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I Am So Conflicted and Confused

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    I'm feeling so conflicted lately.

    Part of me loves the fact that I can blend in and am totally unseen. I'm pretty much invisible. The other part of me is longing for someone to notice and love me. I think these two things are in direct contrast with each other, yet I can't decide which one I want. I know that...
    imreel imreel 36-40, F Sep 2

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    I'm pretty sure I know how you feel.

    But I can't decide whether that's making me move on, or pushing me to try even harder.
    terribletaytor terribletaytor 18-21, F Jul 14

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    Constantly Fighting With Husband

    I haven't even been married for a year and I don't think my marriage will last.  My husband says that I am not the same since my friend died one year ago. I don't have many friends.  Neither does he.  He always says that we don't have any quality time together, but...
    salongirl salongirl 36-40, F 2 Responses Sep 11, 2009

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    Love As Thou Wilt

    I broke up with my boyfriend because I wasn't happy. He was controlling, but he was also trying to stop. He was trying to fix himself. But I just couldn't wait. I was hurting. From the past and the present. And I thought I was making a good decision, the right one. But now I'm so...
    verkozigan verkozigan 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 6, 2008

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    Sometimes I get lost in life.

    I have no idea what I am doing or why. Maybe I do, but repetitive failures blur my mind. Then I question myself. Then I forget. While I am stuck here waist deep in confusion, loneliness creeps in.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 20

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    I just found the ticket stub from my first date

    with my boyfriend... Also just found that the date on the ticket is the same day my best friend killed himself. I don't know what to feel anymore. X.x
    PraiseGod101 PraiseGod101 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 3

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    I can literally feel my mind changing

    and personality changing. Sometimes I'm quiet , sometimes , I'm active , or lazy or thinking alot , being perverted , then being insightful , then being angry , ashamed , happy , goofy, cold , sober , high , drunk, rolling , come downs , I swear I'm my best friend and worst...
    reader44 reader44 26-30, M Apr 21

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    Torn Apart

    So on the one hand there is my father. 81 yrs old, blind and no clue about handling finances, legal stuff or running a household. Also a compulsive hoarder and expects the house to magically clean itself and such. Has health issues that require administration of medications...
    DieKatzeSchreibt DieKatzeSchreibt 41-45 Jul 17, 2011

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    Confused Conflicted and Lost.

    it seems to me that i  don know my self, or anything really. every time i think i am getting a solid notion of life, people, relations ANYTHING it changes. there are so many things so many feelings i feel like i can barely speak..and i probably shouldnt because i cant even...
    bambiblue bambiblue 16-17 5 Responses Jan 8, 2009

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    Thou Shalt Not Love.

    I'm torn between what I know in my heart and what I know from my Faith. At the moment, faith's winning out. I wish I knew what to believe.
    Emptysoul30 Emptysoul30 22-25, M 8 Responses Sep 11, 2009

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    A year ago my best friend

    and I were having conversation at chow baby with one of our old teachers and she was concerned that she was settling for her boyfriend. Back then I thought that she should just leave, like what's the problem but she felt too conflicted for it to be that easy. She thought it...
    Shygirl917 Shygirl917 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 13

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    I used to live in Germany.

    After high school, i came back to start college in South Carolina. After two years, i moved up to Philadelphia with friends. Now i moved back down to South Carolina to 'finish college,' start a homestead with my brother, and build a business with him as log home builders. On...
    seimiol seimiol 22-25, M Aug 7

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    We'll im a 12 year old boy with divorced

    parents lately meaning the past year or so I have wanted to become and act like a baby again. If anyone has any advise please tell me. By the way i have not told my parents because I'm afraid they will get very mad.
    BabyAgain BabyAgain 61-65, M Apr 3

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    I Don't Get It Why I'm Hurting And He Don't Give A Damn

    I been married for ten years now. We had our good times and what seems like more bad times as of late. I feel like he lost love for me and it prob is something i am not giving enough of or doing enough of but then when I ask I get the it's not you it's me crap. I am tired...
    WendyYang WendyYang 26-30, F Oct 5, 2013

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    I Am Numb From This Morning's Meltdown

    The past few months have been so hard for me. In October, I was raped by my brother in law, in November my fiance and I broke up and this month has been nothing but family drama and trauma and an enormous amount of stress. A little background info.. I am disabled from a failed...
    tmarker86 tmarker86 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 24, 2012

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    Trying to Run In 3 Directions At Once!

     There are so many things to get done and only so many hours in which to do them so you prioritize and then comeone comes up with a new priority and you start the craziness all over again!  Why can't life be more predictable?  Well, in a cemetary it is but I'm not...
    dorobo dorobo 70+, M 9 Responses Apr 27, 2009

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    Conflicting Feelings

    I feel like I have a very hard time distinguishing right from wrong.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 28, 2013

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    Glorious Creatures

    So my best friend and I have basically told one another that we're in love with each other. Nice, huh? Well here's the catch ... I'm with someone whom i do love, but also hate. And I want to be with my best friend so bad. But I don't want to lose a potential good thing right now...
    verkozigan verkozigan 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 25, 2008

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    Conflictedness Never Stops

    Heart: It's alright, you'll be fine! Brain: No you won't. You're going to mess this up just like everything else. Heart: No she won't! You be nice! Brain: You know it's true. You KNOW she'll mess everything up just like always. She'll just have to deal with being miserable, now...
    Snow1353 Snow1353 18-21, F Feb 12, 2013

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    Am I Already Too Deep?

    What if all of this is a sick joke to him? It won't be the first time it's happened. If it is, I shouldn't be surprised. And yet, I find myself falling deeper and deeper. I caution myself of the insane abyss just a step away from where I'm standing, and at times I ignore it, but...
    Snow1353 Snow1353 18-21, F Feb 12, 2013

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    I'm 22 and my boyfriend

    and I started dating 5 years ago. We now have a 2 year old son. We had a rough year or so where we broke up a lot, but we were finally in a very good place when I got pregnant. I question whether or not I would still be with him if I hadn't gotten pregnant. My son truly saved my...
    Milly2012 Milly2012 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 17

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    I Need Quick Respnse. Its About My Boyfriend And His Ex

    Okay so I've been dating this guy for about 6 months. I've been in a long term relationship before, but this by far is the happiest I've ever been. We never fight and I consider him my best friend. This is beside the point. The problem isnt my relationship... it is his, with his...
    singergal545 singergal545 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 31, 2009

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    I feel so stupid, because I thought I've

    already gotten over him. Maybe I didn't. I had spent months and months feeling so empty inside, slow fire inside me that was melting away everything I had until I was numb and couldn't feel anything anymore. One of my closest friends has been talking to him recently. Yesterday...
    ThatAcappellaGirl ThatAcappellaGirl 18-21, F Aug 31

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    Conflicted-what would be the best decision

    for me? Should I be concerned more about the "us"? I feel like I know the answers but there are parts of me that constantly toss the doubts around, further tangling my emotions, thoughts, desires up into a knot of despair...one that is resting deep within me . I feel sick, I...
    143ily 143ily 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 16

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    my ex gf's moms ex gf kissed me tonight

    after we got really drunk and I liked it? I have no idea how to feel or what to do :/
    cubshadow cubshadow 18-21 Apr 28

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    Ok, so, if you've seen one of my last posts, you'll know that theres this guy I like. Its really hard to tell if he likes me though, you'll see why I'm confused. So, we were...
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    I'll be the first to admit that I mocked long distance relationships, I genuinely believed that they couldn't possibly exist and be real. Now I feel more confused than ever before...
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    I am confused about where I am right now in my relationship , I know i gave it my all, but things have taken a sour turn and I know he loves me and I do love him, very much, the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 19

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    So.... Recently I have meet this new guy, he treats me amazing. I am full on head over heels for this boy, even taken him to meet my son! We both have a history with drugs, but...
    ForeverFighting10 ForeverFighting10 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 20

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    I wanna harm for no reason at all, I could be having and amazing day then suddenly I need to cut. Im so confused, why does this happen?
    MatchIntoWater MatchIntoWater 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 20

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    I am feeling confused with my emotions towards my boyfriend. I'm very tired, and don't feel like typing a ton tonight, so long story short- I don't trust him. We haven't been...
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    I love my soulmate and lover very much. We are very close to making a life together after living 6000 miles apart. We love sex and swinging but as we are apart play alone including...
    IanMcL IanMcL 51-55, M 1 Response Aug 23

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    cantlovealone cantlovealone 18-21, F Aug 23

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    So, there's this guy in my class and it feels like I have a crush on him. I don't know what I like about him tho. He's funny. That's all. I don't know why my heart is choosing to...
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    I am so confused I love my Husband but I know he is toxic for me and he lies and sleeps with other people. I have proof of one person but not others. I feel it with all my being...
    mb1973 mb1973 36-40, F 2 Responses Aug 30

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    Over the past year I've been struggling with my sexuality a lot,although I don't feel like having a boyfriend,I think it might help me identify weather am a lesbian or not.Am just...
    crazcat97 crazcat97 13-15, F Aug 30

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    I have such crazy mood swings, one moment I'm super happy, next I'm really depressed. The thing I'm confused about is that there really is no solid reason for this, life is moving...
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