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I Am So Depressed, I Just Want the Pain to Stop

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    My boyfriend is a recovering addict.

    He's been very verbally abusive to me because of it and it's been making me very depressed. I want to be there for him but the nicer I am to him the more horrible he is to me. Everyday my chest hurts from the sarcastic/hurtful comments he makes each day to me. I tell him this...
    lilbuggy lilbuggy 22-25, F Apr 30, 2014

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    I cheated on my boyfriend

    when our relationship was rocky last year...we have been trying to repair it ever since but we are from a small town and people will not let him or I live it down. Which is making it impossible for us to move forward. Idk what to do, it seems like it'll never end but I don't...
    thatgirl0977 thatgirl0977 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 29, 2014

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    I know I have to go on

    but I can't do it anymore. I am so depressed and unhappy. I just can't stop crying and wishing to be dead everyday. I feel like an alien since I was born. The world is a horrible place, all these pain and injustice makes me feel so insecure and hopeless. Is goodness really...
    blackjasmine blackjasmine 36-40, F 2 Responses Mar 29, 2014

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