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I Am Still Recovering

Recovery is a process. 299 People

    http://youtu.be/dS5y3IHWOB4 Old me.

    New me sets boundaries and strives to defeat the urge to be the old me.
    OddlyScintilating OddlyScintilating 46-50, M Feb 21

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    Voices Are Still Here

    I know I said that this will be my positive account but it is so damn hard to think and be positive all the time, to shut up and not listen voices in my head saying: dont eat that, you dont need food, exercise more.. and I am really trying to be better but i just feel such a...
    WayToHappiness WayToHappiness 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 4, 2012

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    I See That Light At The End Of The Tunnel!

    And I'm not on any pink cloud, just working on the whole positive thing. I can do this, regardless what people think or do. I finally have hope, and that's something I'm proud of.
    Kidd12 Kidd12 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 14, 2012

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    maddisonn maddisonn 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 4

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    Hey guys. It's been..

    a month+ since everything happened? The depression.. I'm not sure about that but I've surely procrastinated. I was a top student. I'm so behind. Besides that I've been.. hiding myself. Flirting, distracting myself from him. But today he was brought up and now he's back in my...
    ThanhN ThanhN 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 27, 2013

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    Our Path - February 19

    I just spent several hours with someone from my group, and I feel like I'm losing my mind. This woman insisted that the only way I would make progress in my program was to go to her church and succumb to her religious rules. She pushed and insisted, and insisted and pushed. She's...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Feb 18, 2013

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    Since 3 years I had depressions.

    I lived in a small town in Germany and my class hated me. From the very first moment 'til the last I had there.In 7th grade they started bullying me, I thought about suicide and started cutting.I stopped for a few months, started again. When I wasn't cutting I hit myself, took...
    LilySophieGreen LilySophieGreen 16-17, F May 26

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    Disordered

    I've been eating disordered since i was 16 years old. I'm 24 now. It started out as anorexia, turned into bulimia, and then binge eating. I am so unhappy with my weight. I've been trying to recover for the past 8 years - a long time to struggle with something that is a daily...
    Mary1634 Mary1634 22-25, F 1 Response May 7, 2011

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    Bipolar and Drug and Alcohol Problems

    I have been drinking for years and have always abused substances. After being told for at least 2 years I had a problem i finally seeked help. I went to a residential rehab for 3months and tried really hard and learned a lot. I managed to stay clean for 7 months. I was drinking...
    fergyshmerg fergyshmerg 31-35 1 Response Jul 15, 2009

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    A Day In The Life Of A Nobody.

    Major depression. Cyclothymia. Schizotypal. Anxiety. Anxiety. Anxiety. Self harm. Lie. Razors. Suicide. Therapy. Pills. Overdose. Suicide. Lie. Mental hospital. Lie. Suicide. Overdose. Cut. Cut. Cut. Lie. Therapy. Overdose. Suicide. Mental hospital. Molested. Lie. Overdose...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F Sep 3, 2012

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    Relapse

    I recently relapsed.ive been smoking meth for the past week and a half everyday.i want to stop-i think im getting sucked in again.Do i have to go back into treatment or can  i just go everyday next week to NA meetings. I dont even have a sponser yet and i think thats why...
    angelwingz angelwingz 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 4, 2009

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    Hello, I don't know why I'm addressing this

    as if I'm talking to someone but I think it's nice to think I'm talking to someone else. These posts are mostly for me to see my growth but it doesn't matter. Anyways, what I wanted to talk about Is the fact that it's been 2 and a half months and it's the middle of summer. I...
    MorbidRainbow MorbidRainbow 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 14

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    Always Recovering,never Recovered

    First AA meeting in 1977.According to statistics will never get my "diploma"recovering is a lifetime thing.no longer attend meetings,81 and shut in cause of health.AA was (is) the best thing ever happened to me,Forever grateful,Pray others that need help find it or...
    foreverme foreverme 70+, F 6 Responses Mar 8, 2009

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    Imbatgirl Imbatgirl 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 26

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    Trying To Recover

    Some of you may know me as NeverThinEnough... that is my old depressed, anorexic account here, on EP... but i decided to recover from anorexia. It is hard, you know, like - sometimes you feel like you can beat this and you eat,you feel happy, you feel full of motivation and...
    WayToHappiness WayToHappiness 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 3, 2012

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    Not Working...

    It seems like i will never be happy about my look and my body... i think almost every day how i should starve myself again to become skinny again and i feel like i am getting fat, i suppose i am getting fat because i eat more, but my friends tell me that i look the same as before...
    WayToHappiness WayToHappiness 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 5, 2012

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    Time That Has Past But Still Hangs Over Head...

    So last March i had a major breakdown... I had been having a lot of problems with depression... I took my life into my own hands and swallowed enough anti depressants to put myself into respiratory arrest, damage my liver and kidneys, and give myself a sever case of pneumonia...
    Thatguywiththebluehair Thatguywiththebluehair 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 20, 2011

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    I Won't Lie

    Some nights, many nights, I pace outside the bathroom door. I have felt the weight of last night's meal, heavy, gluey, I have felt it itching to crawl back up my esophagus. Some nights, well. (I won't lie.) But this night, many nights, I turn away, Back to bed, back to sleep.
    mariacaterina mariacaterina 16-17, F Dec 30, 2012

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    Grace Over Repression

    I still have days When my wounded self Overrides my hard-earned recovery A vague sub-consciousness Of some debilitating grip Common emotional neglect Useless insecurities and doubts Slithering fears They loom large at times And out of proportion Seems unfair To wage war with the...
    iNtuitiveFEeling iNtuitiveFEeling 51-55, M 1 Response Dec 25, 2012

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    Today's One Sentence Inspiration

    I may have escaped the blaming eyes of my mother, and the reproachful eyes of my brother, but I cannot escape myself. The only thing that I can do to save myself is to stop obsessing over my past and let go of my resentments. I need to only focus on today, and keep working...
    RLLauren RLLauren 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 10, 2013

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    Recovery Is A Journey...

    I truly believe this.I am recovering from a number of issues in my life, and I always will be until the day I die.The first step in my recovery was to recognise and also accept that I have a problem and things need to change. And I need to keep reminding myself of this. Then I...
    GreenMonsterGal GreenMonsterGal 22-25 1 Response May 8, 2011

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    Living In The Present - February 21

    The present moment is all we have. Yes, we have plans and goals, a vision for tomorrow. But now is the only time we possess. And it is enough. We can clear our mind of the residue of yesterday. We can clear our mind of fears of tomorrow. We can be present, now. We can make...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Feb 21, 2013

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    I've had various eating disorders

    for the last six and a half years. (That number makes me so angry, and sad.) I've been actively trying to recover (on my own) for about a year/a year and a half now, with not much success. The hardest part (if I had to choose one) is probably the constant fight that goes on...
    letsmakeithappen letsmakeithappen 22-25, F Jan 18

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    Recovery-july 4, 2013 At 8:36 Am.

    Recovery! I am in recovery! LOL. Sounds a bit like I am recovering some furniture. I am recovering myself! Listen! What does recovery mean? As defined, it means regaining or improving a former condition. And it also means the regaining of something lost. Many of us think of...
    PoetryNEmotion PoetryNEmotion 51-55, F 2 Responses Jul 4, 2013

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    It's been about what,

    a week since I experienced my "heartbreak"? Don't get me wrong; my heart still aches for him. But I'm getting better. I haven't cried every single minute to the hour. But I decided to catch up with family and friends. And it feels pretty good, very exciting. I don't know how...
    ThanhN ThanhN 16-17, F Dec 1, 2013

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    How To Recover Pictures And Video From Kingston Sdhc Card?

    What’s SDHC card?SDHC (Secure Digital High Capacity) is an extension of the SD standard which increases card’s storage capacity up to 32 GB. Its family includes SDHC, miniSDHC and microSDHC, and they have a capacity of 4GB to 32GB. It is FAT32 file system. SDHC cards share...
    maggiena maggiena 26-30, F May 17, 2011

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    I'm trying so hard to be happy,

    and live life in a positive way... But it's so difficult and I want to cut so bad I feel the need to but I don't know if I even care what anyone else will say if they see... Idk what to even do anymore):
    InsecureTiana InsecureTiana 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 22

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    Fighting For Freedom

    When I think back to my dark times, I remember that they were only a few weeks ago. Sometimes I miss them as odd as it may seem. Not eating and throwing up everyday made me feel strong. I thought I was strong for hurting myself. Three days after I started recovery I descovered a...
    StarvedAndScarred StarvedAndScarred 18-21, F Sep 13, 2012

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    Stopped feeling soowihsydal. Before halloween. Still losing hope. But sad then mad then numb. Serenity gone. Health fading. License jeopardized. But mad not...
    OddlyScintilating OddlyScintilating 46-50, M 1 Response Dec 1

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    Is someone available to talk? Im recovering from abuse. Still. This is very difficult. I am goin thru suffering. lotta suffering.. :( help?
    amtired amtired 22-25 5 Responses Dec 1

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    The Gift He hands me a package wrapped in silver paper with a hot pink bow on top. The box is square and thin, with a little weight to it. He says nothing as he hands it to me and...
    Overwhelmed15 Overwhelmed15 26-30, F 3 Responses Nov 30

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    I have been recovering from an ed for over half a year. I am getting worried because I've missed my period for a while year. What should I do?????
    comfortablynumb9 comfortablynumb9 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 12

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    so I am suffering. still. STILL! dammit. damn him who does he think he is/? tellin meto kill myself and callin me names n crap. wtf. if i was so bad whyd he continue talking to me...
    amtired amtired 22-25 2 Responses Nov 24

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    The first time I cut was after my emotionally abusive boyfriend was yelling at me. He was screaming over the phone and I couldn't take it. At the time I had already thinking about...
    AlysonBlack AlysonBlack 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I'm reaching 11 months clean but in the back of my mind I still see myself and remember how great it felt, I know It isn't good but there's always that little picture in the back...
    totalnoteover totalnoteover 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 1

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    Even as committed as I am to staying sober, and as much as I loath the idea of drinking again, I must admit, if I walk past a pub and I have money in my pocket, I still feel a...
    anothernightowl anothernightowl 36-40, M 1 Response Dec 4

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    I started my wheat free diet including most grains and I lost 5 pounds and my joint pain reduced dramatically. I'm hoping that I see more progress as time goes on. At first it was...
    HigherCalling HigherCalling 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 6

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    I miss her very badly this morning. Perhaps it's because I know we will be at the same place today, I haven't heard from seen or talked to her since thanksgiving. It's been 3 1/2...
    imjustaguy38 imjustaguy38 36-40, M 8 hrs ago

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    I still believe in fairy tales I still believe in picking flowers I still believe in getting lost in someone’s eyes And talking for hours I still believe in shooting stars I...
    SweetEmotions SweetEmotions 36-40, F 4 Responses Nov 26

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    I was with a great man for 4 and 1/2 years we were engaged to be married also. So our story starts in 2009 when I was deployed adam was a contractor over there and we started...
    sadgirl06 sadgirl06 26-30, F Dec 4

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    It still haunts me… Some nights, during winter, when everything is wrapped with crystal snow. I just find myself slowly reaching the doorknob, pivoting my hand to open it...
    JohnAndehl JohnAndehl 16-17, M Dec 11

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    Ah, it was YEARS ago. Literally, like, 6 years. It all ended in disaster, I was 23, she was 21; It would have been so perfect, she goes to medical school, I get a graduate job in...
    jahosijhs jahosijhs 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 22

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    I haven't been able to talk to anyone about this, but it's tearing me apart. I love my boyfriend, don't get me wrong. But lately i've been comparing him to my ex. We're long...
    BusyInMyFantasy BusyInMyFantasy 16-17, F Nov 25

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    We only dated for 1/2 a year and he was my first real boyfriend. He was my best friend and I felt like we had a real connection. We broke up a year ago and ended on bad terms at...
    xsatanxyz xsatanxyz 18-21, F Dec 2

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    It will pass sooner or later. But for now, i still like him. I felt so connected to him, i could finally be understood and not only mentally, he could even understand my body and...
    alogo alogo 26-30 1 Response Dec 9

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    ive had 3 stilll births. After my last still birth i decided to write a blog it wont let. e post the link but go to stillstandingstillbreathing. blog.co.uk too see it.
    shelly12334 shelly12334 31-35, F 1 Response Dec 13

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    im 32 years old.but somehow im still so obsess with toy like remote control car/lego and some very childish 2D atari video game. Im felt like a outdated dude live in his own 80's...
    doublecheese24 doublecheese24 31-35, M 1 Response Nov 22

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    Maybe it's still too soon to say that she got away, but I feel like sharing. This girl was the greatest. We had the most amazing chemistry and the time we spent together was...
    insomnium24 insomnium24 26-30, M Nov 23

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    I know, that's not supposed to be possible. People say it's not possible, that I'm deluding myself. I'm looking for a way out, I secretly hate her, we must have a sexless...
    roykirk roykirk 41-45, M 2 Responses