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I Am Suicidal

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 646 People

    I’m depressed, lonely,

    and suicidal. I just had to break things off with a man I was crazy about because he said he’s not ready for a relationship. He was worse than a typical ******* who only wants a friend with benefits. He was the “nice guy” who wanted a girlfriend for free. He wanted and...
    queenbeeaj queenbeeaj 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 2

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    Anastas17 Anastas17 18-21, T 3 Responses Jul 27

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    I am more suicidal than I have ever been.

    I am in my deepest depression. The only reason I am here is that I have not found a way that is guaranteed to kill me. I cannot fail suicide once again.
    SomewhereTomorrow SomewhereTomorrow 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 16

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    I don't belong to a world full of life I don't

    belong in a world where people breathe I am not worthy of breathing If i'm not worthy of being here the place where people live Black and silence A place which is full with nothingness That's where i belong in a world full of nothing Only one way to get there That peaceful...
    Banabear Banabear 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 21

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    Dilemma

    I have wanted to go through with my plan for the past fews days, but then I have thought about how my family and the guy who I love (We're only friends at the moment even though we love each other. It's complicated.) would react. My suicide would crush them. What can I do with...
    SomewhereTomorrow SomewhereTomorrow 18-21, F 6 Responses Feb 25, 2011

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    Suicide

    I have attempted suicide several times, sadly I am still here. People dont understand how much I hate this life. I cant see the point why any human being is on this earth . Its a nightmare. my motto is YOU are born   YOU die and inbetween is MISERY. I wont be happy...
    angel7 angel7 41-45 2 Responses Mar 2, 2008

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    I just don't want to live anymore.

    It's all too much. Anxiety, depression, PTSD, loneliness, stress... It's just all too much!
    bluecupcakes bluecupcakes 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 5

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    The Mirror

    I'm supposed to be dead. Am I dead? But I'm still breathing now. What happened? I thought I had already slit my wrist that night. I'm sure that I've been gone for seconds. But why am I lying on this hospital bed right now? Do I want to live? There, my boyfriend came through...
    hellsdevil hellsdevil 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 15, 2009

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    I was going to kill myself tonight

    but now I'm not sure about it. Don't get me wrong, I want to die, but I don't know if tonight's the right time to do it.
    Degrassi94 Degrassi94 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 4

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    Depression Is Killing Me

    Depression is a horrible thing. It's a killer. It can make you completely lose your mind. It can make you hate the world. Hate yourself. Hate others. Hate those who care and those who don't. It ruins all the good things. Makes them almost non egzistant. All you see when you look...
    thequeenofpain thequeenofpain 16-17, F 6 Responses May 30, 2012

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    Almost Time To Leave.

    My birthday is in January which means my time is almost up. Seems fitting to leave on the day you were born. Course only one person who actually knows me personally knows and that was because we had an argument and I snapped and said it. But I think they doubt it because they...
    NonExistX NonExistX 31-35, M 4 Responses Sep 27, 2012

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    i have been suicidal

    for a while now.....idk what to do, i have tried to drown myself but couldn't out of guilt for my little brother and sisters who wouldn't have me anymore....but i know i will again. my family call me useless and nothing, i have lost friends and there are only a few people in...
    MrsSammyBearr MrsSammyBearr 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 4

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    ...

    i been having suicidal problems since i was younger because i been through so much, and i was mostly alone and never share things about my problems with anyone, always moved around from places/schools so much never really had close friends. i didnt grow up with my mom for a while...
    ladyluck492 ladyluck492 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 16, 2010

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    Hardyblue Hardyblue 31-35, M 1 Response Jul 28

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    For Too Long.

    On March 31, 2004, I went to sleep feeling perfectly fine. On April 1, I woke up wanting to die. I was thirteen. Four years later, the feeling hasn't gone away. I'm afraid that one of these days, I'll forget what I have to live for. One can only take such intense sadness for...
    SheistheLorax SheistheLorax 18-21, F 13 Responses Jan 4, 2008

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    I've picked my date..

    I'm ready to end the pain. Once and for all! I'm really ready this time.. No backing out, being guilted, or stopped. I'm not changing my mind! My time in this awed up world is almost up, the hour glass is almost empty.
    dee283 dee283 18-21, F 11 hrs ago

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    at weak points i just want to give up

    and go tie a noose, but at high points i criticize myself for being so silly and thinking of suicide. i hate living like this. i hate my parents, and there's really no other way out. i am so drained from trying to help myself.
    xenababy7 xenababy7 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 31

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    Save me from myself..

    I am so tired, I can't handle living inside my head anymore...
    arielmadelen arielmadelen 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 29

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    Coming Alive After 25 Years Of Darkness

    I suffered from severe depression for more than 25 years. I first threatened suicide when I was, maybe, 7 or 8. I made my first, really serious suicide attempt at 13. For many years, the only thing I really wanted in the world was to be dead. People who don't suffer from...
    mistercrayon mistercrayon 36-40 1 Response Aug 2, 2013

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    I Want to Die.

    No one understands..I just want so badly to be dead.
    ticktickboom ticktickboom 16-18, F 4 Responses Dec 13, 2007

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    ...

    It's not that I want to die... I just don't see a point in living anymore. I'm sure that such a statement sounds at least somewhat unappreciative, seeing as how I am a single white female living in the suburbs of the US. From an outside perspective, my situation probably seems...
    OblitusAuri OblitusAuri 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 30, 2011

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    i fantasize about how i am going to kill myself.

    i go into every detail. i crave the feeling of excitement when i think about it. of course, i can't go through with it. i think of my younger siblings when i feel as if i will act on it. i don't want to put them through the pain of having lost someone close to them. but i want...
    emmers95 emmers95 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 28

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    Connie24 Connie24 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 3

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    This is the ending of a story I wrote

    for one of my classes. The beginning was happy with no signs of this comming. Misty arrived home later from a wonderful night out with her friends. She loved to hang out with her friends, because she always felt so alive; they alway had so much fun together. Misty felt...
    KimTin33 KimTin33 22-25, F Jun 20

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    I struggle with depression daily.

    I haven't told anyone about my feelings. I haven't shared about feelings with my support group or even written it down in my journal, because I was afraid to face it. I didn't want anyone else to know. My husband & I are struggling financially. We're nearly 50k in debt, not to...
    AdoreWyoming AdoreWyoming 31-35, F Aug 8

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    bla im just so tired of life no one in my

    family can relate to what i go through in my head my dad is just happy all the time or not happy i wouldnt know cause its the same mood all the time i dont think he knows what being depressed or lonely means hes like a robot my moms a social butterfly my brothers dont suffer...
    briinthezone86 briinthezone86 26-30, M 1 Response May 25

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    Why Do So Many People Want to Kill Themselves?????????????????????????????????????????????

    I wrote this for a 16yr old on this sit but I thing I need to share it with every one! Why would you want to do that? There are some many people out there that love you and would be very hurt if you did. Suicide is one of the most selfish things anyone can do. Your young and...
    nb0898 nb0898 26-30, M 18 Responses Dec 24, 2007

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    I've decided that I'm going to kill myself

    as soon as my daughter gets back to her loving father. I am in a horrible position in life and I can no longer take it. My daughter will be better off without me. My fiancé will be better off without me, everyone will be happy. I have been struggling for so long, so many...
    alliemamabear alliemamabear 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 29

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    KimTin33 KimTin33 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 27

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    No matter how much counseling

    or support I get, the feelings never go away. They just come back stronger every time. I lost all my friends and family besides my boyfriend and every day he is driven further away by my loneliness and fear. I've moved between 3 countries in 1 year and every week and month I...
    asphodelwild asphodelwild 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 18

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    Why I'm Not Dead

    The only reason i'm not  dead yet.there are still people who love me.i could die , but that would just take all my pain and put in on my loved ones.i can't do that.they already have there own pain!how can i knowingly give them mine  just so i can be free?so i'm alive.and will...
    jillianlarson2011 jillianlarson2011 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 25, 2012

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    YOU KNOW WHAT IM GOING TO KILL MYSELF ITS TOO

    MUCH. ALL THE PEOPLE IN THIS SITE THAT "CLAIM" THEY HAVE DEPRESSION DONT KNOW WHAT DEPRESSION IS. THEY DONT KNOW HOW IT FEELS TO HAVE BEEN TAUGHT TO HATE YOURSELF AND HOW IT FEELS TO HAVE THE WORST LIFE IN THE WORLD. SO IM SUPPOSE TO FEEL GUILTY FOR BEING DEPRESSED AND HATING...
    msworstlife msworstlife 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 10

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    To BE Or Not To BE

    My life is shattered and suicidal thoughts are now a part of my daily routine, like taking a shower. I’m trapped in a life that has no meaning. I just took tequila shots (at 9am) bc waking up, now, isn’t pleasant – so I’m typing this under the influence. I’m used to...
    ActionMax ActionMax 26-30, M 4 Responses May 9, 2013

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    Havent eaten all day,

    im so ugly and fat and all i can think about is dying:)
    arielmadelen arielmadelen 22-25, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Reset Button?

    You know, I always thought that if I ever contemplated suicide that I would be in a state where I would be paralyzed with depression. But now that I am thinking about it that just isn't the case. I guess I'm kind of down, I've definitely felt better before. But I'm not drowning...
    sensesfail sensesfail 22-25, M 5 Responses Apr 24, 2011

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    I just can't get past these thoughts today.

    I'm with my best friend, and I want to tell her, but we are also with her sister and cousin. I just feel so alone.
    UnlimitedFraya UnlimitedFraya 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 1

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    I've been suicidal off

    and on for as long as I can remember. But now it's not the depression that makes me want to do it. It's the inconsistent thoughts. It feels like nothing is real because I change my mind and feelings so much. The most amazing boy I've ever met just broke up with me after a year...
    dmbpal dmbpal 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 10

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    Losing Myself

    I have been dead for years already. I've killed myself hundreds of times in my head. I'm not courageous enough to actually do it; I wish I really was. My family thinks I'm the worst daughter/sister. They say what about the one's you've left behind? They will hurt and this will...
    link1309 link1309 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 31, 2013

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    I feel sad often. I just feel like I can't do

    anything right and the world turns black and white. It ruins my family and friend relationships. I think about suicide a lot, but later feel normal. Sometimes the darkness lasts days. I have depression and have not found another family member with it, but then again, I'm afraid...
    scarlettjayne scarlettjayne 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 19

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    I selfharmed again, im going to psyk in not

    so long.. I'm on the edge. Help me please
    arielmadelen arielmadelen 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 10

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    I Believe It Is Time For Me To Leave This Group

    My thoghts don't go further than suicide ideation, now.  I'm medicated.  I have an owner.  I have my physical health.  I have a steady job.  The war is fought inside my mind and no longer combined with life events.  I am wishing that everyone here...
    MeisterWolf MeisterWolf 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 13, 2010

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    And I don't know how to stop the thoughts.

    They're taking over my life. I'm beginning to think that people may opt for suicide as a logical means of escaping these horrible thoughts and dreams. I sure want to...
    niceusername niceusername 22-25, F 1 Response May 27

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    I hate that everyone is always using me

    and then they want me to be friends while they stab me in the back. They always help me up just so it hurts to slam me on the street. So why am I still alive because people always give me empty promises and break me.
    Unknown1047 Unknown1047 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 16

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    I have been feeling very hopeless,

    and miserable. I usually have a deep seeded pain, but nothing I haven't been able to manage. I am a very strong person, and have been through things that people couldn't even imagine. I have never struggled to keep it together as much as I have been recently. I just got married...
    Thinkofme Thinkofme 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 5

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    I have made multiple attempts to kill myself,

    no-one will care when i'm gone, i don't know whether i'm just bad at killing myself, or i'm secretely too scared to do it.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 4

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    Please Answer!!!

    What stops you from killing yourself?What has helped you hang onto life?Thanks x
    JustKeepFighting JustKeepFighting 18-21, M 7 Responses Jan 29, 2012

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    I'm done with my crap **** life.

    Planning on suicide.
    Kel98 Kel98 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 2

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    Done

    No fancy words or deep explanations just I am suicidal I dont have the energy to explain.I cant go on like this....
    Blind Blind 36-40, F 7 Responses Aug 10, 2007

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    I'm 35...2 divorces, infertile,

    hormone imbalance which means I grow unsightly hair, lost a job I loved, lost my apt, I'm an addict of any kind especially any drugs, my parents live in 2 different states, I never see my brothers, I have a dead end job where I put up with sexual harrassment, I have an obsolete...
    SuicideDreams SuicideDreams 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 19

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    Armyhopeful Armyhopeful 16-17, M Nov 24

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