blown sick. How did this happen???? It LITERALLY happened overnight. Sad. ;_;
    pinkypie5 pinkypie5 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 21

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    Ugh....sick again X( tomorrow's thanksgiving and I'm sick as a dog! I know it won't go away for tomorrow *sigh* all that good food ;-;
    TransmutedHeart TransmutedHeart 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 26

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    Ok people of the internet world. I am sick of certain types of people...PERVS! God **** leave me the **** alone! If you are over 21 I don't even want a single message from you! I...
    AleaAndLexi AleaAndLexi 13-15, F 4 Responses Dec 6