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I Am Slowly Going Insane

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    This Is Ridiculous

    My husband of 12 yrs, recently went to prison. Before he left we decided to get a divorce.  A couple of weeks after he left I slept with someone else. Then the following week I get a letter from him confessing that he had been cheating since day one of our marriage. ...
    turmoil turmoil 31-35 Mar 27, 2010

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    But In A Good Way

    I have alot of strangers going out of their way to tell me why they dis like me and what they want to do to me and i have let every little thing get to me for the past few months also i have tryed to block it out with my drug use and i have let my mind open to all the things...
    nuttyrocker nuttyrocker 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 28, 2010

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    Im not really one for liking people

    who are too over helpful, who think that you cant do anything by yourself, who patronise you and make you believe that you cant do those tasks yourself. I think this is driving me slowly insane, and the worst bit is when you grow up and have no independence.
    Verix Verix 18-21, M Jul 31

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    My Mind Plays Tricks On Me..

    Before leaving the house i will pat myself down and check to see if i have my keys and phone.Then i check and see if the stove is off,then i leave.At first it was a quick little routine.Recently i have caught myself doing it 4 or 5 times before i leave.Sometimes I have to stop...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 29, 2010

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    It's embarrassing to be this emotionally

    dependent on a man who is already "committed" to someone else. He has been my security blanket for over ten years, and what we had developed into has become completely out of hand. I want to be with him so desperately, and then I come to the realization that he would be no good...
    strivingforsanity strivingforsanity 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 13

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    Where's The Limit?

    Someday things might pile up and I will not even be able to be the weak person I am now. I have a fear of going insane. Of losing my memories and not knowing who I am. I might as well be dead then.
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Mar 28, 2010

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    I Guess That's What This Is

    I didn't know what it was when you sit on your bed and wish you could clear all your thoughts away with gun powder and chemicals from under the sink. I consider my habit to think aloud a healthy one, but maybe not because I end up going in circles with reason and yelling at the...
    Girlonwire Girlonwire 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 19, 2011

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    Every day i can feel sanity slipping away.

    I know that i probably will not be able to take care of myself in the not so distant future,i do a pretty **** poor job as it is now....
    SideshowB SideshowB 22-25, M 2 Responses Jun 27

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    Changed.

    I have been trying to put my thoughts onto paper to keep myself sane, but nothing is helping this unbearable feeling of hopelessness. I used to be a straight A student. I used to be happy. The only happiness I get now is through the pain of others and myself. Seeing the blood run...
    ManicDepressiveKid ManicDepressiveKid 16-17, M Jul 13, 2012

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    Wonderful And Alone

    I am a wonderful person. I am a wonderfulperson who got so stressed out bc of what happened in her marriage, had to go on anitdepressants. For many years this medication enabled me to face the world and all the trials and challenges. I've tapered off of them, and mainly I'm...
    bittersweet7 bittersweet7 46-50, F Mar 29, 2010

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    Is everyone brain dead these days

    or am i just going insane? Seriously what the hell, i feel like 90% of people i talk with are just brain dead or pretend like they are...
    xDragerx xDragerx 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 9

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    Most children are going insane quicker and quicker. They have no backbone. It is all because they follow the idea that it is cool to eat junk food or that homemade food is not that...
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    People don't talk to themselves because they are insane... They talk to themselves because they are lonely... However, the loneliness drove them insane.
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    I am 22 years old and I never though I would ever say I am losing Im going blind. I have been in and out of doctors and got 11 spinal taps in 2 weeks and all they can tell me is...
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    How could I have a cruel mind and also a conscience so strong it constantly won over the demons in my head? Perhaps I'm crazy? Can't stand this mind...if I'm going to be cruel, why...
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    Slowly. Very slowly. I'm getting there.
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    Instead of tearing me apart slowly, just ******* kill me! I'm too broken to be fixed and a piece of me always seems to be missing... I'm a waste of skin and I'm ready... Ready to...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    October 2. Coping with Families. There are many paths to self-care with families. Some people choose to sever connections with family members for a period of time. Some people...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Oct 2

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    All my life I was slowly losing my mind. It was because I was tortured as a child. Then the panic attacks. The nightmares. They gave me medication and that made it worse. So...
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    I am slowly trying to work through bad and unhealthy habits and cycles I go through. It's sometimes pretty tough.
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    Slowly but with faith I will get where I need to be or must be... Will Persist...
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    Slowly, but surely I am getting there. I've made a plan of action, that won't happen overnight and I know there will be many tears and pain along the way. But hopefully I will get...
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    I'm sorry to whoever may read this that I made it so long, but its late and I'm tired of writing in my journal, at least here there's a possibility of a response and I need to let...
    littlebitoflucky littlebitoflucky 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 22

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    There is always someone somewhere that is not going to like you. It is hard to not take it personally when you try so hard. I decided I can only control my thoughts, feelings and...
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    I have this friend that I've known for several yrs now. Last night as we were texting things took a turn towards something I never thought would happen. It took a turn down sexual...
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