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I Am Sorry I'm Alive

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    Just A Waste

    I can't help but feel that I'm a waste of life. I feel that unborn babies are far more deserving of life than me. I feel that I am a waste that can not do anything right. So many people are happily living their lives, using every second as if it is there last. Then there's me. A...
    beltroyse beltroyse 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 22, 2012

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    I'm Sorry I Was Born

    I'm sorry that I was born when in reality, I should have been aborted. If it wasn't for me, my dad wouldn't have sexually abused me, my mom wouldn't have got hurt and her life ruined by me because I went to the police about it. She wouldn't have such a hard time raising me due to...
    BeautyOfSuffering BeautyOfSuffering 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 7, 2012

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    I really have nothing going

    for me. My mum constantly insults me calling me weak/selfish/lazy/etc and says she wishes she didn't come home some nights because of me. I have no close friends that I can open up to, none of them know that I'm a pretty sensitive person. Every guy I've ever dated has just used...
    Lstoneheart Lstoneheart 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 27, 2014

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    I Didnt Mean To

    I didnt want to be born! It wasnt my choise! I wanted to stay a little angel baby up in the sky! I didnt want to have to grow up. I wanted to stay up in the sky. Up there in baby heaven, it wasnt my falt. I really am sorry. I wish I could take it back! Ive even tried to go back...
    Geinger Geinger 16-17, F Nov 25, 2011

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    Why Cant Someone Murder Me!? :(

    i want someone to take me hostage and shoot me in the head! im a failure and a waste, im useless and unneeded, id be better off dead and i want to die, i want to go to the summerland!
    IFeelSoLonely101 IFeelSoLonely101 18-21, M Apr 11, 2013

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    Not Dead Yet

    over the last few years ive tried twice to kill myself, i really did try but i always missed  the right place. right now i dont think i want to try again, but who knows i feel my life is cursed, nothing i do seems to work out to good. even now the people here on this site...
    blackdog blackdog 41-45, M 6 Responses Mar 21, 2008

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    I'm sorry but I have to leave this Earth.

    Nobody even supports me in my everyday life. By that I mean no one even makes me happy and encourages me when I'm sad or depressed. They don't even care. I'm sorry. I have to say goodbye.
    BloodRedDarkness1 BloodRedDarkness1 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 27, 2014

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    I'm Alive

    I'm alive,Sorry to tell you,Ain't done yet,Gonna create hell,Till I'm gone,I'm not at peace,Why should you be?
    startinover1 startinover1 46-50 2 Responses Apr 9, 2012

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    Being A Coward

    Have been so close these past few months. This year had been a rough one for me. My depression took a turn for the worst and dying seemed to always be on my mind. I couldn't get to it or couldnt do it on every attempt. Afraid of the pain I wondered if i was really ready. I just...
    endofseptember endofseptember 26-30, F 6 Responses Oct 29, 2011

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    The Neverending Cicle

    I have a supporting family, good friends, not rich but i live well, but I've never felt happy. I am to coward to killl myself :/ . I feel like a burden to my family but worst of all I've never feel love. It would have been amazing to experience a sentimental relationship in...
    avetnego avetnego 26-30, M Nov 30, 2013

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    GreenManley GreenManley 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 7, 2014

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    Brother in law died. He was one day younger

    than me. He had a son and I guess he liked life, well, he gave up on his medicine. But at least he liked life more than me. All the ones who died in my family did. Now my newphew has no dad. I'm not going to be a good role model. It's more reasons why I can't kill myself. The...
    Nixed Nixed 31-35, M 2 Responses Oct 2, 2014

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    Being Alive ******* Sucks, But Theres No Way Out of It

    I refuse to do suicide. No matter how bad life gets I'm going to stick with it until I crash and burn in hell the natural way. Life sucks and I'm sick of being depressed and alone every day for years and years but I just have to bite the bullet.
    FoolYourself FoolYourself 16-17, M 8 Responses Dec 3, 2007

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    I'm Sorry

    I'm sorry,I'm alive,I don't fit in,Lost my way,Must have,Earth,I'm sure,Wasn't meant for me,I lost my way,Became detached,From the Alien world,Don't know how,But here am I.
    mrraincoat mrraincoat 46-50 2 Responses Jun 8, 2012

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    I feel an entire world on my shoulders,

    and it hard to hold it up when I am hollow inside, both my stomach and my heart. I am behind a glass wall, on the other side is the world. I watch, but I can't take part, I can't take part in my own life!
    HoldingOnToAir HoldingOnToAir 16-17, T Jul 5, 2014

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    Sorry I'm Alive

    Sorry I'm alive,The mistakes I've made,Trouble I've caused,Sometimes wonder,Is it all worth it?
    storywriter2 storywriter2 46-50 1 Response Jun 3, 2012

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    Hmmm

    Why should I have to live? I am unhappy. I dont want to be here. I want to die really and truely I do. Yesturday I was talking to this guy and my GOD he is fine. He gave me his NUM and well we talked. But he told me that I am to happy to be suicidal.... WFT? How am I to happy to...
    Geinger Geinger 16-17, F Mar 13, 2012

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    I Have Felt Like Suiciding Most Of My Life

    in 1994 I came close to jumping infront of a train after this couple bashed me at central railway station and joyce poorter was abusing me...with baffling so-called psychology I wish I had died in 2000 after ken raped me... I had a stroke and life has been hell since! you'd swear...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Feb 25, 2011

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    Let's Trade

    I always feel sad when I hear someone's daughter died, or someone's son, or grandchild, mother, etc. Then I will see the sadness well up in their family's eyes, hear of how much they were loved, how much they left behind, or how much they had to live for. And I see this beautiful...
    endofseptember endofseptember 26-30, F Aug 11, 2010

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    I didn't leave it, leave it. I took a break of no activity but i'm down to be active on here again. Any and all hmu with questions, chats, anything. i don't judge (at least try my...
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    Why can't she forgive me? When am the first guy too buy her flowers the first guy too tell her I dont want nudes that all I wanted was for her too sing for me.when she has forgive...
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    Be gentle haha I'm a good person
    JarrydW JarrydW 18-21, M Mar 22

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