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I Am Still Not Over the Death of My Friend

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    Happy Birthday To Me..

     I just want to be numb right now and it's only 1AM. It's funny how the aching sets in even before you realize what day it is. Like your body goes into a cycle of mourning for itself. You don't have to tell it anything. The persistant hammering in my head is a...
    M0RGUE M0RGUE 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 23, 2010

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    Sorrow

    i am going to miss you so much my dear friend.  i will no longer enjoy you coming by to tease me, to talk to me, to play with me. we made a good team of friends, you and i, and i am mourning the loss of you. i am mourning the uniqueness of you. you are so special, and so...
    seasong seasong 36-40, F 1 Response May 25, 2009

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    One Year Today

    It has been one year as of july 2nd that i lost one of my best friends to a car acsident.We burried him on the 4th so every year from now on we only have momories to go by of him.He left behind a beautiful little girl who can not know her daddy to grow up with.I know its hard to...
    Andre Andre 21-25, M 4 Responses Jul 4, 2007

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    Christmas.

        I can't believe its almost been 5 months without you. I don't know how i've done it, but somehow someway i've made it this far without going crazy. If you asked me 5 months ago to picture my life without you, i don't think i could of done it. Because i never...
    briaxo briaxo 16-17, F Dec 23, 2009

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    Death Of My Friend

    Death of my friend,Still gets me,Over it,No way,That'll take time,If ever at all.
    storywriter2 storywriter2 46-50 Jun 1, 2012

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    Don't Know How To Be

    don't know why I'm deciding to write this here at  6:30 am with no sleep all night. But I felt the need to share more stories after reading more. This is definitely the hardest one to share. July 31st 2006 I lost my best friend, since middle school, to diabetes...
    Beingmeinstead Beingmeinstead 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 24, 2009

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    A Smile For Emily

    An amazing young lady, Emily was. She had some problems. She had a very dysfunctional family that landed her in foster care. Also, she has a slight mental handicap, a mild form of Autism, I believe. But for all her faults, she had many good qualities. She was a good kid, had a...
    ladyzantorian ladyzantorian 18-21, F Jan 24, 2012

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    Dean

    i lost my boyfriend on 13th feb 08 (yes the day befor valentines day) he died in a motorcycle accident (him and his cousin) they swerved to miss a drunk driver in a 4wd and the bike slid into a tree then a car swerved to miss the drunk driver also and hit them :( RIP boys u were...
    sammi2312 sammi2312 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 26, 2009

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    Nothins Changed..

    Jeremy, Jeremy, Jeremy,..... God knows how much i miss you...  Its been going on three years this coming june but it feels like yesterday... Time hasnt healed the wounds only deepened my aching heart.. I long to hear your voice, although at times I feel your presence.. ...
    AuThEnTiC AuThEnTiC 19-21, F 2 Responses Jan 20, 2008

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    || Wish You Were Still Here ||

    I miss her and sometimes I just cry when I remember her, she died almost two years ago.  I met her in grade 9, she had those beautiful green eyes and an amazing personality.  One year later she was diagnosed with Arthritis.  None of us including her thought that this could be...
    Mockingbird0 Mockingbird0 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 23, 2012

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    Why Did You Have To Leave Me Here?

    Jamie... It's not even been 18 months since you left us. But not a day goes by that I don't think about you and cry. The song you quoted to me is the most played on my iPod as it reminds me of you. Every time I hear it, I cry because you told me to 'hold on' (The Bee Gees, I've...
    KMP25 KMP25 18-21 1 Response Jan 2, 2013

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    Melody

    It's been months now since I've lost you, but it still feels like yesterday that I heard the news. I still want to talk to you about everything that happens. How am I suppose to go on without your advice? I still cry some nights, wishing that you could hear the...
    IAmReaching IAmReaching 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 23, 2009

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    7 Years And A New Life... I Think I Made It Worse.

    Nights like tonight, I am at my lowest. I can't figure out how to be happy in my life when my life equation doesn't have you. It's literally a broken glass, at first I couldn't find a few peices but now it seems like I threw the rest away. Where did my life turn. I can't help...
    YoursTruelyAlways YoursTruelyAlways 22-25 Mar 3, 2011

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    I didn't ask for it. Who does? I'm a pretty guarded person. I decided to let you in. You're an amazing friend. I wouldn't trade you for the world. I enjoy your company; you makes...
    MyWorldMyMind MyWorldMyMind 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 1

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    Abusive Friend - I let go of an abusive friend today. She blamed me for everything that went wrong in our friendship, which we shakily built on out mutual grief after my best...
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    Hm... Well a couple nights ago, someone called me a c.u. Next. Tuesday. And I became an emotional wreck. I was called word but that was my braking point. So when I got home that...
    LucyGirlAkita2 LucyGirlAkita2 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 14

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    I'm completely over having friends. Why are my friends fake to me. I just wish they care for me as much as I care for them. Why am I so nice about things and why do they overlook...
    Electricsmile Electricsmile 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 1

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    Law offices are generally referred to as business entities that are engaged in the practices of law. There is a variety of law offices that specialize in offering legal services in...
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    I am a mom to 6 kids total. 3 are my flesh and blood and 3 are step kids we have custody of. I travel out of my living area for and have no time meet friends when I am home. I...
    mmcpherson mmcpherson 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 15

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    It's been about a year since I've seen him and I still cry. I had the most devastating break-up or should I say let-go. When I first met him he was the nicest and sweetest person...
    sevengoals sevengoals 26-30, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    I used to work with this guy for over a year, but I quit in July. I've known him for 2 years now and I've had feelings for him for almost 2 years. He's always been married, so we...
    ImJustMe81406 ImJustMe81406 22-25, F 43 mins ago

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    I deleted this story because I was getting over him and thought I didn't need it there.. but you know what.. I'm posting it again.. because life is a handful of bad and good...
    Chabelle Chabelle 22-25, F Mar 24

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    I was depressed all the time a mother of toe and one on the way I felt lost I had a home And husband a car a boat a family.. No reason I know now to be depressed I lost my 7 month...
    laceykight laceykight 26-30, F Apr 13

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    My experience only really happened when I was in kindergarten. My friends name was Alonte. The other kids wouldn't play with him because they said he looked weird due to the...
    LeoLove0803 LeoLove0803 16-17, F Mar 30

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    My father had been dying of cancer for some time. His death was not unexpected or particularly traumatic. But at the moment of his death I reacted in a way that was out of my...
    darwinsconfusion darwinsconfusion 56-60, M 1 Response Apr 5

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    I want to cry. I can't do all the things that I used to anymore. I was so active this the last year. I was losing weight and getting ready for a wonderful summer. Now I feel heavy...
    VerucaRose VerucaRose 22-25, F 1 Response 42 mins ago

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    Just hearing a blast beat turns me on. It took some time to discover this awesome world. Earlier, I use to listen to oldschool rap, some rock AC/DC, Run DMC, Guns N' Roses. I had...
    samoralsophy samoralsophy 18-21, M Mar 26

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    I dont know if this post is still working, but I want/need to share my story. I was married to a guy who was a psycho when I was not even 18. Coming from India, thats like a death...
    kindredspirit75 kindredspirit75 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 5

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    Pressure on my chest, hard to breathe these shallow breaths. The weight of death is upon me. It’s stillness encompassing and caressing me. What is to be expressed when one feels...
    mysoulachesforyou mysoulachesforyou 31-35, F Mar 24

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    I believe child molesters deserve the death penalty! Anyone who would commit a crime, that would take away a child's innocence , take away their life, their future, they don't...
    NYSlilAngel NYSlilAngel 26-30, F 3 Responses Mar 27

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    After 12 years and several cancers, my mother passed away last week. What I perceived, felt and saw in that time is what brought me to discover what an empath is. I have accepted...
    mrbless mrbless 36-40, M 3 Responses Mar 25

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    It's curiosity for the most part. What's it look like? Would I be missed? Do I get to say goodbye? But other times it seems so peaceful for the dead and hectic for the living. Why...
    BleedingOrchids BleedingOrchids 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Just looking back at my life and I really don't remember having any friends. Sure i had people I knew and I get along with, but when it came to actually having memories of them, I...
    Inasda Inasda 18-21, M 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    The people that have never been depressed have no idea what it's like. Depression is a cold dark silent hell where, the only sounds you hear are your own. The sounds constant...
    shaunrain shaunrain 16-17, M 1 Response Apr 6

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    Another friends has been lost again. We were not incredibly close, but the hurt i am feeling is immense. Everyone handles things differently. I remember when my boyfriend died, and...
    theMETAmonologue theMETAmonologue 18-21, F 19 hrs ago

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    I don't think of death as scary. I'm more upset at the fact that it might hurt. Although, whether pain is the case or not, I still think that death is a natural part of life that...
    Juls4 Juls4 16-17, F 19 hrs ago

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    I fear death, I really do. This whole year, I couldn't sleep, I'm tired.. it really hurts. My fear of death turned me to a suicidal person. Though I fear death, I still wanna die...
    GirlyGirlBil GirlyGirlBil 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 24

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    Life talks without saying a word.... If something isn't meant to be something will take place in order to prevent it from happening & thats exactly how it's been all of my life. I...
    TheWorldVsJ TheWorldVsJ 26-30, M 2 Responses Mar 27

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    I always think about my death, my friends death, and of course my families death, I'm not suicidal, I'm not crazy i just can't seem to stop i don't wish for no ones death but i...
    cycloneok cycloneok 16-17, M Apr 12

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    Hey guys... I figured out how to feel better about myself, and be happier and I'd like to share it with you all. (I am aware this might all sound very hippie like...but I'm just...
    xxersabooxx xxersabooxx 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 29

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    It was the death of my twin 5 years ago. I'm trying so hard. I maintain an intense work ethic, I let the sun in when I get a chance, and I make sure to spend good time with good...
    Melisande96 Melisande96 16-17, F Apr 6

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    I agree with the death penalty only if the perpetrator is caught redhanded, or confesses. Too many people on death row have been found to be innocent by DNA tests that were not...
    phillysteve phillysteve 36-40, M 5 days ago

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    I love you my sweet and dear Paula,I know I love you because I worry about you,when you suffer,I do too,when you smile,you bring peace and enlightment to my tormented heart,when...
    theWolfUndertheMoon theWolfUndertheMoon 22-25 1 Response 4 days ago

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    It was summer day and i was sleeping in my boxer and one mosquito bites on the tip of my pnis. When i wake up i felt so much etching so i took it in my hand start rubbing the tip...
    xs2sahil xs2sahil 26-30, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I'm loosing the closest friend I've ever had. My best friend, more like a sister. More than that even. I wouldn't be alive if it wasn't for her. But she's changed and I have to...
    Anonymousboy777 Anonymousboy777 16-17, M Mar 27

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    I feel extremely guilty even writing this, but I can't keep it to myself anymore. My friend-last year definitively a "best" friend and this year one of my roommates- has become...
    messycrazylife messycrazylife 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 29

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    Okay, I listen death metal. I love it. I love those growling and screams. I don't love it because I'm emo, gothic or etc. I love it because it's so interesting and hard to do it...
    Aidan6 Aidan6 16-17, F Apr 3

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    You've probably all seen me. Or at least read my posts. I want to write this, it'll be like one of those sappy #day32 things. These are my thoughts, pulled out and strung together...
    shadowgem shadowgem 13-15, F Apr 12

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    Friday. The dead have all the knowledge. That thought crossed my mind this morning as I was heading into work. Having recently lost a friend to cancer, I guess I've been thinking...
    samedeepwater samedeepwater 46-50, M 5 days ago

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    My mother suddenly died two years ago at age 57 and my father started dating again shortly after. It was understandably an incredibly horrific time for my father and it was...
    SisyphusGirl SisyphusGirl 36-40, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Losing a friend I can sense the thoughts from faraway Of a man left alone to ponder over his long lost wishes He sought freedom using the paint-brush But found himself crippled...
    prettyfate prettyfate 31-35, M 1 day ago

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