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I Am Still Here

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    My School Years Were a Living Hell But I Am Still Here!

    I just started secondry  school and in the first week i broke my arm playing hockey  ( Great start  dont you think? :P )when i returned to school when my arm had healed i felt like an outsider i was bullied  so bad that I was sent home on...
    vendui vendui 26-30, M 4 Responses Dec 21, 2008

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    Survivor Vs. Victim

    it's been six years since the abuse of my childhood has ended.  i have only started to work on healing and i feel like all i have done is go backwards.  i can't make my emotions follow my logic.  i know it wasn't my fault, yet i can't make myself feel that way...
    runningaway runningaway 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 3, 2010

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    Yup

    I have done many stupid things in my life. I lied. I drank. I have hurt and been hurt. I have loved, but not been loved back. I have been broken and stepped on. I have inflicted myself and sometimes others pain and heartbreak over and over again. I am suffering right now. I...
    JojaRodenaLente JojaRodenaLente 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 1, 2009

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    Not Looking Up At You Yet

    Last night, I went to another funeral. Haven't been to a wedding for so long, I can't remember the last time. So, I see various branches of my family at funerals. You could call it "The Family Reunion Macbre". The dearly departed lies within inches of us we catch up on family...
    angsty angsty 61-65, F 1 Response Nov 5, 2011

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    Woman And A Snake

    on a clod winter day, an old woman strawled the forrest, looking for some branches. as she leand on a side to pull a big one, she noticed a snake. it was lying there helplessly and seriously wounded. the woman felt sorry for the snake and decided to take her in. she cared for it...
    october10th october10th 31-35, F 7 Responses Dec 30, 2010

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    Your Friend.

    Independence...relying on no one.... people have left me with no choice...I'm trusting no one....they left me without turning to say goodbye....why tell me that I'm a good friend if you're just going to leave me? if one day you're just going to pass me as if you don't know me? Or...
    Frozenfires Frozenfires 18-21 1 Response Feb 4, 2013

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    Still Here

    Still here,Yes I am,Despite what I've been through,Don't know how,I often wonder.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Jan 30, 2012

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    I've been through some experiences

    that should have been shared here, but I had to go somewhere else to protect someone's heart. But I'm back, now that it's over.  
    angsty angsty 61-65, F 2 Responses Dec 7, 2013

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    I'm Back! :)

    Hi guys :D I don't know if you even remember me but I used to be your friend, we used to talk about everything, you remember? Anyway, if you want to know what's been going on with my life in past few months, let me know... I am still the same person, i just haven't been here and...
    thepianogirl thepianogirl 18-21, F 14 Responses Sep 20, 2013

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    Tap...tap...delete

    I am still here.Tap...tap...tapI am stilltap...tap...I am...tap...I...Delete.
    angsty angsty 61-65, F 4 Responses Feb 25, 2012

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    lunalua lunalua 22-25, F Feb 25

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    Amazing...

    We all have had some concept, when we were young, of what our future years would be. Hahahaha. That's been a hoot, all those bubbles popping. To sanctify, root, a recent popping of a bubble, the death of my cat Pookie, I opened a cupboard. There's a bottle of bubble-soap in...
    angsty angsty 61-65, F 2 Responses Oct 29, 2011

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    "I Am Still Here"

    on E.P. I'm still here forever. So friends you are stuck with me.
    mother1983 mother1983 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 9, 2011

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    I'M Still Here

    ALL THE EVIL. ALL THE NEGATIVITY. NO WEAPON CAN PROSPER AGAINST ME. I'M STILL HERE. ALL THE TRANSGRESSIONS AGAINST ME HELPED TO MOLD ME. THE WORLD LOVES TO SEE YOU DOWN AND BROKEN BUT THEY CAN'T DEFEAT ME. THE PAIN MADE ME STRONGER... IT HELPED MOLD AND CHANGE ME. NOW I'M BETTER...
    fukkboii fukkboii 36-40, F Dec 22, 2008

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    Thought That Maybe I Should Just Bug Out

    Then, tonight happened. It's been a long time since I was up so late on EP. I usually pop in on Saturday night, but over the past few months have seen a a steep decline in my profile activity. Woof! Just when I thought I was a nonentity, things started percolating tonight. Oh...
    angsty angsty 61-65, F 2 Responses Feb 5, 2012

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    "I don't mind being boyfriend #2.

    Please don't be scared of me. If your boyfriend finds out you'll probably cry. Don't be scared. If your lonely you know who to call. You know where I stay. Don't be afraid." Is what I said but I hope she didn't mistake it for love. I just love her body and comfort.
    AllLoveXOXO AllLoveXOXO 18-21, M Feb 22

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    They can't tell me who to be 'Cause I'm not

    what they see Yeah, the world is still sleepin' while I keep on dreamin' for me And their words are just whispers and lies that I'll never believe And I I want a moment to be real Want to touch things I don't feel Wanna hold on and feel I belong And how can you say I'll never...
    kevinnc1 kevinnc1 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 29

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    Related Experiences

    My sons Anniversary is in 3 more months, the starting of my third year, has it been this long? but it seems like yesterday, still excepting my second year I'm finding it still hard...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F Aug 18

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    Just sitting here typing these words I can feel my son around me it's like he is the one typing these words that i'm putting down, my mothers is rebuilding her life, with the most...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F 2 Responses Aug 18

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    Now you see what I mean, ,Ma I'm still here
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F Aug 19

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    Yes his second anniversary is in two months, every year when it's time for his anniversary I understand it will bring me back to the beginning , remembering every thing, but this...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F Sep 6

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    My day was good, very exciting, I having felt like this in a long time the feel that a child has at Christmas just can wait to unwrap my presents, my first year of grief, my...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F Aug 23

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    today is another Good day, God is Good, I had plenty of rest, and I slept with a peace of mind, I feel different, I still cry I still hurt, I still think of him every day and I...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F Aug 28

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    I know it's hard for many of you to even begin to believe some of the things I'm been tell you and I'm going to tell you more things that you'll find it hard to believe but I'm...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F Aug 18

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    Well I had a full day of preys, and talking to my son like always and with them both I never feel that alone, just imagine spending your years with the spirits, now I know my son...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F Aug 19

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    Good day, Top of the day, I hope every ones ok, I had a pretty rough night last night still struggling with the way he died, I can get this out of my mind for the love of God...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F 2 Responses Aug 19

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    I learned so many things through my grief, things I never knew before, all the pain and sufferings and I learned a lot about my self, I learned the first year was just experiencing...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F 1 Response Aug 18

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    it's been two years almost and i can still vision him just like it was yesterday, my god they are so strong now that makes me happy and typing this right now i'm wear a smile, and...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F Aug 21

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    Reeling in the fishing rode,well I'm very tired today from yesterday I guess I tried to do to much like before, I woke up this morning confused thinking my son was here in the...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F Aug 21

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    Today was the most blessed day, I had no GRIEF No Pain No sufferings No stress my house felt like before I can feel my son here and it feels like normal I don't know where this is...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F Aug 28

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    So where do the new identity begins?, when you learn your new feelings you experience, when you can except their deaths, I'm still working on that to, but I know I can't keep...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F 1 Response Aug 20

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    who is so honest to tell the true of what their weakness is, well I have no fear in that, I walk with God and my son there are no shames in honesty, but now you know why it's so...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F Aug 18

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    I have a big smile on my face right now, I don't know who you new people are yet but I have a feeling I'll get to know you all, Lance you made me smile, thank you, I hear my sons...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F Aug 19

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    My day today was great, I did so many things I forgot , I had my neighbor to put all the cords up to his play station and his Xbox, they have been down since he passed my son and I...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F Aug 20

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    I wish my brother was around I constantly wonder how much better my life would be if he was here today.
    SkollHati SkollHati 18-21, M Aug 26

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    Today I had the need to write and get a lot of pain and hurt off my chest, The way my son died was so dam tragic , I just can't STILL believe there is that kind of a people out...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F Sep 5

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    Ma remember me , this will keep me a live, remember the good one,
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F Aug 18

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    "GOOD DAY"I had one of my sons dreams last night again where he is showing me death, the last time I had this dream it scared me and I became isolated in doors, but this time I...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F Aug 20

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    Making new memories:every year every holiday a new picture is made and placed in a new book of memories , mixing the old pictures
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F Aug 20

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    streets718 streets718 56-60, F 1 Response Aug 22

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    streets718 streets718 56-60, F Aug 23

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    A beautiful Sunday remembering mt father always gathering up all his children to take us to church and then after bring us to my grandmother house after for a visit some thing we...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F Aug 24

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    A two in one
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F Aug 24

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    It's just the beginning of another busy workweek, and I really wish that she was around to hear about my day and to share her day with me as well, like we used to in happier days...
    Markjerome Markjerome 36-40, M Aug 25

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    written letter to your children helps, I even mail them off and wait for them to come back and say oh my son is traveling , just like their spirits they have free will to travel to...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F Aug 25

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    I REMEMBER YOUWe loss the most precious gifts in this world, that gave us life, the quantity do not compare the quality , We gave them the love that there are no words to explain...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F Aug 26

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