I Am So Depressed

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 292 People

    I'm so exhausted all day every day.

    I feel like I don't fit in anywhere and I'm just a worthless waste of space. I'm in bed crying all the time and when I'm not I'm like a zombie just looking for something that will give me life and hope. I hate my life. I am with someone who adores me yet I want to throw away it...
    wjwi wjwi
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 22, 2015

    I've got nothing left.

    .. Nothing at all. I wish I'm brave enough to kill myself.
    TwingleLittleStar TwingleLittleStar
    18-21, F
    Nov 17, 2014

    I feel so down and depressed

    neither could i sleep neither could i dream what is life thats all i seem to think about .. What is life?
    DEVILVILLAIN DEVILVILLAIN
    18-21, M
    Oct 9, 2014
    Cobusgx Cobusgx
    16-17, M
    Apr 17
    castaway07 castaway07
    26-30, M
    1 Response Apr 13, 2014

    The past two days i have been

    so depressed. I havent felt this depressed in a long time. I feel stressed, sick, stupid, angry. Im the most stupid person i know. Also my acne has been getting worse. Its never been this bad. I hardly used to get acne but for a few months now it wont go away. I dont know why. I...
    darkskies7 darkskies7
    18-21, F
    Sep 29, 2015

    Tonight on the train home I became aware of the

    little footprint I will leave upon this world. To feel insignificant but feeling that you should want more, yet not really wanting to be more
    Because2014 Because2014
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 11, 2014

    I am from sri lanka.

    and i am of course ftm. but till now i am having famine body what i completely hate... in sri lanka we don't have any facilities to do surgery or having T. I have very beautiful girl friend (i feel she is my wife) and she loves me but some times she feels that "is this gonna...
    MythaShan MythaShan
    26-30, M
    Jul 11, 2014

    I wanna get drunk and high

    and stay like that for the rest of my life
    Idonthaveanameanymore Idonthaveanameanymore
    18-21, F
    Aug 8, 2014

    I cry several times a day.

    I've ruined my life and wondering how it can get better. I got a low GPA in undergrad, didn't get into medical school. All my friends got in but me. I am now doing a degree I hate, but am scared to switch because all the other degrees (pharmacy/law/engineering) are in MASSIVE...
    HelloHello4321 HelloHello4321
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 18

    I wanna quit. I want to let him go.

    He's such a dumb A-Rod I'm sick of it....I'm fighting dying of cervical cancer and have a family to care for 3 little ones and I'm doing it all alone and coping with it all alone...no help or support from him...his mother perpetuates and condones his childish behaviors....I'm'm...
    sammysj8899 sammysj8899
    31-35
    Aug 2, 2014
    miszbrittneyy miszbrittneyy
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 24, 2014

    I hate life right now I just drink

    and have sex to get rid of the stress, hate and pain
    cantpick cantpick
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 18, 2015

    I'm....

    a disappointment to every one. I let my friends and family down, I cant be trusted, I cant be loved, I never do anything right. I dont know what my purpose is on earth, I'm not good at anything , I fail at one too many things and I want to die right now.
    bleu2ooth bleu2ooth
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Jan 14, 2010

    I need help. I'm only 17 years old.

    My boyfriend of a year is graduating. I love him so much. I have been struggling with severe depression since I was 12. I also have a EDNS. I haven't been this depressed in years. He makes me so happy. When he graduates he's not even leaving town so I don't know why I'm so sad...
    alokken570 alokken570
    18-21, F
    May 16, 2014

    Sad & Depressed

    I am so sad and depressed. feel all alone. Kids don't have time for me. They don't understand my depression.
    mainecoonkitty mainecoonkitty
    56-60, F
    9 Responses Jun 17, 2010

    feeling so insecurity.

    i don't no why but its very hurting. i think i cant take this pain to my heart. GOD!!!! really how disgusting i feel today.
    amruthasmily amruthasmily
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 4, 2014

    I feel so down these days.

    Like worst than ever. I wanna rip everything out of my life and start over. I know people are gonna comment 'attention seeker' and stuff. Feel free to comment what u want. I feel so alone, empty and worthless. There are some really great people here on ep, but im praying for...
    LifeOnAThread LifeOnAThread
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Aug 8, 2014

    I wake up in the morning

    and just want to go back to sleep so I do. Feeling like there's nothing here for me to do. Forever heartbroken over everything. Hurt by very one. I'm homeschool on my last year of highschool have always gone to public school until I moved and got bullied for being quite . Yes...
    Sam151 Sam151
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 11, 2014

    Lately, I've been so down

    but now i feel depressed because if any of you read my last blog or questions, you will understand but if not... Oh well. I don't know what do to anymore, I feel like I've reached a dead end to my life... I don't know who to talk to because everyone has got their own challenges...
    Caramels1234 Caramels1234
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jul 8, 2014

    Depression Is Like a Demon Stealing Your Soul!!!!

     Depression is like a demon stealing piece of your soul each day. It lets you out once and a while, then drag you back in. You make deals to be free for a moment, then your back in. It robs you all the happiness inside of you, making life dull, like taking the taste out...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Feb 16, 2009

    I've never really given depression much thought.

    I used to think that its some kind of emo thing, always feeling lonely and isolated from the world. But now that I'm feeling it, its so much deeper than I imagined. I'm not the type to be alone most of the time. I like the company of my friends and I like the idea of loving...
    KnightsCross KnightsCross
    16-17, F
    Aug 3, 2015

    "Depression is a war.

    No winners or losers and the only possible death, is yours." -Me
    felicitymadore felicitymadore
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 11, 2014
    soulalchemist28 soulalchemist28
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jul 13, 2014

    I need a friend. I need social life.

    Message me if you are needing too.
    allissha allissha
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jul 5, 2014

    I feel so depressed and lonely .

    -. Like I just want to cry and I want someone to just hold me and tell me it's gonna be okay, even if it won't be. I don't want to feel like this forever
    brooketheunicorn brooketheunicorn
    16-17, F
    1 Response Nov 5, 2015

    After This I Will Be In "i Don't Belong Here"

    It is not my brain making me Depressed.  It's who I am and this dang Stupped World which doesn't have the sense to know who I am and cooperate with me.  It's the Damn Antitheisis I get for trying to make something about my unique life and not a damn soul is in...
    ChakraSolipsismMGP ChakraSolipsismMGP
    56-60, M
    5 Responses Dec 23, 2009

    I was 'diagnosed' with multiple

    'illnesses' 'Disorders' what ever the government can come up with I guess.... I allowed myself to be diagnosed by a bunch of people who I believed to be superior to me because they wore a jacket and had a fancy pen ha ha After 'curing myself' 'tricking hier archy' And...
    Titch83 Titch83
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Apr 17, 2014

    I realize I shouldn't be,

    but I am just so depressed. I just want to die . I pray to god every night to let me pass away in my sleep. I just can't fight my demons anymore. I've been fighting them all my life and I think they've finally won. I'm a good person, I take care of others. I'm just so alone. I...
    columbusradiogirl columbusradiogirl
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Dec 2, 2014

    I hate living at my house.

    I cant get emancipated yet or move out because I'm in the process of finishing my immigration papers. I wish good things would happen to me for once.
    princesszoe13 princesszoe13
    18-21, F
    Feb 2, 2014

    everyday i feel like something big has died

    within me, and something dies within me every day, the depression only gets stronger ,i can stay in bed for hours not feeling like doing anything that's no way to live.
    sabbracaddabraa sabbracaddabraa
    22-25, M
    1 Response Dec 12, 2015

    This is why I am disabled.

    I have multiple medical problems.
    Chelsea1973 Chelsea1973
    41-45, F
    Nov 14, 2015

    Ok! World You Got Me Depressed Now Satisfied?

    All the things I don't like to have going on, is doing so. Nothing for what I like is happening. I'm damn Depressed today and there isn't any way to get anyone to know that. Just Annoys the Hell out of me. I don't like all these damn days being clear and sunny here in Aberdeen...
    ChakraSolipsismMGP ChakraSolipsismMGP
    56-60, M
    Feb 22, 2010

    I just need help or someone to talk to,

    I've been to the point before where I've been wanting to die and I over come that but now it's getting worse and I need a help out ­čśö
    theedarknessiswithinme theedarknessiswithinme
    13-15, F
    Aug 24, 2015

    I just want to die. I've given up in school I

    just want to cut all the time now and do pills so I become numb. I don't remember what pure happiness feels like.
    hypnoticz hypnoticz
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 10, 2014

    I am so depressed and I don't

    even know why any more. I could say it's stress from work, or frustration because of incompetent coworkers, or lack of money, or the never ending flow of bills. But even if all of those things went away, the depression would still be here, eating away at my soul. I don't know...
    BrokeBandit BrokeBandit
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Mar 21

    I've just had a really bad day in general,

    lied to my friends about being okay, which they didn't believe me. Ha. I'm losing my ability to hide my depression...
    brooketheunicorn brooketheunicorn
    16-17, F
    Nov 13, 2015

    Expecially Right Now

    Yes the holidays are here, that means I am depressed.  Expecically this year.  It has been so rough for my family. I was living in Ventura with my husband at the beginning of the year, but with having a baby and no sitter we decided to move back to my home...
    J21883 J21883
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Dec 18, 2008

    Still dealing with the loss of my mom.

    The loss of everything. I just started a new job. I feel it will be good though. I am a caregiver at an assisted living facility. And I reallllly like it. I am just so out of it though. I have quit so much lately. Before this one, I quit a job, smoking, doing drugs.... I need...
    amberderrickx amberderrickx
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 31, 2014

    It wasn't long ago when I finally said its over

    to my long term relationship of ten years. I thought, and still do, believe it was the hardest choice I ever had to do. As I moved on with my life, I met a man. It blew my mind how perfect he was for me, and I thought everything was going great. Then one day, I never heard from...
    KismetWrites KismetWrites
    31-35
    Dec 10, 2014

    Why Me

    I go through each day saying to myself why me? Why did i get to be the one to be picked to live this life. I life where it seems nothing can go right and I just can't seem to get ahead. A life of suffering that never seems to end. oh why me oh why me????????????
    krispinglover krispinglover
    36-40
    2 Responses Mar 2, 2009

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