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I Am Slowly Falling Apart Piece By Piece

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    Slowly By Surely It Is Getting Worse

    I had a chance to transition to a female since I was older and had a female brain so I decided that I didn't really dig on any relationships so my body as a whole would respond in a positive manner. How it is responding is beyond Dr. Frankenstiens nightmare. Oh yes it...
    Lyndsey2u Lyndsey2u 61-65, T 3 Responses Jul 2, 2009

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    I personally think my downfall was

    when I lost my best friend to a car accident, Witnessed the whole thing, People that were there that night say when his car went off the side of the mountain it wasn't him yelling but it was me, I lost a brother a best friend...... Now seeing My best friend of the opposite sex...
    Arizv11 Arizv11 22-25, M Jan 11, 2015

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    i am going to be vocal about my feelings

    for the first time in this way. So this is gonna be a little lengthy and messy. I need help. I was sexually abused during my childhood when my age was six. It continued to happen for 1 year. I never told anyone untill this i started my college. That was a pathetic trauma for 13...
    greycandle greycandle 22-25, F Aug 6, 2015

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    What You See Is What You Get

    i always thought things had to get worse to get better?? but lately, anytime something good happens, something happens to add to the bad party and drown out anything positive. i try to pretend im the strong one, i always have. but recently, thats started to backfire on me. two of...
    missconfused94 missconfused94 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 18, 2011

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    I feel so lost so alone

    and i wanna cry. i never felt so not my self. i feel like the outcast that nobody want to help but feel sorry for. i becoming so distance from every one because i feel depress. i wanna feel happy i wanna smile and laught but it seem pointless . i tire tire of living feeling pain...
    thuff01 thuff01 22-25, F Mar 29, 2014

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    With Every Happening...

    I really don't know what I'm doing anymore. I'm slowly falling apart with every little piece of myself that is being destroyed. I keep putting myself out there after being told by people that they won't betray me. They do. People alway betray you. I'm starting not to trust...
    pinkspikes pinkspikes 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 10, 2007

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    I Just Need to Vent

    Today, I received an internet letter from UCD, telling me I was rejected. Yeah, I know that thousands of people get rejected each year, but this wasn't just about some college I wasn't even planning to go to. This was my life, and how I'm slowly losing control of it. I came home...
    RaincoatPanda RaincoatPanda 16-17, M 2 Responses Mar 13, 2009

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    I'm at the edge where I want yo jump !

    I'm falling apart physically and mentally, I look at everyone's life compared to mines and ask why me ... What did I do soooo bad to deserve this , I'm such a good person I truly am . Tears fill my eyes , my head stats to ache and I physically have to force myself out of bed...
    naaee naaee 18-21, F 1 Response May 19, 2014

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    Bit By Bit

    Ever feel like you've lost it... just parts of you going away a little at a time. Over the years I've lost pieces with each experience that I've lived. Pieces of my heart and soul just vanished never to be found... even my spirit and once loved ***** is no longer. I just find it...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 25, 2007

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    Hi And Lo..

    if anything could wilt and drop, only to re-attach itself the next minute is my heart.. the reattaching process pained my chest as it squeezes back into the tight space. A visible scar appeared for me to reminisce: why did I fell so hard today?  "happiness" is remembered as...
    amejad amejad 22-25, F Feb 14, 2011

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    Workman's Compensation

    I have been waiting for surgery now for 9 months, I was injured on my job 6 years ago.  Here 9 months ago I  was told by 3 different surgeons that I needed a fusion on 3 disc's and I had a severe pinched nerve.  All was fine until I...
    sasc sasc 51-55, F 1 Response Dec 11, 2007

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    I feel like my life is empty like all used

    up my body is old and broken yet I'm not yet 40. I'm tired so tired... God please call me home but take care of my family and let them be not just ok but truly healed and able and filled with hope and let them have the money and things they need. please call me home
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 5, 2015

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    I Feel Like I Am Within, But I...

    I feel like I am within, but I don't look like I am on the outside, and that's only because I am so used to fixing-up before leaving home. I do pray alot while I am going through all of this. So, I do believe that I have God's favor, grace, and mercy.
    arobprice arobprice 41-45, F Dec 9, 2007

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    I noticed this morning,

    I was loseing my bra.. it was windy and very cold, so I put it on inside out ,after eating my muffin. I am slowly woo hoo falling apart piece by peice
    kissmequick14 kissmequick14 41-45, F 1 Response May 13, 2014

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    Wounded Lover...

    When I think about you...I still cry. It hurts so much to think about you. It hurts on a such a deep level. I wanted to give you the world, to give you everything. I never told anyone about you. I didn't want anything to ruin it. I love you. I love you. I love you. I knew you...
    xipher xipher 18-21 2 Responses Mar 18, 2008

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    naaee naaee 18-21, F May 19, 2014

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    This morning , I got up with a new outlook

    decided to eat wheaties instead of cornflakes. During this painstaking process, my nail came off... Then I remembered a song Bigfoot sang during our two day courtship . *clap hands... Repeat chorus twenty times* Grunt grunt weeeee. Ohhhhhhsnuff sniff sniff Chorus: yeah baby...
    kissmequick14 kissmequick14 41-45, F Jun 11, 2014

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    Sometimes I Think So... ...

    Sometimes I think so... for the most part I think so. But then one of my friends or my boyfriend comes by and does something that puts me back together... maybe somewhat worse for wear but it still keeps me from being totally insane.
    beatrixrose beatrixrose 22-25, F Dec 9, 2007

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    Away

    I hate change. I struggle against it. I am losing the battle more and more. The thing is, I know change is frequently a positive thing, but I am so terrified of it. I already don't work well with the way things are now, and I am afraid that a change will just leave me less...
    eyes eyes 31-35, F 1 Response Dec 15, 2007

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    It seems more and more are saying they are

    lonely including myself. Why do you think this is. I am in my fifty's and I have been married for many years. My marriage is not happy and we fight all the time. I wonder daily what it is that I have done to make my marriage so bad, I wonder what can I do to fix it. I feel so...
    IBFUNRU IBFUNRU 51-55, F Feb 23, 2014

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    So I sit here, crying my eyes out.

    My boyfriend asked me for my Facebook password, and email. Well I have it to him cause I had nothing to hide. Now he accuses me of cheating. When I haven't cheated other than that one time but only for an hour or two. I'm such a **** up. I don't even wanna live anymore. I'm so...
    sparklyrainbowkitty sparklyrainbowkitty 16-17, F 3 Responses May 19, 2014

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    loveiseverything18 loveiseverything18 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 6, 2015

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    I Am Always Losing Myself...

    I don't even know who I am, or what I want anymore... All I know is that I wish we were both happy... And could sort out all our problems... And I just want to cut cut cut... but i can't...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 4, 2009

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    When I was a kid, we had a playhouse with a metal roof. Whenever it was raining, I would go out to the playhouse and just lay there are listen. Every since then, the sound of rain...
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    It's very soothing and peaceful, everything about winter is. . . I wish it were raining right now.
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    One of my ways too try to get sleepy when I'm battling insomnia.
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    So my one crush turned into 3. They're all sexy as hell and 2 were at the military ball tonight. One even ended up twerking on me.🤔 Questionable. I have no feelings for guys...
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    I'm falling for my best friend's sister. I've known them all for over a decade, and I've always had a crush on her. But I never did anything about it because I'm very close to the...
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    My husband sent me this text of him driving into work):
    JennyTom JennyTom 41-45, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I love being home snuggled in my bed or on the couch when it's raining...watching a silly romantic comedy, alone is fine with me. No chatter when Channing is talking please....
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    I just want to shut everything down and start over. A new life. But I can't I just can't. I'm falling apart every day
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    it's raining as i'm typing thinking about what my life will be like in 5 years time. will it get better? will i still be lonely? will i be able o find someone who appreciates me...
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    you cant blame gravity for falling in love
    whateveryouwanttocallke whateveryouwanttocallke 13-15, M 2 Responses Feb 2

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    Most of life has been getting to know who I am in all this confusion in the world. In and out of hospitals and jails. Riding the roller coasters of deadly Russian roulette, of use...
    embarae5 embarae5 56-60 Feb 2

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    I hate Shoveling it, or dealing w/it once it is down. 6-10 inches called for today.
    ImAGreywlf ImAGreywlf 56-60, M 2 Responses Feb 2

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    Working while it's snowing. That's just wrong. I should be home by the fire.
    SweetSarahSawyer SweetSarahSawyer 46-50 2 Responses Feb 1

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    when I was age 7 I got sexually assaulted it shattered my life I am slowly slowly slowly putting myself back together again but my brother's and his daughter has broken heart
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