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I Am Suffering With Borderline Personality Disorder

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    i feel like i dont wan to go on anymore

    everuday im sick and fricken tired of fighting this im not healthy my stupid pshe nurse changed my meds a while back and has left me crying everyday stupid jerk my life is a mess im so fat yet i get up everday is a battle i feel like i dont know what i beliee iwhat is wright or...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F Aug 30, 2014

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    Recent BPD Diagnosis

    I am currently living at home with my parents, struggling through each day of my life. I work at a gynecology office full-time, and I am no longer enrolled in school. I still struggle with eating disorder on a daily basis, but my self-destructive behaviors have morphed into other...
    lindseyymc lindseyymc 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 2, 2013

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    Caged. Heavy; light; pounding; relaxing;

    broken; glued. This is what goes on inside her head, because this is who she is; a girl diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. She never knows what to expect; never knows when a trigger is going to come, but when it does, it comes in at full swing. Trigger.... Result...
    danielle18 danielle18 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 9, 2014

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    Ah!

    I get contradicted. Told off. Criticised. Belittled and shouted at. He tells me I can't dress my self properly and that he's embarrassed to be seen with me. He tells me I'm a 'dud' girlfriend, and that I'm not like other females. He says I act like a child and that I suck all the...
    Waitingfornow Waitingfornow 22-25, F Jan 7, 2013

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    I just recently found out I had this I knew

    something was wrong with me for quite awhile but I thought i was bipolar come to found out its my emotions i cant cotrol i go from sobbing in tears to pissed off there is no sad and mad it sucks i hate this i no longer have a family cause of this and almost lost my bf aswell...
    Alwaysandforever29 Alwaysandforever29 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    needing to vent im feeling

    so fricken angry i wont open up im tired of the pain i cant cry desperate for love i keep looking for a home who knowmaybe i nned attention i feel illi dont know ifi want to go on anymoreim a fat ugly disgusting pig nothing helps whats the point im tired tired i feel nothing i...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F Sep 4, 2014

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    I would like to create an open chat with people

    with the same or similar problem. Anonymity will b highly respected. Ill commence by saying that i suffer from BPD n it is difficult to deal with on daily basis.
    barceloner barceloner 36-40, M Apr 17, 2014

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    Who Am I?

    I am lost in my own mind, have been searching for me my whole life. I look in the mirror and see a person I don't know. She is a very beautiful ugly person is all I know. She has never been touched by a loving hand as she chose a man with no emotions. I have enough for the both...
    mywaves mywaves 46-50, F 1 Response Feb 10, 2013

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    I have borderline personality disorder.

    I was diagnosed in June 2013. I am totally blind. It's like an emotional roller coaster. I struggle with cutting... I have suicidal thoughts when the despair is to much to handle. This is a debilitating disorder.
    angel199221 angel199221 22-25, F 1 Response May 10, 2014

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    i dont know what to say im worn out

    and all i feel is pain im so depressed that i dont want o socialixw i cant even rember what i did a minute ago im so sick and fricken tired of this sick illness i think my sympmtons are getting worse i cant stop eating i just dont wan to go on anymore not fair its just not fair...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F Jul 23, 2014

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    Related Experiences

    I married a borderline 2 years back. Initially before marriage, I saw her getting angry like crazy ..wanted to break off but the usual 'sorry..will never do again" stuff had me in...
    crazy76 crazy76 36-40, M 1 Response Mar 12

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    I have been in a relationship on and off with my child's father. I have been trying to get away from him for the fact that he has cheated on me in the past and broken up with me on...
    road2recovery road2recovery 31-35 1 Response Mar 20

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    My husband has BPD and so do I, we both understand each other and have created our own universe of love, chaos, acceptance, unconditional dedication and commitment and passion, we...
    wkoutwifey wkoutwifey 41-45, F Mar 5

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    I'm 21 suffering with borderline personality disorder along with depression and anxiety. I've been dealing with this since I was 11 and my mom remarried a Disney style evil step...
    knittingpretty22 knittingpretty22 18-21, F 5 Responses a week ago

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    I have just recently found out that I am pregnant. Yes, I am excited. But, I'm also terrified because of the havoc pregnancy is already wreaking on my fragile emotional state...
    whiskeyprincess37 whiskeyprincess37 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 5

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    My borderline personality disorder has made me see the havoc I cause in people's lives and I'm regretting things I've done. I completely slandered my ex when I was splitting and...
    mconner1030 mconner1030 36-40, F 3 Responses Mar 15

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    I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder with Borderline Traits. Professionals are reluctant to give a full BPD diagnosis because I'm not a cutter and had been able to hold...
    RayneBeauHill RayneBeauHill 46-50, F 1 Response Mar 3

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    I am a 44 yo disabled female veteran entrepeneur who smokes her Rx very day. I claimed two years of sobriety before deciding to trying cannabis Rx for the ridiculous 4 month long...
    LITVET LITVET 41-45, F Mar 21

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    most of the ppl who say the are bpd and not been diagnose by a professional. ive taken a lot of test , and it comes up that i have strong indicators of it , they confirmed i do...
    WhiteRice14 WhiteRice14 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    So many times I've read people here that are having difficulties with their relationships and I so feel for the pain and confusion they're in. I've been through my own and so has...
    Altruistrick Altruistrick 56-60, M Mar 18

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    I was diagnosed almost two years ago (although I've struggled with its symptoms as far back as I can remember). Yet even now when I tell people I have it - I guess because I find...
    vagabondthrone vagabondthrone 22-25, M 3 Responses Mar 6

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    Borderline gets treated. Med makers profit. Borderline aint there yet. But they give us meds. That push us beyond. Why not cure the causes. Oh. Right...
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M 2 Responses Mar 12

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    I could really use and appreciate some help, your experience and input. I'm studying BPD psychopathology and there is something that is so conflicting for me. I'm really struggling...
    Altruistrick Altruistrick 56-60, M 6 Responses Mar 13

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    I've noticed that my borderline traits pretty much go away when I'm not in a relationship, but as soon as I fall in love I go crazy. Having bpd is hell, I'd rather be single and...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 9

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    I want to die. I'm so well informed about how borderline behavior seeps into my every waking moment that I have started to second guess every feeling I have. Am I allowed to be...
    jennaporter jennaporter 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 13

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    So a friend of mine (who is not bpd) on EP said this about me, "It's like sometime you want to talk but other times you are like in another dimension and ignoring everyone." I...
    aquabunny aquabunny 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 13

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    I stole my boyfriend from someone else and now I am unable to trust him. We've known each other for a long time. I always knew he liked me but I friend-zoned him. After all, he...
    elocinitis elocinitis 26-30, F 3 Responses Mar 5

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    One of the symptoms of BPD is an unstable sense of self, and I hate it so much. My self worth literally changes depending on who I'm with. Someone who used to be my best friend...
    Ambernonymous Ambernonymous 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 8

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    I've had this account since 2011, and I abandoned it for a long time. I was in therapy for about a year, where I learned to lie really well and cover it up if I did drugs or cut...
    tangledx22 tangledx22 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 9

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    It's so hard to get out of bed in the mornings when you have no idea how your day could go. I wake up like a blank slate and then whoever I spend my time with tends to define how I...
    Ambernonymous Ambernonymous 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 13

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    Love and Courage!! For us that have made it so far.Unbowed.Undefeated.Not giving up,just yet. Invictus Out of the night that covers me, Black as the pit from pole to pole...
    aquabunny aquabunny 22-25, F Mar 13

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    I'm writing this in an effort to reach out and make sense of what's happening inside. At times I feel completely normal and then sometimes I feel batshit crazy, all within a few...
    adub2222 adub2222 31-35, M 3 Responses Mar 16

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    You know when you just have those days when you just break? You can't fake it anymore? Today was that day for me. I was going to attempt suicide last night because I got rejected...
    Ambernonymous Ambernonymous 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 20

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    i really dont know much to say except im tired of life getting up everyday today i deceded to clean my house i told my mom i cant talk to her right now as i just cant be in her...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    I only found out that I had this diagnosis when I requested access to my medical notes. I had been diagnose with BPD for a long time and no one told me. I was initially diagnosed...
    LinkinParkMuse LinkinParkMuse 26-30, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    The rage is is so tiring. My dogs were barking at something (innocent right)? Not with BPD. I don't remember the last time screaming like that. My dogs fled from me. I feel like...
    Riprovo Riprovo 31-35, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I'm at a weekend away with a club I'm part of, and someone when they were drunk said "No one likes you Amber, you should just leave." I know that if I think about this logically...
    Ambernonymous Ambernonymous 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    im not sure why im writing everydat i find is hell and struggling i do not feel connected i have therapy to day at mental heath i dtread going ouy there is in a badf s[pot im...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 2 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    I am (almost can't believe it) peaceful since yesterday night and today.I am usually a lot of emotions,but never peaceful,never.The instances where I have been peaceful,I can...
    aquabunny aquabunny 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 3

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    dte21 dte21 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 8

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    im not feeling well in so much pain i awear i did it to myself fricken depressed and the pain doesnt come out when and got my hair done look so fine but your rotting insid ei feel...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 1 Response Mar 10

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