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I Am Starting Over

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 257 People

    Rebuilding a Life

      I just left a sexless marriage which had me entangled for almost 7 years. It was a quagmire from beginning to end, and I only discovered what a truly bad idea the wedding was after said wedding was over. I ended up moving back home. I have been here two weeks...
    serenityprayer serenityprayer 31-35, F 5 Responses Aug 13, 2009

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    The Tiny Seed

    I am leaving a marriage ....a tiny seed of freedom has taken root. I am starting over..I may learn to be me again. Who am I after all this time? I have been locked away for too long.
    flyingstone flyingstone 61-65, F 6 Responses Dec 20, 2011

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    "Brainstorming The Rain"

    As I sit on my front porch watching the rain hit all of mother nature's beautiful surroundings in sight, I feel calm, relaxed and most of all soothed by the sound and breeze blowing past me.. I have to admit I am no longer feeling as overwhelmed with the usual everyday stresses...
    xxmeandonlymexx xxmeandonlymexx 22-25, F Nov 22, 2013

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    The Re-birth Of Me

    Generally speaking I rebirth every seven years, it starts with an epiphany of some sort, the last one the result of a near death experience and a well set resolve to take better care of myself. This time however it comes only as an act of self love and acceptance, granted I did...
    MaoriMis MaoriMis 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 12, 2011

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    Stuck On 73%

    To those great people who have been following my saga on EP thanks for your kind words and support. The latest news isn't news at all. My stbx and her sister in law lawyer are still asking for 73% of my net income. I no longer worry about it as the figure it so pathetic it needs...
    OmyTVC15 OmyTVC15 51-55, M 13 Responses Aug 8, 2012

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    My Marriage

    This year my husband and I celebrated 20 years of marriage. Things are not stale but we are living separate lives, I never see him, he's always working or out. I became a bit concerned that when our children leave home we would have nothing left. This is still the case, I am...
    living4now living4now 41-45, F 4 Responses Dec 10, 2012

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    A New Year!!!

    I read a story in this group by Santana Rex... he said.... So it is a new year, new challenges, new firsts for me, and I know it is time to embrace the new path that has been laid before me and accept that I am starting over and that is just the way it is - I can remember...
    ericalee4 ericalee4 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 16, 2009

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    I've finally reached my limit.

    I realized life is just too damn short to waste dwelling on one girl in a world filled with billions. I'm 26, and I'm not getting any younger. It actually feels good to be taking charge of my life and I'm going to continue doing it. I just got a new job which I'm very excited...
    nustart nustart 26-30, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Starting From Scratch Again...

    Trying to learn my from past mistakes, and not make them again. Starting at rock bottom, with nothing. Unfortunately, already making mistakes again. Putting on the brakes, taking a step back. Willing to make new friends, but not willing to tell my life story again. Most days, I...
    MizzyH MizzyH 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 16, 2013

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    Anew

    So I hired a lawyer on Wednesday. What a way to be ushered into adulthood, huh? I really didn't think I would ever have to be one of those litigious Americans that sued people, but since I also dropped out of college this week due to the lasting effects of a bran injury, I am...
    Searchingformyshalom Searchingformyshalom 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 27, 2013

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    The Re-birth Of Me

    Generally speaking I rebirth every seven years, it starts with an epiphany of some sort, the last one the result of a near death experience and a well set resolve to take better care of myself. This time however it comes only as an act of self love and acceptance, granted I did...
    MaoriMis MaoriMis 36-40, F Nov 12, 2011

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    The new year is rapidly approaching,

    barrelling down upon me like a freight train. This year will be different than every of year past in my life. See, for the very first time in my 42 years I will start this year alone. Perpetually abandoned, yet I do not despair. My childhood I had my great grandmother to...
    michael1971 michael1971 41-45, M 2 Responses Dec 29, 2013

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    Here We Go.

    I finally got the job that can lift me to new hights. To be honest ANY job can do that for me, I've been unemployed since November. I'll be living at home so any momey that I make I keep besides what I pay for groceries. It will not all be based on the job, those it...
    LakeShore LakeShore 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 26, 2009

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    Me Starting Over

    I just want to  get over myself and be free. Free from my negative thoughts and new life. I love that its my choice and no one elses. So basically im starting over to love me! ; )
    theylaughtheyyell theylaughtheyyell 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 19, 2009

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    Time For A Change

    No more self-loathing. I want desperately to love myself no matter what flaws I have. No one can be perfect. I'm working really hard to convince myself I'm acceptable as-is.
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 28, 2010

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    Namaste

    simplicity of breath tracing thread through the whirling of lovemaking and the arms of sleep managing to feed both flame and infant hemoglobin our edges soften when the stitches are examined candle leaves and pores clasp mirrored light in each other we belong
    Searchingformyshalom Searchingformyshalom 18-21, F Jun 4, 2013

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    Well I took the step off the cliff

    and left my emotionally abusive husband two years ago now. I am still living with my parents and living on public assistance which will end in a few months and I am no closer to finding work. How can I start over when my resume shows no references or work history?? I feel stuck...
    Misfire68 Misfire68 46-50, F 1 Response Jan 13

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    Cleanse

    let sweat pour hunger pains ravish an absence of mother tongues and the false love of screens lock the darkened tank body contorted eyes closed connect with the upward confined giving way to inner space wandering giving way to focus effortless peace finding a home in skull...
    Searchingformyshalom Searchingformyshalom 18-21, F Jun 4, 2013

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    Could You Leave It All Behind?

    I have often had dreams where I would be walking along and simply "go".  I would just say hell with it, walk out of my house, job, etc, and end up somewhere totally different.  I almost always wake up like - "What was THAT?!"Still, the question is - if you COULD, would you be...
    David929 David929 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 26, 2011

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    Starting Over.

    Is it too late? I am leaving a relationship of 15 years. We are selling our home. I have started packing boxes. I will be starting all over again in an apartment. Splitting everything up. All the furniture and belongings. Its a lot of work! I am giving up my equity for my own...
    seemedlikeagoodideaatthetime seemedlikeagoodideaatthetime 36-40, F 4 Responses May 13, 2012

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    I have to find a new ICE.

    I guess that really defines when a marriage is over in the 21st century. I was doing so good emotionally. You had almost become someone I used to know. You know every button to push, the proper sequencing to destroy me. Why can't you live your life and let me be? I locked...
    michael1971 michael1971 41-45, M 1 Response Dec 5, 2013

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    Bad Day

    So today I did terrible.  I've decided i'm just going to try not to eat at all and see how that goes.  I have 26 days to lose weight.  i CAN do this!
    freexyourselfx freexyourselfx 22-25, F Jan 23, 2011

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    Down To 40%

    At least I think that is the figure the magistrate handed down. Of course they counted my student loans as "income" which is stupid but my lawyer tells me that monthly payments I will have in the future for them will count for me in the actual divorce. Right now we are haggling...
    OmyTVC15 OmyTVC15 51-55, M Dec 2, 2012

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    The Theoretical Universe

    The theoretical universe is a little hard to describe and at this point I don't really have a working definition. Yet it is one of those things that when it pops up in life I see it clearly and then I store the example away in my memory in the hopes that one day enough of a...
    OmyTVC15 OmyTVC15 51-55, M 1 Response Apr 12, 2013

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    73% Continued

    I received a summons from my stbx to appear in court on the 15th. They again are asking for a separation but want the same amount of support they asked for a divorce. What makes them think I would give them what they have been asking for now? If I wanted to or even could give...
    OmyTVC15 OmyTVC15 51-55, M Sep 19, 2012

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    I guess I might as well.

    It's been a long road here but I just gotta wipe my slate and reorganize myself. It makes me sad but I know I'll be happier for it. I just hope I can get through it all ok. One day this will be the moment I started toward happiness, and I will feel so much better then.
    seasalticecream seasalticecream 16-17, M 1 Response Dec 16, 2013

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    Not There Yet

    There have been many things happening in my life since I have last written. I have met a new soul mate and lover. She is hard to describe becase we connect so well. In some ways our relationship is complicated because our love is so deep and it came about so fast. In other ways...
    OmyTVC15 OmyTVC15 51-55, M 12 Responses Jun 21, 2012

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    How Many Times Do I Need To Start Over

    I am still trying to get a life here. I left my abusive sexless marriage over 20 months and had a relationship that did not work out and right now I over worked and in huge financial trouble. there is no end in sight and I do not know how much longer I can last.
    OmyTVC15 OmyTVC15 51-55, M 7 Responses Nov 1, 2013

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    Trying Again

    I will often be found on my high horse thinking that I know it all when all of a sudden it feels like the world was pulled out from under me and I feel just as stupid as ever. I pride myself in being right and knowing what I'm doing but I guess I'm having to start over yet again...
    FallenOnceAgain FallenOnceAgain 16-17, F Jul 31, 2011

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    Not Feeling Loved

    I have been trying to change some things going on 2 years not.  Some things I have changed.  I am married and I have know one to talk to.  I have been talking to my Lord and Savior but I have been disappointed.  Whom I am married to doesn't want to hear it...
    iamchanging iamchanging 36-40, F 7 Responses Oct 14, 2010

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    Everything Is Different Now

    2008 was a year that saw alot of changes in my life. My wife passed away in July we had been married for over 23 years, and she was my best friend for 27 years. We had three children 2 boys, 18 and 22, and a daughter who is 20. My oldest was going to the local community college...
    SantanaRex SantanaRex 46-50, M 6 Responses Jan 2, 2009

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    Tough Choices

    I talked to my oldest son who lives out of state. He has been angry with me about the divorce and about being caught in the middle of everything. His anger has changed based on the circumstance and on his latest talk with my stbx. His views are sometimes contradict themselves and...
    OmyTVC15 OmyTVC15 51-55, M 2 Responses Dec 27, 2012

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    Silkworm

    I lived in the comfort zone for a long time. Actually, I don’t think I realized that. I mean, each day was planned, predictable, just a few unpleasant surprises. The pleasant ones happened, too, and they were quite frequent, I must admit.My comfort zone was like a cocoon. Once...
    Gorzat Gorzat 41-45, F 2 Responses Oct 27, 2012

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    The Easy Way Out?

    I was at a hearing for my appeal of the temporary support agreement that was handed down to me a few months ago. I did not appear before the magistrate it was just the lawyers. Basically my stbx won't get a job and expects me to keep supporting her. She is getting almost half of...
    OmyTVC15 OmyTVC15 51-55, M 1 Response Feb 11, 2013

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    My Last Chance .

    I am at a period in my life of upheaval and displacement , it is happening for a reason . I am not going through all of these struggles for nothing , I know it's the new chapter . I have lied to myself too often in the past but I am finally becoming honest with myself and others...
    Smackhead Smackhead 70+, F May 25, 2013

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    Starting Over, Finding My Path

    I'm starting over, looking for the place I call home for the first time in my adult life.Everywhere I have lived before was just a place to eat and sleep and kinda hang out. It never really felt like home. Part of starting over  had to do with needing to get away from people...
    roadmaptome roadmaptome 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 3, 2011

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    An Letter To A Dear Friend Who Wants Me To Salvage My Marriage.

    She has a borderline personality. It is about the worst, most untreatable mental disorder there is. I got nowhere with the church over the issue and we got counseling many times. I had to go outside of the church to get help. I went to an online support group and everyone said...
    OmyTVC15 OmyTVC15 51-55, M 1 Response Aug 10, 2012

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    My 17 Year Old Son Is Blackmailing Me

    Yes just when things seem like they have gotten as crazy as they can get my 17 year old offers up a new twist to my situation, blackmail! He has been talking to his best friend's ex girlfriend who lives in another city 45 min to an hour from here. He want to take her to a movie...
    OmyTVC15 OmyTVC15 51-55, M 8 Responses Mar 31, 2012

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    Again

    to many times, so many i've lost count. my choices have always been this or that north or south hot or cold,, now I am simply at the crossroads of life or death and frankly i don't give a ****, my thumb is up just waiting for my ride..
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 2, 2013

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