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I Am Struggling Not To Fall Apart

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    Killing Me Slowly - Everyday is a struggle,just to get through the seconds,minutes,hours and days.I'm feeling lost and confused about a lot of things.I try not to over think,to...
    notreadytomakenice notreadytomakenice 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 26, 2012

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    I Say I Love Her Yet She Dates Other Guys - She asked me if I still loved her the other day an I said yes. She then said she loved me too. Then in the same sentence she says she is...
    allalone101 allalone101 13-15, M 2 Responses Dec 7, 2011

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    Whats Going On... - Well today was the start of something big for me. I have started treatment for a blood disease. I have been worried about it since i found out i had it. Which...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 31, 2011

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    I Am Trying...very Hard - I can be alright one minute....teary the next.... I can be smiling outside ...but deep within, I am aching... I can fake a laughter on gtalk and...
    Eternal Eternal 31-35, F 8 Responses Apr 26, 2010

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    You ask yourself- why me? Then you think- why not me?
    khokho204 khokho204 16-17, F Dec 23, 2013

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    So Sick Of Being In Pain! - I am in pain everyday from osteo arthritis and structural damage in my spine, I have suffered with depression for approx 30yrs and have been on...
    locomama locomama 41-45, F 6 Responses Mar 15, 2010

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    All The Friends I Made Gone - I made alot of friends at this camp I went to for a month I even met a girl. I thought I would be fine leaving but now I am laying on the floor in...
    allalone101 allalone101 13-15, M 2 Responses Aug 1, 2011

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    Overwhelmed By This Life Of Mine - I am struggling not to fall apart,to just disappear from the world.Sometimes I get into a depressed state and wonder why I'm still here,breathing...
    notreadytomakenice notreadytomakenice 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 19, 2012

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    What The... - Why is it that on such a nice day i feel so low. It reminds me of a life i once had. Trouble is im struggling to keep moving forward.. I want to die more and more...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 21, 2011

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    Our Federal System Is Driving Me Insane - So ive been going back and forth with the social security office. Ive been trying to change my daughters insurance to strait medicaid...
    a13m94 a13m94 18-21, F Nov 15, 2013

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    Darkness - I posted this poem that I wrote on another group, but it is pretty much my story for this group too. The whole I’ve dug is deep The tears that I would weep Are stuck...
    darkerside16 darkerside16 22-25 1 Response Dec 10, 2010

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    Giving Up Is Easy.... - There are times where all I want to do is give up. Where going to sleep and never waking up seems like bliss. But then I remember what I have, who I have...
    TheWanderingSupertramp TheWanderingSupertramp 22-25, M 4 Responses Dec 5, 2010

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    Oh Please Stop The Pain!!!!! - The panic attacks are back. The episodes of delusion kick in and I scream at any and everyone that gets in my way. I break a lamp and throw a chair...
    notreadytomakenice notreadytomakenice 22-25, F Jul 17, 2013

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    Even with saying how I'm really feeling, I do feel a little relieved, but I'm still not the same person I was before.
    khokho204 khokho204 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 12, 2013

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    How Many Times Have I Been In This Situation? - we start out with something little and it quickly escalates to the situation i'm now in. i'm only 18, and he's only 17. shouldnt we...
    justwanthappiness justwanthappiness 18-21, F 1 Response May 7, 2011

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    Its So Hard - sometime i think that i must be the most inconsiderate person in the world. i have brains, looks and a great boyfriend; but i still feel as thought everything might...
    slideways slideways 22-25, F 4 Responses Mar 14, 2010

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    ...and Then What Happened? - I wake up in the morning and I pray that I will be able to make it through the day. I then get out of bed and think of all of the challenges that I...
    ilovenature ilovenature 22-25 1 Response Sep 11, 2011

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    Any Second Now - I'm going to fall, more likely jump. In the past two months my entire world has just completely ****** up. Jenna's gone, my Dad's in jail and my Mom passed away in...
    LovelyElla LovelyElla 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 24, 2012

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    Each Time You Say Goodbye - If only time can stand still,I count the seconds when you will say good byeKnowing I will be facing yet anothernight all by myselfI weep in the...
    Jay04Sch Jay04Sch 36-40, F Jan 22, 2013

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    I Know - I have a feeling this is all going to fall apart. Everything else already is. I want you more than anything I've ever wanted, but I know that something is going to happen...
    demonology demonology 18-21, F 2 Responses May 18, 2011

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    Poetry And Random Thoughts 3 A Bit On The Dark Side But Everyone Has One - As I lay here thinking about what has has went wrong  Just trying to live and not pass on the...
    addicted214e addicted214e 26-30, M Nov 30, 2010

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    I Have Been In Denial - I have been throught a lot in my life but one of the worst phases I have ever been through was during my sophomore year in high school when I was anorexic...
    thesuitelife285 thesuitelife285 18-21, F 15 Responses Dec 28, 2010

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    Oh I Broke Again... Bring The Duct Tape And Glue! - life is winning right now. nothing is going right.... and im losing people i trust and love. i am losing my hero... i am falling...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 24, 2013

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    The Final Breaths - I went to see my therapist today and its just made things worse. I feel like giving up. I feel so hopeless and useless. Depression has taken over my life. I'm...
    tornapart123 tornapart123 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 12, 2013

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    I'M Struggling Not To Fall Apart - Adult life is hard. Some make it some dont. If your from a good family you will go to a good school get good grades go to Uni get a degree and...
    defoekeane defoekeane 36-40, M Jun 22, 2013

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    It Is What It Is - I live alone,single,I rent a small basement apartment to a gay man that Ive known an been in love with all my life. My home is for sale to the highest bitter...
    Pearlvision Pearlvision 46-50, F Aug 18, 2013

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    In February of last year, my boyfriend died. He was such a great guy. He had a heart attack. We were together for a little over 10 years. We were living together, even though I...
    QCAteacher QCAteacher 46-50, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    Reach Out For Help And Get Smack In The Face - To give all the details would take to long.  I will say though you can't choose your siblings.  I have found out the hard way that...
    flodials flodials 41-45, F 3 Responses Apr 2, 2012

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    Constantly Picking Up The Pieces - I feel like I have a huge basket of stuff.  That basket keeps on getting knocked over.  Things keep tumbling out. CONSTANTLY PICKING UP THE...
    flodials flodials 41-45, F Mar 26, 2012

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    ... - I can't give up without a fight, I have been fighting for the past 3 years just too keep on breathing, to try and beat the depression, but sometimes. I really...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Dec 6, 2010

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    He Called To Ask If I'm Already OK - so last night, he called just to ask if i'm already OK. if my feelings for him were gone now. it's only a week after i told him what i feel...
    jenlie jenlie 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 24, 2013

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    Poetry And Random Thoughts 2 A Bit On The Dark Side But Everyone Has One - I was here but now have gone My emotional torment still lives on From the darkest hours to the brightest...
    addicted214e addicted214e 26-30, M Nov 30, 2010

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    I'm So Confused .. - trying to deal with a couple of issues has been part of my life for a good three years now ... things started going pear-shaped at home when i was like, 12...
    CrystalAzure CrystalAzure 18-21 2 Responses Apr 24, 2011

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    Just Letting It Out - My fake self is amazing. She laughs at the right times, says the right things, nods at the right moment. I call my fake self Jack.Explanation: Sometimes when...
    hatethestress hatethestress 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 24, 2011

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    Everything going on. All the pressure. All the pain. All the loneliness. All the things that I'm unsure of. All the things that go unsaid... Sigh. I just wish that things were...
    yourguardianangel9613 yourguardianangel9613 16-17, F Dec 19, 2013

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    Help - first off, my boyfriend lives in canada and i live in the US so it is difficult for us to see each other often because of money issues and schooling. anyways, last month, he...
    bostongirl101 bostongirl101 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 28, 2012

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    Going Crazy - I am looking for advise from others that might have or had similar experiences with loved ones with a mental illness. I have 2 adult children with Bipolar disorder...
    shawnee2013 shawnee2013 46-50, F Jul 24, 2013

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    What Left Of Me - When ever i move forwardif feel like a piece of meis left behindi falling to pieceand i don't even carewhy should ii'll never be able to put to it backto fix itto...
    invisiblegirl904 invisiblegirl904 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 6, 2011

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    Just Keep Smiling - If I put on a happy face and just keep smiling people will think that I am ok. I am actually far from ok. Its getting harder to put on that happy face. There is...
    ilovenature ilovenature 22-25 2 Responses Sep 21, 2011

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    I'm Destroying Myself... I Think I Need Help. - This weekend I went to visit my boyfriend, and everything was great the first night was amazing, as usual and the second one we were...
    shesnotagirl shesnotagirl 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 5, 2010

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    I Am Really - i am really struggling right now because of what my dad did to me a few days ago and the first time since i am starting to see the light with some advice from my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jul 21, 2011

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    It's getting at that point where I have one person that I can call a friend. My now ex best friend has got the whole school turned against me....I can't go anywhere in the building...
    Justanobody17 Justanobody17 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 6

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    What does it feel like if you're trying so hard but you know it killing you and breaking you so much but you dont wanna give up and let go? Hurts right? Im trying so hard to be...
    Amature14 Amature14 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 18

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    I seriously don't even know what to do anymore, its such a burden, to deal with this every single day. now I figured I should just lock myself in my room and let them fight all...
    Mei95 Mei95 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 16

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    My mother might lose her job. I'm not doing so well in college right now and it's almost the end of the semester. And everything is so overwhelming I don't know how I'm going to...
    andreaespe andreaespe 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 16

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