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I Am Struggling With Being Gay

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    The stupidest girl in the world asked me "if

    being gay is so hard why don't you just be straight?" If only it was that easy!!!!
    Zaqhary Zaqhary 16-17, M 2 Responses Dec 1, 2013

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    Mom.

    I've tried to tell mom that I'M gay a couple of times before and (if you read my first story you know how that ended) it was so bad... So now I'M here... Three years after all that **** happened and we "Moved on"... My mom talks to me about girls... just to know if im dating...
    josean03 josean03 18-21, M 6 Responses Nov 14, 2013

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    I am falling for a guy I met over a cam site,

    i think he's really genuine... I don't think that he's just amusing me... He lives a short plane ride away and i don't even know if he likes me like that or just leading me on... Is it stupid that I'm falling for this guy?
    RecycledEmotions RecycledEmotions 18-21, M 3 Responses Jun 30

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    I need help. I'm a guy.

    I remember being attracted to girls when I was really young, but by the time I was in 5th grade I thought I was gay/bi. I haven't had any attractions to girls in years and only am attracted to guys, but I still can't accept that I'm gay. About two years ago, my brother came...
    keembar keembar 16-17, M 3 Responses May 25

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    I now understand the saying 'The Struggle Is

    Real' but for different reasons. I thought people would just suck it up by now, but I was soo wrong.
    MixedJayy MixedJayy 16-17, F Apr 18

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    I am struggling to be

    who i am. I even hate myself for just being who i am. And it keeps killing me from inside that i sometimes brusted into tears or couldnt breath when i had to pretend that i am not gay. I just wanted to find someone to talk...
    stableanchor stableanchor 18-21 2 Responses Jun 16

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    Gay In Yemen

    This is a summary of my life till now, and almost every gay person who is living in one of the 7 countries which denies gay rights and perform death penalty on those who have sexual gay relations has the same life or maybe worse because of that: I am a gay Muslim, living and...
    yemengay yemengay 22-25, M 8 Responses May 16, 2013

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    Looking for a guy near Salina Kansas I'm 17.

    Don't bother messaging if your far away it's pointless Kick me: ryanboy1996
    rchris96 rchris96 16-17, M Apr 18

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    My family still wishing

    that I am dating girl but I am not attractive to them I just wish they understand and we are a Christian family. I am gay and a Christian but I didn't chose to be like this I had fought it for so long and it been 3 year since I accepted who I am I been more happier but wish they...
    rukateria rukateria 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 14

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    I really need your help/opinions.

    I'm 17 and I hate labels cause then people will judge you but I wanted to ask what you think: am I gay or bi? I'm pretty sure I'm bi but maybe I'm just scared of being full out gay. So I'm friends with lots of girls and I always have feelings for them at first then it goes away...
    rchris96 rchris96 16-17, M 6 Responses Jun 15

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    It's Hell Of A Fight

    It's hell of a fight. Being gay isn't easy these days. Have people around who supports you and accept you for who you are, are hard to find. Most of people rather go with crowd. I haven't told anyone yet about myself. I'm just not ready them to know. But my family is complicated...
    what23 what23 18-21, M 3 Responses Dec 29, 2012

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    My Struggle With Being A Lesbian....

    I figured out that I was 'different' when I was just 9 years old. I would notice cute girls in the class and try to get their attention. When I grew a little older, I would flirt with them. I thought these feelings would go away. I thought I would be a "normal" person when I grow...
    sri1990 sri1990 22-25, F 5 Responses Sep 24, 2012

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    I've started dating this guy about a week ago.

    I think it's safe to say, there is a real connection here and it's obvious we can't get enough of each other. We chat on Facebook every day and we see each other every chance we get, which is pretty much every day. We're crazy about each other and in contrast with my past...
    funereal1134 funereal1134 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 11

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    Just a sweet outgoing sissy boy bottom needs a

    Masculine TOP Man to treat me like the princess and I dream of being a housewife!
    FemGayBottom FemGayBottom 26-30, T 1 Response Apr 3

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    If I was straight I would never have to worry

    about hiding my sexuality. If I was Straight I would never have to go through the pain of coming out after 18 years. I wouldn't have family members calling me and tell me that I'm an embarrassment and the way I am is wrong. If I was straight I would be able to fall in love and...
    Fixedkid Fixedkid 18-21 7 Responses Dec 24, 2013

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    I don't understand today how being gay is truly

    accepted. Today the most acceptance is "I'm okay with yo being gay" or "I'm happy for you." True acceptance would be "so?" Only then is it truly acceptance. Because then being gay isn't different or weird. It's nothing different. It's just normal. It's insignificant.
    WrongfulAngel WrongfulAngel 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 21

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    2013

    It has been a long time since the last time a shared a “story”, Yet, so many things have happened in my life (mostly good), that I have decided to once more sit down and share. Truly 2012 was a blessed year for me. I had my social “coming-out” as a gay man…and to be...
    Ralphsnt69 Ralphsnt69 46-50, M 9 Responses Jan 19, 2013

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    I used to get bullied

    when I was in 6 grade because I like guys and I found out i was gay because my friend would see a guy and I'd just say "oh he's cute".... But then I kissed this guy names jack lolan and the whole rumor about the kiss happening in the locker room was all over the school but I was...
    greatbabelover greatbabelover 13-15, M 4 Responses May 7

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    It's amazing how we can work up anxieties in

    our head with auto-self-discouragements and a lively imagination of the world coming to an end. Then five minutes passed, and you survived whatever you felt earlier. Monday right. Jessica Alba once said "Just be confident, even if you have no idea what're you're saying." She...
    rowrowrowthe rowrowrowthe 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 13

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    It's a process that everyone goes through

    if you lucky you accept it before you're 25, if your unlucky you'll go crazy at 45 when you have a wife and kids and wish you didn't waste all that time!! COME TO THE DARK SIDE - we have cookies! - message me if you want to talk guys. Zack 21 london.
    zacklengthorn zacklengthorn 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 16

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    The first time I knew I was gay was the age of

    11. The second I realised it I ran to my room and started crying until my eyes hurt, I remember this day so clearly because it was also the day I realised my father would never be able to accept it. As I was sobbing on my by bed my father came into my room and grabbed me by the...
    Takino Takino 16-17, M 5 Responses Apr 11

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    What's a Guy to Do?

    Okay, Im sitting here writing this at 2:00AM. Im Pretty much loosing sleep over the fact that im Gay. Just seeing those three little letters on my computer screen is causing me discomfort. Im hoping that I can at least get some support or ideas on this site. Im still "...
    gallagher22 gallagher22 22-25, M 26 Responses Jan 6, 2009

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    Life Is Weird

    Ok so I'm 18 and have been out to only my bf who is a girl and she is pretty gay friendly but yet again she was shocked and couldn't believe that I was gay. I know we all got issues in life, but sometimes I seriously wonder why was I randomly chosen to live the life a gay person...
    GG1234 GG1234 18-21, M 9 Responses Jan 26, 2011

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    Yeah I am because I can be openly gay with my

    best friends but when it comes to my parents well I'm being careful because if I'm not careful I'm going to exposed. My big sister knows because she too is bi-sexual, but my little brother well I told him that I'm bi-sexual then he goes around shouting, "She's a tomboy!" And I...
    thewretchedangel thewretchedangel 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 3

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    Confused And Sick To My Stomach

    Okay. So I will try to type this is a proper and understandable way. I have come out to my mom, sister, and brother. They are all supportive. But here's my issue. My mom has recently started joking about me marrying and having a nice husband whatever and it makes me feel sick to...
    TheMNDreamer2013 TheMNDreamer2013 18-21, M 3 Responses Jul 22, 2013

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    I'm scared of being gay.

    I more scared of not finding anyone who is attracted to me. I need someone who will give me an honest opinion on my looks. I don't have to be your type, I just need to know where I should set my standards when looking for someone... If you can be honest and tell me how I look...
    Jbsc21 Jbsc21 22-25, M 2 Responses Apr 4

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    I'm Gay And I Hate It!

    I'm a 25 years old gay guy. My first fantasy about males that I could remember was when I was about 9 years old, and my first sexual experience with a boy when I was 15 years old. I don't really know WHY I'm gay! Why I like guys and don't like girls? I have every right to know...
    sadness707 sadness707 22-25, M 30 Responses Nov 13, 2011

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    Contrary to the normal story,

    I didn't know that I was gay until a few years ago. I'm sure that I liked girls, but maybe I didn't really I don't know. In my family, there has always been family issues. My mom and dad divorced then both married again then both couples divorced and now both parents are married...
    chandlerjames98 chandlerjames98 13-15, M 4 Responses Jan 19

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    I'm struggling about my sexuality.

    ... Is there anyone who can help me out from this plzzzzzzzzz
    jkmkjk jkmkjk 22-25 1 Response Feb 23

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    Whole and Broken...It has been close to four

    years since i joined EP. It was such a relief to find this site since writing about my true feelings on myself being gay was the very first step i did in coming to terms with myself.  I have made great friends here who understand what it is i am going through.  Although i...
    vers vers 31-35, M 2 Responses Dec 30, 2013

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    He keeps asking for **** pics.

    I like this guy (but i hate that i like him). He keeps asking for **** pics and offers to show me his... I feel the gay scene is becoming increasingly sexualised and i dont know if its for me
    RecycledEmotions RecycledEmotions 18-21, M 3 Responses May 27

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    So Hard.

    It would be so much easier if I wasn't gay.
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jul 23, 2013

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    Dealing With Coming Out To Myself And Being LDS (Mormon).

    Over the past ten years or so, I have tried dating a great deal with women. My faith, Mormonism or LDS, emphasizes the need to marry and have children. I have always wanted children. Plus, I do find women to be beautiful to look at, however, they do not excite or arouse me...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Mar 18, 2013

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    Gay, Celibate, Christian Just Wanting To Find That Someone To Hold At Night

    I was raised in a Christian home, by two parents that were present in my life, and have been married for 20 years now and are very happy. I have never seen them fight once. I have a half-brother that is 5 years older than me, and we don't get along and never have. I have a step...
    jennings2012 jennings2012 18-21, M 23 Responses Aug 9, 2012

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    I know i am gay but i am just

    so scared to come out. I am afraid people around me will treat me differently. I have been around straight guys and i know how they make fun and ridicule gay people. I don't want to be treated that way. But i feel so lonely being in the closet and i felt i am wasting my time...
    davidnathan davidnathan 26-30, M 4 Responses Dec 5, 2013

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    Christian Guy Struggling

    Hello, I am a Christian male (30 years old) struggling with my sexual orientation.  I'm involved in church, ministry, and even go to seminary.  I've been struggling with being gay for years.  I've had a few people, including mom, who said I need to embrace who God created me...
    ARhodes09 ARhodes09 26-30, M 15 Responses Feb 21, 2012

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    Don't Waste Your Life

    Being sexually attracted to men has been around longer than the bible and has been part of mankind since the being. Life is short. Live life to the fullest. Don't wait until you're older and regret wasting your youth. It is easier said than done, I realize that. But there is...
    soburied soburied 51-55, M 3 Responses Sep 21, 2013

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    dmedina513 dmedina513 36-40, M Mar 16

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    I battle with the homosexual spirit.

    ... I want a family a wife and kids..... I love God and my savior Jesus Christ... I know the homosexual life style is wrong.... But I don't understand why I have to deal with this.... This is something that I have prayed and cried about and have asked God not to let me give in...
    Tired23 Tired23 22-25, M 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    Old Bent And Queer

    There is a lot of talent up town for the festival. All these fit dudes  in their twenties.Its depressing. Young enough to be my offspring and the parents of my grandchildren. Handy trick if you're gay. Two generations deserves an award. Or disqualification. Life just has a laugh...
    Pa1nsMcmurdo Pa1nsMcmurdo 41-45, M 4 Responses Sep 14, 2012

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    The Tough Guy.

    I was that guy. The one trying to be tough, trying to be anything but gay. I knew 100 slandering gay jokes, called every "weak" person a *** or a c0ck sucker. It was so intentional that I must have been hiding from my self. I was hiding. These days I am still hiding but at least...
    adamrising adamrising 41-45, M 3 Responses Mar 11, 2013

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    I Am a Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual But No One Can Know.

    For those who feel like they are uncool, no one knows them and they're just not one of the popular kids, I feel for you but then again I would rather put myself in your shoes than to live a life that I have right now where everyone surrounds me expect something of me or even look...
    confusion confusion 26-30, F 18 Responses Oct 3, 2007

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    I just had my first experience

    and it was with a man.
    Tom1429 Tom1429 31-35, M 5 Responses Apr 6

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    Small Town, Nothing In Common.

    All the gay guys at my high school well you can tell they are gay. I dont understand it. How come im gay but i dont even act it? I im glad i dont but I wish there were just more people like me where I live. If I said Im gay they wouldnt think that Im just a regular guy they would...
    tomtombear tomtombear 18-21, M 29 Responses Dec 2, 2008

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    A lot of people call me gay.

    I haven't come out of the closet. I just blow it off. And my friends stick up for me and tell people I'm not gay. It kills me that my friends don't know I'm gay but I can't come out of the closet.
    Zaqhary Zaqhary 16-17, M 3 Responses Nov 29, 2013

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    Most religious groups are against gay marriage

    (I said most not all) I remember in high school one of my Christian friends fell out with me because I was gay and called it disgusting we got into an argument where I simply said " doesn't the bible say love thy neighbour... Well what if your neighbours gay?" To which she had...
    ElizaChloe ElizaChloe 18-21, F 5 Responses Jun 30

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    I Blame You !

    Well my story is going to be long but it's not going to be dull i can assure you ! It all started when i was little i had friend who was my neighbour and we were like 6-7 , and he always wanted to touch me and experiment with me. I didn't seem to mind cause i didn't had anything...
    stormy366 stormy366 18-21, M 6 Responses Oct 29, 2011

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    I wish I could just like women

    and be normal. Liking guys has taken me to the lowest point of my life
    lostsoul9011 lostsoul9011 22-25, M 4 Responses Mar 10

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    How U Know If Ur Really Gay?

    i'm 14, and don't really like girls in that way and been thinking i may be gay because i like hanging out with guys and wrestling and horsing around would like the mess around with another boy, but i am scared about being gay because i live in conservative area and parents are...
    DaytonW14 DaytonW14 13-15, M 11 Responses Aug 20, 2012

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    I AM HIV+…AND I HAVE FOUND LOVE…ON EP!

    ! The last story I had shared was one in which I had posed a question…at what point in a relationship does sex become secondary? That was back in October. I had been in a relationship since the previous May with a kind hearted man who was good to me. I had originally been...
    Ralphsnt69 Ralphsnt69 46-50, M 1 Response May 2

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    I just told my dad I'm gay

    and he won't talk to me now. I'm 17 from Florida and want a boy to have a relationship with
    camjames9876 camjames9876 16-17, M 5 Responses Apr 18

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    Unhappy

    Honestly? I don't want to be gay. It's depressing. I've always avoided other women because they seem petty and shallow. But on the rare occasion a make a friend(guy) he ends up wanting only one thing. So now I'm stuck and unhappy.
    Deadb4dying Deadb4dying 18-21 3 Responses Oct 8, 2013

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    I'm really tired so this won't be long,

    just gonna describe my problems I have with being gay. I was so worried about my sexuality I've cut twice and each time it was only a little. But I lost my lil pocketknife so I can't anymore. But now it's been a couple months and it feels better to have stopped. It's because...
    lionblaze111 lionblaze111 13-15, M 2 Responses Feb 16

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