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I Am Sorry I'm Alive

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 127 People

    I Have Felt Like Suiciding Most Of My Life

    in 1994 I came close to jumping infront of a train after this couple bashed me at central railway station and joyce poorter was abusing me...with baffling so-called psychology I wish I had died in 2000 after ken raped me... I had a stroke and life has been hell since! you'd swear...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Feb 25, 2011

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    I'm Alive

    I'm alive,Sorry to tell you,Ain't done yet,Gonna create hell,Till I'm gone,I'm not at peace,Why should you be?
    startinover1 startinover1 46-50 2 Responses Apr 9, 2012

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    Sorry I'm Alive

    Sorry I'm alive,The mistakes I've made,Trouble I've caused,Sometimes wonder,Is it all worth it?
    storywriter2 storywriter2 46-50 1 Response Jun 3, 2012

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    I Didnt Mean To

    I didnt want to be born! It wasnt my choise! I wanted to stay a little angel baby up in the sky! I didnt want to have to grow up. I wanted to stay up in the sky. Up there in baby heaven, it wasnt my falt. I really am sorry. I wish I could take it back! Ive even tried to go back...
    Geinger Geinger 16-17, F Nov 25, 2011

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    Just A Waste

    I can't help but feel that I'm a waste of life. I feel that unborn babies are far more deserving of life than me. I feel that I am a waste that can not do anything right. So many people are happily living their lives, using every second as if it is there last. Then there's me. A...
    beltroyse beltroyse 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 22, 2012

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    Why Cant Someone Murder Me!? :(

    i want someone to take me hostage and shoot me in the head! im a failure and a waste, im useless and unneeded, id be better off dead and i want to die, i want to go to the summerland!
    IFeelSoLonely101 IFeelSoLonely101 18-21, M Apr 11, 2013

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    I really have nothing going

    for me. My mum constantly insults me calling me weak/selfish/lazy/etc and says she wishes she didn't come home some nights because of me. I have no close friends that I can open up to, none of them know that I'm a pretty sensitive person. Every guy I've ever dated has just used...
    Lstoneheart Lstoneheart 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 27, 2014

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    I'm sorry but I have to leave this Earth.

    Nobody even supports me in my everyday life. By that I mean no one even makes me happy and encourages me when I'm sad or depressed. They don't even care. I'm sorry. I have to say goodbye.
    BloodRedDarkness1 BloodRedDarkness1 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 27, 2014

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    I'm Sorry I Was Born

    I'm sorry that I was born when in reality, I should have been aborted. If it wasn't for me, my dad wouldn't have sexually abused me, my mom wouldn't have got hurt and her life ruined by me because I went to the police about it. She wouldn't have such a hard time raising me due to...
    BeautyOfSuffering BeautyOfSuffering 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 7, 2012

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    Being A Coward

    Have been so close these past few months. This year had been a rough one for me. My depression took a turn for the worst and dying seemed to always be on my mind. I couldn't get to it or couldnt do it on every attempt. Afraid of the pain I wondered if i was really ready. I just...
    endofseptember endofseptember 26-30, F 6 Responses Oct 29, 2011

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    Hmmm

    Why should I have to live? I am unhappy. I dont want to be here. I want to die really and truely I do. Yesturday I was talking to this guy and my GOD he is fine. He gave me his NUM and well we talked. But he told me that I am to happy to be suicidal.... WFT? How am I to happy to...
    Geinger Geinger 16-17, F Mar 13, 2012

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    Not Dead Yet

    over the last few years ive tried twice to kill myself, i really did try but i always missed  the right place. right now i dont think i want to try again, but who knows i feel my life is cursed, nothing i do seems to work out to good. even now the people here on this site...
    blackdog blackdog 41-45, M 6 Responses Mar 21, 2008

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    Let's Trade

    I always feel sad when I hear someone's daughter died, or someone's son, or grandchild, mother, etc. Then I will see the sadness well up in their family's eyes, hear of how much they were loved, how much they left behind, or how much they had to live for. And I see this beautiful...
    endofseptember endofseptember 26-30, F Aug 11, 2010

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    Being Alive ******* Sucks, But Theres No Way Out of It

    I refuse to do suicide. No matter how bad life gets I'm going to stick with it until I crash and burn in hell the natural way. Life sucks and I'm sick of being depressed and alone every day for years and years but I just have to bite the bullet.
    FoolYourself FoolYourself 16-18, M 8 Responses Dec 3, 2007

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    Brother in law died. He was one day younger

    than me. He had a son and I guess he liked life, well, he gave up on his medicine. But at least he liked life more than me. All the ones who died in my family did. Now my newphew has no dad. I'm not going to be a good role model. It's more reasons why I can't kill myself. The...
    Nixed Nixed 31-35, M 2 Responses Oct 2, 2014

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    I'm Sorry

    I'm sorry,I'm alive,I don't fit in,Lost my way,Must have,Earth,I'm sure,Wasn't meant for me,I lost my way,Became detached,From the Alien world,Don't know how,But here am I.
    mrraincoat mrraincoat 46-50 2 Responses Jun 8, 2012

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    The Neverending Cicle

    I have a supporting family, good friends, not rich but i live well, but I've never felt happy. I am to coward to killl myself :/ . I feel like a burden to my family but worst of all I've never feel love. It would have been amazing to experience a sentimental relationship in...
    avetnego avetnego 26-30, M Nov 30, 2013

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    GreenManley GreenManley 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 7, 2014

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    I feel an entire world on my shoulders,

    and it hard to hold it up when I am hollow inside, both my stomach and my heart. I am behind a glass wall, on the other side is the world. I watch, but I can't take part, I can't take part in my own life!
    HoldingOnToAir HoldingOnToAir 16-17, T Jul 5, 2014

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    When I think back to the day I almost successfully took my life I can remember feeling empty. Now I am so glad that my mom decided to come check up on me because if she hadn't I...
    TryingToLoveLifeNow TryingToLoveLifeNow 18-21, F Jan 12

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    I do. it's true. no one feels worse than you. you think. you're dead. I'm alive only in my head. I sink. sink deep. silently as I think. alone. my throne. my blood turns a light...
    debonaireash debonaireash 16-17, M 7 hrs ago

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    Sorry... I'm so busy from work.. who miss me?? just message me..
    yamz12rhea yamz12rhea 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 9

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    sometimes if I drop something that's really loud, I'll say sorry just in case it bothered anyone. but usually there's no one around, so I guess I'm just apologizing to whatever I...
    BigBearHug BigBearHug 18-21, M Jan 5

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    soon, this will all be over, a distant memory... a sad nightmare... not like anyone cares though.... everyone is worried about themselves, while the ones smart enough to die...
    debonaireash debonaireash 16-17, M 7 hrs ago

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    I'm sorry I haven't been on to all that have messaged me, I am working on replying to everyone! I haven't been ignoring anyone or being rude, just haven't had time lately to do...
    YoungForeverr YoungForeverr 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 10

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    Just Broke Up 29-12-2014 , I'm so sorry
    jasperprantar jasperprantar 13-15, M 1 Response Dec 28, 2014

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    Rate me girls sorry guys I'm straight 😜
    quietlad quietlad 22-25, M 2 Responses Jan 16

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    I believe this is the primary reason i am usually down. Being in a relationship makes you feel so great. It's kinda weird how much this effects me even though I'm super introverted...
    aFuzzyBlouw aFuzzyBlouw 18-21, M Dec 29, 2014

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    I'm sorry but it's true. I feel like I'm nothing to them. I'm starting to give up on everything and I just don't know what to do anymore.
    baconnater3000 baconnater3000 16-17, M 5 days ago

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    Think I'm cursed, all I said I wanted for Christmas was family time and all I've had is alone time, spend more time crying than laughing. And I know there are going to be people...
    Nethaly Nethaly 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 26, 2014

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    It seems everyone has friends, best friends, acquaintances, or at least someone they have on social retainer to talk to whenever they're bored or lonely. It seems no one has a...
    VexisArcanum VexisArcanum 16-17, M 2 Responses Dec 27, 2014

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    all my friends are practically in relationships while i don't want one because i'm very unstable and don't want to bother them constantly or share my problems. last time i did that...
    beautifu1nightmare beautifu1nightmare 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    Well hello dear readers.. I wanted to share my stories and experience because I think that every experience is worth sharing.. It all started in August when I was hooking up with...
    singingthestoryofmylife singingthestoryofmylife 16-17, F Jan 11

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    It's been a little while but my anxiety/depression has been acting up again. I'd say I really want someone to talk too but I'm not sure what If I have anything to say. I'm just...
    NicoNever NicoNever 22-25, M 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I'm sorry, and thanks for all the great memories.... Yesterday was great, and I had a great time... But I just cant... I can't and I just .... I cant... goodbye...
    debonaireash debonaireash 16-17, M 2 Responses Jan 12

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    Since I was little girl and that never did anything wrong I thought it was my fault, then He used excuses and more excuses that made people think that I was crazy or something...
    lovingCuteSmartGirl lovingCuteSmartGirl 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 13

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    I have only 2 that know that I regularly crossdress, my wife who has come a long way since I dropped the bomb about it and a good friend who here lately I have told him everything...
    Allyson02 Allyson02 31-35 2 Responses Dec 27, 2014

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    I'm not necessarily sure how to deal with my situation. Since I first met this guy I have always loved his personality, he is a genuine guy who cares for his future and is...
    Gonzalez0430 Gonzalez0430 16-17, F 4 hrs ago

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    Eyedea & Abilities - Junk: http://youtu.be/_XOa8eaTZuo "I wanna suck out all your junk and kiss it back into the parts of your heart that you keep locked up, when you awaken I...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 5 hrs ago

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    i don't think I'm a creep but I'm a weirdo
    Jin777 Jin777 18-21, M Dec 26, 2014

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    Ok can people message me I'm probly deleting this account get info to contact me message me
    maddie711 maddie711 13-15, F Dec 26, 2014

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    It happened again! I'm prepared to die!!!
    biancatodd biancatodd 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 26, 2014

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    My family thinks I'm anti social but really I'm just depressed because the guy I'm in love with hates me.
    bearsgirl03 bearsgirl03 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 28, 2014

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    I'M BORED TEXT ME WHEN EVER YOU WANT
    eyecandy14 eyecandy14 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 29, 2014

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    I'm always nude,24-7 so it is hard to tell. haha
    nudigirl nudigirl 22-25, F 26 Responses Dec 29, 2014

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    of coarse I'm gonna say I'm ok. I'm not gonna tell you all of my pointless feelings. they don't matter .
    Ebolaa Ebolaa 16-17, M 1 Response Dec 31, 2014

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    does anyone think I'm cute?
    nefe1983 nefe1983 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 31, 2014

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