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I Am Slowly Going Insane

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    My Mind Plays Tricks On Me..

    Before leaving the house i will pat myself down and check to see if i have my keys and phone.Then i check and see if the stove is off,then i leave.At first it was a quick little routine.Recently i have caught myself doing it 4 or 5 times before i leave.Sometimes I have to stop...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 29, 2010

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    I Guess That's What This Is

    I didn't know what it was when you sit on your bed and wish you could clear all your thoughts away with gun powder and chemicals from under the sink. I consider my habit to think aloud a healthy one, but maybe not because I end up going in circles with reason and yelling at the...
    Girlonwire Girlonwire 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 19, 2011

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    But In A Good Way

    I have alot of strangers going out of their way to tell me why they dis like me and what they want to do to me and i have let every little thing get to me for the past few months also i have tryed to block it out with my drug use and i have let my mind open to all the things...
    nuttyrocker nuttyrocker 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 28, 2010

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    This Is Ridiculous

    My husband of 12 yrs, recently went to prison. Before he left we decided to get a divorce.  A couple of weeks after he left I slept with someone else. Then the following week I get a letter from him confessing that he had been cheating since day one of our marriage. ...
    turmoil turmoil 31-35 Mar 27, 2010

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    Where's The Limit?

    Someday things might pile up and I will not even be able to be the weak person I am now. I have a fear of going insane. Of losing my memories and not knowing who I am. I might as well be dead then.
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Mar 28, 2010

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    Wonderful And Alone

    I am a wonderful person. I am a wonderfulperson who got so stressed out bc of what happened in her marriage, had to go on anitdepressants. For many years this medication enabled me to face the world and all the trials and challenges. I've tapered off of them, and mainly I'm...
    bittersweet7 bittersweet7 46-50, F Mar 29, 2010

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    Every day i can feel sanity slipping away.

    I know that i probably will not be able to take care of myself in the not so distant future,i do a pretty **** poor job as it is now....
    SideshowB SideshowB 22-25, M 2 Responses Jun 27

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    Im not really one for liking people

    who are too over helpful, who think that you cant do anything by yourself, who patronise you and make you believe that you cant do those tasks yourself. I think this is driving me slowly insane, and the worst bit is when you grow up and have no independence.
    Verix Verix 18-21, M Jul 31

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    It's embarrassing to be this emotionally

    dependent on a man who is already "committed" to someone else. He has been my security blanket for over ten years, and what we had developed into has become completely out of hand. I want to be with him so desperately, and then I come to the realization that he would be no good...
    strivingforsanity strivingforsanity 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 13

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    Changed.

    I have been trying to put my thoughts onto paper to keep myself sane, but nothing is helping this unbearable feeling of hopelessness. I used to be a straight A student. I used to be happy. The only happiness I get now is through the pain of others and myself. Seeing the blood run...
    ManicDepressiveKid ManicDepressiveKid 16-17, M Jul 13, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    I really think that after everything that just happened I really don't want to be in any relationship just yet. I dont quite understand why am I always having guys problem. I just...
    bowbowdown bowbowdown 26-30 2 Responses Oct 24

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    It has always been there. I've been able to ignore it, though. I've been able to push it to the back of my mind - keep it out of sight. But now... it's back. Worse than ever. It...
    Colourfi Colourfi 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 3

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    Maybe I should give up everything and murder my family and go on a killing spree downtown and then live like that forever
    Colourfi Colourfi 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 3

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    So a week ago today. i was told that i am slowly losig my eye sight. There was a significant change in the results of my eye test when i saw the same specialist 4 years ago. they...
    Anth9012 Anth9012 22-25, M 2 Responses Oct 28

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    In this dream last night I had I was tickled insanely by a doctor and six of his nurses. I was in a insane asylum for some unknown reason. I was laying on a bed in a stray jacket...
    Gigglez21 Gigglez21 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 2

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    People don't talk to themselves because they are insane... They talk to themselves because they are lonely... However, the loneliness drove them insane.
    lostandjaded lostandjaded 26-30, F 6 Responses Oct 31

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    There is a saying "A lesson learned, is a lesson earned ", but how many lessons must you go through to finally get the message? How many times can you be hurt before you realize...
    GrumpyNumnums GrumpyNumnums 18-21, F Nov 2

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    Some of my friends laughs at me whenever I say I have a crush.. as most of my friends in college are guys they tend to be mean, they'll be laughing and joking around and insert me...
    kmisfit123 kmisfit123 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    My emotions are all over the spot I think I'm going to be insane!
    Brookedrumm Brookedrumm 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    How could I have a cruel mind and also a conscience so strong it constantly won over the demons in my head? Perhaps I'm crazy? Can't stand this mind...if I'm going to be cruel, why...
    SwanNual SwanNual 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 27

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    She hunts by night, her prey unaware. She smells their fear of the unknown. Each movement is seen by her brightened night vision. Their blood pumping through their veins growing...
    LadyLouisiana LadyLouisiana 56-60, F 3 Responses Oct 29

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    I'm slowly losing my mind. Most of the people I try to reach out to stop talking to me as soon as they get the chance, and the friends I manage to make stop talking to me after a...
    KiwiDan KiwiDan 22-25, M 2 Responses Nov 12

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    October 26. Clarity. I know better than to not trust God., But sometimes, I forget that. When we are in the midst of an experience, it is easy to forget that there is a Plan...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Oct 26

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    When in life do you know it's time to move? I have written for years of the heart ache and pain. I have know what it means to be alone. Now, I have a great moment ahead, where I...
    EverlyAnn EverlyAnn 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 12

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    Slowly. Very slowly. I'm getting there.
    ViperReborn ViperReborn 13-15, M 2 Responses Oct 30

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    Instead of tearing me apart slowly, just ******* kill me! I'm too broken to be fixed and a piece of me always seems to be missing... I'm a waste of skin and I'm ready... Ready to...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 3 Responses Oct 26

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    November 8. True to Ourselves. "This above all: to thine own self be true, and it must follow, as the night the day, thou 'canst not then be false to any man." —William...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Nov 8

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    My love is 23 years older than me. We met a few years ago online via mutual spiritual interests. It was totally platonic but I broke off contact due to doing other things in my...
    bettecc11 bettecc11 26-30, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Slowly but with faith I will get where I need to be or must be... Will Persist...
    4EverandAlone 4EverandAlone 26-30, F 4 Responses Oct 29

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    Slowly, but surely I am getting there. I've made a plan of action, that won't happen overnight and I know there will be many tears and pain along the way. But hopefully I will get...
    Luna2020 Luna2020 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 29

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    November 10. Beliefs about Money. "I was starting a new job for a corporation. I was good at what I did for a living. The personnel manager and I were down to the details of...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Nov 10

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    I'm so broken... I can't stop crying... It hurts so much... We've broken up and I have to work with her everyday, have to see her pretty face, and know that I'll never get to hold...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 5 Responses Nov 8

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    Uncertainty...this is the one thing that I don't know how to cope with. I've been living with my boyfriend for the past 3 years and I must say I have never seen more unstable...
    LorelaiSky LorelaiSky 26-30, F 5 Responses Nov 1

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    I am going to see the dentist today. This is not my first visit to my new dentist, because I decided to change dentists this year. I went and had my teeth cleaned. And now I am...
    Sara600 Sara600 56-60, F 1 Response Nov 3

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    I had logged off of EP and was planning on going to bed, but then I realized that I was just going to spend the whole night laying awake and thinking. So here I am. Again. I guess...
    Friability Friability 18-21 1 Response Nov 9

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    I understand that this is just a phase where I have to endure all the challenges that I'm facing. The beginning of something is never easy for anyone I suppose.. I also think...
    courtsley courtsley 18-21, F Oct 25

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    So I am a 25 year old guy. I have a single, 57 year old mom and a single 28 year old sister. We are all very close and get along great. I have friend that is my age and he's a...
    david109 david109 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 29

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    It just seems like i'm not doing good recently. I get the feeling that every one around me is a better person and i'm probably going to die for one of them. Or i'm going to get...
    Some1except2 Some1except2 18-21, M Nov 2

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    I am definitely going to gain weight This thanksgiving I'm going turn into a turkey :)
    lorrena19 lorrena19 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 9

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    Never going to and never will. I love who I am and who I'm going to be. If you like me, cool; if you don't, bother your own. Do you and let me do me.
    masmelo masmelo 16-17, F Nov 9

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    I've previously posted that my wife and I were due for our 20 week ultrasound, but this is what I consider my official announcement. I am going to be a dad. :) Our baby boy was...
    AstroRedux AstroRedux 31-35, M 1 Response Nov 10

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    Ok. Here it is. My kids are almost all out of the house... I can already feel the excitement inside of me building. I know. I'll live in quiet and darkness without the chaos of...
    canirunaway canirunaway 46-50, F 4 Responses Nov 13

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    I'm not going to make it through the night... The pills are ready and I'm going to end it... It hurts so much... And I want it to go away... It haunts me and is corrupting me...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 3 Responses Nov 14

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    I feel like I am going to lose it any time soon. I'm going through a breakup and I don't know how to cope with it. I have no idea how people get over breakups and move on. How do...
    tangfastic tangfastic 22-25, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I'm going to a meeting about rehab for my dxm addiction on Friday, and I'm kind of nervous. I want the help, but I'm not sure who I'm going to be when I get out.
    HollyD23 HollyD23 18-21, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    I love how I feel after going to the gym. I got an hour in today and there was me and one other guy there. It was so nice to not have to wait for a machine and not feel anxious due...
    fallout07 fallout07 18-21, F 4 days ago

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