I Am Struggling Not To Fall Apart

There are times where all I want to do is give up. Where going to sleep and never waking up seems like bliss. But then I remember what I have, who I have. I remember my girlfriend for one, and that always gives me the strength to keep...

I did fall apart. And Im tired of starting to put myself back together only to have life break me to pieces again and again. At some point you just say enough is enough and get sick of living.

I know I've been quiet for a couple of weeks, thats because i dont want to bring anyone into my downer, I know Im a drain on people when my mind turns towards the darkness, thats what makes it so hard for me to communicate with anyone...

I posted this poem that I wrote on another group, but it is pretty much my story for this group too.

The whole I’ve dug is deep
The tears that I would weep
Are stuck inside my soul
For weakness I would show
If I were to let them out...

If only time can stand still,I count the seconds when you will say good byeKnowing I will be facing yet anothernight all by myselfI weep in the silence of the nightFearing yet another night of lonelinessI still can't get used to the...

I can be alright one minute....teary the next....

I can be smiling outside ...but deep within, I am aching...

I can fake a laughter on gtalk and email....but sitting in front of this pc is a lady whose eyes has lose its glow...

To give all the details would take to long.  I will say though you can't choose your siblings.  I have found out the hard way that blood does nothing other than make you have to answer more questions in my family.  I fought going to...

I am struggling not to fall apart,to just disappear from the world.Sometimes I get into a depressed state and wonder why I'm still here,breathing,living,when I feel as though I have no purpose.I don't talk about it,I don't ask for help...

i am really struggling right now because of what my dad did to me a few days ago and the first time since i am starting to see the light with some advice from my counseler and good friends like katie and james and some other from EP...

first off, my boyfriend lives in canada and i live in the US so it is difficult for us to see each other often because of money issues and schooling. anyways, last month, he found out that his uncle got into a car accident and passed...

 I tried to hang there, and to just enjoy life pretty much but it is hard for me to do so fro knowing i am not worth staying on a place where rudeness and acting harsh towards me is the only way people feel it is a victory for them, as...

If I put on a happy face and just keep smiling people will think that I am ok. I am actually far from ok. Its getting harder to put on that happy face. There is not one day that passes where I dont think about what if.... What if I...

I'm going to fall, more likely jump. In the past two months my entire world has just completely fucked up. Jenna's gone, my Dad's in jail and my Mom passed away in June. I have no one left to talk to; no one left to catch me. And when I...

sometime i think that i must be the most inconsiderate person in the world. i have brains, looks and a great boyfriend; but i still feel as thought everything might fall apart. there is some sort of darkness festering inside of me. i...

I am in pain everyday from osteo arthritis and structural damage in my spine, I have suffered with depression for approx 30yrs and have been on anti-depressants since my late teens. I took a break from them only when...

I want a peace to my mind, as i always be good to others and no one is good at me.I really feel like i should stop doing any favors to anyone, and never help anyone as i get in troubles cos of that.Life make me feel bad right now, as i...

When ever i move forwardif feel like a piece of meis left behindi falling to pieceand i don't even carewhy should ii'll never be able to put to it backto fix itto being repairso i just leave itleave it behindi walk aroundleaving trails...

I have been throught a lot in my life but one of the worst phases I have ever been through was during my sophomore year in high school when I was anorexic for about 10 months. I thought I had recovered when my family and I started to...

Everyday is a struggle,just to get through the seconds,minutes,hours and days.I'm feeling lost and confused about a lot of things.I try not to over think,to live in the moment,but,sometimes my thoughts consume me and I feel as though I...