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I Am So Conflicted and Confused

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    I feel so stupid, because I thought I've

    already gotten over him. Maybe I didn't. I had spent months and months feeling so empty inside, slow fire inside me that was melting away everything I had until I was numb and couldn't feel anything anymore. One of my closest friends has been talking to him recently. Yesterday...
    ThatAcappellaGirl ThatAcappellaGirl 18-21, F Aug 31

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    Sometimes I get lost in life.

    I have no idea what I am doing or why. Maybe I do, but repetitive failures blur my mind. Then I question myself. Then I forget. While I am stuck here waist deep in confusion, loneliness creeps in.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 20

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    Am I Already Too Deep?

    What if all of this is a sick joke to him? It won't be the first time it's happened. If it is, I shouldn't be surprised. And yet, I find myself falling deeper and deeper. I caution myself of the insane abyss just a step away from where I'm standing, and at times I ignore it, but...
    Snow1353 Snow1353 18-21, F Feb 12, 2013

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    Love As Thou Wilt

    I broke up with my boyfriend because I wasn't happy. He was controlling, but he was also trying to stop. He was trying to fix himself. But I just couldn't wait. I was hurting. From the past and the present. And I thought I was making a good decision, the right one. But now I'm so...
    verkozigan verkozigan 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 6, 2008

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    We'll im a 12 year old boy with divorced

    parents lately meaning the past year or so I have wanted to become and act like a baby again. If anyone has any advise please tell me. By the way i have not told my parents because I'm afraid they will get very mad.
    BabyAgain BabyAgain 61-65, M Apr 3

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    Thou Shalt Not Love.

    I'm torn between what I know in my heart and what I know from my Faith. At the moment, faith's winning out. I wish I knew what to believe.
    Emptysoul30 Emptysoul30 22-25, M 8 Responses Sep 11, 2009

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    I used to live in Germany.

    After high school, i came back to start college in South Carolina. After two years, i moved up to Philadelphia with friends. Now i moved back down to South Carolina to 'finish college,' start a homestead with my brother, and build a business with him as log home builders. On...
    seimiol seimiol 22-25, M Aug 7

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    A year ago my best friend

    and I were having conversation at chow baby with one of our old teachers and she was concerned that she was settling for her boyfriend. Back then I thought that she should just leave, like what's the problem but she felt too conflicted for it to be that easy. She thought it...
    Shygirl917 Shygirl917 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 13

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    Confused Conflicted and Lost.

    it seems to me that i  don know my self, or anything really. every time i think i am getting a solid notion of life, people, relations ANYTHING it changes. there are so many things so many feelings i feel like i can barely speak..and i probably shouldnt because i cant even...
    bambiblue bambiblue 16-17 5 Responses Jan 8, 2009

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    Torn Apart

    So on the one hand there is my father. 81 yrs old, blind and no clue about handling finances, legal stuff or running a household. Also a compulsive hoarder and expects the house to magically clean itself and such. Has health issues that require administration of medications...
    DieKatzeSchreibt DieKatzeSchreibt 41-45 Jul 17, 2011

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    Trying to Run In 3 Directions At Once!

     There are so many things to get done and only so many hours in which to do them so you prioritize and then comeone comes up with a new priority and you start the craziness all over again!  Why can't life be more predictable?  Well, in a cemetary it is but I'm not...
    dorobo dorobo 70+, M 9 Responses Apr 27, 2009

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    I'm feeling so conflicted lately.

    Part of me loves the fact that I can blend in and am totally unseen. I'm pretty much invisible. The other part of me is longing for someone to notice and love me. I think these two things are in direct contrast with each other, yet I can't decide which one I want. I know that...
    imreel imreel 36-40, F Sep 2

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    Constantly Fighting With Husband

    I haven't even been married for a year and I don't think my marriage will last.  My husband says that I am not the same since my friend died one year ago. I don't have many friends.  Neither does he.  He always says that we don't have any quality time together, but...
    salongirl salongirl 36-40, F 2 Responses Sep 11, 2009

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    I just found the ticket stub from my first date

    with my boyfriend... Also just found that the date on the ticket is the same day my best friend killed himself. I don't know what to feel anymore. X.x
    PraiseGod101 PraiseGod101 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 3

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    my ex gf's moms ex gf kissed me tonight

    after we got really drunk and I liked it? I have no idea how to feel or what to do :/
    cubshadow cubshadow 18-21 Apr 28

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    Conflicted-what would be the best decision

    for me? Should I be concerned more about the "us"? I feel like I know the answers but there are parts of me that constantly toss the doubts around, further tangling my emotions, thoughts, desires up into a knot of despair...one that is resting deep within me . I feel sick, I...
    143ily 143ily 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 16

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    I'm pretty sure I know how you feel.

    But I can't decide whether that's making me move on, or pushing me to try even harder.
    terribletaytor terribletaytor 18-21, F Jul 14

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    Glorious Creatures

    So my best friend and I have basically told one another that we're in love with each other. Nice, huh? Well here's the catch ... I'm with someone whom i do love, but also hate. And I want to be with my best friend so bad. But I don't want to lose a potential good thing right now...
    verkozigan verkozigan 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 25, 2008

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    I'm 22 and my boyfriend

    and I started dating 5 years ago. We now have a 2 year old son. We had a rough year or so where we broke up a lot, but we were finally in a very good place when I got pregnant. I question whether or not I would still be with him if I hadn't gotten pregnant. My son truly saved my...
    Milly2012 Milly2012 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 17

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    I Don't Get It Why I'm Hurting And He Don't Give A Damn

    I been married for ten years now. We had our good times and what seems like more bad times as of late. I feel like he lost love for me and it prob is something i am not giving enough of or doing enough of but then when I ask I get the it's not you it's me crap. I am tired...
    WendyYang WendyYang 26-30, F Oct 5, 2013

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    Conflicting Feelings

    I feel like I have a very hard time distinguishing right from wrong.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 28, 2013

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    I have been with my wife

    for seven years, married for 5. We have 3 children and lately our marriage has been on the rocks. She has told me she has not been feeling the same way about us and cut me off physically, emotionally, and intimately. It started with me being distant because of work issues. Then...
    xilimarhluk xilimarhluk 31-35, M Oct 12

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    I can literally feel my mind changing

    and personality changing. Sometimes I'm quiet , sometimes , I'm active , or lazy or thinking alot , being perverted , then being insightful , then being angry , ashamed , happy , goofy, cold , sober , high , drunk, rolling , come downs , I swear I'm my best friend and worst...
    reader44 reader44 26-30, M Apr 21

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    Conflictedness Never Stops

    Heart: It's alright, you'll be fine! Brain: No you won't. You're going to mess this up just like everything else. Heart: No she won't! You be nice! Brain: You know it's true. You KNOW she'll mess everything up just like always. She'll just have to deal with being miserable, now...
    Snow1353 Snow1353 18-21, F Feb 12, 2013

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    I Am Numb From This Morning's Meltdown

    The past few months have been so hard for me. In October, I was raped by my brother in law, in November my fiance and I broke up and this month has been nothing but family drama and trauma and an enormous amount of stress. A little background info.. I am disabled from a failed...
    tmarker86 tmarker86 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 24, 2012

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    I Need Quick Respnse. Its About My Boyfriend And His Ex

    Okay so I've been dating this guy for about 6 months. I've been in a long term relationship before, but this by far is the happiest I've ever been. We never fight and I consider him my best friend. This is beside the point. The problem isnt my relationship... it is his, with his...
    singergal545 singergal545 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 31, 2009

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    I'm conflicted and confused about sex.

    how, where it fits in my life. if it's really okay. if I want it if I dont. idk I guess I just felt like I had to get it out.
    EFairy EFairy 22-25, F Nov 17

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    I'm too much confused about my life about my feelings I don't know what to do next. I feel sad sometimes & feel did I took wrong steps in my life even tho everything other side is...
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    I'm 20 years old now, and couldn't feel more lost and confused about the direction my life has taken over the past 2 1/2 years. Ever since I graduated in 2012, I've been all about...
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    Hello everyone. This is my first post ever. I am so very confused about my relationship. I am 30 and I have been with this guy who is just 2 years older to me. We have been...
    hema51 hema51 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 10

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    I am in college, and recently had my first sexual encounter with another girl, and it has left me feeling very confused. I can remember being curious about my sexuality since...
    TashaIIL TashaIIL 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 11

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    I just don't get it... Why do parents reward their children for misbehaving? My 21-yr-old step-daughter has been on drugs and booze (in excess) for years now. Her parents live in...
    fishsweeper fishsweeper 51-55, F 3 Responses Dec 11

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    November 23. Healthy Sexuality. Many areas of our life need healing. One important part of our life is our sexuality. Our feelings and beliefs about our sexuality, our ability to...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 1 Response Nov 23

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    I have a boyfriend and I love him but I'm starting to develop feelings for my friend and she's a girl I love the way she looks at me and how she smiles when she is happy I love...
    TimePrincess TimePrincess 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 23

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    We'll it all started in the summer inbetween June and July I met this girl who lives across the street from me . We became some what good friends I would usually talk to her when I...
    piaseh piaseh 13-15, F Nov 28

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    November 28. Back to the Steps. Go back to the Steps. Go back to a Step When we don't know what to do next, when we feel confused, upset, distraught, at the end of our rope...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Nov 28

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    so i know some things as facts and i know i feel some things as facts and i know that some of the things i feel as facts are not facts... i could keep going but it will just...
    Anaihsohs Anaihsohs 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 29

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    ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️Warning❗️❗️❗️❗️❗️ ***** about to get really serious. So many people dont know that i get confused. Like right now. The...
    amberlxl amberlxl 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 29

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    It's been six years and I'm still confused. Sometimes I wonder if I am that stupid to put myself in this situation and this state of confusion. I'm not sure if I am where I want to...
    purplefreespirit purplefreespirit 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 30

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    You can't follow your heart when it's more confused than your head. So the second your heart starts to beat faster RUN while you still can!
    RebeccaMontero RebeccaMontero 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 2

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    I am confused if i like him or it was just pity want to talk about it badly.
    Regkid Regkid 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 4

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    I get confused by how much I let social media negatively affect my mood. Especially sites like Facebook where I'm constantly tortured by attractive people I went to school with...
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25, F Dec 6

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    This is the first time I've ever talked about my confusion as I don't really have many friends and it's much easier to say to a bunch of strangers! I am attracted to both men and...
    Jodieeee95 Jodieeee95 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 7

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    I had a confusion in my mind. This confusion was like a mystery for me at that moment and till now. Today, I woke up had a cup of coffee, got ready for work. I kissed my mom as...
    adiscorpion41 adiscorpion41 22-25, M 4 Responses Dec 8

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    Really confused...like...I hate the way I'm feeling right now. Yet I don't know what to think about it, how to act upon it...I feel strange, awful and wrong feeling this way...
    MeowOnMe MeowOnMe 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 8

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    yes.. I am just so confused about everything. .
    mystic00 mystic00 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 10

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    I need some advice someone help me here? Well,I've dated two girls this year. The first one lasted for 8 months and second one lasted for almost 2 months. Before I dated the...
    Achelle07 Achelle07 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 10

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