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I Am Struggling To Keep Myself Together

It's hard, considering the circumstances. 6,430 People

    Not only do I feel like a failure,

    I also feel so inferior :/ I feel so worthless and like I know nothing and that I'm never right about anything....just so inferior. I've never felt this way before. But a while back, I started developing a feeling that I suck and that I'm not wanted in life, even by my family...
    Soligem Soligem 22-25, F Jun 17, 2015

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    Identity

    Recently, a very good and trusted friend reminded me of a truth that I had forgotten: We are not our possessions, our job, house, spouse, or family. We are separate from all of that. We have an intrinsic value that we often forget to appreciate within ourselves. We have a...
    BozoBuckets BozoBuckets 51-55, M 1 Response Nov 28, 2012

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    For days I have been doing nothing

    but hiding my feelings and keeping everything bottled in. I'm so use to that because talking to people about my true emotions can be very hard. -- not being able to work, make money to help my home life and to help myself is my main issue. It's not as easy has getting up and...
    xdizzybutterflyx xdizzybutterflyx 18-21, F Aug 11, 2015

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    I made a mistake I told myself I would never

    make, I let someone else be my happiness. Now I feel like my world is being torn apart. I had never believed in love, and I had emotionally accepted that I would be alone for the rest of my life. He was so different though. He didn't judge me for my acting out, he didn't...
    Unbloomed Unbloomed 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 2, 2015

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    You don't know pain until you are staring at

    yourself in the mirror with tears streaming down your face, and you're begging yourself to just hold on and be strong. That is pain.
    Ana104 Ana104 22-25, F 5 Responses Jul 24, 2015

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    Woke up this morning feeling

    so low. Feeling anxious and felt the rising panic inside. Wondering if I will ever know what it feels like to be loved and wanted by a Man. So tired of it always being one way. I give everything but it's never enough. Rejection always. So tired of it all.
    chrissie58 chrissie58 46-50, F 4 Responses Sep 23, 2014

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    Despite leaving my partner

    and safe haven, I am still trying to find a sense of normalcy for the little one. I brought him out to the carnival last night. But it feels like a struggle. With all the crowd and loud music, I just could not feel myself and needed to get out. I am also keeping a strong front...
    majesticsea majesticsea 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 1

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    Struggling, it makes you stronger

    than what you already are. Everyone has days, weeks and maybe even months of it. Where your heart thrashes against your rib age threatening to break free at any waking moment, your lungs not knowing how to expand anymore. Fragile bones, sleepless nights and lonely days. Pain is...
    fwxo fwxo 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 23, 2015

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    I just dont think I can do this any more.

    I keep on messing up and getting myself into bad situations even though I dont consider myself as being a bad person. Its almost as if my life is meant to be one screw up after another.
    Jacques137 Jacques137 26-30, M 1 Response Jan 10

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    This year has been full of

    so much. I will not be sad to see 2015 go. 2016 has got to bring something better because I cannot do another year like this.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 24, 2015

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    Lesson From Pfophet Job's(peace Be Upon Him) Struggle

    Those afflicted with calamities and distress should remember the story of Prophet Job (Qur’an calls him Aiyub). Ah! What a heart-melting story of pain and suffering, of patience and forbearance, of faith and gratitude, and ultimately of reward and success!   Prophet Job...
    sunshines333 sunshines333 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 20, 2012

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    today is the worst day of my life not counting

    extraordinary bad days like when someone dies. my phone is broken my computer is acting weird i have no food and i cant get out i dont have a car and my wheelchair has flat tire ( the second one in a month which might be fixed today i have had my medication changed and im only...
    luckylassie luckylassie 56-60, F 2 Responses Nov 3, 2015

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    My wife was emotionally cheating on me.

    When I called her on it she said she wanted a separation. After 15 years I was blindsided. I am so deeply hurt and I don't know what to do. She says she needs time to process to even decide what she wants to do about our marriage 😟
    toezoo toezoo 41-45, M Jan 6

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    ive been abused by a neighbor,

    and the manager doesnt give a living ****! Im struggling each day and idk how long this will be going on until I am able to find some other place to live!
    noaht43 noaht43 41-45, T 1 Response Dec 24, 2015

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    Right now I'm missing someone

    so much I can literally feel all the pain and heartbreak in my entire body... Wish I could stop feeling !
    Sadeyes69 Sadeyes69 46-50, F 1 Response Jan 11

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    I am trying to get better

    but things keep triggering me. People that i loath trigger me. I am too weak to stay here but everything i have is here. How can i walk away? I wish i could just be strong and not let this superficial dumb **** get to me. My options are to leave or continue to let this happened...
    artsydarling artsydarling 18-21, F Nov 15, 2015

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    Why do I let ppl treat me the way they do smh I

    guess it's just the low *** self esteem I have or obscurities and no strength idk but all I do know is I need a Big change and I want to Speak up and not be afraid of feeling what I say to others when it's true. Someone help me out message me or write me plz.
    smileylove91212 smileylove91212 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 14, 2015

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    Every day is another fake laugh

    or another fake smile. I'm so tired of it. All i want to do is cry and say how i'm feeling. But i know i cant, because nobody will care. Because they'll just think im a freak. I dont know how much longer i can keep faking hapiness...
    ItsPriscila ItsPriscila 16-17, F 5 Responses Jan 21, 2014

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    I told my boyfriend I was sxually assualted in

    town, he didn't believe me. Split up with me. How can a person be so cruel
    kazzyp kazzyp 46-50, F 11 Responses Dec 24, 2015

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    anasteel2 anasteel2 41-45, F 6 Responses Aug 18, 2014

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    I wake up sad daily .

    .. I am in a sexless marriage I am now in my 40's I want to feel pretty again . I want a man to crave me I have so much to offer
    likemeforwhoiam likemeforwhoiam 41-45, F 6 Responses Mar 1, 2014

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    The truth of my reality appears to be some fine

    concocted fata morgana of splendour that makes the facade of my flesh rage. Depositing shadows upon my deteriorating adode of torment, while my unknowing soul disentigrate And the spirit quietly dissipate into the forgotten memory of somber tales and the occasional thought of...
    LadyGallivanter LadyGallivanter 41-45 4 Responses Oct 4, 2015

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    I'm definitely more stoic

    than I give myself credit for, which I've alluded to in quite a few of my stories, but I can't help but feel that eventually I'll give up completely and I'll lose the will needed to keep myself together, I can't keep faking and pretending everything is okay forever, I need...
    theotherusernamesweretaken theotherusernamesweretaken 26-30, M Nov 12, 2015

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    I'm too heart broken

    and lost that it's nearly impossible to keep it together
    koalat12 koalat12 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 30, 2015

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    hello depression my old friend.

    Do you want to know what the voices are telling me now. I can't explain but they are very helpfull. my heart wanted to shot a gun at his head. he was stolen and he was broken. I had to find him and pick the pieces up glue him together. he healed but the scars are still...
    LoneWarrior94 LoneWarrior94 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 14, 2015

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    My Husaband Acts Like A 2 Years Old

    I am just so tired of his logic,When I told him he should stop driving so fast, and look at the speed limits. he said that I should trust him, and I insulted him! and I should know that he doesn't mean to kill us! I said accidents happen and we have the most road kills...
    LordVoldemort LordVoldemort 36-40, F 48 Responses Jan 25, 2010

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    thejabal thejabal 22-25, M Jan 30

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    savoy2 savoy2 46-50, M Nov 19, 2015

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    "Mauerbauertraurigkeit" n.

    the inexplicable urge to push people away, even close friends who you really like—as if all your social tastebuds suddenly went numb, leaving you unable to distinguish cheap politeness from the taste of genuine affection, unable to recognize its rich and ambiguous flavors, its...
    moonii moonii 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 6, 2015

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    Going through burnout mostly in my career,

    depression and trying to keep my marriage together. The days feel heavy. Difficult to get through. I keep dreaming I'll wake up and be me again. I'll be bubbly and happy. Sometimes I just wish the water rushing over me will wash me away, and my soul will rise. I wonder if I just...
    Tabbycatso Tabbycatso 26-30 1 Response Nov 12, 2015

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    Why Can't It Be Seen Easy.......

    I was told by a few friends that I am in my element when I talk about work and that I need to put that into my personal life.....  Problem is that in my life things aren't cut and dry like they are the machines. I love to work on a machine it is clear and it is supposed...
    mtvlm mtvlm 41-45, M 18 Responses Dec 9, 2009

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    I want to be strong. Faking

    that everything is ok is not easy. My husband left me and I am totatlly lost without him. Only 2 people know. Family doesnt know, work doesnt know. I am falling apart every night. To wake up and bury all my feelings. Cant show what I feel.
    Neverthesamegirl Neverthesamegirl 31-35, F 4 Responses Nov 4, 2015

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    I am trying my hardest not to fall apart

    and break. Music can help, but not always what I need. If anyone else is going through this or can help me. I'd really appreciate the support. Love is the main point :(..
    M1TCH94 M1TCH94 18-21, M 2 Responses May 31, 2015

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    I have this constant fear of failing.

    Am always afraid of not being enough. I have gotten used to my awkwardness but I hate how it affects the people around me. My family gives me nothing but love and support but I still feel so lonely and hide away in myself. I see the hurt in their eyes when I stay by myself. I...
    Radiance25 Radiance25 22-25, F Nov 4, 2015

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    My grades are suffering

    because I'm always a mess. I don't understand my emotions and I don't know how to control them. I don't understand how other people feel either. People at school make fun of me but I overreact and every little thing makes me cry. Even my friends when they are just joking around...
    pizzafacedfag pizzafacedfag 16-17, M 1 Response Dec 15, 2015

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    The same boiling water

    that softens the potato hardens the egg. It's about what your made of, not the circumstances.
    asad005 asad005 26-30, M Aug 27, 2015

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    I have never been a normal kid,

    and high school is ripping the very fabric that holds my sad excuse for a life together to shreds. My awkwardness, inability to socialize, and confused sexuality are making me a prime target for bullying. My family isn't the most stable. I don't have many friends and I'm not...
    pizzafacedfag pizzafacedfag 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 9, 2014

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    I just got the news my husband's cousin has

    passed away due to a heart attack.He was younger than me.His parents are there.My prayers for them and his wife and sister.
    whitesunshine87 whitesunshine87 51-55, F 9 Responses Dec 26, 2015

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    savoy2 savoy2 46-50, M Nov 18, 2015

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    I'm so close to just falling apart.

    This is the 8th day of my near mental breakdown state. Oh god I'm so alone.
    Radomguy1000 Radomguy1000 22-25, M 1 Response Nov 4, 2015

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    I feel like I'm following apart.

    But I don't like worrying people about my problems. So I go to my room put my earphones in my ear and just listen to music and write poems.
    Shadowslivin Shadowslivin 16-17, F Dec 15, 2015

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    Went to the doctor last week

    and he sewed me up with stitches. So far they're holding.
    savoy2 savoy2 46-50, M 1 Response Jan 9

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    I'm afraid I'm failing to keep myself together

    too. Lately I've only been declining towards the endless spiral-the one that guarantees no return. And worst of all people are noticing. I'm "slacking off" even when I'm trying my hardest. And I don't know what to do.
    mirrorimage99 mirrorimage99 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 25, 2015

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    they say, how can you hate yourself

    so much when they barely even know me and whisper , you are too young to be so sad when they read my writing and when i cannot bring myself to attend their parties, they laugh, why are you always tired but if they spent two minutes inside of my head, they would realize...
    ProfessorPsycho ProfessorPsycho 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 4, 2014

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    I really am I am falling apart

    as the minutes pass. I am aching from head to toe I can't sleep or eat I'm not living any more just simply existing. I'm sick of feeling this way I would give anything just to be able to stop crying for for a day and just feel average or normal or just to feel happiness or to...
    milichja milichja 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 4, 2014

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