I Am Struggling With The Urge Of Wanting To Hurt Myself

I've tried so many times to stop cutting but I can't. I want to, but I can't do it. I love the feel of a blade slicing through my skin. One of the few things that makes me happy. So yeah I cut. I wanna stop but I won't.

i feel like i deserve it when i hit myself. i feel like after biting the inside of my mouth or stubbing my toe or something self-injurious like that

Look, nothing is unintentional. People chew the inside of their mouth or hurt their...

Don’t freak, it was like 2 weeks ago... probably shortly after I wrote that last posting in here. If you know my stories you'd know I have a lot going on. Not that everybody doesn’t in theory... BUT well..... the things I have...

My boyfriend is mad at me when i give into it.. but i don't know what to tell him sometimes.. Because it's so hard not to and when i give into it he thinks im weak and i dont want him to be upset.. but sometimes it's voice is bigger...

i am on these new meds but they don't seem to be helping. i actually took my favorite knife and cut myself with it, but because the blade was dull it didn't even break the skin. so much for that.

I was discovered, and everybody already had noticed it. And still, I had to bear fucking indirect and malicious comments, as if I was a fucking hooker. They know it: I have a crush on that fucker. Because I, unconsciously, stare back to...

I think of dying everyday.......I have 3 reasons that keep me breathing today and that is my children......without them I dont know where I would be........now my husband is trying to take my babies away from me....omg if that happens I...

On days like today, when I lie in bed for hours, not eating, unwashed and lethargic, seething with anger and disgust toward myself, my fingernails are my only weapon.
I drag shallow red scratch marks across my breasts and stomach, as...

I asked my mom a hypothetical question last night and she about flipped. I asked her what she would say if I started cutting. She said "If youre going to do that, you can go a mile up the road. I will not have a self-mutilator living...

i think that most people who hurt themselves do so because they know they will have consequences if they hurt their abuser(s).

i wanted to punish my birth mother. But i knew she would be angry so i beat my own head instead. So did my...

its been over 4 years since i last cut. i wanted to see myself bleed. i needed to feel that there was someone called 'me' inside. it was a tough time...well it still is. it doesn't have anything to do w/ my husband or my 2 kids, just...

You know why people cut . . ? Because it is a distraction . For one moment , you don't feel all the pain , the loss , the hurt . All you feel is the razor going inside your skin . The blood dripping down your arm , leg , stomach . you...

i perfer a womens touch.well tonight ill work.but can u assist me

I haven't hurt myself in a couple of months. Thats a huge accomplishment for me. But as the days go on it seems to get harder to fight the urges to cut. Unfortunately this has been my life for 8 yrs.

If anyone is going through a...

On March 17th this was the day when I had called first call for help. I had told them that I was thinking about taking pills which was an impulse decision which I didn't act on and I also told them I had wanted to hurt myself so I was...

But I shouldnt. I feel like sometimes the only reason I dont is so I dont have to explain myself to others. I have been there. But I'd rather just be a recluse and live in solitude. I dont know how I am going to get through this next...

My health care team REFUSES to put up with it because they know for me, that the WORDS hurt MORE then actions' - I cannot always understand words' as well as actions' - so they confuse and HURT much deeper and more...

So when I really...

So just as I get out of the stage of hurting myself, I go and do it again.

This time I really did think I was stopping it and that I wouldn't resort to self harm, I guess that was pretty naive of me to think.

Im so out of control and...