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I Am Sick Of Feeling Like I Have To Censor Myself

Use this group to write anything that you feel you need to get out. 86 People

    Pluralistic / Syncretistic / Dualistic Perspectives Ignorantly Central To Cultural Perspective

    What I'm sick of is a cultural perspective that promotes "tolerance" rhetoric as the highest obtainable ideal in a culture who is unwilling to accept anything outside of its own pre-conceived notion as to what that actually means. Too often today the peddlers of "tolerance...
    DjRaven363 DjRaven363 31-35 Jul 15, 2013

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    I Was Just Having This Conversation With Someone....

    I was talking to a friend about something that pissed me off at work.  She listened for a bit and then told me I was too "draining" to talk to.    Well, I was hurt and annoyed.  If you can't talk to your friends, what is the difference between a friend and a...
    patchworkofmistakes patchworkofmistakes 26-30, F 8 Responses Feb 6, 2010

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    I'll Keep...

    ... my mouth shut. I'll keep my opinions to myself. I'll keep my desires a secret. I'll keep myself hidden out of view. I'll keep myself to myself as it obviously offends you so much. NO MORE!!!!
    Invisible75 Invisible75 36-40, M 1 Response Sep 6, 2012

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    i feel like i always have to censor myself because Im going to worry about hurting others. or scare them about what I have to say...I don't want to do that. I just want to get the pain out, and say how I really feel, but I don't want to hurt anyone, or censor anyone, but i...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 17, 2009

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    You Can Talk To Your Grandparents All You Want, But Don't Mention This...

    My parents are part of the 50% percent of society that ends up getting divorced, not really a big deal. What I do find to be immensely frustrating, is that I have to temper what I say to one side of my family, while I can be completely honest, open, and myself with the other side...
    InAbsentia InAbsentia 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 7, 2011

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    I Hate It...

    I hate that I have to cenor myself. I hate that I can't trully write what I feel, and what I am thinking, because there is a chacne that "he" will read it, and that will just mnake things worse fro me in the long run. I hate that Ep is kinda no longer a place where I can come...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jul 14, 2010

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    Sick Of Censoring Myself Around Friends

    The great thing about this site is that I only know one person who knows me that has a profile & he never uses it. This is pretty much a place where I can get something off my chest without the fear someone who knows me will see it & I’ll **** them off. While there are many...
    FaolanHart FaolanHart 22-25, T Dec 2, 2013

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    Censor

    When you’re saying something people do not want to hear,they try to knock your confidence, controlling you with fear.Because we are not robots, and we care what people think,we let them into our heads, and that makes our spirit sink.It doesn’t take an awful lot to...
    emmasharn emmasharn 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 28, 2010

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    Another one! I had myself instant noodles on the stove. The bowl I had put the boiling water and noodles and flavouring in wasn't very big and it was about 70-80% with boiling...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 Oct 29

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    I love this I like to use multiple colors and designs on my mouth too
    MaxwellMoonHoof MaxwellMoonHoof 18-21, M Nov 6

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    Does anyone else like being tied with duct tape also when being gagged I think sliver gagged silence is amazing
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    I just want to disappear and not talk to anyone... no one wants to talk anyway... this week and weekend has just sucked. I'm literally losing the one person that means the most to...
    imjusttrying imjusttrying 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 15

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    Does anyone feel like they have to shut up sometimes and this helps
    MaxwellMoonHoof MaxwellMoonHoof 18-21, M Nov 15

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    0happycamper 0happycamper 22-25, F a week ago

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    This sucks! No matter what I end up being plan b or 2 choice! What kills me most is the guy doesn't get it. He says I'm jealous and want more then what we have and he wants. I'm a...
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    ILoveMyKiwiPuppy ILoveMyKiwiPuppy 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I also have a voice recorder where I make a radio station. I'm also thinking of making a movie using sound effects. all audio no visual. for that I'd use my cellphone.
    roxrockman roxrockman 26-30, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I have just gotten out of my self harm bout. I'm 16 and planning on joining the U.S. Army. Now I know that self harm scars are a BIG disqualifier but I am determined to reach my...
    Armyhopeful Armyhopeful 16-17, M Nov 13

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    It's sad to me how many people you see running to the bars for satisfaction or to find something... One day I went in to make my own discovery about all this commotion and found...
    Incubusbunny Incubusbunny 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 2

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    sometimes expectation can lead to disappointment...
    LoveHadassah LoveHadassah 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 12

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    all I do is **** things up. I'm useless. nothing seems to change how I feel anymore, maybe I should just go off and end it,haha haha haha yea...right I couldn't I'm too much of a...
    Picokill Picokill 18-21, M 5 days ago

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    I don't want to fake my emotions everyday around other people. It's no better than lying to others as well as to yourself. I found that the hard way.
    NotKool NotKool 16-17, M Nov 5

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    Ok, so I always walk around the house when no one is home with duct tape on my mouth. Sometimes ill get something simple, and try to make it hard to escape from the closet gagged...
    Guythatdoesstuff1 Guythatdoesstuff1 36-40, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Many a time! The worst was when I was at the supermarket once. Some old people were in the way of the heated chicken (and other foods in there) rack area. They were choosing...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 1 Response Oct 29

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    Another incident. I had put eggs on to boil on the stove. I was wondering why the eggs weren't boiling. Stupidly put my hand on the ELEMENT. Yes my full f*cking hand! (Think my...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 2 Responses Oct 29

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    you know that moment when things are so bad and ****** up there is absolutely nothing you can do except laugh...I am that laughter.
    TheGreatDisappointment TheGreatDisappointment 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 6

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    Flashed my boobz for a group of guys in a stag party
    Bev1978 Bev1978 36-40, F 5 Responses Nov 11

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    I  did it again. :(. Why am I so useless?
    PercyJacksonisAWESOME PercyJacksonisAWESOME 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 17

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    I was in class today and this kid grabbed my hand to do something and it touched my cuts but he didn't realize and he was wondering why I was freaking out .
    unicornsydney unicornsydney 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    I'm not gonna lie. I have friends, but I feel so distanced from them that I don't know if they really know me. Sometimes I entertain the thought that nobody cares about me. I just...
    CapnChris CapnChris 22-25, M 2 hrs ago

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    I was so happy when this apartment became available to me since I so wanted to move away from my verbally abusive ex-boyfriend who lived in the same building where I lived and was...
    heartprotection heartprotection 41-45, F 1 Response Nov 13

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    I am an immigrant. I'd like to say it doesn't define me but in reality it does. I've always been very ashamed of myself. I always tried to be invisible to the world. I felt like...
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    I am proud of that I love a lot of things society looks down on but I am me and I really don't need to censor myself.
    Jonnyguitar877 Jonnyguitar877 26-30, M Nov 14

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