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I Am Sorry I'm Alive

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    I Didnt Mean To

    I didnt want to be born! It wasnt my choise! I wanted to stay a little angel baby up in the sky! I didnt want to have to grow up. I wanted to stay up in the sky. Up there in baby heaven, it wasnt my falt. I really am sorry. I wish I could take it back! Ive even tried to go back...
    Geinger Geinger 16-17, F Nov 25, 2011

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    I really have nothing going

    for me. My mum constantly insults me calling me weak/selfish/lazy/etc and says she wishes she didn't come home some nights because of me. I have no close friends that I can open up to, none of them know that I'm a pretty sensitive person. Every guy I've ever dated has just used...
    Lstoneheart Lstoneheart 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 27

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    Let's Trade

    I always feel sad when I hear someone's daughter died, or someone's son, or grandchild, mother, etc. Then I will see the sadness well up in their family's eyes, hear of how much they were loved, how much they left behind, or how much they had to live for. And I see this beautiful...
    endofseptember endofseptember 22-25, F Aug 11, 2010

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    Being Alive ******* Sucks, But Theres No Way Out of It

    I refuse to do suicide. No matter how bad life gets I'm going to stick with it until I crash and burn in hell the natural way. Life sucks and I'm sick of being depressed and alone every day for years and years but I just have to bite the bullet.
    FoolYourself FoolYourself 16-18, M 8 Responses Dec 3, 2007

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    I feel an entire world on my shoulders,

    and it hard to hold it up when I am hollow inside, both my stomach and my heart. I am behind a glass wall, on the other side is the world. I watch, but I can't take part, I can't take part in my own life!
    HoldingOnToAir HoldingOnToAir 16-17, T Jul 5

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    I Have Felt Like Suiciding Most Of My Life

    in 1994 I came close to jumping infront of a train after this couple bashed me at central railway station and joyce poorter was abusing me...with baffling so-called psychology I wish I had died in 2000 after ken raped me... I had a stroke and life has been hell since! you'd swear...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Feb 25, 2011

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    Hmmm

    Why should I have to live? I am unhappy. I dont want to be here. I want to die really and truely I do. Yesturday I was talking to this guy and my GOD he is fine. He gave me his NUM and well we talked. But he told me that I am to happy to be suicidal.... WFT? How am I to happy to...
    Geinger Geinger 16-17, F Mar 13, 2012

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    GreenManley GreenManley 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 7

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    I'm sorry but I have to leave this Earth.

    Nobody even supports me in my everyday life. By that I mean no one even makes me happy and encourages me when I'm sad or depressed. They don't even care. I'm sorry. I have to say goodbye.
    BloodRedDarkness1 BloodRedDarkness1 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 27

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    I'm Sorry

    I'm sorry,I'm alive,I don't fit in,Lost my way,Must have,Earth,I'm sure,Wasn't meant for me,I lost my way,Became detached,From the Alien world,Don't know how,But here am I.
    mrraincoat mrraincoat 46-50 2 Responses Jun 8, 2012

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    Being A Coward

    Have been so close these past few months. This year had been a rough one for me. My depression took a turn for the worst and dying seemed to always be on my mind. I couldn't get to it or couldnt do it on every attempt. Afraid of the pain I wondered if i was really ready. I just...
    endofseptember endofseptember 22-25, F 6 Responses Oct 29, 2011

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    I'm Alive

    I'm alive,Sorry to tell you,Ain't done yet,Gonna create hell,Till I'm gone,I'm not at peace,Why should you be?
    startinover1 startinover1 46-50 2 Responses Apr 9, 2012

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    Sorry I'm Alive

    Sorry I'm alive,The mistakes I've made,Trouble I've caused,Sometimes wonder,Is it all worth it?
    storywriter2 storywriter2 46-50 1 Response Jun 3, 2012

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    I'm Sorry I Was Born

    I'm sorry that I was born when in reality, I should have been aborted. If it wasn't for me, my dad wouldn't have sexually abused me, my mom wouldn't have got hurt and her life ruined by me because I went to the police about it. She wouldn't have such a hard time raising me due to...
    BeautyOfSuffering BeautyOfSuffering 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 7, 2012

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    Not Dead Yet

    over the last few years ive tried twice to kill myself, i really did try but i always missed  the right place. right now i dont think i want to try again, but who knows i feel my life is cursed, nothing i do seems to work out to good. even now the people here on this site...
    blackdog blackdog 41-45, M 6 Responses Mar 21, 2008

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    Why Cant Someone Murder Me!? :(

    i want someone to take me hostage and shoot me in the head! im a failure and a waste, im useless and unneeded, id be better off dead and i want to die, i want to go to the summerland!
    IFeelSoLonely101 IFeelSoLonely101 18-21, M Apr 11, 2013

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    Just A Waste

    I can't help but feel that I'm a waste of life. I feel that unborn babies are far more deserving of life than me. I feel that I am a waste that can not do anything right. So many people are happily living their lives, using every second as if it is there last. Then there's me. A...
    beltroyse beltroyse 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 22, 2012

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    The Neverending Cicle

    I have a supporting family, good friends, not rich but i live well, but I've never felt happy. I am to coward to killl myself :/ . I feel like a burden to my family but worst of all I've never feel love. It would have been amazing to experience a sentimental relationship in...
    avetnego avetnego 26-30, M Nov 30, 2013

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    Where do I begin? The depression? My waning eye-sight? No, none of that matters in the long run, I guess. I grew up (am growing up) in a decently rough home. The kind where not...
    JoeOfTheMeek JoeOfTheMeek 16-17, M 2 Responses Sep 9

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    Again. REALLLLY bored xD ((i'm straight-sorry gurls x3)) But on a scale 1-10 i guess. Idkkkkk Have a fantabulous dayyyyyyy ^_^
    C5PiE C5PiE 13-15, F 8 Responses a week ago

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    Do you think I'm fat? Bc I definitely think I'm fat
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    I'm pretty right..? I think this picture really Compliments my eyes,
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    I found my first grey hair today. I'm 25!
    Reallifeperson Reallifeperson 22-25, M 5 hrs ago

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    18 years ago, I left everything; work, family, friends, home, and moved accross the world to be with the man I thought was the one. From the very begining things were not right...
    AlmaV AlmaV 46-50, F 1 Response Aug 31

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    I so hate when people tese me and other like me cause we have disability it make me sooooo upset when i get tese why do people do it i go to a special school cause i can't get nom...
    ewoh ewoh 18-21, M 5 Responses Sep 9

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    Between the ages of 1-2, I became sick with Kawasaki syndrome. It affects children of Japanese decent easier than other races. My mom raced time and visited multiple doctors. She...
    Rockmandash89 Rockmandash89 22-25, M Sep 11

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    Hi, I'm Blackwolf1604, but you can call Alex. I'm writting this cause I want to share my feelings about my inner self but first, I'll tell you about myself When I was a child I...
    Blackwolf1604 Blackwolf1604 13-15, M Sep 13

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    I feel tired all the time, there is no day Im not have an alarm at 4 or 7 o'clock, every week its the same, on the week I've got up at 5 to go to the school, I'm studying nursing...
    khrryz khrryz 18-21, M 14 hrs ago

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    The grass seems greener on the other side, when I'm in a relationship wishing to be single, when single wishing to be with someone.
    maks1m maks1m 22-25, M Aug 24

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    I'm still in love with my ex .... Not sure why though ..... He's full of s***! What a waste of love .
    According2Me According2Me 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 24

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    Do you think that I'm attractive? You can rate me (0-10) or whatever. Be honest
    Nerile Nerile 16-17, F 14 Responses Aug 26

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    Who wants to chat while I'm making a nice spaghetti dinner!!? ;)
    livemanlive livemanlive 26-30, M Aug 26

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    Yes ? No ? Maybe ? I'm self conscious :(
    Rmpg96 Rmpg96 16-17, F 21 Responses Aug 27

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    Put my bracelets through the wSh do I'm blow drying then so the metal doesn't rust 😂😊👌 (Morgan Logic)
    NobodyCaresOkai NobodyCaresOkai 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 30

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    It's easier for me to pretend to be okay. Then it is to find someone who will listen and understand why I'm not okay. Something's are just too hard to say out loud to people
    Brok3nSoul Brok3nSoul 22-25, F 4 Responses Aug 31

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    I'm just curios what you think :)
    jmontoya50913 jmontoya50913 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 2

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    And I'm really good at it.
    imworthless0 imworthless0 16-17, F 4 Responses Sep 3

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    I'm the girl in the picture.
    itisikaitlyn itisikaitlyn 16-17, F 3 Responses Sep 3

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    Might as well, seems like a lot of people are lol... This is me on pretty much any given night after a long shift at work or a long day at school. No glasses, no contacts, so I'm...
    scrtasnman13 scrtasnman13 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 4

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    Posting drunk is fun. :-D Wonder why they call it being lit... Actually it makes sense. Coz baby I'm a firework right now!
    BlackEyedBean BlackEyedBean 41-45, F 1 Response Sep 4

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    I'm 14 years old im looking for a boyfriend of any age message me if you wanna date me
    joey1234576 joey1234576 13-15, M Sep 5

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    Have to get my Rectal Temp taken tonight. I'm scared. Private message me girls.
    HerLover115 HerLover115 41-45, F 4 Responses Sep 6

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    Hi i'm just wondering. Some have said no, and some have said yes.
    WhiteGirl702 WhiteGirl702 22-25, F 15 Responses Sep 7

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    It just feel comfortable ,it just feel right, it's all positive, I'm in love, it feel so good.
    Ashleyoo0 Ashleyoo0 22-25, F Sep 8

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    Can some talk to me I'm so lonely:(
    Selen21 Selen21 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 12

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    My birthday is Jan. 20th so I'm a little of both perhaps????
    nocturnalhound nocturnalhound 31-35, M 1 Response Sep 12