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I Am Suffering With Borderline Personality Disorder

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 39 People

    I would like to create an open chat with people

    with the same or similar problem. Anonymity will b highly respected. Ill commence by saying that i suffer from BPD n it is difficult to deal with on daily basis.
    barceloner barceloner 36-40, M Apr 17, 2014

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    i dont know what to say im worn out

    and all i feel is pain im so depressed that i dont want o socialixw i cant even rember what i did a minute ago im so sick and fricken tired of this sick illness i think my sympmtons are getting worse i cant stop eating i just dont wan to go on anymore not fair its just not fair...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F Jul 23, 2014

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    I just recently found out I had this I knew

    something was wrong with me for quite awhile but I thought i was bipolar come to found out its my emotions i cant cotrol i go from sobbing in tears to pissed off there is no sad and mad it sucks i hate this i no longer have a family cause of this and almost lost my bf aswell...
    Alwaysandforever29 Alwaysandforever29 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    Ah!

    I get contradicted. Told off. Criticised. Belittled and shouted at. He tells me I can't dress my self properly and that he's embarrassed to be seen with me. He tells me I'm a 'dud' girlfriend, and that I'm not like other females. He says I act like a child and that I suck all the...
    Waitingfornow Waitingfornow 22-25, F Jan 7, 2013

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    I have borderline personality disorder.

    I was diagnosed in June 2013. I am totally blind. It's like an emotional roller coaster. I struggle with cutting... I have suicidal thoughts when the despair is to much to handle. This is a debilitating disorder.
    angel199221 angel199221 22-25, F 1 Response May 10, 2014

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    needing to vent im feeling

    so fricken angry i wont open up im tired of the pain i cant cry desperate for love i keep looking for a home who knowmaybe i nned attention i feel illi dont know ifi want to go on anymoreim a fat ugly disgusting pig nothing helps whats the point im tired tired i feel nothing i...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F Sep 4, 2014

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    i feel like i dont wan to go on anymore

    everuday im sick and fricken tired of fighting this im not healthy my stupid pshe nurse changed my meds a while back and has left me crying everyday stupid jerk my life is a mess im so fat yet i get up everday is a battle i feel like i dont know what i beliee iwhat is wright or...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F Aug 30, 2014

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    Recent BPD Diagnosis

    I am currently living at home with my parents, struggling through each day of my life. I work at a gynecology office full-time, and I am no longer enrolled in school. I still struggle with eating disorder on a daily basis, but my self-destructive behaviors have morphed into other...
    lindseyymc lindseyymc 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 2, 2013

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    I suffer with BPD and have been

    for a long time. Since I was 14 I started to feel different, I started to think different....I always wondered why I never had many friends, why I never had a girlfriend...why was I always isolated, sad and depressed, why did I want to always die and though about death...
    ClassicGamer22 ClassicGamer22 22-25, M May 11, 2014

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    Who Am I?

    I am lost in my own mind, have been searching for me my whole life. I look in the mirror and see a person I don't know. She is a very beautiful ugly person is all I know. She has never been touched by a loving hand as she chose a man with no emotions. I have enough for the both...
    mywaves mywaves 46-50, F 1 Response Feb 10, 2013

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    Caged. Heavy; light; pounding; relaxing;

    broken; glued. This is what goes on inside her head, because this is who she is; a girl diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. She never knows what to expect; never knows when a trigger is going to come, but when it does, it comes in at full swing. Trigger.... Result...
    danielle18 danielle18 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 9, 2014

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    Related Experiences

    I was in a relationship for 10 years and was dumped 10 days before Christmas for a co-worker who held the job I was supposed to get before being laid off... To add insult to injury...
    l1985111 l1985111 26-30 Jan 10

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    I have been sitting on the fence for so long trying to figure out what I should do. I have been on this roller coaster ride for way too long. I have tried so many things to fix it...
    Listener5 Listener5 56-60, F Jan 18

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    I have been sitting on the fence for so long trying to figure out what I should do. I have been on this roller coaster ride for way too long. I have tried so many things to fix it...
    Listener5 Listener5 56-60, F 2 Responses Jan 18

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    I am have been diagnosed as with borderline personality disorder last year.Such a relief.I think I have had it for 10 years and have inherited it from my mother.Who I forgive,If...
    aquabunny aquabunny 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 9

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    I managed to creep myself out... A lot. I just looked through some of my old papers and stuff. I must have had borderline personality disorder for a long long time. I kept emails...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 7

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    10 years after being with my man, 2 kids and in the past year- 2 years something isn't right. In the last few months it has really blown up. He is extremely paranoid after reading...
    thinkin0fme thinkin0fme 31-35, F 1 day ago

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    I just can't cope at the moment. I'm having counselling and "personality" has been mentioned, and, now I really think about it, perhaps my having a personality disorder would "fit...
    Chaleureuse Chaleureuse 26-30, F Jan 10

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    My mother got icy cold cause I she wanted a scarf I had ,and I could not give it to her then and there.She proceeded to dramatize how she needs nothing from me,and she is capable...
    aquabunny aquabunny 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    I'm borderline. and in a relationship with the most caring compassionate understanding human being I've ever found... I am incredibly grateful and head over heels in Love. But...
    Minnowshi Minnowshi 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    im so sick and tired of fricken being like this i literally feel ill i cant deal withhtis im a mental screwq up why do we feel sick no energy dont get it all i do is stay in my...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    Would you say there are any mental illnesses very similar to borderline? If so, what?
    strawberryletter22 strawberryletter22 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 18

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    Do you have a problem with argumentative people So I was having these perfect three days ,and I decided to tell my brother about my tendencies for "depression" and "anxiety".He...
    aquabunny aquabunny 22-25, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I hate the drama I always create in my life. It's like I'm doomed to drag myself into my own dramatic stories. Why does this disorder hurt so much??
    styxc styxc 18-21, M Jan 4

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    this "personality" is a curse
    styxc styxc 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 4

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    Does anyone else have urges to where they are compelled to do something to "Fix" themselves? Yesterday I felt like I had to cut my hair. I did this once before and that time I...
    insanepoet84 insanepoet84 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 5

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    not sharing my life story but i cant see my girlfriend because it's long distance and i keep worrying she's deliberately putting off seeing me. another friend followed me and I...
    weirdbug weirdbug 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 28, 2014

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    lately I've been getting worse, saying things I don't truly mean to avoid a situation, feeling hate to ppl that I really love, being physically aggressive, depressed, and with such...
    melibar melibar 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 28, 2014

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    Men are so stupid sometimes. Women are to but honestly, all my ex's still love me, they all want me back. I tried to warn them while we were dating that if they leave, it breaks my...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 29, 2014

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    im out of the hopital but im feeling realy un healthy and ill insid ei dont undestand whats going on i feel like i have apersonality that needs to flip i am so depressed and cant...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 2 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    I feel like people like me don't deserve to be alive. My boyfriend got sick with the flu and all I did is start a fight and feel unwanted... I'm so tired of being selfish, mood...
    melibar melibar 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 31, 2014

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    So I'm here my bf is sick he tells me to go out with my friends for new years asks me at what time I'll leave, turns around and asks me to cash his check which i don't mind, but...
    melibar melibar 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 31, 2014

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    so it's New Years and everyone's excited and happy.... but not me. I hate that I can feel it in myself that I want to be miserable and complain and probably make a bad night of it...
    cherBearCJ cherBearCJ 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 31, 2014

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    I truly hate holidays so glad there over with... so glad they're over with and all the who we're going to, what we're doing and ugh the meeting new ppl, being surrounded trying to...
    melibar melibar 26-30, F Jan 1

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    so Christmas was good... I got more than I needed and I am very appreciative but I just felt like empty the whole day.. like why is Christmas all about getting gifts to some people...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F Jan 1

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    I'd really like to know if my story is similar to anybody else's. I was diagnosed with BPD at 14, after being told it was Depression, then Bipolar, etc etc. Almost as if it was a...
    skyworm skyworm 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 1

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    One week with a blade and this is my arm. One day with the pills and there will go my life. What have I become?
    missmalky missmalky 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    Completely forgot to take my meds this morning. I had a good day but then I started shaking and feeling sick to my stomach. I just took them. It's that ever present reminder that...
    aligain aligain 31-35, F Jan 4

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    this emotional overload I can't handle without freaking out!
    styxc styxc 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 8

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    Time to put the fighting face on... But how can one keep fighting a battle with an unseen enemy?
    rorenchan rorenchan 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 9

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    Just got diagnosed yesterday. Would explain why I have always found life tough and struggle to keep friends. I currently have no friends but thankfully have a very understanding...
    Violaplayer84 Violaplayer84 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 15

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    Hi, ive got a question for my fellow bpd's. should I tell my boss I have been diagnosed with it? if someone on here has, how did it go and did anything change? I'm currently in...
    Violaplayer84 Violaplayer84 26-30, F 4 Responses Jan 16

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    i'm in a long distance relationship which makes it even harder for me to control these thoughts..most of the time i find myself thinking about how he's cheating on me, or how he's...
    DalaKumono DalaKumono 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 17

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    I really want a hug.... I just want a shoulder to cry on, a friend to laugh with, and share everything with, a lover, a support system. But I don't have this cause I pushed that...
    mysoulachesforyou mysoulachesforyou 31-35, F 3 Responses Jan 18

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    Wrap me up in what I once knew. Believe in what I say is true I never needed you to save me I just needed to feel safe with you Give me what I need so I don't need to be so...
    angiede angiede 26-30, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Anyone else suffers from chronic boredom and emptiness? How do you deal with it? hobbies don't work.....
    styxc styxc 18-21, M 4 Responses 5 days ago

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