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I Am Sorry I'm Alive

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 131 People

    I Didnt Mean To

    I didnt want to be born! It wasnt my choise! I wanted to stay a little angel baby up in the sky! I didnt want to have to grow up. I wanted to stay up in the sky. Up there in baby heaven, it wasnt my falt. I really am sorry. I wish I could take it back! Ive even tried to go back...
    Geinger Geinger 16-17, F Nov 25, 2011

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    I'm Sorry

    I'm sorry,I'm alive,I don't fit in,Lost my way,Must have,Earth,I'm sure,Wasn't meant for me,I lost my way,Became detached,From the Alien world,Don't know how,But here am I.
    mrraincoat mrraincoat 46-50 2 Responses Jun 8, 2012

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    GreenManley GreenManley 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 7, 2014

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    Just A Waste

    I can't help but feel that I'm a waste of life. I feel that unborn babies are far more deserving of life than me. I feel that I am a waste that can not do anything right. So many people are happily living their lives, using every second as if it is there last. Then there's me. A...
    beltroyse beltroyse 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 22, 2012

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    Sorry I'm Alive

    Sorry I'm alive,The mistakes I've made,Trouble I've caused,Sometimes wonder,Is it all worth it?
    storywriter2 storywriter2 46-50 1 Response Jun 3, 2012

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    Being A Coward

    Have been so close these past few months. This year had been a rough one for me. My depression took a turn for the worst and dying seemed to always be on my mind. I couldn't get to it or couldnt do it on every attempt. Afraid of the pain I wondered if i was really ready. I just...
    endofseptember endofseptember 26-30, F 6 Responses Oct 29, 2011

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    Why Cant Someone Murder Me!? :(

    i want someone to take me hostage and shoot me in the head! im a failure and a waste, im useless and unneeded, id be better off dead and i want to die, i want to go to the summerland!
    IFeelSoLonely101 IFeelSoLonely101 22-25, M Apr 11, 2013

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    Being Alive ******* Sucks, But Theres No Way Out of It

    I refuse to do suicide. No matter how bad life gets I'm going to stick with it until I crash and burn in hell the natural way. Life sucks and I'm sick of being depressed and alone every day for years and years but I just have to bite the bullet.
    FoolYourself FoolYourself 16-17, M 8 Responses Dec 3, 2007

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    I feel an entire world on my shoulders,

    and it hard to hold it up when I am hollow inside, both my stomach and my heart. I am behind a glass wall, on the other side is the world. I watch, but I can't take part, I can't take part in my own life!
    HoldingOnToAir HoldingOnToAir 16-17, T Jul 5, 2014

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    Let's Trade

    I always feel sad when I hear someone's daughter died, or someone's son, or grandchild, mother, etc. Then I will see the sadness well up in their family's eyes, hear of how much they were loved, how much they left behind, or how much they had to live for. And I see this beautiful...
    endofseptember endofseptember 26-30, F Aug 11, 2010

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    Brother in law died. He was one day younger

    than me. He had a son and I guess he liked life, well, he gave up on his medicine. But at least he liked life more than me. All the ones who died in my family did. Now my newphew has no dad. I'm not going to be a good role model. It's more reasons why I can't kill myself. The...
    Nixed Nixed 31-35, M 2 Responses Oct 2, 2014

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    The Neverending Cicle

    I have a supporting family, good friends, not rich but i live well, but I've never felt happy. I am to coward to killl myself :/ . I feel like a burden to my family but worst of all I've never feel love. It would have been amazing to experience a sentimental relationship in...
    avetnego avetnego 26-30, M Nov 30, 2013

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    I'm Alive

    I'm alive,Sorry to tell you,Ain't done yet,Gonna create hell,Till I'm gone,I'm not at peace,Why should you be?
    startinover1 startinover1 46-50 2 Responses Apr 9, 2012

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    I'm Sorry I Was Born

    I'm sorry that I was born when in reality, I should have been aborted. If it wasn't for me, my dad wouldn't have sexually abused me, my mom wouldn't have got hurt and her life ruined by me because I went to the police about it. She wouldn't have such a hard time raising me due to...
    BeautyOfSuffering BeautyOfSuffering 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 7, 2012

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    I'm sorry but I have to leave this Earth.

    Nobody even supports me in my everyday life. By that I mean no one even makes me happy and encourages me when I'm sad or depressed. They don't even care. I'm sorry. I have to say goodbye.
    BloodRedDarkness1 BloodRedDarkness1 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 27, 2014

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    I really have nothing going

    for me. My mum constantly insults me calling me weak/selfish/lazy/etc and says she wishes she didn't come home some nights because of me. I have no close friends that I can open up to, none of them know that I'm a pretty sensitive person. Every guy I've ever dated has just used...
    Lstoneheart Lstoneheart 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 27, 2014

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    I Have Felt Like Suiciding Most Of My Life

    in 1994 I came close to jumping infront of a train after this couple bashed me at central railway station and joyce poorter was abusing me...with baffling so-called psychology I wish I had died in 2000 after ken raped me... I had a stroke and life has been hell since! you'd swear...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Feb 25, 2011

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    Not Dead Yet

    over the last few years ive tried twice to kill myself, i really did try but i always missed  the right place. right now i dont think i want to try again, but who knows i feel my life is cursed, nothing i do seems to work out to good. even now the people here on this site...
    blackdog blackdog 41-45, M 6 Responses Mar 21, 2008

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    Hmmm

    Why should I have to live? I am unhappy. I dont want to be here. I want to die really and truely I do. Yesturday I was talking to this guy and my GOD he is fine. He gave me his NUM and well we talked. But he told me that I am to happy to be suicidal.... WFT? How am I to happy to...
    Geinger Geinger 16-17, F Mar 13, 2012

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    Now that it's been just hours after she's gone I felt like I could've handled it but now I'm thinking this whole experience of 6 years and the care and love is gonna leave a mark...
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    Will I ever not feel alone? My anxiety is anguishing. I just want my bf to be here for me. I don't trust him because he's never comforting when I'm this way. Our relationship is...
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    I'm not eating. I just need someone at my side. Not telling me to eat and gain weight like a pig. But someone that's going through what I'm going through. Trying to lose weight by...
    Regi0215 Regi0215 16-17, F 3 hrs ago

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    I dunno. I gotta say it, when people tell me I'm interesting, it's flattering for certain. But I don't agree because how? How am I interesting? Sure, on the Internet I might seem...
    548mitch 548mitch 18-21, M 5 hrs ago

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    where's a friend when u need one I'm so mad and sad Right now
    notheonlyone notheonlyone 13-15, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I am just wondering and sorry i am working out
    jdavis63 jdavis63 13-15, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm gonna start to talk like Starfire from Teen Titans Go.
    CallmeHopelessNotRomantic CallmeHopelessNotRomantic 36-40, F 2 days ago

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    yeah from a day before we started talking idk somehow i m liking it his id is theotherone17 here on ep
    Dreck007 Dreck007 18-21, M 2 days ago

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    I'm sorry if I don't reply to any messages today, I feel like being introverted and keep things to myself today.
    m4riiam m4riiam 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I'm bored somebody message me no perverts plzz!!
    taken102 taken102 13-15, F a week ago

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    Thank god I'm an guy with a great sense of direction
    Goralski Goralski 46-50, M 2 Responses Jun 25

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    I am broken. Ever since I was taken from my mom...i am not the same. She's in jail for letting her two kids get touched infront of her face! She can't see her kids until their 18...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 25

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    I'm going out to Las Vegas to visit my family Any gay boys that lives out there and want to meet up if so hmu
    mruknownmaster mruknownmaster 13-15, M Jun 24

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    I'm A Bad Guy with some good qualities.
    spark16 spark16 26-30, M 2 Responses Jun 23

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    I'm not virgin this is forbidden in my country if my parents discover this out they will kill me :(
    zakroufa zakroufa 22-25 2 Responses Jun 21

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    But really I'm not... There's been so many times I've pretended that I was perfectly fine but haven't been. Like on time after I got into a fight with my best friend of like seven...
    SmileyFaceJenn SmileyFaceJenn 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 18

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    I've never hit bone when giving an injection, so I wouldn't know what that feels like. I've had many a patient move, while I had a needle in them, so maybe it was more along those...
    jaymepopejoy jaymepopejoy 56-60, F 1 Response Jun 17

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    Every valentine's day, Christmas or my birthday when I'm alone hurts more than the last.
    hreinn hreinn 18-21, M Jun 16

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    I just uploaded a picture collage, a picture of me before (without glasses), and me now (with glasses). Tell me what you think. I'm 14 by the way.
    Ilooklikeageek Ilooklikeageek 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 16

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    No one ever believes me at how damaged I am because I'm always smiling or laughing things off. It isn't until I'm intoxicated that the tears come out. I don't like to get angry...
    taminglife taminglife 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 15

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    Any one live in Tennessee I'm staying for a visit with my family and any live there I'm looking for a BF 👬
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jun 15

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    Got a lot to share and not closeted or embarrassed about any of it. But likewise, I'm happy to learn about you too.
    PeterSp8 PeterSp8 41-45, M Jun 15

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    Darn not drunk yet! I need 2 more shot then I'm dead. =^.^=.
    Oceandock19 Oceandock19 41-45, F 4 Responses Jun 14

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    Maybe it will help me to feel that i'm okay while im actually not.
    IrenkaSchipper IrenkaSchipper 16-17, F Jun 14

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