I Am Struggling

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 172 People

    for years i learned how to hide everything in

    my heart, and now that i am ready to express and move on i still struggle to get the words out because the wall i built around me is way too high.. how can i break down this wall and let it all out
    22-25, F
    Jan 7, 2016

    I gave up on today's study.

    I spent literally two hours and a half two finish only two pages of study. It is when I realised, I am exhausting my brain and accomplishing nothing. Tomorrow is another day ..?
    MissGaga MissGaga
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Feb 4, 2015

    I have found becoming a step parent to be the

    hardest thing I have ever done. I try to connect with the kids but it's tough. You give to much they take advantage. Don't give enough they hate me. They live me they hate me. I don't know what's ok to do or say and what isn't. I have disconnected. It's now causing problems with...
    blended4us blended4us
    36-40, F
    1 Response Feb 5, 2014

    I am struggling with my mood swings.

    They're becoming more frequent and it feels so heavy. My body can't take it and my eyes are sore from the crying. I really need to get some help but I can't afford it. My school has free counseling but I would have to wait until late August when school starts back. That's too...
    Shygirl917 Shygirl917
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 18, 2015

    I try to keep going despite the near-constant

    sense of futility and impending doom, but obviously my heart's not totally in it.
    deleted deleted
    Sep 24, 2015

    I am 4 weeks post-op from my gastric bypass

    surgery and feel very frustrated on many levels. I cannot eat very much without feeling very full, which is ok and normal I know, but the emotional part is really bringing me down. I'm tired, achy, freezing cold constantly and just sick of food altogether. I feel like I'm in...
    dbra64 dbra64
    51-55, F
    Oct 13, 2014

    I have this voice in my head

    that constantly brings me down and convinces myself that I'm just not good enough. I'd love to know how people over come this. How do people ignore all the negative? I want to be like those people who battle their demons and come out of it confident and empowered and strong. I...
    LavenderDarling LavenderDarling
    26-30, F
    1 Response Nov 28, 2015

    Life In General

    My life in general is one long struggle. I'm trying to find a home for me and my little boy, have no money to my name and hardly any furniture to put in that home when I get one as Ive not long left a women's refuge escaping from an alcoholic partner.
    roonr roonr
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Jan 9, 2009


    I am not really sure of why, but I am struggling so much at the minute. I feel as tthough I havee lost everything. The woman I love, my hoppes and dreams, my drive to keep pushing forward, it's like something has taken it all from me. I sit night after night thinking, as I can...
    simplynickstill simplynickstill
    36-40, M
    1 Response Dec 2, 2013

    My OM and I have very complicated schedules

    now making it very difficult to see each other as much:( We still text and talk daily...or as often as we can. He needs to be with his gf that he lives with on weekends b/c that's the only time they are both there...he works nights and she works days. Its hard for him to find...
    nitrolove nitrolove
    46-50, F
    Aug 9, 2014

    I don't know how to deal with this anymore.

    Every day is a struggle. One moment I'm sad, the next I'm angry, and the next I feel nothing - hate everyone, hate myself, disappear into emptiness. I think a lot about ending everything. I run the possibilities through my head, over and over again. How, when, where. I keep...
    LeBonBon LeBonBon
    26-30, F
    1 Response Nov 20, 2014
    Starkillera Starkillera
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 26, 2014

    "I am constipated. No,

    not 'constipated with love' (yes, there is such a thing) or 'constipated with stress', but truly constipated. Like bathroom constipated. Everyone I know has serious stuff to be worried about, like bullying, loneliness, or depression. Though mine isn't as 'i could really die' as...
    CoteofNewLondon CoteofNewLondon
    Aug 2, 2014

    I am struggling to let go of the abuse

    that was inflicted on me from my family and to stop living in the past. I am mean to my husband sometimes and I feel terrible that I am. I just want to be happy and I don't know what to do. I feel so lost.
    fearless1971 fearless1971
    46-50, F
    1 Response Sep 20, 2014

    I'm never the one to ask

    for help. I'm always the one to give it regardless of what situation or problem. I am now feeling lost, fed up and pretty alone.. Would just like a friend to be honest..
    Zestyginge Zestyginge
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Mar 17, 2014

    For one week now... I know

    that isn't long, but it feels like an eternity... I have struggled to remain optimistic, happy, hopeful AND to do my absolute best in all corners of my life on a daily basis. Mostly I have done well. Today my sweetheart was tense... Nothing to do with me, but I had to beat...
    OldNRusty OldNRusty
    41-45, M
    1 Response Jan 20, 2015

    Just having a slow decline in my mood lately.

    Not sure why, I'm still reading my devotionals & trying to apply them to my life. Speaking victory before I get out of bed, praising Jesus for my life. Position changes at work seem to be causing others to act cruelly. Extra hours there are taking their toll on me. I need a...
    lackluster40 lackluster40
    41-45, F
    1 Response Jan 10, 2015
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    2 Responses Apr 13, 2015

    ...to learn how to be a normal person.

    I was never properly socialized as a child. So now I have to do the whole trial and error thing to learn new methods of interaction. I wish I did this at a younger age. I'm incredibly intelligent, but my social ability and understanding of social interaction is terrible. I used...
    hohumm hohumm
    26-30, M
    Mar 18, 2015

    Some Days Are Harder Than Others

    I am struggling with so many things right now.   I am struggling with asthma, I am struggling to find a job where I fit in, I am struggling with my ex, I am struggling for understanding.    Some days it just doesn't seem worth it, but life is the struggle...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Apr 12, 2008

    I recently was diagnosed with personality

    disorder, anxiety and depression. On several different meds to try and help me get back to normality but after nearly 4 weeks im unsure of any changes. I struugle to take my meds, wondering if its worth it. But im sticking with it. Fighting my thoughts and feelings and sticking...
    massivetempah massivetempah
    31-35, M
    2 Responses May 3, 2014

    With Life And Living In General...

    It is just so hard to keep breathing. Home life, school life, I want to go to college yet at same time i have to stay timeĀ  i Know it isnt like i get to excape to some place far from homeĀ  where all the work would be so worth it because me and my family wouldnt fight no longer...
    sweetmusic2011 sweetmusic2011
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 19, 2011

    My relationship to my friend is destroying me.

    . Had been doing so well and today I've cut three times. I'm a mess. I don't have the strength to get myself together and keep going. I just moved back to uni and my life should be perfect. Instead I'm sitting in my flat, my stuff all over the place, crying with my blade in my...
    kakhi kakhi
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Sep 17, 2014

    It's Not All Bad News On the Eastern Front.

    I am struggling with money. I need more of it, and I'm making less now than I used to be, due to a recent job loss-situation. I'm trying to find a full time job to replace my two part time jobs that I had. I'd like to make $200 more each month than I need to live on, and...
    WTFits WTFits
    1 Response Apr 24, 2008

    Seeing Her With Another Guy

    Im really struggling at the moment. I've just recently broke up with my girlfriend, We were really gud mates for 3 1/2+ years and we've decided to stay living together cause we have different rooms. The break-up was really mutual so although its probibly the hardest thing i've...
    nobodyknowswho nobodyknowswho
    18-21, M
    1 Response Feb 27, 2009

    I am in a D/s relationship with an amazing guy!

    He is the only one I trust to guide me and control certain aspects of my life. I know that ultimately we want different things for the future. He is polyamorous and I am not so sure. Either He will want to end our relationship or He will want to have more than one. If He ends...
    GenuineGinger GenuineGinger
    26-30, F
    Oct 2, 2014
    dazedandconfused16 dazedandconfused16
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 1, 2015

    I've been up I've been down I've been low low

    low I keep putting one foot in front of the other But today I can't step forward Today I fall to the floor Because that one step forward is just leaving him too far behind He's too far behind I look back and I can't see him anymore So I fall here to the floor
    LavenderDarling LavenderDarling
    26-30, F
    Dec 19, 2015

    Must I live? I know I can.

    People say I have to. Live. Really, I'm trying, but actually, I'm jogging, not running. Because I don't know where I'm going.
    SuicideMind SuicideMind
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Oct 21, 2015

    Ever since I had my daughter,

    things have been rough. I have been trying to make any income by working from home but I never seem to make enough to help. My husband works full time plus some at 7-11 but after all the taxes and such its just not cutting it. We're already losing our Internet and phones, and...
    fightingformylove fightingformylove
    26-30, F
    Jul 15, 2015

    lately I don't even know how to put my thoughts

    into words. people ask me what's wrong or why I'm upset, but I have no answer.. I just say nothing. I don't know what's bothering me, I just fee alone. I feel empty but with so much inside.. I cry and cry and my thoughts remain attacking me slowly.. killing me. destroying me...
    Juliannaa Juliannaa
    18-21, F
    Jun 25, 2014

    I've recently been prescribed to

    Anti-Depressants. My moods are EVERYWHERE and I want to kill myself! Anyone have advice for me??
    Kar197 Kar197
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Sep 15, 2014

    Lost My Antidepressants

    I lost my antidepressants today and I rang up the doctors and can't have an appointment until Friday! How am I going to cope without them until then, I depend on them! I need them in order to get through the day without many downers. People don't understand how much I depend on...
    Charlotte94 Charlotte94
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 23, 2013

    Im Strggling

    my life has been so crazy lately, but no-one cares to see. i get so lonely sometimes, no-one here to talk to, but yet i like being myself, everyone wants me to be what they want... whats wrong with me.. cant they see, I'm just me, i just need someone there to say hey...
    razdaz1 razdaz1
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Sep 11, 2009

    I had an affair with a MM I worked with.

    This is beyond anything I ever dreamed I'd be apart of....not me at all. It only lasted a few weeks....we were only alone a few times but those times were the most magical of my entire life. I feel like I finally woke up. We connected so intensely. No one understood me like...
    deleted deleted
    Jun 23, 2015
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