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I Am Still Recovering

Recovery is a process. 277 People

    Today's One Sentence Inspiration

    I may have escaped the blaming eyes of my mother, and the reproachful eyes of my brother, but I cannot escape myself. The only thing that I can do to save myself is to stop obsessing over my past and let go of my resentments. I need to only focus on today, and keep working...
    RLLauren RLLauren 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 10, 2013

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    Time That Has Past But Still Hangs Over Head...

    So last March i had a major breakdown... I had been having a lot of problems with depression... I took my life into my own hands and swallowed enough anti depressants to put myself into respiratory arrest, damage my liver and kidneys, and give myself a sever case of pneumonia...
    Thatguywiththebluehair Thatguywiththebluehair 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 20, 2011

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    Bipolar and Drug and Alcohol Problems

    I have been drinking for years and have always abused substances. After being told for at least 2 years I had a problem i finally seeked help. I went to a residential rehab for 3months and tried really hard and learned a lot. I managed to stay clean for 7 months. I was drinking...
    fergyshmerg fergyshmerg 31-35 1 Response Jul 15, 2009

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    Disordered

    I've been eating disordered since i was 16 years old. I'm 24 now. It started out as anorexia, turned into bulimia, and then binge eating. I am so unhappy with my weight. I've been trying to recover for the past 8 years - a long time to struggle with something that is a daily...
    Mary1634 Mary1634 22-25, F 1 Response May 7, 2011

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    Living In The Present - February 21

    The present moment is all we have. Yes, we have plans and goals, a vision for tomorrow. But now is the only time we possess. And it is enough. We can clear our mind of the residue of yesterday. We can clear our mind of fears of tomorrow. We can be present, now. We can make...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Feb 21, 2013

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    I'm trying so hard to be happy,

    and live life in a positive way... But it's so difficult and I want to cut so bad I feel the need to but I don't know if I even care what anyone else will say if they see... Idk what to even do anymore):
    InsecureTiana InsecureTiana 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 22

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    I've had various eating disorders

    for the last six and a half years. (That number makes me so angry, and sad.) I've been actively trying to recover (on my own) for about a year/a year and a half now, with not much success. The hardest part (if I had to choose one) is probably the constant fight that goes on...
    letsmakeithappen letsmakeithappen 18-21, F Jan 18

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    I Won't Lie

    Some nights, many nights, I pace outside the bathroom door. I have felt the weight of last night's meal, heavy, gluey, I have felt it itching to crawl back up my esophagus. Some nights, well. (I won't lie.) But this night, many nights, I turn away, Back to bed, back to sleep.
    mariacaterina mariacaterina 16-17, F Dec 30, 2012

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    Relapse

    I recently relapsed.ive been smoking meth for the past week and a half everyday.i want to stop-i think im getting sucked in again.Do i have to go back into treatment or can  i just go everyday next week to NA meetings. I dont even have a sponser yet and i think thats why...
    angelwingz angelwingz 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 4, 2009

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    Imbatgirl Imbatgirl 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 26

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    Recovery Is A Journey...

    I truly believe this.I am recovering from a number of issues in my life, and I always will be until the day I die.The first step in my recovery was to recognise and also accept that I have a problem and things need to change. And I need to keep reminding myself of this. Then I...
    GreenMonsterGal GreenMonsterGal 22-25 1 Response May 8, 2011

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    It's been about what,

    a week since I experienced my "heartbreak"? Don't get me wrong; my heart still aches for him. But I'm getting better. I haven't cried every single minute to the hour. But I decided to catch up with family and friends. And it feels pretty good, very exciting. I don't know how...
    ThanhN ThanhN 16-17, F Dec 1, 2013

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    Recovery-july 4, 2013 At 8:36 Am.

    Recovery! I am in recovery! LOL. Sounds a bit like I am recovering some furniture. I am recovering myself! Listen! What does recovery mean? As defined, it means regaining or improving a former condition. And it also means the regaining of something lost. Many of us think of...
    PoetryNEmotion PoetryNEmotion 51-55, F 2 Responses Jul 4, 2013

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    Always Recovering,never Recovered

    First AA meeting in 1977.According to statistics will never get my "diploma"recovering is a lifetime thing.no longer attend meetings,81 and shut in cause of health.AA was (is) the best thing ever happened to me,Forever grateful,Pray others that need help find it or...
    foreverme foreverme 70+, F 6 Responses Mar 8, 2009

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    Trying To Recover

    Some of you may know me as NeverThinEnough... that is my old depressed, anorexic account here, on EP... but i decided to recover from anorexia. It is hard, you know, like - sometimes you feel like you can beat this and you eat,you feel happy, you feel full of motivation and...
    WayToHappiness WayToHappiness 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 3, 2012

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    Voices Are Still Here

    I know I said that this will be my positive account but it is so damn hard to think and be positive all the time, to shut up and not listen voices in my head saying: dont eat that, you dont need food, exercise more.. and I am really trying to be better but i just feel such a...
    WayToHappiness WayToHappiness 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 4, 2012

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    Hello, I don't know why I'm addressing this

    as if I'm talking to someone but I think it's nice to think I'm talking to someone else. These posts are mostly for me to see my growth but it doesn't matter. Anyways, what I wanted to talk about Is the fact that it's been 2 and a half months and it's the middle of summer. I...
    MorbidRainbow MorbidRainbow 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 14

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    Our Path - February 19

    I just spent several hours with someone from my group, and I feel like I'm losing my mind. This woman insisted that the only way I would make progress in my program was to go to her church and succumb to her religious rules. She pushed and insisted, and insisted and pushed. She's...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Feb 18, 2013

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    Not Working...

    It seems like i will never be happy about my look and my body... i think almost every day how i should starve myself again to become skinny again and i feel like i am getting fat, i suppose i am getting fat because i eat more, but my friends tell me that i look the same as before...
    WayToHappiness WayToHappiness 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 5, 2012

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    I See That Light At The End Of The Tunnel!

    And I'm not on any pink cloud, just working on the whole positive thing. I can do this, regardless what people think or do. I finally have hope, and that's something I'm proud of.
    Kidd12 Kidd12 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 14, 2012

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    How To Recover Pictures And Video From Kingston Sdhc Card?

    What’s SDHC card?SDHC (Secure Digital High Capacity) is an extension of the SD standard which increases card’s storage capacity up to 32 GB. Its family includes SDHC, miniSDHC and microSDHC, and they have a capacity of 4GB to 32GB. It is FAT32 file system. SDHC cards share...
    maggiena maggiena 26-30, F May 17, 2011

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    A Day In The Life Of A Nobody.

    Major depression. Cyclothymia. Schizotypal. Anxiety. Anxiety. Anxiety. Self harm. Lie. Razors. Suicide. Therapy. Pills. Overdose. Suicide. Lie. Mental hospital. Lie. Suicide. Overdose. Cut. Cut. Cut. Lie. Therapy. Overdose. Suicide. Mental hospital. Molested. Lie. Overdose...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F Sep 3, 2012

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    Fighting For Freedom

    When I think back to my dark times, I remember that they were only a few weeks ago. Sometimes I miss them as odd as it may seem. Not eating and throwing up everyday made me feel strong. I thought I was strong for hurting myself. Three days after I started recovery I descovered a...
    StarvedAndScarred StarvedAndScarred 18-21, F Sep 13, 2012

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    Hey guys. It's been..

    a month+ since everything happened? The depression.. I'm not sure about that but I've surely procrastinated. I was a top student. I'm so behind. Besides that I've been.. hiding myself. Flirting, distracting myself from him. But today he was brought up and now he's back in my...
    ThanhN ThanhN 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 27, 2013

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    http://youtu.be/dS5y3IHWOB4 Old me.

    New me sets boundaries and strives to defeat the urge to be the old me.
    converted converted 46-50, M Feb 21

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    Since 3 years I had depressions.

    I lived in a small town in Germany and my class hated me. From the very first moment 'til the last I had there.In 7th grade they started bullying me, I thought about suicide and started cutting.I stopped for a few months, started again. When I wasn't cutting I hit myself, took...
    LilySophieGreen LilySophieGreen 16-17, F May 26

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    Grace Over Repression

    I still have days When my wounded self Overrides my hard-earned recovery A vague sub-consciousness Of some debilitating grip Common emotional neglect Useless insecurities and doubts Slithering fears They loom large at times And out of proportion Seems unfair To wage war with the...
    iNtuitiveFEeling iNtuitiveFEeling 51-55, M 1 Response Dec 25, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    Out of all people, she asked me to take her as her date at a wedding. I secretly had a crush on her so the obviously answer was yes. I later meet her whole family and we got along...
    Xisaac13x Xisaac13x 18-21, M Jul 11

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    10 months Thinking about how I have been sober for 10 months is completely overwhelming and doesn’t seem real. In fact, it sort of makes me feel panic to think about how far I...
    Overwhelmed15 Overwhelmed15 26-30, F 6 Responses Jul 11

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    I relapsed last night 😑 I'm so mad and frustrated at myself, for letting it happen, but my boyfriend really helped and supported me through the entire night and I feel closer to...
    KylieLaine KylieLaine 18-21, F 10 Responses Jul 15

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    Almost cut last night, I was upset and I was sitting in the bathroom holding my razor and I was crying of course because I was torn over what to do. I had the urge to do it but I...
    ashricard ashricard 18-21, F Jun 30

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    Hi everyone, My first experimentation with any kind of drugs was when I was 14 on my birthday. My cousin gave me a blunt as a birthday gift... I had no addiction to it, but it...
    mladenok mladenok 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 15

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    I have been sober for 14 years. Mind you its more like 10years (with a 2 year hiatus )plus four years. Not proud that I fell off the wagon, but I am proud that I jumped back on...
    knittingbadsweaters knittingbadsweaters 41-45, F 2 Responses Jun 25

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    My 20th wedding anniversary is in a few months and I have been sober for just over half that time. Does this mean I have made amends for the despicable things I did to my wife in...
    grasser grasser 56-60, M 3 Responses Jun 28

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    As much as it is scary to admit, sobriety is becoming a very enjoyable experience for me. These last few weeks have been incredibly challenging but I have survived them and I have...
    Overwhelmed15 Overwhelmed15 26-30, F 4 Responses Jun 28

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    So happy I made it to the 4 month mark a few days ago!!! Still staying strong even though the urges won't settle!! For now I'm winning :)
    ashricard ashricard 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 16

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    Well umm don't know how to start, but I am currently happily married 27 and still think about my childhood crush. We met when I was 8 we were in the same school / grade but not...
    indigo1987 indigo1987 26-30, F 3 days ago

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    I met this girl when I was 12..I was too young to understand what is love.she was 17..I remember clearly how beautiful her back was and the way she walks. I never seen anthing...
    9thguy 9thguy 26-30, M 7 Responses Jul 4

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    This happened few months ago. I still keep in contact with my ex. One night, we had a gathering with our old mates at the KTV lounge. I met her and we started talking. She was...
    justin110 justin110 26-30, M Jul 9

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    I am still in love with you. I still see you, everyday. Walking past me like nothing happened. No emotion, just nothing... It all started when we first got together it was the...
    ConfusedBritishGirl ConfusedBritishGirl 18-21, F Jul 11

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    My Dearest Virginia, I realize that as I write this that the possibility of your ever reading it is virtually non-existent. Though I only knew you for a few short years when we...
    memdump memdump 70+, M Jul 11

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    I had a stillborn boy at 31 weeks into my pregnancy. This was my third pregnancy. My first daughter passed away shortly after her birth. She was born at 24 weeks. Then pretty...
    Amberjacobs Amberjacobs 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I had my first crush back in the year 2002 (omg :-) its a decade ago), she was my same neighborhood, same school and everything, it all started in the 7th standard. She...
    Anirudhbasutkar Anirudhbasutkar 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 28

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    Dated this guy for 8 months. I believe he was my first love. We kissed, hugged, held hands, Ide sit on his lap and tease him. He'd never seen my body in person or felt it but just...
    alliebear1211 alliebear1211 13-15, F Jul 1

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    6 months later and I still have the same feelings I had when we first went out. I know I hurt her, and I haven't quite forgiven myself yet. She brought meaning to my life. Now that...
    druggydavis druggydavis 18-21, F Jul 2

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    Even though it was over 2 years ago, and I have another man that I love very much, I still think about my first love all the time. He was emotionally and physically abusive but I...
    Kaylamarie9413 Kaylamarie9413 16-17, F Jul 6

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    I was with my Ex for five years we got together when i was 13 years old, we really was great couple we had our ups and downs like everyone does. When i was 16 he actually proposed...
    laurz14 laurz14 18-21, F Jul 7

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    I Still Love Kyron πŸ˜˜πŸ™‹πŸ˜‚πŸ™πŸ˜πŸ˜”πŸ˜žβ€οΈπŸ’”. He says he's sorry and he still wants me but I don't care. Even though he hasn't really done anything wrong, am still mad...
    shakirakyronx shakirakyronx 13-15, F Jul 11

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    I still in love with my ex whom i broke up with because of distance 4 years ago we would never meet ... and she is now with a guy soon for 2 years but we still talk and saying...
    Dasha93 Dasha93 18-21 Jul 13

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    It's been 30 years and 11 months since I first saw your face, I remember I said 'Hello', and then we ended up back at your place. From that night to this very day, no one else...
    bob125125 bob125125 26-30, M 6 days ago

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