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I Am Sick of Having to Continually Pick Myself Up

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 119 People

    Too Tired to Care Anymore

    Every day I find the struggle to pick myself up off the floor and face another day harder and harder... Hoping one day it will get easier....
    GothAngel GothAngel 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 28, 2008

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    Well, I Am...

    When I'm with my family, I feel as if I'm a roll of Bounty Paper Towels (The Quicker Picker Upper).  I'm the "fixer" that never needs to be fixed.  I have a couple of people who I can go to with my worries, but not my family.  I'm the "strong"...
    goddessone goddessone 41-45, F 5 Responses Feb 8, 2008

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    Pick Me Up

    Pick me up,Sick of it,Life goin' wrong,Here I go again,Picking myself up,When will it ever end?I'm tired of this.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M 2 Responses Feb 28, 2012

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    Tired of the Journey of Life

    As lots here,I have had a very rough and traumatic life.I have always been the positive thinker,the strong one,the one who keeps on going.Now I am almost 47,and with lots of traumatic events in the past several years.I am plain old worn out.I am tired of the same old thing,I am...
    mimi4512 mimi4512 46-50 3 Responses Nov 22, 2008

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    So Repetitive

    and i hate anything repetitive .  i just wish i could do it once and be done with it ... unfortunately ... its not working that way for me . so here i am  ... ill do it and continue to do it until im blue in the face  until maybe one day ill get it right .
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme 26-30, F Feb 22, 2008

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    Thumps

    I tried wearing flats. But a little wedge helps faerie walk taller. I tried holding on to rails. So I added a hand sanitizer in my bag. I tried being slower. And saw an ant pass me by. What I'm saying is... I know and understand how it is to fall. It tears the very soul in us...
    Sylphy Sylphy 41-45, F Apr 3, 2012

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    What i hate the most is having to do a lot around the house whilst there are visitors around home like doing favours for people don't return the favour to me. It drives me...
    agdnn agdnn 26-30, M Jul 22

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    Everything is falling apart... My best friend hates me, like 100% hates me all I did was warn him about this girl, cause he asked what I thought of her and I told him the truth...
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    This is a shoutout to anyone else who can't stand having themselves posted anywhere. I hate my body, I hate that I can't go anywhere without being paranoid about being picked on...
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    forevergirly forevergirly 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 18

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    ForgetableMe ForgetableMe 31-35, M 4 Responses Jul 17

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