Post
Experience Project iOS Android Apps | Download EP for your Mobile Device

I Am Slowly Falling Apart Piece By Piece

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 423 People

    I Am Always Losing Myself...

    I don't even know who I am, or what I want anymore... All I know is that I wish we were both happy... And could sort out all our problems... And I just want to cut cut cut... but i can't...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 4, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Sometimes I Think So... ...

    Sometimes I think so... for the most part I think so. But then one of my friends or my boyfriend comes by and does something that puts me back together... maybe somewhat worse for wear but it still keeps me from being totally insane.
    beatrixrose beatrixrose 22-25, F Dec 9, 2007

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Just Need to Vent

    Today, I received an internet letter from UCD, telling me I was rejected. Yeah, I know that thousands of people get rejected each year, but this wasn't just about some college I wasn't even planning to go to. This was my life, and how I'm slowly losing control of it. I came home...
    RaincoatPanda RaincoatPanda 16-17, M 2 Responses Mar 13, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    With Every Happening...

    I really don't know what I'm doing anymore. I'm slowly falling apart with every little piece of myself that is being destroyed. I keep putting myself out there after being told by people that they won't betray me. They do. People alway betray you. I'm starting not to trust...
    pinkspikes pinkspikes 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 10, 2007

    Your Response

    Cancel

    This morning , I got up with a new outlook

    decided to eat wheaties instead of cornflakes. During this painstaking process, my nail came off... Then I remembered a song Bigfoot sang during our two day courtship . *clap hands... Repeat chorus twenty times* Grunt grunt weeeee. Ohhhhhhsnuff sniff sniff Chorus: yeah baby...
    kissmequick14 kissmequick14 41-45, F Jun 11, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Workman's Compensation

    I have been waiting for surgery now for 9 months, I was injured on my job 6 years ago.  Here 9 months ago I  was told by 3 different surgeons that I needed a fusion on 3 disc's and I had a severe pinched nerve.  All was fine until I...
    sasc sasc 51-55, F 1 Response Dec 11, 2007

    Your Response

    Cancel
    loveiseverything18 loveiseverything18 18-21, F Aug 6

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Away

    I hate change. I struggle against it. I am losing the battle more and more. The thing is, I know change is frequently a positive thing, but I am so terrified of it. I already don't work well with the way things are now, and I am afraid that a change will just leave me less...
    eyes eyes 31-35, F 1 Response Dec 15, 2007

    Your Response

    Cancel

    What You See Is What You Get

    i always thought things had to get worse to get better?? but lately, anytime something good happens, something happens to add to the bad party and drown out anything positive. i try to pretend im the strong one, i always have. but recently, thats started to backfire on me. two of...
    missconfused94 missconfused94 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 18, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Feel Like I Am Within, But I...

    I feel like I am within, but I don't look like I am on the outside, and that's only because I am so used to fixing-up before leaving home. I do pray alot while I am going through all of this. So, I do believe that I have God's favor, grace, and mercy.
    arobprice arobprice 41-45, F Dec 9, 2007

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Slowly By Surely It Is Getting Worse

    I had a chance to transition to a female since I was older and had a female brain so I decided that I didn't really dig on any relationships so my body as a whole would respond in a positive manner. How it is responding is beyond Dr. Frankenstiens nightmare. Oh yes it...
    Lyndsey2u Lyndsey2u 56-60, T 3 Responses Jul 2, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel
    naaee naaee 16-17, F May 19, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I noticed this morning,

    I was loseing my bra.. it was windy and very cold, so I put it on inside out ,after eating my muffin. I am slowly woo hoo falling apart piece by peice
    kissmequick14 kissmequick14 41-45, F 1 Response May 13, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Hi And Lo..

    if anything could wilt and drop, only to re-attach itself the next minute is my heart.. the reattaching process pained my chest as it squeezes back into the tight space. A visible scar appeared for me to reminisce: why did I fell so hard today?  "happiness" is remembered as...
    amejad amejad 22-25, F Feb 14, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I feel so lost so alone

    and i wanna cry. i never felt so not my self. i feel like the outcast that nobody want to help but feel sorry for. i becoming so distance from every one because i feel depress. i wanna feel happy i wanna smile and laught but it seem pointless . i tire tire of living feeling pain...
    thuff01 thuff01 22-25, F Mar 29, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    i am going to be vocal about my feelings

    for the first time in this way. So this is gonna be a little lengthy and messy. I need help. I was sexually abused during my childhood when my age was six. It continued to happen for 1 year. I never told anyone untill this i started my college. That was a pathetic trauma for 13...
    greycandle greycandle 18-21, F Aug 6

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I personally think my downfall was

    when I lost my best friend to a car accident, Witnessed the whole thing, People that were there that night say when his car went off the side of the mountain it wasn't him yelling but it was me, I lost a brother a best friend...... Now seeing My best friend of the opposite sex...
    Arizv11 Arizv11 22-25, M Jan 11

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I'm at the edge where I want yo jump !

    I'm falling apart physically and mentally, I look at everyone's life compared to mines and ask why me ... What did I do soooo bad to deserve this , I'm such a good person I truly am . Tears fill my eyes , my head stats to ache and I physically have to force myself out of bed...
    naaee naaee 16-17, F 1 Response May 19, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I feel like my life is empty like all used

    up my body is old and broken yet I'm not yet 40. I'm tired so tired... God please call me home but take care of my family and let them be not just ok but truly healed and able and filled with hope and let them have the money and things they need. please call me home
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 5

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Wounded Lover...

    When I think about you...I still cry. It hurts so much to think about you. It hurts on a such a deep level. I wanted to give you the world, to give you everything. I never told anyone about you. I didn't want anything to ruin it. I love you. I love you. I love you. I knew you...
    xipher xipher 18-21 2 Responses Mar 18, 2008

    Your Response

    Cancel

    So I sit here, crying my eyes out.

    My boyfriend asked me for my Facebook password, and email. Well I have it to him cause I had nothing to hide. Now he accuses me of cheating. When I haven't cheated other than that one time but only for an hour or two. I'm such a **** up. I don't even wanna live anymore. I'm so...
    sparklyrainbowkitty sparklyrainbowkitty 16-17, F 3 Responses May 19, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Bit By Bit

    Ever feel like you've lost it... just parts of you going away a little at a time. Over the years I've lost pieces with each experience that I've lived. Pieces of my heart and soul just vanished never to be found... even my spirit and once loved ***** is no longer. I just find it...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 25, 2007

    Your Response

    Cancel

    It seems more and more are saying they are

    lonely including myself. Why do you think this is. I am in my fifty's and I have been married for many years. My marriage is not happy and we fight all the time. I wonder daily what it is that I have done to make my marriage so bad, I wonder what can I do to fix it. I feel so...
    IBFUNRU IBFUNRU 51-55, F Feb 23, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Related Experiences

    Im really missing you .....
    Livit Livit 46-50, F 1 hr ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I just realized I've given up my much break two days in a row just to come see you. I'll probably do it again tomorrow. I'm ok with this, this torture.. I wound starve for days...
    LarsGreypath LarsGreypath 22-25, M 3 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I've been used by guys hurt by girls hit by my mom and cursed by the world so I keep loosing weight just trying to be perfect just wanting for somebody to tell me that I'm worth it...
    Mialuvbug Mialuvbug 13-15, F 3 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    This section is becoming my most "popular" experience area, but I suppose it's easier to talk about something as I am experiencing it as opposed to in any other way. Today was, as...
    RaiseYourWhat RaiseYourWhat 26-30, F 5 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    To a special someone... It hurts. I cant help it but I think you are wonderful, but I realise now that you don't necessarily feel the same. I know I am younger than you but I...
    littlebabyjane16 littlebabyjane16 18-21, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Day by day things seem to fall and my hopes grow more and more small. The one person that I love the most is the one that give me hope. But is the hope that I hold in one guy The...
    imJboy2001 imJboy2001 13-15, M 1 Response 7 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    There is no Humanity in this world!
    Zelaleme Zelaleme 51-55, F 8 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I am going to try to pick myself back up but I can't stand up only to fall back down, I will have to be really cautious.
    taytay1401 taytay1401 13-15, F 12 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I love sleeping, it's like dying without any pain. It's like going into an other world where everything is different...
    cortneycrimson cortneycrimson 16-17, F 15 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    and it's tearing me apart..
    dqtxx1 dqtxx1 22-25, F 2 Responses 21 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Is there anything more romantic than falling asleep cuddled in the arms of your loved one, enjoying the sound of rain falling. There's something about the sounds and smell of rain...
    WifeInWaiting WifeInWaiting 36-40, F 5 Responses 22 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    If I ever fall in love I want it to be like I never saw it coming. I want it to be like me and a friend and we hang out a lot and have each other's backs. We only think of each...
    blahblahblahxoxo blahblahblahxoxo 18-21, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    At the beginning of the year, I met a person through work and felt a strange, inexplicable draw to him almost immediately. It was like an inner voice imploring me to befriend him...
    wordsarefutiledevices wordsarefutiledevices 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Dear Louie I thought maybe writing a letter might help with whatever I'm feeling, because as we know I don't talk much. But with writing I get it all out before I even think. So I...
    WhoseMe WhoseMe 18-21, F 2 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    It has been a comfort, being a member of this EP group, there are so many people in a similar boat and sharing a similar pain it is truly comforting. Emotions are such a...
    RaiseYourWhat RaiseYourWhat 26-30, F 2 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    He is 2500 miles away. we text daily. he calls me beautiful everyday. we are both sexually frustrated cause we are so far apart. We have decided to meet soon but I am scared that...
    kickmud1437 kickmud1437 36-40, F 2 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I think I am falling for someone 2500 miles away!
    kickmud1437 kickmud1437 36-40, F 2 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I think about her constantly. She's pretty much everything I want from a relationship and I have no idea if she feels the same way. We sit and talk to eachother in every class we...
    gdegeit gdegeit 16-17, M 1 Response 2 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    The sound of rain when I'm falling asleep is like an embrace from all that is good in the world. "Everything is going to be okay" is a whisper from every drop that falls.
    Flower293 Flower293 26-30, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    So there is this guy at my work. I had noticed him checking me out before, but both of us are shy and we had never spoken. Things all changed when I got a cute pixie cut. He...
    kitkat0216 kitkat0216 31-35, F 1 Response 5 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel