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I Am Suffering With Borderline Personality Disorder

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 43 People

    Caged. Heavy; light; pounding; relaxing;

    broken; glued. This is what goes on inside her head, because this is who she is; a girl diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. She never knows what to expect; never knows when a trigger is going to come, but when it does, it comes in at full swing. Trigger.... Result...
    danielle18 danielle18 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 9, 2014

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    i dont know what to say im worn out

    and all i feel is pain im so depressed that i dont want o socialixw i cant even rember what i did a minute ago im so sick and fricken tired of this sick illness i think my sympmtons are getting worse i cant stop eating i just dont wan to go on anymore not fair its just not fair...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F Jul 23, 2014

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    I just recently found out I had this I knew

    something was wrong with me for quite awhile but I thought i was bipolar come to found out its my emotions i cant cotrol i go from sobbing in tears to pissed off there is no sad and mad it sucks i hate this i no longer have a family cause of this and almost lost my bf aswell...
    Alwaysandforever29 Alwaysandforever29 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    I would like to create an open chat with people

    with the same or similar problem. Anonymity will b highly respected. Ill commence by saying that i suffer from BPD n it is difficult to deal with on daily basis.
    barceloner barceloner 36-40, M Apr 17, 2014

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    Okay so short and simple.

    I usually have no problem ending a relationship most of the time I caused chaos and then turn around on them so they feel like it's their fault or I leave them leave them before they leave me. This guy that I actually felt like I could love until I cheated on him multiple times...
    xoxoFireyIcexoxo xoxoFireyIcexoxo 26-30, F Jul 17

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    i feel like i dont wan to go on anymore

    everuday im sick and fricken tired of fighting this im not healthy my stupid pshe nurse changed my meds a while back and has left me crying everyday stupid jerk my life is a mess im so fat yet i get up everday is a battle i feel like i dont know what i beliee iwhat is wright or...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F Aug 30, 2014

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    I have borderline personality disorder.

    I was diagnosed in June 2013. I am totally blind. It's like an emotional roller coaster. I struggle with cutting... I have suicidal thoughts when the despair is to much to handle. This is a debilitating disorder.
    angel199221 angel199221 22-25, F 1 Response May 10, 2014

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    Who Am I?

    I am lost in my own mind, have been searching for me my whole life. I look in the mirror and see a person I don't know. She is a very beautiful ugly person is all I know. She has never been touched by a loving hand as she chose a man with no emotions. I have enough for the both...
    mywaves mywaves 46-50, F 1 Response Feb 10, 2013

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    Ah!

    I get contradicted. Told off. Criticised. Belittled and shouted at. He tells me I can't dress my self properly and that he's embarrassed to be seen with me. He tells me I'm a 'dud' girlfriend, and that I'm not like other females. He says I act like a child and that I suck all the...
    Waitingfornow Waitingfornow 22-25, F Jan 7, 2013

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    Recent BPD Diagnosis

    I am currently living at home with my parents, struggling through each day of my life. I work at a gynecology office full-time, and I am no longer enrolled in school. I still struggle with eating disorder on a daily basis, but my self-destructive behaviors have morphed into other...
    lindseyymc lindseyymc 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 2, 2013

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    needing to vent im feeling

    so fricken angry i wont open up im tired of the pain i cant cry desperate for love i keep looking for a home who knowmaybe i nned attention i feel illi dont know ifi want to go on anymoreim a fat ugly disgusting pig nothing helps whats the point im tired tired i feel nothing i...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F Sep 4, 2014

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    sexyprincess23 sexyprincess23 22-25, F 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    You want true love but true love with only that person, I don't care if someone else offers me anything it has to be that person.
    Calamityy Calamityy 22-25, M 1 day ago

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    Idk what happened I suddenly feel like wanting to die..I feel weal and tired..I wanna be alone but at the same time I want someone to tell me it'll pass and everything is gonna be...
    DalaKumono DalaKumono 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Is there anyone here who has had another former or co existing diagnosis with borderline personality disorder? I was diagnosed with Autism in my childhood but one psychologist I...
    rainbowsmangos2015 rainbowsmangos2015 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    How do you deal with getting pushed away? It's hard to even survive those moments.
    Calamityy Calamityy 22-25, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I may be a sadistic borderline but at least I wouldn't lie, betray or cheat the people I cherish (even if it is a few). I wonder who the real animals are.
    Calamityy Calamityy 22-25, M 2 days ago

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    This is a lil excerpt from a comment I made. "you can over come it. its a matter of retraining ur brain. and reassuring urself. what ur experiencing is probably not real.like...
    BeautifullySickkk BeautifullySickkk 31-35, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Do any of you (those with borderline) find you feel like you have to be in a relationship?? You're always on the prowl for one? For me I'm this way big time. If I sense a...
    BeautifullySickkk BeautifullySickkk 31-35, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I hate my husband today! I wish he would pay for what he has done.
    arachmichel arachmichel 26-30, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    To those suffering with suicidal thoughts!!! *NOTE * (This is written from a spiritual point of view NOT religious though) Author had a near death experience to give an idea of...
    Dayzdreamer Dayzdreamer 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    I have had so much to be ungrateful and so very little to be thankful for.. I am living in a world where i am not in control.. I hate everything about my stupid illness and i cant...
    xxcaylaxx xxcaylaxx 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Does anyone else hate losing in anything? Drives me nuts.
    Calamityy Calamityy 22-25, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I can control some things now better that before, but it is a constant struggle....
    StreetgirlnamedDesire504 StreetgirlnamedDesire504 36-40 3 days ago

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    living in a world of non BPD people is a lonely place
    Tattooedgirl864 Tattooedgirl864 31-35 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I hate this feelings. Idk what's triggering all these bad feelings in me today but I wish I never woke up from my sleep. I just wanna be alone but I wanna talk. I feel hatred but...
    xMellowButterflyx xMellowButterflyx 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Yeah I remember why I don't let myself feel for ppl. Ppl will always cause you pain. It's best to just wall yourself up and stay in your cell alone and lonely. It's a duller pain...
    BeautifullySickkk BeautifullySickkk 31-35, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    "To love is a dangerous path for me." —Michael (Me)
    Calamityy Calamityy 22-25, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    Are there any other borderline males like myself?
    Calamityy Calamityy 22-25, M 1 Response a week ago

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    is this a group for bipolar or borderline personality disorder? they could both be abbreviated ti bpd. just wondering if this group is in fact for mine (despite the crossover of...
    theeviloverlord theeviloverlord 18-21, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    I first started to notice I wasn't 'normal' when I was 14 years old. I would flip out so quickly over small things, and I don't mean just have a temper tantrum.. I would break...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 25

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    Do any of you guys find yourself easily obsessed with subjects, ppl, objects. places ect. ??
    BeautifullySickkk BeautifullySickkk 31-35, F 3 Responses Aug 25

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    two days ago i was ready to divorce my husband. this am, he made love to me and i loved it. i don't want a divorce. i want security. i don't want to talk to anyone else in the...
    LITVET LITVET 41-45, F 2 Responses Aug 25

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    If you want to what Borderline Personality feels like watch the links below. It'll give you an inside look. Watch "Borderline Personality Disorder - What it feels like" on...
    BeautifullySickkk BeautifullySickkk 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 25

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    I was just in emotion mind RAGE, ANGER.. everyone in my path got a taste of it and I didn't care. I get fed up with being ran all over sometimes and I explode! People need to...
    ms5271115 ms5271115 36-40, F Aug 24

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    "if i accept what you are and love you anyway, what does that make me?" -angela valdez, POWERi finally finished watching season 2 of power! for those who don't follow the show...
    goodheartmavin goodheartmavin 31-35, F Aug 24

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    I think one of the hardest parts about 'having borderline' (I say it like this because you are of course not defined by it) is that you have this chronic feeling of inadequacy...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 24

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    Nothingness!!! I woke up to flat, numb, nothingness. As much as I hate being manic or on a really bad low I think id rather have either of them right now. This feeling or lack of...
    LJglasgow LJglasgow 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 24

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    So like I've noticed that through out myself, especially as I've gotten older, I have gotten very terrified about ppl leaving me. Which is of course the abandonment issues with our...
    BeautifullySickkk BeautifullySickkk 31-35, F 2 Responses Aug 24

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    It's ironic how I can be completely ruthless to some people whereas I can be very gentle, accepting and kind towards those I have chose to cherish.
    Calamityy Calamityy 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 24

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    i dont feel like writng as nothing seems to help im having trouble getting up to face the day dont feel like showering yesterday was different the nothing helps i feel nothing i...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F Aug 23

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    what is the difference between avoidant personality disorder and social anxiety disorder?
    stabbedtoceasersalad stabbedtoceasersalad 18-21, F Aug 23