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I Am Still Not Over the Death of My Friend

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    Happy Birthday To Me..

     I just want to be numb right now and it's only 1AM. It's funny how the aching sets in even before you realize what day it is. Like your body goes into a cycle of mourning for itself. You don't have to tell it anything. The persistant hammering in my head is a...
    M0RGUE M0RGUE 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 23, 2010

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    One Year Today

    It has been one year as of july 2nd that i lost one of my best friends to a car acsident.We burried him on the 4th so every year from now on we only have momories to go by of him.He left behind a beautiful little girl who can not know her daddy to grow up with.I know its hard to...
    Andre Andre 18-21, M 4 Responses Jul 4, 2007

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    Melody

    It's been months now since I've lost you, but it still feels like yesterday that I heard the news. I still want to talk to you about everything that happens. How am I suppose to go on without your advice? I still cry some nights, wishing that you could hear the...
    IAmReaching IAmReaching 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 23, 2009

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    Why Did You Have To Leave Me Here?

    Jamie... It's not even been 18 months since you left us. But not a day goes by that I don't think about you and cry. The song you quoted to me is the most played on my iPod as it reminds me of you. Every time I hear it, I cry because you told me to 'hold on' (The Bee Gees, I've...
    KMP25 KMP25 18-21 1 Response Jan 2, 2013

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    Christmas.

        I can't believe its almost been 5 months without you. I don't know how i've done it, but somehow someway i've made it this far without going crazy. If you asked me 5 months ago to picture my life without you, i don't think i could of done it. Because i never...
    briaxo briaxo 16-17, F Dec 23, 2009

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    My best friend passed less

    than a year ago back in October. I still find it hard to believe he's gone. I hadn't talked to him in months before he passed because he had moved states an we got Into a huge argument but the afternoon before his accident I got a text from him saying "I'm sorry for everything...
    imjare imjare 16-17, M Jun 15, 2014

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    The year of 2010 really changed my life.

    I lost my bestfriends that year.. Still today tears fill in my eyes . rip Absalom 'nd Dakota <3 <3
    breelouise breelouise 22-25, F Jun 17, 2014

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    I Understand That

    it was almost 6 months before i knew my wife was killed and her mother took her own life that day after i was shoot down in viet nam it was only a freak accidnet our grandpanerts knes i was even alive and one of then stay by my bed for almost 6 months till i cam out of a coma
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M Jul 4, 2011

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    A Smile For Emily

    An amazing young lady, Emily was. She had some problems. She had a very dysfunctional family that landed her in foster care. Also, she has a slight mental handicap, a mild form of Autism, I believe. But for all her faults, she had many good qualities. She was a good kid, had a...
    ladyzantorian ladyzantorian 18-21, F Jan 24, 2012

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    7 Years And A New Life... I Think I Made It Worse.

    Nights like tonight, I am at my lowest. I can't figure out how to be happy in my life when my life equation doesn't have you. It's literally a broken glass, at first I couldn't find a few peices but now it seems like I threw the rest away. Where did my life turn. I can't help...
    YoursTruelyAlways YoursTruelyAlways 22-25 Mar 3, 2011

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    Sorrow

    i am going to miss you so much my dear friend.  i will no longer enjoy you coming by to tease me, to talk to me, to play with me. we made a good team of friends, you and i, and i am mourning the loss of you. i am mourning the uniqueness of you. you are so special, and so...
    seasong seasong 36-40, F May 25, 2009

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    Nothins Changed..

    Jeremy, Jeremy, Jeremy,..... God knows how much i miss you...  Its been going on three years this coming june but it feels like yesterday... Time hasnt healed the wounds only deepened my aching heart.. I long to hear your voice, although at times I feel your presence.. ...
    AuThEnTiC AuThEnTiC 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 20, 2008

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    || Wish You Were Still Here ||

    I miss her and sometimes I just cry when I remember her, she died almost two years ago.  I met her in grade 9, she had those beautiful green eyes and an amazing personality.  One year later she was diagnosed with Arthritis.  None of us including her thought that this could be...
    meme30 meme30 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 23, 2012

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    Death Of My Friend

    Death of my friend,Still gets me,Over it,No way,That'll take time,If ever at all.
    storywriter2 storywriter2 46-50 Jun 1, 2012

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    It's been four years

    and I'm still trying to dig my way out of your grave. Still trying to find the words to finally tell my parents why I felt so guilty about you leaving and why I punished myself so harshly when it had nothing to do with me at all. They definitely know already, but I'm sure they'd...
    ayelet23 ayelet23 18-21, F Jun 21, 2014

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    Don't Know How To Be

    don't know why I'm deciding to write this here at  6:30 am with no sleep all night. But I felt the need to share more stories after reading more. This is definitely the hardest one to share. July 31st 2006 I lost my best friend, since middle school, to diabetes...
    Beingmeinstead Beingmeinstead 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 24, 2009

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    Dean

    i lost my boyfriend on 13th feb 08 (yes the day befor valentines day) he died in a motorcycle accident (him and his cousin) they swerved to miss a drunk driver in a 4wd and the bike slid into a tree then a car swerved to miss the drunk driver also and hit them :( RIP boys u were...
    sammi2312 sammi2312 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 26, 2009

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    Related Experiences

    9 years of friendship and still counting. Our friendship is exactly what I imagine friendships should be like. It's the simplest things that make me realize how much I love her n...
    candles700 candles700 22-25, F 1 Response May 2

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    I came out here to the Bay Area (Sanfran) to live with my older half brother to get away from my parents. I've been struggling with mental issues for most of my life and my...
    Theodred996 Theodred996 26-30, M 2 days ago

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    Last night I was driving on a two-lane Texas road, minding my own business, and talking to an EP friend on the phone. Then suddenly there was this cow, this huge black cow...
    lostit77 lostit77 46-50, F 8 Responses May 2

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    I'm not gonna say that I am mad.. because as you already know i don't get mad but what I am is disappointed... Disappointed that you didn't fight your feelings and I can't believe...
    DaOneandOnlyOne DaOneandOnlyOne 18-21, F 2 Responses May 17

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    I'v moved around Alot and never settled anywhere longer than a few months I'v been living in this town for nearly 4 years now and I still have no friends no one I can really call...
    Beauty1Rose Beauty1Rose 22-25, F 2 Responses May 7

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    I wasted three years of my life to a girl that told me she wanted to disappear from my life and called me a ***** in the process. For wearing shorts and a tank top in the summer of...
    Ginkofishin Ginkofishin 18-21, F May 23

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    I moved to a different state almost 3 years ago and I still have no friends. I eat lunch by myself and I'm really quiet and I don't know how to talk to people. I'm really not sure...
    dejajed dejajed 18-21, F 3 Responses May 8

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    Exactly as the title says, I fell in love with my best friend. We've known each other since middle school, about 5 years now. We grew extremely close during high school and we had...
    Allie543 Allie543 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    How I overcame my anxiety problems: well ... One evening, I was having a severe panic attack. I had been having them back to back by then. I'd have 5 - 10 attacks per day. I could...
    DreamChristine DreamChristine 31-35, F 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    How To Turn Six Dollars Into Six Thousand Dollars: I found this on a bulletin board and decided to try it. A little while back I was browsing 
through newsgroups just like you...
    moniechef moniechef 36-40, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    I'm deathly afraid of messing up and forgetting to do a step for college and having my application withdrawn And I'm afraid that I'll default on loans because of my parents' income...
    Kimbahbay Kimbahbay 16-17, F 15 hrs ago

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    Im your friend though i knot actually your friend blue canary over buy the light switch who watches over make a little bird house in your sol i love that song
    candysissyfag candysissyfag 26-30, T 6 hrs ago

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    My brother shot himself in the head Sunday morning ,, 1 week from getting the news His Ex wife and Mother of his only child had died from cancer ,,she is now an Orphan ,,not alone...
    rckt148 rckt148 56-60, M 5 Responses May 19

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    It's been two years and still, I am obsessed. Me and him recently started back talking again but ended because he went back to his ex. This wasnt the first time he's chosen her...
    CrystalKlear17 CrystalKlear17 18-21, F 14 hrs ago

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    So I met this guy when we were 18. I kinda liked him, but I was on the fence about it, and in my snobby 18 year old wisdom, decided he wasn't worth another thought when he ditched...
    Supersyncsteph Supersyncsteph 31-35, F 1 Response May 19

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    it's never changing, we're with different crowds, we have different goals, we're different. we have different friends, we're on different roads and honestly. we dont, wont, and...
    debonaireash debonaireash 18-21, M 8 hrs ago

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    Back to when they were still here. Back to when we could stand side by side and be strong together. Back to when they trusted me to tell me their pain. Back to when they were still...
    GalacticMind GalacticMind 13-15, M 5 hrs ago

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    I'm so excited to be going to see five finger death punch in September! They are my favorite band and it will be my first concert!
    Indomitable6811 Indomitable6811 18-21, F 1 hr ago

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    i felt guilty about my friend's death. I felt guilty because a few weeks leading to her death, i was so busy with my own life that i didn't even bother replying to her messages. We...
    rxdical rxdical 18-21, M 1 Response May 13

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    I have two really amazing friends that I met in highschool who have stuck with me through thick and thin. I realized today how lucky I am to have them in my life and how amazing...
    Whatdreamsarelost Whatdreamsarelost 31-35, M 2 hrs ago

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    Mia I miss you so much. I wish I could've said goodbye properly.You have no idea how much life sucks without you. Not having someone I can talk to about everything. The friends I...
    SecretSephira14 SecretSephira14 13-15, F 1 hr ago

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    Here it is... The story of me and my first love. Currently, I am so confused about where to share my feelings and I want to thank this site for letting me release my emotions...
    ApplePamilar ApplePamilar 18-21, F 1 Response May 5

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    Gonna try an condense 15 years into this post. 15 years ago, I met this girl via an online chat game. I'll call her Dawn. We hit it off instantly and we were pretty much...
    Malumbrus Malumbrus 31-35, M May 25

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    Wanna know how much of an awesome friend I got :D I told her at 4 am "girl I'm starving but I can't go anywhere." She replys "well since u had to wake me up I'll be over in 15 with...
    DeterminedToMakeLifeWorthIt DeterminedToMakeLifeWorthIt 16-17, F 6 hrs ago

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    Ok currently I am still married . I am I. The middle of a divorce and custody battle.My Was-band was and emotional abuser and we had a loveless marriage . He once told me we could...
    BrittniCole22 BrittniCole22 22-25, F 2 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    I don't have to, die, I need to die. Do I want to die? I think wanting to die is a wrong idea, I must get over it. I need to come to the point of just needing to die. A want would...
    kiddishguypete kiddishguypete 26-30, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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