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I Am Sorry I'm Alive

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 131 People

    Why Cant Someone Murder Me!? :(

    i want someone to take me hostage and shoot me in the head! im a failure and a waste, im useless and unneeded, id be better off dead and i want to die, i want to go to the summerland!
    IFeelSoLonely101 IFeelSoLonely101 22-25, M Apr 11, 2013

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    Not Dead Yet

    over the last few years ive tried twice to kill myself, i really did try but i always missed  the right place. right now i dont think i want to try again, but who knows i feel my life is cursed, nothing i do seems to work out to good. even now the people here on this site...
    blackdog blackdog 41-45, M 6 Responses Mar 21, 2008

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    I'm Sorry

    I'm sorry,I'm alive,I don't fit in,Lost my way,Must have,Earth,I'm sure,Wasn't meant for me,I lost my way,Became detached,From the Alien world,Don't know how,But here am I.
    mrraincoat mrraincoat 46-50 2 Responses Jun 8, 2012

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    Brother in law died. He was one day younger

    than me. He had a son and I guess he liked life, well, he gave up on his medicine. But at least he liked life more than me. All the ones who died in my family did. Now my newphew has no dad. I'm not going to be a good role model. It's more reasons why I can't kill myself. The...
    Nixed Nixed 31-35, M 2 Responses Oct 2, 2014

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    The Neverending Cicle

    I have a supporting family, good friends, not rich but i live well, but I've never felt happy. I am to coward to killl myself :/ . I feel like a burden to my family but worst of all I've never feel love. It would have been amazing to experience a sentimental relationship in...
    avetnego avetnego 26-30, M Nov 30, 2013

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    I Have Felt Like Suiciding Most Of My Life

    in 1994 I came close to jumping infront of a train after this couple bashed me at central railway station and joyce poorter was abusing me...with baffling so-called psychology I wish I had died in 2000 after ken raped me... I had a stroke and life has been hell since! you'd swear...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Feb 25, 2011

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    Sorry I'm Alive

    Sorry I'm alive,The mistakes I've made,Trouble I've caused,Sometimes wonder,Is it all worth it?
    storywriter2 storywriter2 46-50 1 Response Jun 3, 2012

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    I am the most horrendous pseudo-intelligent

    life form in existence. I've buried myself in a slurry of pompous negativity. And, I wish fluoroantimonic acid coursed through my veins so everything that is me would flow away--unnoticed, unloved and overall, despised for no reason other than my true essence. I apologize for...
    alchemist67 alchemist67 46-50, M Dec 2, 2015

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    I'm Alive

    I'm alive,Sorry to tell you,Ain't done yet,Gonna create hell,Till I'm gone,I'm not at peace,Why should you be?
    startinover1 startinover1 46-50 2 Responses Apr 9, 2012

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    Just A Waste

    I can't help but feel that I'm a waste of life. I feel that unborn babies are far more deserving of life than me. I feel that I am a waste that can not do anything right. So many people are happily living their lives, using every second as if it is there last. Then there's me. A...
    beltroyse beltroyse 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 22, 2012

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    I feel an entire world on my shoulders,

    and it hard to hold it up when I am hollow inside, both my stomach and my heart. I am behind a glass wall, on the other side is the world. I watch, but I can't take part, I can't take part in my own life!
    HoldingOnToAir HoldingOnToAir 16-17, T Jul 5, 2014

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    I really have nothing going

    for me. My mum constantly insults me calling me weak/selfish/lazy/etc and says she wishes she didn't come home some nights because of me. I have no close friends that I can open up to, none of them know that I'm a pretty sensitive person. Every guy I've ever dated has just used...
    Lstoneheart Lstoneheart 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 27, 2014

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    I Didnt Mean To

    I didnt want to be born! It wasnt my choise! I wanted to stay a little angel baby up in the sky! I didnt want to have to grow up. I wanted to stay up in the sky. Up there in baby heaven, it wasnt my falt. I really am sorry. I wish I could take it back! Ive even tried to go back...
    Geinger Geinger 16-17, F Nov 25, 2011

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    I'm Sorry I Was Born

    I'm sorry that I was born when in reality, I should have been aborted. If it wasn't for me, my dad wouldn't have sexually abused me, my mom wouldn't have got hurt and her life ruined by me because I went to the police about it. She wouldn't have such a hard time raising me due to...
    BeautyOfSuffering BeautyOfSuffering 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 7, 2012

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    Hmmm

    Why should I have to live? I am unhappy. I dont want to be here. I want to die really and truely I do. Yesturday I was talking to this guy and my GOD he is fine. He gave me his NUM and well we talked. But he told me that I am to happy to be suicidal.... WFT? How am I to happy to...
    Geinger Geinger 16-17, F Mar 13, 2012

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    Being Alive ******* Sucks, But Theres No Way Out of It

    I refuse to do suicide. No matter how bad life gets I'm going to stick with it until I crash and burn in hell the natural way. Life sucks and I'm sick of being depressed and alone every day for years and years but I just have to bite the bullet.
    FoolYourself FoolYourself 16-17, M 8 Responses Dec 3, 2007

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    Being A Coward

    Have been so close these past few months. This year had been a rough one for me. My depression took a turn for the worst and dying seemed to always be on my mind. I couldn't get to it or couldnt do it on every attempt. Afraid of the pain I wondered if i was really ready. I just...
    endofseptember endofseptember 26-30, F 6 Responses Oct 29, 2011

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    I'm sorry but I have to leave this Earth.

    Nobody even supports me in my everyday life. By that I mean no one even makes me happy and encourages me when I'm sad or depressed. They don't even care. I'm sorry. I have to say goodbye.
    BloodRedDarkness1 BloodRedDarkness1 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 27, 2014

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    GreenManley GreenManley 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 7, 2014

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    Let's Trade

    I always feel sad when I hear someone's daughter died, or someone's son, or grandchild, mother, etc. Then I will see the sadness well up in their family's eyes, hear of how much they were loved, how much they left behind, or how much they had to live for. And I see this beautiful...
    endofseptember endofseptember 26-30, F Aug 11, 2010

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    So yesterday i decided to ate outside with my friend. And while we waitin our food, she asked if i want to join her on group of religious people to do self-repair. I said to her...
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    Like I'm stupid enough to tell you😂😂
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    My eyes have a blue base, but they turn blue-grey when I'm depressed or sad mint green/blue-green when I'm happy or not completely sad. But sometimes they're a true blue color but...
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    With everyone I'm losing, with everyone that's leaving, everyone who's dying. Dammit I'm already ******* practically gone, just take me and show others mercy.
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    sometimes I don't feel like a real person, I feel like a changing phase, every period with a mood, I don't have a constant need, I don't have a constant want, except for love...
    Silentsuffer Silentsuffer 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    Happens a lot, I'm just glad I'm not the only one, lol
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    FangirlSarah1996 FangirlSarah1996 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I'm usually not up for the social niceties like small talk, discussing the weather, I probably won't answer your call or return your text right away until I'm in the right head...
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    Half the time, I don't even feel like I did anything wrong. I'm just apologizing because I don't like fighting. But I still think it takes a big person to offer an apology, because...
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    HEY! x---a . i know i made those mistakes maybe once or thrice but I don't have any intention to hurt you. you are the only one to whom i text and no one else is there in my life...
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    That feeling that's bursting through your veins like sparks of fire whenever you're doing something that excites you? I think that's when you're most alive. It ignites something in...
    BloodEpiphone BloodEpiphone 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 6

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    "I'm dying and I'm trying but believe me I'm fine. But I'm lying, I'm so very far from fine."
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    Letter to my love.. Hey Mister, man I can't wait to meet you, I know you're out there, surviving life and working hard. I hope you had a good day today! Maybe one of these days...
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    I'm a 15 year old sissyboy who secretly wears his 17 year old sisters bra panties bikini lingirie tights leggings dresses skirts tank tops gowns heels lipstick skinny jeans heels...
    sissyboyteen sissyboyteen 13-15, M Feb 3

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    Right now I'm reading Buried.. By Kendra Elliott..
    tamanne tamanne 41-45, F Feb 2

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