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I Am Sorry I'm Alive

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 131 People

    I'm Sorry I Was Born

    I'm sorry that I was born when in reality, I should have been aborted. If it wasn't for me, my dad wouldn't have sexually abused me, my mom wouldn't have got hurt and her life ruined by me because I went to the police about it. She wouldn't have such a hard time raising me due to...
    BeautyOfSuffering BeautyOfSuffering 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 7, 2012

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    I Have Felt Like Suiciding Most Of My Life

    in 1994 I came close to jumping infront of a train after this couple bashed me at central railway station and joyce poorter was abusing me...with baffling so-called psychology I wish I had died in 2000 after ken raped me... I had a stroke and life has been hell since! you'd swear...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Feb 25, 2011

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    Being A Coward

    Have been so close these past few months. This year had been a rough one for me. My depression took a turn for the worst and dying seemed to always be on my mind. I couldn't get to it or couldnt do it on every attempt. Afraid of the pain I wondered if i was really ready. I just...
    endofseptember endofseptember 26-30, F 6 Responses Oct 29, 2011

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    I'm Alive

    I'm alive,Sorry to tell you,Ain't done yet,Gonna create hell,Till I'm gone,I'm not at peace,Why should you be?
    startinover1 startinover1 46-50 2 Responses Apr 9, 2012

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    Brother in law died. He was one day younger

    than me. He had a son and I guess he liked life, well, he gave up on his medicine. But at least he liked life more than me. All the ones who died in my family did. Now my newphew has no dad. I'm not going to be a good role model. It's more reasons why I can't kill myself. The...
    Nixed Nixed 31-35, M 2 Responses Oct 2, 2014

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    I Didnt Mean To

    I didnt want to be born! It wasnt my choise! I wanted to stay a little angel baby up in the sky! I didnt want to have to grow up. I wanted to stay up in the sky. Up there in baby heaven, it wasnt my falt. I really am sorry. I wish I could take it back! Ive even tried to go back...
    Geinger Geinger 16-17, F Nov 25, 2011

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    Not Dead Yet

    over the last few years ive tried twice to kill myself, i really did try but i always missed  the right place. right now i dont think i want to try again, but who knows i feel my life is cursed, nothing i do seems to work out to good. even now the people here on this site...
    blackdog blackdog 41-45, M 6 Responses Mar 21, 2008

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    Hmmm

    Why should I have to live? I am unhappy. I dont want to be here. I want to die really and truely I do. Yesturday I was talking to this guy and my GOD he is fine. He gave me his NUM and well we talked. But he told me that I am to happy to be suicidal.... WFT? How am I to happy to...
    Geinger Geinger 16-17, F Mar 13, 2012

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    GreenManley GreenManley 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 7, 2014

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    Why Cant Someone Murder Me!? :(

    i want someone to take me hostage and shoot me in the head! im a failure and a waste, im useless and unneeded, id be better off dead and i want to die, i want to go to the summerland!
    IFeelSoLonely101 IFeelSoLonely101 22-25, M Apr 11, 2013

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    I feel an entire world on my shoulders,

    and it hard to hold it up when I am hollow inside, both my stomach and my heart. I am behind a glass wall, on the other side is the world. I watch, but I can't take part, I can't take part in my own life!
    HoldingOnToAir HoldingOnToAir 16-17, T Jul 5, 2014

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    The Neverending Cicle

    I have a supporting family, good friends, not rich but i live well, but I've never felt happy. I am to coward to killl myself :/ . I feel like a burden to my family but worst of all I've never feel love. It would have been amazing to experience a sentimental relationship in...
    avetnego avetnego 26-30, M Nov 30, 2013

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    I really have nothing going

    for me. My mum constantly insults me calling me weak/selfish/lazy/etc and says she wishes she didn't come home some nights because of me. I have no close friends that I can open up to, none of them know that I'm a pretty sensitive person. Every guy I've ever dated has just used...
    Lstoneheart Lstoneheart 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 27, 2014

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    Let's Trade

    I always feel sad when I hear someone's daughter died, or someone's son, or grandchild, mother, etc. Then I will see the sadness well up in their family's eyes, hear of how much they were loved, how much they left behind, or how much they had to live for. And I see this beautiful...
    endofseptember endofseptember 26-30, F Aug 11, 2010

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    Sorry I'm Alive

    Sorry I'm alive,The mistakes I've made,Trouble I've caused,Sometimes wonder,Is it all worth it?
    storywriter2 storywriter2 46-50 1 Response Jun 3, 2012

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    I'm sorry but I have to leave this Earth.

    Nobody even supports me in my everyday life. By that I mean no one even makes me happy and encourages me when I'm sad or depressed. They don't even care. I'm sorry. I have to say goodbye.
    BloodRedDarkness1 BloodRedDarkness1 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 27, 2014

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    Being Alive ******* Sucks, But Theres No Way Out of It

    I refuse to do suicide. No matter how bad life gets I'm going to stick with it until I crash and burn in hell the natural way. Life sucks and I'm sick of being depressed and alone every day for years and years but I just have to bite the bullet.
    FoolYourself FoolYourself 16-17, M 8 Responses Dec 3, 2007

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    I'm Sorry

    I'm sorry,I'm alive,I don't fit in,Lost my way,Must have,Earth,I'm sure,Wasn't meant for me,I lost my way,Became detached,From the Alien world,Don't know how,But here am I.
    mrraincoat mrraincoat 46-50 2 Responses Jun 8, 2012

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    Just A Waste

    I can't help but feel that I'm a waste of life. I feel that unborn babies are far more deserving of life than me. I feel that I am a waste that can not do anything right. So many people are happily living their lives, using every second as if it is there last. Then there's me. A...
    beltroyse beltroyse 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 22, 2012

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    more dominant than possessive, though I can get clingy if I'm scared of losing someone who I care about, guess its from the mental and emotional abuse over the years
    Azureal Azureal 26-30, M 1 hr ago

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    My life is terrible my parents are always yelling at me, my sister just moved out and away, my only friend moved out of state, and now I'm just a mess...
    TheGirlInTheShadows TheGirlInTheShadows 13-15, F 1 hr ago

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    I'm probably not, and this is probably just me over reacting because i tend to do that. But I've noticed things about me, that I've been paying actual attention to lately. But i...
    catchingyourclouds catchingyourclouds 16-17, F 1 hr ago

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    I can openly admit when I'm wrong but mostly it's just to myself. I fell in love with a guy and he broke my heart three times and on the third try somebody unexpected caught me. I...
    honestlyanonymouslyme honestlyanonymouslyme 22-25, F 6 hrs ago

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    I always listen to music when I'm upset I just get lost in the music and imagine a dance studio and by the end I'm happy as hell :)
    chelseybycroft901 chelseybycroft901 18-21, F 6 hrs ago

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    It's not that I'm afraid it's that my mind is so full of many things.
    badgirlbee badgirlbee 22-25, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    So one of my best friends came over, and we stayed up really late watching movies. Later on, we ended up laying in my bed and I had my vibrator and I ran it across her pelvis and...
    poodlepuncher poodlepuncher 18-21, F 5 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    Nothing- The script Honestly, it sucks when people don't understand you or are trying to see things from your perspective. I know I'm making the right decision for once but nobody...
    ssweetdisspositionn ssweetdisspositionn 18-21, F 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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    Sigh..what's the point. Highschool friends and my whole family would abandon me if they knew I was an atheist, so I keep them out of my head. But there isn't else inside. I only...
    aeinhardt aeinhardt 18-21, M 23 hrs ago

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    Life's what you make it and I'm going to make mine a happy one, full of adventures, laughter and great friends. If anyone else is interested feel free to join me
    KaylaCherie KaylaCherie 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    I'm a 12 year old boy looking for a girl to talk to. Ages 12-14 message me
    CarterG13 CarterG13 13-15, M 2 days ago

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    I'm learning something with my colleague A, so boring... Sometimes you really need learning how to used the Excel... For example: VBA CODE !!!
    ZoeWT ZoeWT 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Sorry, I can't pretend. Even my words say otherwise, I just can't, you can tell by my body language it's just a mask, a thinly veiled one at that.
    usernameinneed usernameinneed 26-30, M 3 days ago

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    well.. I haven't posted in a while... I've changed... I guess pain changes ppl but it also makes them stronger... but I guess it puts a wall between light... this is what I'm...
    Silentsuffer Silentsuffer 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Even makeup can't help me. I'm basically ******.
    Gill1998 Gill1998 16-17, F 3 days ago

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    Yes to my circle on here. I have not been in touch with them for a long time. I know I'm being silly because the change in my life is the reason for that. I moved from England to...
    RHSK143 RHSK143 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    When I'm alone and bored at home I'm usually horny too, so put my hand in my pants and touch myself. This normally turns into a wanking session after too long.
    jaimeedl jaimeedl 36-40, M 5 days ago

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    If anyone wants to talk I'm looking for a relationship and I'm always open for new friends.
    FindWhatMakesYou FindWhatMakesYou 13-15, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I guess I'm weird....I pick a random title and write a story to match it. So I'm depressed now...I don't like that. Nope, not one bit. It makes me sad. Like the time the MP's...
    rick4545 rick4545 36-40, M 6 days ago

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    ok guys I'm bored. like really bored. so ask me any thing you guys want
    BigBootyBaddie BigBootyBaddie 18-21, F 12 Responses 6 days ago

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    Hey girls do you think I'm attractive
    Jacobds Jacobds 13-15, M a week ago

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    HIIIIIIIIII!!!! I'm bored .............bleh
    Haleybruh2002 Haleybruh2002 13-15, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I'm hilariously lonely and depressed... and I'm starting to feel that I can't even handle being on Here. Sorry.
    Holdontothefire Holdontothefire 18-21, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    Yes I'm weird don't judge me :P
    janelrenee janelrenee 16-17, F 2 Responses a week ago

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