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I Am So Depressed, I Just Want the Pain to Stop

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 37 People

    I cheated on my boyfriend

    when our relationship was rocky last year...we have been trying to repair it ever since but we are from a small town and people will not let him or I live it down. Which is making it impossible for us to move forward. Idk what to do, it seems like it'll never end but I don't...
    thatgirl0977 thatgirl0977 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 29

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    My boyfriend is a recovering addict.

    He's been very verbally abusive to me because of it and it's been making me very depressed. I want to be there for him but the nicer I am to him the more horrible he is to me. Everyday my chest hurts from the sarcastic/hurtful comments he makes each day to me. I tell him this...
    lilbuggy lilbuggy 22-25, F Apr 30

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    I know I have to go on

    but I can't do it anymore. I am so depressed and unhappy. I just can't stop crying and wishing to be dead everyday. I feel like an alien since I was born. The world is a horrible place, all these pain and injustice makes me feel so insecure and hopeless. Is goodness really...
    blackjasmine blackjasmine 36-40, F 2 Responses Mar 29

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    Bullying only makes people sad, depressed and feel worthless! So why do people bully? Is it because they're weak? Is it because they're jealous? I don't know why you should think...
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    I am an 18 year old guy in his first year in college. I went to middle school and high school in North Carolina and then I moved to Gainesville, Florida for college. I miss all my...
    rsapne1 rsapne1 22-25, M 1 Response Nov 29

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    I'm here and I maybe young but I am here for anybody who needs to talk.
    lexinwonderland lexinwonderland 13-15, F 4 Responses Nov 29

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    I have been struggling with depression for 10 years. I have no friends, no money, my health is ******. I have tried everything from, herbs, medicine, yoga, mindfullness, meditation...
    BathoryCountess BathoryCountess 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 7

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    I remember the way we were, him and I...such a strange time in my life. I have so much love for him still, and I fear he doesn't love me anymore. He's been ******** completely from...
    twisteduniverse twisteduniverse 22-25, F Dec 15

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    I am afraid today not because I am depressed. But the pain is ready to touch the max limit.. I've bipolar. Was diagnosed when I was in my late teen. Though my mom's friend who...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Dec 16

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    Deep down, I act really strong and happy all the time and I hide my feelings from people but in reality I'm pretty depressed and want to be with someone in this lonely world.
    theultimatesashacourtney theultimatesashacourtney 13-15, F 5 hrs ago

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    I feel like my problems are minuscule after reading some of the posts on here, it makes me feel bad for being sad... I can’t help it though, I feel so worthless. I just turned...
    thecap246 thecap246 18-21, F Nov 27

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    I am depressed and want my mommy nevertruleywanted. I need her to comfort me it's been a rough day for me. I feel like hurting myself
    babygirlh95 babygirlh95 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 9

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    If anyone is ever sad or depressed and wants to talk about it, talk to me! I want to see if I can help~
    Kysandragon Kysandragon 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 13

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    Well at least I think I am. I've been feeling miserable all week even though it's Christmas. I can't sleep and my appetite has dissappeared. I've been taking painkillers...
    DeathIsPartDinosaur DeathIsPartDinosaur 18-21, F 6 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    Some people want to die so badly but there's always obstacles that prevents them from dying...some people wants to live and spent every second of their life...but still didn't make...
    LRxIce LRxIce 13-15, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    i want to talk some one .. i want to discuss some thing .. i am really depressed now .. i am not okay now , i want to talk some one who don't judge me , who listen me everything...
    r110 r110 22-25, M 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    Im Aesha, from kolkata, 22 years old. I dont exactly remember when all of this started- according to the ppl around me, Im always sad..never happy...never hang out and do nothing...
    angelcares angelcares 22-25, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    Today I receive a lot of texts telling me to stop being sad... That is only drama... All I can think is " it's not that easy "
    matty19 matty19 18-21, M 1 hr ago

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    Tons of posts on EP about depression. I'm somewhat in that category. They all want advice. Do they really ? Or do they seek drama ? Be honest people. If you're depressed, anxious...
    JoshM1974 JoshM1974 36-40, M 5 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    My mind is a horrible place to be right now..i mean, it always is. Now i'm laying on my bed, under a purple blanket and thinking, thinking of how much my heart hurt and that i can...
    wearetheworld wearetheworld 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 12

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    I closed down my account less than a week ago. I guess I was just trying to convince myself that I'm better. But I am not better. I hurt, all the time and there is nothing I can do...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    I am thankful for the little things in life, and I try to smile and laugh, but it's not enough to help me. My head is fuzzy like a cotton ball. And grey, like a sorrowful sky. The...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 30

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    For the first time in my life things began to get better. I have a boyfriend and I love him (but...I think he's too good for me), anyway, I actually felt happiness. I haven't felt...
    elena1998 elena1998 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 9

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    I want to kill myself. I've just had enough I don't see the point in trying anymore.
    yoursecretlifestyle yoursecretlifestyle 13-15, F 9 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    sometimes i just want somebody to look me in the eyes and say ur not fine so cut crap.
    gramafey gramafey 13-15, F 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    Its not that im giving up... i just dont feel like fighting anymore. Im 16 and im so depressed. I dont know why..i dont know what to do..i havnt even been outside in 4 days the...
    bunnydisaster77 bunnydisaster77 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 30

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    I'm 21 and I am nowhere were I wanted to be at this age. No matter what I do I seem to have travelled backwards to a point where I feel stuck, alone, angry, and frustrated. My...
    maleoftheyear maleoftheyear 18-21, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Not in order of importance lol. I can't sleep again, so here ya go. No one probably wants to know about me, but you can read it anyway haha. 1. Born and raised in Georgia. 2. I...
    lizygurl lizygurl 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 6

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    I am surrounded by a million different shades of grey, each darker than the one before. My stinging, tear-filled eyes strain as I search desperately for color. A scream fills the...
    GirlforGod2 GirlforGod2 13-15 2 Responses Dec 6

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    I've decided to stop trying to talk about my depression. I'm also ignoring the irony of talking about it right now. I just need to get this out of my mind. I've seen doctors for...
    NeverTrulyWanted NeverTrulyWanted 22-25, F 4 Responses Dec 11

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    Everyone around be seems to be in their holiday spirit. Even the weather is beautiful here where I live. Exactly one year back, I was the happiest girl in the world and never...
    AmberDD AmberDD 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    You may mess up, but you are not a mess up. You may make a mistake, but you are not a mistake. You may screw up, but you are not a screw up. You may fail, but you...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 15

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    One day I'll smile again one day I'll stop the blood from going down my arm one day I'll love myself and one day I'll love someone else too but now I'm buried in sorrow and I'll...
    TayCon321 TayCon321 16-17, M Dec 17

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    December 23. Holiday Triggers. "One year, when I was a child, my father got drunk and violent at Christmas. I had just unwrapped a present, a bottle of hand lotion, when he...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 3 days ago

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    I am about to open my heart completely in here. Today I am living one of the worst days of my life and yes. It's depression, this ghost that has been haunting my life for a long...
    Allaloneandpoisoned Allaloneandpoisoned 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 29

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    Have so many thoughts in my head right now...idk I'm really messed up emotionally and mentally right now I'm scared to tell anyone how I feel and I don't want to be judged I don...
    BadGirl0312 BadGirl0312 26-30, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    My husband of 13 yrs has been living with chronic pain (testicular) for over 4 years now. The cause is due to a nerve disease. He's always been hilarious, the life of the party...
    watershed watershed 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 26

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    Okay, so, I'm depressed but not suicidal, I fail to see the joys of life. I want to constantly sleep. I have heard here and there. That I should volunteer. I... Don't feel I am...
    deademotion11 deademotion11 22-25, M 2 Responses Dec 16

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    Off the top of my head while feeling depressed, leave feedback please The Pain The Stress The Drama Always in pain, stressing and arguing with my mama I wish I didn't fear life...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 1 Response Nov 30

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    November 30. Detachment. One day, my son brought a gerbil home to live with us. We put it in a cage. Some time later, the gerbil escaped. For the next six months, the animal ran...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 1 Response Nov 30

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    i thought I was getting better. I told my parents about my depression and I confessed about cutting myself and self harming. i got put on antidepressants, they took a really long...
    EnjoyTheSilenceX EnjoyTheSilenceX 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 12

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