I Am Stuck In a Rut

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 297 People

    Confused Love

    I been off and on with a friend and fellow musician, sex is amassing and cool we can talk about things. I decided to see a firefighter who I met thru friends everything is great but tells me that I better not get attached. I am not sure what to do. I have feeling for both. So...
    hrodriguez9009 hrodriguez9009
    22-25, F
    Nov 19, 2013

    I'm new here, and these past two years are

    mainly why I signed up. I just want it to be next August already!!!
    KaeRuns KaeRuns
    18-21, F
    Sep 24, 2014

    I want so much more than this life of morbid

    self depreacation... i feel like a corpus of my former self...rotting away..sluggish..moving throu this world in a state of unliving...i feel the pieces of myself fall way..to decay..but they say through death comes life...on top of every grave the grass grows greener...
    BlueRoses1613 BlueRoses1613
    26-30, F
    1 Response Feb 1, 2014
    bsa152 bsa152
    18-21, M
    1 Response Sep 30, 2014

    My Rut

    I really dont know where to start with my story. currently I am in a relationship with a guy who takes really good care of me but will not let me breathe. He is always wanting to go and if I do go somewhere without him he constantly calls. He is a good guy though. but that is...
    wvicky96 wvicky96
    36-40
    Apr 28, 2011

    Getting Out of the Rut

    All I had to do was read my entry the next day; that made me want to change right then and there. Looking at yourself from the outside really helps. I wanted to be stronger than that and know I can. So I did. I've been feeling so much more optimistic since this site and wow, I'm...
    aquasky aquasky
    46-50
    1 Response Aug 11, 2009

    Stuck In A Groove

    The Rut ________ It is so easy to fall into. It keeps calling. Come home. Come home. Stay close. Stay warm. But I won't fall back in. I will rise above. I will. I will. I will. :)
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    13 Responses Jun 8, 2013

    I feel like I never move forward anymore.

    I always do this. I move forward really well for a long time then I just freeze somewhere. I have a good job but there's no way it will ever completely support myself and my kids. I want to be a writer but I'm so afraid of failure that it's taking me forever to write my first...
    emgrimm2011 emgrimm2011
    26-30, F
    Oct 30, 2014

    I reorganized my room yesterday.

    I probably do this more often than most people, but when I start to feel like I need a change I move everything around in my room. But nothing feels different this time.
    chels32 chels32
    22-25, F
    Jul 16, 2014

    Going Nowhere With My Job, Life, Everything

    Today am feeling fried,  totally sexually starved so my brain is fixated southwards looking for some salvation.  At the same time my brain is required to focus on tasks assigned to me.  I am employed as a Programme Officer -Training, yet I feel that this is not...
    LifesaBeach69 LifesaBeach69
    31-35
    2 Responses Jul 29, 2009
    thewalkingcello thewalkingcello
    18-21, F
    Mar 24

    No Idea

    I am second guessing all of my decisions and realizing I don't know what I want. I dont know if I chose the right profesion and I feel as if I'm doing something wrong when it comes to relationships. I've been rethinking friends and examining my relationship with my family. I feel...
    Westwoodseast Westwoodseast
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Sep 7, 2011

    Following My Dreams

    Things are harder these days, I feel overwhelmed at times. I'm waiting for it all to turn for the better. It seems so long since I could be carefree. Seems like quicksand.
    okay10 okay10
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Dec 24, 2011
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Mar 27

    It's Tough Getting Motivated and Inspired.

    Thinking about writing this, I seem to answer all my questions. I'll write then erase because I know the reason why. So, if I know why I'm not motivated, what in the world do I do to change it. I don't want to get up in the morning because; oh, how depressing it is having to face...
    aquasky aquasky
    46-50
    2 Responses Aug 5, 2009

    Too Many Changes

    I want to be surrounded by good people. I'm trying to get to know people and getting hurt. I just want to wake up happy tomorrow ill start with that. I can only change my own actions. Good times will come around again.
    okay10 okay10
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Sep 7, 2011

    Every Week Is the Same For Me Right Now

    Unless I am here on EP there is nothing that is changing about my life right now.   My mission in life is to find a job which means I spend most of my day filling out the same information over and over on different applications.  I have no real power on being hired...
    denverguy denverguy
    36-40, M
    3 Responses Jul 9, 2009

    I have been working on an associates degree

    for 6 years! One minute I want to say **** it and go to art school. The next minute, I want to finish my degree in psychology. Sometimes I even think about pursuing something more practical, like marketing or advertising. How do you chose only one passion and then stick with...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Dec 3, 2014

    Where Do I Go From Here?

    Hello, my name is Andrew and i have lived on a ranch in the middle of owhere with my family for years. I have only left to train in electrical and security for six months each. But my family sold all there vehicals and i am stuck with no job and no mode of transport miles from...
    Cid123 Cid123
    26-30, M
    Aug 10, 2013

    Stuck In a Relationship Rut

    I think I've just realized that I'm stuck in the rut of my marriage.  It's been dawning on me slowly, slowly, and I've been running from really facing this.  It's really hard to admit it to myself. I tell myself I need to fight to keep my marriage alive. ...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Mar 25, 2009

    I Don't Know

    I don't know what I need to be happy, and I want to cos I've been depressed for too long and I hate it. I wake up feeling empty & bleak & I wanna stop taking my depression pills, cos I feel like its a drain on my income, if its not making me feel any different. I used to think I...
    beloe beloe
    22-25, M
    1 Response Mar 6, 2012

    Within Limits

    I can't separate him from my thoughts. It just one of those things I refuse to give up on. I don't know him but I feel connected somehow. He's practically a stranger to me. And it feels even harder because he lives right across the street. What a coincidence that I have a great...
    MeridianSplendor MeridianSplendor
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 27, 2008

    ...

    Every time I try to pull away, you reel me in like I’m the fish and you’re the one with the net. I don't know if I want to write any more than that. That's it really.
    Pretzel Pretzel
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 7, 2008

    There's Nothing Even Really Wrong.

        i am fed and loved and have my very own bed to sleep in. i even have two funny little cats.  but every day i wake up from black dreams and the covers pin me down.  if the sky is gray, i use it as an excuse. if the sky is blue, i resent it.  when i...
    littlelou2 littlelou2
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Nov 10, 2009

    Stuck In a Stupid Cycle

    Its this stupid cycle im stuck in. I get up go to work come home eat and sleep. wake up get dreesed and back to work. Then on my days off I do nothing. I sit at home alone playing on the computer or I just get in my car and drive around. I Want some excitment in my life anything...
    rfsfbb rfsfbb
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Feb 25, 2008

    Stain

    My friends are all either in long term relationships, or at the least steady ones. The only girls I have any regular contact with at the moment are 2 messenger buddies & one recently had a kid so I understand she's stretched thin. Kinda lonely
    beloe beloe
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Feb 7, 2012

    I Want You To Feel It

    So I have been working on my book, which is my life story. I am only 19 yet I have so much to share. I have come to the point where I dont know how to explain the feeling of what I experienced. I want the person reading to not only read about what happened, but also have a sense...
    imperfectbeauty imperfectbeauty
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 16, 2012

    I wanted to get out. Go far far away place,

    and start a new. Start a brand new me. And not anymore depend on people who just sucks the energy out of me.
    yayepisoverimsad yayepisoverimsad
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 9, 2015

    How We Get Into A Rut In The First Place - And Keys To Getting Out!

    I find that I can go down that slippery slope of getting into a rut when I fail to stick to a routine and fall out of healthy habits. I work from home. If I don't follow a good routine (wake-up, exercise, eat a healthy breakfast, identify and/or review my priorities for the day...
    Beatrices Beatrices
    46-50, F
    Sep 15, 2010

    Ahhhhh!!!!! After everything

    that has happened I have let him back into my life as a friend. We talk / message at least 5 times a day and usually for more than an hour... It is all starting over again. How do i stop this!!!
    BlueRose77 BlueRose77
    36-40, F
    Dec 25, 2014

    That Was Then

    2012 has been a great year! I had a few trying years and this last year was spectacular. I got to see new places, there was plenty of work for me close by which is verry nice. I met a wonderful man who cares about me, he has changed my life in many ways. Most days I feel...
    okay10 okay10
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Dec 4, 2012

    Can't Seem To Move Forward

    Over 3 years ago I ended my relationship with my children's father thinking he was holding me back from being the person I wanted to be. There was a period of time I knew that I would have to go through "just surviving" being a single mom of 2. Well mission accomplished, I have...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Oct 23, 2010

    so thing is my self destructive tendencies

    sometimes get the better of me. I have problems maintaining relationships cuz I've become a screw up due to a messed up past (which i wont mention in detail for now). My current boyfriend of two years has become cold as **** towards me because I used to end up letting him down...
    candy02 candy02
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 22, 2015

    I'm at an all time low with my motivation .

    .. I just want to lay in bed all day and do nothing ! I'm fed up of everyone and anything around me ... When people talk to me I just seem to get aggravated and walk away and when I'm happy it lasts like 30 minutes and it's usually when I'm high ... I'm fed up of everything ugh
    Liveandlovefree Liveandlovefree
    22-25, F
    1 Response Dec 3, 2013

    Im 24 and all my friends in high school ditched

    my side after going through a bad relationship. He was abusive and dedicated his life to ruin my rep when i left him. Ever since then(5 years ago) i have only met aquantices. I have dealt with social anexity my whole life but this made things worse. Im not sure how to even began...
    whoknowsIdk whoknowsIdk
    22-25
    1 Response Aug 16, 2014

    Jobs I've Had:---working With The Elderly---

    I am 21 years old. femaleJOB:Home instead Senior careJob title:CAREgiverJob descrition: Anything and everything, go to their home, cook, clean, feed, change depends or "diapers", medication reminders, errands, doctors appointments. keeping contact with their family, compamionship...
    heatherjodawn heatherjodawn
    18-21
    1 Response Jan 30, 2011

    Could Be Better

    I'm starting at a new college in 2 weeks & already I'm not looking forward to it cos I feel like I have nothing to gain. It was my bornday recently & most of my close friends forgot, people like my optometrist sent me a message over people I've known for 8 years. The new college...
    beloe beloe
    22-25, M
    Aug 4, 2011

    Loving Too Much

    being the other woman is not easy, especially when your married yourself. Feb of this year, I had a minor surgery that turned major. My surgeon, Jamie is everything that I have ever wanted out of a man. He's good looking, tall, smart, successfull and a UK cats fan. To make a long...
    lovetomuch lovetomuch
    31-35
    Aug 22, 2008

    Though, I'm Finaly Peeking Over the Edge.

    I've been stuck (and screaming) in this rut of mine for a long time, and quite frankly, it's depth has only increased as time passed. I was desperately clawing, trying everything I knew to find my way out - all to no avail, until the day I asked for help. Now, I'm taking...
    rockyj rockyj
    31-35, F
    Oct 27, 2008

    Nuclear Rut.

    Argh! The enormity of the annoyance that I feel apon myself is indescribable. I do nothing all day besides sleep at 3 in the morning after sitting online all day and then waking up 10-12 hours later. I don't even go out that often anymore because my friends are busy with their...
    imsohorridithurts imsohorridithurts
    18-21
    5 Responses Jan 5, 2011

    What is a rut?How do you explain the wall

    that a person hits, metaphorically, when they simply cannot progress forward in any significant way? Where is that exponential goal, shining like a beacon off in the distance? At what point does this path become easier to traverse and less of a hassle to trod? How do I move this...
    DreamOnFire DreamOnFire
    31-35, M
    Jun 13, 2015
    purpleiza purpleiza
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 24, 2015

    Feeling Stuck...

    It has been a rough few years of my life. Everytime I try to make a change somehow I get back in the same place! I lost my mom about 3 years ago, relationships don't work out. I got my master's degree and licensed in my field but this recession is holding...
    Ali1967 Ali1967
    41-45
    May 5, 2009

    By my own standards I consider myself a failure.

    I'm deeply unsatisfied with the current state of my life, and I can't imagine a way to change it. I'm in a rut I've dug for myself, and have no choice but to keep digging deeper. The only thing I'm competent at is drawing. Animation and illustration. But I've been unable to...
    ennuiocean ennuiocean
    31-35, M
    Oct 12, 2014

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    DeanMart1n DeanMart1n
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Apr 21
    Everything really does have an ending, huh? I think that it's a good thing EP is closing ever so soon. Sad? Why, Yes. Good? Absolutely. It's good that EP is ending. Why...
    musicvideographer musicvideographer
    31-35, M
    Apr 20
    I'm only in high school. I have an amazing girlfriend who honestly is the love of my life. (We are both the type of people who are that dedicated) She pulls me through a lot of...
    strugglingsam strugglingsam
    13-15, M
    Apr 20
    # 17. Hope. What a small word, yet the world spins around it. Every person lives with it. And me, I'm surely one of them. Here I am stuck with poor grades. Stuck with the...
    Abi936 Abi936
    22-25, M
    Apr 19
    Please keep reading to the end, there's more to it than the title. Met a guy on the cruise I just got back from today. I can't stop thinking about him. He sorta showed interest...
    CrazyMetalPunk CrazyMetalPunk
    13-15, F
    Apr 18
    ?? Fetty Wap- No Days Off ??
    Swagonfleek Swagonfleek
    16-17, F
    Apr 18
    Show me the sum of your parts, the layers and layers beneath the lie, the mayhem and madness behind the mask, every dark, ugly truth you conceal underneath that pretty, picture...
    Diablessse Diablessse
    46-50, F
    6 Responses Apr 17
    Hm Mm Hm Hm Pyaar Humko Bhi Hai, Pyaar Tumko Bhi Hai To Yeh Kya Silsile Ho Gaye Bewafa Hum Nahin, Bewafa Tum Nahin To Kyoon Itne Gile Ho Gaye Chalte Chalte Kaise Yeh Faasle Ho Gaye...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 17
    What would you say Dave Matthews Band
    orionloverr69 orionloverr69
    31-35, M
    Apr 17
    Yes! This is very true. I'd talk to lots of people already and it's the worst ever when they are like the stuck up strict soldier guard whatever. (I don't have anything against...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Apr 17
    A song for anyone with an overly strict and controlling mother and a father who's never home with work. https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=azANnKFaceY
    Letmebee Letmebee
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 17
    I was in a really ****** place as a teenager. Nerdy was in my genes. My brother and I were those 'child prodigies' who couldn't seem to connect with people. Fat was in my genes...
    MRalston MRalston
    18-21
    Apr 16
    Bound For Da Reload by Oxide and Neutrino. I like a bit UK Garage now and again.
    comfi comfi
    56-60, M
    1 Response Apr 16
    In few days this journey will come to end and i cant help myself than smile how my life is still standing still on the same point. Now also i have to be loud to speak my heart.No...
    trappedwings trappedwings
    26-30, F
    Apr 15
    "All those moments will be lost in time...like tears in the rain." Roy Batty/Rutger Hauer/Bladerunner
    savoy2 savoy2
    46-50, M
    Apr 15
    I am hanging in but am feeling really bad right now. I am paying dearly for what my family did to me. I am trying not to hate them. I am trying to forgive. I got turned down for a...
    321Peach 321Peach
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Apr 13
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