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I Am Slowly Going Insane

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    Changed.

    I have been trying to put my thoughts onto paper to keep myself sane, but nothing is helping this unbearable feeling of hopelessness. I used to be a straight A student. I used to be happy. The only happiness I get now is through the pain of others and myself. Seeing the blood run...
    ManicDepressiveKid ManicDepressiveKid 16-17, M Jul 13, 2012

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    Every day i can feel sanity slipping away.

    I know that i probably will not be able to take care of myself in the not so distant future,i do a pretty **** poor job as it is now....
    SideshowB SideshowB 22-25, M 2 Responses Jun 27, 2014

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    This Is Ridiculous

    My husband of 12 yrs, recently went to prison. Before he left we decided to get a divorce.  A couple of weeks after he left I slept with someone else. Then the following week I get a letter from him confessing that he had been cheating since day one of our marriage. ...
    turmoil turmoil 31-35 Mar 27, 2010

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    It's embarrassing to be this emotionally

    dependent on a man who is already "committed" to someone else. He has been my security blanket for over ten years, and what we had developed into has become completely out of hand. I want to be with him so desperately, and then I come to the realization that he would be no good...
    strivingforsanity strivingforsanity 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 13, 2014

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    My Mind Plays Tricks On Me..

    Before leaving the house i will pat myself down and check to see if i have my keys and phone.Then i check and see if the stove is off,then i leave.At first it was a quick little routine.Recently i have caught myself doing it 4 or 5 times before i leave.Sometimes I have to stop...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 29, 2010

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    Im not really one for liking people

    who are too over helpful, who think that you cant do anything by yourself, who patronise you and make you believe that you cant do those tasks yourself. I think this is driving me slowly insane, and the worst bit is when you grow up and have no independence.
    Verix Verix 18-21, M Jul 31, 2014

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    But In A Good Way

    I have alot of strangers going out of their way to tell me why they dis like me and what they want to do to me and i have let every little thing get to me for the past few months also i have tryed to block it out with my drug use and i have let my mind open to all the things...
    nuttyrocker nuttyrocker 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 28, 2010

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    Where's The Limit?

    Someday things might pile up and I will not even be able to be the weak person I am now. I have a fear of going insane. Of losing my memories and not knowing who I am. I might as well be dead then.
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Mar 28, 2010

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    I Guess That's What This Is

    I didn't know what it was when you sit on your bed and wish you could clear all your thoughts away with gun powder and chemicals from under the sink. I consider my habit to think aloud a healthy one, but maybe not because I end up going in circles with reason and yelling at the...
    Girlonwire Girlonwire 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 19, 2011

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    Wonderful And Alone

    I am a wonderful person. I am a wonderfulperson who got so stressed out bc of what happened in her marriage, had to go on anitdepressants. For many years this medication enabled me to face the world and all the trials and challenges. I've tapered off of them, and mainly I'm...
    bittersweet7 bittersweet7 46-50, F Mar 29, 2010

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    I know the reason,the logic,the wrong and the right,the black and the white.But when all fails to make sense,the mind crumbles.,.shatters,empties and then...then it is scary...
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    I'm feeling like a #ucking, mad plot right now, so here I go, ambiguity, ambiguity, my journey has led me to many eyes of the God, but why must these eyes lead to more ambiguity...
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    Maybe, i dont know.... I Just think different... Im insane?
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    You don’t even have an inkling of how anxious this heart remains for you? What kind of dreams this heart dreams? When I feel you close my heart wants to freeze the moment so that...
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    I am very easy going. It has taken along time to get this way, i wasn't always as laid back. It took years and it took work. But I slowly started seeing myself in others and I didn...
    myzterieboy myzterieboy 41-45, M Mar 8

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    Alright... Fine so in my last post I might have gone on about how easy it was or is to let go or how easy the choice might have been. Apparently I was lying to myself a bit. My...
    Qwert143 Qwert143 22-25 1 Response Mar 16

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    You can build a future out of anything. A scrap, a flicker. The desire to go forward, slowly, one foot at a time. You can build an entire city out of ruins....
    Brunette4U Brunette4U 31-35, F Mar 12

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    That I am slowly but surely figuring it all out
    shannonsjourney shannonsjourney 18-21, F Mar 18

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