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I Am Suffering With Borderline Personality Disorder

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    I get contradicted. Told off. Criticised. Belittled and shouted at. He tells me I can't dress my self properly and that he's embarrassed to be seen with me. He tells me I'm a 'dud' girlfriend, and that I'm not like other females. He says I act like a child and that I suck all the...
    Waitingfornow Waitingfornow 22-25, F Jan 7, 2013

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    Okay so short and simple.

    I usually have no problem ending a relationship most of the time I caused chaos and then turn around on them so they feel like it's their fault or I leave them leave them before they leave me. This guy that I actually felt like I could love until I cheated on him multiple times...
    xoxoFireyIcexoxo xoxoFireyIcexoxo 26-30, F Jul 17

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    i feel like i dont wan to go on anymore

    everuday im sick and fricken tired of fighting this im not healthy my stupid pshe nurse changed my meds a while back and has left me crying everyday stupid jerk my life is a mess im so fat yet i get up everday is a battle i feel like i dont know what i beliee iwhat is wright or...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F Aug 30, 2014

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    Recent BPD Diagnosis

    I am currently living at home with my parents, struggling through each day of my life. I work at a gynecology office full-time, and I am no longer enrolled in school. I still struggle with eating disorder on a daily basis, but my self-destructive behaviors have morphed into other...
    lindseyymc lindseyymc 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 2, 2013

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    Caged. Heavy; light; pounding; relaxing;

    broken; glued. This is what goes on inside her head, because this is who she is; a girl diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. She never knows what to expect; never knows when a trigger is going to come, but when it does, it comes in at full swing. Trigger.... Result...
    danielle18 danielle18 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 9, 2014

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    I just recently found out I had this I knew

    something was wrong with me for quite awhile but I thought i was bipolar come to found out its my emotions i cant cotrol i go from sobbing in tears to pissed off there is no sad and mad it sucks i hate this i no longer have a family cause of this and almost lost my bf aswell...
    Alwaysandforever29 Alwaysandforever29 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    i dont know what to say im worn out

    and all i feel is pain im so depressed that i dont want o socialixw i cant even rember what i did a minute ago im so sick and fricken tired of this sick illness i think my sympmtons are getting worse i cant stop eating i just dont wan to go on anymore not fair its just not fair...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F Jul 23, 2014

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    needing to vent im feeling

    so fricken angry i wont open up im tired of the pain i cant cry desperate for love i keep looking for a home who knowmaybe i nned attention i feel illi dont know ifi want to go on anymoreim a fat ugly disgusting pig nothing helps whats the point im tired tired i feel nothing i...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F Sep 4, 2014

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    Who Am I?

    I am lost in my own mind, have been searching for me my whole life. I look in the mirror and see a person I don't know. She is a very beautiful ugly person is all I know. She has never been touched by a loving hand as she chose a man with no emotions. I have enough for the both...
    mywaves mywaves 46-50, F 1 Response Feb 10, 2013

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    I have borderline personality disorder.

    I was diagnosed in June 2013. I am totally blind. It's like an emotional roller coaster. I struggle with cutting... I have suicidal thoughts when the despair is to much to handle. This is a debilitating disorder.
    angel199221 angel199221 22-25, F 1 Response May 10, 2014

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    I would like to create an open chat with people

    with the same or similar problem. Anonymity will b highly respected. Ill commence by saying that i suffer from BPD n it is difficult to deal with on daily basis.
    barceloner barceloner 36-40, M Apr 17, 2014

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    Yeah I remember why I don't let myself feel for ppl. Ppl will always cause you pain. It's best to just wall yourself up and stay in your cell alone and lonely. It's a duller pain...
    BeautifullySickkk BeautifullySickkk 31-35, F 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    ****VERY LONG DEscriptION****I've never told anyone about this before and it's one of my darkest secrets. But I have 3 alters that make up "me." They don't have names so I gave...
    Ikebanna69 Ikebanna69 16-17, F 13 hrs ago

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    "To love is a dangerous path for me." —Michael (Me)
    Calamityy Calamityy 22-25, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Are there any other borderline males like myself?
    Calamityy Calamityy 22-25, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    is this a group for bipolar or borderline personality disorder? they could both be abbreviated ti bpd. just wondering if this group is in fact for mine (despite the crossover of...
    theeviloverlord theeviloverlord 18-21, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I first started to notice I wasn't 'normal' when I was 14 years old. I would flip out so quickly over small things, and I don't mean just have a temper tantrum.. I would break...
    MissRainDrops97 MissRainDrops97 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Do any of you guys find yourself easily obsessed with subjects, ppl, objects. places ect. ??
    BeautifullySickkk BeautifullySickkk 31-35, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    two days ago i was ready to divorce my husband. this am, he made love to me and i loved it. i don't want a divorce. i want security. i don't want to talk to anyone else in the...
    LITVET LITVET 41-45, F 3 days ago

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    If you want to what Borderline Personality feels like watch the links below. It'll give you an inside look. Watch "Borderline Personality Disorder - What it feels like" on...
    BeautifullySickkk BeautifullySickkk 31-35, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I was just in emotion mind RAGE, ANGER.. everyone in my path got a taste of it and I didn't care. I get fed up with being ran all over sometimes and I explode! People need to...
    ms5271115 ms5271115 36-40, F 4 days ago

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    "if i accept what you are and love you anyway, what does that make me?" -angela valdez, POWERi finally finished watching season 2 of power! for those who don't follow the show...
    goodheartmavin goodheartmavin 31-35, F 4 days ago

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    I think one of the hardest parts about 'having borderline' (I say it like this because you are of course not defined by it) is that you have this chronic feeling of inadequacy...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    Nothingness!!! I woke up to flat, numb, nothingness. As much as I hate being manic or on a really bad low I think id rather have either of them right now. This feeling or lack of...
    LJglasgow LJglasgow 26-30, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    So like I've noticed that through out myself, especially as I've gotten older, I have gotten very terrified about ppl leaving me. Which is of course the abandonment issues with our...
    BeautifullySickkk BeautifullySickkk 31-35, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    It's ironic how I can be completely ruthless to some people whereas I can be very gentle, accepting and kind towards those I have chose to cherish.
    Calamityy Calamityy 22-25, M 5 days ago

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    i dont feel like writng as nothing seems to help im having trouble getting up to face the day dont feel like showering yesterday was different the nothing helps i feel nothing i...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 6 days ago

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    what is the difference between avoidant personality disorder and social anxiety disorder?
    stabbedtoceasersalad stabbedtoceasersalad 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    Dissociative Identity Disorder/DID/formally known as MPD or multiple personality disorder. A lot of people have no idea what it means so I decided to write something about it and...
    Meliantha Meliantha 18-21, F a week ago

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    Hi all! I do not have BPD but I am getting worried about Sarah, who is a friend of mine, and I am wondering if you could please help me? I think she has BPD because of the...
    Thia999 Thia999 56-60, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    I have not been diagnosed officially, but both my psycholigist and psychiatrist believe that I have a personality disorder. My psycholigist thinks it may be Bi-Polar II but does...
    Myzery Myzery 31-35, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    i have been married to my husband for 15 years we have 3 kids. We met in high school. My life has been great until we started having problems and I cheated on him. I was totally...
    Judyh44 Judyh44 41-45, F Aug 21

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    Question- has anyone found any good coping strategies that help them deal with BPD ?
    LJglasgow LJglasgow 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 20

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    I overdosed on Zoloft. I feel like **** now. My heart is racing. I had a sleepless night yesterday. A month ago the doctor Psychatrist prescribed 100mg Zoloft per day - one 50 mg...
    nedbrent69 nedbrent69 46-50, M 3 Responses Aug 20

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    I think because of bpd, when I experience any thoughts of judgments against myself, they are magnified by ten. The father of my three children is engaged to be married. I want to...
    ms5271115 ms5271115 36-40, F 2 Responses Aug 20

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    I was diagnosed with bpd over a year ago. I am currently dealing with a flood of self judgment after finding out my kids father is engaged now I am struggling to not make this...
    ms5271115 ms5271115 36-40, F 1 Response Aug 19

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    Im struggling with self harm and anxiety. All while being recently diagnosed with bpd and dealing with being gay, there's so much going on. Sometimes i get so over whelmed by...
    thatonekid07 thatonekid07 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 18

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    My mother and her family emotionally abused me until I was in my early twenties. Therefore I often feel worthless, like I was born a bad person, and that no one likes/cares about...
    OnyxOrOrion OnyxOrOrion 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 18

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    I am frustrated bc of problems w mental health care.
    Marlena1977 Marlena1977 36-40, F Aug 18

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