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I Am So Lost

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    I'm Lost

    It looks like people just know what they want and what to do. People look happy or at least fine. And grown up. I hate myself for not being able to be like that. Why I don't know what I want or what to do? Why I have to be this passive all the ******* time? Why I can't be happy...
    Lowfatmilk Lowfatmilk 22-25 Nov 29, 2013

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    I am now 25 and find myself living with my

    parents. I haven't really lived at home since my mid teens because of my drug use which i stopped about 2 years ago. I remember all too strongly why i began in the first place; this daily run of emotions which I am unable to express is taking its toll. The shrink says it is a...
    WidowsNephew WidowsNephew 22-25, M Mar 22

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    Torn

    I wanted to cook,that's why i planned to took up culinary arts after i graduated high school. My parents didn't agree.They wanted me to have a course that would make sure that i would be able to have a stable job after college. Well, i love my dad,.he has been supporting us...
    ilovebutterfliesuknow ilovebutterfliesuknow 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 28, 2011

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    Jails, Institutions, And Death

    I feel so lost. I don't know where to go from here. I've been fighting these demons for years now. Well before this time in treatment, I actually....ok wait a minute....drum roll please....LOL... Was clean for 5 years. No heroin, cocaine or any illegal drugs or alcohol for 5...
    libra604 libra604 26-30, M 1 Response Feb 1, 2012

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    I Am So Alone In This Life...

    There have been only a few times that I was convinced that This was it, that I was finally complete and my life was finally going in the right direction.. Today I sat in a deep depression and tried to find what it was exactly that shattered me so deeply inside that I feel I may...
    Wykitt23 Wykitt23 26-30, F 6 Responses Nov 24, 2009

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    What'S There In This Body..

    What is there in this body, it's only the cover of the soul, what's there in this pain, it's the search of love only, This wish to love has destroyed me, I have only lost, in all the ways.. What's your wish, you destroyed my heart n soul, what's your punishment too, you have make...
    Decentsoul Decentsoul 22-25, F 1 Response May 12, 2013

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    Nothing is harder than telling someone you

    don't love them anymore. They say they love you but you don't feel it or see it. They say they have tried but actions showed different. They blame you for causing them to stop trying. Yeah....but they want another chance? I don't know. I just want to be with someone who loves me...
    Hope70 Hope70 41-45, F 4 Responses Apr 16

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    Lost In Dreams

    I can't sleep or eat, my minds filled with thoughts...what do I do? Where do I go? .i can't believe or trust myself.my mind plays games on me.how can i trust anyone...I feel lost...lost in dreams..
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 24, 2013

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    Where Did I Go?

    The walls are closing in, my mind so full i feel like it is going to explode. My feelings no longer exist i am just this empty shell. Even i don't recognize me anymore, i think back to where i may of got lost, wonder if i did get lost or if this is the real me now. Surely not no...
    BrokenAngel35 BrokenAngel35 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 31, 2013

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    I'm So Lost

    I'm so lost,This world,Ain't gettin' any better,In fact,Gettin' worse,Manners,Where the hell they gone?
    storywriter2 storywriter2 46-50 Aug 10, 2012

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    Lost In The Battle With Wnv

    I am 42 years old. Over a year ago, I got West Nile Virus from a mosquito bite. I somehow managed to survivie the encephalitis that signaled my having the virus. It was the longest three weeks of my life. Since then, I have developed liver failure, kidney failure, heart...
    ag925az ag925az 41-45, M Oct 28, 2012

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    Friends talking about relationship

    and sexual intercourse and i feel so lost. I'm just listening and laughing. Polluted mind.
    elel110993 elel110993 18-21, F Mar 30

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    At Times...

    sometimes i really have no idea what i want to do with my life. then others it all seems so clear. i guess that's all part of why life can be so confusing.
    runnagirrl runnagirrl 22-25, F 4 Responses Jun 7, 2008

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    I Don't Know

    I don't even know why I'm doing this. I never do stuff like this. I was just crying and felt lost so I typed it in safari somehow thinking it would help. Nothing helps though really there is never an answer. I'm 16 why am I so unhappy I have so much infront of me but I honestly...
    Jan 18, 2013

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    Lost W/o Him

    a month after the break-up... he still calls to say hello. i asked him 'why?' 'just to keep in touch...' i dunno if this is a good idea... i told him i needed some time on my own, truth to be told, i can't bear to hear his voice & feel so far away from him. we met up...
    sillypop sillypop 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 5, 2007

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    Shame N Pain..... The 2 Sides Of My Life..!!

    Not for any kind of sympathy.... I just know to cry out through a poem... . . . Just lying on my bed and talking to me... "Who am i..?? and What i want to be..??" I see people happy holding hand of there love.... And then i see myself, who was ditched n hurt.... Parents are God...
    helpmetodie helpmetodie 22-25, M May 14, 2013

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    So Very...

    I don't know what I'm doing... I'm putting on a brave face for treatment but honestly... I'm scared. Like really scared. I've been more irritable lately... I'm just scared... Any advice from people who have been in eating disorder treatment programs I would love. Thank you.
    MissingIdentidy MissingIdentidy 22-25, F Apr 16, 2013

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    My father died of drugs.

    .. He was abusive to my mother and I... My mother use to hide me from him and he kicked her out harshly, I had to raise myself. I moved schools a lot and houses. Saying I'm lost is a simple way to put my life.
    daltondane99 daltondane99 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 23

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    Small Town Girl Moving to the city she met

    crystal meth all glistening and pretty not even 14 the devil called her name lost innocence oh such ashame. nights on cold streets november frost how have i become oh so lost?
    VioletViolence VioletViolence 18-21, F Mar 26

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    I Am a Lost and Alone Failure

    I never thought I would get this far to rock bottom. Never. I am not looking for sympathy, but I just need to know that someone feels or had felt like this. Recently I have failed college. I have a partner that I feel isn't helping me the best they can, I just wished I had more...
    moomoo11 moomoo11 18-21 6 Responses Dec 21, 2008

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    I Am Lost In The World Of Misery.

    i am lost in the world of misery and pain, hunger and vain if you give me a bucket i will fill it up with tears but you know that when the last tear drops .... the bucket will tumble over and nock all of the positive responsibilities now i am lost in a world of misery and pain...
    JamesWoodlost JamesWoodlost 18-21, M Jul 16, 2012

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    Life

    I'm still figuring out what I wish to become after completing University. I want a profession which contributes immensely to Global Peace, but organization which I wish to join such as the UN which specialize in advocating for peace are monitored and funded by war enthusiasts...
    KillerLegacy KillerLegacy 18-21, M Nov 15, 2013

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    Me.

    I hide behind a smile but I cry myself to sleep sometimes.I read people better than a book but i never have the words to exlplain my findings.I am the shoulder, the keeper of secrets, the kindness through people's pain.I am the place a person falls to when life gets hard.I...
    valerie64 valerie64 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 27, 2012

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    Woooow

    Its funny how the game of life works. When I was a little girl I always heard that opposites attract but never understood the full meaning but when you look at it; that isnt just for love. You have to experience the opposite feeling in order to know what the other feeling is. You...
    Teyiah Teyiah 18-21, F 1 Response May 14, 2013

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    I am amazed at how quickly my life took a turn

    for the worst. Three days ago, I was bright, talkative, bubbly, and happy, and now it's as if I'm a whole different person. I am grounded to my house without any privileges or my phone. This, sadly, is all I have for the next three weeks. I have never needed a friend to talk to...
    kashleym kashleym 16-17, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Not So Much Lost As In Directi...

    not so much lost as in direction, but lost as in i have no idea what i want to do with my life anymore. i always wanted to be a vet, and i always thought that i could cope with all the aspects of being a vet, including having to put an animal to sleep. but ever since i had to...
    mentallyunavailable mentallyunavailable 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 21, 2006

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    In Need Of Direction.

    I truly do not know where to even begin. I am in a big mess with school right now and I am trying to be calm about it but I cant.... my husband is trying to keep me calm and I just dont know what to do. I have decided my major but at the same time i am not so sure if i will stick...
    DiScReTePoEt DiScReTePoEt 18-21, F 2 Responses May 23, 2012

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    Broken

    I don't think I've ever been so hurt in all my life. Never in my life have I ever physically felt my heart break. I don't want to have to pick up the pieces again...but I guess I have too.I loved you and trusted you with everything I had. I feel so lost and broken. You helped me...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Nov 12, 2013

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    Heavy Sigh

    I'm lost, alone, traveling in darkness... blinded, deaf, unknown and unseen... muted, silenced, forgotten by many... saddened, frightened, scared... of the past, the present, the future... so bleak, for my children, myself, my world... evil, hatred, horrid people...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 8 Responses Jun 7, 2008

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    Internet Is Big, And The Net I...

    Internet is big, and the Net is bigger...here is another island in the big ocean.
    IA IA 26-30, F Dec 21, 2006

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    Nightmare, That May Never End

    its been so long since ive got a decent sleep, everydream is a nightmare, tormenting me, scaring me, terrorizing me, into the abyss that leads me to where i am now, i wake up, when its early night, or late morrow, and realize that ive not yet come to escape the nightmare, laying...
    tigra139 tigra139 18-21, F Sep 14, 2012

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    Today Is Just A Day.

    When the phrase "looking forward to a better tommorrow" comes to my mind, many see a bright and postive future. It's a simple phase that gets many people through their days, a phase that build a glimmer of hope that dwells within those who have little or alot to look forward to...
    Jan 7, 2013

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    ...

    Really I have no idea. About anything. Who I am, what on earth I am doing, what I am doing on earth, if i like you, if I like me, if I want to be here, if I want to be anywhere. Im just floating, daydreaming through it. Like Ive been drowning for so long, fighting it, trying to...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 4, 2008

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    When You Feel All Alone.

    I get them feelings like everyone else, where you just feel alone and like nobody really cares about you. Them moments when people try and make you happy as much as they can but the moment your alone all you can do is think about how much you regret life and your choices already...
    imhotas imhotas 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 6, 2012

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    In The Rose Bush

    My legs and arms bleed... I step amongst the thorns... I am now in the rose bush. I hold up a rose. The wind blows it away. The dust of pills is on my hands. Is it real? Am I really happy? Or is it just my medication making me that way? I crouch down in fright. I am frightful...
    roseshideinthemind roseshideinthemind 16-17, F Apr 16, 2013

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    How Does It Go From the Sweetest Love Making I Have Ever Felt to Nothing?

    He and I had just made love.  we talked.  It is so hard to have a long distance relationship. It had felt so good to have him near to me again.  I had to tell him that I was so  lonely.  My female friends all abandoned me, as they always do.  (why...
    veraluvzmikey veraluvzmikey 41-45, F 3 Responses Apr 27, 2007

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    I Am Lost And Lonely

    I just ended a eight year relationship we were engaged for 5 years I put all my hope and dreams aside for his I helped him bulid a house and cooked and cleaned and worked a full time job i stopped talking and going out with friends becaused i loved him so much he became my whole...
    kld46 kld46 46-50 3 Responses Feb 9, 2012

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    I Don't Like It Here

    I'm sick of what our society has become. Most people are rude and insensitive. They think only of themselves. I'm sick of arrogant people. I've been told that the city I live in has more than it's fair share of arrogant people and that most places aren't this bad. I would like to...
    Tamytha Tamytha 36-40, F Feb 24, 2012

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    Drugs And Love?

    *sigh* I dont know what to do. I am so lost. I want to help my ex...but i know i cant. i want to stop feeling for him, but it's hard todo because i'm so deperate for love. i'm only 16...but i want it soooo bad. i have never been loved in anyway by anyone and that does **** to a...
    doubleDlicious doubleDlicious 16-18, F 7 Responses Oct 28, 2006

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    Hopeless Dreams

    We wove a web of hopeless dreams No way to make them real.... The time was short we had to share Yet to dream we both did dare... I kept my word...I did not give up I did not ask you for anything.. I only wanted to love you dear one And make your sad heart sing.. But now you put...
    LadyLouisiana LadyLouisiana 56-60, F 2 Responses Aug 26, 2012

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    So Lost

    I have been separated for a little over ten months from my husband and he says he wants a divorce but hasn’t given me the papers even after I said I would sign them without a fight......... I don’t want a divorce but I also don’t want a man that doesn’t want me...... Why...
    lostinlimbo48 lostinlimbo48 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 23, 2012

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    Who Am I? What Do I Do? Why Me?

    I am not a good writer. So I'll apologize for that. I don't know who I am, I always feel, well, gone. I have no control over my feelings, I feel sad, then happy, then angry, then guilty. There's always something new that I feel. I never feel happy enough to do anything. I just...
    alwaysgone alwaysgone 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 3, 2012

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    Soul Searching.

    I have lost every part of my personality that I loved. I am now like an empty shell with a rattled mind. I loved the person I was, and am trying so desperately to find her that it is causing a lot of problems in my life right now. My story begins about 4 years ago. I started...
    laquinn laquinn 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 1, 2013

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    Me and my best friend have made plans

    for our studies after we turn 19, which is to study in UK. We're merely 16 but we know clearly what and where we want to go and be at. She is kinda spendthrift and does not come from a well to do family. Same goes for me but I don't spend as much since I don't like going out. We...
    Planetweird Planetweird 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 14

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    Flor MagníFica De Amor

    The seed was planted in the soil of my soul; a spark within of desire.. curiosity... attraction. I poured my water over the seed; staring wide-eyed and like a child, innocent; wanting to see what flower would bloom. I poured my water, my words of love, my gentle care, my...
    DreamChristine DreamChristine 31-35, F Oct 4, 2013

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    It's Unreal Just How Lost I Am...

    Growing up I thought I had it all. I had a great family, religious beliefs that worked for me, a beautiful childhood. I was confident, cared-for, self-assured, happy, secure, comfortable and strong. Then in my teens I made choices that I now regret and hate myself for. My life...
    sheekchic sheekchic 31-35 4 Responses Sep 20, 2011

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    Through Heaven And Hell

    If I had known that today would be our last day together I would have spend more time with you just to give you a hug and kiss and to remind you how much I love you. Maybe if I had known that what we spend years creating others would destroy overnight. I never knew people had...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Sep 8, 2011

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    :'(

    This all just feels so wrong. I found where you were writing about your feelings, because I'm a creep, but they weren't about me.. It sucks that you had feelings for someone so soon after we broke up in January and never bothered to tell me. I guess I really was the second choice...
    Amay408 Amay408 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 21, 2011

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    How Did I End Up Here

    I don't know if anyone else feels like this, but I just feel so isolated and alone. Recently I have been culling negative people out of my life. I felt this needed to be done because they were not good for me. But as always, the tables were turned on me and I end up being the bad...
    SoulSearching83 SoulSearching83 26-30, F 4 Responses Sep 7, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    Actually, I lost both of my parents when I was at the age of 10. I think this is the fuel behind my obsession towards money. You expected me to go on about my parents? Not much...
    majesticmaddy majesticmaddy 16-17, F 3 hrs ago

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    I don't think I had ever really found myself. I remember the day that I lost the thing I held most precious. In that day, I lost everything that I was. November 1, 1998, my...
    SuperGinger41 SuperGinger41 22-25, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I lost it. Lost it all. Lost everything that came with you. Your love, your kisses, your sweet words, your encouragement, your faith in me. I lost everything when I lost you.
    Graceful22 Graceful22 26-30, F Apr 13

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    I was depressed all the time a mother of toe and one on the way I felt lost I had a home And husband a car a boat a family.. No reason I know now to be depressed I lost my 7 month...
    laceykight laceykight 26-30, F Apr 13

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    I was depressed all the time a mother of toe and one on the way I felt lost I had a home And husband a car a boat a family.. No reason I know now to be depressed I lost my 7 month...
    laceykight laceykight 26-30, F Apr 13

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    I was depressed all the time a mother of toe and one on the way I felt lost I had a home And husband a car a boat a family.. No reason I know now to be depressed I lost my 7 month...
    laceykight laceykight 26-30, F Apr 13

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    I was depressed all the time a mother of toe and one on the way I felt lost I had a home And husband a car a boat a family.. No reason I know now to be depressed I lost my 7 month...
    laceykight laceykight 26-30, F Apr 13

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