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I Am Still Recovering

Recovery is a process. 324 People

    Today's One Sentence Inspiration

    I may have escaped the blaming eyes of my mother, and the reproachful eyes of my brother, but I cannot escape myself. The only thing that I can do to save myself is to stop obsessing over my past and let go of my resentments. I need to only focus on today, and keep working...
    RLLauren RLLauren 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 10, 2013

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    It's been three years

    since I moved away from where I used to live. I've gotten a lot better but there's still a ways to go. (This is very long so I don't know if anyone will read it.) When I was around 6, I remember always thinking "no one believes me" when I wanted to tell an adult something. At...
    aki98 aki98 16-17, T 1 Response Apr 1, 2015

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    UndyingLovatic UndyingLovatic 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 12, 2015

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    Bipolar and Drug and Alcohol Problems

    I have been drinking for years and have always abused substances. After being told for at least 2 years I had a problem i finally seeked help. I went to a residential rehab for 3months and tried really hard and learned a lot. I managed to stay clean for 7 months. I was drinking...
    fergyshmerg fergyshmerg 31-35 1 Response Jul 15, 2009

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    Imbatgirl Imbatgirl 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 26, 2014

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    Since 3 years I had depressions.

    I lived in a small town in Germany and my class hated me. From the very first moment 'til the last I had there.In 7th grade they started bullying me, I thought about suicide and started cutting.I stopped for a few months, started again. When I wasn't cutting I hit myself, took...
    LilySophieGreen LilySophieGreen 18-21, F May 26, 2014

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    Recovery Is A Journey...

    I truly believe this.I am recovering from a number of issues in my life, and I always will be until the day I die.The first step in my recovery was to recognise and also accept that I have a problem and things need to change. And I need to keep reminding myself of this. Then I...
    GreenMonsterGal GreenMonsterGal 22-25 1 Response May 8, 2011

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    Grace Over Repression

    I still have days When my wounded self Overrides my hard-earned recovery A vague sub-consciousness Of some debilitating grip Common emotional neglect Useless insecurities and doubts Slithering fears They loom large at times And out of proportion Seems unfair To wage war with the...
    iNtuitiveFEeling iNtuitiveFEeling 56-60, M 1 Response Dec 25, 2012

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    Fighting For Freedom

    When I think back to my dark times, I remember that they were only a few weeks ago. Sometimes I miss them as odd as it may seem. Not eating and throwing up everyday made me feel strong. I thought I was strong for hurting myself. Three days after I started recovery I descovered a...
    StarvedAndScarred StarvedAndScarred 18-21, F Sep 13, 2012

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    How To Recover Pictures And Video From Kingston Sdhc Card?

    What’s SDHC card?SDHC (Secure Digital High Capacity) is an extension of the SD standard which increases card’s storage capacity up to 32 GB. Its family includes SDHC, miniSDHC and microSDHC, and they have a capacity of 4GB to 32GB. It is FAT32 file system. SDHC cards share...
    maggiena maggiena 26-30, F May 17, 2011

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    Hi. My name is Annie.

    Do you have tumblr? If so, follow me @youre-gorgeous-to-me & I'll follow you back and fav your stuff
    annieejenkinss annieejenkinss 13-15, F Sep 5, 2015

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    I'm feeling down and bored.

    I don't know how to express this awful feeling. I don't even know what to write, it takes ages. I'm going to try to share a lot of stories, though. Depression has become less since I'm taking antidepressants, but I'm still not entirely well. I wish I could enjoy life more. It...
    Silverwhale Silverwhale 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 10, 2015

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    I've had various eating disorders

    for the last six and a half years. (That number makes me so angry, and sad.) I've been actively trying to recover (on my own) for about a year/a year and a half now, with not much success. The hardest part (if I had to choose one) is probably the constant fight that goes on...
    letsmakeithappen letsmakeithappen 22-25, F Jan 18, 2014

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    Trying To Recover

    Some of you may know me as NeverThinEnough... that is my old depressed, anorexic account here, on EP... but i decided to recover from anorexia. It is hard, you know, like - sometimes you feel like you can beat this and you eat,you feel happy, you feel full of motivation and...
    WayToHappiness WayToHappiness 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 3, 2012

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    Not Working...

    It seems like i will never be happy about my look and my body... i think almost every day how i should starve myself again to become skinny again and i feel like i am getting fat, i suppose i am getting fat because i eat more, but my friends tell me that i look the same as before...
    WayToHappiness WayToHappiness 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 5, 2012

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    I Won't Lie

    Some nights, many nights, I pace outside the bathroom door. I have felt the weight of last night's meal, heavy, gluey, I have felt it itching to crawl back up my esophagus. Some nights, well. (I won't lie.) But this night, many nights, I turn away, Back to bed, back to sleep.
    mariacaterina mariacaterina 16-17, F Dec 30, 2012

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    Time That Has Past But Still Hangs Over Head...

    So last March i had a major breakdown... I had been having a lot of problems with depression... I took my life into my own hands and swallowed enough anti depressants to put myself into respiratory arrest, damage my liver and kidneys, and give myself a sever case of pneumonia...
    Thatguywiththebluehair Thatguywiththebluehair 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 20, 2011

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    It's been about what,

    a week since I experienced my "heartbreak"? Don't get me wrong; my heart still aches for him. But I'm getting better. I haven't cried every single minute to the hour. But I decided to catch up with family and friends. And it feels pretty good, very exciting. I don't know how...
    ThanhN ThanhN 16-17, F Dec 1, 2013

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    Hello, I don't know why I'm addressing this

    as if I'm talking to someone but I think it's nice to think I'm talking to someone else. These posts are mostly for me to see my growth but it doesn't matter. Anyways, what I wanted to talk about Is the fact that it's been 2 and a half months and it's the middle of summer. I...
    MorbidRainbow MorbidRainbow 16-17, F Jul 14, 2014

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    I finally found a name.

    I mean I'm not all of the things listed but it does accurately describe a lot. http://psychcentral.com/lib/symptoms-of-codependency/00011992
    ShyGuy990 ShyGuy990 22-25, M Feb 2, 2015

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    Hey guys. It's been..

    a month+ since everything happened? The depression.. I'm not sure about that but I've surely procrastinated. I was a top student. I'm so behind. Besides that I've been.. hiding myself. Flirting, distracting myself from him. But today he was brought up and now he's back in my...
    ThanhN ThanhN 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 27, 2013

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    A Day In The Life Of A Nobody.

    Major depression. Cyclothymia. Schizotypal. Anxiety. Anxiety. Anxiety. Self harm. Lie. Razors. Suicide. Therapy. Pills. Overdose. Suicide. Lie. Mental hospital. Lie. Suicide. Overdose. Cut. Cut. Cut. Lie. Therapy. Overdose. Suicide. Mental hospital. Molested. Lie. Overdose...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F Sep 3, 2012

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    Always Recovering,never Recovered

    First AA meeting in 1977.According to statistics will never get my "diploma"recovering is a lifetime thing.no longer attend meetings,81 and shut in cause of health.AA was (is) the best thing ever happened to me,Forever grateful,Pray others that need help find it or...
    foreverme foreverme 66-70, F 6 Responses Mar 8, 2009

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    Voices Are Still Here

    I know I said that this will be my positive account but it is so damn hard to think and be positive all the time, to shut up and not listen voices in my head saying: dont eat that, you dont need food, exercise more.. and I am really trying to be better but i just feel such a...
    WayToHappiness WayToHappiness 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 4, 2012

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    Recovery-july 4, 2013 At 8:36 Am.

    Recovery! I am in recovery! LOL. Sounds a bit like I am recovering some furniture. I am recovering myself! Listen! What does recovery mean? As defined, it means regaining or improving a former condition. And it also means the regaining of something lost. Many of us think of...
    PoetryNEmotion PoetryNEmotion 51-55, F 1 Response Jul 4, 2013

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    Disordered

    I've been eating disordered since i was 16 years old. I'm 24 now. It started out as anorexia, turned into bulimia, and then binge eating. I am so unhappy with my weight. I've been trying to recover for the past 8 years - a long time to struggle with something that is a daily...
    Mary1634 Mary1634 22-25, F 1 Response May 7, 2011

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    Our Path - February 19

    I just spent several hours with someone from my group, and I feel like I'm losing my mind. This woman insisted that the only way I would make progress in my program was to go to her church and succumb to her religious rules. She pushed and insisted, and insisted and pushed. She's...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Feb 18, 2013

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    I'm trying so hard to be happy,

    and live life in a positive way... But it's so difficult and I want to cut so bad I feel the need to but I don't know if I even care what anyone else will say if they see... Idk what to even do anymore):
    InsecureTiana InsecureTiana 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 22, 2014

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    Relapse

    I recently relapsed.ive been smoking meth for the past week and a half everyday.i want to stop-i think im getting sucked in again.Do i have to go back into treatment or can  i just go everyday next week to NA meetings. I dont even have a sponser yet and i think thats why...
    angelwingz angelwingz 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 4, 2009

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    maddisonn maddisonn 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 4, 2014

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    I See That Light At The End Of The Tunnel!

    And I'm not on any pink cloud, just working on the whole positive thing. I can do this, regardless what people think or do. I finally have hope, and that's something I'm proud of.
    Kidd12 Kidd12 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 14, 2012

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    Living In The Present - February 21

    The present moment is all we have. Yes, we have plans and goals, a vision for tomorrow. But now is the only time we possess. And it is enough. We can clear our mind of the residue of yesterday. We can clear our mind of fears of tomorrow. We can be present, now. We can make...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Feb 21, 2013

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    I still think of him quite often ,even though I haven't seen him in 10 years.. I still really care for him and I would like to know how his life turned out.. "PLUS IT'S PRETTY EASY...
    lovelee83 lovelee83 26-30, F 2 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    My stranger for a Mother has refused to pay my bills once again. I have a $2000 bill to pay. The only reason that I ran it up was because I was working, but my stranger for a...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F 3 days ago

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    I am still diaprd sometimes Yup Im 13 and i still wear them every night because i still wet the bed. It happens to me a few times a week. I always go to the bathroom right before...
    Kirito500 Kirito500 13-15, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    8 months since she broke up with me. 20 months we were together. 8 months we were engaged. I still can't get her out of my head. She has many issues. I will quite likely be better...
    ScottyB3389 ScottyB3389 51-55, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    and he still loves me but I'm scared to ask him out since he broke up with me then he asked me back out again and I turned him down but today he said " np anything for my ex" and...
    aby2015 aby2015 13-15, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    i dont wet the bed but i did wet the bed as a kid and i know accidents can still happen i used diapers or pull ups as a kid , did you ever wet the bed as a kid also do you still...
    autism1011 autism1011 22-25, M 6 Responses a week ago

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    I still believe long distance relationships can work. I still believe that I can show you how much I love you. Yes, it takes a lot of work and careful communication. There has to...
    mar3sword mar3sword 18-21, M Jan 28

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    Yes i still love her a lot,how can i forget her she was the first love of my life i will never forget her.She has a special place in my heart and no one else can take that place...
    Roadguy Roadguy 26-30, M 1 Response Jan 28

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    still do never slept in a bed so I don't know how the beds are. but as long I still fit I stay in it. even if I'm be a high school student starting tomorrow.
    wolfygirlcandy wolfygirlcandy 22-25, F Jan 27

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    I loved you. I have tried not to…but even if that was what my heart really wanted…I’d be incapable of feeling anything less. I am still very much in love with you. Right...
    OakleysWorld OakleysWorld 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 26

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    i still hold her in my arms everynight, i still wish her a good night and kiss her head, i miss u babe :(
    lebanongirl lebanongirl 22-25 Jan 25

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    I love you I really do. I'm sorry I've said it to others... I pretend they are you when you aren't around, and baby you haven't been around. You've been gone for so long and now...
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