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I Am Still Not Over the Death of My Friend

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 70 People

    Melody

    It's been months now since I've lost you, but it still feels like yesterday that I heard the news. I still want to talk to you about everything that happens. How am I suppose to go on without your advice? I still cry some nights, wishing that you could hear the...
    IAmReaching IAmReaching 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 23, 2009

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    The year of 2010 really changed my life.

    I lost my bestfriends that year.. Still today tears fill in my eyes . rip Absalom 'nd Dakota <3 <3
    breelouise breelouise 22-25, F Jun 17

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    One Year Today

    It has been one year as of july 2nd that i lost one of my best friends to a car acsident.We burried him on the 4th so every year from now on we only have momories to go by of him.He left behind a beautiful little girl who can not know her daddy to grow up with.I know its hard to...
    Andre Andre 21-25, M 4 Responses Jul 4, 2007

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    It's been four years

    and I'm still trying to dig my way out of your grave. Still trying to find the words to finally tell my parents why I felt so guilty about you leaving and why I punished myself so harshly when it had nothing to do with me at all. They definitely know already, but I'm sure they'd...
    ayelet23 ayelet23 18-21, F Jun 21

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    My best friend passed less

    than a year ago back in October. I still find it hard to believe he's gone. I hadn't talked to him in months before he passed because he had moved states an we got Into a huge argument but the afternoon before his accident I got a text from him saying "I'm sorry for everything...
    imjare imjare 16-17, M Jun 15

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    Christmas.

        I can't believe its almost been 5 months without you. I don't know how i've done it, but somehow someway i've made it this far without going crazy. If you asked me 5 months ago to picture my life without you, i don't think i could of done it. Because i never...
    briaxo briaxo 16-17, F Dec 23, 2009

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    Death Of My Friend

    Death of my friend,Still gets me,Over it,No way,That'll take time,If ever at all.
    storywriter2 storywriter2 46-50 Jun 1, 2012

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    Happy Birthday To Me..

     I just want to be numb right now and it's only 1AM. It's funny how the aching sets in even before you realize what day it is. Like your body goes into a cycle of mourning for itself. You don't have to tell it anything. The persistant hammering in my head is a...
    M0RGUE M0RGUE 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 23, 2010

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    Why Did You Have To Leave Me Here?

    Jamie... It's not even been 18 months since you left us. But not a day goes by that I don't think about you and cry. The song you quoted to me is the most played on my iPod as it reminds me of you. Every time I hear it, I cry because you told me to 'hold on' (The Bee Gees, I've...
    KMP25 KMP25 18-21 1 Response Jan 2, 2013

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    Don't Know How To Be

    don't know why I'm deciding to write this here at  6:30 am with no sleep all night. But I felt the need to share more stories after reading more. This is definitely the hardest one to share. July 31st 2006 I lost my best friend, since middle school, to diabetes...
    Beingmeinstead Beingmeinstead 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 24, 2009

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    Nothins Changed..

    Jeremy, Jeremy, Jeremy,..... God knows how much i miss you...  Its been going on three years this coming june but it feels like yesterday... Time hasnt healed the wounds only deepened my aching heart.. I long to hear your voice, although at times I feel your presence.. ...
    AuThEnTiC AuThEnTiC 19-21, F 2 Responses Jan 20, 2008

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    || Wish You Were Still Here ||

    I miss her and sometimes I just cry when I remember her, she died almost two years ago.  I met her in grade 9, she had those beautiful green eyes and an amazing personality.  One year later she was diagnosed with Arthritis.  None of us including her thought that this could be...
    meme30 meme30 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 23, 2012

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    I Understand That

    it was almost 6 months before i knew my wife was killed and her mother took her own life that day after i was shoot down in viet nam it was only a freak accidnet our grandpanerts knes i was even alive and one of then stay by my bed for almost 6 months till i cam out of a coma
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M Jul 4, 2011

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    7 Years And A New Life... I Think I Made It Worse.

    Nights like tonight, I am at my lowest. I can't figure out how to be happy in my life when my life equation doesn't have you. It's literally a broken glass, at first I couldn't find a few peices but now it seems like I threw the rest away. Where did my life turn. I can't help...
    YoursTruelyAlways YoursTruelyAlways 22-25 Mar 3, 2011

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    Dean

    i lost my boyfriend on 13th feb 08 (yes the day befor valentines day) he died in a motorcycle accident (him and his cousin) they swerved to miss a drunk driver in a 4wd and the bike slid into a tree then a car swerved to miss the drunk driver also and hit them :( RIP boys u were...
    sammi2312 sammi2312 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 26, 2009

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    Sorrow

    i am going to miss you so much my dear friend.  i will no longer enjoy you coming by to tease me, to talk to me, to play with me. we made a good team of friends, you and i, and i am mourning the loss of you. i am mourning the uniqueness of you. you are so special, and so...
    seasong seasong 36-40, F 1 Response May 25, 2009

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    A Smile For Emily

    An amazing young lady, Emily was. She had some problems. She had a very dysfunctional family that landed her in foster care. Also, she has a slight mental handicap, a mild form of Autism, I believe. But for all her faults, she had many good qualities. She was a good kid, had a...
    ladyzantorian ladyzantorian 18-21, F Jan 24, 2012

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    I dated this guy that was a little older than me and apparently my 'best friend' liked him before we dated. She never told me that she liked him, ever, and I even asked her for her...
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    My best friend and I have been best friends since college, Our friendship was almost instant when we became college room mates, My room was right beside hers and although we shared...
    nic1976 nic1976 36-40, F Dec 10

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    Well, let's just start by saying, I've moved around a lot. I haven't been settled in a place for almost 3 years now. Due to that, I've lost every friend I've ever made except one...
    GettingOverShit GettingOverShit 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    Okay, so I have maybe quite a few good friends, but two which I'm very close with. Let's call them Jenna and Olivia. So Jenna and I have been extremely close since preschool, and...
    celiapennington147 celiapennington147 13-15, F 7 Responses Dec 12

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    I just broke up with my best friend. We're both hurting but we both agreed to still be best friends just as we were before we "dated". (he lives 9 hours away). -I have a special...
    simplyOCD simplyOCD 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 9

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    I am "dating" (basically just calling each other gf/bf) the person that can do this to me after being best friends for almost 2 years... I really hope this works and if it doesn't...
    simplyOCD simplyOCD 16-17, F Nov 26

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    Of all the years.. of all the moments in between I still love my childhood best friend /crush. we we're in the fourth grade when we met and I was fond of him. I was so interested...
    gobacklike4thgrade gobacklike4thgrade 22-25, F 8 hrs ago

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    Anywhere the line intersects your eyebrow is where the height of the arch ought to start out at the highest border from the eyebrow.In the majority of women, a slight bit in their...
    Anthony6913uep8 Anthony6913uep8 31-35, M 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    Does part of me still love you? No. All of me still does. People advised me to make a clean break. Otherwise I'll never be able to "move on". I hate that expression. Treating...
    talkinaftermidnight talkinaftermidnight 36-40, M 12 hrs ago

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    The 5 stages of death: 1. Denial 2. Anger 3. Bargaining 4. Depression 5. Acceptance A friend of mine died in a car accident this past summer. When I got the news my whole world...
    GirlInTheMountains GirlInTheMountains 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 2

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    In the blink of an Eye In the blink of an eye, life's over. There are no second chances given to anyone in that final calling. No one asks if were ready to go or not. We don't...
    secretme1970 secretme1970 41-45, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    I am trapped between my own emotions and pain. I can't get out. Every second leaves from my life, I feel like i am more getting trapped in it. I don't feel like I used to feel. My...
    deathiscold deathiscold 70+, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    so my ex-BFF just totally destroyed me, just riipped me out of her life(besides the fact i see her every day at school) now i will refrain from cursing so i can post this but hes...
    DaveEatsToast DaveEatsToast 13-15, M 1 Response Dec 1

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    I was gone (dead) twice. Once drowning when i was about 5 or 6 and giving birth. No one in my family or circle of friends really know this, t as i tried to explain to someone the...
    urwright urwright 41-45, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I don't fear death because I came close to it twice. Death is Something nobody can change or avoid. So it makes the time u have ever more precious. I look at life and death as 2...
    Shadow7398 Shadow7398 18-21, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Im having a Friends marathon right now!
    CrossCountryLife CrossCountryLife 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    I have always had severe asthma which has always been a concern to my parents, being constantly in and out of hospital since a young age. However, I had a severe asthma attack on...
    soyacarton soyacarton 18-21, F Nov 25

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    3 shades: Black White & Grey What are the colors of the rainbow? Most eyes see a vibrant world painted by the full color spectrum soaking up the light prisms as they cast...
    writingmyrelease writingmyrelease 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 12

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    My close friend. Is there life after death? Could my friend still be with me in spirit but I don't see? So sad... So so depressed knowing never again will I see him.
    Kimbizz Kimbizz 46-50, F 1 Response Nov 26

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    Poured out all my advil i had left. It was 12 so I said to myself why the hell not. I've done it so much before so thought nothing of it. Got to school survived chorus because I...
    iwillbeheretomorrow iwillbeheretomorrow 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    Over the years I lost lots of friend but was never in the position to make new ones so now it's time to get out there and meet some people
    shona1967 shona1967 46-50, F 11 hrs ago

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    if i just feel that anyone has offended my dear EP friends, I'm gonna blow the *** of the person in the hard way I'm an American bad-*** while facing with such things
    Martin7470 Martin7470 18-21, M 1 hr ago

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    I was about 11 years old and was in the bathroom when my mother said to hurry up and that everybody was waiting. So I finished my duties in a hurry and went running outside to get...
    Helikvar Helikvar 51-55, M Dec 7

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    It is the first time that the death of someone i barely know has been having some effect on me.. My friend's aunty died of cancer on friday 28th Nov. She struggled for 4 years...
    bharkha bharkha 22-25, F Nov 30

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    I recently just overdosed of Sertraline a few days ago. I still feel the effects and my eyes will not dilate smaller than pea sized, usually engulfing my entire iris in blackness...
    Neverbackaway Neverbackaway 16-17, F Dec 1

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    When I was a Freshman back in High school, I did a crazy thing, that costed a friendship to crash and shatter. I did in deed kiss my best friend right on his lips. Thinking back...
    LaviJaki LaviJaki 18-21, F Dec 5

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    Warning, this is long, but I feel as though I have to tell the full details of the story. Even if no one responds, I just need the catharsis of letting it all out for once...
    sketchit sketchit 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 9

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    I am probably the only pathetic person that has still not been over her ex, although it's been over 4 years. And before you judge me on it. Let me explain to you..... that I was...
    wluvpaola wluvpaola 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 11

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