I Am So Tired of Puking

Wanting so bad to break the hold Bulimia has on me....I need help 25 People

    Will It Ever End

    i have been trying so ******* hard not to puke. almost 3 months! then last night, i could not fight it. i tried, but the food, rebelled, i vomited. i have to stop.i cant live my life like this.will i ever be normal again, r will bulimia finally kill me in the end?its so hard, but...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Dec 4, 2009

    Nope

    nope , i will not puke am hanging in there, am trying to be strong. i look at my children , n my grandchildren. i will not keep doing this to myself n them. its over 22 yrs, now i have lived w/ bulimia. i now its not gonna be easy, but am gonna keep trying.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Sep 1, 2009

    Fool

    i talk so psitive in some of those stories, now am just drained. am tired. how can i keep fighting this fight n win?i cant stand to look at myself. am bones on skin. cant stop myself from puking though. its sick, am pathitic. i cant stop. i try, n i try. but i never win.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Sep 11, 2009

    I Wouldn't Say I Need Help

    I'm just sick of the feeling puking gives me physically, but anything to be skinny.
    musared musared
    16-17, F
    Aug 22, 2009

    Freak

    am so tired of being a freak. i cant eat like a normal person. one bite of food, r ten it doesnt matter, i puke it all up in the end. i ******* hate what i have become. bulimia is taking over my life once again. how much more can i take, i hate feeling like a freak. barely eat...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Dec 11, 2009

    I am starting to cave into B.

    E.D.i been binging pretty bad
    KoalaBatBear KoalaBatBear
    22-25, F
    1 Response May 3, 2014

    It's Going to Kill Me

    It's going to kill me if I dont stop it. I'm 33 years old. I started this when I was 13 or 14.  Before that I was anorexic which started around age 12.   I have gone back and forth between the two ever since. Sometimes I have periods of "okay-ness"...
    btrfly09 btrfly09
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Nov 8, 2007

    Me to

    am 38 yrs old. about 5;6 n around 100 lbs. i use to wiegh 130 lbs. bulimia is slowly killing me. i ******* hate it, i cant simple go out 4 a meal .oh no, cause i got to go puke when am done. bulimia is controlling my entire life. its been over 20 yrs. now. i have stopped 4 brief...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Aug 21, 2009

    Is It Too Late?

    I'm 20 years old, I come from a Hispanic family who is constantly on me about my weight. Ever since I could remember I was on a diet. About my freshman year I started getting nauseous whenever I would eat, so in order for me to feel better I would throw up. It started to become...
    Onlycomfort Onlycomfort
    22-25
    1 Response Dec 1, 2013

    Tired

    i feel like a total piece of ****, i ******* try so hard but in the end whatever i eat, i puke. i cant get control over bulimia.am so tired of living this way.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Dec 29, 2009

    Stop

    the vomiting, wont ever end. i cant keep doing this, its so hard to stop.bulimia will kill me in the end.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Dec 6, 2009

    Never

    is it ever gonna end, will i ever be able to eat normal again? i dont even know how anymore, am so tired of puking, if i could live w/out eating i would just never eat again.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Dec 14, 2009

    Worthless

    i hate the person, i have become. bulimia has taken over my ******* life. i try, n i try but in the end bulimia always win. i feel like a freak, eat barley anything n still i puke. food is a nightmare, bulimia will be my death.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jan 4, 2010

    I haven't been purging everyday like I used to.

    But now when I do I can't taste or smell the stomach acid that I used to when I first started. Do you know what that means and is that a bad thing?? I dont know it makes purging more bearable. I really don't want to get back into my old habits.
    Itfloo Itfloo
    18-21, F
    May 17, 2015
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