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I Am Still Not Over the Death of My Friend

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 68 People

    7 Years And A New Life... I Think I Made It Worse.

    Nights like tonight, I am at my lowest. I can't figure out how to be happy in my life when my life equation doesn't have you. It's literally a broken glass, at first I couldn't find a few peices but now it seems like I threw the rest away. Where did my life turn. I can't help...
    YoursTruelyAlways YoursTruelyAlways 22-25 Mar 3, 2011

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    Melody

    It's been months now since I've lost you, but it still feels like yesterday that I heard the news. I still want to talk to you about everything that happens. How am I suppose to go on without your advice? I still cry some nights, wishing that you could hear the...
    IAmReaching IAmReaching 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 23, 2009

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    Nothins Changed..

    Jeremy, Jeremy, Jeremy,..... God knows how much i miss you...  Its been going on three years this coming june but it feels like yesterday... Time hasnt healed the wounds only deepened my aching heart.. I long to hear your voice, although at times I feel your presence.. ...
    AuThEnTiC AuThEnTiC 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 20, 2008

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    I Understand That

    it was almost 6 months before i knew my wife was killed and her mother took her own life that day after i was shoot down in viet nam it was only a freak accidnet our grandpanerts knes i was even alive and one of then stay by my bed for almost 6 months till i cam out of a coma
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M Jul 4, 2011

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    The year of 2010 really changed my life.

    I lost my bestfriends that year.. Still today tears fill in my eyes . rip Absalom 'nd Dakota <3 <3
    breelouise breelouise 22-25, F Jun 17, 2014

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    Happy Birthday To Me..

     I just want to be numb right now and it's only 1AM. It's funny how the aching sets in even before you realize what day it is. Like your body goes into a cycle of mourning for itself. You don't have to tell it anything. The persistant hammering in my head is a...
    M0RGUE M0RGUE 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 23, 2010

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    One Year Today

    It has been one year as of july 2nd that i lost one of my best friends to a car acsident.We burried him on the 4th so every year from now on we only have momories to go by of him.He left behind a beautiful little girl who can not know her daddy to grow up with.I know its hard to...
    Andre Andre 18-21, M 4 Responses Jul 4, 2007

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    Sorrow

    i am going to miss you so much my dear friend.  i will no longer enjoy you coming by to tease me, to talk to me, to play with me. we made a good team of friends, you and i, and i am mourning the loss of you. i am mourning the uniqueness of you. you are so special, and so...
    seasong seasong 36-40, F May 25, 2009

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    My best friend passed less

    than a year ago back in October. I still find it hard to believe he's gone. I hadn't talked to him in months before he passed because he had moved states an we got Into a huge argument but the afternoon before his accident I got a text from him saying "I'm sorry for everything...
    imjare imjare 18-21, M Jun 15, 2014

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    Christmas.

        I can't believe its almost been 5 months without you. I don't know how i've done it, but somehow someway i've made it this far without going crazy. If you asked me 5 months ago to picture my life without you, i don't think i could of done it. Because i never...
    briaxo briaxo 16-17, F Dec 23, 2009

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    It's been four years

    and I'm still trying to dig my way out of your grave. Still trying to find the words to finally tell my parents why I felt so guilty about you leaving and why I punished myself so harshly when it had nothing to do with me at all. They definitely know already, but I'm sure they'd...
    ayelet23 ayelet23 18-21, F Jun 21, 2014

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    Dean

    i lost my boyfriend on 13th feb 08 (yes the day befor valentines day) he died in a motorcycle accident (him and his cousin) they swerved to miss a drunk driver in a 4wd and the bike slid into a tree then a car swerved to miss the drunk driver also and hit them :( RIP boys u were...
    sammi2312 sammi2312 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 26, 2009

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    Why Did You Have To Leave Me Here?

    Jamie... It's not even been 18 months since you left us. But not a day goes by that I don't think about you and cry. The song you quoted to me is the most played on my iPod as it reminds me of you. Every time I hear it, I cry because you told me to 'hold on' (The Bee Gees, I've...
    KMP25 KMP25 18-21 1 Response Jan 2, 2013

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    || Wish You Were Still Here ||

    I miss her and sometimes I just cry when I remember her, she died almost two years ago.  I met her in grade 9, she had those beautiful green eyes and an amazing personality.  One year later she was diagnosed with Arthritis.  None of us including her thought that this could be...
    meme30 meme30 70+, F 4 Responses Jan 23, 2012

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    A Smile For Emily

    An amazing young lady, Emily was. She had some problems. She had a very dysfunctional family that landed her in foster care. Also, she has a slight mental handicap, a mild form of Autism, I believe. But for all her faults, she had many good qualities. She was a good kid, had a...
    ladyzantorian ladyzantorian 18-21, F Jan 24, 2012

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    Death Of My Friend

    Death of my friend,Still gets me,Over it,No way,That'll take time,If ever at all.
    storywriter2 storywriter2 46-50 Jun 1, 2012

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    Don't Know How To Be

    don't know why I'm deciding to write this here at  6:30 am with no sleep all night. But I felt the need to share more stories after reading more. This is definitely the hardest one to share. July 31st 2006 I lost my best friend, since middle school, to diabetes...
    Beingmeinstead Beingmeinstead 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 24, 2009

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    I have had friends who I thought were true friends. but at the end of the day talked **** about me behind my back and were never really true friends to begin with. I want friends...
    kparker33 kparker33 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    Friday I'm sleeping over his house with our son. our son is excited to have a sleep over with his sisters. I'm looking foward to being in bed with my ex and cuddle. I'm not...
    smashmouth4eva smashmouth4eva 31-35, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    it was about a month ago on new years eve. I was driving to my boyfriend's house and a ball joint went out on my car, causing all the weight to shift to the drivers side. there...
    treehuggingheathen treehuggingheathen 18-21, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    I am 17 and my mom still paddles me
    heatherheadly2000 heatherheadly2000 13-15, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    I'm 13 and I still get it does anyone else around my age still get it?
    nudistjames nudistjames 13-15, M 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    I still get it and I'm 13 anyone round my age still get it
    nudistjames nudistjames 13-15, M 2 hrs ago

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    Feel like I'm in a constant nightmare. My boyfriend is still in jail. Have no clue if he is going to get out and be put in drug court or be stuck in jail for a while. People in my...
    skatinem13 skatinem13 26-30, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    I sometimes think about the past...my childhood dreams...how my body has changed ... how time has passed ... friends that came and left ... people that walked for a short time in...
    Ariaspark Ariaspark 26-30, F 4 hrs ago

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    Do you ever just sit and wonder how you no longer speak with those you were closest to. Like how did I lose my best friend of 15 years, I used to believe she was supposed to be in...
    JunkFoodJunkie JunkFoodJunkie 22-25, F 5 hrs ago

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    Do I refer to her as my best friend at this point? I feel the sand slipping through my hands. 11 years. Every emotion felt between us, every laugh. Selfish am I to say; I wish she...
    naturesxwanderess1 naturesxwanderess1 26-30, F 6 hrs ago

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    My best friend at the time and I had known each other since the 6th grade. She was always the person to laugh while I was the shy one. Although I was being bullied by the class...
    ILoveBacon23 ILoveBacon23 18-21, F 3 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    It was nearly four years ago now, in the summer, I was with friends at Arcachon on the Atlantic coast of France on the water, boarding and boating. I was trying to set on a...
    Wishart95 Wishart95 18-21, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    Since I moved, I find it hard to not have my friends around, those who get me. It's hard to start over and learn about new people. It's hard to know who to trust and confide in...
    Hanna8393 Hanna8393 31-35, F 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    Since I moved, I find it hard to not have my friends around, those who get me. It's hard to start over and learn about new people. It's hard to know who to trust and confide in...
    Hanna8393 Hanna8393 31-35, F 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    Just recently I almost became both homeless and almost had another huge loss or two if you count not being able to bring an older woman with diabetes to get to her serious doctor...
    TheSoloLobo TheSoloLobo 26-30, M 13 hrs ago

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    Last night, I watched most of the Superbowl with H and her husband. It's really strange to say that, because he has been my friend since we were kids, and still is one of, if not...
    mickitg mickitg 41-45, T 1 Response 1 day ago

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    There was someone who I performed with years ago; for the sake of this story, I'll call him Greg. Greg and I had performed in several community theater productions. Being near him...
    PhillyAutismGuy PhillyAutismGuy 26-30, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Sarah - The Last of Us. Everytime I see her death I always cry. I'll never get over it.
    ICanDoMyOwnThing ICanDoMyOwnThing 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    It's been over two months now. It doesn't hurt the way it did then, but I still miss her. Every day. Probably at least a couple of times a week, I look at her bed, or where she...
    greensapphire greensapphire 31-35, F 6 days ago

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    Hi my name luke im 23years old and i live in Australia i still live with my mum and dad cause i have autism and Aspergers and would be to scard to be on my own as i get upset if i...
    pandabearluke pandabearluke 22-25, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I cry over the death of like.. every fictional character. Mufasa, Sirius, Juraiya, Asuma.. how can you not when the story line pulls at your heart strings?
    JayLabix JayLabix 22-25, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    I cried over the death of the two dogs in where the Red Fern Grows and will probably always cry every time I reread it
    LivingBetweenRaindrops LivingBetweenRaindrops 18-21, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    I must admit... I'm totally sick of this planet. Humanity... indeed. How does it feel to be a member of one of the most persecuted social groups on this planet? When your existence...
    AmethystCluster AmethystCluster 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 31

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    Yesterday, while dropping my daughter off at a slumber party, I stayed and had a drink and a chat with another mom and the whole experience really has me thinking. I've known H...
    mickitg mickitg 41-45, T Jan 31

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    I think I'm losing my Best friend as a Best Friend. I've known my Best friend since the 6th grade. (Now We're both in 10th grade) and we all go to the same school. But, she met...
    Jgummy123 Jgummy123 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 30