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I Am Suffering With Borderline Personality Disorder

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    I just recently found out I had this I knew

    something was wrong with me for quite awhile but I thought i was bipolar come to found out its my emotions i cant cotrol i go from sobbing in tears to pissed off there is no sad and mad it sucks i hate this i no longer have a family cause of this and almost lost my bf aswell...
    Alwaysandforever29 Alwaysandforever29 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    needing to vent im feeling

    so fricken angry i wont open up im tired of the pain i cant cry desperate for love i keep looking for a home who knowmaybe i nned attention i feel illi dont know ifi want to go on anymoreim a fat ugly disgusting pig nothing helps whats the point im tired tired i feel nothing i...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F Sep 4

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    I have borderline personality disorder.

    I was diagnosed in June 2013. I am totally blind. It's like an emotional roller coaster. I struggle with cutting... I have suicidal thoughts when the despair is to much to handle. This is a debilitating disorder.
    angel199221 angel199221 22-25, F 1 Response May 10

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    I suffer with BPD and have been

    for a long time. Since I was 14 I started to feel different, I started to think different....I always wondered why I never had many friends, why I never had a girlfriend...why was I always isolated, sad and depressed, why did I want to always die and though about death...
    ClassicGamer22 ClassicGamer22 22-25, M May 11

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    Ah!

    I get contradicted. Told off. Criticised. Belittled and shouted at. He tells me I can't dress my self properly and that he's embarrassed to be seen with me. He tells me I'm a 'dud' girlfriend, and that I'm not like other females. He says I act like a child and that I suck all the...
    Waitingfornow Waitingfornow 22-25, F Jan 7, 2013

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    Caged. Heavy; light; pounding; relaxing;

    broken; glued. This is what goes on inside her head, because this is who she is; a girl diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. She never knows what to expect; never knows when a trigger is going to come, but when it does, it comes in at full swing. Trigger.... Result...
    danielle18 danielle18 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 9

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    i feel like i dont wan to go on anymore

    everuday im sick and fricken tired of fighting this im not healthy my stupid pshe nurse changed my meds a while back and has left me crying everyday stupid jerk my life is a mess im so fat yet i get up everday is a battle i feel like i dont know what i beliee iwhat is wright or...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F Aug 30

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    i dont know what to say im worn out

    and all i feel is pain im so depressed that i dont want o socialixw i cant even rember what i did a minute ago im so sick and fricken tired of this sick illness i think my sympmtons are getting worse i cant stop eating i just dont wan to go on anymore not fair its just not fair...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F Jul 23

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    Who Am I?

    I am lost in my own mind, have been searching for me my whole life. I look in the mirror and see a person I don't know. She is a very beautiful ugly person is all I know. She has never been touched by a loving hand as she chose a man with no emotions. I have enough for the both...
    mywaves mywaves 46-50, F 1 Response Feb 10, 2013

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    I would like to create an open chat with people

    with the same or similar problem. Anonymity will b highly respected. Ill commence by saying that i suffer from BPD n it is difficult to deal with on daily basis.
    barceloner barceloner 36-40, M Apr 17

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    Recent BPD Diagnosis

    I am currently living at home with my parents, struggling through each day of my life. I work at a gynecology office full-time, and I am no longer enrolled in school. I still struggle with eating disorder on a daily basis, but my self-destructive behaviors have morphed into other...
    lindseyymc lindseyymc 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 2, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    I've been reading, posting, and commenting on this group for awhile. I notice a lot of women come here asking what they can do to improve their marriages or make their husband...
    JacobsGirl360 JacobsGirl360 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 1

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    i dont know what to say i guess im numb and messed aup im so overweight i dont know how to live myself im am tired of life everyone is living life i feel like a freak i dont know...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F Sep 2

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    WHAT IS - A BREAK DOWN OF IT: Personality disorder involve patterns of behavior, mood, social interaction and impulsiveness that causes distress to the one experiencing them...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 2 Responses Sep 8

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    I could so use some help and advice if some of you could take the time to try and help someone who is suffering and needs the help. GUILT IS...
    Altruistrick Altruistrick 56-60, M 5 Responses Aug 29

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    Hi everybody. I've been reading a lot of your stories and they hit home with me. I see a lot of my views and experiences in your posts. I've suffered on and off with mental...
    Pheebs1990 Pheebs1990 22-25, F 6 Responses Aug 31

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    Just told a girl that said she thought I was cute to **** off and then got totally drunk so I'm gonna rant a bit now! Don't even think you understand what I'm going through! Don't...
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 2 Responses Sep 5

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    I want to understand borderline more. No, I don't have it. I was misdiagnosed once, but I do have aspergers. Anyways, I have a friend with BPD and I wish to write a book about BPD...
    nikkianni nikkianni 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 4

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    Went to see my shrink today and after 4 long years am finally down to ONLY one pill a day!! Yeah, the pills make me feel normal..but at the same time it feels so fake! They're...
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 2 Responses Aug 26

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    how do you love your self as i loathe myself i need love but cant receive my kid parts super angry at my parents as when i was younger i needproper parents and it so affected big...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 3 Responses Sep 11

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    Who the **** am I????? I'm so beyond confused right now. It seems like since I got diagnosed idk what was really me and what was the disorder. My anger is irrational, I fall in...
    kavlynn99 kavlynn99 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 11

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    hi just need to vent not feeling well i feel like im going off the deep end i dont like getting up in the morning anymore i want to avoid the night time when i get my cycle my...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    **** this... Do half you ******* that claim you have BPD even know what the **** it is? It's no ******* joke... all people to people with BPD is kick'em when they're down... You...
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 4 Responses Aug 21

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    This has always made me feel better and always seems to apply... Had I the heavens' embroidered cloths, Enwrought with golden and silver light, The blue and the dim and the dark...
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 21

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    Last week was so rough for me. It was truly manic. I cried for about 4 days straight and literally wanted to die. I felt that everyone at work could tell I was crazy and were...
    aligain aligain 31-35, F 3 Responses Aug 24

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    Everything in my life ive messed up, sick of feeling the way I do. Meds just mask the way I am. The reality is I either learn how to live with it or give up
    cleef84 cleef84 26-30, M 2 Responses Aug 28

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    Oh my god guys I just freaked out at my boyfriend I hate myself so much right now Why can't this go away >.< I can't deal with this I'm so sad i freaked out at him and yelled...
    emoscreamo101 emoscreamo101 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 28

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    To all the people who look down on, degrade and ridicule people with BPD I would like to invite you to come walk a mile in our shoes!
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 4 Responses Sep 1

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    It has been suggested that this is what I'm dealing with. I've been reading a lot into it and tbh I think it hits the nail on the head. I've been referred to a psychiatrist to...
    FallenForDeceit FallenForDeceit 18-21, M 3 Responses Sep 4

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    Well just been diagnosed with bpd and adhd on top of that so just starting to get my head around it all so hope meet other and talk to them about it all
    philipm42 philipm42 41-45, M 1 Response Sep 9

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    I started regularly weekly therapy 5 years ago after a lifetime of severe trauma. I was immediately diagnosed with BPD. Actually, I was pretty thrilled to know there was a real...
    AlleywayGospel AlleywayGospel 26-30, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    i need to vent i called my brother today big fricken mistaken anyways i was telling him about my situation with a my landlord controlling me hes a hole iwasnt being mindful anywas...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 5 Responses 6 days ago

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    It's been a rough couple of months for me and my BPD has been in high gear. I know it's there and it's not only making my life hard, but everyone around me as well...my daughter...
    Serenity14 Serenity14 26-30, F 5 Responses Aug 20

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    Those of us who suffer BPD know where hell really is. It's inside us. No escaping the agony, pain and torture. No reprieve. It's in every moment of our day, our dreams and our...
    AussieAZ AussieAZ 41-45, M 3 Responses Aug 28

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    I have been crying for two days straight. I have been sleeping all day because I exhaust myself with my thoughts. Now I can't sleep at night. I have also been very angry with my...
    stephaniekaye stephaniekaye 26-30, F Aug 29

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    I have been crying for two days straight. I have been sleeping all day because I exhaust myself with my thoughts. Now I can't sleep at night. I have also been very angry with my...
    stephaniekaye stephaniekaye 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 29

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    Can feel myself growing distant again. It's where I'm most comfortable. Dealing with realizing my codependency issues and trying to work thru those. Surprised my boyfriend hasn't...
    kavlynn99 kavlynn99 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 3

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    I feel really, really bad... I keep having these dreams about how my parents treated me before they put me in a mental hospital, then about the year I spent in the mental hospital...
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 3 Responses Sep 5

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    have you ever stayed in a relationship because you're afraid of being alone? I don't know if I am.. I don't think I am staying in it for that reason.. I love someone so much but...
    kbeary kbeary 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 5

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    Ok uhh, talked with my psychiatrist yesterday and we decided to try a three week trial period of no meds! So I'm one day in and I'm getting serious withdrawals... I'm cycling so...
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 3 Responses Sep 10

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    I have recently been diagnosed with BPD. I'm releaved in the sense that thier is a label for my nightmarish life. I commence DBT in Spring 2015. Reaching out to others with this...
    MindCage MindCage 46-50, F 6 days ago

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    I got diagnosed about 3-4 years ago I can't really recall, cause when I got diagnosed was the first time that I checked myself into a Psych Ward. I was more worried about other...
    Beatles22 Beatles22 26-30, F 4 Responses Aug 21

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    I have spent my entire life feeling as if there is a monster inside of me.
    Ashleyjoan Ashleyjoan 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 22

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    I've been having a real ****** time being happy. Not exactly sure I feel like writing. I just know I haven't been doing that well.
    ashless ashless 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 24

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    Feeling not depressed but weird.. just finished watching Halloween (2007 remake) for some reason feels like me in that mental hospital.. those kind of places only make you worse...
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 27

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    Off the medicine I'm not sure now I feel about my choice..
    emoscreamo101 emoscreamo101 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 27

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    Hmmm..stay on the meds or get off them? I'm going through that question right now.. Am down to one a day (from a high of 6 after every meal, 18 a day). I want to quit the meds but...
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M Aug 27

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    Well it helped one person so might help so of you others! The BPD song for all of us! lol https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=NJDNjsc7nRA
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 28

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