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I Am Slowly Falling Apart Piece By Piece

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    I Just Need to Vent

    Today, I received an internet letter from UCD, telling me I was rejected. Yeah, I know that thousands of people get rejected each year, but this wasn't just about some college I wasn't even planning to go to. This was my life, and how I'm slowly losing control of it. I came home...
    RaincoatPanda RaincoatPanda 16-17, M 2 Responses Mar 13, 2009

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    I feel so lost so alone

    and i wanna cry. i never felt so not my self. i feel like the outcast that nobody want to help but feel sorry for. i becoming so distance from every one because i feel depress. i wanna feel happy i wanna smile and laught but it seem pointless . i tire tire of living feeling pain...
    thuff01 thuff01 18-21, F Mar 29

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    naaee naaee 16-17, F May 19

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    Just Sometimes

    Each day I am falling apart piece by piece, I am a freshman in highschool, and just turned 14 yesterday. Worse thing is all my teachers notice, they see it the way I look after myself, the way I talk to them, my actions in class. I am a quiet person by nature, and generous as...
    girlie88 girlie88 13-15 1 Response Dec 24, 2011

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    Sometimes I Think So... ...

    Sometimes I think so... for the most part I think so. But then one of my friends or my boyfriend comes by and does something that puts me back together... maybe somewhat worse for wear but it still keeps me from being totally insane.
    beatrixrose beatrixrose 22-25, F Dec 9, 2007

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    I'm at the edge where I want yo jump !

    I'm falling apart physically and mentally, I look at everyone's life compared to mines and ask why me ... What did I do soooo bad to deserve this , I'm such a good person I truly am . Tears fill my eyes , my head stats to ache and I physically have to force myself out of bed...
    naaee naaee 16-17, F 1 Response May 19

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    Workman's Compensation

    I have been waiting for surgery now for 9 months, I was injured on my job 6 years ago.  Here 9 months ago I  was told by 3 different surgeons that I needed a fusion on 3 disc's and I had a severe pinched nerve.  All was fine until I...
    sasc sasc 51-55, F 1 Response Dec 11, 2007

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    Away

    I hate change. I struggle against it. I am losing the battle more and more. The thing is, I know change is frequently a positive thing, but I am so terrified of it. I already don't work well with the way things are now, and I am afraid that a change will just leave me less...
    eyes eyes 31-35, F 1 Response Dec 15, 2007

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    With Every Happening...

    I really don't know what I'm doing anymore. I'm slowly falling apart with every little piece of myself that is being destroyed. I keep putting myself out there after being told by people that they won't betray me. They do. People alway betray you. I'm starting not to trust...
    pinkspikes pinkspikes 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 10, 2007

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    So I sit here, crying my eyes out.

    My boyfriend asked me for my Facebook password, and email. Well I have it to him cause I had nothing to hide. Now he accuses me of cheating. When I haven't cheated other than that one time but only for an hour or two. I'm such a **** up. I don't even wanna live anymore. I'm so...
    sparklyrainbowkitty sparklyrainbowkitty 13-15, F 3 Responses May 19

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    Slowly By Surely It Is Getting Worse

    I had a chance to transition to a female since I was older and had a female brain so I decided that I didn't really dig on any relationships so my body as a whole would respond in a positive manner. How it is responding is beyond Dr. Frankenstiens nightmare. Oh yes it...
    Lyndsey2u Lyndsey2u 56-60, T 3 Responses Jul 2, 2009

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    I noticed this morning,

    I was loseing my bra.. it was windy and very cold, so I put it on inside out ,after eating my muffin. I am slowly woo hoo falling apart piece by peice
    kissmequick14 kissmequick14 41-45, F 1 Response May 13

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    This morning , I got up with a new outlook

    decided to eat wheaties instead of cornflakes. During this painstaking process, my nail came off... Then I remembered a song Bigfoot sang during our two day courtship . *clap hands... Repeat chorus twenty times* Grunt grunt weeeee. Ohhhhhhsnuff sniff sniff Chorus: yeah baby...
    kissmequick14 kissmequick14 41-45, F Jun 11

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    Hi And Lo..

    if anything could wilt and drop, only to re-attach itself the next minute is my heart.. the reattaching process pained my chest as it squeezes back into the tight space. A visible scar appeared for me to reminisce: why did I fell so hard today?  "happiness" is remembered as...
    amejad amejad 22-25, F Feb 14, 2011

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    It seems more and more are saying they are

    lonely including myself. Why do you think this is. I am in my fifty's and I have been married for many years. My marriage is not happy and we fight all the time. I wonder daily what it is that I have done to make my marriage so bad, I wonder what can I do to fix it. I feel so...
    IBFUNRU IBFUNRU 51-55, F 1 Response Feb 23

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    What You See Is What You Get

    i always thought things had to get worse to get better?? but lately, anytime something good happens, something happens to add to the bad party and drown out anything positive. i try to pretend im the strong one, i always have. but recently, thats started to backfire on me. two of...
    missconfused94 missconfused94 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 18, 2011

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    Bit By Bit

    Ever feel like you've lost it... just parts of you going away a little at a time. Over the years I've lost pieces with each experience that I've lived. Pieces of my heart and soul just vanished never to be found... even my spirit and once loved ***** is no longer. I just find it...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 25, 2007

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    I Am Always Losing Myself...

    I don't even know who I am, or what I want anymore... All I know is that I wish we were both happy... And could sort out all our problems... And I just want to cut cut cut... but i can't...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 4, 2009

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    Wounded Lover...

    When I think about you...I still cry. It hurts so much to think about you. It hurts on a such a deep level. I wanted to give you the world, to give you everything. I never told anyone about you. I didn't want anything to ruin it. I love you. I love you. I love you. I knew you...
    xipher xipher 18-21 2 Responses Mar 18, 2008

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    I Feel Like I Am Within, But I...

    I feel like I am within, but I don't look like I am on the outside, and that's only because I am so used to fixing-up before leaving home. I do pray alot while I am going through all of this. So, I do believe that I have God's favor, grace, and mercy.
    arobprice arobprice 41-45, F Dec 9, 2007

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    First it was my knees.

    They aren't as strong as they used to be. Then I noticed my shoulders getting heavy and now they ache once in a while. My hands ache a lot and that's because of the work I've done over the course of my life. As time rolls on, I am slowly falling apart. I need a bionic body now...
    BobFrost BobFrost 36-40, M 2 Responses May 27

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    school started a few days ago and ever since then everything has gone downhill. I've lost so many friends, and my boyfriend. i started this school year off all alone, I'm not...
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    We are on the topic of "Divorce!" I'm told how stupid I am every day. How ****** my family is! That I'm a useless idiot, that you can't teach me a thing. I get called a dumb...
    misstiff08 misstiff08 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 12

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    People have many ways of expressing their selfs to make themselves feel better. No matter what it is like mine is music. I shouldn't say I'm alone. Because I have music. Maybe you...
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    I've liked this guy since 8th grade, and we've had a thing on and off. He told me a couple days ago he wants to commit himself 101% to me, yet he hasn't texted/messaged me since...
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    i really need someone to talk to. i had to move home at 31, 4 months ago. i live with my ocd bipolar dad and my mom who micro manages me. i used to have such a full social life. i...
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    I've lost everyone I ever cared about. I blamed my actions on the damage that was done to me. I walk around hurting people before they can hurt me. The only two men I've ever...
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