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I Am So Depressed, I Just Want the Pain to Stop

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 34 People

    I know I have to go on

    but I can't do it anymore. I am so depressed and unhappy. I just can't stop crying and wishing to be dead everyday. I feel like an alien since I was born. The world is a horrible place, all these pain and injustice makes me feel so insecure and hopeless. Is goodness really...
    blackjasmine blackjasmine 36-40, F 2 Responses Mar 29, 2014

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    My boyfriend is a recovering addict.

    He's been very verbally abusive to me because of it and it's been making me very depressed. I want to be there for him but the nicer I am to him the more horrible he is to me. Everyday my chest hurts from the sarcastic/hurtful comments he makes each day to me. I tell him this...
    lilbuggy lilbuggy 22-25, F Apr 30, 2014

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    I cheated on my boyfriend

    when our relationship was rocky last year...we have been trying to repair it ever since but we are from a small town and people will not let him or I live it down. Which is making it impossible for us to move forward. Idk what to do, it seems like it'll never end but I don't...
    thatgirl0977 thatgirl0977 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 29, 2014

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    The worst part of it is that it can get worse. I'm at the edge of the cliff between being okay and slipping back down. I've come so far but I've recently realized it might have...
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    I lost a great friend when I was 8. My grandma. She was always there for me. Always cheered me up, She was like a 2nd mother to me. Then she died. Everything changed for me. I...
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