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I Am Suffering With Borderline Personality Disorder

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    needing to vent im feeling

    so fricken angry i wont open up im tired of the pain i cant cry desperate for love i keep looking for a home who knowmaybe i nned attention i feel illi dont know ifi want to go on anymoreim a fat ugly disgusting pig nothing helps whats the point im tired tired i feel nothing i...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F Sep 4

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    Caged. Heavy; light; pounding; relaxing;

    broken; glued. This is what goes on inside her head, because this is who she is; a girl diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. She never knows what to expect; never knows when a trigger is going to come, but when it does, it comes in at full swing. Trigger.... Result...
    danielle18 danielle18 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 9

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    Recent BPD Diagnosis

    I am currently living at home with my parents, struggling through each day of my life. I work at a gynecology office full-time, and I am no longer enrolled in school. I still struggle with eating disorder on a daily basis, but my self-destructive behaviors have morphed into other...
    lindseyymc lindseyymc 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 2, 2013

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    I suffer with BPD and have been

    for a long time. Since I was 14 I started to feel different, I started to think different....I always wondered why I never had many friends, why I never had a girlfriend...why was I always isolated, sad and depressed, why did I want to always die and though about death...
    ClassicGamer22 ClassicGamer22 22-25, M May 11

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    I just recently found out I had this I knew

    something was wrong with me for quite awhile but I thought i was bipolar come to found out its my emotions i cant cotrol i go from sobbing in tears to pissed off there is no sad and mad it sucks i hate this i no longer have a family cause of this and almost lost my bf aswell...
    Alwaysandforever29 Alwaysandforever29 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    Who Am I?

    I am lost in my own mind, have been searching for me my whole life. I look in the mirror and see a person I don't know. She is a very beautiful ugly person is all I know. She has never been touched by a loving hand as she chose a man with no emotions. I have enough for the both...
    mywaves mywaves 46-50, F 1 Response Feb 10, 2013

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    I have borderline personality disorder.

    I was diagnosed in June 2013. I am totally blind. It's like an emotional roller coaster. I struggle with cutting... I have suicidal thoughts when the despair is to much to handle. This is a debilitating disorder.
    angel199221 angel199221 22-25, F 1 Response May 10

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    i dont know what to say im worn out

    and all i feel is pain im so depressed that i dont want o socialixw i cant even rember what i did a minute ago im so sick and fricken tired of this sick illness i think my sympmtons are getting worse i cant stop eating i just dont wan to go on anymore not fair its just not fair...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F Jul 23

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    I would like to create an open chat with people

    with the same or similar problem. Anonymity will b highly respected. Ill commence by saying that i suffer from BPD n it is difficult to deal with on daily basis.
    barceloner barceloner 36-40, M Apr 17

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    i feel like i dont wan to go on anymore

    everuday im sick and fricken tired of fighting this im not healthy my stupid pshe nurse changed my meds a while back and has left me crying everyday stupid jerk my life is a mess im so fat yet i get up everday is a battle i feel like i dont know what i beliee iwhat is wright or...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F Aug 30

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    Ah!

    I get contradicted. Told off. Criticised. Belittled and shouted at. He tells me I can't dress my self properly and that he's embarrassed to be seen with me. He tells me I'm a 'dud' girlfriend, and that I'm not like other females. He says I act like a child and that I suck all the...
    Waitingfornow Waitingfornow 22-25, F Jan 7, 2013

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    I haven't posted in a while however I wanted to get something out. I seem to attract women that are amazing and beautiful and smart. Also some how have borderline personality...
    cutie7710 cutie7710 36-40, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    The true despair of living with a borderline is the travesty of the "good" days
    DebC75 DebC75 36-40, F 1 Response Oct 30

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    I've always known I was a very emotionally unstable person but as I graduated highschool it has gotten much worse. By all rights I should live an incredibly happ life. I am a good...
    NothinButLove NothinButLove 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 31

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    And slightly proud. Lmao. They say antisocial. But too codependant to be true. So If they were wrong there. Could they be wrong plenty more times. Yesss. Me...
    OddlyScintilating OddlyScintilating 46-50, M Nov 6

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    I have borderline Personality Disorder. I have known for a long time that I had something wrong but did not find out until a couple months ago. I am really just looking for...
    kamykamz kamykamz 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 8

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    Hi I have BPD, PTSD and bipolar disorder. I was wondering if someone on here that is also suffering that may could help me. I'm miserable. I am on an antianxiety and antipsychotic...
    WolfOfDreams WolfOfDreams 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 6

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    I've been reading a lot about BPD online, and I'm pretty sure I have it. My therapist didn't agree. Can someone tell me what BPD symptoms are and what a person suffering from it is...
    littlemissrainy littlemissrainy 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 5

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    People don't understand me. When I cry that I don't know who I am and that I don't know what's real or what's fake, they have no idea what I'm talking about. My boyfriend was...
    sedublin sedublin 18-21, F Nov 12

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    So I always mess up. I wrote about my therapist disliking me but it's not just her it's everyone who is in my life I will mess up or purposely push a person away or make them...
    nevawas nevawas 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Please someone tell me whether or not these are signs that I have BPD. - I'm 18 years old and will be 19 in December. -I'm a lefthander. - I'm the eldest child. -I have a very...
    DestinationUnknown1995 DestinationUnknown1995 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 30

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    sorry i need to vent yesterday i found out tmy mom does have lung cancer im probably youn g i went had a few glasses of wine then i was like a kid phoned people its cause im not a...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 2 days ago

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    I think (know, really) that I must have BPD. But I still wish someone would validate me by telling me that I do... Any takers? This is desperate, I know...-I fly into a rage at my...
    phoenixsfire phoenixsfire 22-25, F 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    I just got my diagnosis a few days ago, and I'm so disturbed to know the truth.. I've always known about the depression, and it felt good to be able to label the anxiety disorder...
    Shaaydixie Shaaydixie 16-17, F Oct 25

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    I used to think I had BPD, but I have found stability. I am who I am, with a complex personality, I have many sides, but I have found a stable me.
    MentalTravelor MentalTravelor 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 14

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    So everyone "pray" for me. To whatever you believe in, pray that my boyfriend never leaves me and I finally get my happy ending.. Way to much past trauma to deal with another...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 23

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    I am extremely shallow with emotions concerning looks, so people I find attractive and change my mood very fast I cry, starve myself or even cut myself if I feel hated and disliked...
    SwanNual SwanNual 22-25, F Oct 23

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    I'm sorry if you're a close friend and I asked why'd you leave me it's because I don't put in any effort to maintain contact and feel as if when you don't talk to me you don't care...
    SwanNual SwanNual 22-25, F Oct 24

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    Yes I'm still alive, if it wasn't for my bf (now ex) and sister and her bf Doug I would have killed myself last night. I am checking myself in to a mental institution today to see...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 24

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    My boyfriend and I of two years have not spoken in 3 days...The longest we have ever gone (aside from his time in the military). It was an amazing romance for a long time. I...
    Nicoleashleyxo Nicoleashleyxo 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 25

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    Whenever I get upset about something and try to talk it out, I feel like whoever I am talking to thinks that I am imagining the whole situation. Sometimes I feel like my parents...
    jwest230 jwest230 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 25

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    I feel embarrassed that I'm in a mental hospital because of my bf leaving me. Obviously I'm here for other reasons too but that's the main one and I just feel like such an outcast...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 9 Responses Oct 27

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    I really don't know how much longer my fiancee will be able to put up with me.. Lately I've been screaming and yelling at her for barely anything at all and it's like it just comes...
    jwest230 jwest230 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 28

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    Well, I did it again. I let my thoughts bubble up into a fit of rage. I am so bitter and cold today. It all started this morning. Waking up , realizing this is it for now. I am...
    ashless ashless 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 29

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    I'm undiagnosed and was told to have the traits since I don't fit in the criteria to be diagnosed. This battle with my emotions is hell. I don't ever wish it on my worst enemy...
    SolitarySol SolitarySol 31-35, F 2 Responses Oct 31

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    im feeling angry and fructrated i dont know how to copw with this sick illness i dont wan to do nothing i treat myself like a piece of **** i dont want tobe around know one i feel...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 2 Responses Nov 3

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    And I can't ******* cry. I can't feel anything. Except pissed. I'm ******* pissed that no guy will ever want to be with me forever. Pissed that my ex thinks he can text me saying...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 4

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    I'm in a psychiatric hospital and guess what? typical me... I have a crush on another patient. 😊 I feel like I'm in jr high again. It's been awhile since I've had a "crush" haha...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 5

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    Can't talk to anyone about how I feel. As soon as I try I'm told it's nothing to do with them and they can't help. Or they'll pretend to listen.
    bananananaxo bananananaxo 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 10

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    I didn't realize the ways I have been feeling for a very long time, and for less than a long time, were relateable to others. I never even thought to label them. For as long as I...
    sedublin sedublin 18-21, F Nov 12

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    I feel like i wont be able to have the life ive dreamed of. A husband kids. How can i possibly be a good role model when i cant even deal with myself. I feel no guy would be able...
    yesiigarciaa yesiigarciaa 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 13

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    Thinking about making a doctor appointment soon.. Has anyone had luck with any medications?
    jwest230 jwest230 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 14

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    I can't even go one month with out having a complete psychotic meltdown. I'm as good as dead. Whoever can live through this is strong and deserves to be happy.
    NoRegretsAndNoRemorse NoRegretsAndNoRemorse 22-25, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    Ive never shared anything like this with anyone before so im just gonna write as it comes to. Im in my late 20s and ive spent the majority of my adult life feeling this way. Only...
    TheWickedJester TheWickedJester 26-30, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    So i posted here earlier today, and i have so much i want/need to say but i have no idea where to put it and im pretty sure this is bpd related so here goes 7 years ago i fell in...
    TheWickedJester TheWickedJester 26-30, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    so im here again. i almost lost a close friend, well my only friend really, today because of a misunderstanding. She never actually left but the thought of her leaving filled me...
    TheWickedJester TheWickedJester 26-30, M 5 days ago

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