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I Am Still Recovering

Recovery is a process. 291 People

    Disordered

    I've been eating disordered since i was 16 years old. I'm 24 now. It started out as anorexia, turned into bulimia, and then binge eating. I am so unhappy with my weight. I've been trying to recover for the past 8 years - a long time to struggle with something that is a daily...
    Mary1634 Mary1634 22-25, F 1 Response May 7, 2011

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    Bipolar and Drug and Alcohol Problems

    I have been drinking for years and have always abused substances. After being told for at least 2 years I had a problem i finally seeked help. I went to a residential rehab for 3months and tried really hard and learned a lot. I managed to stay clean for 7 months. I was drinking...
    fergyshmerg fergyshmerg 31-35 1 Response Jul 15, 2009

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    Trying To Recover

    Some of you may know me as NeverThinEnough... that is my old depressed, anorexic account here, on EP... but i decided to recover from anorexia. It is hard, you know, like - sometimes you feel like you can beat this and you eat,you feel happy, you feel full of motivation and...
    WayToHappiness WayToHappiness 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 3, 2012

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    Since 3 years I had depressions.

    I lived in a small town in Germany and my class hated me. From the very first moment 'til the last I had there.In 7th grade they started bullying me, I thought about suicide and started cutting.I stopped for a few months, started again. When I wasn't cutting I hit myself, took...
    LilySophieGreen LilySophieGreen 16-17, F May 26

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    Time That Has Past But Still Hangs Over Head...

    So last March i had a major breakdown... I had been having a lot of problems with depression... I took my life into my own hands and swallowed enough anti depressants to put myself into respiratory arrest, damage my liver and kidneys, and give myself a sever case of pneumonia...
    Thatguywiththebluehair Thatguywiththebluehair 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 20, 2011

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    Recovery-july 4, 2013 At 8:36 Am.

    Recovery! I am in recovery! LOL. Sounds a bit like I am recovering some furniture. I am recovering myself! Listen! What does recovery mean? As defined, it means regaining or improving a former condition. And it also means the regaining of something lost. Many of us think of...
    PoetryNEmotion PoetryNEmotion 51-55, F 2 Responses Jul 4, 2013

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    A Day In The Life Of A Nobody.

    Major depression. Cyclothymia. Schizotypal. Anxiety. Anxiety. Anxiety. Self harm. Lie. Razors. Suicide. Therapy. Pills. Overdose. Suicide. Lie. Mental hospital. Lie. Suicide. Overdose. Cut. Cut. Cut. Lie. Therapy. Overdose. Suicide. Mental hospital. Molested. Lie. Overdose...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F Sep 3, 2012

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    Today's One Sentence Inspiration

    I may have escaped the blaming eyes of my mother, and the reproachful eyes of my brother, but I cannot escape myself. The only thing that I can do to save myself is to stop obsessing over my past and let go of my resentments. I need to only focus on today, and keep working...
    RLLauren RLLauren 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 10, 2013

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    I See That Light At The End Of The Tunnel!

    And I'm not on any pink cloud, just working on the whole positive thing. I can do this, regardless what people think or do. I finally have hope, and that's something I'm proud of.
    Kidd12 Kidd12 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 14, 2012

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    Fighting For Freedom

    When I think back to my dark times, I remember that they were only a few weeks ago. Sometimes I miss them as odd as it may seem. Not eating and throwing up everyday made me feel strong. I thought I was strong for hurting myself. Three days after I started recovery I descovered a...
    StarvedAndScarred StarvedAndScarred 18-21, F Sep 13, 2012

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    Voices Are Still Here

    I know I said that this will be my positive account but it is so damn hard to think and be positive all the time, to shut up and not listen voices in my head saying: dont eat that, you dont need food, exercise more.. and I am really trying to be better but i just feel such a...
    WayToHappiness WayToHappiness 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 4, 2012

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    http://youtu.be/dS5y3IHWOB4 Old me.

    New me sets boundaries and strives to defeat the urge to be the old me.
    Livyn4pals Livyn4pals 46-50, M Feb 21

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    Living In The Present - February 21

    The present moment is all we have. Yes, we have plans and goals, a vision for tomorrow. But now is the only time we possess. And it is enough. We can clear our mind of the residue of yesterday. We can clear our mind of fears of tomorrow. We can be present, now. We can make...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Feb 21, 2013

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    Relapse

    I recently relapsed.ive been smoking meth for the past week and a half everyday.i want to stop-i think im getting sucked in again.Do i have to go back into treatment or can  i just go everyday next week to NA meetings. I dont even have a sponser yet and i think thats why...
    angelwingz angelwingz 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 4, 2009

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    Grace Over Repression

    I still have days When my wounded self Overrides my hard-earned recovery A vague sub-consciousness Of some debilitating grip Common emotional neglect Useless insecurities and doubts Slithering fears They loom large at times And out of proportion Seems unfair To wage war with the...
    iNtuitiveFEeling iNtuitiveFEeling 51-55, M 1 Response Dec 25, 2012

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    Our Path - February 19

    I just spent several hours with someone from my group, and I feel like I'm losing my mind. This woman insisted that the only way I would make progress in my program was to go to her church and succumb to her religious rules. She pushed and insisted, and insisted and pushed. She's...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Feb 18, 2013

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    Recovery Is A Journey...

    I truly believe this.I am recovering from a number of issues in my life, and I always will be until the day I die.The first step in my recovery was to recognise and also accept that I have a problem and things need to change. And I need to keep reminding myself of this. Then I...
    GreenMonsterGal GreenMonsterGal 22-25 1 Response May 8, 2011

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    Not Working...

    It seems like i will never be happy about my look and my body... i think almost every day how i should starve myself again to become skinny again and i feel like i am getting fat, i suppose i am getting fat because i eat more, but my friends tell me that i look the same as before...
    WayToHappiness WayToHappiness 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 5, 2012

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    I'm trying so hard to be happy,

    and live life in a positive way... But it's so difficult and I want to cut so bad I feel the need to but I don't know if I even care what anyone else will say if they see... Idk what to even do anymore):
    InsecureTiana InsecureTiana 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 22

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    Hey guys. It's been..

    a month+ since everything happened? The depression.. I'm not sure about that but I've surely procrastinated. I was a top student. I'm so behind. Besides that I've been.. hiding myself. Flirting, distracting myself from him. But today he was brought up and now he's back in my...
    ThanhN ThanhN 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 27, 2013

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    I've had various eating disorders

    for the last six and a half years. (That number makes me so angry, and sad.) I've been actively trying to recover (on my own) for about a year/a year and a half now, with not much success. The hardest part (if I had to choose one) is probably the constant fight that goes on...
    letsmakeithappen letsmakeithappen 22-25, F Jan 18

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    Hello, I don't know why I'm addressing this

    as if I'm talking to someone but I think it's nice to think I'm talking to someone else. These posts are mostly for me to see my growth but it doesn't matter. Anyways, what I wanted to talk about Is the fact that it's been 2 and a half months and it's the middle of summer. I...
    MorbidRainbow MorbidRainbow 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 14

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    I Won't Lie

    Some nights, many nights, I pace outside the bathroom door. I have felt the weight of last night's meal, heavy, gluey, I have felt it itching to crawl back up my esophagus. Some nights, well. (I won't lie.) But this night, many nights, I turn away, Back to bed, back to sleep.
    mariacaterina mariacaterina 16-17, F Dec 30, 2012

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    maddisonn maddisonn 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 4

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    Always Recovering,never Recovered

    First AA meeting in 1977.According to statistics will never get my "diploma"recovering is a lifetime thing.no longer attend meetings,81 and shut in cause of health.AA was (is) the best thing ever happened to me,Forever grateful,Pray others that need help find it or...
    foreverme foreverme 70+, F 6 Responses Mar 8, 2009

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    It's been about what,

    a week since I experienced my "heartbreak"? Don't get me wrong; my heart still aches for him. But I'm getting better. I haven't cried every single minute to the hour. But I decided to catch up with family and friends. And it feels pretty good, very exciting. I don't know how...
    ThanhN ThanhN 16-17, F Dec 1, 2013

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    How To Recover Pictures And Video From Kingston Sdhc Card?

    What’s SDHC card?SDHC (Secure Digital High Capacity) is an extension of the SD standard which increases card’s storage capacity up to 32 GB. Its family includes SDHC, miniSDHC and microSDHC, and they have a capacity of 4GB to 32GB. It is FAT32 file system. SDHC cards share...
    maggiena maggiena 26-30, F May 17, 2011

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    Imbatgirl Imbatgirl 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 26

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    I strangely am feeling a little more better after the immense sadness I have been going through these past two days. I pray for my buddy everyday, and keep looking at what's good...
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    Actually, I am a fully recovered Catholic! The perfect little Catholic girl who could say the entire Mass in Latin and was allowed to set out the daily vestments and who...
    Reklawb Reklawb 66-70, F 1 Response Oct 10

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    I think it's bullsh1t and unrealistic that one year "rule" about not dating in the first year. I also think it's bullsh1t as a guy, to be limited to only male sponsors. I get along...
    Bdeath Bdeath 22-25, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I don't know what's going on. I thought I was over this break up then my friend showed me a photo of her and all these feelings just came back. It's been over a year now and I...
    slashy1 slashy1 26-30, M a week ago

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    It still hurts when I think too much and I remember my life before. I've been going to group meetings and they sort of help but its hard to talk about it with people I don't know...
    VanValentina VanValentina 36-40, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Man I be caring to darn much ... Hanging up like im nothing man.. Worst of all is you delete my post but yet kefr these nasty as h0es ones up .. Makes a lot of sense . .. & I still...
    white217 white217 18-21, F 3 hrs ago

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    I still love standing over the heater vent in the winter and watching my nightgown billow out. I still love the feel of cool green grass under my bare feet. I still love the smell...
    zanyzoey zanyzoey 36-40, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I went out with my ex boy friend for 3 years. We met our senior year in high school. He was an amazing boy friend. When were 18 he moved to another state for college. During that...
    brittney1212 brittney1212 22-25, F Oct 4

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    It's been 14 years since we first met. We lost contact for 2 yours, we found each other again, through a number i carved on the underside of my drawer. We fell in love right away...
    DejectedSolitude DejectedSolitude 26-30, M Oct 10

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    I am alive, I'm still here. You're alive, you're still here. And that's what matters. As long as we're breathing, as long as we woke up today, doing what kills you makes you feel...
    MaryJay712 MaryJay712 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 4

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    But the pain is a little less. I still think about you, but the tears don't come as easily. I still think about you, but the sound of your voice is a little more distant. I still...
    Charmedheart Charmedheart 36-40, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    Im still homeless and still trying to find my child daniel lee heller who is a boy and my son. Im still looking for his father daniel lester.
    AppleCherry2013 AppleCherry2013 22-25, F Oct 6

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    The divorce papers came this AM. I met our mail carrier in the driveway, signed for the delivery and went inside the house and sat and stared into space for an hour. Went grocery...
    overtherainbow47 overtherainbow47 41-45, M 4 Responses Sep 20

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    I can't get over my ex husband. I love him, I always will. He loved me too, and he loved our kids. He had problems with drugs though. He'd stay sober for months at a time, and...
    thatonewoman thatonewoman 26-30, F Sep 21

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    You know, I still love and miss my ex, but I'm tired. I'm tired of caring about him. I'm tired of thinking about him. I'm tired of piecing together bits of information trying to...
    Foolhearted18 Foolhearted18 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 26

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    I'm already 18 and still a virgin. There isn't anything wrong with me and I don't think I'm unappealing or unattractive. I'm glad I haven't given myself to the "wrong" individual...
    worldwideunity7 worldwideunity7 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 7

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    So I'm going back to middle school because that's were it all started. I was like what idk 12 yes old haha and I liked umm this guys since kinder but like I liked him on and off...
    thecatso thecatso 13-15, F Oct 9

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    Only the second person who feels like this on here. I hope others join us. Why? Well I'm still growing as a person, so much to learn about life. I want to change direction in...
    nunos nunos 51-55, M 2 Responses Oct 10

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    I still have a land line at home. A few weeks ago a good friend and fishing buddy of mine told me the reason he never calls me anymore was that he didn't have my cell phone number...
    xj287 xj287 41-45, M a week ago

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    I still like HIM very much. I do. I don't even know if HE still feels the same way I do for him. But I love HIM and I don't think I can love another like I love HIM.
    Moon95 Moon95 18-21, F Sep 20

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