I Am Slowly Going Insane

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 199 People

    Wonderful And Alone

    I am a wonderful person. I am a wonderfulperson who got so stressed out bc of what happened in her marriage, had to go on anitdepressants. For many years this medication enabled me to face the world and all the trials and challenges. I've tapered off of them, and mainly I'm...
    bittersweet7 bittersweet7
    46-50, F
    Mar 29, 2010
    CallmeHopelessNotRomantic CallmeHopelessNotRomantic
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Apr 20

    Little by little each day

    until you learn that those emotions you had returned only changed and brutal your words replaced and your thoughts a new. You just all fell at once.
    Rhea03811 Rhea03811
    13-15, F
    1 Response Nov 19, 2015

    Where's The Limit?

    Someday things might pile up and I will not even be able to be the weak person I am now. I have a fear of going insane. Of losing my memories and not knowing who I am. I might as well be dead then.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    8 Responses Mar 28, 2010

    Changed.

    I have been trying to put my thoughts onto paper to keep myself sane, but nothing is helping this unbearable feeling of hopelessness. I used to be a straight A student. I used to be happy. The only happiness I get now is through the pain of others and myself. Seeing the blood run...
    ManicDepressiveKid ManicDepressiveKid
    16-17, M
    Jul 13, 2012

    Im not really one for liking people

    who are too over helpful, who think that you cant do anything by yourself, who patronise you and make you believe that you cant do those tasks yourself. I think this is driving me slowly insane, and the worst bit is when you grow up and have no independence.
    Verix Verix
    18-21, M
    Jul 31, 2014

    Every day i can feel sanity slipping away.

    I know that i probably will not be able to take care of myself in the not so distant future,i do a pretty **** poor job as it is now....
    SideshowB SideshowB
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Jun 27, 2014

    This Is Ridiculous

    My husband of 12 yrs, recently went to prison. Before he left we decided to get a divorce.  A couple of weeks after he left I slept with someone else. Then the following week I get a letter from him confessing that he had been cheating since day one of our marriage. ...
    turmoil turmoil
    31-35
    Mar 27, 2010
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Apr 2, 2015

    But In A Good Way

    I have alot of strangers going out of their way to tell me why they dis like me and what they want to do to me and i have let every little thing get to me for the past few months also i have tryed to block it out with my drug use and i have let my mind open to all the things...
    nuttyrocker nuttyrocker
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 28, 2010

    I know for sure I'm slowly going insane.

    I cry every single day all the time,I'm mentally unstable and I just destroyed my whole entire room so yeah maybe my parents would put me in a mental hospital for treatment soon,I don't know.
    DepressedAngell DepressedAngell
    18-21, F
    Jul 1, 2015

    I have not been on this site

    since high school so excuse me as I attempt to figure it out. I have had a lot events happen to me these past few months. My boyfriend needed a place to stay last year as his lease was coming to an end and his roommates disliked him, so me being the generous person, I let him...
    SlowlySlipping SlowlySlipping
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 27, 2015

    I at the doctors office,

    listening to the random noises. Faint chatter from doctors, nurses, and patients fill the hall. I can also hear paper being suffer and doors slamming. Now the voices have transformed into what seems like a foreign language.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jun 12, 2015

    My Mind Plays Tricks On Me..

    Before leaving the house i will pat myself down and check to see if i have my keys and phone.Then i check and see if the stove is off,then i leave.At first it was a quick little routine.Recently i have caught myself doing it 4 or 5 times before i leave.Sometimes I have to stop...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Mar 29, 2010

    I Guess That's What This Is

    I didn't know what it was when you sit on your bed and wish you could clear all your thoughts away with gun powder and chemicals from under the sink. I consider my habit to think aloud a healthy one, but maybe not because I end up going in circles with reason and yelling at the...
    Girlonwire Girlonwire
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 19, 2011

    It's embarrassing to be this emotionally

    dependent on a man who is already "committed" to someone else. He has been my security blanket for over ten years, and what we had developed into has become completely out of hand. I want to be with him so desperately, and then I come to the realization that he would be no good...
    strivingforsanity strivingforsanity
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jun 13, 2014

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    Well it's just about time to get going. I've had lots of fun here this past year or so. Pictures, RPs, pleasant chats. I'm both sad to see it go and happy to be free of it. Took up...
    secretlyhonest1 secretlyhonest1
    22-25, M
    Apr 21
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    Gallantio Gallantio
    36-40, M
    Apr 21
    Was on EP about a year and a half ago got to know some great people. Came back recently and its going away. Hope to see everyone on the new EP.
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    41-45, F
    1 Response Apr 21
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    Daddydomless Daddydomless
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    BSTisapain BSTisapain
    46-50, F
    1 Response Apr 21
    Pandainpinktutu you are the best buddy as always. Hope to be in touch with you . Always read more books n even more . Yes it's for you u changed it from Secretstranger to Cosmicweb...
    CosmicWeb CosmicWeb
    22-25, M
    Apr 21
    Its really a great experience with all of ep friends.... Hope we all can meet in the new ep... Im going to miss ep... Especially my best friend from ep... For me ep is really a...
    hiyoshi hiyoshi
    13-15, F
    Apr 21
    Going to miss you crazy farts. Too all my friends and users good luck to all. Hope you all have gained some thing or another from this experience. Until we meet again.
    arwhap13 arwhap13
    36-40, M
    Apr 21
    Well, I thought deleting my stories was bad, but deleting the pms was worse.... Felt like I was deleting people!!! Started deleting friends list and had to stop!!!
    Extant1 Extant1
    51-55, M
    4 Responses Apr 21
    Going to miss all of you. Don't know if who is going to other sites or just deleting accounts and being done.... But if you want to stay in touch feel free to email me Cmyk323...
    cmyk323 cmyk323
    36-40, F
    Apr 21
    I am going to miss you Experience Project. Safe And Bessed Journeys.
    Strivexwolf Strivexwolf
    18-21, M
    Apr 20
    Good Bye EP. It's been a great experience meeting new people and hearing their stories. Thank you for starting up this web site. I'm sure you've helped many people recover from...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 20
    goodbye EP. im going to miss the space you have given me, to rant, to tell strangers my true feelings.. thank you. this is really sad.
    muymuyb muymuyb
    26-30, F
    Apr 20
    I really am going to miss this site, I haven't been on much sadly. But I hope you all have a nice day :)
    underwaterunicorn underwaterunicorn
    13-15, F
    1 Response Apr 20
    Codependency - Will I ever move on? I was told by my therapist I need an outlet so here it is.. I don't know what to do. I feel like I have complete control of myself and at the...
    HardyHar47 HardyHar47
    18-21, M
    Apr 20
    In my country they are discussing lowering voting age to 16 years, instead of 18. It seems a huge mistake to me. I am in touch with students of that age every day, and I see that...
    Cierzo Cierzo
    41-45, M
    1 Response Apr 20
    Ep is ending :( Literally if u asked me 2 hours ago how I felt about how EP is closing I would've said "I don't really care" But now that it is so close and I mean SO CLOSE, I'm...
    LittleBallOfFire LittleBallOfFire
    13-15, F
    4 Responses Apr 19
    I've noticed recently that the size 36 pants i've been wearing have been getting tighter.
    bigbellywatcher bigbellywatcher
    46-50, M
    1 Response Apr 19
    Joined EP a little over a year ago and I've met many people on here. The one person I cherish meeting the most is my girlfriend Josie. So for my last post on EP I want to just say...
    jojosspam jojosspam
    16-17, M
    Apr 19
    Is there going to be an app for the new EP?
    Funkystronglover Funkystronglover
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Apr 19
    I am going to similar worlds. They don't pretend to be the same people as those who developed and ran this site. They are just going to do a better job that the people who...
    silmarilion456 silmarilion456
    41-45, M
    1 Response Apr 18
    I am going to miss ep so much!!! I really hope it comes back!!!
    Takenandinlove Takenandinlove
    13-15, F
    Apr 18
    I know I'll have lost my vision by then. That's all I know. I dunno WTF I'm going to do when I'm older - the issue with being a jack-of-all-trades - and it's given more brainaches...
    AsYetNameless AsYetNameless
    13-15, T
    Apr 15
    I ALWAYS ASK MYSELF ABOUT FRIENDSHIP AND THE REALITY….I KNOW I CAN’T BE A GOOD FRIEND BUT I CAN’T SAY THAT I’M YOUR FRIEND BECAUSE SOMETIME I FEEL THAT WHEN I SEE PEOPLE...
    IqbalStyles IqbalStyles
    18-21, M
    Apr 15
    I'm insane and i have mental disorders. But i can be normal if i want
    Batwoman1968 Batwoman1968
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 14
    So has anyone found a good forum to migrate to after EP closes? One that is fairly open minded and easy going and easy to use and welcoming and busy and such? I know about...
    JoannaBe JoannaBe
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Apr 11
    I joined Experience Project when I was going through a rough patch. I remember going on and typing my problems away. I got good advice from some people. Then, as soon as everything...
    nemophilist8 nemophilist8
    18-21, F
    Apr 11
    Yes I am and I can honestly say I'm so nervous about it. Its been 10 years since I went to college, and had to take some time off for other reasons(work, family, etc...etc). Now...
    Msprissy Msprissy
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Apr 11
    10pm: Time for bed! Want to be refreshed in the morning 10:30: Crap! I forgot To do my homework.. 11:00: Homework is nearly done, I'm going to watch a movie while I finish it...
    EnchantedHopes EnchantedHopes
    13-15, F
    Apr 10
    The only thing I'm not going to miss are the troubled trolls, who make fake profiles just to start trouble.
    yournotme yournotme
    36-40
    Apr 10
    We've been going out for about 5 months. Its been great and I love her. I should be happy and excited by this right? The only problem is that Im not sexually attracted to her but I...
    steviemac95 steviemac95
    18-21, M
    Apr 9
    Where is everyone going now that EP is closing? Any similar sites?
    kinkgal kinkgal
    18-21, F
    13 Responses Apr 9
    It's hard not to. I'm split into so many parts. So many thoughts and emotions that feel like they shouldn't be mine. But it's more than that, no one sees the things I do in music...
    justbnatural justbnatural
    22-25, M
    1 Response Apr 8
    Since there's only a couple of weeks left of Ep, I'm going to find more time to come on here. Maybe every other day until they shut this site down. I guess I'll...
    shelikesher shelikesher
    70+
    1 Response Apr 8
    My boyfriend and I fought for 2 or 3 months because I suspected he was cheating when I noticed he started acting differently. It upset me because we shared a love that was...
    CMC93 CMC93
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 8
    I have accepted the fact that not everyone is going to like me or my nudist lifestyle. I do not apologize for my nudist lifestyle at all and never will. I am very comfortable...
    familynudiststogether familynudiststogether
    36-40, F
    10 Responses Apr 8
    For example, unrealistic beauty standards for men and women. Men are supposed to be with huge muscles constantly buff and toned and look like professional athletes and weight...
    moonlightflower moonlightflower
    22-25, F
    Apr 8
    We are going out to dinner tonight. I will treat my husband with a pair of his favorite leather high heels:)
    JennyTom JennyTom
    41-45, F
    Apr 7
    I'm trying to be myself, but I'm so insane and wierd, I like saying random things that makes no sense, like, "how's your chicken doing?" Or if someone says like "I watched TV today...
    PigMonkeyHybrid PigMonkeyHybrid
    18-21, M
    Apr 7
    When a man calls a woman the "c" word, (rhymes with "stunt"), I tend to assume he's garbage and not raised by anyone who gave a damn. I suppose that's harsh. But that is what...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    16 Responses Apr 7
    I love being with friends at a place where none of us has to wash a dish.
    geminigirl54 geminigirl54
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Apr 6
    My boyfriend broke up with me. I have had a difficult life, struggled with horrible depression and anxiety sense the age of 6years old, when i first started being addressed, as I...
    anonlovely anonlovely
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 6
    Actually, EP is leaving us!
    Hannah1100 Hannah1100
    13-15, F
    1 Response Apr 6
    I need to get some kind of contact info from some people in my circle before THE EXPERIENCE PROJECT comes to a halt...
    PrometheusArcanus PrometheusArcanus
    31-35, M
    1 Response Apr 6
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