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I Am Sick of Defending Myself

My actions are just that MINE! I have reasons that are NOT needed to be explained to YOU. 24 People

    To My Father and Others Like Him!

     Alright I have a bone to pick with people like my father. Growing up I have been Christian and my father has been Atheist. I have never loved him any less for it. However he has always told me how stupid I am for what I believe and withheld his affection from me many times...
    InsanelyMe08 InsanelyMe08 22-25, F 13 Responses Sep 3, 2009

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    Wishing I Didnt Exist!!

    All my life I've always seemed to be the scapegoat. The root of everyone's problems. Hearing my brothers and sister constantly tell me how they had it so much harder and how I was spoiled. Or how I rarely ask for help but when i have everyone turns their backs on me. But like an...
    janinej84 janinej84 26-30 Jun 4, 2012

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    That's Awful!

    No one ever gets me or understands me. Then EVERYBODY ALWAYS STARTS TO PROJECT THEIR OWN ABSOLUTELY LIMITED THOUGHTS AND VIEWS, explaining ME WHAT I AM. Noone ever sees that THEY ALL ONLY SEE THEMSELVES IN ME - NOT ME.  I am sick of DEFENDING MYSELF - I AM NOT LIKE ANY OF...
    Thought1 Thought1 22-25 5 Responses Sep 2, 2009

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    Not So Much Defending As Explaining

    But yeah, it gets tiring. I can't explain why I'm doing something I'll get seemingly no benefit from.. I don't know! I just do things that I like whether I can even do them right or not.. I'll go all the way to see them finished. For other things, I have absolutely no motivation...
    FreeFallWall FreeFallWall 22-25, M Oct 21, 2012

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    I don't really know why I'm still cutting. I haven't been neither happy nor sad lately. I think I just really like seeing my blood. I wish I wasn't such a sick person and that I...
    crystal234 crystal234 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    so I've been here in this annoying and demonic place my whole life I grew up harnessing negativity until it molded me as a worst person and actually it change my mental state...
    aereuz2 aereuz2 16-17, M 3 days ago

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    so on Wednesday I started feeling really sick so I went to bed early still felt awful the next day just ploughed on to the nursery. got home felt worse and again went to bed early...
    Ridingtonewyork Ridingtonewyork 18-21, F 5 Responses 5 days ago

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    My new husband was a single child and lived a sheltered life. We have only been married a few weeks now, and since he comes from a religious family, we lived strictly apart until...
    bakeddolores bakeddolores 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    My new husband was a single child and lived a sheltered life. We have only been married a few weeks now, and since he comes from a religious family, we lived strictly apart until...
    bakeddolores bakeddolores 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 4

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    Kendall here again, I know I post quite often on my mom's account, but she's a very busy person and I have a lot of time so I thought I'd help her out and keep people up to date on...
    Richardson444 Richardson444 56-60, F Feb 4

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    I've had a real epiphany over this last week. The last two years have been really terrible and I've been wallowing and drifting following a relationship breakdown. This affected me...
    Burnley123 Burnley123 31-35, M 8 Responses Feb 4

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    I just finally got over mono a few days ago. And now, I'm sick again. A cold. But still sucks. And it's multiplied by the flare I'm having due to weather... And I just want to...
    LolitaAngie LolitaAngie 13-15, F Feb 3

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    I went to school this morning but I was only there for about two hours because I got really sick at around 10 this morning and had to run to the restroom to throw up :( I came home...
    samantha468 samantha468 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 2

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    That's why im so sick of myself. :) Today, i will figure out if i pass or fail my job application. I assumed that i already failed, given that they didn't anymore contact me for...
    blitzkrieg7 blitzkrieg7 22-25, F Feb 2

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    I have been sick, really sick. It started before Christmas with cellulitis in the sinus cavity. Then my upper molar abscessed into the already infected sinus. It was one thing...
    akindheart akindheart 56-60, F 31 Responses Feb 2

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    my dad and I fell out abt 8 mo ago. I know he is not well and i keep avoiding calling him. He always has a way of making me feel crap about myself and everything has a hidden...
    likityspliff likityspliff 41-45, F 1 Response Feb 2

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    I am a recovering male anorexic who has been in outpatient therapy since March of last year. Back in June, I wasn't improving at all, and was starting to get very sick. It got to...
    Caridinals21 Caridinals21 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 1

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    hi i feel like i'm stupid for being here but i just need to post this somewhere and hopefully amidst the infinite void that is the internet someone will tell me that everything...
    lostanonymous lostanonymous 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 1

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    so i decided to remove certain friends from my life.. It hurts atm because I almost feel bad but... I'm not a joke just to be laughed at... ultimately I feel if I let myself be a...
    Swordofthesamurai Swordofthesamurai 22-25, M Feb 1

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    That's funny, but I have always felt that I look better when I am sick! Or to put it better; I like my look better when I am sick. Not sure what it is... maybe it is because my...
    MissGaga MissGaga 22-25, F Jan 31

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    " If you could say anything to someone in particular without fear of consequence or impact , what would it be ?".. I would tell him I've doubted him several times , I have to...
    Angelofthesilence Angelofthesilence 31-35, F Jan 30

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    being sick really sux!!!! when I am sick I have to take that nasty tasting medicine, or go to the doctors. and that means I get a shot in my bum. I hate it!!!!
    JTurner2002 JTurner2002 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 29

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    Because of the ignorant and selfish people I'm going crazy. I can't stand of it. I mean who the **** do you think you are? you are a human like me, you are not more than who I am...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 29

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    Im a middle aged woman, all alone. I have poor health and a horrible home with ignorant neighbours; and can't afford to move. I suffer with a variety of severe health issues...
    50cabbages 50cabbages 46-50 1 Response Jan 29

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    This month has been a tough month for me. On the first week on January I was very sick and wasn't able to work. As the month went by, I was continuously sick at random periods...
    Faithtwin Faithtwin 22-25, M Jan 29

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    Just sick and tired of being sick and tired... mental illness is no joke
    MindConscious MindConscious 22-25, M Jan 28

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    hmm last time I checked... I was last treated in fifth grade. never been sick again I even stopped going for check ups in 8th grade though everyone in my family does. I just say...
    dollarsigns dollarsigns 16-17, M Jan 28

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    hate being sick been sick for 4 days now so cranky just want to get better
    Rebecca1402 Rebecca1402 13-15, F 4 Responses Jan 27

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    I'm sick, but it didn't stop me from posting a new story on my blog. Check it out! It's called **Why having Sex when You're Sick is a Good Idea** :) http://kinkykatelyn.com/2016...
    KinkyKatelyn KinkyKatelyn 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 27

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    I had to take a sick day from school today. not fun
    cameron1998 cameron1998 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 25

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    Do you ever get that feeling that you want to get away from yourself ? I'm so sick of my own bs that I just want to walk away and be done...
    Alphabettown Alphabettown 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 25

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