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I Am Slowly Going Insane

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    This Is Ridiculous

    My husband of 12 yrs, recently went to prison. Before he left we decided to get a divorce.  A couple of weeks after he left I slept with someone else. Then the following week I get a letter from him confessing that he had been cheating since day one of our marriage. ...
    turmoil turmoil 31-35 Mar 27, 2010

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    My Mind Plays Tricks On Me..

    Before leaving the house i will pat myself down and check to see if i have my keys and phone.Then i check and see if the stove is off,then i leave.At first it was a quick little routine.Recently i have caught myself doing it 4 or 5 times before i leave.Sometimes I have to stop...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 29, 2010

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    Changed.

    I have been trying to put my thoughts onto paper to keep myself sane, but nothing is helping this unbearable feeling of hopelessness. I used to be a straight A student. I used to be happy. The only happiness I get now is through the pain of others and myself. Seeing the blood run...
    ManicDepressiveKid ManicDepressiveKid 16-17, M Jul 13, 2012

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    It's embarrassing to be this emotionally

    dependent on a man who is already "committed" to someone else. He has been my security blanket for over ten years, and what we had developed into has become completely out of hand. I want to be with him so desperately, and then I come to the realization that he would be no good...
    strivingforsanity strivingforsanity 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 13, 2014

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    Im not really one for liking people

    who are too over helpful, who think that you cant do anything by yourself, who patronise you and make you believe that you cant do those tasks yourself. I think this is driving me slowly insane, and the worst bit is when you grow up and have no independence.
    Verix Verix 18-21, M Jul 31, 2014

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    Wonderful And Alone

    I am a wonderful person. I am a wonderfulperson who got so stressed out bc of what happened in her marriage, had to go on anitdepressants. For many years this medication enabled me to face the world and all the trials and challenges. I've tapered off of them, and mainly I'm...
    bittersweet7 bittersweet7 46-50, F Mar 29, 2010

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    Where's The Limit?

    Someday things might pile up and I will not even be able to be the weak person I am now. I have a fear of going insane. Of losing my memories and not knowing who I am. I might as well be dead then.
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Mar 28, 2010

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    But In A Good Way

    I have alot of strangers going out of their way to tell me why they dis like me and what they want to do to me and i have let every little thing get to me for the past few months also i have tryed to block it out with my drug use and i have let my mind open to all the things...
    nuttyrocker nuttyrocker 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 28, 2010

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    I Guess That's What This Is

    I didn't know what it was when you sit on your bed and wish you could clear all your thoughts away with gun powder and chemicals from under the sink. I consider my habit to think aloud a healthy one, but maybe not because I end up going in circles with reason and yelling at the...
    Girlonwire Girlonwire 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 19, 2011

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    Every day i can feel sanity slipping away.

    I know that i probably will not be able to take care of myself in the not so distant future,i do a pretty **** poor job as it is now....
    SideshowB SideshowB 22-25, M 2 Responses Jun 27, 2014

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    I wanna watch Twin Peaks, but there's no electricity in my house. AHHHHHH!! Why is this world so cruel?! D:
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    I want to make friends, but at the same time I'm too lazy to communicate with them. I want someone whom I can trust and rely on, but at the same time I'm too scared to trust them...
    onebeatleft onebeatleft 18-21 1 Response 4 days ago

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    And again the thought that I am hurting and suffering for something I have no control over, ugh. Like I wanna fix this, but its nothing I can do. I have to deal with this. I have...
    Sharudy Sharudy 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 15

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    Indeed. I am being captured by a moment that can not return. I have been wondering around the empty streets , like some short of ghost that can't let go of past. My life is a joke...
    sparkydream sparkydream 18-21, F Jan 1

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    I feel like I'm going to end up all alone. I'm going to be living by myself in an apartment with 6 dogs and only have my career. While everyone around me is going to be married...
    itslala840 itslala840 18-21, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    I hate going to school because, people there torment me, bully me, hurt me phisically and mentally and leave me out of everything. I want to tell someone how I feel, but they will...
    CherryBlossom000 CherryBlossom000 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 6

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    I am insane I do say things that's on my mind
    monaroyalty monaroyalty 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    I forgot about this site. I found it 2 years ago and shared two stories. I read them again today and I realized something... I will never be normal. I know I know, there is no...
    ambmo1 ambmo1 26-30, F 12 hrs ago

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    My head is pounding to the point where hear my own blood circulation. It's too silent, I can't sleep and I can't stop these insane thoughts. Ffuuu>:(
    Firecandy Firecandy 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 13

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    THE DREAM "You're dreaming of me again." I smile as I watch you in your slumber. I see the playful way you look into my eyes. You take my hand and we go running down to the beach...
    LadyLouisiana LadyLouisiana 56-60, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I've never been happy to be here and even as a child never saw the point of it all. But still worked everyday to further my career, I'm a very successful mechanic an have done so...
    Pleaseletmebestone Pleaseletmebestone 36-40, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    FACT: It feels so nice going out with money
    SweeterThanToblerone SweeterThanToblerone 13-15, F 2 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    If you have every planned to do something with your life, while you are still young enough to enjoy having some good honest fun? What about a bucket list, it has occurred to me...
    sensualbeauty1 sensualbeauty1 46-50, F 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    I need some advise from all my friends I really like this man I started talking to he lives far from where I live we talk all the time on the phone but most of the time he makes me...
    monica0215 monica0215 51-55, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    I can't take this anymore.... I'm ******* done... I don't know exactly when, where or how... I have ideas... I'm not doing this anymore... Maybe tonight... Maybe tomorrow...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 28, 2014

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    Ok, here is an update on our snow situation: I am pleased that all but one of the school buses have reportedly made it to our local elementary school about two hours after they...
    JoannaBe JoannaBe 41-45, F 4 Responses Jan 6

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    it has been a couple of months now we have been apart, it hasn't been easy but it was the right decision to make, It was all good in the beginning like two lovers destined to meet...
    afiomai afiomai 36-40, F 1 Response Jan 9

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    One day you finally knew what you had to do, and began, though the voices around you kept shouting their bad advice-- though the whole house began to tremble and you felt the old...
    Friability Friability 18-21 1 day ago

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    I am slowly finding my way. I have read some of the wonderful comments I have gotten from my story about the meaning of life. I feel blessed by my friends. It has been over 2...
    tryingagainII tryingagainII 56-60, M 1 Response Jan 9

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    I personally think my downfall was when I lost my best friend to a car accident, Witnessed the whole thing, People that were there that night say when his car went off the side of...
    Arizv11 Arizv11 22-25, M Jan 11

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    Another member asked about the first time for going sockless. I grew up in a household where being barefoot wasn't allowed, even indoors (except on the carpet). It seemed so...
    fun2bnaked fun2bnaked 41-45, M 1 Response Dec 31, 2014

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    I can't deal with the pain of losing my soulmate. We were so prefect together. My whole world is crashing down around me. I'm in incredible physical and emotional pain. Can't...
    EmilyPouliot EmilyPouliot 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 4

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    Been best friends 20 years, together 16, married 11. We have a 5 and 8 year old. On NYE we talked through divorce arrangements. I initiated but am devastated and don't want this...
    differentdrummer78 differentdrummer78 36-40, F 1 Response Jan 12

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    I hate going to church now I hate it so much. I hate it because all they ever do is sit songs for 85 percent of them time and barely preach and when they preach, they're preaching...
    uh2behonest uh2behonest 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 25, 2014

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    I'm determined to graduate at public school, I'm going back next year, and I'm going to do things differently.
    justalittlewallflower justalittlewallflower 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 26, 2014

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    Most of my life I feared going bald and ageing. Now the ageing part I do not fear no more in years, But the balding I did.. I had 3 hair transplants since 2005 on the front of my...
    Niko864 Niko864 41-45, M 2 Responses Dec 26, 2014

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    5th of January, less than one week of freedom left. Gah, I'm excited and sad about it in the same time. I'm sure it's going to be an unforgettable experience, but time consuming...
    Axonos Axonos 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 29, 2014

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    Im done with letting negativity and depression rule with my life, im proud of myself for making the proper changes and deleted all my negative depressing post on EP. The past...
    TheWorldVsJ TheWorldVsJ 26-30, M 1 Response Dec 30, 2014

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    I used to think I couldn’t go a day without your smile. Without telling you things and hearing your voice back. Then, that day arrived and it was so damn hard but the next was...
    WeLiveAndDieInTheseTowns WeLiveAndDieInTheseTowns 31-35, M Dec 30, 2014

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    I have been away from my desk for a loong time. At least it seemed so.Anyway I have been real busy and Happy New Years to all.I know this will be a good year.My life will never be...
    KiannaJ KiannaJ 22-25, F Jan 3

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    One of my main goals for this year is to be more confident when talking and socialising with people. As it stands, I am terrible at it. Talk about socially awkward. For example...
    unluckE unluckE 31-35, M 2 Responses Jan 6

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    Update to my divorce Well I have moved out. As the process continues. We have put our house on the market. We have been meeting to sign papers regarding the sale of our house. I...
    thelefthandedboy thelefthandedboy 41-45, M 2 Responses Jan 10

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    "The sun is filling up the room, and I can hear you dreaming. Do you feel the way I do... Right now?" All my friends sent me a snapchat this morning as they were up and awake...
    starkizzed21 starkizzed21 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 13

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    Going to court for a misdemeanor trial. Going in completely blind...if anyone has any advice on representing yourself in court, please message me and help me out?
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 14

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