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I Am So Depressed and Lonely I Am Afraid I Will Commit Suicide

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    Lately I've been so depressed

    and lonely. I'm only 18 , 19 next month and I'm already tired of living every single night I cry myself to sleep. Instead of going to lunch at school I just go in the bathroom and cry. I take sleeping pills like tynenol pm or benedryl as soon as I come home so I can go to sleep...
    Depressedteen95 Depressedteen95 18-21, F Jan 18

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    Its May Sound Naive," I Feel Hopeless"

    hi im 22, 2yrs course programmer college grad... i ended up factory worker , plastic molder,Range assistant.auditor... its been 2 years since i graduate.. i always want to be a programmer.. I'm applying for it this last 2 years and they offer me job which is not related ..i feel...
    needguide needguide 22-25 May 23, 2013

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    Why?

    Yesterday, I ran one lap around the cross country course and then I burst into tears and hid.  Oh god.. I hope you guys are real, and not spammers.  I really need this... I have been very depressed for about 2 years now.  I'm afraid I'll never get back to the happy...
    Vithani3 Vithani3 18-21 12 Responses Apr 8, 2009

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    My Life Sucks

    I am 44, a mom, wife, grandma, haven't been able to work since 2005 due to chronic migraines. I feel totally useless. We were homeless in 2006 for 4 months cos our house was foreclosed on after I couldn't work and after my unemployment ended. My husband started working the same...
    red2babe red2babe 41-45 Sep 23, 2012

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    Rough Stuff

    Really struggling with depression. I have been for a long time, I just think I didn't realize it when I was younger.i am a college freshman . School is tough especially when you have no friends. I have tried very hard to make a friend at college but I haven't yet.i also have a...
    Bremarie Bremarie 18-21, F Nov 2, 2012

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    I Hate Me.

    I feel like all I want anymore is to be done with it all. My life has been one disappointment after another for along time now for me and everyone around me. I lost my marriage of 22 yrs when she left me for another, who was married with kids also. That really started the process...
    gaveup gaveup 41-45 Dec 11, 2012

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    I Just Want To End It All

    I am a 56 year old woman, divorced, unemployed and living with 80+ year old parents who took me in after I became homeless in 2007. My husband walked out on me in 2000 but after getting great grades and a Master's in Teaching, I was sure I would be able to land a job teaching...
    mereshadowofmyself mereshadowofmyself 56-60 6 Responses Jul 9, 2010

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    Ik Out Of The Hospital

    I am out of the hospital and currently living with my sister but I lost my job and it sucks just cause I didn't tell them I was in the hospital for attempting suicide but anyway they found someone to take my pace. When I came back they wernt looking to hire anyone so I'm pissed...
    Applelovergod Applelovergod 22-25 4 Responses Oct 18, 2013

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    Right Now

    Today i fell like killing myself because im sick of hurting being used and treated like **** and today just everything is running thru my head. Last year i lost my son i was 6 months pregnant when i lost him. My boyfriend wasnt there at first i couldnt get ahold of him so i rang...
    millionreasonstodoit millionreasonstodoit 18-21, F Oct 13, 2012

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    It Would Make More Sense If I End My Life Than Continue Living In This Hell Hole I'M In!!!

    You'd think someone like me would be happy. I met my close friend for ten years, started a relationship with him, got an apartment with him. Became a step mom to his wonderful son. Moved into a townhouse with him.Had a baby myself, who is now almost a year, and now, our family is...
    secrecy4evr secrecy4evr 26-30, F 1 Response May 10, 2013

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    Don't Want To Breathe

    Waking up every morning feels like the biggest struggle. I don't know whether to be thankful to god for letting me see another day or question myself as to why I'm alive. With great difficulty as I wake up and get myself out of bed, all I know is nothing has changed and today's...
    lifeastruggle lifeastruggle 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 20, 2013

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    Feel So Depressed And Lonely

    Hi I'm new to all this. I've been on anti depressants for a few years now. Like everybody I have good days normal days and bad days. The bad days don't normally last that long but the last month I feel so down and terrible. I just wana cry all the time but I have be strong for my...
    Searching2smile Searching2smile 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 30, 2013

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    Manic Depression

    So I was diagnosed bipolar and now take antidepressants and anti-psychotics. Lately all i can do is sleep all day and be up half the night which leaves me very alone. I feel hollow. I get withdrawls if i don't take the antidepressants in time which often happens from taking anti...
    ChrisGeee ChrisGeee 26-30, M Nov 25, 2013

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    Depressed And Going Out Of My Mind!

    I have issues. I feel overwhelmed by things more days than not. I have a large close-knit family, a loving boyfriend, many good friends and the sweetest dog. With all these good relationships I feel like I should not be feeling so hopeless and depressed, but I do. I feel pathetic...
    LostBirdy LostBirdy 26-30, F Sep 1, 2011

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    Numb

    Hey everyone.Im just so depressed and numb.I lost my best friend who moved away(also the love of my life).Im 40,never married.Lost my job(been outta work almost a year),going lose my home.Currently living with parents.Feel so worthless,part of me knows better but part of me is...
    cpsteelers cpsteelers 36-40, M Aug 6, 2012

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    I Wish...

    Right now I am in the living room, crying and feeling so lonely. Most of the time I would like to disappear, I think that everything would be easier if I didn't exist. I can't tolerate the pain anymore, the loneliness, I feel empty and so scared! I wish things were easier but it...
    Pixiechica Pixiechica 26-30, F 3 Responses Jul 16, 2010

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    So Tired Of Life

    I have been seriously contemplating suicide for a week now -- this is not something new, it comes and goes over the years, but this is the worst yet because I'm so lonely. I know a lot of people, but the reality is, if I didn't make an effort, they wouldn't either. i have...
    cteeter cteeter 41-45 2 Responses Sep 2, 2012

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    Is There A Way To Fix A Soul

    Is there a way to Fix a soul, To heal those wounds to make the pain go away ? is there away to make it all stop. To feel nothing just live day by day as a zombie just no emotion, I have had so many people claim they know me, They know what I have been threw. How I have not gotten...
    NsprDash NsprDash 22-25, M 2 Responses Jun 18, 2013

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    I Felt Like I Was Losing My Mind

    I been very depressed for about a week or 2 now ,just very,very down but Sunday afternoon I was sitting at my computer desk and started feeling very sucidal ,I felt like taking a knife and stabbing myself or overdosing on drugs ,But i was like telling myself "This can't be...
    mylifeisanightmere mylifeisanightmere 18-21 5 Responses Sep 27, 2011

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    The Darkness Looks Peaceful

    I am 29 years old and I am depressed. My dad recently passed away, but I have been depressed long before then. When I think about it I realize that I have been depressed my whole life. If my existence was represented by an hour glass, nothing more than a few specs of sand would...
    OrlandoDeBois OrlandoDeBois 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 9, 2013

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    Why Do I Hate Myself?

    I am a 28 year old women with 3 kids, a husband (my second one)(we just got married Aug 15 '09), we own our home and in every sense I should be happy. But I am absolutly miserable. I cry all the time, I hate coming home at night I don't eat because the thought of food makes...
    hockeystarsmom hockeystarsmom 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 17, 2009

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    I Can't Stand Myself!

    I am in my mid thirtys and live with my mother. I am fat 350 pounds. I have had problems with drugs and alcohol ever since my father shot himself when I was a teen. I don't know what to do or where to turn. All of the people I loved in my family died due to violent untimely...
    helpmeiamdying helpmeiamdying 31-35 3 Responses Apr 28, 2012

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    Feel So Depressed And Lonely

    Hi I'm new to all this. I've been on anti depressants for a few years now. Like everybody I have good days normal days and bad days. The bad days don't normally last that long but the last month I feel so down and terrible. I just wana cry all the time but I have be strong for my...
    Searching2smile Searching2smile 26-30, F Sep 30, 2013

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    I Havent Slept In Four Days

    i caught my girlfriend cheating the other day, packed mostmy **** went to my moms, came back the nxt day to get wat was left and she begged me not to leave her, i told her get ur life together, go to AA and quit calling in to work, she said she would i said then prove it to me, i...
    coltsfan93 coltsfan93 18-21, M 3 Responses Dec 18, 2012

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    I Am So Down Right Now

    Things are really going wrong right now. I am so down I just can't pick myself back up. My wife and I separated two years ago and are now divorced. The end of the relationship was not all my fault. I made mistakes and so did she. I have some emotional issues and problems...
    checkinitout73 checkinitout73 36-40, M Jun 7, 2013

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    Unhappy

    I am so depressed right now and think about suicide. I don't like myself that much. Im a 25 year old male. I'm told I'm a great looking Guy but I think why is it then that why girls aren't all over me. I just had my first relationship at 25 it only lasted a month and I was kinda...
    no1chargerman no1chargerman 22-25 1 Response Feb 20, 2012

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    When Does It End

    Hi I have done 5 and a half years in prison I came to Australia when I was 3 after prison I had to go to a detention centre as my visa was cancelled I have been in Australia for 33 years after an appeal I got my visa back and got out I started my life again trying to get over...
    itstomuch itstomuch 36-40 Jun 7, 2013

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    I Have No Answer

    and i am sorry for what you are going thought i really i am sorrythe system has yet to changes in all these year but taking your own life is not going to fix the problemi am sorry to say i made a promise years ago to never try and do it again si i have been stopped for...
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M 2 Responses Sep 27, 2011

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    I'm Afraid My Life Is Going To End In Suicide.

    I am a 31 y/o male. I am in excellent physical condition and take great care of myself. I currently am working on my masters degree in clinical psychology. I believe due to my life experiences IE: marriage, divorce, 2 daughters living with my ex and her new husband causes me...
    krisinfla krisinfla 31-35, M 2 Responses Jul 26, 2013

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    A Choking Feeling Of Depression

    I am 23, a virgin and never had a girlfriend. Throughout my life i have been rejected by every girl i had tried to approach. Regardless of any prior relationship i had with them. Girls that i just met at the pub ,street or workplace. Friends of friends or even girls i have...
    Marvetastic Marvetastic 22-25, M 3 Responses Feb 22, 2013

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    Tired Of It All

    I have always been a very generous and giving person, I have the reputation of being strong and thus I attract alot of needy people. I always try to help the best I can, whether it be money or favors. I made a pretty good living at the time, so just felt good about being able to...
    looneyben looneyben 51-55, M 2 Responses May 5, 2012

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    I Am A Moron

    I don't hate myself, but my life is incredibly unsatisfactory. I was abused a lot as a child, and I grew up to be a loud, obnoxious, depressed, attention-seeking, and an insecure, self-destructive loser. I came from a very Catholic background, my parents have a 40 statues of...
    littlemissmach littlemissmach 22-25, F 6 Responses Feb 4, 2012

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    Ready To Go

    I am 30 years old and I have been depressed for quite some time now. I usually just mask it and pretend like everything is ok and go on with my daily life routine. I am a workaholic. I work everyday so I don't have to deal with my feelings of loss and rejection. My mom died last...
    aqua83 aqua83 26-30 Jun 30, 2013

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    Thoughts That Wont Go Away

    Its been a tough couple of weeks. I thought I was starting to feel a bit better and when I say better I mean I started to talk to others a bit more and felt a bit normal. However, I then kinda hit a brick wall and I dont know why, I started crying myself to sleep for the past...
    Dopey82 Dopey82 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 30, 2011

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    Please Someone Help!...Im Literally At An End Right Now....

    I am 23 years old right now/ female. plse do not tell me im young. plse do not tell me i will find someone...im balling right now in tears bc im helpless...i need serious help..I have been depressed and "lost" since my 2 year relationship ended in 2011. It was devastating and i...
    justregistered justregistered 22-25 2 Responses Oct 16, 2013

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    Moving Forward (i Guess..!)

    Hi, im separated and currently working towards a divorce im 34 years old and have a 3 year old doughter, i decided i wanted to separate because she had cheated on me in 2010, she asked me to forgive her and that it was an error in judgement, and asked me to forgive her, i tried...
    Texcatlipoca Texcatlipoca 31-35, M Jan 18, 2013

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    Help Me Please

    i am so lonley i havent spoke to anyone for days every day i wake up and ask for someone to come into my life. please anyone help me as i dont know how long i can go on, i am so ready to die, yet i hang on hoping to meet someone who will love me hold me give me a purpose to live...
    maggiefloyd maggiefloyd 56-60 3 Responses Jan 22, 2010

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    Numb

    I have been depressed for about 2 years. It all stems from a relationship which broke down and I havent gotten over. Over time, It destroyed everything else in my life. I did have a job which was the only thing that was keeping me going, but I was made redundant 2 months ago and...
    elvybaby elvybaby 22-25, M 2 Responses Apr 24, 2012

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    Best Left to Those Who Procrastinate

    Without exception, my suicide attempts have been unsuccessful.  I tried it by installments, drug and alcohol abuse, what I refer to as "the death of 1,000 cuts," and the fast way, driving my car into a wall at 100 mph. Ultimately suicide is tacky, it's bad form...
    ElLagarto ElLagarto 56-60, M 6 Responses Jan 19, 2008

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    Mum

    i have been deppresed for 3 years i lost my mum in 2010ive gt no dad and i just feel like killing myself rite now
    arfon arfon 31-35, M Jan 8, 2013

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    Sooner Or Later, I Might Kill Myself

    i feel so lonely and useless lately, i've accomplished nothing in my life except for pathetic achievements. im a good for nothing spoiled brat who goes to a college i hate and cant fit in. i feel so ungrateful with everything i have and i wish i could just end it. every night...
    AdamYusuf AdamYusuf 18-21, M Dec 1, 2013

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    I Want To Die But Would Never Leave My Daughter

    What do I do? I want to kill myself so much that it hurts. I wish I was dead more than anything and would leave this horrible life if I could, but I have a beautiful 2 year old daughter I could never leave behind. If she weren't here.... I would run away from this hell so fast...
    Bluejay333 Bluejay333 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 6, 2013

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    Desperation

    i have friends who care and listen, but i still feel like there's nobody. I try so hard not to get down enough to be suicidal but it often seems I end up there. I've tried only a couple of times, none of my friends know that I have, it's hard to feel so alone and lost, like there...
    shaun0h shaun0h 26-30, T 7 Responses Jan 19, 2008

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    I Hate My Life:(

    I AM SO DEPRESSED I HAVE NO REAL FRIENDS MY FAMILY HATES AND I FEEL SO SAD AND ALONE I FELT DEPRESSED SINCE I TURNED 11 THATS WHEN I STARTED CUTTING TO DEAL WITH EVERYTHING. AT AGE 17 I CUT WRISTS DEEP AND HID IT WITH MT HOODIE/ I DIDNT KNOW IT WAS STATE TESTING WEEK AND THAT...
    sadprince90 sadprince90 18-21, M 5 Responses Jan 7, 2012

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    Finding It Hard To Breath

    I don't understand anything anymore I keep trying to feel something and stay out of the way but things go bad to worse everyday.I'm sad everyday. I feel like I want to die but I'm to afraid to go though suicide.Every thing I try to do goes to hell and as of now I have no...
    NsprDash NsprDash 22-25, M 6 Responses Jul 24, 2011

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    Manic Depression

    So I was diagnosed bipolar and now take antidepressants and anti-psychotics. Lately all i can do is sleep all day and be up half the night which leaves me very alone. I feel hollow. I get withdrawls if i don't take the antidepressants in time which often happens from taking anti...
    ChrisGeee ChrisGeee 26-30, M Nov 25, 2013

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    Have Alot Of Family But Yet I Feel So Alone!

    I HAVE BEEN FEELIN DEPRESSED FOR ALMOST MORE THEN 10YRS & TODAY IS THE 1ST DAY I FELT LIKE KILLIN MYSELF. IM 26 WIT 2 KIDS NO HIGH SCHOOL DIPLOMA OR WORK HISTORY & WHEN I NEED HELP I HAVE NO ONE TO TURN TO BUT WHEN ANYBODY NEED ME IM THERE FOR THEM! ITS LIKE I AM AT A STAND STILL...
    goodppl goodppl 26-30, F Aug 22, 2012

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    Alone. (Only Child)

    I am 23 years old. Lately I feel so depressed. I feel like I'm experiencing depression for the 1st time. Not sure what to do anymore. My life has been very difficult growing up. Been through so many situations. At school it was always hard for me to fit in and make friends, at...
    Banana777 Banana777 22-25 Jun 7, 2013

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    One of my bestfriends all through high school that I