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I Am So Depressed, I Just Want the Pain to Stop

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    I know I have to go on

    but I can't do it anymore. I am so depressed and unhappy. I just can't stop crying and wishing to be dead everyday. I feel like an alien since I was born. The world is a horrible place, all these pain and injustice makes me feel so insecure and hopeless. Is goodness really...
    blackjasmine blackjasmine 36-40, F 2 Responses Mar 29, 2014

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    I cheated on my boyfriend

    when our relationship was rocky last year...we have been trying to repair it ever since but we are from a small town and people will not let him or I live it down. Which is making it impossible for us to move forward. Idk what to do, it seems like it'll never end but I don't...
    thatgirl0977 thatgirl0977 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 29, 2014

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    My boyfriend is a recovering addict.

    He's been very verbally abusive to me because of it and it's been making me very depressed. I want to be there for him but the nicer I am to him the more horrible he is to me. Everyday my chest hurts from the sarcastic/hurtful comments he makes each day to me. I tell him this...
    lilbuggy lilbuggy 22-25, F Apr 30, 2014

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    I don't know when it started. I don't know when it will end. I just know my now is consumed by it. This feeling that is so intensely felt, that makes me feel nothing at all. This...
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    I'm sick of everyone's profile, saying that they are so depressed. They're gonna be depressed if they don't cheer up. Sorry. I'm not being abrupt. I just want people to feel happy...
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    I randomly came across this website when I was looking for ways to assuage my unhappiness. I have been feeling depressed for the past year and I couldn't heal myself with...
    Silh0uettes Silh0uettes 16-17, M 2 days ago

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    i know what it's like... loneliness, an empty void filled with pain and confusion, being ostracized, judged and misunderstood. Being so alone that it hurts to breathe, maybe since...
    Strangleh0ld Strangleh0ld 26-30, M 2 days ago

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    I just wanna share my story with people its quite suprizing i think, well it started when i was born my mum was with me untill 1 year old she left to come to england i was living...
    VickyxD VickyxD 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    Nobody knows the feeling😔feeling lonely and nobody to talk to😭crying all the time because nobody cares or sees what your going through just wishing everything was okay...
    Myahfreeman14 Myahfreeman14 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I am with the love of my life. In 2002 we were good friends, then dated each other for a while, fell in love, only for us to get into a huge argument, part and go our separate...
    MartiniMagic MartiniMagic 36-40, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I figured out how to fix it. I have to change. But in order to understand what I have to change I have to be able to identify what's causing me pain. My pain seems to stem from...
    imjustaghost imjustaghost 26-30, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    1. I do not believe I will finish this. 2. I am 5'2" AND THREE QUARTERS. 3. I really speak out when something feels wrong to me. 4. I'm an 'INFJ' 5. I believe looking at the world...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I am tired of being a soldier. I am tired of being awake. I am tired of being completely alone. I am tired of a family who can never help me because I'm to week to help myself, I...
    skythuss skythuss 18-21, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I dont know if i am really this depressed. I feel sometimes useless and powerless. I was born in a broken family and that makes me becomes insecure in so many ways, ashamed, no one...
    findingmerlyn findingmerlyn 26-30, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I see what it does to you. You can't stand to see me in pain. I know you'd take it all away from me if you could, but you can't. I know you hate feeling helpless. I'm sorry for...
    oddpodd oddpodd 22-25, F a week ago

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    "Be happy with yourself." Right..how can I be happy with myself if I am not really. I've been truggling to lose weight but I might as well give up. I've failed too many times and...
    PassionForCreativity PassionForCreativity 26-30, F Jan 30

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    I can't do this anymore! I am depressed! I don't feel emotions! I don't feel music! I feel everything is worthless! I feel like whatever I do is anyway worthless and it is! I feel...
    Maaren Maaren 16-17, M 1 Response Jan 30

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    well sometimes tears are a sign of unspoken happiness and a smile is a sign of silent pain
    blossomingangel blossomingangel 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 29

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    Self diagnosed and completely hidden in my real life. I've known for a while now that I'd crept past just simply feeling down to something more serious. I'm an intelligent woman...
    snoopysgirl snoopysgirl 46-50, F 1 Response Jan 29

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    I don't like to use the word "Depressed" lightly. But I think I'm allowed to use it now, after not wanting to admit it for months, maybe even years. It's later than 3 am and I...
    ProcessOfBecoming ProcessOfBecoming 18-21, T 3 Responses Jan 29

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    Being depressed sucks. Like why do humans have to feel pain hahah..
    Kylahhh Kylahhh 22-25, F 6 Responses Jan 28

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    I enjoy drawing, its like a stress reliever when i get depressed or when I just dont feel like dealing with people. I've been told that I'm pretty good at it
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    My girl friend put on a few pounds these past few days Lately she's been over eating and depressed and used food as a way to ease her pain and unfortunately I haven't noticed since...
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    I feel so ungrateful but I'm being as patience with my boyfriend as anyone can be... But I'm loosing my mind and I focus so much on him I don't even take care of myself anymore...
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    This is why I'm so depressed: I feel left out. Okay I have this friend (let's call her Emily since I don't like mentioning their real names) who has been with another friend for a...
    Randompersondemandinghelp Randompersondemandinghelp 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 25

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    LONELINESS "Let me tell you this: if you meet a loner, no matter what they tell you, it's not because they enjoy solitude. It's because they have tried to blend into the world...
    Q2013 Q2013 46-50, F 8 Responses Jan 24

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    Lately I haven't been depressed. I haven't been feeling like myself ever since I've told my grandmother i was bisexual. There was some stuff i've had in the past. Like in the...
    leilanilove123 leilanilove123 16-17, F Jan 23

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    Place your hand over your heart. You feel that? That is called purpose. You’re alive for a reason, so don’t ever give up.The person who completes suicide, dies once...
    Grace2U Grace2U 66-70, F Jan 23

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    Well I hope you guys are happy Michaels out of my life for good thanks a lot of for taking away one of the biggest things that made me HAPPY!!! 😭💔... He might of messed up...
    HELLONWHEELZZ HELLONWHEELZZ 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 22

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    I feel like it's over. I had years of depression, and the last year full of suicidal thoughts, then nothing, emptyness. No emotions what so ever. And.. I.. I cut myself. And I felt...
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    MegaManX97 MegaManX97 18-21, M 4 Responses Jan 20

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    Yeah,that would be really cool..I am trying my best, but I am depressed almost every night.Sometimes during the day,even with friends..I miss the days when I was not crying myself...
    Rocket2323 Rocket2323 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 19

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    I don't know what to do anymore. It seems like depression only go away for a very shot time and then, it comes back. I was so happy I didn't had any depressed moment for weeks but...
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