I Am So Lost

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    So lost emotionally. I haven't been on here much

    and I've been trying to put all of my focus on school... But Dani here has been having a lot of difficulty with that (talking in the third person for dramatic effect... pathetic yet somewhat comical). In the past 3 weeks I have lost all my motivation, the love of my life, tons...
    alexis3000 alexis3000
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 12, 2015

    this is not home because I always feel alone

    the lies in this walls suffocate me I think they all hate me it’s as if I am drowning in an ocean full of mistakes and they watch over me, as if it was just another day they laugh, and only see the things they want to see arguing with the others who don’t agree...
    childofthemoon13 childofthemoon13
    18-21, F
    Dec 15, 2014

    Lost drowning in nothing skin yells at a

    hollow skull the outcast snapped with deep darkness scars and emotions ghost face box room alone smoke fades the sorrows
    26-30, M
    May 17, 2014
    darkness49 darkness49
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 24, 2014

    How Does It Go From the Sweetest Love Making I Have Ever Felt to Nothing?

    He and I had just made love.  we talked.  It is so hard to have a long distance relationship. It had felt so good to have him near to me again.  I had to tell him that I was so  lonely.  My female friends all abandoned me, as they always do.  (why...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Apr 27, 2007

    I've spent two years trying to figure it all

    out; much longer really counting the years prior to filing for divorce. There are differing perspectives in all things, and I'm not arrogant enough to believe mine is the absolute truth. Somewhere in the middle the truth lays. What I can't come to terms with is how everything...
    Done2014 Done2014
    46-50, M
    Mar 8, 2016

    And i dont know where to go what to do all i

    know is that my kids need me for four more years till they graduate highschool i have to drag this time some how but i dono how ......:(
    anasteel2 anasteel2
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Mar 22, 2015

    Through Heaven And Hell

    If I had known that today would be our last day together I would have spend more time with you just to give you a hug and kiss and to remind you how much I love you. Maybe if I had known that what we spend years creating others would destroy overnight. I never knew people had...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Sep 8, 2011
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Jan 13, 2016
    Kingrazorr Kingrazorr
    26-30, M
    Apr 19, 2016

    Im 22, had 5 different careers start up

    and fail, broke my back 10 months ago( which has stopped me from continuing my last career). i am trying to find my purpose but i just dont know how. i see the world for what it is, in essence, full of people that just dont care about anything but how much money they have and...
    Georgewatson99 Georgewatson99
    22-25, M
    1 Response Oct 30, 2014

    At this point, I'm so depressed

    that I really don't care if I'm going to die from kidney failure anymore. I just want to die already, I'm so miserable. Just take me already, God.
    LindseyElaine LindseyElaine
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 10, 2015

    ...wondering,what a strange world with strange

    people doing strange things. i feel like am so young and dumb but all my life i was told and thought i am not sh*t..i feel like aargh..
    dope169 dope169
    18-21, M
    1 Response Dec 4, 2014

    Drugs And Love?

    *sigh* I dont know what to do. I am so lost. I want to help my ex...but i know i cant. i want to stop feeling for him, but it's hard todo because i'm so deperate for love. i'm only 16...but i want it soooo bad. i have never been loved in anyway by anyone and that does **** to a...
    doubleDlicious doubleDlicious
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Oct 28, 2006

    I just found out that I have genital herpes

    and the pain I am going through is absolutely grousum, I am so scared because this is something that stays with you for your whole life. I can't deal with having to go through this pain any longer my doctor told me this could last up to 3 weeks. I honestly just don't want to...
    shellyeahx shellyeahx
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 25, 2015

    I am a lost soul and feel

    so out of place and time then plonker me goes and watchs something like Dr who gee I know its a tv program but its still able to rip that f@ing hole right open again. This world, our race ... we are f@ed and for what ? we are evil to each other and only reason we really havenis...
    LustenUK LustenUK
    26-30, M
    Dec 12, 2015

    Feeling empty lately.

    Just started college but I haven't met anyone so it's been pretty lonely. Not really worried about classes since I will have plently of free time to read and study. Had a small meltdown yesterday because I miss my friends and family. Hopefully things will look up this week...
    janewsmith janewsmith
    1 Response Aug 31, 2014


    Really I have no idea. About anything. Who I am, what on earth I am doing, what I am doing on earth, if i like you, if I like me, if I want to be here, if I want to be anywhere. Im just floating, daydreaming through it. Like Ive been drowning for so long, fighting it, trying to...
    Tesse Tesse
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Apr 4, 2008

    At Times...

    sometimes i really have no idea what i want to do with my life. then others it all seems so clear. i guess that's all part of why life can be so confusing.
    runnagirrl runnagirrl
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jun 7, 2008

    Hello EP Family, Man oh man how I will miss

    this place, which actually feels like home to me. I don't know how I am going to go on without EP. Although I have tried other sites nothing compares to EP. I want to thank the creators of EP. I don't know why your shutting down but if you need an investigative journalist and...
    ChocolateSauce ChocolateSauce
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Apr 16, 2016
    imyourbunny2 imyourbunny2
    16-17, F
    1 Response Feb 28, 2016

    I miss your eyes So blue.

    I miss your voice How jolly. I miss our talks So carefree. I'd get lost in time with you. I wish things were different So different. I wish you'd let me in Just once more. I wish to tell you what you mean My whole world. I'd get lost again immediately. Now it's only me in our...
    nvragain1024 nvragain1024
    31-35, F
    Sep 16, 2014

    I try so hard to be good again

    and learn to be peaceful but i can feel the darkness in me tugging and pulling , getting stronger and its happening so quick. its so easy for me to say fvck it all and become that careless, cold , angry , lonely ,and sad little insane person again. I dont want to be always seen...
    LunarDream LunarDream
    18-21, M
    Aug 30, 2014

    Is there anyone in this world

    that really even gives a **** about anyone? So many people say they are there for you and love you (bullshit) but when the chips are down they fucken run like a fucken rabbit....I am so sick of this ****....just one person that truly cares about someone.....**** this world...why...
    SingleDad40 SingleDad40
    46-50, M
    1 Response May 25, 2015

    This is going to be the 2nd year of high school

    that I won't pass the two semesters..... I don't know why I do this to myself!!! I am so behind and I don't know what I'm doing!!! I dream of being so successful and doing big things but, I can't do any of those things while I'm letting myself turn in late work and not doing...
    themoonwalkswithme themoonwalkswithme
    16-17, M
    1 Response Apr 7, 2016

    Its been a while since my last post.

    ... For the past year I have been working hard to achieve my goals and become succesful, to be honest, I succeeded in every goal I had, but now being back at home, It feels like the more I achieve, the more I push away people...... Will it be like this forever, coz if it does not...
    DNA011 DNA011
    26-30, M
    1 Response Sep 24, 2014

    I Am Lost And Lonely

    I just ended a eight year relationship we were engaged for 5 years I put all my hope and dreams aside for his I helped him bulid a house and cooked and cleaned and worked a full time job i stopped talking and going out with friends becaused i loved him so much he became my whole...
    kld46 kld46
    1 Response Feb 9, 2012


    GirlWhoCuts GirlWhoCuts
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 9, 2014

    Sleepless nights I toss

    and turn in bed.. Random fights My mind turns heads.. Beauties and frights My past looms ahead.. Dull and bright My heart plays dead.. I am lost in the silent vastness of my own mind. I hope to prevail, with a touch of fingers intertwined.. Yes it is fatal, yes i am weak, but...
    amoonlitbarn amoonlitbarn
    22-25, M
    1 Response May 17, 2015

    I do not understand math there is no point in

    math unless you are going to be a banker when you grow up
    lmawesomecool lmawesomecool
    16-17, F
    Dec 31, 2014

    It's a really low day.

    I can't shake it. I feel so hollow. Good damn it! Why me? What the hell did I do to deserve this? Why can't I just be normal. I just want my friends. I just want to be able to hang out with them and not feel out of place and isolated. I'm breaking down more and more with every...
    bunnyXbunny bunnyXbunny
    31-35, M
    May 8, 2015

    Have u ever cried while u're laughing watching

    a comedy show and u werent crying because of laughter but because u're feeling depress and u cant stop thinking bout how u can get through it, how u've tried everything so just u wont feel the emptiness go to ur friends, watch movies, eat go out, even starve urselve but none of...
    imlost77 imlost77
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 19, 2015

    My husband just told me last week

    that he doesnt want to be with me anymore. We have 4 kids and dont know how to deal with all of this for their sake. I know how ridiculous this sounds but I'm worried for all of us. He said that I have too much to change that trying to work it out would be worthless. He also...
    lost808 lost808
    31-35, F
    3 Responses May 12, 2014

    I Am So Alone In This Life...

    There have been only a few times that I was convinced that This was it, that I was finally complete and my life was finally going in the right direction.. Today I sat in a deep depression and tried to find what it was exactly that shattered me so deeply inside that I feel I may...
    Wykitt23 Wykitt23
    26-30, F
    6 Responses Nov 24, 2009
    rohinipriya rohinipriya
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 15, 2016

    I Am a Lost and Alone Failure

    I never thought I would get this far to rock bottom. Never. I am not looking for sympathy, but I just need to know that someone feels or had felt like this. Recently I have failed college. I have a partner that I feel isn't helping me the best they can, I just wished I had more...
    moomoo11 moomoo11
    6 Responses Dec 21, 2008

    I'm Lost

    It looks like people just know what they want and what to do. People look happy or at least fine. And grown up. I hate myself for not being able to be like that. Why I don't know what I want or what to do? Why I have to be this passive all the ******* time? Why I can't be happy...
    Lowfatmilk Lowfatmilk
    Nov 29, 2013


    I'm still figuring out what I wish to become after completing University. I want a profession which contributes immensely to Global Peace, but organization which I wish to join such as the UN which specialize in advocating for peace are monitored and funded by war enthusiasts...
    KillerLegacy KillerLegacy
    22-25, M
    Nov 15, 2013

    I feel like i've lost myself again.

    .I've missed the one i used to be so much..That girl that cared about others,the one who loved them that much that didnt even care if she's getting hurt or dying deep inside as long as they are fine and happy..That person that believed in anything they would say,who would try to...
    Rockzanne Rockzanne
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Feb 1, 2015

    Heavy Sigh

    I'm lost, alone, traveling in darkness... blinded, deaf, unknown and unseen... muted, silenced, forgotten by many... saddened, frightened, scared... of the past, the present, the future... so bleak, for my children, myself, my world... evil, hatred, horrid people...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality
    36-40, F
    8 Responses Jun 7, 2008

    Flor MagníFica De Amor

    The seed was planted in the soil of my soul; a spark within of desire.. curiosity... attraction. I poured my water over the seed; staring wide-eyed and like a child, innocent; wanting to see what flower would bloom. I poured my water, my words of love, my gentle care, my...
    DreamChristine DreamChristine
    31-35, F
    Oct 4, 2013

    I just don't want to hurt anymore.

    why won't the pain go away?
    SolGryn SolGryn
    26-30, M
    1 Response Apr 11, 2016

    I dont know whats wrong with me.

    I'm so tired all the time, I used to be an insomniac an now I can't stay awake for more than 8 hours straight. I can't get really excited about anything, I've tried . The few people I talk to regularly have noticed that somethings up with me and I'm often bitched at for not...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jan 13, 2016

    I am falling, I am fading,

    I am drowning Help me to breath I am hurting, I have lost it all I am losing Help me to breath
    deleted deleted
    Dec 4, 2014


    I don't think I've ever been so hurt in all my life. Never in my life have I ever physically felt my heart break. I don't want to have to pick up the pieces again...but I guess I have too.I loved you and trusted you with everything I had. I feel so lost and broken. You helped me...
    deleted deleted
    Nov 12, 2013

    I feel so apart from everyone I love.

    ..Isolated from the spectrum of waves they float upon and onto my own...My best friends since elementary school are all having babies and being a part of "the circle of life" as I wander and wonder only tempering my perspectives...reflecting and regretting...This solitude is both...
    Rabbittarius Rabbittarius
    26-30, M
    Mar 15, 2016

    I feel like my life is directionless.

    if it does have a direction, it's headed straight down south and there's nothing I can do to stop it.
    GoGoTomago GoGoTomago
    22-25, M
    Jun 19, 2015

    I hate working I quit everything my work ethic

    sucks I'm an egotistical hypocritical Doushe bag that doesn't know what he wants to do in his life. I'm headed nowhere I'm self destructive and lazy. I'll never amount to anything in this poisonous society. All I want to do is play video games travel the world and make a family...
    Kloud99 Kloud99
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jan 12, 2015

    Lost W/o Him

    a month after the break-up... he still calls to say hello. i asked him 'why?' 'just to keep in touch...' i dunno if this is a good idea... i told him i needed some time on my own, truth to be told, i can't bear to hear his voice & feel so far away from him. we met up...
    sillypop sillypop
    26-30, F
    1 Response Sep 5, 2007

    It's Unreal Just How Lost I Am...

    Growing up I thought I had it all. I had a great family, religious beliefs that worked for me, a beautiful childhood. I was confident, cared-for, self-assured, happy, secure, comfortable and strong. Then in my teens I made choices that I now regret and hate myself for. My life...
    sheekchic sheekchic
    4 Responses Sep 20, 2011
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