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I Am Suicidal

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 824 People

    Goo Goo Dolls -Iris the song takes me back,

    back to the day I finally had enough the sunday I finally said **** it that day was going to be my last day on earth whether I would be going to heaven or hell it wouldn't matter I just wouldn't be 'here' school was school I was still being bullied treated like I was crap even my...
    00Broken00 00Broken00 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I want to do it as soon

    as possible but the only thing that holds me back is failing the attempt....
    claryx claryx 18-21, F 6 Responses May 5

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    I originally posted this

    as a blog entry, but I want to get it out to as many people as I can. : Hello all! I am currently double-majoring in psychology and social work in college. I would like to help people through the hardest of hard times. My interest in psychology particularly is rooted in my own...
    throughthewindow throughthewindow 18-21, F 1 Response May 5

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    lukeskywalker89 lukeskywalker89 22-25, M 1 Response May 14

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    Connie24 Connie24 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 3, 2014

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    I have mental problems

    that can't be solved with medicine sometimes I feel like I'm litter ally torturing myself and shredding my mind against itself haven't done it yet but maybe the next time I'll mercy kill...
    lostfoundations lostfoundations 18-21, M 4 days ago

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    When I was a child, I used to think about

    suicide. I was very young even. I used to fantasize about ceasing to exist and how nice that would be. I used to wish I'd never been born because that way at least no one would miss me (I wouldn't be hurting anyone by my actions of killing myself). Children are more than capable...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived 22-25, F 6 Responses Jan 22

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    I can't speak for anyone

    but myself but most times when I have thoughts of suicide I just want someone to reach out and vent to I just want someone to catch me when I'm falling. I guess at times all I do want is saving. But then there are times when suicide consumes me and I do get to the point where I...
    blasianalien blasianalien 22-25, F 2 Responses May 8

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    I feel like I've been set up to fail.

    I feel like maybe I could save myself a lot of pain. This world is going to **** and I can't escape it. There is this gentle hum in me that tells me there is a way out beneath my skin. I just want to pull the covers all around me and die here in this studio apartment tonight.
    thereisnothinghere thereisnothinghere 22-25, M May 14

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    I am very suicidal life is not worth living

    and when I finally kill myself my spirit will stay earthbound so I can make people feel the pain I feel. I love blades because I love to cut myself and watch the blood flow from my arm sometimes I carve my skin.
    SuicidalDemon5 SuicidalDemon5 26-30, M 1 Response May 12

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    Been suicidal for a number of years

    now & the feeling of death never escapes me
    blasianalien blasianalien 22-25, F 2 Responses May 10

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    All I've ever wanted is to die.

    Anyone want to do a suicide pact? It would be nice not to die alone.
    alexacrow alexacrow 18-21, F 4 Responses May 7

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    Time makes me think about death its a stone

    throw away the afterlife kinda exits me the unknown the uncertainty screw everything els screw the people who never believed in me. I just want to stop this pain.
    00Broken00 00Broken00 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    i fantasize about how i am going to kill myself.

    i go into every detail. i crave the feeling of excitement when i think about it. of course, i can't go through with it. i think of my younger siblings when i feel as if i will act on it. i don't want to put them through the pain of having lost someone close to them. but i want...
    emmers95 emmers95 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 28, 2014

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    I just don't want to live anymore.

    It's all too much. Anxiety, depression, PTSD, loneliness, stress... It's just all too much!
    bluecupcakes bluecupcakes 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 5, 2014

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    For Too Long.

    On March 31, 2004, I went to sleep feeling perfectly fine. On April 1, I woke up wanting to die. I was thirteen. Four years later, the feeling hasn't gone away. I'm afraid that one of these days, I'll forget what I have to live for. One can only take such intense sadness for...
    SheistheLorax SheistheLorax 18-21, F 13 Responses Jan 4, 2008

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    PrincessAlora97 PrincessAlora97 18-21, F 1 Response May 14

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    Chesher Chesher 18-21, M 3 Responses Feb 20

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    I can't Even remember the days

    where i didn't want to commit suicide.
    AttitudeJulie AttitudeJulie 18-21, F 1 hr ago

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    life is a prison...a life sentence.

    ...i just want to be free. ..
    bloodRedd bloodRedd 26-30, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Everyday it's a huge weight to just live.

    People say to reach out but I cause them worry and become a burden. I've not yet found the courage to end my life but I wish I would. Everyday hurts, everyday I cry so much about how I was made this messed up.
    mytrueself113 mytrueself113 31-35, F 4 Responses Apr 4

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    THIS IS YOUR DAILY REMINDER THAT YOU ARE

    AMAZING AND CAN PULL THROUGH. YOU ARE STRONG. KEEP PUSHING ON
    brownhairedgirl13 brownhairedgirl13 18-21, F Feb 23

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    meh dont want to type a enormous story.

    when I found out about how my dad died It really didnt bother me.. I thought about it for a few more years and well... like father like son
    FabledCity FabledCity 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 12

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    I'm 35...2 divorces, infertile,

    hormone imbalance which means I grow unsightly hair, lost a job I loved, lost my apt, I'm an addict of any kind especially any drugs, my parents live in 2 different states, I never see my brothers, I have a dead end job where I put up with sexual harrassment, I have an obsolete...
    SuicideDreams SuicideDreams 36-40, F 2 Responses Sep 19, 2014

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    I am extremely suicidal suicide is something

    that never leaves my mind it's always there. I just fight it daily.😔
    blasianalien blasianalien 22-25, F 1 Response May 8

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    i feel like i really need to kill myself.

    i can't keep going on with this ****** up life. i don't want to kill myself but i feel like i need to. i don't know what to do.
    Degrassi94 Degrassi94 18-21, F 1 Response May 6

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    If I dropped dead right

    now -it would be a blessing I am an insignificance in this world a disappointment to everyone around me.
    00Broken00 00Broken00 18-21, F 1 Response May 7

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    I am suicidal. I don't know what to do,

    I have no one to help me and no one knows.
    secretidentity125 secretidentity125 18-21, F 6 Responses Feb 17

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    **** it I tried but now I'm just done I don't

    feel **** any more I've got my gun and I left a letter for who ever finds my bodie e good bye
    darkness0919 darkness0919 18-21, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Losing Myself

    I have been dead for years already. I've killed myself hundreds of times in my head. I'm not courageous enough to actually do it; I wish I really was. My family thinks I'm the worst daughter/sister. They say what about the one's you've left behind? They will hurt and this will...
    link1309 link1309 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 31, 2013

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    I never thought of myself

    as suicidal, but I read a little bit about suicidal thoughts and discovered that a lot of people who survive suicide attempts say that its not so much that they want to die as it is that they dont want to live. THIS is what I relate to. I have friends, I think I am passively...
    xoxomaya93 xoxomaya93 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 24

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    Have been for the past 5-6 years.

    It's so hard waking up every morning wishing you hadn't. The depression makes it even worse. Then later came anxiety. There have been times where I thought there was an earthquake going on, but I was just shaking so bad. I truly hate my life. I want to believe it will get better...
    gummball gummball 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 25

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    Depression Is Killing Me

    Depression is a horrible thing. It's a killer. It can make you completely lose your mind. It can make you hate the world. Hate yourself. Hate others. Hate those who care and those who don't. It ruins all the good things. Makes them almost non egzistant. All you see when you look...
    thequeenofpain thequeenofpain 16-17, F 6 Responses May 30, 2012

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    ...

    It's not that I want to die... I just don't see a point in living anymore. I'm sure that such a statement sounds at least somewhat unappreciative, seeing as how I am a single white female living in the suburbs of the US. From an outside perspective, my situation probably seems...
    OblitusAuri OblitusAuri 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 30, 2011

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    I've lost count how long it's been

    since I've had a friend in real life. 8 or 9 nine years now. The people I've gotten to know just haven't been the greatest people to get associated with, people who party nightly, drug deal, drink everyday, actively seek casual sex whenever possible. Those things ruled their...
    lon3lygam3r lon3lygam3r 26-30, M May 9

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    I need someone to message me,

    before I go end my life. Bye.
    sylas96 sylas96 18-21, M 2 Responses May 6

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    PrincessAlora97 PrincessAlora97 18-21, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    Reset Button?

    You know, I always thought that if I ever contemplated suicide that I would be in a state where I would be paralyzed with depression. But now that I am thinking about it that just isn't the case. I guess I'm kind of down, I've definitely felt better before. But I'm not drowning...
    sensesfail sensesfail 22-25, M 5 Responses Apr 24, 2011

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    The most fascinating aspect of my own suicidal

    tendencies is not the reasons that I wish to die, nor is it the amount of 'pain' I feel or how I 'struggle' against my thoughts. In reality, I've found myself fascinated with the fact I am suicidal at all. I will spare you the minor details, but essentially I should be pretty...
    WikaloFwoosh WikaloFwoosh 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 19

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    My suicidal thoughts were

    so bad last night tho. My parents had taken away my phone, so I couldnt talk to anyone. It's frightening when you're locked in the bathroom, sobbing, trying to convince yourself that life is worth living. A year ago, I never knew I would be here. I'm scared.
    sassycastiel sassycastiel 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    for people that just dont understand put

    yourself in the other persons shoe... when ecerything goes wrong and you feel like thats your only way out........You practice tying your knots, sitting in a chair in your basement. Today is Tuesday, and you don't really have anything planned tomorrow. You've already eaten...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Feb 17

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    Free body parts! Free lungs,

    heart, liver, kidneys, skin, whatever you want! I have a recurring dream. I walk into the hospital with this sign and kill myself in reception. Why can't I just do this. Why do I have to be here if I don't want to and others do. People who need and love life should benefit from...
    brokenandlost brokenandlost 41-45, F 6 Responses Feb 21

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    We're just suicidal kids telling other suicidal

    kids that suicide is not the answer, but maybe for some of us, it is the answer.
    nathanieljlaw nathanieljlaw 18-21, M 4 Responses Apr 1

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    00Broken00 00Broken00 18-21, F May 10

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    I used to be kinda oky.

    I used to smile joke around and try to be the fun girl despite my life. Until I started to remember I started pushing people away loosing friends and my mind I cut myself sometimes it numbs the pain I said sometimes. Between my flashbacks and dreams and my body -its a loosing...
    00Broken00 00Broken00 18-21, F 13 mins ago

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    it's like, I'm thinking about it.

    A lot. but I won't do it. ugh!
    GodsArte GodsArte 18-21, F 4 days ago

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