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I Am Slowly Going Insane

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    Where's The Limit?

    Someday things might pile up and I will not even be able to be the weak person I am now. I have a fear of going insane. Of losing my memories and not knowing who I am. I might as well be dead then.
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Mar 28, 2010

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    I Guess That's What This Is

    I didn't know what it was when you sit on your bed and wish you could clear all your thoughts away with gun powder and chemicals from under the sink. I consider my habit to think aloud a healthy one, but maybe not because I end up going in circles with reason and yelling at the...
    Girlonwire Girlonwire 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 19, 2011

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    My Mind Plays Tricks On Me..

    Before leaving the house i will pat myself down and check to see if i have my keys and phone.Then i check and see if the stove is off,then i leave.At first it was a quick little routine.Recently i have caught myself doing it 4 or 5 times before i leave.Sometimes I have to stop...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 29, 2010

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    Every day i can feel sanity slipping away.

    I know that i probably will not be able to take care of myself in the not so distant future,i do a pretty **** poor job as it is now....
    SideshowB SideshowB 22-25, M 2 Responses Jun 27

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    Changed.

    I have been trying to put my thoughts onto paper to keep myself sane, but nothing is helping this unbearable feeling of hopelessness. I used to be a straight A student. I used to be happy. The only happiness I get now is through the pain of others and myself. Seeing the blood run...
    ManicDepressiveKid ManicDepressiveKid 16-17, M Jul 13, 2012

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    But In A Good Way

    I have alot of strangers going out of their way to tell me why they dis like me and what they want to do to me and i have let every little thing get to me for the past few months also i have tryed to block it out with my drug use and i have let my mind open to all the things...
    nuttyrocker nuttyrocker 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 28, 2010

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    It's embarrassing to be this emotionally

    dependent on a man who is already "committed" to someone else. He has been my security blanket for over ten years, and what we had developed into has become completely out of hand. I want to be with him so desperately, and then I come to the realization that he would be no good...
    strivingforsanity strivingforsanity 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 13

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    Im not really one for liking people

    who are too over helpful, who think that you cant do anything by yourself, who patronise you and make you believe that you cant do those tasks yourself. I think this is driving me slowly insane, and the worst bit is when you grow up and have no independence.
    Verix Verix 18-21, M Jul 31

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    This Is Ridiculous

    My husband of 12 yrs, recently went to prison. Before he left we decided to get a divorce.  A couple of weeks after he left I slept with someone else. Then the following week I get a letter from him confessing that he had been cheating since day one of our marriage. ...
    turmoil turmoil 31-35 Mar 27, 2010

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    Wonderful And Alone

    I am a wonderful person. I am a wonderfulperson who got so stressed out bc of what happened in her marriage, had to go on anitdepressants. For many years this medication enabled me to face the world and all the trials and challenges. I've tapered off of them, and mainly I'm...
    bittersweet7 bittersweet7 46-50, F Mar 29, 2010

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    I used to be a balanced 50% sane, and 50% insane. Now after my nervous breakdown last September, that got me put into a mental institution for the 2nd time. I am now 20% sane and 7...
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    Floo64 Floo64 22-25, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Stress is a cause of Migraine/Tension headaches...Stress is being generated by this game. I am losing my mind. Deep voice: What? You've always been crazy. I was only kidding...
    TransmutedHeart TransmutedHeart 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    My emotions are all over the spot I think I'm going to be insane!
    Brookedrumm Brookedrumm 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 19

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    i have an older brother who is literally insane and a drug addict ..over the years he's been in and out of psychiatric wards and mental hospitals and rehabs.. since i can remember...
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    4 weeks today. Although it still hurts, I think I'm finally beginning to heal. Nothing feels the same anymore which makes it hard, but I'm holding out hope that things will be okay...
    ohglob ohglob 18-21, M 5 Responses Nov 24

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    So going back to a post I made a while ago, It has been an off and on again experience...Why am I so clueless and stupid to take him back every time he fails to exceed the...
    starbucksgirl27 starbucksgirl27 22-25, F Nov 28

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    November 29. Step Twelve. The Twelfth Step says that having had a spiritual awakening, we try to carry this message to others. Our message is one of hope, love, comfort, health...
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    Bubbles0329 Bubbles0329 13-15, F Dec 8

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    I'm going to. I have wanted to for about six years now and tried to two years ago. The only thing that kept me and has kept me from doing it is being afraid of what other people...
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    For awhile I wanted to be the one to support everyone else, I wanted to be strong. That's changed quite dramatically. I just want to be held and feel protected now. Though I think...
    Friability Friability 18-21 1 Response Nov 22

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    and just be friends. My intuition is telling me to run. Even if I might be simply paranoid, (which I don't think I am), I'm going to honor my feelings simply because their mine...
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    So I get sentenced this December 9th 2014 , for a crime I didn't commit but it isn't how hard you fall but how hard you fall and you keep going , fear is normal but not going to...
    spanishjay spanishjay 26-30, M Dec 3

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    In 2010 my 23 year old brother died unexpectadly, in 2011 I got let go from my job, in 2012 after not being supportive at all my husband left me. I found out he hAd been cheating...
    RainStorm19 RainStorm19 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 4

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    It's been going on for a long time, and usually when I'm in bed late at night. I have several unresolved issues from my past that, sadly enough, might remain that way. The...
    mike584 mike584 26-30, M Dec 4

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    I'm working hard on getting back in shape after some medical issues that kept me from going to the gym.It was a very hard beginning to get back into it.I'm now in a good place...
    AfanOfbigNaturals AfanOfbigNaturals 41-45, M Dec 7

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    HarmonyCHILL HarmonyCHILL 26-30, F Dec 7

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    Chihero87 Chihero87 18-21 Dec 7

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    I don't know how much longer I can persevere with it. 5 years we've been together. It's so hard right now. Intimacy is so important to me and it's not there. I feel like I make a...
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    I am literally heartbroken. I've never went this crazy before. I've went from crying to throwing things. Throwing things to breaking things. Breaking things to smashing things...
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