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I Am Sorry I'm Alive

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 124 People

    Being Alive ******* Sucks, But Theres No Way Out of It

    I refuse to do suicide. No matter how bad life gets I'm going to stick with it until I crash and burn in hell the natural way. Life sucks and I'm sick of being depressed and alone every day for years and years but I just have to bite the bullet.
    FoolYourself FoolYourself 16-18, M 8 Responses Dec 3, 2007

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    I feel an entire world on my shoulders,

    and it hard to hold it up when I am hollow inside, both my stomach and my heart. I am behind a glass wall, on the other side is the world. I watch, but I can't take part, I can't take part in my own life!
    HoldingOnToAir HoldingOnToAir 16-17, T Jul 5

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    The Neverending Cicle

    I have a supporting family, good friends, not rich but i live well, but I've never felt happy. I am to coward to killl myself :/ . I feel like a burden to my family but worst of all I've never feel love. It would have been amazing to experience a sentimental relationship in...
    avetnego avetnego 26-30, M Nov 30, 2013

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    Not Dead Yet

    over the last few years ive tried twice to kill myself, i really did try but i always missed  the right place. right now i dont think i want to try again, but who knows i feel my life is cursed, nothing i do seems to work out to good. even now the people here on this site...
    blackdog blackdog 41-45, M 6 Responses Mar 21, 2008

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    GreenManley GreenManley 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 7

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    Why Cant Someone Murder Me!? :(

    i want someone to take me hostage and shoot me in the head! im a failure and a waste, im useless and unneeded, id be better off dead and i want to die, i want to go to the summerland!
    IFeelSoLonely101 IFeelSoLonely101 18-21, M Apr 11, 2013

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    Being A Coward

    Have been so close these past few months. This year had been a rough one for me. My depression took a turn for the worst and dying seemed to always be on my mind. I couldn't get to it or couldnt do it on every attempt. Afraid of the pain I wondered if i was really ready. I just...
    endofseptember endofseptember 22-25, F 6 Responses Oct 29, 2011

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    Hmmm

    Why should I have to live? I am unhappy. I dont want to be here. I want to die really and truely I do. Yesturday I was talking to this guy and my GOD he is fine. He gave me his NUM and well we talked. But he told me that I am to happy to be suicidal.... WFT? How am I to happy to...
    Geinger Geinger 16-17, F Mar 13, 2012

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    Let's Trade

    I always feel sad when I hear someone's daughter died, or someone's son, or grandchild, mother, etc. Then I will see the sadness well up in their family's eyes, hear of how much they were loved, how much they left behind, or how much they had to live for. And I see this beautiful...
    endofseptember endofseptember 22-25, F Aug 11, 2010

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    I Didnt Mean To

    I didnt want to be born! It wasnt my choise! I wanted to stay a little angel baby up in the sky! I didnt want to have to grow up. I wanted to stay up in the sky. Up there in baby heaven, it wasnt my falt. I really am sorry. I wish I could take it back! Ive even tried to go back...
    Geinger Geinger 16-17, F Nov 25, 2011

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    Sorry I'm Alive

    Sorry I'm alive,The mistakes I've made,Trouble I've caused,Sometimes wonder,Is it all worth it?
    storywriter2 storywriter2 46-50 1 Response Jun 3, 2012

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    I Have Felt Like Suiciding Most Of My Life

    in 1994 I came close to jumping infront of a train after this couple bashed me at central railway station and joyce poorter was abusing me...with baffling so-called psychology I wish I had died in 2000 after ken raped me... I had a stroke and life has been hell since! you'd swear...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Feb 25, 2011

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    I'm Sorry

    I'm sorry,I'm alive,I don't fit in,Lost my way,Must have,Earth,I'm sure,Wasn't meant for me,I lost my way,Became detached,From the Alien world,Don't know how,But here am I.
    mrraincoat mrraincoat 46-50 2 Responses Jun 8, 2012

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    I really have nothing going

    for me. My mum constantly insults me calling me weak/selfish/lazy/etc and says she wishes she didn't come home some nights because of me. I have no close friends that I can open up to, none of them know that I'm a pretty sensitive person. Every guy I've ever dated has just used...
    Lstoneheart Lstoneheart 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 27

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    I'm Alive

    I'm alive,Sorry to tell you,Ain't done yet,Gonna create hell,Till I'm gone,I'm not at peace,Why should you be?
    startinover1 startinover1 46-50 2 Responses Apr 9, 2012

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    Brother in law died. He was one day younger

    than me. He had a son and I guess he liked life, well, he gave up on his medicine. But at least he liked life more than me. All the ones who died in my family did. Now my newphew has no dad. I'm not going to be a good role model. It's more reasons why I can't kill myself. The...
    Nixed Nixed 31-35, M 2 Responses Oct 2

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    I'm Sorry I Was Born

    I'm sorry that I was born when in reality, I should have been aborted. If it wasn't for me, my dad wouldn't have sexually abused me, my mom wouldn't have got hurt and her life ruined by me because I went to the police about it. She wouldn't have such a hard time raising me due to...
    BeautyOfSuffering BeautyOfSuffering 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 7, 2012

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    I'm sorry but I have to leave this Earth.

    Nobody even supports me in my everyday life. By that I mean no one even makes me happy and encourages me when I'm sad or depressed. They don't even care. I'm sorry. I have to say goodbye.
    BloodRedDarkness1 BloodRedDarkness1 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 27

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    Just A Waste

    I can't help but feel that I'm a waste of life. I feel that unborn babies are far more deserving of life than me. I feel that I am a waste that can not do anything right. So many people are happily living their lives, using every second as if it is there last. Then there's me. A...
    beltroyse beltroyse 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 22, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    To be honest I don't know why anyone is alive... What's the point in love and hate, jobs, money, sex, family, people. These things wouldn't exist without humans to experience them...
    spotofhope spotofhope 13-15, F Nov 4

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    I just got in a fight with my sister and it was not just verbal. After I had enough I went to my room and cried. I cried because it hurt me both physically and emotionally. I cried...
    palomaflys palomaflys 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 3

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    I can never forgive myself for what I did to him. He was broken and hurting and what did I do? I gave up. On myself. On everything. But worst of all of my crimes I gave up on him...
    InsanityIsTheButterflysDrug InsanityIsTheButterflysDrug 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 27

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    I'm still just a nobody that nobody ******* notices. I'm sorry I have scars. But I try to hide them. I'm sorry I'm not as pretty as the girls on tv. But I try to be. I'm sorry I'm...
    burnedmemories burnedmemories 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 29

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    My dad always asks me "When are you going to grow up or be mature?" Also my man sometimes tells me to "grow up." I just ignore them and be me. I'm more mature than most people...
    roselani2005 roselani2005 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 11

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    I know, that's not supposed to be possible. People say it's not possible, that I'm deluding myself. I'm looking for a way out, I secretly hate her, we must have a sexless...
    roykirk roykirk 41-45, M 10 hrs ago

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    I spend so much time thinking about how I've screwed up, about how things can't possibly go well for me since they haven't in the past. When I get into a certain mood, I decide it...
    Holdontothefire Holdontothefire 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 24

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    We lost lot of time in discussing our aims and how we can construct our life together. I know that she loves me .. and she knows that I'm in love with her. But I understood...
    fooxnews fooxnews 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 2

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    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Or7bG_57UUI'm sorry....I can't take it back...I know now, one hurt doesn't deserve another.....
    alwayswantingmore78 alwayswantingmore78 36-40, F 1 day ago

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    Not sure what tomorrow's gonna bring beyond a healthy dose of sleep deprivation. lol got trick or treating for M and then have to be up to Fargo with A by 10:15 Saturday. Maps says...
    niklb niklb 41-45, F 2 Responses Oct 30

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    I'd like to think I'm a pretty decent person who not only gives but takes too much crap from the takers I've had the displeasure of meeting in my old age and now I find myself...
    UnbreakableMe2112 UnbreakableMe2112 51-55, F Nov 10

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    When I went to my wall I noticed a.message from you! By the time I got back to write you and you were gone! I'm sorry I missed you! Will you ever call back?? OK bye bye!
    eddiesolds eddiesolds 51-55, M 1 day ago

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    http://grooveshark.com/s/Join+Me/3yfCcI?src=5 HIM - Join Me This is the most epic live recording of any song I've ever heard. Skip the first minute (and 30s if you're really...
    cloudsoflife cloudsoflife 26-30, M Oct 25

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    Tehehehe I'm sorry body but there's this thing called the internet
    CosplayPotato CosplayPotato 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    Isn’t it supposed to be the people that love you and say how much they care for you support you? I know I’m pretty damn stupid as everyone keeps telling me but I’m smart...
    LoveLessOne97 LoveLessOne97 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I'm not into Kpop, Jpop, anime, nor do I have Yellow Fever. Also, I have enough friends from Asia that have gone home that I'd like to visit. I actually like a cultural experience...
    newasexy newasexy 26-30, F Nov 4

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    I almost started cutting last night. I'm so broken and confused…. The sun seems so far away.
    MasqueradeMe MasqueradeMe 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 4

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    'Someone has shown interest in your profile! Click here to see who it is!' O.O *click!* 'Profile locked. Reason: scammer' Universe: Ahahaaahaa... Did you really think that...
    MrHansen MrHansen 36-40, M Nov 11

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    ever since I watched wolf children I felt alive. I love running, building dens, playing out side and growling. and the forest. I dint know why but I feel like I belong as a wolf...
    TheSummerBreeze TheSummerBreeze 13-15, F Nov 1

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    I can't stand when I have to sugar coat things to save someones feelings. I'm sorry for my opinion?
    Caseylxyy Caseylxyy 16-17, F Nov 15

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    I'm really feeling so sad about how I look,how i have been told ugly a lot,first of all,I like this site a lot cause it has give me a way to express about my self,to express about...
    Ammar9009 Ammar9009 13-15, M 1 Response Nov 7

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    It's hard to understand how I got here. I had this really awesome guy. Great dad, great husband. For two years. He was here, I swear he was. Where did he go? Why did he go? Who is...
    niklb niklb 41-45, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    So... I'm gay and best friends with this straight guy and i went over to his house and he's so provocative the first time i went to his house and the second time that i went he put...
    benjibatch benjibatch 16-17, M Oct 24

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    I'm stalking every experience... o_O
    GarrettYdoom GarrettYdoom 18-21, M 10 hrs ago

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    I'm 5'1 and 18 and this 12 year old told me I was to short to be in college
    Lai96 Lai96 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    I'm 4'11. My legs are stubby so I can't walk as fast as tall people and high shelves are just plain impossible. But I don't mind being fun-size :D
    Indefinitely16 Indefinitely16 16-17, F 4 hrs ago

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    I left my hometown to go to college 10 hours away. At first, I was lonely at college too, but through the years, I made wonderful friends. And then I graduated and left them all...
    lizzztom08 lizzztom08 22-25, F 51 mins ago

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    For quite some time now actually. At this point I think I can deal with it much better than years ago and find myself not concerning with what I'm doing or where I'm going so long...
    lFrostBitel lFrostBitel 22-25, M