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I Am Struggling To Keep Myself Together

It's hard, considering the circumstances. 6,078 People

    Hang On.

    No matter how badly we feel, it is only for now. When in deep pain and confusion When in the depths of darkness and despair, it can be hard to remember there will be light again. There are so many lessons in the cycles of nature. Sometimes they may sound trite but truth is...
    BuddyBo BuddyBo 56-60, F 2 Responses Oct 9, 2012

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    For as long as I can remember I've never been

    comfortable in my own skin. Most of the little confidence I did have was shattered a few years ago, when the girls at my school started to bully me about how I looked. I felt, alone and they often isolated me from everything. So o began to isolate myself to save myself from any...
    Awhiteorchid Awhiteorchid 18-21, F 7 Responses Nov 22, 2014

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    Well. In 2 hours one of my closest friends is

    moving to another side of the country with his sister who is like my best friend & it's tearing me apart knowing I'm not gonna see them as often they're both such great kids and good friends I love them like my second family they're so amazing I hate to see them leave but it's...
    Caine135 Caine135 13-15, M 2 Responses Jun 12

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    I made a mistake I told myself I would never

    make, I let someone else be my happiness. Now I feel like my world is being torn apart. I had never believed in love, and I had emotionally accepted that I would be alone for the rest of my life. He was so different though. He didn't judge me for my acting out, he didn't...
    Unbloomed Unbloomed 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 2

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    my bullet... he is my exit from this pain.

    He cures all type of cancer and is very effective. He silences all the voices in my head. He brings humanity toward my nature. He saves me from my biggest and only enemy my self. where are you bullet my head wants you and it is time to end a problem... My knife my friend...
    Poeticdeaths Poeticdeaths 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 14

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    Converted Converted 46-50, M Apr 21

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    Hi. I am almost divorced.

    Have kids. I do have a bf. We have been together almost a year. Some days I feel so lonely. I just want that everyday family feeling back, I had before my ex cheated and left. I love my bf but there are days I wish we were living together ect, then other days I'm like no way...
    happymom2 happymom2 31-35, F May 19

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    I'm lost and uninspired,

    I feel like I am gone, my body is here but my mind is wondering about life, I meet a nice girl, why can't we just be friends, why do I have a tendency to ask her out,I'm a monster I'm dumb I'm stupid and I can't get help, every one was right about me, I got mad because when...
    psychopuppet23 psychopuppet23 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 1

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    I got drunk finally told my friend I'm having a

    hard time told her I'm suicidal and were probably both too drunk to remember tmr. . . Drunk writing this. Probably be interesting tmr . Crap. . . This sucks
    WhoseMe WhoseMe 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 21

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    I just want to scream.

    Even if i did i don't think I would be heard even then.
    artsydarling artsydarling 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 16

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    I'm lying in bed... Thoughts running through my

    head... They don't stop... I can't find silence... I'm struggling. I need to find myself again. I feel like I'm suffocating. I'm in a miserable marriage. I know he resents me and pretty much hates me. At least that's how I feel or he makes me feel. We have two beautiful...
    MyLifeAsViolet MyLifeAsViolet 31-35, F 5 Responses Jan 23, 2014

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    I'm bored, life is boring,

    I stopped feeling sad, angry, and scared, I try to find joy but it seems that I can't smile, happiness is becoming strange to me, I just don't care anymore.
    psychopuppet23 psychopuppet23 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 28

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    suicidal, regretting the abortion

    and hating what my life is. feeling hopeless, ive been in a ward 4 3days on suicide watch. My friends are guilting me about being here, little do they know I'm super serious about wanting to die, as per usual they are ignoring me. I've decided to kill myself with my allergies...
    Anubis111 Anubis111 22-25, T 1 Response May 17

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    Identity

    Recently, a very good and trusted friend reminded me of a truth that I had forgotten: We are not our possessions, our job, house, spouse, or family. We are separate from all of that. We have an intrinsic value that we often forget to appreciate within ourselves. We have a...
    BozoBuckets BozoBuckets 51-55, M 1 Response Nov 28, 2012

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    they say, how can you hate yourself

    so much when they barely even know me and whisper , you are too young to be so sad when they read my writing and when i cannot bring myself to attend their parties, they laugh, why are you always tired but if they spent two minutes inside of my head, they would realize...
    ProfessorPsycho ProfessorPsycho 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 4, 2014

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    Every day is another fake laugh

    or another fake smile. I'm so tired of it. All i want to do is cry and say how i'm feeling. But i know i cant, because nobody will care. Because they'll just think im a freak. I dont know how much longer i can keep faking hapiness...
    ItsPriscila ItsPriscila 13-15, F 5 Responses Jan 21, 2014

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    I am so very lonely. My husband had a total

    breakdown last year and tried to kill himself, horribly. Since then all of my friends have found excuses to cut me out. My husband had been my best friend but that person has gone now. Our good marriage is now in pieces. I can't talk to him and I have no one to talk to. His...
    rosadon rosadon 36-40, F 8 Responses Mar 1, 2014

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    Struggling, it makes you stronger

    than what you already are. Everyone has days, weeks and maybe even months of it. Where your heart thrashes against your rib age threatening to break free at any waking moment, your lungs not knowing how to expand anymore. Fragile bones, sleepless nights and lonely days. Pain is...
    fwxo fwxo 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    I am trying my hardest not to fall apart

    and break. Music can help, but not always what I need. If anyone else is going through this or can help me. I'd really appreciate the support. Love is the main point :(..
    M1TCH94 M1TCH94 18-21, M 1 Response May 31

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    Lesson From Pfophet Job's(peace Be Upon Him) Struggle

    Those afflicted with calamities and distress should remember the story of Prophet Job (Qur’an calls him Aiyub). Ah! What a heart-melting story of pain and suffering, of patience and forbearance, of faith and gratitude, and ultimately of reward and success!   Prophet Job...
    sunshines333 sunshines333 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 20, 2012

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    I hate that i am bad at explaining how i feel

    and explaining my side of things because it always makes it seem like I am wrong or less intelligent.
    artsydarling artsydarling 18-21, F 2 Responses May 26

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    I am broken. Now I am having a difficult time

    trying to pick up all of my pieces and putting them back together.. 😔
    SweetRose22 SweetRose22 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 19, 2014

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    When you sit there in

    that classroom or the grocery store or just anywhere, just look. Take a moment to look at the people. Everyone in that room has something going on. Whether it's family problems or drug abuse or verbal abuse, they all have something. Maybe they have a song stuck in their head. Or...
    RedHwaiting RedHwaiting 18-21, F 1 Response May 12

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    You have no idea what I see in my mind.

    What I see makes me mad. What I see bothers me and what sucks the most is that I can't do anything about it. And it is like it is on constant replay. What happens when this happens to Someone. And what happens when he see's her or thinks about her. And so he gets mad and does...
    Brandon15shawana Brandon15shawana 16-17, M 1 Response Jun 7

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    It Seems So

    I am struggling inside. I am fighting my negative thoughts and trying to find a good place, but Im having a really hard time. This is nothing new. Im always like this. Up and down, up and down. Just trying to maintain something that is okay. I am looking for a solution. A...
    soulrunher soulrunher 41-45, F 22 Responses Jul 12, 2013

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    artsydarling artsydarling 18-21, F Apr 25

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    I have never been a normal kid,

    and high school is ripping the very fabric that holds my sad excuse for a life together to shreds. My awkwardness, inability to socialize, and confused sexuality are making me a prime target for bullying. My family isn't the most stable. I don't have many friends and I'm not...
    pizzafacedfag pizzafacedfag 13-15, M 1 Response Jul 9, 2014

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    trhsmh trhsmh 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 19

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    loveiseverything18 loveiseverything18 18-21, F 2 Responses May 8

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    There is so much to do

    but I am weak and fragile. Lost to the winds of old, my strength is. Seeking tirelessly to find an anchor to call home. An anchor I cannot reach or even see. With time caring not for me but its own, I desperately grapple with the forces of my will to be in equilibrium. I'm...
    Aamulus Aamulus 18-21, M 7 Responses Jan 23

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    But jerks lose power.

    If me helps others. EP Link
    Converted Converted 46-50, M Apr 23

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    I wake up sad daily .

    .. I am in a sexless marriage I am now in my 40's I want to feel pretty again . I want a man to crave me I have so much to offer
    likemeforwhoiam likemeforwhoiam 41-45, F 6 Responses Mar 1, 2014

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    My Husaband Acts Like A 2 Years Old

    I am just so tired of his logic,When I told him he should stop driving so fast, and look at the speed limits. he said that I should trust him, and I insulted him! and I should know that he doesn't mean to kill us! I said accidents happen and we have the most road kills...
    LordVoldemort LordVoldemort 36-40, F 48 Responses Jan 25, 2010

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    Why Can't It Be Seen Easy.......

    I was told by a few friends that I am in my element when I talk about work and that I need to put that into my personal life.....  Problem is that in my life things aren't cut and dry like they are the machines. I love to work on a machine it is clear and it is supposed...
    mtvlm mtvlm 41-45, M 18 Responses Dec 9, 2009

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    I am totally down right now.

    I felt like a hopeless case. I felt like i have no one to talk with even though i have my family beside me.
    Pisces1991 Pisces1991 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 21

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    I Feel Like I'm Having A Constant Battle Against Myself...

    I've never really acknowledged this before, but I kind of want to now. It's getting old. I'm calm and collect on the outside but on the inside I just feel crazy. Like with my mom, on the outside. I show that I'm happy, even at times that I'm like whatever she's gone. But when I...
    Greeneyedandcurious Greeneyedandcurious 22-25, F Jul 23, 2012

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    Converted Converted 46-50, M Apr 16

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    stress. stress. stress.

    and more stress. I can't live this way! I am losing myself and becoming miserable. I can't even appreciate the few good things that I have going on in my life because I am stressed. when I look in the morror, I can see how bad I look physically due to this stress.
    secretdestiny secretdestiny 18-21, F 1 Response May 11

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    I really am I am falling apart

    as the minutes pass. I am aching from head to toe I can't sleep or eat I'm not living any more just simply existing. I'm sick of feeling this way I would give anything just to be able to stop crying for for a day and just feel average or normal or just to feel happiness or to...
    milichja milichja 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 4, 2014

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    What I want. I want to not go to school.

    I just want to chill watch movies and play my game. I want to get high everyday . I want to get crazy drunk. I want to poison my body. I want the poison to pollute my body and darken my spirit. I want to sit in that corner chair in a hazy room full of cigarette smoke and weed. I...
    Brandon15shawana Brandon15shawana 16-17, M Jun 7

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    anasteel2 anasteel2 41-45, F 6 Responses Aug 18, 2014

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    Even though it's been a year

    after the affair, my husband has still not changed his number, won't open his cell phone, email nothing. I have prove that she it s still in the picture but he told me no. I think he is having this affair cause he says a lot that he said he felt like he has never been able to...
    rd2btrme rd2btrme 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 1

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    I just want to get better.

    It's really hard though and no one seems to understand that. I'm on the verge of breaking almost every damn day. I try to move past it and forget it all for a minute but then it all comes hitting me. I hate what I've done. I hate who I've become.
    EssSmith EssSmith 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 25

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    I've had a week off from therapy ( he was away)

    and im struggling, I have cognitive behavioural therapy and I see him again on Thursday but I'm Not lasting! I've been in. Tears most of the morning, I haven't stopped shaking and I just don't know what to do. I'm home alone for another 3 hours and I'm not coping very well I...
    Ridingtonewyork Ridingtonewyork 16-17, F 4 Responses Jun 30

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    Having a hard day. Had an anxiety attack again

    today for the first time in awhile and I did was I just to do back then I cut myself. I was in the middle of one of my classes and I just walked out after taking a razor blade from my tool box and went to the nearest bathroom. It helped my calm down but not I have a pretty bad...
    WhoseMe WhoseMe 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 14

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    Not only do I feel like a failure,

    I also feel so inferior :/ I feel so worthless and like I know nothing and that I'm never right about anything....just so inferior. I've never felt this way before. But a while back, I started developing a feeling that I suck and that I'm not wanted in life, even by my family...
    Soligem Soligem 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 17

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