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I Am Suffering With Borderline Personality Disorder

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    Caged. Heavy; light; pounding; relaxing;

    broken; glued. This is what goes on inside her head, because this is who she is; a girl diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. She never knows what to expect; never knows when a trigger is going to come, but when it does, it comes in at full swing. Trigger.... Result...
    danielle18 danielle18 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 9

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    I suffer with BPD and have been

    for a long time. Since I was 14 I started to feel different, I started to think different....I always wondered why I never had many friends, why I never had a girlfriend...why was I always isolated, sad and depressed, why did I want to always die and though about death...
    ClassicGamer22 ClassicGamer22 22-25, M May 11

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    Recent BPD Diagnosis

    I am currently living at home with my parents, struggling through each day of my life. I work at a gynecology office full-time, and I am no longer enrolled in school. I still struggle with eating disorder on a daily basis, but my self-destructive behaviors have morphed into other...
    lindseyymc lindseyymc 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 2, 2013

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    Who Am I?

    I am lost in my own mind, have been searching for me my whole life. I look in the mirror and see a person I don't know. She is a very beautiful ugly person is all I know. She has never been touched by a loving hand as she chose a man with no emotions. I have enough for the both...
    mywaves mywaves 46-50, F 1 Response Feb 10, 2013

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    i dont know what to say im worn out

    and all i feel is pain im so depressed that i dont want o socialixw i cant even rember what i did a minute ago im so sick and fricken tired of this sick illness i think my sympmtons are getting worse i cant stop eating i just dont wan to go on anymore not fair its just not fair...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F Jul 23

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    I just recently found out I had this I knew

    something was wrong with me for quite awhile but I thought i was bipolar come to found out its my emotions i cant cotrol i go from sobbing in tears to pissed off there is no sad and mad it sucks i hate this i no longer have a family cause of this and almost lost my bf aswell...
    Alwaysandforever29 Alwaysandforever29 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    Ah!

    I get contradicted. Told off. Criticised. Belittled and shouted at. He tells me I can't dress my self properly and that he's embarrassed to be seen with me. He tells me I'm a 'dud' girlfriend, and that I'm not like other females. He says I act like a child and that I suck all the...
    Waitingfornow Waitingfornow 22-25, F Jan 7, 2013

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    I have borderline personality disorder.

    I was diagnosed in June 2013. I am totally blind. It's like an emotional roller coaster. I struggle with cutting... I have suicidal thoughts when the despair is to much to handle. This is a debilitating disorder.
    angel199221 angel199221 22-25, F 1 Response May 10

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    I would like to create an open chat with people

    with the same or similar problem. Anonymity will b highly respected. Ill commence by saying that i suffer from BPD n it is difficult to deal with on daily basis.
    barceloner barceloner 36-40, M Apr 17

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    Related Experiences

    I just don't know anymore. I feel like I'm bad for everyone in my life. I just really feel like ending my life. I'm done with struggling, done with no one understanding, done with...
    got2Breal got2Breal 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 3

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    EP users and their character attacks.... I'm not a pompous *******, although that would be the reaction that I would expect from someone with BPD, as that is how most of us assess...
    Ajushi Ajushi 31-35, M 2 Responses Aug 8

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    Check out this link!!!! New scientific research on BPD and how the brain functions for people who have been diagnosed with this disorder. Enlightening and informative. Hope this...
    kavlynn99 kavlynn99 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 5

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    For a long time I have felt different, I got attached to people to easy & too quick! I quickly feared abandonment, real or imagined, I sometimes get raging anger that I cannot...
    BeBeautiful95 BeBeautiful95 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Gosh! Where to begin? So it’s fair to say that I haven’t been suffering for as long as some people with their eating disorders but I can’t dismiss the fact that I HAVE been...
    Thatgirl889 Thatgirl889 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 5

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    What a difference a day makes. Today I got my diagnosis This morning my knowledge about borderline was somewhat limited. I have had friends who had borderline and those were very...
    Fireleaf1991 Fireleaf1991 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 24

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    My therapist loaned me a book called "I hate you-don't leave me: understanding the borderline personality" has anybody read it? Any feedback???
    kavlynn99 kavlynn99 22-25, F 9 Responses Aug 3

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    I have Borderline Personalitч Disorder, these past few weeks have been at its worst. I have attempted suicide twice & failed, and currentlч still self harm, I live with mч bo...
    BeBeautiful95 BeBeautiful95 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I don't know if this is a BPD thing or not but I honestly don't understand social interaction. This might be a Schizotypal Personality Disorder thing (I have that as well) but I...
    LewisCollins LewisCollins 31-35 Jul 25

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    It has been a good couple of days. It means no sleep for me but things have been better. I work thirds and have been working overtime the past 2 weeks. All I do is work and sleep...
    kavlynn99 kavlynn99 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 29

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    Once upon a time, my mother told me she loved how positive I was. She admired that I could see the good in anyone. I miss that. I was 8 years old when she said that, and I wish I...
    iwanttolovemyself iwanttolovemyself 22-25 3 Responses Aug 11

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    Borderline and bipolar recoveree. I wanna feel normal again.
    jumpingoffthecliff jumpingoffthecliff 26-30, F Aug 2

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    I just found out I'm Borderline today and personally I'm scared. Everything I've read about it says that it's so hard to treat but I don't want to feel this way anymore right now...
    gochickinparty gochickinparty 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 7

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    It's kinda sad to read these other "experiences" of people who have dated someone with BPD. I guess thinking about it from their perspective it is a bit overwhelming to date...
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I was diagnosed about 5 years ago after attempting suicide. I went through DBT therapy and worked hard to "fix" myself. I manage life so much better now. It doesn't even feel like...
    jennaporter jennaporter 36-40, F 3 Responses Aug 2

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    Finally found the man who I would love to spend my life with. Gives me more happiness caring and understanding I have ever been given. He try's his best to be understanding of my...
    awmusic awmusic 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 28

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    The other day at my work, i was chatting with another staff. She was a little older then me, and was telling me about her daughter who was 8. And everything she told me sounded...
    amsfee amsfee 22-25, F Jul 26

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    Or so I think. But don't we all? Life has become increasingly difficult by my standards and it's just enough to not make me want to excel at anything fruitful or have the...
    Keldeo Keldeo 22-25 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Positive traits of those with BPD: 1. Passionate-experience extreme intensity of passion when we find something that interests us 2. Individual-strongly cultivate our individuality...
    kavlynn99 kavlynn99 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 21

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    And if there's anything I've learned in reading here tonight, it's that I'm most definitely not alone. I feel alone. I feel lost. I'm in a haze. But other people are in it with...
    DanicaER DanicaER 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 21

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    I was never diagnosed with BPD but I feel I do have it. I have been reading about it and after reading many of your own testimonies I am convinced this is what I have. It's been a...
    Serenity14 Serenity14 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 22

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    And I'm poor. I go to a state funded clinic (thank GOD for its existence), and only pay $5 for each prescription. However, there are considerable draw-backs to the state funded...
    DanicaER DanicaER 36-40, F Jul 22

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    And I have no one in my life to understand. Not even my parents, no one really understands what it is like to have BPD. I feel abandoned but I am the real one who pushes people...
    pinkchalk pinkchalk 22-25, F 5 Responses Jul 22

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    And I'm bipolar with ADHD and Psychosis. I take meds and I feel pretty good but I notice that my mood swings now are circumstantial. I find it difficult to cope with life. My...
    Roxvox Roxvox 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 24

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    can't cope with the extremeness of my condition and find it so hard to explain this to other people no matter how hard they try to understand they never will and this makes me so...
    melodi17bpd melodi17bpd 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 24

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    I've made several posts with this heading, and I'm aware that this might make it hard to follow if looking at multiple posts. However, this is my current focus and all of these...
    DanicaER DanicaER 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 24

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    Recently i found out that I have BPD. I always knew that something was different with me. My emotions ran me. They are so up and down but not only that, they were so intense. My...
    xchelseydawnx xchelseydawnx 22-25, F 4 Responses Jul 25

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    Does anyone else feel like some days they don't have BPD? You go through a stint of feeling almost ok? Almost normal? Of course it isn't true, but you can pass it off in public? Or...
    Serenity14 Serenity14 26-30, F 4 Responses Jul 26

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    I know I write a lot here, but it's very therapeutic for me because these thoughts are constantly racing around in my head and getting them out is healthy. I usually wouldn't write...
    Serenity14 Serenity14 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 28

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    About to be at my first therapy session in a month. Just worked a 16 hour shift, been up for 23 hours and I'm nauseous with anxiety. This can't be over soon enough.
    kavlynn99 kavlynn99 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 31

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    Today I was very distant from my boyfriend. He noticed and asked me what was wrong. I didn't want to say because I knew it would make him mad, that he would just shut me out or say...
    Serenity14 Serenity14 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 4

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    Wish their was more advice for people who have bpd on how to deal with it. So much online about how to deal with someone with bpd but nothing for me. Just want my relationship to...
    awmusic awmusic 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 4

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    Hi guys...thought it would be worth posting this here after telling my story of what a desperate position I am in at the moment. I am praying somebody, anybody has read my previous...
    Daisypie Daisypie 18-21, F Aug 5

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    Im in a bit of a bind right now. After not speaking to my mother for 3 years after I became pregnant I decided to let her back in my life to allow her to be part of this important...
    eusapia eusapia 31-35, F Aug 7

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    Got told today that I don't give the attention that is needed. Blatantly pointed out how I'm hot one second, cold the next. I can see the mood changes now. Can almost feel like a...
    kavlynn99 kavlynn99 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 11

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    Does anybody else deal with intrusive thoughts? And if so how do you manage them? How do you cope, get away from them?
    kavlynn99 kavlynn99 22-25, F 6 Responses a week ago

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    I just want to blend in with the crowd. To not stick out because my anger shows as intense rage. To not get the side eye because I can cry at the change of the wind. To not appear...
    aligain aligain 31-35, F a week ago

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    Its actually quite fascinating when you learn the gears behind BPD. Knowledge is the key. Reset your minds and start again. Learn how to live with BPD now that you are given the...
    TommieLee TommieLee 22-25 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Just got out of my second stint in the hospital. This time my parents said they weren't gonna foot the bill and put me on welfare... Ever since I've been diagnosed with BPD my...
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 3 Responses 5 days ago