I Am So Complex, I Confuse Myself

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    Cruelty Meter Quiz....whoooooaaaaaa

    This marks the top of the cruelty meter. After this you aren't cruel anymore, you're EVIL. Cruelty level 5 means that all you ever want to do is cause pain, because nothing brings you as much joy. You love the feeling that you can cause people to suffer, and you are always...
    caramelLova1 caramelLova1
    36-40, F
    Oct 6, 2011

    Like A Big Rubberband Ball...

    That's how my mind feels. I'm really interested in forming better relationships in my future than I have in the past, but sometimes I worry I will not be able to find someone who will be able to deal with the complexity of me. I grew up rather neglected and prone to escape into...
    BohemianLikeYou BohemianLikeYou
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Jul 11, 2010

    Sure Am!

    Sure am. Everyone laughs when I get confused, they just don't realise how complex I am. I bet they'd wish they were me. So complex, so brilliant so smiley, I should have my own smiley face :)
    Luangi Luangi
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 17, 2008

    Sometimes I swear I have split personalities!

    Part of me Thinks of Brenda as a loving mother and part of me doesn't understand her. I love her dearly, but I find myself not trusting her...but I do. I have her in her own little box in my head, I trust her with things that I need help with, I love her more than any other...
    SaphiraJane SaphiraJane
    18-21, F
    Jun 29, 2014

    Go. No, stay. No, just go.

    Wait, I don't want that. Make up your mind, girl! What is it that you want? I want to have this amazing friendship and love and respect for each other. I want us to be connected. I want to kill my indecision. I want to be washed of the shame and guilt I feel. I want to love with...
    DisappearIntoSilence DisappearIntoSilence
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Feb 11, 2016

    This whole "eukaryotic organism" thing still

    wigs me out. I mean organs! What the hell are those? Know what I'm sayin? Guess I'm just still getting used to it.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jul 5, 2015

    Whenever someone says they like me I'm always

    like " so do you like, like like me or do you like me as much as you like your puppy??"
    Cleopatra05 Cleopatra05
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Nov 29, 2015

    How In the H*** Am I Suppose to Know?

    How am I suppose to figure myself out when my manic vs depression can cycle around my little finger.  I go from the "I understand all" to the "what in the hell now".  I go from positive to negative and back around to lots of energy and then ...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Mar 6, 2009

    Im So Complex, I Don't Understand Myself.

    I am very complex, and i don't even understand myself.  I've gone through years of every form of therapy there is to offer.  The 1st and worse was the in-patient mental health unit.  I had become suicidal and had a fantasy going about how I was going to end my...
    WarriorMom WarriorMom
    51-55, F
    6 Responses Feb 22, 2009

    Why am I so upfront and talkative with people

    but avoid a relationship at all cost -.- I'm not afraid of asking people out, I'm not insecure about myself. In fact my confidence is by far my favourite aspect about myself c:< I enjoy company, kicking back on a day off. But this just left me in shock. I want a relationship...
    deleted deleted
    Jun 23, 2015

    A Skilled Writer Once Said...

    john darnton in the book "mind catcher" said: "The difficulty in studying the mind is that the object that must understand, and the object to be understood are the same thing."
    EntrepGuy EntrepGuy
    22-25, M
    10 Responses Dec 8, 2007


    Bah. It’s another quiet period but this time it is different, my life is more positive than it has ever been I think. I’ve discovered a lot about myself lately- new ways to deal with the old problems, maybe even for good. I am boy crazy, and I always have been, but lately...
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Oct 13, 2011

    Constant Confusion

    It makes me giggle a bit. Everyone has always said that I am awfully complex. And I seriously do confuse myself, so I can only imagine how my husband and therapist feel. I am sure a lot of it has to do with being Bipolar. I feel like some of my complexity fades a bit when my...
    KeepMySecrets KeepMySecrets
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jun 16, 2008

    Too Complex For A Guy

    Sometimes I want to smack myself because I get as emotional as my girl. I analyze everything but at the same time people will talk about how laid back I am. Things easily get to me then I won't give a damn about important things. Bipolar? Deep? Hell I don't know. Growing up in...
    ivegotyou ivegotyou
    22-25, M
    Aug 30, 2012

    Arguing With Myself

    Sometimes i'm just me, pretty straightforward, and i know what i want, but sometimes this changes, and suddenly i'm divided. I know it's still me, but it's a me who's organized in different levels, each with a task, with someting to do, and they keep reminding the "main" me of...
    jafetgx jafetgx
    26-30, M
    Nov 29, 2013

    I do have the habit of making things

    so complex though they are so small things. I tend to break my head for silly and rubbish things.
    Mentalobrain Mentalobrain
    26-30, M
    Jun 11, 2014

    MY Boyfriend Told Me This

    31-35, F
    2 Responses Aug 14, 2008

    I don't wanna sleep but I know I get really

    tired without it and I have school tmr. I'm so irritating.
    GreyMattertome GreyMattertome
    18-21, F
    Oct 23, 2014

    Who's That Girl - the One That's Me? Who's That?

    I don't get myself. Stubborn yet submissive, playful yet serious, stupid yet smart, and there are so many more freaking contradictions that I would have to type up the freaking word "freaking" about a Brazilian gillion times to get through half of them. Insane, right...
    mixedview mixedview
    18-21, F
    Jan 16, 2008

    Something strange about me,

    is that i can feel many things almost on cue. I don't know the first thing about acting, but it must be something like that. To fall in love is the easiest of them all. If you get to know someone deeply enough, you'll find something that you can fall for, from then it's just...
    jafetgx jafetgx
    26-30, M
    Jan 11, 2014

    Full of Contradictions

    Just when I think I got myself figured out I do a 180.  Do we ever actually know ourselves?  Sometimes, I run into people...friends, counselors...that seem to know me better than I know myself.  That scares the s hit out of me.
    darlene darlene
    41-45, F
    5 Responses Dec 29, 2007

    Very Frustrating.

    Its frustrating to know that my mind, and heart don't always follow the same beat..I consciously know that I constantly change my mind, and it annoys the life out of me. I try my hardest to focus on one thing, and to follow up with that one thing, but it never works. I have to...
    Thumpur Thumpur
    26-30, F
    1 Response Nov 23, 2010

    Don't Know Where to Start

    I've been thinking about this for a while but I really don't have the time to get down everything I want to say.  And you probably don't have time to read it.  Because there's no beginning and also no end. I always seem to over analyse and over complicate...
    psyko psyko
    36-40, F
    7 Responses May 11, 2009

    What Is Going On With Me?

    Never mind the way I think - and that is also confusing, and definitely way out of the "Normal". Even things that should basically be mostly logic don't jive with the standard flow. That would be medical issues mostly, my primary doctor has told me point blank that I am...
    RdBarchetta RdBarchetta
    41-45, M
    Oct 21, 2012

    I Will Never Understand Myself.._x

    i have no idea why i do things half the time. why i feel things why i say things. im a complicated person which i fear no one will ever understand or want to understand..
    FromTheHeartOfaWoman FromTheHeartOfaWoman
    22-25, F
    1 Response Dec 8, 2007
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