I Am So Sad and Lonely That It Is Killing Me

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    I was once sad and lonely,

    having nobody to comfort me, so I wore a mask that always smiled;to hide my feelings behind a lie. before long, I had many friends;With my mask, I was one of them but deep inside, I still felt empty, Like I was missing a part of me. nobody could hear my cries at night for I...
    belllla belllla
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Nov 9, 2014

    Alone Forever And Ever It Seems........ :-(

    I think I will be forever alone, no one takes the time to call me or text me first or tell me they wanna visit,, why am i the one it seems who picks up the phone to send the first text or IM in these chats? Either I am a nobody or the world just s * * * * and everyone is all for...
    FreeBird275 FreeBird275
    26-30
    19 Responses Jun 30, 2012

    it really is killing me.

    .. slowly... but its eating away whatever is left of who i really am... i dont know who i am anymore
    GabrielBois95 GabrielBois95
    18-21, M
    Oct 10, 2015

    Hey guys, I am new here

    and I don't usually do things like this, but I feel some unbiased anonymous advice would be very helpful right now. I don't want to seem over dramatic, but I'm truly feel so emotionally drained I am about to collapse. I am currently in my second year of university, and I'm...
    Tinzers Tinzers
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 2, 2014

    its horrible when everyones in a relationship

    and you're still lonely one of the most painful experiences ever and you feel like when is it YOUR turn to be loved, to be wanted and to be touched like you're made out of angel wings?
    rxdicxlshit rxdicxlshit
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Feb 12, 2015
    lyle1977 lyle1977
    36-40, M
    1 Response Sep 29, 2015

    Nobody has time for me anymore.

    . They have friends they hang out with or family they like to spend time with. And thats good, I'm happy for them, I'm just left out and alone.
    Bigcat1697 Bigcat1697
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Oct 30, 2015

    Dear my company i am alone most of the time.

    'Cos i don't have any family.no family support. i feel all alone in people of groups. i feel sad in public. i feel lonely talking with people who have family. I don't look for any preach or advice here. I just want to know is there anyone who doesn’t have family because of...
    juryandrews juryandrews
    31-35, F
    Nov 29, 2014

    I just want someone to be with me- soothe my

    crying inner boy that is me. He's gone without any help, any compassion and any love for way too long. Whenever he pushes back people, it was only to not become engulfed in me as I might not cope- he was fearing for me. But, now I've shut off him, and my emotions, and I don't...
    JavierHunting JavierHunting
    18-21, M
    2 Responses May 15, 2014

    The one person that could make me feel at least

    a little better isn't talking to me. It hurts so much waiting and waiting, hoping that I'll hear something soon. I just need someone to talk to. Someone I can hold for a few hours.
    JamesCarter20 JamesCarter20
    18-21, T
    3 Responses Nov 25, 2015

    I Feel Broken.

    My first post... Today was so awful. I have great parents, but even they didn't understand the magnitude of the pain I'm in. I have been depressed for years and years, so much so that I didn't really have a childhood. Not that I am that mature. Just, I am that sad. Sad beyond my...
    brokenjuliet brokenjuliet
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Nov 10, 2013

    Absolute silence leads to sadness.

    It is the image of death.
    ProSolitude ProSolitude
    26-30, F
    3 Responses May 6, 2014

    I'm so lonely it's unbelievable

    and I'm married. I got married to a lady from the Philippines that I met on an Internet dating site. She is half my age. She texts me when she needs me to pick her up from work and she always adds I love you, but never says it in person. We sleep in different bedrooms,no sex...
    Hayabusa1 Hayabusa1
    66-70, M
    Feb 8

    i feel as if im already dead.

    .. just slowly rotting away, a useless object in this world
    GabrielBois95 GabrielBois95
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Sep 24, 2015

    No matter what I do I am always alone.

    I try. I really do. I've reached out to people over and over and all I get is rejection. I want to die some days. The only reason I'm not dead is my daughter. I love her but she isn't enough. I need mo r e than her in my life. It sounds terrible but why should I be without love...
    lbenham lbenham
    26-30, F
    1 Response Oct 11, 2015

    New Year's Eve and I'm sitting at home,

    working, while all my "friends" are out partying. It makes you feel like **** when you're not invited and then everyone rubs it in your face. This sucks.
    JamesCarter20 JamesCarter20
    18-21, T
    Dec 31, 2015
    theblacksuggestionbox theblacksuggestionbox
    26-30, M
    Nov 12, 2015

    You don't realize how lonely you are

    until it's the end of the day and you have a bunch of things to talk about, but no one to tell them to.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jul 23, 2015

    I Dont Know What To Do Anymore

    i am 42 and go for days without human contact.my only constant is the tv for noise. i have no friends or social life, no family around me. people have used me for money and then disapearred. i feel im buying them and getting no input from them. i suffer from mental health...
    janeybell janeybell
    41-45
    9 Responses Aug 5, 2012

    I hate being single and alone.

    I hate to grow old without my prince charming.I hope he will come and take me away from a far away palace.Where is thou romeo and i will be your juliet?But one think i am happy about i have a son.But it sucks being a single mom. I have been searching so long and giving up hope.I...
    queenbee69 queenbee69
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Nov 24, 2014

    I'm so lonely it's unbelievable

    and I'm married. I got married to a lady from the Philippines that I met on an Internet dating site. She is half my age. She texts me when she needs me to pick her up from work and she always adds I love you, but never says it in person. We sleep in different bedrooms,no sex...
    Hayabusa1 Hayabusa1
    66-70, M
    1 Response Feb 8

    I sit up at night with my headphones in my ears

    and wish that I could be out with friends, family...anyone. I often wonder if it's my own fault that I'm so alone, that I may have made the wrong choices in terms of the friends I made along the way in my life. Even among people I am lonely... within crowds and anywhere that I...
    KyleMD KyleMD
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jun 2, 2014

    It's No Use...

    I'm just a useless person who doesn't matter. Nothing would happen if I killed myself anyway. No one would notice. If a few a people do notice, they wouldn't care, or would probably think it's funny anyway. I've always been scared to kill myself for eight years now. But it seems...
    MeteorDeath MeteorDeath
    18-21, M
    9 Responses Nov 29, 2012

    I got involved with a boy very young.

    I was 17 and he 23. At the time it was great but now we've grown apart. I'm now 34 and he turns 40. We've been married for five years but the love that was is not there. I feel so sad that he doesn't love me anymore. I feel like I'm going through a breakup but still in a...
    Amira81 Amira81
    31-35, F
    1 Response Nov 13, 2015

    When I think about it too much,

    I cry or panic. I mostly panic in public and cry at home. Once I cried at school but I'm always alone so nobody really noticed except for the janitor who just awkwardly walked away.
    Thegirlwhonevertalks Thegirlwhonevertalks
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Aug 17, 2014

    I am in my mid 20s and I have no friends

    and recently became single after a 5 yr serious relationship ended. Most people never suspect I am a loner. On the surface, I seem like an outgoing, confident, attractive, funny, happy normal guy. But deep inside, I am alone, depressed, shy, insecure and lack self esteem. maybe...
    mehtabchahal mehtabchahal
    22-25, M
    Oct 9, 2015

    My mother is old and I found out some days ago

    that I am still helping her in any situation but that I don´t have to expect aid from her. My brother lives far away from me and is not interested at all to have just a little bit contact to me or just to my son (his goodchild!). The father of my son (my former husband) just...
    Loretta78 Loretta78
    36-40, F
    4 Responses Nov 10, 2015

    I'm 28 and have zero friends.

    Most days my phone doesn't ring at all and when it does is usually my dad or boyfriend. I was bullied in school, the work place, and by my family as a child to the point where I have just given up completely. I do everything alone or with my son. Shopping, errands, out to eat...
    friendlessly friendlessly
    26-30, F
    7 Responses Mar 10, 2015

    I have alway been everyone's second choice.

    No one willingly wants to talk/be with me. Even when I am with someone, I question whether they actually like me.
    pixiepunk98 pixiepunk98
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Nov 12, 2015

    People tell me I am beautiful

    and a great catch, but I am painfully lonely and I feel invisible.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    5 Responses Nov 11, 2015

    There is nothing good about me.

    Nothing. I try to be of good. I'm not. Not as any personality. Not good in any environment. Not good to anyone or thing. I'm an absolute waste of space. My aunt let me know years ago that everybody hated me and that the family wanted to pay for me to be aborted. They should have...
    abortive abortive
    36-40, F
    5 Responses Oct 20, 2015

    Just Not Good Enough

    I live with my grandparents.. and every mistake I make, my grandma threatens to kick me out. And I can't take it. All the time she yells at me ... and I'm so lonely. I feel like she's pushing me away. I used to think my grandparents where the nicest people , but that soon changed...
    exceptionallyweird exceptionallyweird
    16-17, F
    3 Responses May 21, 2013

    I have a fear that I will be forever alone.

    Two years ago I was so happy and loved. It was a toxic relationship but it was so good at the same time. I'm so emotionally tired of being alone and having no one to be with or talk to. I'm positive that I will be loved again and be in love. But I just want that day to come...
    amessofgorgeouschaos amessofgorgeouschaos
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Nov 12, 2015

    Hi my name is Kylie I'm seventeen yrs old

    and I'm tired of being alone I just want to find the right person. Someone who gets to know me and understands me someone who isnt going to betray me. I want that person who texts me first saying goodmorning my angel or just someone puts me first thats something I never had ive...
    kylienevels kylienevels
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 12

    ....Sometimes even when I'm feeling okay,

    I get sad...Sometimes being in a good mood makes me depressed because I know it's not going to last...I am tired all the time. I tell people I'm trying to stop cutting, I'm trying so hard, I tell people it's been weeks, but those closest to me know it's only been three measly...
    SunnysWifeBlue SunnysWifeBlue
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 24, 2014

    Alone But ...

    I've read some stories about loneliness, and it prompted me to write this. At 51, I thought I'd be somewhere other than where I am now. I thought I'd have a book published by now, that I'd have my own herd of alpacas (albeit a small one), that I'd be with the love of my life and...
    moongirl62 moongirl62
    51-55, F
    3 Responses Aug 9, 2013

    I'm a west Indian guy from Jamaica

    and I live in Philly now. I hate changing voice to sound american but I have to other west indians that speak english like me that I can talk to. I like fishing, outdoors, running, playing games, reading, pretending, writing songs, playing soccer, etc. Im an outgoing smart guy...
    GazaYute GazaYute
    18-21, M
    Nov 21, 2015
    Choco6014 Choco6014
    31-35, F
    12 Responses Apr 13, 2014

    This is my first post

    so here goes.... I am getting to the point where maybe just nobody likes me, actually no that's wrong, I would say that nobody values me. I'm leading such a boring life and there doesn't seem to be a way out. Everyday I wake up at stupid o'clock and then spend nearly 2 hours...
    PP10692 PP10692
    22-25, M
    1 Response Dec 30, 2015

    Yeah, really. Whenever I go through some sort

    of crisis or anything and I want to talk to someone, I realise that I have literally no one to confide, not even my mum which just makes me sad. Whenever I talk to mum, she doesn't even respond or listen to half the things I say but expects me to do so for some odd reason when...
    EvanescentIridescent EvanescentIridescent
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 1

    I keep myself busy with lots of things to do,

    but every once in a while i think "why am I doing this? I have to stop." And when I stop that's when I remember why I started. I'm so friggen lonely... I don't have any friends, well the one friend I do have is my ex and that makes me feel lonely too because he doesn't want me...
    Bigcat1697 Bigcat1697
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Sep 23, 2015

    My heart hurts.. And I've cried all day.

    I really want him back, I'd do anything to get him back
    Bigcat1697 Bigcat1697
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 5, 2015

    More than sharing experiences,

    I downloaded this app to look for a good gay guy who is looking for marriage, I prefer them tall and lean, but not a strict requirement, I am 31 and would like to find a guy around my age, if you think we can make some connection, hit me up, Greetings to all
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Mar 23

    My flat is a mess, my head is a mess,

    my life is a mess. The pain, the hurt, all the negative emotion is draining my body of energy. I have no motivation. I just want to lay in bed, tucked away beneath the duvet. Hidden away. Life is not what it's cracked up to be. I don't really want to participate in...
    xxlouisebaby xxlouisebaby
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Sep 23, 2014

    I woke up to a text from my best friend

    and it said we can't be friends anymore. He got a new gf and thinks that I will ruin his relationship with her. Wtf am I going to do to ruin a relationship? If I am that important and influential in your life then maybe you're with the wrong person. But now I don't have any real...
    lbenham lbenham
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Oct 15, 2015

    I don't have anyone that I can talk to

    and be completely honest with. I have no one to share my feelings with and I'm scared of living a long life feeling this loneliness and misery. I want someone to care about me and show me that they care. I want to be someone's "everything", someone's best friend, someone's 4am...
    DreamingOfSparrows DreamingOfSparrows
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Feb 3, 2015

    It's to the point where bad things are

    happening to them and I don't care. I don't feel anything sometimes. I've been single for 2 years. .. whenever I look all I hear is "you don't have a chance with her..." or "yes I would go out with you." Then nothing. I'm an adult. Saying no makes better than getting my hopes...
    metoe225 metoe225
    26-30, M
    Jan 2

    I'm giving myself to anyone

    who would like a tore-up room mate I can pay halk of all bills
    misunderstood7 misunderstood7
    46-50, F
    1 Response Dec 15, 2015

    i have been through many hard times.

    . but now.. its much harder.. that loneliness is killing me.. i lie on my bed thinking about things that would happen if i had only one good friend who cared about me.. talked to me always. And never made me feel alone.. isn't that called happiness??
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Nov 12, 2015

    I try and fill the days with something to do

    and spend evening with children but get so stressed and lonely when they've gone to bed. Just came out of an abusive relationship of 20 years so had few friends anyway but the nights are the hardest to deal with.
    lolita3121 lolita3121
    46-50, F
    4 Responses Nov 9, 2014
    thebigrye thebigrye
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Aug 23, 2015

    I Am Fond Of Foreign Languages But Not Speaking...

    This is funny. I am so fond of studing foreign languages and at the same time I a failure at talking to people even in my mother tongue. Foreign languages are like a dreamy world for me, some other life where everything is the way I want it. But reality is still reality( in...
    Memonster Memonster
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 7, 2013

    Hate to sound whiny but here I go.

    .. The past couple of days have been tough for me. I feel like breaking down every time and I don't know how to stop feeling like this. Almost 27, stuck in a ****** job and being a victim of unrequited love, failing at losing weight and battling with low self esteem makes it...
    missmeera missmeera
    26-30, F
    7 Responses Jun 17, 2015

    I am sad. And problem with me is

    that I'm shy and it's really hard for me to share my problems. Can't tell anyone what I think or what I feel. But now I can't bear it any more. I'm not believe in love or other similar things. For me it's just attraction to someone and that's why he/she becomes important for us...
    sanjeevy94 sanjeevy94
    22-25, M
    Dec 29, 2015
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