I build myself up and say this time I'll do it. I get closer every time and I don't.
Every time I don't, it hurts me more and the hurt cuts even deeper. I feel like a piece of crap :( >:( and I want cry too
admitting it by just continuing on like nothing happened. Now it has become a huge mistake and one that my boss has now discovered without me telling her. I am very afraid that I may lose my job now and if I had just admitted my mistake from the beginning , there wouldn't be an...
time lately and I just want to be happy. Sigh, maybe I'm angry because yesterday I found out a friend I thought to be close with and that I've known for a long time has in actual fact betrayed me and that's the end of that
Its not often but when I do get really angry with myself, its for the following reasons:
Letting someone get to me..."someone"usually meaning my Mother.
Opening my mouth when I probably should have kept it shut.
Flaking out on stuff.