I Am Sick Of Feeling Like I Have To Censor Myself

Use this group to write anything that you feel you need to get out. 83 People

    I Was Just Having This Conversation With Someone....

    I was talking to a friend about something that pissed me off at work.  She listened for a bit and then told me I was too "draining" to talk to.    Well, I was hurt and annoyed.  If you can't talk to your friends, what is the difference between a friend and a...
    patchworkofmistakes patchworkofmistakes
    26-30, F
    8 Responses Feb 6, 2010

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    i feel like i always have to censor myself because Im going to worry about hurting others. or scare them about what I have to say...I don't want to do that. I just want to get the pain out, and say how I really feel, but I don't want to hurt anyone, or censor anyone, but i...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Nov 17, 2009

    Censor

    When you’re saying something people do not want to hear,they try to knock your confidence, controlling you with fear.Because we are not robots, and we care what people think,we let them into our heads, and that makes our spirit sink.It doesn’t take an awful lot to...
    emmasharn emmasharn
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Jan 28, 2010

    I Hate It...

    I hate that I have to cenor myself. I hate that I can't trully write what I feel, and what I am thinking, because there is a chacne that "he" will read it, and that will just mnake things worse fro me in the long run. I hate that Ep is kinda no longer a place where I can come...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Jul 14, 2010

    Sick Of Censoring Myself Around Friends

    The great thing about this site is that I only know one person who knows me that has a profile & he never uses it. This is pretty much a place where I can get something off my chest without the fear someone who knows me will see it & I’ll **** them off. While there are many...
    FaolanHart FaolanHart
    22-25, T
    1 Response Dec 2, 2013

    I'll Keep...

    ... my mouth shut. I'll keep my opinions to myself. I'll keep my desires a secret. I'll keep myself hidden out of view. I'll keep myself to myself as it obviously offends you so much. NO MORE!!!!
    Invisible75 Invisible75
    36-40, M
    1 Response Sep 6, 2012

    You Can Talk To Your Grandparents All You Want, But Don't Mention This...

    My parents are part of the 50% percent of society that ends up getting divorced, not really a big deal. What I do find to be immensely frustrating, is that I have to temper what I say to one side of my family, while I can be completely honest, open, and myself with the other side...
    InAbsentia InAbsentia
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jan 7, 2011

    Pluralistic / Syncretistic / Dualistic Perspectives Ignorantly Central To Cultural Perspective

    What I'm sick of is a cultural perspective that promotes "tolerance" rhetoric as the highest obtainable ideal in a culture who is unwilling to accept anything outside of its own pre-conceived notion as to what that actually means. Too often today the peddlers of "tolerance...
    DjRaven363 DjRaven363
    31-35
    Jul 15, 2013

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