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I Am Suffering With Borderline Personality Disorder

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    Caged. Heavy; light; pounding; relaxing;

    broken; glued. This is what goes on inside her head, because this is who she is; a girl diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. She never knows what to expect; never knows when a trigger is going to come, but when it does, it comes in at full swing. Trigger.... Result...
    danielle18 danielle18 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 9

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    Who Am I?

    I am lost in my own mind, have been searching for me my whole life. I look in the mirror and see a person I don't know. She is a very beautiful ugly person is all I know. She has never been touched by a loving hand as she chose a man with no emotions. I have enough for the both...
    mywaves mywaves 46-50, F 1 Response Feb 10, 2013

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    Recent BPD Diagnosis

    I am currently living at home with my parents, struggling through each day of my life. I work at a gynecology office full-time, and I am no longer enrolled in school. I still struggle with eating disorder on a daily basis, but my self-destructive behaviors have morphed into other...
    lindseyymc lindseyymc 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 2, 2013

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    i dont know what to say im worn out

    and all i feel is pain im so depressed that i dont want o socialixw i cant even rember what i did a minute ago im so sick and fricken tired of this sick illness i think my sympmtons are getting worse i cant stop eating i just dont wan to go on anymore not fair its just not fair...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 2 days ago

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    I have borderline personality disorder.

    I was diagnosed in June 2013. I am totally blind. It's like an emotional roller coaster. I struggle with cutting... I have suicidal thoughts when the despair is to much to handle. This is a debilitating disorder.
    angel199221 angel199221 18-21, F 1 Response May 10

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    I suffer with BPD and have been

    for a long time. Since I was 14 I started to feel different, I started to think different....I always wondered why I never had many friends, why I never had a girlfriend...why was I always isolated, sad and depressed, why did I want to always die and though about death...
    ClassicGamer22 ClassicGamer22 22-25, M May 11

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    I just recently found out I had this I knew

    something was wrong with me for quite awhile but I thought i was bipolar come to found out its my emotions i cant cotrol i go from sobbing in tears to pissed off there is no sad and mad it sucks i hate this i no longer have a family cause of this and almost lost my bf aswell...
    Alwaysandforever29 Alwaysandforever29 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    I would like to create an open chat with people

    with the same or similar problem. Anonymity will b highly respected. Ill commence by saying that i suffer from BPD n it is difficult to deal with on daily basis.
    barceloner barceloner 36-40, M Apr 17

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    Ah!

    I get contradicted. Told off. Criticised. Belittled and shouted at. He tells me I can't dress my self properly and that he's embarrassed to be seen with me. He tells me I'm a 'dud' girlfriend, and that I'm not like other females. He says I act like a child and that I suck all the...
    Waitingfornow Waitingfornow 22-25, F Jan 7, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    This is my second post. I really like the idea that I can share what I'm going through with hundreds of others around the world. Anyway I live in Bentonville AR and I hate it here...
    Indigo29 Indigo29 26-30 Jul 3

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    Called the police last night. This day has been coming since 2 weeks after I married this "perfect" man. It started out with him getting "hung up" on little things. The sort of...
    DebC75 DebC75 36-40, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I am married to a man with BPD. I am absolutely exhausted. Is there any hope for a happy marriage or family? Will things ever get better? I am such a fighter and want so badly for...
    mbennett1984 mbennett1984 26-30, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    I used to have a gf who would seek me out, ask me out then dump me like a week later-wash, rinse, repeat. Anyway, I found other signs of her having it besides what I just put above...
    ninathecat ninathecat 31-35 1 Response Jul 9

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    Hello, I was recently diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. I am really freaking out about it. Since I was 18, I thought I had Bipolar disorder and now I am 25 and they...
    LostAriel LostAriel 22-25, F 5 Responses Jul 14

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    I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder a couple of months ago. But no matter how hard I try to change, my life keeps falling apart. Yesterday a friend emailed me...
    14CorCav 14CorCav 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 26

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    After being diagnosed with what seems like everything I was finally diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. It had taken a long time to get my meds right and to find a...
    skatinem13 skatinem13 26-30, F Jul 1

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    hello , I been in a relation with woman has borderline personality disorder .. It ended in the most painful way to me , I can't get over it , she just abandoned me gradually until...
    xthedreamerx xthedreamerx 41-45, M 4 Responses Jul 16

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    What a difference a day makes. Today I got my diagnosis This morning my knowledge about borderline was somewhat limited. I have had friends who had borderline and those were very...
    Fireleaf1991 Fireleaf1991 22-25, F 5 hrs ago

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    My psychiatrist recommended I try a Day Hospital group on his floor. It's a short program, about three weeks long, but I moved to give it a go. I never knew it would end up being...
    NoraDysphoria NoraDysphoria 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 29

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    Learning Tool I am a real learner. I truly believe for a person afflicted with this challenge or a 'non' - learning is the key to improving. Just thought I'd share my most...
    Altruistrick Altruistrick 56-60, M Jun 27

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    Learning Tool I am a real learner. I truly believe for a person afflicted with this challenge or a 'non' - learning is the key to improving. Just thought I'd share my most...
    Altruistrick Altruistrick 56-60, M Jun 27

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    Learning Tool I am a real learner. I truly believe for a person afflicted with this challenge or a 'non' - learning is the key to improving. Just thought I'd share my most...
    Altruistrick Altruistrick 56-60, M 1 Response Jun 27

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    Borderline ruins my life. I'm almost 15 and at least here in Sweden you have to be 18 to get diagnosed with Borderline. But I do have it. I'm sure. They even say I do and I'm...
    paradiseisbroken paradiseisbroken 13-15, F Jul 10

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    The symptoms of this personality disorder are proving true. And it feels like it's out of my control. I'm very grateful and appreciative of the things around me, consciously. But...
    NoraDysphoria NoraDysphoria 18-21, F Jul 14

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    I have been in a relationship with this man for 7 months. It started off as all relationships do. All nice and loving. Now he screams at me , calls me names, and just recently...
    jon0517 jon0517 36-40, F Jul 2

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    Who am I? I am a chameleon. I change, I turn blue or pink depending on what your favorite color is. Deep down, I want you to protect me and I want you to love me. I am a mirror...
    sabrinainstars sabrinainstars 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 3

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    Over time I've realised that BPD has made me a Chameleon. I change my colours depending on who I'm with. I've done this for as long as I can remember. I've realised that I don't do...
    LewisCollins LewisCollins 31-35 3 Responses Jul 7

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    Living with this disorder is not something I am proud of. All my life I have pushed people away because I can not control my emotions. I am absolutely terrified to meet new people...
    ForeverLostPoet ForeverLostPoet 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 7

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    and I have known this for quite a while so I have been studying up on it and mostly they say the only true way to manage this is through counseling this is really not an option for...
    catlady496 catlady496 36 1 Response Jul 13

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    I was first diagnosed with major depression then they went form bipolar to borderline. I've spent 21 day in a mental hospital and this is what they came up with: borederline with a...
    alicegoneinsane alicegoneinsane 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 26

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    I just found out today that one of my best girlfriends also has BPD...and as much as this disorder sucks, I can't help but feel comforted by the fact that we completely understand...
    surroundedbutalone22 surroundedbutalone22 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 26

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    I'm not quite sure whether I have one or not but I have this symptoms: 1. I feel like most of the times I feel nothing unless anger and sadness and hurt. Sometimes I'll laugh but...
    ayamaxx ayamaxx 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 3

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    I saw a Psych (the 4th in the last 4 months) and he said it might be a good idea to put me on mood stabilisers. Which in itself is fine but what bothers me is that I'm already on...
    LewisCollins LewisCollins 31-35 Jul 10

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    I've been completely off this week. My mother (who's my biggest trigger) came into town doing her usual dishonest antics causing constant upset and paranoia that I'll be just like...
    aligain aligain 31-35, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    I wish there was one day a year where mental health disorders didn't exist. Just one.
    ashleamai ashleamai 22-25, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I am an extremely sensitive and jealous person thanks to this disorder. I always try and find a way to talk to friends, or even acquaintances so I can get to know them better and...
    kbeary kbeary 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 27

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    It took me a long time to realize something was wrong with the way I processed stress and handled relationships. Sure I always knew I was more emotional than others, more quick to...
    Sammy7802 Sammy7802 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 29

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    I was officially diagnosed about 8 years ago when I was 21 but of course I've had it for much longer time. Since my childhood I'd always been very moody, capricious, prone to all...
    maajake maajake 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 2

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    I hate this disorder. Yesterday I was supposed to meet my friends for a girls night and an hour before one of the girls text me like she really didn't want to come so I...
    aligain aligain 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 6

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    Ever since this year, i have been very impulsive, obsessive and irritable. In the past i have self-harmed and undergone dissociative disorder and depersonalization at a small scale...
    butterfliesndut butterfliesndut 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 12

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    I'm so far past done it's not funny. I'm done with being treated like a freak. I'm done with trying so hard to control my BPD just have everything thrown back in my face and I'm...
    LewisCollins LewisCollins 31-35 1 Response Jun 25

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    Idk if this is something that's typical of someone with bpd. But There's this guy and I've been seeing him for about 4 months. Things are getting more serious between us and I like...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 5

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    I feel no one understands me with is
    yesiigarciaa yesiigarciaa 18-21, F Jul 10

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    One year anniversary with my boyfriend tomorrow, can't believe he's managed to put up with me for a whole year, hope there's more to come, woo for the longest zip wire in the uk...
    bananananaxo bananananaxo 18-21, F Jul 14

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    Positive traits of those with BPD: 1. Passionate-experience extreme intensity of passion when we find something that interests us 2. Individual-strongly cultivate our individuality...
    kavlynn99 kavlynn99 22-25, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    And if there's anything I've learned in reading here tonight, it's that I'm most definitely not alone. I feel alone. I feel lost. I'm in a haze. But other people are in it with...
    DanicaER DanicaER 36-40, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I was never diagnosed with BPD but I feel I do have it. I have been reading about it and after reading many of your own testimonies I am convinced this is what I have. It's been a...
    Serenity14 Serenity14 26-30, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    And I'm poor. I go to a state funded clinic (thank GOD for its existence), and only pay $5 for each prescription. However, there are considerable draw-backs to the state funded...
    DanicaER DanicaER 36-40, F 2 days ago