I Am So Lost

Not for any kind of sympathy.... I just know to cry out through a poem...
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Just lying on my bed and talking to me...
"Who am i..?? and What i want to be..??"
I see people happy holding hand of there love....
And then i see myself...

If I had known that today would be our last day together I would have spend more time with you just to give you a hug and kiss and to remind you how much I love you.

Maybe if I had known that what we spend years creating others would...

I don't even know why I'm doing this. I never do stuff like this. I was just crying and felt lost so I typed it in safari somehow thinking it would help. Nothing helps though really there is never an answer. I'm 16 why am I so unhappy I...

sometimes i really have no idea what i want to do with my life. then others it all seems so clear. i guess that's all part of why life can be so confusing.

its been so long since ive got a decent sleep,
everydream is a nightmare,
tormenting me, scaring me, terrorizing me, into the abyss that leads me to where i am now,
i wake up, when its early night, or late morrow,
and realize that ive...

I am not a good writer. So I'll apologize for that.
I don't know who I am, I always feel, well, gone.
I have no control over my feelings, I feel sad, then happy, then angry, then guilty. There's always something new that I feel. I...

I am 42 years old. Over a year ago, I got West Nile Virus from a mosquito bite. I somehow managed to survivie the encephalitis that signaled my having the virus. It was the longest three weeks of my life. Since then, I have...

I never thought I would get this far to rock bottom. Never. I am not looking for sympathy, but I just need to know that someone feels or had felt like this. Recently I have failed college. I have a partner that I feel isn't helping me...

There have been only a few times that I was convinced that This was it, that I was finally complete and my life was finally going in the right direction.. Today I sat in a deep depression and tried to find what it was exactly that...

Its funny how the game of life works. When I was a little girl I always heard that opposites attract but never understood the full meaning but when you look at it; that isnt just for love. You have to experience the opposite feeling in...

My legs and arms bleed... I step amongst the thorns... I am now in the rose bush. I hold up a rose. The wind blows it away. The dust of pills is on my hands. Is it real? Am I really happy? Or is it just my medication making me that way...

He and I had just made love.  we talked.  It is so hard to have a long distance relationship. It had felt so good to have him near to me again.  I had to tell him that I was so  lonely.  My female friends all...

Really I have no idea. About anything.
Who I am, what on earth I am doing, what I am doing on earth, if i like you, if I like me, if I want to be here, if I want to be anywhere.
Im just floating, daydreaming through it. Like Ive been...

Growing up I thought I had it all. I had a great family, religious beliefs that worked for me, a beautiful childhood. I was confident, cared-for, self-assured, happy, secure, comfortable and strong. Then in my teens I made choices that...

When the phrase "looking forward to a better tommorrow" comes to my mind, many see a bright and postive future. It's a simple phase that gets many people through their days, a phase that build a glimmer of hope that dwells within those...

*sigh* I dont know what to do. I am so lost. I want to help my ex...but i know i cant. i want to stop feeling for him, but it's hard todo because i'm so deperate for love. i'm only 16...but i want it soooo bad. i have never been loved...

What is there in this body,
it's only the cover of the soul,
what's there in this pain,
it's the search of love only,
This wish to love
has destroyed me,
I have only lost, in all the ways..
What's your wish,
you destroyed my heart n...

a month after the break-up... he still calls to say hello.
i asked him 'why?'
'just to keep in touch...'
i dunno if this is a good idea... i told him i needed some time on my own, truth to be told, i can't bear to hear his voice &...

I'm lost, alone, traveling in darkness... blinded, deaf, unknown and unseen... muted, silenced, forgotten by many... saddened, frightened, scared... of the past, the present, the future... so bleak, for my children, myself, my...

I don't know what I'm doing... I'm putting on a brave face for treatment but honestly... I'm scared. Like really scared. I've been more irritable lately... I'm just scared... Any advice from people who have been in eating disorder...