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I Am Still Not Over the Death of My Friend

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    7 Years And A New Life... I Think I Made It Worse.

    Nights like tonight, I am at my lowest. I can't figure out how to be happy in my life when my life equation doesn't have you. It's literally a broken glass, at first I couldn't find a few peices but now it seems like I threw the rest away. Where did my life turn. I can't help...
    YoursTruelyAlways YoursTruelyAlways 22-25 Mar 3, 2011

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    My best friend passed less

    than a year ago back in October. I still find it hard to believe he's gone. I hadn't talked to him in months before he passed because he had moved states an we got Into a huge argument but the afternoon before his accident I got a text from him saying "I'm sorry for everything...
    imjare imjare 16-17, M Jun 15

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    I Understand That

    it was almost 6 months before i knew my wife was killed and her mother took her own life that day after i was shoot down in viet nam it was only a freak accidnet our grandpanerts knes i was even alive and one of then stay by my bed for almost 6 months till i cam out of a coma
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M Jul 4, 2011

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    One Year Today

    It has been one year as of july 2nd that i lost one of my best friends to a car acsident.We burried him on the 4th so every year from now on we only have momories to go by of him.He left behind a beautiful little girl who can not know her daddy to grow up with.I know its hard to...
    Andre Andre 21-25, M 4 Responses Jul 4, 2007

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    A Smile For Emily

    An amazing young lady, Emily was. She had some problems. She had a very dysfunctional family that landed her in foster care. Also, she has a slight mental handicap, a mild form of Autism, I believe. But for all her faults, she had many good qualities. She was a good kid, had a...
    ladyzantorian ladyzantorian 18-21, F Jan 24, 2012

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    Happy Birthday To Me..

     I just want to be numb right now and it's only 1AM. It's funny how the aching sets in even before you realize what day it is. Like your body goes into a cycle of mourning for itself. You don't have to tell it anything. The persistant hammering in my head is a...
    M0RGUE M0RGUE 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 23, 2010

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    || Wish You Were Still Here ||

    I miss her and sometimes I just cry when I remember her, she died almost two years ago.  I met her in grade 9, she had those beautiful green eyes and an amazing personality.  One year later she was diagnosed with Arthritis.  None of us including her thought that this could be...
    meme30 meme30 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 23, 2012

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    Why Did You Have To Leave Me Here?

    Jamie... It's not even been 18 months since you left us. But not a day goes by that I don't think about you and cry. The song you quoted to me is the most played on my iPod as it reminds me of you. Every time I hear it, I cry because you told me to 'hold on' (The Bee Gees, I've...
    KMP25 KMP25 18-21 1 Response Jan 2, 2013

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    The year of 2010 really changed my life.

    I lost my bestfriends that year.. Still today tears fill in my eyes . rip Absalom 'nd Dakota <3 <3
    breelouise breelouise 22-25, F Jun 17

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    Nothins Changed..

    Jeremy, Jeremy, Jeremy,..... God knows how much i miss you...  Its been going on three years this coming june but it feels like yesterday... Time hasnt healed the wounds only deepened my aching heart.. I long to hear your voice, although at times I feel your presence.. ...
    AuThEnTiC AuThEnTiC 19-21, F 2 Responses Jan 20, 2008

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    Death Of My Friend

    Death of my friend,Still gets me,Over it,No way,That'll take time,If ever at all.
    storywriter2 storywriter2 46-50 Jun 1, 2012

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    Christmas.

        I can't believe its almost been 5 months without you. I don't know how i've done it, but somehow someway i've made it this far without going crazy. If you asked me 5 months ago to picture my life without you, i don't think i could of done it. Because i never...
    briaxo briaxo 16-17, F Dec 23, 2009

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    Sorrow

    i am going to miss you so much my dear friend.  i will no longer enjoy you coming by to tease me, to talk to me, to play with me. we made a good team of friends, you and i, and i am mourning the loss of you. i am mourning the uniqueness of you. you are so special, and so...
    seasong seasong 36-40, F 1 Response May 25, 2009

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    It's been four years

    and I'm still trying to dig my way out of your grave. Still trying to find the words to finally tell my parents why I felt so guilty about you leaving and why I punished myself so harshly when it had nothing to do with me at all. They definitely know already, but I'm sure they'd...
    ayelet23 ayelet23 18-21, F Jun 21

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    Don't Know How To Be

    don't know why I'm deciding to write this here at  6:30 am with no sleep all night. But I felt the need to share more stories after reading more. This is definitely the hardest one to share. July 31st 2006 I lost my best friend, since middle school, to diabetes...
    Beingmeinstead Beingmeinstead 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 24, 2009

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    Dean

    i lost my boyfriend on 13th feb 08 (yes the day befor valentines day) he died in a motorcycle accident (him and his cousin) they swerved to miss a drunk driver in a 4wd and the bike slid into a tree then a car swerved to miss the drunk driver also and hit them :( RIP boys u were...
    sammi2312 sammi2312 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 26, 2009

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    Melody

    It's been months now since I've lost you, but it still feels like yesterday that I heard the news. I still want to talk to you about everything that happens. How am I suppose to go on without your advice? I still cry some nights, wishing that you could hear the...
    IAmReaching IAmReaching 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 23, 2009

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    Related Experiences

    That's all really. Could do with a few cool EP people in my circle.
    synergist synergist 22-25, F Sep 3

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    I wish more people would care about me on EP. :c But you don't, you don't care, you would rather care for your own problems than help out a ****** up person... That's okaii.. I...
    KittyKatLuvsYhu KittyKatLuvsYhu 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 4

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    I was just reading a post on a forum from someone who had a childhood friend who would work something about death or dying into every conversation they had. The writer wanted to...
    awolf13 awolf13 36-40, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    My worst tickling experience *Disclaimer* Names have been changed for privacy purposes. It happened when I was over my friends house. We were all (me, my friend, and her cousin...
    dambookworm17 dambookworm17 13-15, F Aug 30

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    Now, however, with Spain within an economic disaster that has produced chopping the public deficit an vital, managing the “h2o bubble,” as several make reference to the...
    Devon1739q Devon1739q 31-35, M 1 Response Sep 3

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    It's been just over a year since my husband of 34 years passed away. I still miss my friend. It wasn't a perfect marriage but I still loved him so. We were so much alike. We were...
    hedda105 hedda105 51-55 1 Response Aug 21

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    I was only sixteen when my best friend admitted that she had feelings for me. I felt the same way and we got together. We've shared so much of our lives, more than 8 years of ups...
    Beyala Beyala 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 2

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    I don't know what it is but making friends is so difficult I'm so terrible at making eye contact and have been friendless all my life and I'm in my 11th year of school and I still...
    brodeejade brodeejade 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 28

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    I have had many women I have dated and especially two that became friends with benefits. I was more serious on my end with these two and was contemplating initiating the "L" &"M...
    xmannos xmannos 36-40, M Aug 29

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    Friendship When I first joined EP almost 5 years ago, I friended everybody. I am pretty easy going, upbeat and easy to talk to. I had well over 3500 friends at one point. I was...
    akindheart akindheart 56-60, F 14 Responses Sep 4

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    New York: Would like to make new friends in NYC area! :) (We can still be internet friends if you don't live in New York or even the U.S.)
    Berry84 Berry84 26-30, F 17 Responses Aug 31

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    In four days it will be the 3 month anniversary of my beautiful friend's death. This summer was struck by such a dark cloud, as I found out she had died a month after coming home...
    moonswooned moonswooned 18-21, F 19 hrs ago

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    My own blood. Ripped away by the hands of addiction. She was my best friend. She was more like a sister, actually. The sister I always wanted. The sister I could look up to. I...
    LittleTarheel14 LittleTarheel14 22-25, F 10 hrs ago

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    Definition of a best friend; The person you can't be mad at for even an hour because you have something important to tell them... Well if that important thing you need to tell her...
    mhallxcello mhallxcello 16-17, F 2 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    I don't necessarily hate her. I just hate what she's been acting like lately. 1. This is going to sound like a dumb reason to dislike someone, but she copies everything I say. I...
    bridget1234567 bridget1234567 13-15, F 1 hr ago

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    I promised myself that when I felt that I had truly overcame my disorder, that I would share my story with those that are currently suffering Let me give a little background...
    dnicolee dnicolee 18-21, F Sep 2

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    It's only been a little over year since my mother walked out, and no one should ever have to brave that storm. I wonder still every day when it becomes easier. She was my...
    TheMostBeautifulBitterFruit TheMostBeautifulBitterFruit 16-17, F Aug 28

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    It's has been 2 weeks and 1 day since I gave birth to the love of my life.... I have always wanted to be a mother. It is truly my hearts desire. When I found out I was pregnant in...
    meltimes2 meltimes2 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 7

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    "GOOD DAY"I had one of my sons dreams last night again where he is showing me death, the last time I had this dream it scared me and I became isolated in doors, but this time I...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F Aug 20

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    I lost my little brother to a heroin overdose two years ago. He was nineteen, only a year younger than me. I had no memory of a life without him. He was my best friend and we were...
    MonetChere MonetChere 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 17

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    My best friend died in 2011 and I haven't found anyone like her since. It sucks because she was the perfect best friend for me and before she died we stopped talking over a studpid...
    Godisnumber1 Godisnumber1 22-25 Aug 15

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    Death - Some thing which has No Life.. Well you know that is one of the thing which you cannot avoid but still continue to run away from it. But as you know you can run but can...
    uselessguy uselessguy 36-40, M Aug 22

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    A dark night, not a stormy one nor was it cloudy. A beautiful bright lit moon filled night, warm and peaceful. Yet, this soul wasn't at peace. When all the world seemed so content...
    soldierofshadows soldierofshadows 18-21, M 3 Responses Aug 26

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    OK, so I am one of the few who has passed from this side of life, to the other and back again. My story took place when I was but 20 years old off the island of Oahu. I had been on...
    QuickandtheDead QuickandtheDead 46-50, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    My mat leave ends in December. We can't afford for me to not go back to work. We also can't afford childcare for our two children, especially since our youngest will only be eight...
    jaisikae jaisikae 26-30, F 2 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    When I was a kid, i used to have a ton of friends, then i moved.... Everyone i knew was gone. After that i never really had any friends. I would always just get through school...
    Snsndmdmam Snsndmdmam 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 28

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    They say that when you often talk about someone who breaks your heart, when you still cry over the break-up, when you wallow in self-pity, disgust & can't move on to another...
    4BlackForest 4BlackForest 36-40, F 5 Responses Aug 26

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    Wind is blowing loud, rain is pouring outside the window. Cop sirens outside apartment. Night sky really dark. No stars appear this evening. The only lights we get are the stop...
    jeniridianar9 jeniridianar9 18-21, F Sep 1

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    I am a widow of three years. My husband was my best friend and soul mate. I thought things would get better as time went on, but it seems to only be getting worse. I feel like i'm...
    samey2179 samey2179 31-35, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    My sons Anniversary is in 3 more months, the starting of my third year, has it been this long? but it seems like yesterday, still excepting my second year I'm finding it still hard...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F Aug 18

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    I have a big smile on my face right now, I don't know who you new people are yet but I have a feeling I'll get to know you all, Lance you made me smile, thank you, I hear my sons...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F Aug 19

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    My day was good, very exciting, I having felt like this in a long time the feel that a child has at Christmas just can wait to unwrap my presents, my first year of grief, my...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F Aug 23