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I Am Sick Of Feeling Like I Have To Censor Myself

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    I Hate It...

    I hate that I have to cenor myself. I hate that I can't trully write what I feel, and what I am thinking, because there is a chacne that "he" will read it, and that will just mnake things worse fro me in the long run. I hate that Ep is kinda no longer a place where I can come...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jul 14, 2010

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    You Can Talk To Your Grandparents All You Want, But Don't Mention This...

    My parents are part of the 50% percent of society that ends up getting divorced, not really a big deal. What I do find to be immensely frustrating, is that I have to temper what I say to one side of my family, while I can be completely honest, open, and myself with the other side...
    InAbsentia InAbsentia 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 7, 2011

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    I Was Just Having This Conversation With Someone....

    I was talking to a friend about something that pissed me off at work.  She listened for a bit and then told me I was too "draining" to talk to.    Well, I was hurt and annoyed.  If you can't talk to your friends, what is the difference between a friend and a...
    patchworkofmistakes patchworkofmistakes 26-30, F 8 Responses Feb 6, 2010

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    Pluralistic / Syncretistic / Dualistic Perspectives Ignorantly Central To Cultural Perspective

    What I'm sick of is a cultural perspective that promotes "tolerance" rhetoric as the highest obtainable ideal in a culture who is unwilling to accept anything outside of its own pre-conceived notion as to what that actually means. Too often today the peddlers of "tolerance...
    DjRaven363 DjRaven363 31-35 Jul 15, 2013

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    Censor

    When you’re saying something people do not want to hear,they try to knock your confidence, controlling you with fear.Because we are not robots, and we care what people think,we let them into our heads, and that makes our spirit sink.It doesn’t take an awful lot to...
    emmasharn emmasharn 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 28, 2010

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    i feel like i always have to censor myself because Im going to worry about hurting others. or scare them about what I have to say...I don't want to do that. I just want to get the pain out, and say how I really feel, but I don't want to hurt anyone, or censor anyone, but i...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 17, 2009

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    I'll Keep...

    ... my mouth shut. I'll keep my opinions to myself. I'll keep my desires a secret. I'll keep myself hidden out of view. I'll keep myself to myself as it obviously offends you so much. NO MORE!!!!
    Invisible75 Invisible75 36-40, M 1 Response Sep 6, 2012

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    Sick Of Censoring Myself Around Friends

    The great thing about this site is that I only know one person who knows me that has a profile & he never uses it. This is pretty much a place where I can get something off my chest without the fear someone who knows me will see it & I’ll **** them off. While there are many...
    FaolanHart FaolanHart 22-25, T Dec 2, 2013

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    It seems the censors are at work again. Some of my friends have completely disappeared from EP. Has this happened to anyone else?
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    I was clean from cutting for a year and a bit but then last week I went through a really bad fight and I cut again. Not deep at all. But in every day after that I craved cutting...
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    hahahaha...I can always talk to myself...I do talk to myself so many times...:D like now..I want to talk to myself...and make a list of things i want to do after my exams..ok? so...
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    I love that feeling you get when you're asleep and think you're about to fall. Most people hate it but because it's kind of unusual I like it would
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    I just finished up giving myself a little wed*** session lol. Unfortunately I ripped my tighty whities a little! ;-(
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    He said "stop doing this to your self"... I hate when your starting to forget about something or someone and then BAM!!!! A song comes on and your like damn, "Now I want some...
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    Alyyeska Alyyeska 26-30, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    mythlover mythlover 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    more n more I feel like a failure at everything. I dont have the strength to keep fighting. I am drowning in my own tears of depression
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    It's been Almost 3 years since I started cutting myself I have been clean for a Month already and the Reason I started is cause people said that I deserved the Pain and Suffering...
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    Just have been experiencing this often lately and I have a difficult time with this.
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    It's happened again. 4 on each wrist. Oy vey. I was doing so well. I hadn't cut for like 5 months or so. And now I've done it again. At least i don't feel the urge to anymore...
    Snow1353 Snow1353 18-21, F Mar 25

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    I'm dying here. I feel like I really need to cut. He said he only wants to be friends. Now I'm trying everything and I'm fighting to win him back. He says he loves me but I'm never...
    SparkledRed SparkledRed 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 26

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    Ive really gained weight but i kinda like it now :)
    IWantFat44 IWantFat44 13-15, M Apr 3

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    I have just tried to post a story about pleasuring myself at work and it was deleted by admin! It was no worse than other stories and comments on this thread! What's the point of...
    Minoesh Minoesh 46-50, F 2 Responses Apr 11

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     This is my arm. Also have scars elsewhere. Im hoping ,that you whp are cutting, could see yourself as a valuable person and your life worth of trying. Scars you made follow...
    Mindmorfin Mindmorfin 26-30, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I started when I was about 9.. I was diagnosed with major depression and it made me feel like I was a complete waste, and that since I have a problem that I shouldn't be alive...
    Smile6781 Smile6781 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    Hell yeah I do! What's not to like? It'd be better with someone giving me a massive one though...
    quietfighter quietfighter 18-21, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I have done this numerous times. Always by accident.
    Gumba1000 Gumba1000 26-30, M 2 Responses Mar 27

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    My life is not great and I have found it comforting to cut my wrists. The problem is that I have to hide it from everyone and I wonder if it is worth the struggle to hide it. Only...
    Mokuba Mokuba 13-15, F Mar 30

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    and quite honestly you don't deserve it.....so therefore unless I feel you are worthy.....I won't.
    JustaSillyfairy JustaSillyfairy 70+, F 3 Responses Apr 2

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    What's the point in trying to live for the good moments when they're so few and far between.
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    oh god i am having a hard time . want to move somewhere else with my husband and son . just tired of being nice to everyone . i cant pretend more
    jenifer jenifer 16-17, F Mar 31

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    I want to be happy in my life. I want to make better choices in my life that are not hurtful to me.
    MiBelleAmie MiBelleAmie 41-45, F Apr 1

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    Hey, I'm still looking for any girls who wanna be my buddy! You must do pics and vids and I'm the mistress! :D PM if ur interested! XD
    ezaborksy1 ezaborksy1 18-21, F Apr 1

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