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I Am Sorry I'm Alive

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    I'm Sorry I Was Born

    I'm sorry that I was born when in reality, I should have been aborted. If it wasn't for me, my dad wouldn't have sexually abused me, my mom wouldn't have got hurt and her life ruined by me because I went to the police about it. She wouldn't have such a hard time raising me due to...
    BeautyOfSuffering BeautyOfSuffering 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 7, 2012

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    I'm Sorry

    I'm sorry,I'm alive,I don't fit in,Lost my way,Must have,Earth,I'm sure,Wasn't meant for me,I lost my way,Became detached,From the Alien world,Don't know how,But here am I.
    mrraincoat mrraincoat 46-50 2 Responses Jun 8, 2012

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    Being Alive ******* Sucks, But Theres No Way Out of It

    I refuse to do suicide. No matter how bad life gets I'm going to stick with it until I crash and burn in hell the natural way. Life sucks and I'm sick of being depressed and alone every day for years and years but I just have to bite the bullet.
    FoolYourself FoolYourself 16-18, M 8 Responses Dec 3, 2007

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    I Have Felt Like Suiciding Most Of My Life

    in 1994 I came close to jumping infront of a train after this couple bashed me at central railway station and joyce poorter was abusing me...with baffling so-called psychology I wish I had died in 2000 after ken raped me... I had a stroke and life has been hell since! you'd swear...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Feb 25, 2011

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    I really have nothing going

    for me. My mum constantly insults me calling me weak/selfish/lazy/etc and says she wishes she didn't come home some nights because of me. I have no close friends that I can open up to, none of them know that I'm a pretty sensitive person. Every guy I've ever dated has just used...
    Lstoneheart Lstoneheart 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 27

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    Let's Trade

    I always feel sad when I hear someone's daughter died, or someone's son, or grandchild, mother, etc. Then I will see the sadness well up in their family's eyes, hear of how much they were loved, how much they left behind, or how much they had to live for. And I see this beautiful...
    endofseptember endofseptember 22-25, F Aug 11, 2010

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    Sorry I'm Alive

    Sorry I'm alive,The mistakes I've made,Trouble I've caused,Sometimes wonder,Is it all worth it?
    storywriter2 storywriter2 46-50 1 Response Jun 3, 2012

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    I Didnt Mean To

    I didnt want to be born! It wasnt my choise! I wanted to stay a little angel baby up in the sky! I didnt want to have to grow up. I wanted to stay up in the sky. Up there in baby heaven, it wasnt my falt. I really am sorry. I wish I could take it back! Ive even tried to go back...
    Geinger Geinger 16-17, F Nov 25, 2011

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    I'm sorry but I have to leave this Earth.

    Nobody even supports me in my everyday life. By that I mean no one even makes me happy and encourages me when I'm sad or depressed. They don't even care. I'm sorry. I have to say goodbye.
    BloodRedDarkness1 BloodRedDarkness1 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 27

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    Hmmm

    Why should I have to live? I am unhappy. I dont want to be here. I want to die really and truely I do. Yesturday I was talking to this guy and my GOD he is fine. He gave me his NUM and well we talked. But he told me that I am to happy to be suicidal.... WFT? How am I to happy to...
    Geinger Geinger 16-17, F Mar 13, 2012

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    I feel an entire world on my shoulders,

    and it hard to hold it up when I am hollow inside, both my stomach and my heart. I am behind a glass wall, on the other side is the world. I watch, but I can't take part, I can't take part in my own life!
    HoldingOnToAir HoldingOnToAir 16-17, F Jul 5

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    Why Cant Someone Murder Me!? :(

    i want someone to take me hostage and shoot me in the head! im a failure and a waste, im useless and unneeded, id be better off dead and i want to die, i want to go to the summerland!
    IFeelSoLonely101 IFeelSoLonely101 18-21, M Apr 11, 2013

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    GreenManley GreenManley 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 7

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    Not Dead Yet

    over the last few years ive tried twice to kill myself, i really did try but i always missed  the right place. right now i dont think i want to try again, but who knows i feel my life is cursed, nothing i do seems to work out to good. even now the people here on this site...
    blackdog blackdog 41-45, M 6 Responses Mar 21, 2008

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    Being A Coward

    Have been so close these past few months. This year had been a rough one for me. My depression took a turn for the worst and dying seemed to always be on my mind. I couldn't get to it or couldnt do it on every attempt. Afraid of the pain I wondered if i was really ready. I just...
    endofseptember endofseptember 22-25, F 6 Responses Oct 29, 2011

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    Just A Waste

    I can't help but feel that I'm a waste of life. I feel that unborn babies are far more deserving of life than me. I feel that I am a waste that can not do anything right. So many people are happily living their lives, using every second as if it is there last. Then there's me. A...
    beltroyse beltroyse 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 22, 2012

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    The Neverending Cicle

    I have a supporting family, good friends, not rich but i live well, but I've never felt happy. I am to coward to killl myself :/ . I feel like a burden to my family but worst of all I've never feel love. It would have been amazing to experience a sentimental relationship in...
    avetnego avetnego 26-30, M Nov 30, 2013

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    I'm Alive

    I'm alive,Sorry to tell you,Ain't done yet,Gonna create hell,Till I'm gone,I'm not at peace,Why should you be?
    startinover1 startinover1 46-50 2 Responses Apr 9, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    That's it . I'm off to Jamaica to find me a man. Or maybe Samoa ...Or Australia. Wish me luck . ✌️
    AEHeroine AEHeroine 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 25

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    I really thought I was facing the real possibility of death with this one, but thank you God I'm alive! 😁 Going to be healing for a long time and it hurts like crazy to laugh...
    Mirandaluvslife Mirandaluvslife 36-40, F Jul 13

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    “I'm sorry to say but you screwed up. You...screwed up. It was all on you and You...screwed up. You know that right?” “Yes I know it was my fault. It's always my fault...
    Lucile199 Lucile199 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    It's just gotten worse, day started off well but I guess the signs where there from the start, no hunger since I woke up, no emotion, no nothing, then the day changed and it got...
    PedrosCN PedrosCN 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 8

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    Think it's about time I post this :S. Please do not judge me this is veryyyyyyyyy hard for me. I know it's long sorry ha. About 2 years ago when I was 13/14 (underage and a minor...
    lela201465 lela201465 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 7

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    Still alive and kicking and now roaming around EP to let all people know how crazy and AWESOME I am! You doubting? Don't care! :P (haters gonna hate!) giggles* JK ;) I'm AWESOME...
    akirayuuki akirayuuki 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 27

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    To people whom I chat to (either now or in the future) I'm sorry if I auto correct you. I have some reasons why I do such. 1)I'm a good speller. And I know not everyone is but it...
    HighOnMisery HighOnMisery 13-15, F Jul 6

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    EP Kids: I realize that I'm most likely going to receive some "hate" for this, BUT for goodness sake, EP will you please, Please, PLEASE get this idiotic kids off of this site...
    Virgo4Whore Virgo4Whore 41-45, M 1 day ago

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    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b0Tmdf411_E I CHOOSE TO SURVIVE!!! WHATEVER IT TAKES!!! Yes I am prepared To stay alive And I won’t forgive, Vengeance is mine And I won’t give...
    Existentior Existentior 31-35, M 1 Response Jun 27

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    Laying in the middle of a road right now. I don't even care about the cars. I am just staring at the stars. Weirdly, I feel alive. Infinite.
    ofnoimportance ofnoimportance 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 22

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    It's impossible to write my story, because I know that no one will ever believe me... When you're in love, it's hard not to do anything for the person you care about... No one...
    HUMAN2BME HUMAN2BME 26-30, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Over the last few weeks, I've had a struggle in my brain about the way I carry on with my life. I'm trying to be a "good person"... and that measuring stick is beating me to death...
    AlwaysPersevere71 AlwaysPersevere71 41-45, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Exactly as the title says. I'm too nice to people sometimes and they just walk all over me. But when I flip everything around I'm suddenly an *******. The hell? I'm sorry I can be...
    emptyskyform emptyskyform 18-21, M 17 hrs ago

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    He has shown many times he hates. He is never wrong its always my fault. Why if he hates me and I do nothing right or to his satisfaction, why he keeps hurting instead of letting...
    wonderMe07 wonderMe07 41-45, F 1 Response Jun 25

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    Okay so I'm one of those people who find Silence of the Lambs a drama/thriller not a 'horror' movie. My idea of a decent horror movie released recently would be 'The Conjuring...
    pretender1326 pretender1326 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 4

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    This was in grade 8. I came back to school after a dentist appointment. It's funny how I can remember it very clearly in my head. There were these stairs that you went down to go...
    maigreamour maigreamour 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 5

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    I'm sorry I haven't written in so long. I've been very busy trying to get my life back on track where it needs to be. I've been working, mostly. Dealing with a bunch of personal...
    Anonymouself Anonymouself 41-45, M 1 Response Jul 5

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    I am sixteen years old and have just received my "predicted gcse grades". All of my predicted grades are a grade B. Many people have told me these are "good grades" but to me a B...
    Candyflosshair Candyflosshair 16-17, F 4 Responses Jul 7

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    I'm not exactly sure how I came to fear doing this. Memories from my childhood fogged now I can't recall the specifics. In general, it was probably my family and how they were mean...
    StokesQuirky StokesQuirky 18-21, F Jul 11

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    I'm new and I keep seeing posts like this, by both men and women. I'll click on the post, and often it will be someone that I do think is attractive, sometimes it's someone that I...
    Varof Varof 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I was driving today in the highway and although we have a speed limit of 110km/h I went as much as 180km/h... I know it's dangerous and all that... Still... I find being alone in...
    TheWeepingWoman TheWeepingWoman 36-40, F 3 Responses Jul 7

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    Marriages are so hard to keep up with. It's a constant effort on both sides. My gut is telling me he's cheating again, that's fine. We're getting divorced anyways. I am so worried...
    SummerJasmine SummerJasmine 41-45, F Jul 13

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    I'm such a slutty drunk and it makes me feel really bad about myself -.-
    Annalise27 Annalise27 18-21, F 8 Responses Jun 22

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    I'm not perfect either. Shall we criticise each other, or simply accept idiosyncrasies and find what we have in common? It is the most positive way forward, I feel....
    Bourgault Bourgault 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 22

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    My dreams are so real, that when I wake up it is hard to distinguish between my dream and when I'm awake.
    cantuski cantuski 31-35, M 1 Response Jun 22

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    I'm sure a lot of people did this. Maybe because they don't wanna make their loved ones worried, maybe because they can't just say the truth, maybe because they're not ready to...
    deepdowninside71 deepdowninside71 13-15 1 Response Jun 23

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    I'm bored , but I'm never boring :) Debate .... :) LOL................. Yawn :)
    aspiedavid aspiedavid 31-35, M 1 Response Jun 23

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    Because I'm a dancer 😐 that's cool right lol?
    stephhunny1 stephhunny1 13-15, F 3 Responses Jun 25

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    I'm scared of my boyfriend. He's very aggressive towards me at times and had even hit me on a couple of occasions. I'm all alone and really don't know what to do.
    Jenezebel Jenezebel 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 25

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    mostly because I'm bored lol. But seriously do you? And if so why? Or if not?
    shrimptastical shrimptastical 18-21, F 13 Responses Jun 26

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    The thing that upsets me most, is when I'm fine when I'm alone in my room and than out of the blue. M