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I Am Still Not Over the Death of My Friend

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 69 People

    Why Did You Have To Leave Me Here?

    Jamie... It's not even been 18 months since you left us. But not a day goes by that I don't think about you and cry. The song you quoted to me is the most played on my iPod as it reminds me of you. Every time I hear it, I cry because you told me to 'hold on' (The Bee Gees, I've...
    KMP25 KMP25 18-21 1 Response Jan 2, 2013

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    Don't Know How To Be

    don't know why I'm deciding to write this here at  6:30 am with no sleep all night. But I felt the need to share more stories after reading more. This is definitely the hardest one to share. July 31st 2006 I lost my best friend, since middle school, to diabetes...
    Beingmeinstead Beingmeinstead 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 24, 2009

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    7 Years And A New Life... I Think I Made It Worse.

    Nights like tonight, I am at my lowest. I can't figure out how to be happy in my life when my life equation doesn't have you. It's literally a broken glass, at first I couldn't find a few peices but now it seems like I threw the rest away. Where did my life turn. I can't help...
    YoursTruelyAlways YoursTruelyAlways 22-25 Mar 3, 2011

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    The year of 2010 really changed my life.

    I lost my bestfriends that year.. Still today tears fill in my eyes . rip Absalom 'nd Dakota <3 <3
    breelouise breelouise 22-25, F Jun 17, 2014

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    || Wish You Were Still Here ||

    I miss her and sometimes I just cry when I remember her, she died almost two years ago.  I met her in grade 9, she had those beautiful green eyes and an amazing personality.  One year later she was diagnosed with Arthritis.  None of us including her thought that this could be...
    meme30 meme30 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 23, 2012

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    One Year Today

    It has been one year as of july 2nd that i lost one of my best friends to a car acsident.We burried him on the 4th so every year from now on we only have momories to go by of him.He left behind a beautiful little girl who can not know her daddy to grow up with.I know its hard to...
    Andre Andre 18-21, M 4 Responses Jul 4, 2007

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    It's been four years

    and I'm still trying to dig my way out of your grave. Still trying to find the words to finally tell my parents why I felt so guilty about you leaving and why I punished myself so harshly when it had nothing to do with me at all. They definitely know already, but I'm sure they'd...
    ayelet23 ayelet23 18-21, F Jun 21, 2014

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    Death Of My Friend

    Death of my friend,Still gets me,Over it,No way,That'll take time,If ever at all.
    storywriter2 storywriter2 46-50 Jun 1, 2012

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    Dean

    i lost my boyfriend on 13th feb 08 (yes the day befor valentines day) he died in a motorcycle accident (him and his cousin) they swerved to miss a drunk driver in a 4wd and the bike slid into a tree then a car swerved to miss the drunk driver also and hit them :( RIP boys u were...
    sammi2312 sammi2312 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 26, 2009

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    Melody

    It's been months now since I've lost you, but it still feels like yesterday that I heard the news. I still want to talk to you about everything that happens. How am I suppose to go on without your advice? I still cry some nights, wishing that you could hear the...
    IAmReaching IAmReaching 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 23, 2009

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    A Smile For Emily

    An amazing young lady, Emily was. She had some problems. She had a very dysfunctional family that landed her in foster care. Also, she has a slight mental handicap, a mild form of Autism, I believe. But for all her faults, she had many good qualities. She was a good kid, had a...
    ladyzantorian ladyzantorian 18-21, F Jan 24, 2012

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    I Understand That

    it was almost 6 months before i knew my wife was killed and her mother took her own life that day after i was shoot down in viet nam it was only a freak accidnet our grandpanerts knes i was even alive and one of then stay by my bed for almost 6 months till i cam out of a coma
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M Jul 4, 2011

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    Happy Birthday To Me..

     I just want to be numb right now and it's only 1AM. It's funny how the aching sets in even before you realize what day it is. Like your body goes into a cycle of mourning for itself. You don't have to tell it anything. The persistant hammering in my head is a...
    M0RGUE M0RGUE 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 23, 2010

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    Nothins Changed..

    Jeremy, Jeremy, Jeremy,..... God knows how much i miss you...  Its been going on three years this coming june but it feels like yesterday... Time hasnt healed the wounds only deepened my aching heart.. I long to hear your voice, although at times I feel your presence.. ...
    AuThEnTiC AuThEnTiC 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 20, 2008

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    Sorrow

    i am going to miss you so much my dear friend.  i will no longer enjoy you coming by to tease me, to talk to me, to play with me. we made a good team of friends, you and i, and i am mourning the loss of you. i am mourning the uniqueness of you. you are so special, and so...
    seasong seasong 36-40, F May 25, 2009

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    My best friend passed less

    than a year ago back in October. I still find it hard to believe he's gone. I hadn't talked to him in months before he passed because he had moved states an we got Into a huge argument but the afternoon before his accident I got a text from him saying "I'm sorry for everything...
    imjare imjare 18-21, M Jun 15, 2014

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    Christmas.

        I can't believe its almost been 5 months without you. I don't know how i've done it, but somehow someway i've made it this far without going crazy. If you asked me 5 months ago to picture my life without you, i don't think i could of done it. Because i never...
    briaxo briaxo 16-17, F Dec 23, 2009

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    Its three thirty in the morning and i just woke up because i had another dream about my best friend. i love her so much but she is married to a jerk that cheats on her all the time...
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    (Warning: my story is very long, please take your time reading it) Elaine, you are and will always be in my heart forever! You are on my mind now as I think about you. Recently...
    Friedwontonsonaplate Friedwontonsonaplate 26-30, M 1 hr ago

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    first time you met there was no trust then you did the things you never use to do and you still can't find love,don't use me to feel warm be my lover please
    fredreckmax fredreckmax 46-50, M 1 hr ago

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    im looking for friends to talk to who wants to talk message me
    skyrimking skyrimking 26-30, M 2 hrs ago

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    I thought we were really good friends. I had considered him my best of the best friend. I told him all things about me and there was total transparacy from my side. I though he was...
    knightstar95 knightstar95 18-21, M 2 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    As I'm sitting in a relative's house looking out the window at the setting sun, tears drop out of my eyes.Why am I still alive?I've been thinking about it recently, starting around...
    n00b555 n00b555 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    It all started when I was in the 3rd grade. We liked each other a lot but we were just kids so it wasn't such a big deal, we were too shy to even talk to each other. He would...
    iDanyLee iDanyLee 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    Almost three weeks ago I had a break down and I stood at the top of my window thinking about jumping but I didn't think it was high enough for me to die. So I turned and looked for...
    juana132 juana132 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    I have a friend who is now my manager at work. She gets moody over nothing and doesn't talk to me for a few weeks. If I call her on something she stops interacting with me. She...
    BlueRose77 BlueRose77 36-40, F 4 days ago

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    Yet another story of thoughtless friends. There was the time Ansley and Daniela pestered me about the past. Throughout the years Ansley and Daniela teased me about my 9th grade...
    sabertigersab sabertigersab 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    My ex-friends were like trackers: persistant and rude. In the middle of my senior year of High School, I tried so many tactics of avoiding my friends who didn't treat me like a...
    sabertigersab sabertigersab 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    My ex-friends sucked. There were the little things. Just typical teenaged small problems that would roll off my back. I'd be the third-wheel whenever I was in a group with them...
    sabertigersab sabertigersab 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    I don't fear death itself. I fear dying painfully, I fear dying before I'm ready, and I wish that I didn't overthink about things like this. I'm always thinking about the future...
    AcousticSoul17 AcousticSoul17 16-17, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I was on a vacation by myself in my early 30s. Just broke up with a girlfriend before a planned trip to Vegas and Southern California.Decided to go without her. It was one of the...
    harveyspecter harveyspecter 41-45, M a week ago

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    My friend was killed by a demon years ago.There was a demon inside their house.I stayed at their house for several months. The first night that we prayed for her something...
    yodatheching yodatheching 22-25, F a week ago

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    I was raised Methodist and I still identify as a believer in God. Regardless, I still feel terrified of the thought of death. What if I'm not a good person and my afterlife is bad...
    healedbydamage healedbydamage 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 27

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    i've always been shy and awkward. 3 years ago i moved away from home to get start new. Now everything is new... but i still have no friends.
    ABMarie ABMarie 22-25 4 Responses Jul 26

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    Me and my boyfriend were inseparable. We truly were best friends for 4 years. He had a lot going on in his head though. Alot of things nagging at him from his brother and his aunts...
    hungryforchange hungryforchange 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 26

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    There is a difference in knowing death is final, and feeling it. My feelings used to invoke more "mystery" around the subject of death. The death of my father made me think and...
    LawlessLuuk LawlessLuuk 22-25, M Jul 25

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    When I was 16 I was working on a grain property, and one day the boss asked me to come over and give him a hand with something he was doing, I get over to him and he was try to...
    Zarbuza Zarbuza 18-21, M 5 Responses Jul 24

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    All honesty..I've only actually ever only had 1 friend in this world who is not my friend anymore thanks to my bitchy mother..all my life I've had no friends and I am Now 19 and...
    Devilsdaughter100 Devilsdaughter100 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 24

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    When I was ten, my dad, my six-year old sister, and I were at this indoor hotel pool where we used to go swimming a lot. This was a particularly non-crowded day with only a few...
    ZippyHippy ZippyHippy 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 23

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    I'm writing this to document and share three of my personal experiences with having overdosed on the antihistamine medication,"Kroger Allergy Tablets", in which the main ingredient...
    SukiPuppy SukiPuppy 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 23

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    I know the value of genuine friendships but yet and still I blow them off. I'm at a point in my life that I don't wanna **** around. I live with my boyfriend we are trying to get...
    Lovlee46 Lovlee46 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 22

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    I mean, everyone dies at one point. Remember that life is just a beautiful lie, while death is just the painful truth. So don't fear it, be happy you're still alive and enjoy the...
    AwkwardDreamer AwkwardDreamer 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 22

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    To the world you may be one person; but to me you are my world. My entire world has fallen apart and my mind is overflowing with memories of...
    khamooshi khamooshi 26-30, M Jul 22

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