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I Am Suffering With Borderline Personality Disorder

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 41 People

    Recent BPD Diagnosis

    I am currently living at home with my parents, struggling through each day of my life. I work at a gynecology office full-time, and I am no longer enrolled in school. I still struggle with eating disorder on a daily basis, but my self-destructive behaviors have morphed into other...
    lindseyymc lindseyymc 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 2, 2013

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    Caged. Heavy; light; pounding; relaxing;

    broken; glued. This is what goes on inside her head, because this is who she is; a girl diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. She never knows what to expect; never knows when a trigger is going to come, but when it does, it comes in at full swing. Trigger.... Result...
    danielle18 danielle18 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 9, 2014

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    Who Am I?

    I am lost in my own mind, have been searching for me my whole life. I look in the mirror and see a person I don't know. She is a very beautiful ugly person is all I know. She has never been touched by a loving hand as she chose a man with no emotions. I have enough for the both...
    mywaves mywaves 46-50, F 1 Response Feb 10, 2013

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    Ah!

    I get contradicted. Told off. Criticised. Belittled and shouted at. He tells me I can't dress my self properly and that he's embarrassed to be seen with me. He tells me I'm a 'dud' girlfriend, and that I'm not like other females. He says I act like a child and that I suck all the...
    Waitingfornow Waitingfornow 22-25, F Jan 7, 2013

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    I suffer with BPD and have been

    for a long time. Since I was 14 I started to feel different, I started to think different....I always wondered why I never had many friends, why I never had a girlfriend...why was I always isolated, sad and depressed, why did I want to always die and though about death...
    ClassicGamer22 ClassicGamer22 22-25, M 1 Response May 11, 2014

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    I have borderline personality disorder.

    I was diagnosed in June 2013. I am totally blind. It's like an emotional roller coaster. I struggle with cutting... I have suicidal thoughts when the despair is to much to handle. This is a debilitating disorder.
    angel199221 angel199221 22-25, F 1 Response May 10, 2014

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    i feel like i dont wan to go on anymore

    everuday im sick and fricken tired of fighting this im not healthy my stupid pshe nurse changed my meds a while back and has left me crying everyday stupid jerk my life is a mess im so fat yet i get up everday is a battle i feel like i dont know what i beliee iwhat is wright or...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F Aug 30, 2014

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    I just recently found out I had this I knew

    something was wrong with me for quite awhile but I thought i was bipolar come to found out its my emotions i cant cotrol i go from sobbing in tears to pissed off there is no sad and mad it sucks i hate this i no longer have a family cause of this and almost lost my bf aswell...
    Alwaysandforever29 Alwaysandforever29 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    needing to vent im feeling

    so fricken angry i wont open up im tired of the pain i cant cry desperate for love i keep looking for a home who knowmaybe i nned attention i feel illi dont know ifi want to go on anymoreim a fat ugly disgusting pig nothing helps whats the point im tired tired i feel nothing i...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F Sep 4, 2014

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    i dont know what to say im worn out

    and all i feel is pain im so depressed that i dont want o socialixw i cant even rember what i did a minute ago im so sick and fricken tired of this sick illness i think my sympmtons are getting worse i cant stop eating i just dont wan to go on anymore not fair its just not fair...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F Jul 23, 2014

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    I would like to create an open chat with people

    with the same or similar problem. Anonymity will b highly respected. Ill commence by saying that i suffer from BPD n it is difficult to deal with on daily basis.
    barceloner barceloner 36-40, M Apr 17, 2014

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    I found this online and wanted to post it To see if it helps anyone "THE DISCOURAGED BORDERLINE – This subcatetory has personality traits similar to the dependent personality...
    cutie7710 cutie7710 36-40, F Feb 9

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    I am married to a Woman with BPD! I'm gonna be dare to be different and say that BPD's are completely misunderstood. I am so blessed and lucky to have my BPD partner even tho it...
    MonsieurA MonsieurA 41-45, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    My husband has BPD and so do I, we both understand each other and have created our own universe of love, chaos, acceptance, unconditional dedication and commitment and passion, we...
    wkoutwifey wkoutwifey 41-45, F 3 hrs ago

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    Could someone please help me. I'm in need of help.. I feel that I may have borderline personality disorder / bipolar disorder but talking with someone that suffers with one of...
    dte21 dte21 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 19

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    This is a newer diagnosis for me, happening sometime during the early winter. It was brought up by a new therapist I was seeing (and stopped seeing for unrelated reasons) and then...
    PerturbedBrain PerturbedBrain 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 5

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    I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder with Borderline Traits. Professionals are reluctant to give a full BPD diagnosis because I'm not a cutter and had been able to hold...
    RayneBeauHill RayneBeauHill 46-50, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    So here is something I figured out. borderlines like me, work on either extreme love or extreme hatred, anger and consequent impulsive behaviors for that. Today I was working and...
    aquabunny aquabunny 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 11

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    You know some days Borderline is not so bad.Today I am ridiculously ,I am not sure why , happy,and I feel like I am a character from The Sound of Music.The sun is beautiful,the...
    aquabunny aquabunny 22-25, F Feb 14

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    So I had these constant heart aches since the morning,and I was looking for cause and cues,and any time when I was actually happy,perfectly happy,and what did I do wrong since then...
    aquabunny aquabunny 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 24

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    I really hate it! I have borderline and DID and my boyfriend dumped me because of it. OF COURSE I know it's hard sometimes but I've been in therapy and everything and it's very...
    Lerione Lerione 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    When I'm in a relationship I feel like the guy has a moral obligation to stay with me. My ex left me and it caused me to be suicidal. He broke my heart with no remorse. There was...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 11

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    I've been in therapy since last October, and last week my therapist tells me that her contract ends in April. We have not made much progress, having only attempted to gain control...
    cgould72 cgould72 41-45, F 3 Responses Feb 14

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    Ii was diagnosed with BPD a while ago.. And i just figured out what it's all about just a few weeks ago.. And it's crazy how i see myself in whatever article i read about it .. So...
    xxooxx1986 xxooxx1986 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 14

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    Let's put it in a poem.Emptiness and Longing for someone gone anyone? Two open papers, To stem down a heartache ebbing, Deeper than my skin,my heart, my soul, Like a blackhole...
    aquabunny aquabunny 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 16

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    Should I stay in my relationship?! I love this guy more than anything and I wanna be with him forever but I can't seem to get over that fact he'll never have a normal relationship...
    bananananaxo bananananaxo 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 16

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    i need to vent im feeling angry and dark i feel like im not as good everyday is woth i feel like its harder to get through the day ialso feel like i need to vent or flip out im so...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 1 Response Feb 17

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    Wonder if anyone with BPD is on Twitter?
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M Feb 18

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    I feel like I'm on a roller coaster, I'm constantly going up and down. I feel confident and raring to go one minute and I'm feeling despair, desperate and empty the next. I hate...
    dte21 dte21 18-21, F Feb 19

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    I haven't posted in a while because I've been dealing with a lot of emotions and depression. My students are what makes me smile each day when I'm feeling so horribly down...
    aligain aligain 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 20

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    Things are perfect on paper.I got enough to be working,doing a bit that I want to,and being able to plan for the future,maybe a masters.I have friends who love me,and people who...
    aquabunny aquabunny 22-25, F Feb 20

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    i need to vent feeling down ive been feeling severly depressed i talked to my a hole brother tonite he startewd councelling wanting to take his anger out on me saying the family...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 1 Response Feb 21

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    i dont care i need to vent i could never say how im feeling to my sick family abused neglected im so angry insid enobody lets me express myself i dont think i treally like my...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F Feb 22

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    If you are never sure when you are euphoric,you are actually happy,or when you are devastated you are actually devastated.Or that people in your life mean that much to you,or...
    aquabunny aquabunny 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 22

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    i just need to vent i feel so lonely i dont know how to cope qwith this illness im tired i dont even know how to live this fricken life everyday is just a fight for survival mood...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 1 Response Feb 24

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    I was recently diagnosed with BPD and I'm struggling to come to terms with it.. By that I mean, it hasn't quite sunk in yet. What do I do? What am I supposed to do? I don't know...
    dte21 dte21 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    When I'm mad I feel like a little chiuhuahua. I hate it when people say I'm cute when I'm seriously angry.
    Minnowshi Minnowshi 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 5

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    Apparently so. It was only in recent months I was told that I have BPD. I was like "Oh, so that's what all that nonsense in my head must be" I honestly thought I was losing it, or...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 5

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    Sweet. 3 manic episodes done this morning and its not even noon.
    Minnowshi Minnowshi 18-21, F Feb 6

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    I'm starting a self-help support group in London for all those (including families and friends) affected by BPD. Please contact me on lisagao at hotmail.co.uk /07886528941if you...
    lg274 lg274 26-30, F Feb 10

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    Why do I still snap... thought I had it under control...
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 2 Responses Feb 11

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    I hate living like this. I ruined everything. I ruined Valentine's day. I was trying so hard to be happy but I let someone make me angry, I let myself ruin it. she almost left...
    TheWickedJester TheWickedJester 26-30, M 1 Response Feb 15

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    Why do I find the worst people in the world and get close to them? My "best friend" beat me up and choked me just cause she was under the influence of alcohol...and I'm not...
    betelgeusex3 betelgeusex3 22-25, F 1 Response