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I Am Sorry I'm Alive

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 131 People

    I'm Sorry I Was Born

    I'm sorry that I was born when in reality, I should have been aborted. If it wasn't for me, my dad wouldn't have sexually abused me, my mom wouldn't have got hurt and her life ruined by me because I went to the police about it. She wouldn't have such a hard time raising me due to...
    BeautyOfSuffering BeautyOfSuffering 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 7, 2012

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    Just A Waste

    I can't help but feel that I'm a waste of life. I feel that unborn babies are far more deserving of life than me. I feel that I am a waste that can not do anything right. So many people are happily living their lives, using every second as if it is there last. Then there's me. A...
    beltroyse beltroyse 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 22, 2012

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    I'm Sorry

    I'm sorry,I'm alive,I don't fit in,Lost my way,Must have,Earth,I'm sure,Wasn't meant for me,I lost my way,Became detached,From the Alien world,Don't know how,But here am I.
    mrraincoat mrraincoat 46-50 2 Responses Jun 8, 2012

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    I Didnt Mean To

    I didnt want to be born! It wasnt my choise! I wanted to stay a little angel baby up in the sky! I didnt want to have to grow up. I wanted to stay up in the sky. Up there in baby heaven, it wasnt my falt. I really am sorry. I wish I could take it back! Ive even tried to go back...
    Geinger Geinger 16-17, F Nov 25, 2011

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    I really have nothing going

    for me. My mum constantly insults me calling me weak/selfish/lazy/etc and says she wishes she didn't come home some nights because of me. I have no close friends that I can open up to, none of them know that I'm a pretty sensitive person. Every guy I've ever dated has just used...
    Lstoneheart Lstoneheart 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 27, 2014

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    I Have Felt Like Suiciding Most Of My Life

    in 1994 I came close to jumping infront of a train after this couple bashed me at central railway station and joyce poorter was abusing me...with baffling so-called psychology I wish I had died in 2000 after ken raped me... I had a stroke and life has been hell since! you'd swear...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Feb 25, 2011

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    Being A Coward

    Have been so close these past few months. This year had been a rough one for me. My depression took a turn for the worst and dying seemed to always be on my mind. I couldn't get to it or couldnt do it on every attempt. Afraid of the pain I wondered if i was really ready. I just...
    endofseptember endofseptember 26-30, F 6 Responses Oct 29, 2011

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    Being Alive ******* Sucks, But Theres No Way Out of It

    I refuse to do suicide. No matter how bad life gets I'm going to stick with it until I crash and burn in hell the natural way. Life sucks and I'm sick of being depressed and alone every day for years and years but I just have to bite the bullet.
    FoolYourself FoolYourself 16-17, M 8 Responses Dec 3, 2007

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    I'm sorry but I have to leave this Earth.

    Nobody even supports me in my everyday life. By that I mean no one even makes me happy and encourages me when I'm sad or depressed. They don't even care. I'm sorry. I have to say goodbye.
    BloodRedDarkness1 BloodRedDarkness1 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 27, 2014

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    Sorry I'm Alive

    Sorry I'm alive,The mistakes I've made,Trouble I've caused,Sometimes wonder,Is it all worth it?
    storywriter2 storywriter2 46-50 1 Response Jun 3, 2012

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    Not Dead Yet

    over the last few years ive tried twice to kill myself, i really did try but i always missed  the right place. right now i dont think i want to try again, but who knows i feel my life is cursed, nothing i do seems to work out to good. even now the people here on this site...
    blackdog blackdog 41-45, M 6 Responses Mar 21, 2008

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    GreenManley GreenManley 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 7, 2014

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    Brother in law died. He was one day younger

    than me. He had a son and I guess he liked life, well, he gave up on his medicine. But at least he liked life more than me. All the ones who died in my family did. Now my newphew has no dad. I'm not going to be a good role model. It's more reasons why I can't kill myself. The...
    Nixed Nixed 31-35, M 2 Responses Oct 2, 2014

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    I'm Alive

    I'm alive,Sorry to tell you,Ain't done yet,Gonna create hell,Till I'm gone,I'm not at peace,Why should you be?
    startinover1 startinover1 46-50 2 Responses Apr 9, 2012

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    Hmmm

    Why should I have to live? I am unhappy. I dont want to be here. I want to die really and truely I do. Yesturday I was talking to this guy and my GOD he is fine. He gave me his NUM and well we talked. But he told me that I am to happy to be suicidal.... WFT? How am I to happy to...
    Geinger Geinger 16-17, F Mar 13, 2012

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    Why Cant Someone Murder Me!? :(

    i want someone to take me hostage and shoot me in the head! im a failure and a waste, im useless and unneeded, id be better off dead and i want to die, i want to go to the summerland!
    IFeelSoLonely101 IFeelSoLonely101 22-25, M Apr 11, 2013

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    The Neverending Cicle

    I have a supporting family, good friends, not rich but i live well, but I've never felt happy. I am to coward to killl myself :/ . I feel like a burden to my family but worst of all I've never feel love. It would have been amazing to experience a sentimental relationship in...
    avetnego avetnego 26-30, M Nov 30, 2013

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    Let's Trade

    I always feel sad when I hear someone's daughter died, or someone's son, or grandchild, mother, etc. Then I will see the sadness well up in their family's eyes, hear of how much they were loved, how much they left behind, or how much they had to live for. And I see this beautiful...
    endofseptember endofseptember 26-30, F Aug 11, 2010

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    I feel an entire world on my shoulders,

    and it hard to hold it up when I am hollow inside, both my stomach and my heart. I am behind a glass wall, on the other side is the world. I watch, but I can't take part, I can't take part in my own life!
    HoldingOnToAir HoldingOnToAir 16-17, T Jul 5, 2014

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    This morning I didn't deal with my depressed girlfriend very well and it ended in an argument. I just want to apologise for the way I handled the situation. I should have just...
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    Life. It sounds so cool, no? Betrayal, sadness, depression. It makes you better, no? I'm heartless. I've changed. I was once a person who laughed, who made others laugh, who cared...
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    Ok this is a good one that women usually don't like because they're very ticklish and I'm not I love to tickle women I love play with their feet but I'm not ticklish wish I was so...
    thomwhite59 thomwhite59 51-55, M May 9

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    I always say I'm sorry to people when it's not needed. There are a few people on here that deserve a sorry from me. You will know who you are and I'm sorry for how I treated you...
    jaks26 jaks26 16-17, F a week ago

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    All it takes is just saying "I'm sorry"... and actually mean it.
    HenryYamada HenryYamada 18-21, M May 14

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    Hi ): my friends,pops,dad,and my sweet teddy bear XOXOX I miss all of you sooo much ;( I made a mistake and got mad . I told mom I'm gay ): I'm not saying it was the wrong thing to...
    footsugar123 footsugar123 51-55, M 20 hrs ago

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    Tina Turner - "I'm Ready" I was happy with the fear Every moon was new I was searching for myself I was happy with the fear Every moon was new I was searching for myself...
    jml2000 jml2000 56-60, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I am completely confused about my life right now. I don't know. I've already told myself to think positive, but what am I doing? I'm all broken and I feel like nothing. My great...
    iiAmethystii iiAmethystii 13-15, F May 13

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    hello ladies, I was lead to experience because I heard all of you are really supportive and may know what I'm going through I still live with my parents and I crossdress daily...
    tmrwcanwait tmrwcanwait 18-21, T May 6

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    Buckcherry - Sorry This time I think I'm to blame it's harder to get through the days You get older and blame turns to shame
    RoughDiamond17 RoughDiamond17 36-40, F May 14

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    Some would say I have a good life. Im a good student with both parents alive, 4 siblings, and an adoring boyfriend. Im not saying thats not enough. Its just sometimes, even...
    youngandnaturallyblonde youngandnaturallyblonde 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    It's really true... I can't even really start conversations. Pretty much all people that I know, both in real life and online have either talked to me first, or had to be...
    Shynerdwriter66 Shynerdwriter66 13-15, M Apr 28

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    Wow So much has happened in the last year (since 5/1/2014) the day first saw my therapist and she said those fateful words “oh it sounds like you may be transgender.” I’d...
    DawnR59 DawnR59 51-55, T 3 Responses May 3

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    I've felt this way for a while now, but especially the last three days. I keep trying to be happy, to act happy to hope for happiness but I just can't. I think about things like...
    Christinamarie3095 Christinamarie3095 41-45, T 1 Response a week ago

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    I don´t really now how to tell my story without someone getting it the wrong way. I just don´t now how to deal with my new attraction to woman. I´m married with a great men and...
    tomanyfeeling28 tomanyfeeling28 26-30, F 19 hrs ago

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    Sorry, baby, I can't deal with this bullshit right now. I know we both have our issues to work out, so I'm going to do us both a favor and remove myself from the equation. I know...
    WinterIncandescence WinterIncandescence 16-17, F May 1

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    We live together but we don't ever talk about anything important or fun. He "sleeps" downstairs bc he finds it difficult to sleep in bed with me. I do my best to communicate what...
    jry5 jry5 26-30, F 2 Responses May 14

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    So, I'm new here. I joined this sight in hopes that I would feel a little less lonely. I use to have friends but I just can't hang around them anymore. I'm 23 and they're always...
    gk8667 gk8667 22-25, M 6 hrs ago

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    I'm just trying to do my best...
    WolfsterTheWere WolfsterTheWere 13-15, M 1 Response Apr 29

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    I'm going to die alone, no one will ever love me.
    MynameisMartin MynameisMartin 22-25, M 2 Responses Apr 29

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    I'm tired of trying to make friends lol They just keep walking away from me. Everyone.
    HazeyHaley HazeyHaley 13-15, F 5 Responses Apr 30

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    I'm not OK today my friend killed herself last night
    makenzyAuntie makenzyAuntie 26-30, F 4 Responses Apr 30

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    **** I'm lonely. Miss college friends
    StarFox11 StarFox11 22-25, M May 1

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