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I Am So Conflicted and Confused

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    Am I Already Too Deep?

    What if all of this is a sick joke to him? It won't be the first time it's happened. If it is, I shouldn't be surprised. And yet, I find myself falling deeper and deeper. I caution myself of the insane abyss just a step away from where I'm standing, and at times I ignore it, but...
    Snow1353 Snow1353 18-21, F Feb 12, 2013

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    I just found the ticket stub from my first date

    with my boyfriend... Also just found that the date on the ticket is the same day my best friend killed himself. I don't know what to feel anymore. X.x
    PraiseGod101 PraiseGod101 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 3, 2014

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    Love As Thou Wilt

    I broke up with my boyfriend because I wasn't happy. He was controlling, but he was also trying to stop. He was trying to fix himself. But I just couldn't wait. I was hurting. From the past and the present. And I thought I was making a good decision, the right one. But now I'm so...
    verkozigan verkozigan 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 6, 2008

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    We'll im a 12 year old boy with divorced

    parents lately meaning the past year or so I have wanted to become and act like a baby again. If anyone has any advise please tell me. By the way i have not told my parents because I'm afraid they will get very mad.
    BabyAgain BabyAgain 61-65, M Apr 3, 2014

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    I'm 22 and my boyfriend

    and I started dating 5 years ago. We now have a 2 year old son. We had a rough year or so where we broke up a lot, but we were finally in a very good place when I got pregnant. I question whether or not I would still be with him if I hadn't gotten pregnant. My son truly saved my...
    Milly2012 Milly2012 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 17, 2014

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    I feel so stupid, because I thought I've

    already gotten over him. Maybe I didn't. I had spent months and months feeling so empty inside, slow fire inside me that was melting away everything I had until I was numb and couldn't feel anything anymore. One of my closest friends has been talking to him recently. Yesterday...
    ThatAcappellaGirl ThatAcappellaGirl 18-21, F Aug 31, 2014

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    I'm pretty sure I know how you feel.

    But I can't decide whether that's making me move on, or pushing me to try even harder.
    terribletaytor terribletaytor 18-21, F Jul 14, 2014

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    I'm conflicted and confused about sex.

    how, where it fits in my life. if it's really okay. if I want it if I dont. idk I guess I just felt like I had to get it out.
    EFairy EFairy 22-25, F Nov 17, 2014

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    A year ago my best friend

    and I were having conversation at chow baby with one of our old teachers and she was concerned that she was settling for her boyfriend. Back then I thought that she should just leave, like what's the problem but she felt too conflicted for it to be that easy. She thought it...
    Shygirl917 Shygirl917 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 13, 2014

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    I have been with my wife

    for seven years, married for 5. We have 3 children and lately our marriage has been on the rocks. She has told me she has not been feeling the same way about us and cut me off physically, emotionally, and intimately. It started with me being distant because of work issues. Then...
    xilimarhluk xilimarhluk 31-35, M Oct 12, 2014

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    Degree Shift!!! I took my time

    and researched all my options and I chose a college degree program on a campus I like. Everything was going well, until the college audited my degree program and moved it to online only for study. I do so much better with the on campus in person classes and I learn so much more...
    LadyGypsy LadyGypsy 36-40, F 1 Response Feb 20

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    I'm feeling so conflicted lately.

    Part of me loves the fact that I can blend in and am totally unseen. I'm pretty much invisible. The other part of me is longing for someone to notice and love me. I think these two things are in direct contrast with each other, yet I can't decide which one I want. I know that...
    imreel imreel 36-40, F Sep 2, 2014

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    Thou Shalt Not Love.

    I'm torn between what I know in my heart and what I know from my Faith. At the moment, faith's winning out. I wish I knew what to believe.
    Emptysoul30 Emptysoul30 22-25, M 8 Responses Sep 11, 2009

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    I Don't Get It Why I'm Hurting And He Don't Give A Damn

    I been married for ten years now. We had our good times and what seems like more bad times as of late. I feel like he lost love for me and it prob is something i am not giving enough of or doing enough of but then when I ask I get the it's not you it's me crap. I am tired...
    WendyYang WendyYang 26-30, F Oct 5, 2013

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    Constantly Fighting With Husband

    I haven't even been married for a year and I don't think my marriage will last.  My husband says that I am not the same since my friend died one year ago. I don't have many friends.  Neither does he.  He always says that we don't have any quality time together, but...
    salongirl salongirl 36-40, F 2 Responses Sep 11, 2009

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    Conflicted-what would be the best decision

    for me? Should I be concerned more about the "us"? I feel like I know the answers but there are parts of me that constantly toss the doubts around, further tangling my emotions, thoughts, desires up into a knot of despair...one that is resting deep within me . I feel sick, I...
    143ily 143ily 22-25, F Feb 16, 2014

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    Torn Apart

    So on the one hand there is my father. 81 yrs old, blind and no clue about handling finances, legal stuff or running a household. Also a compulsive hoarder and expects the house to magically clean itself and such. Has health issues that require administration of medications...
    DieKatzeSchreibt DieKatzeSchreibt 41-45 Jul 17, 2011

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    I used to live in Germany.

    After high school, i came back to start college in South Carolina. After two years, i moved up to Philadelphia with friends. Now i moved back down to South Carolina to 'finish college,' start a homestead with my brother, and build a business with him as log home builders. On...
    seimiol seimiol 22-25, M Aug 7, 2014

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    so last friday i broke up with this guy id been

    dating almost 4 months, were still talking now. well i got a new bf but talking to my ex makes me see every reason why i love him and i miss him so much it hurts. my best friend told me to stay with the guys im with now for a few days to let my heart figure out what it wants...
    TsGirl16 TsGirl16 16-17, F 6 Responses Feb 11

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    my ex gf's moms ex gf kissed me tonight

    after we got really drunk and I liked it? I have no idea how to feel or what to do :/
    cubshadow cubshadow 18-21 Apr 28, 2014

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    Confused Conflicted and Lost.

    it seems to me that i  don know my self, or anything really. every time i think i am getting a solid notion of life, people, relations ANYTHING it changes. there are so many things so many feelings i feel like i can barely speak..and i probably shouldnt because i cant even...
    bambiblue bambiblue 16-17 5 Responses Jan 8, 2009

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    I Need Quick Respnse. Its About My Boyfriend And His Ex

    Okay so I've been dating this guy for about 6 months. I've been in a long term relationship before, but this by far is the happiest I've ever been. We never fight and I consider him my best friend. This is beside the point. The problem isnt my relationship... it is his, with his...
    singergal545 singergal545 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 31, 2009

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    Sometimes I get lost in life.

    I have no idea what I am doing or why. Maybe I do, but repetitive failures blur my mind. Then I question myself. Then I forget. While I am stuck here waist deep in confusion, loneliness creeps in.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 20, 2014

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    Glorious Creatures

    So my best friend and I have basically told one another that we're in love with each other. Nice, huh? Well here's the catch ... I'm with someone whom i do love, but also hate. And I want to be with my best friend so bad. But I don't want to lose a potential good thing right now...
    verkozigan verkozigan 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 25, 2008

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    Conflicting Feelings

    I feel like I have a very hard time distinguishing right from wrong.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 28, 2013

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    I Am Numb From This Morning's Meltdown

    The past few months have been so hard for me. In October, I was raped by my brother in law, in November my fiance and I broke up and this month has been nothing but family drama and trauma and an enormous amount of stress. A little background info.. I am disabled from a failed...
    tmarker86 tmarker86 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 24, 2012

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    Conflictedness Never Stops

    Heart: It's alright, you'll be fine! Brain: No you won't. You're going to mess this up just like everything else. Heart: No she won't! You be nice! Brain: You know it's true. You KNOW she'll mess everything up just like always. She'll just have to deal with being miserable, now...
    Snow1353 Snow1353 18-21, F Feb 12, 2013

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    I can literally feel my mind changing

    and personality changing. Sometimes I'm quiet , sometimes , I'm active , or lazy or thinking alot , being perverted , then being insightful , then being angry , ashamed , happy , goofy, cold , sober , high , drunk, rolling , come downs , I swear I'm my best friend and worst...
    reader44 reader44 26-30, M Apr 21, 2014

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    So to sum up the way I'm am conflicted, I am both an experienced sword fighter and a diaper lover. I am learning to live in harmony with my self but its hard when you have...
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    I get confused and lost often lately. I am in a state I've never seen before, visited, and know nobody. Except for my boyfriend and roommates. Often ask myself, "where am I...
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    I am currently in that stage where I have literally no idea what the hell is going on in my mind and heart. I'll try and make this pretty short. Just to say this is going to be...
    themuffintitan themuffintitan 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 6

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    I'm confused about guy who I ever wrote here, who I loved with someone online from Canada. called he with 'J'. about 3weeks ago his gf msg me in fb. she said I'm so freaking...
    callixtine callixtine 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 7

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    I'm just all of the above and then it's heightened by my overactive mind. My main crush doesn't like me back and I know cuz I told him. He's not into guys, but he has an over...
    NobodyLove NobodyLove 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 11

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    My husband and I have been trying for a baby for a few years. He is a cancer survivor and our difficulties in conceiving are related to his previous treatments. We had gotten...
    perfectlyimperfect2 perfectlyimperfect2 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 25

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    Just warning, this might get slightly long. So, I am a 13 year old girl. (Please don't judge me by my age). I have always been kind of "boyish" or however you want to call it. I...
    Wildheart919 Wildheart919 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 6

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    There is no easy way to explain the confusion I have right now. I've been very lucky to be able to "escape" to Hawaii for the week and get away from all the stress and things...
    dabram71 dabram71 16-17, M 1 Response Feb 7

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    I wouldn't go as to call it a relationship. I don't know what I should call it. But I need urgent help. There is this girl that I love. We'll call her Cheese. I met her in my gym...
    shecancareless shecancareless 22-25, F Feb 8

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    I am so confused about what's going on with my best friend and I. I am depressed and want to figure things out. Is anyone able to talk to me and give me some advice, maybe tell me...
    jamiewright26 jamiewright26 26-30, F 2 Responses Feb 10

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    I have liked guys all my life and been in long-term relationships with them but I've been intrigued with girls as long as I can remember. I started kissing with girls in elementary...
    raspberry23 raspberry23 18-21, F Feb 10

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    There's this boy I'm actually friends with. I think. And he's weird like reeeally but i still accept him the way he is. We have a lot of similarities specially about video games...
    jesssaying1997 jesssaying1997 16-17, F Feb 12

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    My crush and I were such good friends and we always talked to each other, I dont know what happened but he ignores me now. He always talks to my other friends and smiles at them...
    nisadallas nisadallas 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 12

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    He still hasn't called.. It's been about 4 days since we have last talked. I remember he hang up on me, I don't know what annoyed him.. I didn't even say anything stupid or...
    endlesslyyyforever endlesslyyyforever 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 12

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    Does anyone else have a person where you have lots in common, and you get along fantastically, and you can talk and talk and agree on most everything, but as soon as you two are...
    luna1912 luna1912 18-21, F Feb 13

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    Sexy time letdown! I would love to have a bit of perspective on something. I’m in a great, long term relationship with a good guy, and try hard to keep things fun. I trust him...
    Clumsycanadiangirl Clumsycanadiangirl 36-40, F 1 Response Feb 15