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I Am Still Recovering

Recovery is a process. 288 People

    Today's One Sentence Inspiration

    I may have escaped the blaming eyes of my mother, and the reproachful eyes of my brother, but I cannot escape myself. The only thing that I can do to save myself is to stop obsessing over my past and let go of my resentments. I need to only focus on today, and keep working...
    RLLauren RLLauren 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 10, 2013

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    I Won't Lie

    Some nights, many nights, I pace outside the bathroom door. I have felt the weight of last night's meal, heavy, gluey, I have felt it itching to crawl back up my esophagus. Some nights, well. (I won't lie.) But this night, many nights, I turn away, Back to bed, back to sleep.
    mariacaterina mariacaterina 16-17, F Dec 30, 2012

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    I've had various eating disorders

    for the last six and a half years. (That number makes me so angry, and sad.) I've been actively trying to recover (on my own) for about a year/a year and a half now, with not much success. The hardest part (if I had to choose one) is probably the constant fight that goes on...
    letsmakeithappen letsmakeithappen 22-25, F Jan 18

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    Grace Over Repression

    I still have days When my wounded self Overrides my hard-earned recovery A vague sub-consciousness Of some debilitating grip Common emotional neglect Useless insecurities and doubts Slithering fears They loom large at times And out of proportion Seems unfair To wage war with the...
    iNtuitiveFEeling iNtuitiveFEeling 51-55, M 1 Response Dec 25, 2012

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    Time That Has Past But Still Hangs Over Head...

    So last March i had a major breakdown... I had been having a lot of problems with depression... I took my life into my own hands and swallowed enough anti depressants to put myself into respiratory arrest, damage my liver and kidneys, and give myself a sever case of pneumonia...
    Thatguywiththebluehair Thatguywiththebluehair 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 20, 2011

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    Our Path - February 19

    I just spent several hours with someone from my group, and I feel like I'm losing my mind. This woman insisted that the only way I would make progress in my program was to go to her church and succumb to her religious rules. She pushed and insisted, and insisted and pushed. She's...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Feb 18, 2013

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    A Day In The Life Of A Nobody.

    Major depression. Cyclothymia. Schizotypal. Anxiety. Anxiety. Anxiety. Self harm. Lie. Razors. Suicide. Therapy. Pills. Overdose. Suicide. Lie. Mental hospital. Lie. Suicide. Overdose. Cut. Cut. Cut. Lie. Therapy. Overdose. Suicide. Mental hospital. Molested. Lie. Overdose...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F Sep 3, 2012

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    Disordered

    I've been eating disordered since i was 16 years old. I'm 24 now. It started out as anorexia, turned into bulimia, and then binge eating. I am so unhappy with my weight. I've been trying to recover for the past 8 years - a long time to struggle with something that is a daily...
    Mary1634 Mary1634 22-25, F 1 Response May 7, 2011

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    How To Recover Pictures And Video From Kingston Sdhc Card?

    What’s SDHC card?SDHC (Secure Digital High Capacity) is an extension of the SD standard which increases card’s storage capacity up to 32 GB. Its family includes SDHC, miniSDHC and microSDHC, and they have a capacity of 4GB to 32GB. It is FAT32 file system. SDHC cards share...
    maggiena maggiena 26-30, F May 17, 2011

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    Trying To Recover

    Some of you may know me as NeverThinEnough... that is my old depressed, anorexic account here, on EP... but i decided to recover from anorexia. It is hard, you know, like - sometimes you feel like you can beat this and you eat,you feel happy, you feel full of motivation and...
    WayToHappiness WayToHappiness 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 3, 2012

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    Not Working...

    It seems like i will never be happy about my look and my body... i think almost every day how i should starve myself again to become skinny again and i feel like i am getting fat, i suppose i am getting fat because i eat more, but my friends tell me that i look the same as before...
    WayToHappiness WayToHappiness 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 5, 2012

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    Recovery Is A Journey...

    I truly believe this.I am recovering from a number of issues in my life, and I always will be until the day I die.The first step in my recovery was to recognise and also accept that I have a problem and things need to change. And I need to keep reminding myself of this. Then I...
    GreenMonsterGal GreenMonsterGal 22-25 1 Response May 8, 2011

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    Recovery-july 4, 2013 At 8:36 Am.

    Recovery! I am in recovery! LOL. Sounds a bit like I am recovering some furniture. I am recovering myself! Listen! What does recovery mean? As defined, it means regaining or improving a former condition. And it also means the regaining of something lost. Many of us think of...
    PoetryNEmotion PoetryNEmotion 51-55, F 2 Responses Jul 4, 2013

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    http://youtu.be/dS5y3IHWOB4 Old me.

    New me sets boundaries and strives to defeat the urge to be the old me.
    Livyn4pals Livyn4pals 46-50, M Feb 21

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    Hey guys. It's been..

    a month+ since everything happened? The depression.. I'm not sure about that but I've surely procrastinated. I was a top student. I'm so behind. Besides that I've been.. hiding myself. Flirting, distracting myself from him. But today he was brought up and now he's back in my...
    ThanhN ThanhN 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 27, 2013

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    Bipolar and Drug and Alcohol Problems

    I have been drinking for years and have always abused substances. After being told for at least 2 years I had a problem i finally seeked help. I went to a residential rehab for 3months and tried really hard and learned a lot. I managed to stay clean for 7 months. I was drinking...
    fergyshmerg fergyshmerg 31-35 1 Response Jul 15, 2009

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    It's been about what,

    a week since I experienced my "heartbreak"? Don't get me wrong; my heart still aches for him. But I'm getting better. I haven't cried every single minute to the hour. But I decided to catch up with family and friends. And it feels pretty good, very exciting. I don't know how...
    ThanhN ThanhN 16-17, F Dec 1, 2013

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    Imbatgirl Imbatgirl 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 26

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    Always Recovering,never Recovered

    First AA meeting in 1977.According to statistics will never get my "diploma"recovering is a lifetime thing.no longer attend meetings,81 and shut in cause of health.AA was (is) the best thing ever happened to me,Forever grateful,Pray others that need help find it or...
    foreverme foreverme 70+, F 6 Responses Mar 8, 2009

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    Fighting For Freedom

    When I think back to my dark times, I remember that they were only a few weeks ago. Sometimes I miss them as odd as it may seem. Not eating and throwing up everyday made me feel strong. I thought I was strong for hurting myself. Three days after I started recovery I descovered a...
    StarvedAndScarred StarvedAndScarred 18-21, F Sep 13, 2012

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    Voices Are Still Here

    I know I said that this will be my positive account but it is so damn hard to think and be positive all the time, to shut up and not listen voices in my head saying: dont eat that, you dont need food, exercise more.. and I am really trying to be better but i just feel such a...
    WayToHappiness WayToHappiness 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 4, 2012

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    Living In The Present - February 21

    The present moment is all we have. Yes, we have plans and goals, a vision for tomorrow. But now is the only time we possess. And it is enough. We can clear our mind of the residue of yesterday. We can clear our mind of fears of tomorrow. We can be present, now. We can make...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Feb 21, 2013

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    Since 3 years I had depressions.

    I lived in a small town in Germany and my class hated me. From the very first moment 'til the last I had there.In 7th grade they started bullying me, I thought about suicide and started cutting.I stopped for a few months, started again. When I wasn't cutting I hit myself, took...
    LilySophieGreen LilySophieGreen 16-17, F May 26

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    Relapse

    I recently relapsed.ive been smoking meth for the past week and a half everyday.i want to stop-i think im getting sucked in again.Do i have to go back into treatment or can  i just go everyday next week to NA meetings. I dont even have a sponser yet and i think thats why...
    angelwingz angelwingz 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 4, 2009

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    I'm trying so hard to be happy,

    and live life in a positive way... But it's so difficult and I want to cut so bad I feel the need to but I don't know if I even care what anyone else will say if they see... Idk what to even do anymore):
    InsecureTiana InsecureTiana 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 22

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    Hello, I don't know why I'm addressing this

    as if I'm talking to someone but I think it's nice to think I'm talking to someone else. These posts are mostly for me to see my growth but it doesn't matter. Anyways, what I wanted to talk about Is the fact that it's been 2 and a half months and it's the middle of summer. I...
    MorbidRainbow MorbidRainbow 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 14

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    I See That Light At The End Of The Tunnel!

    And I'm not on any pink cloud, just working on the whole positive thing. I can do this, regardless what people think or do. I finally have hope, and that's something I'm proud of.
    Kidd12 Kidd12 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 14, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    Im actually recovered now. I've been recovered for a few months now. its my third time recovering from anorexia. third times the charm, right? I've been struggling with it for over...
    wishingforrecovery wishingforrecovery 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 26

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    Still In LOVE With Your EX ? Stop drowning your heart in more pain. Your heartless Ex is obviously happier without you now. You don’t need to try over calling and texting him...
    CuteButterflyGirl CuteButterflyGirl 13-15, F 36 mins ago

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    I broke my right ankle this past June playing kickball. My left foot kinda slipped and then my right foot just snapped all the way to the right. It was absolutely horrifying. I was...
    lawsoncr lawsoncr 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 23

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    Let the countdown begin…. ☺ Only NINE days away from my one-year anniversary has me in a rather reflective mood. I can’t help but sit back and think about the puzzle that...
    Overwhelmed15 Overwhelmed15 26-30, F 6 Responses Sep 2

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    on Aug. 25th, I celebrated one year clean n sober, but I still don't feel trusted by my family...
    irishvengeance irishvengeance 26-30 3 Responses Sep 9

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    I like The truth that you each minute is used With all the doc, no ready during the waiting around space as well as limphatic massage was just wonderful; not just powerful but so...
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    Just when I think it's all behind me I feel the anger and confusion creeping up behind me again. There will always be unanswered questions and more to learn about this so called...
    GoldenPoppy GoldenPoppy 31-35, F a week ago

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    I still believe in fairy tales I still believe in picking flowers I still believe in getting lost in someone’s eyes And talking for hours I still believe in shooting stars I...
    SweetEmotions SweetEmotions 36-40, F 7 Responses 6 days ago

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    I am a woman in my mid-30s and have Asperger Syndrome. Even with that, I completed my MBA in accounting after toying with the possibility of careers in healthcare and even law...
    nschulm nschulm 31-35, F 1 day ago

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    My day was good, very exciting, I having felt like this in a long time the feel that a child has at Christmas just can wait to unwrap my presents, my first year of grief, my...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F Aug 23

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    today is another Good day, God is Good, I had plenty of rest, and I slept with a peace of mind, I feel different, I still cry I still hurt, I still think of him every day and I...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F Aug 28

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    My names Rayanna McRee and I'm going to be writing you tonight about a man that changed my life. I couldn't keep this in any longer because its been tearing me apart for 4 years...
    Avalina20 Avalina20 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 26

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    Still A Kid At Heart I'm still act like a kid even though I'm turning seventeen in October. My physical age doesn't always match my actions. I've said in some of my other stories...
    noahman97 noahman97 16-17, M 1 Response Aug 26

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    Hi there. My name is Marin and I am in a dilemma of my life. I have recently accepted to be friends with my ex, who I deeply care and love for. I wish for him to move on, but...
    FaroesePearl FaroesePearl 26-30, F Sep 6

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    it's been two years almost and i can still vision him just like it was yesterday, my god they are so strong now that makes me happy and typing this right now i'm wear a smile, and...
    streets718 streets718 56-60, F Aug 21

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    after all these years I enjoy the card game I played it quite recently with my friend and we enjoyed it..It was our first time that we've played the game with our physical cards in...
    SethinalPrime SethinalPrime 18-21, M Aug 27

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    A LETTER TO MY FIRST LOVE: My heart is still broken, i cover it up with jokes and smiles and just avoiding the pain. But nothing is more painful than laying down ready to go sleep...
    Islandkween Islandkween 18-21, F Aug 28

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    I was only sixteen when my best friend admitted that she had feelings for me. I felt the same way and we got together. We've shared so much of our lives, more than 8 years of ups...
    Beyala Beyala 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 2

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    I'm surprised there are not more posts here. I don't STILL live with my parents. I've been living on my own for 10 years and a life crisis has forced me to move in with my father...
    piprimate piprimate 26-30, F 4 Responses Sep 2

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    On august 31 my baby boy, Jacen, was born at 22 weeks. Saturday night I had my first really big contraction. I wrote this off as a Braxton hicks because I didn't get another for...
    maggie3333333 maggie3333333 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 8

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    I've never actually spoken to anyone about spanking and it feels kinda weird but good as well. I'm 14 and I still get it, not so much as I used to but harder and for longer. If my...
    smikey00 smikey00 13-15, M 12 Responses Sep 11

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    The wind blew that day as it does every day laughter people talking walking about. I'm in such a hurry to get to work. And then the earth stood still. The noise the smell the...
    RChin RChin 56-60, F 1 Response a week ago

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    The divorce papers came this AM. I met our mail carrier in the driveway, signed for the delivery and went inside the house and sat and stared into space for an hour. Went grocery...
    overtherainbow47 overtherainbow47 41-45, M 3 Responses 14 hrs ago

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